if you have strong mutable (gemini, sagittarius, pisces, virgo) placements then you NEED to write things down if you don't already. all those thoughts that constantly swirl in your head: the frequent tasks, goals, feelings, aspirations, opinions, etc - WRITE THEM DOWN. this is not only therapeutic & stress-relieving for you but almost necessary, or you're going to burn out and overload your own mind constantly.

when you bottle, or when you let plans, goals, dreams, to-do lists, projects, etc live solely in your head - you'll notice you can't sleep as well, it's harder to rest, your memory gets more foggy than usual, you feel burnt out and unable to connect, etc. specifically:

write down your feelings. this will be your ultimate (free) therapy. start to journal, write a diary. make a private twitter/tumblr where you spill your feelings, frustrations, thoughts. you will feel an immense sense of relief by writing or typing your feelings out - even if no one is reading it but you. mutable moons especially. our feelings tend to change rapidly, but it doesn't make them less valid. don't bottle out of the fear your feelings will change/you'll just "get over it"!! write it down and let it out!!

write! to-do! lists!!!!! these don't have to be for important things. you want to learn digital art? you want to study coding? you want to learn french? you want to re-decorate? you probably have a billion things you want to do, and then you get overwhelmed by the options, and do nothing. write down all the things you want to do. make a to-do list for these things. get them out of your head and somewhere permanent/physical. looking at the options in front of you will feel much easier.

make excel project trackers (you can even make these for to-do list items/goals/etc)! mutable placements have a tendency to start a lot of projects or tasks, and never finish any of them. make a simple tracker for all the projects you start. you won't forget what you're working on, and you'll be less overwhelmed trying to remember what you have going on (example of the one i always use pictured below)

talking out your thoughts and feelings is also very cathartic. make fake (or real, i support u!) youtube vlogs where you spill your feelings and talk about your plans, your day, what you have to do, etc. talk to someone you love and trust, vent to them about how things are; or about what you're getting up to. i find writing has an edge, because you can go back to it for reference (mutables tend to forget things easily) - but as long as you're getting the swirl of your mind somewhere outside of your head, you'll feel so, so much less stressed.

mutable dominants tend to constantly live in go-mode, we're restless and always doing something. we feel uncomfortable and sometimes guilty about staying still. our minds don't ever shut off. it's very important for mutable placements to learn how to rest, be present in the moment, and learn grounding. this can be done in many ways, but i've found personally that writing works best for me. other helpful practices can be: talk therapy, acceptance theory, yoga, meditation, hiking, camping, etc.

i also want to remind mutable signs: we change a lot. we have a lot of ideas. there's so much we want to do. we often feel like we have no path, no big goal; we can struggle with purpose as we don't often aspire for permanent things or "one big goal". this is NOT bad. there is nothing wrong with changing your feelings, your mind, your goals, your life path. you CAN do all the things you want to do! you have your entire life ahead of you! yes, you can learn all those languages. yes, you can have three different careers in your life. yes yes yes! don't listen to negativity from others. don't beat yourself up for not having one big goal like some people around you might. cherish and embrace all the things you want to achieve and complete (both big and small). learn to follow-through with and finish the things that matter to you (writing things down will really help with this, make action plans/steps - break everything down into smaller pieces). take the time to slow down and enjoy the moments as they come. you got this!

UHHHHH no anon but uh.....your art cool..i just wanted to say that lol- LIKE I REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY LOVE YA ART it makes me happy and your style is like...so cute! your style is pretty sweet and i like the au your doing (i am currently looking through all the stuff ya doin' lol) your really cool and your art cool and i hope you know u inspire me alot/gen! i hope ya have a good day and stuff ^^

AHHHH!!! Thank you SO MUCH for taking the time to tell me this omg!! So much love in my ask box, I'm so grateful for it!!

It means a lot to hear that you like my art style too! I spent so much of my life being dissatisfied with my style and thinking it was nothing special- but boy have I changed my mind and embraced what I can do :) I'm eager to keep improving and developing it further!

Shucks, being called cool just makes me feel so warm inside heehee! I'm just out here doing my best to enjoy myself and share some of those feelings with others on here! It genuinely means the world to be able to inspire even just one person. Thank you again, truly. Keep creating what you love!! <3

Oh my goodness, that's incredible! Wow, THANK YOU! What an honor to even be able to help with a tiny part of your creative process. That character didn't exist before you brought them to life!! Isn't that just so cool? Feels like a superpower to me!

Don't feel bad about not wanting to share something! It's totally valid to have some creations to keep for yourself. I find that sometimes making things quietly to myself takes some of the pressure off and can still be very fun. And if you ever change your mind and decide to share, that's okay too! I bet there's someone out there who will love your drawings and ideas very very much. :)

UWAHH thank you for saying that!! AHH I feel so much love and kindness!!

Honestly, it's pretty wild to me how much better and more confident I've gotten in my art even in the past year or so of making this comic. I look back at some of those first pages every now and then and marvel at the different ways I've evolved since then, hahaha.

I never would've imagined myself being able to commit to a project this big before. I guess I just kind of reached the mindset of, it's okay if I don't know how to draw everything. If something looks wonky, at least I gave it a try instead of giving up before I attempt it like I've done before. This can be a learning experience for me too! And I'm so glad I'm committed to it :D Turns out getting out of your comfort zone is a very good way to improve!

Thank you! Life in general is just all right haha. But I am definitely very happy to have a little corner of the internet here with kind people to share stories and art with <3

On twitter sometime ago you described your writing habits as something similar to my own (slow, tedious, perfectionist, compulsive, agonizing over getting the words perfect instead of editing later, etc) And you also wrote a lot of dope things like Galactic 2E and Venture that are I hope you dont mind me saying, deeply inspirational. So coming from someone who hasnt Gotten There yet I have to ask, how do you get yourself to get up and just write the damn thing already?

omg thank u so much, that means more than i can possibly say. i wish i had a better set of advice but honestly so much of my creative work is vibes and hyperfixation based, and every time i finish something i look back on it like “how the fuck did i do that”, but here are the things that work for me. they are very much based on my own particular adhd and writing hangups so ur mileage will definitely vary.

start small: i didn’t start writing ttrpgs with big projects like venture & g2e. i started with a 200 word game, then some one-pagers, then kept growing from there. @jdragsky has talked a lot about the importance of building the skill of finishing things, and small projects are a really good way of doing that. hell, even g2e only exists bc i started with the smaller project of galactic, then went back to it a year later to build on it again.

share as u go: when i started working on bigger games, and this year as i’ve been working on longer fics, friends to share screenshots of my wip have been invaluable. that way i can get the immediate validation of someone reading my thing and giving feedback without feeling like i need to Publish it yet. biggest shoutout in the world to my friends who tolerate my writing nonsense.

write in chunks: this is kind of the combination of those first two points. bob games are big piles of little lists. i tend to write fic in short, impactful scenes. i have a wip that’s an sbr game, which is a big pile of little advances. that way, i am constantly getting that feeling of accomplishment when i write something. i can agonize over word choice and vibes and editing but then i actually get to a stopping point, where i like that little bit enough to move on to the next one. it seems crazy looking back that i wrote 36 places & 36 traits for g2e, but i didn’t just sit down and knock them all out. i wrote a few, sent them to some friends, then i wrote a few more. u know?

don’t force it: sometimes, the vibe just isn’t there. sometimes, u spend a year doing barely any writing or game design bc there’s a pandemic and ur brain doesn’t work anymore. etc. i’ve thought a lot the past few years about the difference btwn the feeling of wanting to write bc i want to write the thing, and the feeling of wanting to write bc i like the idea of being the person who wrote the thing. when i realize i’m in that second mindset, i go and think about something else. bc no good writing comes from that (at least ime)

find what u like: this is kinda related to the one above, but it’s another thing i’ve been thinking about lately. i spent a lot of time when i was younger assuming that bc i like writing, i had to write a novel, bc that’s what writers do. i would try to follow writing advice made for people who simply aren’t me. “writers must learn to use description sparingly” lol way ahead of u. that kinda thing. realizing that i love writing fanfiction for its transformativity, and i love writing dialogue bc it’s what i’m good at, was a huge revelation. i can just do that. i don’t have to follow the regular writer mold when i can just write really fucking good dialogue-heavy fanfiction. and in that realization, i’ve been able to grow as a writer by gaining the ability to write things down that i’m happy with, and grow from there.

prescription adderall: i told u this list was a mess. this one has kinda been crucial for me. i realized i had adhd in my first year of college in 2017 and started taking adderall for my second year of college in mid-2018. i started churning out creative projects in 2019. coincidence? absolutely not oh my god are u kidding

i genuinely thought taylor has been doing an album roll out on the b stage tho. Sometimes It's very easy to see Taylor's intentions behind her actions. It's either a) wants to challenge herself b) wants to build people's interest for ttpd (if u look at the touring schedule leading up to the album release, it looks perfect) c) wants to make space for ttpd songs so that she can play them all she wants on b stage later. I also think she knows exactly what people are gonna think about. Of course ppl are gonna think there're songs involving cheating on ttpd if she suddenly mushes up three songs that involve three parties right after announcing a bonus track. She knows exactly what she's doing. That's her strength as an entertainer but also that's why ppl say she's calculative. but she could totally be doing all this for no reasons lol it's just not hard to think where ppl are coming from

also it's valid of them to think there was someone else involved in their relationship. There were some strange stuff that was happening. For example, he held a party for his female co-star at the house Taylor rented for him and her right after she left (we know it cause of some ig stories on private acc of them). And then on her birthday he was in the same city as taylor and was traveling together but he was with his co-stars then she celebrated her bday in a studio with jack. He didn't join her for dinner too. And she was taking out some food after the dinner. Taylor's team had to call a bakery to order a bday cake too (the bakery said so). Mb it was sth they planned out but it was her f bday. She was his partner of six f years.. mb there was some reasons he had to be with the co-star but if i were taylor i wouldn't be able to be happy about these stuff. These are some but these make us feel like they grew apart and he had someone else to live. It's kinda creepy how much we know but it's out in the world so. It makes me sad cause taylor was making dinner for all the crew of his movie too (a crew said it once about it). Mb she was fine with everything back then but that's not normal. The dynamic wasn't healthy at least.

you seem to think what we've been enjoying is ridiculous and immature so wanted to tell u a little bit of our side of the view.

I’m not reading all of that parasocial nonsense of you pretending you know the intimate inner workings of a relationship you weren’t even in and projecting emotions onto someone literally just doing their job.

I do think it’s immature and ridiculous to, in your own words, ‘enjoy’ making up stories about a strangers relationship and speculating on strangers emotions and their intentions. Try getting a hobby instead of treating a human being like a character in your own personal movie.

this is ridiculously long pls ignore if you want k love u bye okay, here it goes:

steve’s girl best friend being so clearly in love with him— spoiling him and baking him goods that she gives to him with the brightest smile and the reddest cheeks and giving him her favorite, most special ring. however, given that she’s never had romantic validation, never had feelings for anyone else before, she doesn’t really pick up on steve’s hints. they’re really close friends so she figures she can just do her best to make her stevie happy !!! but she’s so obvious in her affections it’s adorable ………… and steve knows she’s completely inexperienced and even tho he dreams of being all her firsts— first date, first kiss, first boyfriend, first time, be her first and only, he also knows she has a hard time believing she’s a priority. so he starts there.

just steve reassuring her through words and actions of how special she is to him, how important and amazing she is, how she’s his favorite person in the whole wide world. steve starts being even more obvious in his affections, lots of praise and hugs and hand holding and eye contact and flirting, making sure she knows he hasn’t been going on dates or even so much as looked at someone else with anything other than platonic intentions pretty much since he fucking met her. he keeps hinting that she’s his only one, his best girl. and he’s hers. he already knows she’s the love of his life.

once they finally get together, it’s like something is unlocked.

steve and his girl are all for each other. his pretty baby looks at him like he hung the moon, they’re obsessed with each other, always touching and hugging and kissing, steve being his dominant self and then developing an even deeper relationship where steve is in a more caregiving role? a bit d/s and a bit ddlg? because he can see his angel looks at him for guidance sometimes, and that she seems to let go of her thoughts and responsibilities to rely on him and she feels safe with him, and steve loves it. encourages it really.

they slowly progress to the more intimate side of their relationship. it’s all natural and it feels right and there’s no rush. steve makes sure she knows this— there’s no rush. they have the rest of their lives.

this aspect of their relationship first makes itself known when steve notices how much his shy little angel seems drawn to his bulge. simple as that. she’s so embarrassed and ashamed of sexualizing her stevie like this, but he’s so obviously big and chubby in his jeans even when he’s soft and really, how is she to ignore that? even more so when steve secretly starts to test his theory out by pressing himself to her more and more. nothing wild, just hugging her close from behind, maybe pressing her back against him some more when she sits between his legs, and he stops projecting his hips back when they’re spooning or cuddling in bed.

and he hits jackpot. because his angel at first tenses just a little bit, still unsure and inexperienced and shy and extremely touch starved for him only, but then she sighs into it and her whole body just relaxes. and yeah, steve didn’t know he could feel so much from such a simple touch, a simple reaction.

but he’s steve, so once he gets her used to these touches, he starts teasing her. they’re best friends even if they’re now finally boyfriend and girlfriend, have been best friends for a year or two, so teasing is normal. lots of teasing. and banter. until it gets to a point where she’s completely comfortable in her own shy way and even teases him back, even asks him to press himself against her. it’s a comfort really.

once they have their first time, they’re even clingier. steve’s girl just loves using him as a weighted blanket, loves being pressed up to him, smushed under him. both while cuddling and also while having sex. steve is so good at dirty talk, she moans and whines so prettily, they try new things together— steve going raw, cockwarming, choking, her on top, her in a more dominant role. they’re so comfortable with each other, their dynamic is so natural, and they feel so safe and happy. so at home.

both clearly only have eyes for the other, everyone in town knows it. some girls get crazy jealous of steve’s angel because he’s the perfect boyfriend, he’s gorgeous, and they know he’s good in bed, he’s the whole package, but he’s always looking at her. spoiling her. loving on her. and they don’t shy away from pda either! nothing extreme, but they’re obvious about it.

steve’s angel wears a necklace with an ‘s’ pendant — whether steve gifted it to her or she bought it herself as a surprise is up to you — and steve wears the ring she gave him a while back when they were “just friends” on his left ring finger. “practice for the real thing, angel”, he’d told her. maybe he even gets his angel an anklet with his initials too. they spoil each other rotten!!! are so affectionate!!! always reassuring each other!!! telling each other how much they love each other!!!

i have so many thots but can’t put it into a proper fic so if someone writes this i might die

this is the ask that inspired my series <333 luv u harmonia!!!!

What I think about ur zodiac placements /~PT 2~

Hello guys I am back with part 2

Hope u will also enjoy the shade here💋 🌈!!!

So let’s dive into the 12 zodiac signs and my personal experiences with them :)

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Leo 😆🥂:

Uuuuuuuuuuuuoooo u guys are sooooo much fun i am getting excited for no reason right now writing about u guys 🤗. Ah Leos the star of the night , the social climber , the also attention seeking hoes I must say Leo’s have a kind and welcoming side to them when u first meet them like the Sun they shine bright. their personalities are hard to overlook because they have that certain thing that keeps peoples attention. These individuals have also bright ideas and good leadership skills when working in group projects .its nothing knew to know that Leos are just confident within their skin and even if they are not that much confident they project it with out even trying. Leos love to give the people they really love 💕 also alooooooott of attention, they know what they want and where they stand with ppl! So if u are good friends with them and also admire them ( bc let me tell u guys sometimes the attention they get is not enough but praising them for how they talk, dress, speak and even walk will boost their confidence . which is obviously so fucking annoying / i mean girl u is not Marylin Monroe 😓 ). These are the people u want to go party with and just do stupid shit with bc they also have a charming childish side in a weird but fun way 🥴. Honestly Leos are loyal just like Taurus people the will definitely have ur back in a fight at the club and jump ur enemy’s like whhaaaaaat ( a BODYGUARD for freee 😝) But Leos … we have to be real here and say that some of u can be very selfish if u don’t feel people kiss up to u . ( It‘s the GOD COMPLEX for me 💩 but we are also going to mention that topic again with Aquarius placements !!!!!🤔). Anywayyyyy some of them can have big Shity ego where being around them can feel soooo fucking draining and just annoying like Gemini’s. But all in all I like Leo’s but someone needs to check them before the delusion of being a celebrity gets out hand 🤡🤡🤡!!!!!

Virgo 😮‍💨🥱:

If their is a person in this world that would be ur biggest hater THEN BITCH IT WOULD BE MEEE 😈.I don’t like a lot of u maybe it’s bc I am Pisces and we are polar opposite but uuu get me so aggressiveee . Well where should I start but with the fact that u guys are @know it all@ fucking annoying like aren’t y’all tried of correcting people for the dummest shit 🤦🏾‍♀️. Aren’t y’all tried for being mean, not empathetic, inconsiderate, rude bc u feel like „I just know everything“, can y’all stf like gemini ahhh 😤 I have hard time with Mercury placements like , give me a break as soon as they speak I kinda want to curse them out. Like virgos are not that bad but it’s not uncommon for me to not dislike them bc they are just so thirsty for an argument , like bitch nobody is trying to fight or argue with u just bc I don’t have the same opinion as u on certain topics 🙄. Well lets continue with the good side of virgos . They are very much helpful people in a practical sense with helping u with chores,homework etc. they are willing to give a hand for things that have to be done asap.Ummmmmmmmm …… yeah that’s it sry but I just don’t have a lot good things to say 👉🏽👈🏽/👁👄👁. Moving on ——————->

Libra 🤗🦋:

Ouuuu lalaalalalaa here we have the second Venusian sign of the zodiac what a pleasant feeling being around someone that has good manners and is respectful and diplomatic 😙. Libras are also social light people and also like to get attention from the people around them to get the validation they seek which is yeah … Well libras are also chill, nice , beautiful people that appreciate love , peace , AESTHETICS when it comes to their environment, looks , homes and other people, they are very fashinoble and know how to dress and present themselves in a attractive way. They value friendships and relationships a lot like they really need these things to feel fulfilled in live. But with that being said I gotta say that u guys can be very codependent and rely on love and people to feel worthy 😥 it breaks my heart. They dislike conflict and are also prone to be very passive aggressive. Libras can shame other people for their looks if they don’t match up to their standard I have seen it mostly with moon in libra or Venus in Libra that they can disapprove of ugly people and put sometimes pretty ppl on a pedestal ( pls mind that what I mean here is the dark or bad side of libras if u don’t relate than … good for u 👍😉).

Scorpio / Pluto dominant 🤔?👹:

Sooooo let’s start here with the first emoji and what it means, I honestly don’t really know any Scorpio placements personally but I can make a little observations for Pluto dominant people.

Bc from what I have heard and seen it’s that u guys are wild in the streets and sheets 🫢⛓. Ok let me not make this 🤭💦.Well u guys are fucking inteeeeeeeenssszz like the energy u carry the way ur eyes penetrate my soul wanting to merge with yours so badly😩🥵. They carry a lot of S** Appell and magnetism . They have very interesting eyes bc they can see through the bs of people easily!!, the are the underlying detectives that can hint and sense deep, dark secrets from people. I just love how mysterious they are , not sharing every detail with the world about themselves. They have died and rebirth so many times on this earth that nothing really surprises them. Since early on in their childhood the connection to the hidden, dark, evil, and even dangerous side of world had been encountered multiple times but they are able to learn from the experiences and emerge it a stronger and resilient being. Everything they do is intense from friendships to love to work etc. (especially the hard aspects ! ).They intimidate and make other peoples ego crumble easily because of how heavy their presence is. The Trauma that they carry from early on in life sadly can make them too much emotionally closed off and not trust ppl . They seek the deeper meaning of life and also the truth from the ppl close to them. so If u bullshit their trust ooooooo lord , angels , Jesus Christ have mercy that’s when their 👹👹⛓ side is gonna come out. The animosity, revenge, hatred, anger is so intense u can feel it right away 🫣!. (Don’t betray them unless like Taurus u want to see the devil in its truest from 💀) .Jealousy and possessiveness is huge theme with Pluto dominant or Scorpio placements if they say they want u “they mean they want ur soul” 🤐/ ur are theirs whether u like it or not they just can’t get u out their head , the love and passions is so intense it literally kills them inside if they can’t control or possess u the way they want to / Like in one of Beyoncé famous songs “crazy in love/drunk in love” relates very much to plutonic ,s**y, fiery, intense life or death LOVEEEEEE ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥🖤❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥!!!!!

So my loves thank u very much for reading I appreciate it :)

The link for Part 1 is down below ⬇️👇⬇️

And as always like 👍 for part 3 😗💕💕💕!!!

10/9 - 10/22/2023

✅ Renji chapter - DONE* ✅ Chapters 1-6 reread/revise - DONE

Highlights

Some of this actually reads very well--at the sentential level, sometimes even the chapter level. I was pleasantly surprised by Rukia's, Hinamori's, and Akon's chapters.

There are portions of this fic that are kind of histrionic about use of tense (looking at you, Hinamori. Girl.), but on read-through now I think it works and I kind of like it.

Reading back it was fun to see what kinds of personal hangups were informing everyone's interactions and who was projecting what on whom. The order in which information appears (or is revised) based on whose POV chapter it was was cool, too!

I know there are critiques of the impact of film on writing, and I am sometimes self-conscious about how thoroughly my writing has been informed by writing for one singular TV fandom. That being said, having spent almost 15 years in a TV fandom, I always feel very validated when I can fix something by thinking about it in terms of TV constraints--like, oh, we can't do that scene because we don't have the time/budget to prep that scene again or put those actors on the call sheet. I may not be subject to those constraints but sometimes I'm like, "OH that makes this easier and less insane. Problem solved!"

Lowlights

Oh god, the Renji chapter is R O U G H. ngl feeling pretty betrayed, Abarai. So is the end of Matsumoto's chapter, which I knew going in, and which I then tried to revise last night, during which time I was apparently not mentally right, and now it s VERY weird and much worse!!

Aside from that, I'm... not convinced this story works, at the macro level. I don't know if there is a way to make it work better, outside of simply writing a different story. I don't feel like taking it down to studs is the move, and I think I should probably just keep going with it as-is and suffer the potential consequence of being disappointed. And then write a different story. SUCKS THO BECAUSE I'VE BEEN WORKING ON THIS ONE FOR YEARS.

Maybe this is a mid-light, rather than a lowlight: I feel willing to be convinced, or at least willing to take a chance on, the idea that part of my "eh I don't know if that works" is just me assuming this story is meant to be something that it is not, in fact, meant to be. Correspondingly, I think some of the things where I'm like "that's Not Right, that's not how that's supposed to work" may just be my writing style. For better? For worse? Jury's out, but it might just be me. It might be the work, and not what needs to be fixed.

Chapter 7 Rukia will close out Part 1. There's effectively two scenes left to do--maybe three if I decide to be weird about it--one of which I think about all the time and one of which is all vibes and "lmao fuck if I know" right now, so we'll see how those go.

One thing I'm feeling preemptively daunted by is how much less I already have written of Part 2 versus Part 3, but seeing as I'm probably not going to be done with Rukia 7 by next update anyway, what does it matter! It doesn't! Not yet!

ETA: Actually, one more thing. In my working document I've inserted anchors so I can flip between scenes more easily. These are NOT official scene breaks nor will these scene titles feature in the final product, but they feel like amusingly bad DVD chapter titles (remember DVDs? Chapter menus? DVD makers for some reason feeling that these chapters needed to be titled?):

real dweeby navel gazing time

i think one of the reasons i am having genuinely, so much fun with this gunter slowburn fanfic despite sitting at a literal 53k words rn and with it probably being close to 90k all said and done, is it's ... writing the ship i see myself in the most by far on both sides.

like, ever.

this shit is the rawest most honest shit i've ever written.

i've talked a little bit about how corrin's memory wipe stuff is literally a 1:1 to my anesthesia/childhood surgery/physical therapy conga line of bullshit. even aside from the helpful textual 'here's how this works from a medical event standpoint' there's the 'here's the emotional scars that it will leave because yes it is a bodily/mind violation of a sense, over and over, and jesus all of this of this stuff goes so well thematically to the straight up fantasy bullshit of nohr with the underpinning of being hyper-aware to the themes of "power" "use" "what it takes to survive by emotionally dragging yourself through a minefield" etc. stuff i've been ruminating over since being conscious lol.

then my body's so whack from a physical joint perspective that there's also almost word for word conversations from gunter's side that i've had with my gf about how to navigate certian shit from a kink perspective but also like... how to maintain dignity when your body's kinda physically crapping out on you due to the march of time.... without loosing the sexytimes u know?

the concept of dignity in the face of being broken is a huge theme in this fic that gets echoed. very poignant for reasons you fates players know.

amusingly there's a scene near the end where corrin's helping him to shave after his stroke. (in one of fate's "clearly having a giggle at my expense" coincidences i've been in contact lately irl with somebody who's also gone through a stroke and man is it not easy) and it's this kind of perfect blend of she's helping him, technically, with something that could just be... god awful self loathing brainspace wise for him but it turns into this amazingly hot kink scene with some serious sizzling power exchange.

the dream, man!

there is a real thin line between being able to laugh at yourself *while* keeping that dignity to pointedly.... having to not look in the mirror some days. desire and shame being some real fucked up entangled wires too, in that sense.

the tumblr uwu approved discussions re: tricky medical/'my body is crapping out on me man and i can't hide it'/kink shit and having to be ~valid~ all the time gives me the hiiiiiveeeees man (and i'm not knocking it for other people, i know why it exists, but it sends my hackles up u feel).

and yet this fic still feels like, hot, in the fun sense.

there's enough fun whacko fantasy taboo elements in it that it doesn't feel .... oh no this ain't sexy this is Too Real, you feel, or too much like a trauma fic(tm)

there's the sexy yandere villain ossan (lol), corrin herself has one hell of a sex drive (and honestly that's yet another huge focus, that wish fufillment fantasy of this 'pure fragile princess chick that's fought over like a prize by everyone else' who gets to choose 'no i actually want the hot villain kthx'. she actually rants to him several times about being fought over and having everyone else from nohr/hoshido project all the shit on her.

(and him being all, I got you, I get it.)

he actually does!!!! that's the funniest darkest most ironic thing!! he's got that weird blend of being aware enough from a kink perspective and just 'went through enough shit' life perspective of why sometimes the most sacred, profound thing you can do for somebody is to break them when they ask for it. sometimes in the dark u just want the brain wires to go bzzt.

there is a weird as hell comraderie in the sense of facing very specific demons that only they have (which, again, hilariously, goes so well with the themes of revelation! invisible enemies/demons that only you two know about.)

and then i have like yet another essay in me about how literally every character i've RP'ed is a suspiciously similar to his whole... archetype.... like all of my RP partners have gravitated to playing the chicks in the het relationships and i've always RP'd the snarky older guy going through life snarking at shit and being a closet misanthrope (there's probably some presentation/gender-aligned stuff going there but this is already navel gazey as hell lol)

anyway

tl;dr i haz feelz

Genuinely asking but what are your thoughts on making manga/comic series with 3D renderings like using MMD. I like the princeps and I want to do it for my own project but I feel like it would be undermined compared to making an actual animation instead also could you give me advice on how you make your comics with mmd? I like the idea but again that part of me feels like it's cheating but I really like it and I'm inspired by your way of doing it.

OH WOW I DID NOT EXPECT TO GET AN ASK HI IM SORRY IF IM LATE 💀

I've seen LOTS of people make comic series with MMD in the past. I originated from deviantART where it was a big thing to make them. It wasn't always fan-comics either sometimes it was of people's OCs and such. The only thing is, you can't charge for it. Especially if you're making Genshin content because they specifically state you cannot earn profit from using their models (I see a lot of people ignoring this rule though sadly esp when it comes to R18+ stuff). Unless you specifically make everything from scratch in yourself for your comics, charging at all for it isn't gonna fly. Shit is tricky tbh when it comes to monetizing anything MMD related.

It's really cool to think I've inspired someone tho 👉👈 I'm not quite sure what advice I could give on the actual MAKING process. It's kinda been a TON of trial and error LMAO

uhhhh I render at 1920x1080 for each panel and I kinda just render anything and everything I think that I might need for extra ✨flare✨. I get hella lazy with posing in comics tho 💀 so as long as it looks right from the angle that I'm rendering from, it's good enough for me. ALSO a good pack of hand poses to use or alter to how u want is also hella handy because I'd lose my mind real quick if I had to pose a fist or something close to it from an open hand all the time. The most tedious part for me is the editing. It makes me want to die. The work it takes to edit my comics is about as much work as it takes to animate if not longer to me tbh so I don't think it's any less valid of a medium than animating. OH WHICH I DO IN PHOTOSHOP LMAO I FORGOT

Idk if this helps I kinda just rambled a lot-- but I'm happy to help in any way I can if you wanna know more!!

Not trying to be nitpicky or even project anything onto harry. But sometimes when he has so many ppl in his mv I’m wondering why none of them are Asian 😩 like maybe it’s second nature to always look for someone who looks like u and I’m just overthinking it but idk sometimes I’d wanna see someone who looks like me in his mv

Your feelings are completely valid, my love. POC have complained about this for a long time and they seemed to listen, at least a little. I am absolutely not making excuses for him but I do believe he’s not the person choosing those people by hand. At the same time he isn’t, I also think he should and could be more vocal about the diversity when his team is casting for a video, tbh. But most of all, I am so sorry it made you feel bad. There’s not a lot I can say to make you feel better except to say I agree and I can only imagine how much it sucks 😔 I get part of it because I, in no way, am as tall, skinny or as beautiful as the people he chooses so it does dig a bit when it looks like he doesn’t see past his nose to other shapes, heights, bodies types and etc. But I try to ignore it for w plethora of reasons: one, cause unfortunately the entertainment industry is shitty like that and two, cause they can’t possibly represent everyone and so on and so forth (but these are all excuses) and just so much more I could ramble on forever. Just know that I am always here to talk and I am sorry that it always feels like a slap in the face, I truly am.

hi hi I'm the aspiring teume anon from earlier 🐇 hmm honestly I've just seen them around for so long and they seem so goofy (aka my fave thing abt groups) so I can't help but wanting to know them more.

I do think I have a few songs of them saved that I sometime listen to. lemme check- oh rightt I love darari and jikjin but that's basic of me and I do have boy as well that I listen to occasionally that I also like!

and ofc the thing that help me the most to get into a group is them just catching my eyes 👀👀 but yeah im not sure yet. usually I can guess my bias pretty fast just from looking at them but I'm not sure bc they're all cute 🥺 but maybe (definitely not for sure yes actually it is) hyunsuk and yoshi caught my eye a lil more (I remember esp when watching performance vids a few times).

hhhh who knew I have sm to say abt them, I would love to hear what/who u love most and also like if u have any recommendations like ur fave songs or vids of them (not necessarily what u think I'd like but what u like, I think for me seeing someone love their ults makes me fall hard for them too)

Sorry this turned out so long I was rambling. Hope u have a good day/night!🩷🩷

yaaay this is so exciting 🫶🏻 jikjin and darari are so valid i rly think that comeback got a lot of people's attention bc it was so strong! hyunsuk and yoshi are such a pair, i feel like if you bias one you kind of end up biasing the other 😂 they're both really soft and sweet but yoshi is also lowkey playful / an unexpected menace haha. this will be long so i'll put my ramblings under the cut 🤩

there is sooo much i love about trejo but i think a major thing is that i actually love their entire discography, like i do not think they have a single bad song. i'm mainly a b-side enthusiast (u, volkno, come to me, darari rock remix, be with me ...) but my favorite title has always been 'i love you' which is what initially got me into them; i saw the music video and it felt like it was tailored to my tastes with the bright colors, aesthetic sets and the more refreshing concept, they just looked like they were having so much fun. after that, it was over for me lol i watched everything i could get my hands on, including all of treasure map, which i always recommend to new teumes if you have time to just watch from the beginning because you really get to know them and see how much their relationships grow over time. but if i had to recommend just a couple episodes my favorite of all time is 30-31 it is PEAK treasure silly chaos. sadly, we did lose 2 members this last year but mashiho and yedam are back on instagram and working on their own projects so we're all just waiting to see what they'll do next, and supporting the group as a 10 piece!

i love that the members who are interested in it have opportunities to be part of the writing and production; and ones who aren't ready for that at the official album level still get chances to practice on their own. y/g may give me a headache 99% of the time but it's clear that they foster their idols as artists and i really appreciate that. asahi especially does a lot w this, he's behind 'orange' and 'thank you' ; and rap line also does quite a bit of writing, i rly think volkno is some of their absolute best work and you can hear how much influence they pull from iconic artists. treasure in particular is also first and foremost a performance team - so the focus was to have a balanced lineup that can really put on a show. hands down this group is top of 4th gen performancewise, their stage presence and command is INSANE especially given that they had a pandemic debut. i highly recommend checking out any of their end of year show stages if you haven't - even their early ones - but particularly 2022 mama , & their GDA performance is of all the songs you have saved !

as for my favorite members, i think everyone knows jaehyuk has my heart but actually my first treasure ult is jihoon 💖 i could talk about them for a zillion years so i won't go on that rant in this response lol but i do love all the members and i think what i really like about large groups (and why i keep ending up stanning them lol) is that you get to see a lot of different relationship dynamics, it's i think a lot harder to fake a 'we're all best friends' narrative in a big group and i appreciate that because i don't buy that all (or even most) groups are all best friends lol it's not realistic. i'd rather see a group that works well as a team and treasure is definitely that, they see themselves that way and you can tell by how they treat each other and work together that there's a ton of love and respect and yes, a lot of real friendships there. and they ARE goofy hehe. anyways ... i think that's a good start LOL i hope it is i really just kind of went into rant mode so i hope i didn't bore you and that you might find some helpful stuff in here 🥰

HIII JING DROPPING BY HERE TO SAY HI MY GOD THERE WAS SO MANY THINGS THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK ><

I attended tds2 in my country in my gosh post concert depression is really hitting me hard rn 😭 BUT OVERALL IT WAS QUITE FUN I SAW MARK AND HAECHAN LIKE TWICE NOW THE FIRST ONE ONE BEING IN 127 THE LINK FKEKNDBDHDKDKDK

i keep laughing at my fancams tho because of my ridiculous screams that sound like i'm fighting someone or generally barking HAHHHAHAHAHA

I AM HAECHAN BIASED BUT OH MY GOD JAEMIN IS JUST SO GORGEOUS AND REALLY KNOWS HOW TO INTERACT WITH THE CROWD >< (tied very much still to haechan tho no one can escape him)

ANYWAY HOW ARE YOUUUU MY FAVE FIC WRITER?? 🥺 tell me how your week went!

i see that u went out drinking AND I HOPE U HAD FUN!! ALSO OH MY GOSH UR WORKING ON TWO (?) NEW STORIES AND I CAN'T HELP BUT GET EXCITED EVER SINCE HIMBO HAECHAN WAS RELEASED 😩😩

I HOPE U ARE WELL AND PLEASE TAKE CARE OF URSELF OKAAYYYY TAKE UR TIME WITH UR WIPS I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR ANYTHING FROM YOU!! 💕

- 💛

HIII SLAYYY to ur eventful week!!! omg pcd is the worst. i had a photo of jaehyun from the 127 concert that i used as my wallpaper and i would literally just stare at it and my friends would be like... ENOUGH. but also you are so luckyyy to have this experience like MAHAE TWICE??? IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUUU i hope it was the best best time evevrrr and you got to make a lot of memories :)

im so stressed whenever i take videos for concerts bc i'm scared my voice will be picked up. when i went for the dpr live concert, it picked up the voice of this girl next to me and GIRL. i was so upset... bc it was so distracting. i'm literally trying to go for a concert twice so i can scream in one of them and just record videos in the other one 😭😭😭 but also im considering selling that ticket and buying one for another artist hehe

JAEMINNNN (growling rn) my feelings for him have been out of control recently. i know idols are just curated images, but damn...his is curated so fucking well... ,istening to ariana grande and niki in his room...grocery shopping in LA... his smile and hsi ARMS and his arms and his arms......wna fall into his chest i am so insane he is sooo it's all so intentional. THE WAY him and hyuck look at each other sometime during concerts???? if i were haech i would be backstage asking him WHAT ARE WE!!!!!

HOW MY WEEK WENTTT i finished up my internship!!! it actually went pretty well bc i rounded it up with a presentation on a research project i did and i tried really hard w it and i was validated w my efforts!!! i got to see my friends a little and irrelevant and tmi but i think im so lonely im going insane bc im kind of having feelings for my best friend but it might be because i dont see him a lot so i'm. trying to quit bc its so embarrassing... next week i have a bunch of interviews so WISH ME LUCKKK 😭😭😭😭

also this is so lame of me but when i drink im mostly NOT drinking outside im drinking... at home? or at a friend's place? LET ME EXPLAIN see it's because 1-2 drink jing is DIZZY. that's my first reaction to being drunk and it's so LAME and terrible in public spaces because i do the ditzy stumbling around and typing terribly on my phone (fun fact i got drunk at a school function once bc soju looks like water and we smuggled it in) and i literally almsot FELL down the stairs in front of my teachers it was. not good. anyway yeah thats why i dont really drink in clubs and bars (ALSO because it's so expensive there 😭) 😞😞😞😞😞  but i'm having a lot of fun i usually have plain soju but today i had whiskey!!!

i AM working hard on my stories and im exicted to share them with you when i'm done!! thank you for always being supportive of me and my efforts <3 i appreciate and luv u so os sososo much

ITS OKKKK take a break or sun if u need to u bozo 😩😩🙌🙌🙌 ur health>>>> everything else ok?? AND NAUR U COULD NEVER ANNOY ME unless I find u all up thinking abt sunny bunny skhksjsjs 😋😋😋😋

I don’t wanna say ive confirmed this but in fact, I’ve only started looking for patterns a couple months ago bc people always joke abt it. I wanted to see how real this shit can actually be yk? To what degree is this a joke and how much of it isn’t. I’m leaning more towards the thought more and more bc the more people I talk to w dad trauma (again, it could depend on the extent of it in their perception), the more I’m starting to realise how prevalent it is 😭 like u said, u don’t have to like it right. I think it’s just a craving for love/validation from prominent male figures in ur life, but being called from on a deeper level ,, like sex and intimacy yk yk . Everyone’s different so this shit is dealt with depending on them, some people can completely be sexually abstinent whilst others go all out w it idk idk like I said: all degree. That’s the key word. A lot of this shit I see stems mainly from family bc they stink sometimes and they’re supposed to be the closest people to us, the ones that raise us up and guide us…but unfortunately that can’t always be true 🐸 I did wanna share this with u a bit ago bc I mentioned some das things, but YES I pulled up on the tumbs that morning just to see ur posts nd the connections were made 🦫🦫🦫🦫 DW I don’t take this to heart or anything, I just keep it in mind for future reference and relate it to the people I may meet. Like “hmm, sounds familiar, maybe it connects somehow..” All in all, if there’s one thing I wholeheartedly believe? It’s that trauma will be projected or reflected somewhere.. anywhere and it could even be as minimal as what colours you’re attracted to.. now if I could just prove that on a thesis.. 🤔 SJSKSJ SORRY THIS IS LONG lmk what u thinks!

One of my dreams is to pursue neurology as well and hopefully do actual testing and experiments on people in the future hahaha right now tumblr helps me observe people from a far length 😂😂😂 damn, that sounds assholish but it be what it beeeee

-friend💞💞💞💞

AHHAAAAAAA I KNEW YOU WERE ASKING WITH ULTERIOR MOTIVES!!!! You wanted to talk about a possible thesis huh 😌😌😌😌

💕💘💕💘💕💘💕💘💕💕I'll try to read all of that again to understand it and also bc I really love reading your thoughts hehe YAS also if u do this thesis would be it only male-attracted people you’re researching on? I feel like if u did mommy kink, it'd be just freudian and boring and done before?? Pfkskks

Imagine helping bpb sunwoo with his mommy kink pfkskks

Hi!! I can't get over your blog and the way you describe the placements, it's so wonderful and detailed! it makes it all so much more interesting and easy to understand and different from most of the things i've seen around. i'm just curious on what you think about sagittarius sun/moon in 12th house while having a capricorn stellium in the first? (mercury, jupiter, neptune). if you happen to reply, thankyou! 🙌🙌

Hey there!! 💕💕💕💕 Aaaaaah thank u so much sdjnskjn 💕💕💕 that’s too much im soft 💕💕💕If you’re into healing/spiritual stuff but can’t talk about it much, or explore other realms of it without feeling like you’re judged (by others or just... maybe the environment/people around you aren’t ‘used’ to that side of you) then perhaps consider-- reaching out to people who are supportive and is willing to listen to you talk about them?? 💕💕

There’s a duality to it, like first we have that Capricorn in 1st (mercury/jupiter/neptune) that has a solid base. A solid image of who you are (to others) and what people see from you, what people expect. It correlates with how your friends/strangers/people know (intuitively learn) how to interact with you, and at some point it’s pretty freaking nice. 

But your Sun/Moon here is in 12th, there’s a side to you that may want to explore/is maybe more hesitant in  ‘cracking the base’ you have (1st)? In a way it’s like an image change and you may be a little wary of that--- what does that mean? what about the reception? what if you lose friends? etc. etc. 

Don’t be afraid to find more people, or open up to someone who may be more receptive to other interests you may have/different kind of interaction in order to grow more confident in yourself/your interests. It’s all about finding that footing in how you transform/grow and find different interests. You’re a sag, so let your sag run in the green plains (explore your interest) and at the same time, You have plenty of Capricorn so don’t be afraid to use your Sag in building connections (reaching out to others) so that a solid base/more confidence can be built there as well (transformation) 💕

It’s the idea that you are constantly growing and learning, but in order to ‘secure’ your interests and manifest something out of that you have to build confidence and see it manifest through your relationships (make it easier on you) too. 💕If you are afraid of ‘breaking’ a certain image or assumptions people may have of you (because you feel comfortable in them) then try breaching a subject, accepting parts of yourself. And learning to grow more self-validation through personal acceptance of your own transformation as well 💕

I hope this helps? 💕 It’s a minor thing but maybe it’s useful for something. 💕 Anyways I hope this is good! 💕Good luck!!💕 

why are gemini’s , leo’s and scorpios the most talked about sun signs

it’s something i’ve noticed

( a gemini sun , rising , venus is lowkey a fame indicator but more for the internet a longing impact on the internet many youtubers have this placement )

GEMINI

people have selective hearing when gemini s talk thet only wanna hear the projection they put on them which makes what’s their gonna say all the more intriguing to listen . gemini celebs will go down as legends in style and fashion they set trends by standing there . their existence is very unique as they kind of dress in a way that is cater to them so people idolize their style and their look come becomes iconic or well recongized and even tired too  replicate .

observation there’s always something in and Gemini rising eyes , their eyes are always seen 

marilyn monroe “ sexy eyes “ rihanna’s green eyes

prince , marilyn monroe & emma chamberlain , amy whinehouse( very recognizable hair make up )

lady gaga ( got even more well known for her outfits , what will she wear next , the meat dress)

leo’s

are naturally shy and really selective with what they want to share there’s also so artsic they enjoy being alone and learning some of the randomness shi but people seem to call them self centered mainly cause they’re jealous LMAOAOS like leo’s are literally just here to glow and show us their natural talent like they just wanna sing dance and make art . Leo’s legends some of the most smartest loyal and secretive or selective with what they’ll say people even more than scorpio

kylie jenner, bretman rock , viola davis , jasson momoa .

megan fox ( leo moon ) people being obsessed with her beauty but also making her kind of villain

note : people with leo placements hair is a fundamental part of their self stem or persona . they could either change their hair a lot be or be bald ( stevee harvey leo moon bald ) and if u have anything at the leo degree and make risk of balding but u don’t have to believe me i’m just observing

leos attraction appreciation can sometimes be oversaturated or under appreciate in its time . so when they change, people want to say they appreciated them before leo was the definition of a glow up especially when they focus on themselves 

scorpio

scorpios are ruled by pluto they are destruction and reformation they will change ur life kinda no matter what it’s just their energy. scorpio are sometimes loved and hated but that’s their point if you hate a scorpio u lowkey don’t wanna change( my opinion) The more u hate them the more u attract them , if you’re around Scorpios I think it’s just telling you that you need to change . scorpios are said to have obsessive tendencies which can be true for some with scorpio placements but it’s also an projection on to them so many people are obsessed with scorpios they want to know whats next for them who their with what they’re doing what they like who they don’t . and scorpios want to be more secretive but they also want that validation the need of being wanted so they over share . they also go through periods of people loving them and hating them for being well them . but u we’ll never get rid of a scorpio they will always live a mark where is the villain or the hero in whos ever story we’ll never forget them .

taylor swift ( changed the pop genre) katy perry ( CHANGED THE POPGENRE )

frank ocean , drake ( CHANGE THE RAP & RNB. GAME ) MAD CLASSICS OUT THE GATE ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS THEIR VIEW OF THE WORLD CHANGED IT

kendall jenner ( her dramatic change being the highest paid model for being well kendall jenner )

Beyonce ( scorpio moon ) ( IMPACTED THE WORLD )

KRIS JENNER BUILDT AN EMPIRE

ariana grande ( scorpio mc )

nicki minaj ( scorpio mc )

scorpios are unforgettable don’t forget.