Lord, I confess I want the clarity of catastrophe but not the catastrophe.
Like everyone else, I want a storm I can dance in.
I want an excuse to change my life.
— Franny Choi, from "Catastrophe Is Next to Godliness," The World Keeps Ending, and the World Goes On
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Catastrophe Is Next to Godliness - Franny Choi - USA
Lord, I confess I want the clarity of catastrophe but not the catastrophe.
Like everyone else, I want a storm I can dance in.
I want an excuse to change my life.
The day A. died, the sun was brighter than any sun.
I answered the phone, and a channel opened
between my stupid head and heaven, or what was left of it. The blankness
stared back; and I made sound after sound with my blood-wet gullet.
O unsayable—O tender and divine unsayable, I knew you then:
you line straight to the planet’s calamitous core; you moment moment moment;
you intimate abyss I called sister for a good reason.
When the Bad Thing happened, I saw every blade.
And every year I find out what they’ve done to us, I shed another skin.
I get closer to open air; true north.
Lord, if I say Bless the cold water you throw on my face,
does that make me a costume party. Am I greedy for comfort
if I ask you not to kill my friends; if I beg you to press
your heel against my throat—not enough to ruin me,
but just so—just so I can almost see your face—
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brain empty 24/7 it's just an empty walnut shell with "am i greedy for comfort if i ask you not to kill my friends; if i beg you to press your heel against my throat—not enough to ruin me, but just so—just so i can see your face—" knocking around in a perpetual echo
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HAPPY I WANT AN EXCUSE TO CHANGE MY LIFE SATURDAY GIVE IT UP FOR I WANT AN EXCUSE TO CHANGE MY LIFE SATURDAY
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“I want a storm I can dance in. I want an excuse to change my life.”
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Franny Choi, from “Catastrophe is Next to Godliness”
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i want the clarity of catastrophe but not the catastrophe i want an excuse to change my life i want the clarity of catastrophe but not the catastrophe i want an excuse to change my life i want the clarity of catastrophe but not the catastrophe i want an excuse to change my life i want the clarity of catastrophe but not the catastrophe i want an excuse to change my life i want the cla
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April 9, 2024: Physical Therapy, Franny Choi
Physical Therapy
Franny Choi
Ask, first, what your smallest
body parts require to sing again:
coconut oil for your hair’s
dry ends, camphor for the
earlobes, rosehip kneaded into
fingertips with fingertips.
Grapeseed will feed most
hungers of the skin. But
if even your bones cry
January, dip your sharpest
knife in a jar of raw honey.
Lather it on your thighs,
making circles, making certain
not to confuse this ache for that
other, the one that keeps
pulling you to the earth, the one
question you still can’t say out loud.
Recite instead the names of trees:
sumac, sweet birch, slippery elm.
Take your palm to the wild place
under your chin and count:
vein, artery, chokecherry,
weeping willow, until your
xacto knife pulse slows, holds. Let
your mouth fill with gold, almonds,
zinneas. Then: soften.
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In an abecedarian poem, each line begins with successive letters of the alphabet.
Also:
+ VI. Wisdom: The Voice of God, Mary Karr
+ Frida Kahlo to Marty McConnell, Marty McConnell
+ Heartbeats, Melvin Dixon
More by Franny Choi:
+ Catastrophe Is Next to Godliness
+ The World Keeps Ending, and the World Goes On
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2023: Come Quickly, Izumi Shikibu
2022: Heretic That I Am, Tomás Q. Morín
2021: The World Has Need of You, Ellen Bass
2020: Annus Mirabilis, R. A. Villanueva
2019: This Page Ripped Out and Rolled into a Ball, Brendan Constantine
2018: Winter Stars, Larry Levis
2017: In That Other Fantasy Where We Live Forever, Wanda Coleman
2016: The cat’s song, Marge Piercy
2015: The Embrace, Mark Doty
2014: No. 6, Charles Bukowski
2013: A Schoolroom in Haiti, Kenneth Koch
2012: Track 5: Summertime, Jericho Brown
2011: Death, Is All, Ana Božičević
2010: Heaven, William Heyen
2009: April in Maine, May Sarton
2008: Making Love to Myself, James L. White
2007: Publication Date, Franz Wright
2006: Living in the Body, Joyce Sutphen
2005: Aberration (The Hubble Space Telescope before repair), Rebecca Elson
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Lord,
if I say, Bless the cold water you throw on my face,
does that make me a costume party. Am I greedy for comfort
if I ask you not to kill my friends—if I beg you to press your heel
against my throat—please, not enough to ruin me,
but just so—just so I can almost see your face—
— Franny Choi, from "Catastrophe Is Next to Godliness," The World Keeps Ending, and the World Goes On
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desire and doom and american animals
the worm king's lullaby, richard siken // the torn-up road, richard siken // the book of questions, edmond jabès (tr. rosemarie waldrop) // american animals dir. bart layton // the blind assassin, margaret atwood // catastrophe is next to godliness, franny choi // birds of america, john james audubon // olivia, dorothy strachey // lucifer at the starlite, kim addonizio // lake mungo dir. joel anderson // h of h playbook, anne carson // anecdote of the pig, tory adkisson // dog woman, chris abani // entry for not an island, gabriel jesiolowski // snow and dirty rain, richard siken // @/gaycommunist // the unabridged journal of sylvia plath, sylvia plath // wolf in white van, john darnielle // i'm thinking of ending things, dir. charlie kaufman // blud, rachel mckibbens // concerning the book that is the body of the beloved, gregory orr // rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead, tom stoppard // the gods show up, michael kinnucan // haunted house, sir babygirl // revolver, zach villa // the oersteia, aeschylus
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screenshots of despair / take me to war - crane wives / @/scarhaver / how to maintain eye contact, robert wood lynn / no children genius page / screenshots of despair / screenshots of despair
emma, jane austen / the world is ugly - my chemical romance / have to explode - the mountain goats / converse county - raccoon tour
screenshots of despair / screenshots of despair / catastrophe is next to godliness, franny choi / hate one an otter - newgrounds death rugby / my mom - kimya dawson / @/ell-hs / bad bad things - ajj / the priest - soltero / kiss of the spider woman, manuel puig
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