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demigod tae

i was gonna say something low key salty about got7 but i won't cause i don't want to get beat up

anyway this is demigod tae

if that wasn't obvious

alright let's start from the beginning shall we

tae’s dad was a simple man, just a farmer

a livestock farmer like a very small farm down in the countryside of upper new york, just past corning

can you raise livestock there well i guess you can now

it's mostly cows!! but there's also a little plot of land dedicated to growing some crops maybe like a sweet potato that seems valuable

okay anyway he has his little farm, taehyung’s dad that is, and he's pretty isolated all to himself

he gets together with some other fatness occasionally and sells his goods whatever that may be

idk about farming im just going off harvest moon okay

but you know it's whatever

okay down to the drama

there's a forecast for major flooding in the area, and tae’s dad is a little worried because while he's on high ground, he loves his little cows and he will not let them get hurt

so when the rain starts to fall, he grabs seven hundred blankets and treks out to the barn where all the cows are

he pats down some hay and makes a little nest for himself so he can chill with the cows

the rain starts to pour and it's actually rather alarming how hard it's slamming against the roof, but tae’s dad feels infinitely better knowing he's with the cows and they're safe

he's relaxing, singing some songs to the cows, when there's this sudden slamming against the barn door

tae’s dad thinks he must be hearing things, but he's maybe too curious for his own good, and so he goes to check it out for himself

he opens the door cautiously, and standing there in the pouring down rain is a pretty lady, with a hoodie under a pair overalls

she's very tanned, and her hair is dark and a little unruly, and her eyes are the color of the earth right after it rains

tae’s dad gets all flustered because she's gorgeous but then he snaps out of it and ushers her in

so what if she's oh, i don't know, a serial killer or something

she's kill him with a garden hoe or something smh

anyway he quickly searches around the barn and finds some old blankets and hands them over

he then takes off his jacket and says he'll close his eyes if she wants to put it on

he definitely doesn't try to peek through his fingers

no he wouldn't, he's a good guy and he gives her the privacy she needs and when she changes he opens his eyes again

“how'd you even find this place?” he can't help but ask

the lady ignores him at first, heading over to buttercup the cow and rubbing her head affectionately

finally she looks over at tae’s dad “lost.”

he gives her this look because who even wanders out into the countryside anyhow?? like how did she even find the countryside???

“you must really love these cows. they're fond of you.” the lady says with a soft smile. “especially this one.”

and tae’s dad eyes widen and he just gives her this look “wait can you---”

“what?” and she smiles and goes back to petting the cows

obviously she can't really escape the rain and so the lady decides to camp out with tae’s dad and the cows for the night

and they spend the entire night rambling about their favorite flowers and favorite garden plants and favorite vegetables to grow and the best ways to care for chickens

they don't even sleep because they spend the entire night talking and also the rain is really really loud they can't sleep under those conditions

and she won't reveal her name the entire night but when the sun starts to rise, she looks over at tae’s dad and kinda mumbles “the names demeter”

and tae’s dad eyes light up and he gets all smiley “you mean like the greek goddess??”

“something like that”

and by mid morning, the rain has calmed down into a soft sort of drizzle and demeter could easily leave but she chooses not too, instead the two of them stay in the barn and keep talking

and they kind of get on the topic of the farm and demeter is all “oh is it only you caring for everything here?”

and he nods “it's fine. not many people like farming.”

“i like farming.”

it starts out with demeter showing up bright-eyed every morning, ready to work under the blazing sun with tae’s dad and yes it's hard work but they're always smiling and getting to know each other better and tae’s dad’s corny farm jokes make demeter giggle and blush

get it

corny jokes

cause it's a farm

okay but the months go on and demeter is staying later and later and the two are getting closer and closer

and finally tae’s dad is like “there's an extra room in the house”

and that's when demeter officially moves in with tae’s dad

she's like wow yikes i wasn't planning on falling in love with him this is--- this is new

so she's like well i better tell him i'm the actually the greek goddess so when he's scared away at least there'll be a valid reason for it

and so one day she comes down to breakfast and sits on the old wooden bench where a plate of scrambled eggs and fresh strawberries is waiting for her

she kinda smiles a bit because wow she really is in love??

and tae’s dad comes down the stairs and his hair is a mess and he looks sleepy still and demeter is literally heart eyes for days

he comes and sits across from her and has the most gentle of smiles on his lips

demeter starts to play with her hands nervously “look, i gotta tell you something…”

and tae’s dad rests his hands on hers to try and calm her “it's okay!! i already know your secret.”

“you, you do?!”

“you like me, don't you?”

and demeter just stares at him because he's giggling to himself and he looks so damn proud of himself

“i thought that one was obvious.” she laughs and she leans over and kisses him on the nose

and yes, she eventually tells him her actual secret and yes he totally flips out but not in a bad way more like the most excited wonderful way in the world

they don't actually get married because yah she's a goddess that kind of breaks the goddess rules but they basically act like it

they raise all the beautiful cattle and sunflowers and carrots together

but

but is that enough??

nah fam it's not

they're sitting at breakfast again right

and they're holding hands as the sun shines through the window and the birds sing outside

“look, i gotta tell you something…”

tae’s dad laughs and he kisses her forehead “oh come on, i already know you're the goddess demeter!!”

“i thought that one was obvious…”

they both laugh but get serious again

“look, the reality of it is… i'm pregnant”

tae’s dad screams for maybe the next seven years?? yah, at least seven

he spins her in his arms and kisses her face all over and then kisses her stomach

zeus doesn't even seem interested in demeter and gods only know why

but she gets to stay with tae’s dad, and eventually, with lil baby tae

as soon as he can crawl baby tae is out in the garden, messing with the sunflower, pulling up carrots, trying to talk to the bumble bees

he's the cutest baby and he's spoiled by his parents, especially so by demeter who gives him the gift of being able to grow plants by singing to them

like one day he'll have the potential to control plants with his song but right now he's a small bean baby

get it bean

cause demeter

anyway tae is raised knowing who his mom is and he's so damn proud even though he's not allowed to tell anyone he's so proud of her and he thinks she's the coolest person in the world

he obviously loves his dad too

small bean tae names all the cows after his godly aunts and uncles and apollo is so damn offended he has an ugly ass cow named after him

tae absolutely adores nature like both of his parents and he's like i'm gonna be a farmer like both of you guys are!!

and demeter is like look buddy… and that's when she gives him the whole demigod talk like we love you and everything but eventually zeus is gonna come for my ass and i won't be here to protect you any longer and you need to go to a special place called camp half blood

and tae just about sobs because he's such a momma and daddy’s boy like he loves both of his parents and the idea of having to be separated from his parents breaks his heart

after he hears about camp half blood he sleeps in his parents bed for like four weeks straight

but alas the time comes for him to go and unlike most demigods there's no monster attack, no monster chase scene

it's just him and his parents all walking hand in hand to the border of camp half blood

tae is sniffling, because even though he's like twelve years old he loves his parents more than anything

demeter promises he's always welcome back home but she might not be there, and he need to learn and train to be able to defend himself in the demigod world

so tae reluctantly steps past the border and when he gets inside he's a sniffling mess but guess what's above his head it's demeter’s emblem

the most adorable boy in the world comes running over to tae and he gets all flustered because the boy is up in space and he's so adorable

“hi i'm hoseok!! i know about you, you're the one who named a cow after my dad!! my dad said i should seek revenge but you're so cute, so i'll take you to your cabin instead!!”

that's how tae ends up in the demeter cabin, surrounded by a bunch of siblings who immediately put a flower crown on his head and a giggling hoseok who wants one too

i didnt know this was four pages long but it already is and im at school typing this aren’t you guys im willing to sacrifice my grades for this au

jk im in creative writing this is a really chill class and i can get away with doing this kind of thing

okay anyway tae grows up at camp and he always goes back to visit his dad because demeter is back up on olympus but she drops by sometimes and they’ll have picnics together

but for the most part his days are spent at camp, training and overall being one of the heartthrobs of camp

like i know demeter has a wicked wrath, just think like winter?? but i see the demeter cabin being pretty chill, almost like your stereotypical hippies

like tae is super happy go lucky we all know that but at camp he has like zero boundaries he would probably walk up to someone and be like wow you’re so cute i wanna kiss you!!

probably how he met jeongguk tbh, and then yoongi respectively who then threatened to beat the daylights out of him

okay anyway he always has his flower crown perched atop his head, it’s never like him actively picking flowers for his crown, but like since he has the ability to revive things, he can take flowers that have died and revive them for his cute little crown

he makes some for all of bangtan and it’s quite the ordeal because hoseok asks if he can pretty please have sunflowers, and pink roses are obviously the flower of choice for jin, but yoongi whines and complains when he doesn’t have the same kind of flowers as jeongguk has

tae should make a business out of it or something

okay but i don’t see tae as someone who actively wants to fight even if it’s for his own protection, he thinks that monsters probably have good in them if you look long and hard enough for it

but he can’t just rely on that philosophy when you know- he’s about to be eaten

he has a spear and it’s a perfect fit because he’s tall and he’s agile and it can be used as defense as well as a weapon unlike like, idk a bow or something

okay anyway back to tae being the cutest smallest bean at camp who isn’t actually small but whatever

okay so you’re pretty on the dl around camp, you stick to your cabin, a few close friends, but you definitely don’t go out there and try to get to learn everyone and their stories

you like to spend your days, sparring with close friends, reading, hanging in the arts cabin, or just kind of doing your own thing

the rockwall is something you’ve always wanted to try though and so one day you’re like you know what i’m gonna head down there and i’m gonna climb the wall of doom

but there’s kind of a line going on because like while anyone can just go for it, it’s hard to maneuver when there’s seventy two other people trying to climb the same area that you are

and you’re like i can do this, i’ll wait, it’s no big deal

but after a while, you feel a pair of eyes on you

you know how you can just tell when someone is staring at you?

well that’s the feeling you're getting right then and there and so you spin around and leaning up against a tree is the most handsome person you have ever seen

he’s tall, dark, and handsome

i finally can use this

yes, in all of these au’s, all the boys retain their natural glow, this is an anti-whitewashing blog

anyway he catches you staring and you would assume he would look away all embarrassed but nah fam, he gives you one of those nods, and then winks and you immediately turn back around and shove your hands into your pockets because that is not allowed to happen no sir how dare he do that to you

how dare he attack you in your own home

but guess what you can still feel his eyes boring a hole into the back of your head and you will not tolerate this oh no

so you spin back around and he smiles and motions you over and you’re like hoe don’t do it but you do anyway

you cautiously make your way over to him and when he sees you’re actually coming his eyes light up and this huge smile breaks out on your face and you’re like this is what heaven looks like i guess

“i’m taehyung, but you can call me tae, or babe, whichever you prefer”

you roll your eyes and laugh a bit and he laughs too and wow that’s a very nice life

you introduce yourself and then you ask why he called you over and suddenly he looks confused and you have this sudden panic that maybe he was waving to someone else but then he smiles all cute

“well, it’s cause you’re adorable!! and i wanted to tell you, duh”

and you get super blushy and flustered and stare up at him and he just gives a shrug and smiles again

“me and my friends are probably gonna head down to the lake later today, do you wanna come?”

a few hours later, you find yourself fending off hoseok and taehyung who are trying to splash you and jeongguk with water

seokjin pulls down his sunglasses to glare and jimin mimics him and yoongi naps under his floppy sunhat

namjoon is stuck in the middle of the war

when you prove very resistant to his attacks, tae starts singing to the seaweed and suddenly it’s all up on your legs and you squeal and try to move but the seaweed has you in place

tae giggles and demands your surrender but before he can claim victory, hoseok splashes him and tae falls back in the water dramatically

you break through the seaweed and run over to him to see if he’s okay but when you lean over, tae grabs your arm and pulls you down into the water with you

it’s really shallow so it’s not it’s dangerous and you practically fall onto tae so there’s that happening

you gasp loudly and try to get up but he tells you that it’s really fine and that you can be his human shield from that traitor hoseok

which you end up doing

besides tae is just warm?? and laying in the water next to him isn’t half bad

after that you’re always with the group, no matter what

mostly with tae but the group does exist in the background…

like you even get an honorary flower crown and tae acts oblivious when namjoon calls him out for using flowers that mean beauty and attraction and love

but you and tae don't really ever hang out alone because one of the boys if not more are tagging along--

until you get sent on a quest

and taehyung is the only one who tags along

there's been some suspicious activity out west and you and taehyung have been chosen to go expect the issue and fix what needs to be mended

the quest is really freaking vague and you and tae are somewhat confused but hey, as long as tae is by your side you don't mind

he's not very good at fighting and you always have to protect him, but he can use certain plants to heal your wounds if needed

he likes to set up camp at night and he always volunteers to watch first so you can sleep

he's also pointing out the different kinds of plants you encounter in each of the different states and he talks about all their properties

at first things were kind of !! because obv you both had a thing for each other deep down but after a week in tae was like you know what---

and so he casually holds your hand and when you question it he says “it's safer this way”

he lets you use his sleeping bag because he insists it's warmer

okay anyway you get to the good old west and you're like okay so what are we supposed to do---

and suddenly you get an iris message and yoongi and jin appear on the screen and you're like my dudes!!!

but they look absolutely worried and now you're kind of questioning what's going on

jin sounds absolutely panicked “you two need to leave, it's not safe for you anymore, we figured out why you two are there and-”

the message cuts off suddenly but right before it's gone you hear yoongi curse

you and tae exchange horrified looks but you shake your head “look, we're aware, we'll be okay…”

there's a sudden rustling from behind you and you and tae spin, but a small kid comes walking up and you're like where---

“hi, i'm minhyuk!! i'm from camp jupiter, you must be taehyung?”

taehyung glares “hey i'm not the only person here”

and he introduces you with a scowl

“it's okay…” you rub his arm soothingly “i didn't know there was another camp--”

“really??” minhyuk just shrugs. “well come with me, we have a lot to talk about!!”

minhyuk grabs you by the hand and tae just about has a heart attack because wait no other cute boys aren't allowed to touch you like that !!

but anyway you end up at camp jupiter or as you like to call it “camp sticks up their asses” because it's so strict

it's nothing like camp half blood and while it's definitely impressive it's not home whatsoever

and like everyone seems way too interested in taehyung and you're not liking it whatsoever

like everyone is like wow you're so handsome and so gifted and so strong

and tae is like i've never killed a monster lol

and they just--- still so handsome and so gifted and so strong!!!

and you're wondering what the heck is going on and why you're here and what your quest is

but one day while you and tae are eating your meal, one of the campers, a kid named wonho, asks tae to follow him

you get up to tag along but wonho smiles softly “we'll be back in a few okay??”

but they're not back in a few

in fact it's night and you're still waiting for tae

luckily a pair of friends named taeil and sicheng try to keep you company and cheer you up

but you're sniffling because you and tae are a duo and now he's gone---

and it's light out and camp and you go to the guest house alone

it's past midnight when tae comes stumbling in

you bolt up and slide off the bunk to meet him and you pull him into your arms

“what the hell is going on?!”

taehyung shakes his head “they're trying… the gods are a bunch of crackheads--”

and how he's rambling and he's talking about the gods and how their split personas are getting worse and how zeus///jupiter has this wild idea to try and merge camps permanently through an exchange program of sorts and how he was the one nominated along with the wonho kid and neither of them had a say in it whatsoever

and taehyung says he will not do it there's no way in all the underworld he will do it

and you tell him to calm down and take some deep breaths because he's overworking himself but he takes you by the shoulders

“i'm not leaving camp half blood!! i grew up there!! my family is there!! and you're there, i'm not ever going to leave your side!!”

“tae, nobody ever said-”

“i love you!!!”

and you two just stare at each other and there are hot tears streaming down his face but he smiles softly “gods i really love you”

and he leans down and kisses you so so so gently as if you might break if he's any rougher

that night you two crawl into the same bunk, snuggled together and praying for the best

you're both shaken awake violently though, and you open your eyes to see taeil and minhyuk standing there

“hurry up hurry up, we're getting you out!!”

the four of you sneak out of the cabin to the edge of camp and you're like but what about the guards but minhyuk just laughs and giggles

boom you're swept up in this black mist and it feels like you're body is pulling itself apart---

tae grabs your hand and squeezes it tight

when you open your eyes you're standing in the middle of what looks like a desert

“sorry, shadow travel is exhausting” minhyuk yawns

and you and tae just stare in confusion??? because minhyuk??? a son of pluto??? but he's so pure???

“opposites attract i guess!!!”

he says he and taeil will get you guys out of california for protection

and they do

you and tae make it back to camp half blood safely and you explain the details to chiron because he wasn't even sure what was going on

he says he'll try to mediate ok the gods behalf

and most of the gods side against zeus so it's okay!!!

you and tae are safe and very much in love

the end

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I live in Texas and i'm an 18 yr old female. I will be studying in Canada but I need to take my car to get from place to place. Does anyone know how much it costs to register the car, get car insurance, plates, License and whatever else needed? Thank you (:""

Motorcycle insurance?

how much would it cost for a new motorcyclist to pay for his insurance if he got a used bike.

What is another way to say free insurance seminar ?

My insurance office is going to host a seminar to the public explaining personal lines (home, auto, commercial...) insurance coverage. What is a catchy headline for the flyer?""

What should I be looking for in coverage with car insurance?

I'm 22, just graduated from college and am just about to get my car put in my name and on my own insurance (was paying my parents for car insurance in my dads name before). I am curious on what exactly I should be looking for as far as deductibles and liabilities go to get a cheaper-ish rate, but yet still decent coverage? I was paying $70 a month on my parents insurance, I know I won't get that good of rate, but am wondering what decent coverage would be for a decently priced monthly rate...I was told to get a $500 deductible for collision? My car is a 1997 Honda Accord, great condition, around 130,000 miles, and I got one ticket in 2007. Any advice would be helpful! Thanks!""

Do you hav to hav insurance to drive a car?

well i might buy a cheap old car (one that i dont have to worry about scratching or dinting) but do i HAVE to get insurance? and what other stuff do i HAVE to get like tax and what not and how much does all that cost?

Landlord's insurance in NJ?

I have few rental properties in NJ and looking for an insurance company that provides landlord's insurance policies. I will appreciate if you could arrange to send me few names of insurance companies. Thanks

How does life insurance work?

i talked my dad into buying life insurance but he says that i just want him to die but i told him only to take out a 50 thousand dollar policy for the funeral and other expenses nothing else i don't need a million dollar policy and how does life insurance work if i talk my dad into getting a 50k policy does the insurance pay it all at once or does the insurance give it month to month or year to year explain it all just in case he wants to get more which i highly doubt he will but anything from 25k to 50k will be find i don't need a million dollars to plan a funeral and how much do you think it would cost to make him have a 50k policy and i asked this question before and i got the response 50k is too much i see people who get 5million dollar policy im not trying to get rich im just trying to get enough to pay for the funeral if i really wanted something i would ask for more because im paying off his 500 thousand dollar house with my money and my pay so he can at least appreciate what i do for him

New driver trying to get insurance... Quote for 1750 in November... Why has it gone up to 4400 now?

Hello all, I'm 17 years old (male) and passed my test earlier this month. In November I just thought I'd get a rough figure for insuring a 1.2L Corsa (2001)... I got a quote from Quinn Direct for 1750 (I put in the details as if I had already passed etc). So yes, more than the car is worth, but my parents and grandparents were willing to help me out with it, and I was pleased. So, Christmas has been and I thought I'd get looking... I went back on to Quinn Direct and now for a 1L Corsa (2001)... The quote is 4450!! That is ridiculous! It's true, I'm a 17 year old male... Bla bla... But 4450 for a 1 Litre car? All my friends are with Quinn Direct, and their 1.3L Fiesta's etc are only 1900 to insure! Gocompare and all those don't give me much better quotes either. I've also done the Pass Plus. Can anyone shed some light on this please? Thanks!""

How much will my car insurance go up?

I have a honda accord lx (2003). I hit a metal pole and there was considerable damage to my car. The damage is mostly to the right front side and the tire. I have informed my insruance company so they can review the damages and come up with a dollar amount. I can decide if I want to pursue the claim through my insurance company or accept the charges my self. If it is going to cost alot to fix the car, I may need to use my insurance to pay for the damages. How much will my insrance go up? I have heard that my rates could be impacted for the next 3 years. Will the rates decrease after 3 yrs?""

Does PA or NJ have cheaper car insurance?

I'm wanting to know which state has cheaper car insurance. I have usaa. Does it vary state to state ?

17 year old getting insurance in NY?

I am planning to buy a car in a couple of months. Probably a Honda Civic/Accord from 1994 and up. I dont have more than 3500. How much will insurance cost to pay by myself? Added on my parents?They currently pay 130 a month. I have 90 average in school and a 10% discount fot compleating a drivers ed program.

Where is the best place for a teenager to get car insurance?

Im an 18 year old male and will be getting a 2005 Nissan Altima. What would be good insurance for me? I need cheap insurance and I have good grades so I might qualify for a discount.

American express auto insurance?

I understand that the auto insurance for rentals via credit cards are secondary coverage. what does this mean? Suppose I dont have any other insurance coverage. does the credit card insurance become primary coverage by default?

My grandma says TEENAGERS arent covered on her car insurance. Is this possible?

i want to drive her car cause im 16 and just got my temps a couple weeks ago and all she keeps saying is that her insurance only covers people 21 and older. i totally think shes lying! cant anyone drive the car? the insurance is already one the CAR, not the person, so shouldnt the insurance cover the car regaurdless on who's driving??""

Car insurance?

what things should i look for in car insurance? and what exactly is a car insurance bond? any scams i should look out for? any good reasonable car insurance rates?

Wrx vs. Impreza insurance?

I know the wrx has really high insurance rates.. How about the regular impreza? (new models)

I have impacted wisdom teeth but no insurance or way to pay in cash what can I do?

My credit is too bad to get a loan

Car insurance question?

Hey and thanks in advance! My car is in my ex name 100% on the loan and the car insurance, but i make the payments to my ex as they take the money from my ex bank account. Im not even on the car as a second driver. Well now my ex wants the insurance in my name, would i be able to obtain insurance in my name (full coverage) for the car without the car being in my name, if i was to show them me and my ex personal contract. and lets say the insurance people is fine with it, would the bank where my ex took out the loan be ok with full coverage in my name over the car? please, this was a lessoned learn and now i need help on how this can be done, my ex no longer want his name on the insurance.""

What is the best insurance company to have if you need to go into a rehabilitation center?

Which insurance covers the most??

How do Doctors get paid by insurance company?

Moped/ motorcycle insurance in washington?

how much is insurance for it? i already have a car and car insurance. my car doesnt get great mileage. about 15-17 on the highway.12-15 city. i use to not travel a distance too much but i moved farther away from my college so i gas up once a week or every week and a half depending on if im just going to school or if im also going out. I want a scooter or motorcyle just because there fun and better on gas. im not reckless. ill be safe and drive them to minimize the risk as much as possible. MY STATE DOES NOT REQUIRE MOPED OR MOTORCYLCE INSURANCE BY LAW. Im just curious to be safe. and for me, my faith in god keeps me safe.""

How much does motorcycle insurance cost for a teen?

I am currently 15 , next year i will get my liscence and buy a Kawasaki Ninja 250R 2010. I live in Quebec, and I really need an answer, please not just a go get a quote.. just give me a number please!""

What Insurance is the cheapest for teenagers in texas?

Am I able to drive my -just bought- car without insurance?

I just bought my car one day ago and i only have the contract but not the title, am i able to drive the car at all or is there a law that lets me drive the car within a certain amount of time without insurance on it in minnesota?""

How much does a limo insurance cost?

im saving 33,480 dollars to buy an 04 limo""

Do salvage title cars have cheaper insurance premiums?

How much is insurance rate on 97 camaro?

Buying sunglasses using health insurance ?

hi i am trying to buy sunglasses using my health insurance because aetna health insurance allow me to buy sunglasses on their charge, a lot of my friends did it this way, but every time i call a store they say that they don't do that!! any info ? thanks""

I was denied medcaid and chips for my 2yr son. Is there any other affordable insurance out there?

I was denied Medicaid which is understandable. I applied for Chips and was denied as well.......because I was $50 over the income guidelines. I don't receive any other kind of assistance. I can't afford the insurance at work. I pay my own tuition for school, my own groceries, and so on. I just would like to know if there is any other type of affordable insurance for my child.""

""Looking to buy a car, what kind of cars will raise my insurance?""

Ok, so I'm getting ready to buy a different car and I'm wondering what kind of things will make my insurance go up. I'm 20 years old and right now I'm paying $100 a month, and that is cheap. Any advice?""

I have a few questions about car repairs and auto insurance?

first off, i was in a small accident a couple weeks ago, and was wonder how much it would cost to have the following repaired: 1. the hood is very minorly damaged, there is just a small gap where the hood closes, plus a little scratched paint on one side (very minor) how much would it cost to have that straitened out? 2. when the front end got hit, it shifted it over a little, so there is a small gap inbetween the inside corner of the headlight and the grill area, how much to straighten that out? 3. also, in regards to insurance, is it allowed to have two different people insured on one car through different insurance companies?""

Can I buy motorcycle inssurance and not have parents know about it?

I'm 22 I live in my own apartment but my parents pay car insurance can I get a seperate insurance for a motorcycle and not have my parents know about it, also my friend who rides said bike insurance can be very cheap I just want minimum coverage how much would it be, thx!""

What does total excess mean with car insurance ?

hi on my car insurance it says 450 total excess what does that mean ? thanks

""Health insurance, deductible or no deductible?""

I'm looking at the Blue Shield of California Active Start 35 plan for me and my 2 year old son. It's going to cost around $200/month through ehealthinsurance Here's a link: http://askoleg.com/Blue_Shield_Active_Start_Plan_35_ppo.htm The plan features: No individual deductible Annual Copayment Maximum $7,500 Annual Physical Exam, Well-Baby Care $35 (Not subject to deductible) Laboratory, X-Ray, Major Diagnostic Services 40% (Not subject to deductible) Physician Office Visits $35 (Not subject to deductible) I do not have insurance at the moment and my son has a PPO with Anthem and a $1,500 deductible with almost the same listed here. The only difference is there is no deductible with the plan above. I'm really in need of some help, if anyone can give me good advice, I would appreciate it very much!""

Will speeding tickets raise your insurance?

I just got a 2 point violation the other day, will this raise the cost of my insurance being that I am only 20?""

Is there a cheap auto insurance i can get while i have my learners permit?? everything is so catch 22?

Its like you have to have insurance to buy a car, but you have to have the car to take the drivers test. So im really confused, and i need to know if theres insurance for me while i have my learners permit?""

Practice Test for Life Insurance License????

Does anyone know that website that has practice exams for the Life Insurance test? We used to go to it but now forgot it.

What would the insurance be on a 2010 Camaro SS?

I know there are a lot of things that factor into the cost of insurance but if anyone could give me a ballpark estimate that would be great.

Teen car insurance help help?

I am 18 years old and on my fathers state farm policy my mother has her own house and policy if I have car insurance under him can I be covered to drive her cars. she has geico

I need cheap but good car insurance what do you recommend?

Is their insurance for pregnant women?

Hi, I am about 30 weeks pregnant and very scared. I do not have ins at this time. I had a ppo a few months ago that did not cover anything! My bf (ridiculous we were not married) of 11 years just walked out on me and the kids for his selfish reasons. So he is no help besides paying the mortgage. Im not trying to get free insurance, I just need some help on what affordable insurance there are if any that will pick me up. I pay for my visits but im running low on cash. I am on bed rest for incompetent cervix and I am losing it trying to figure ways. I return to work 6 weeks after I have the little one but for now I have no job! Im at lost. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. I can pay monthly's but I know that delivery bill is gonna kick me in the butt. I just want to have a little security...""

Are there any good Websites about Insurance ?

For someone who is newbie in Insurance , Also if it contains cases and Q&A it would be best Does anyone know any ???""

I have impacted wisdom teeth but no insurance or way to pay in cash what can I do?

My credit is too bad to get a loan

""Hit a mailbox, will cost $2,500 to fix, how much will my insurance go up?""

The other night i crashed into a mailbox. It was completely my fault and it will cost $2,500 to fix it. I was wondering how much my insurance premium will go up per year about? I am 20 years old and have gotten 1 ticket before.""

What is the best type of renter's insurance?

Whats is the best rental insurance for an apartment? What does it usually cover? The apartment rent will be $280 in Birmingham, AL. Is the best insurance to get the type that would cover most belongings and people incase of an accident wether it was by a person on purpose, accident, or a weather related incident? If you have renters insurance do you pay monthly or a one time thing up front if you are on a year lease?""

What car insurance is cheap for young people?

Auto insurance raised cause of credit!?

I bought another used car 2005 and my insurance rates when up $500.00 a year. They told me because of my credit rating........what! I have a perfect driving record and have been driving for 36 years so tell me what does my credit have to do with my car insurance or driving record?!!!!! I am only behind on a couple credit cards so please someone tell me why this is?

Cost of ticket for driving without insurance?

im 16 and i need to get to work tomorow...my stepmom has to work so the only way to get to work is taking my dad's 2007 toyota tundra. if i get pulled over about how much will the ticket cost? i have my liscense just not insurance. i also live in texas

Will my insurance cost more this year?

hello people ... so i was wondering if anyone thinks my insurance will cost more this year. i have a motorbike honda cbr125. last year it cost me 450 to insure. looking at the insurance this year it says around 550-650 will mine be this much?

Cost of Insurance for Nissan 350Z?

I am 18 years old (about to turn 19) and gonna buy a 350Z (well my parents are). I have always wanted one and I am getting it for looks and commuting only. But to be safe, I will buy a police radar and install a kill switch as soon as I get it. My question is how much would insurance be for a 2004-2005 Nissan 350Z? Would it be better to buy the Z in my parents' name under my parents' insurance? Also, I am curious of how much do any of you pay for a car like a 350Z.""

How to become an insurance underwriter?

Im looking to move on in my career and I am really interested in becoming an Insurance Underwriter. I am currently studying for the CII FIT exam and was wondering what else I would require. Any help appreciated thanks.

What is the average insurance quote for a 2007 jeep wrangler?

I'm turning 16 in a year and my dad and I really want to get a Jeep. Not just for me, but for him too. I'm really interested in the 2007 jeep wrangler soft top. I plan on taking the defensive driving course because I heard that it helps lower insurance on the vehicle. Is that true? Also I have to pay for part of the monthly payments. How much is the average monthly payments for the type of car that I want?""

How much will my driving insurance be for 16 yrs old?

Drivers Age: 16 type of car: Toyota liability limits: uh... none, i think, once i crash the car goes.. comp & collision?: idk driving record: just got it today lol credit score: perfect =P zip code where car is kept: 43221 its a rav4 crappy car, i just need a ball park geuss... my parents r trying to make me think its a lot more than i no it is, just so i dont drive... and stuff, yea... thanks justin""

Where can I find Affordable Health Insurance in Florida?

Can we get cheap car insurance in the UK as Australians?

My partner and I are moving to the UK in March and had intended to buy a car. Just an Astra or something for under 1000. However, when I put our details into insurance websites it tells us we will have to pay upwards of 2000 for 3rd party insurance. I realise this is because we have not been residents or have held UK licences but is there any way to get something cheaper? This seriously hinders our plans, we can't afford that amount of money but were really hoping to have a car. Can any one give us any advice? I have put in that we have a UK licence (as we would be prepared to get upon arrival and would have to any way after 12 months) but this does little to change the quotes.""

I need money for car insurance?? help?

i am almost 17 and car insurance is sky high at the moment ranging from about 3,000-9,000 i really want a car when i pass my lisense in a couple of months and can afford a car but not the insurance. any ideas on how i can raise some money, or get some funds together?? thanks in advance :)""

""Car insurance costs, is this right?""

Im currently 19 years old and have been with Esurance for a year now. I have a 1998 honda civic and my payments are at $65 a month, im currently looking in to buying a new car and called them up tonight to get a quote for it and they said my monthly payments would increase to $360 a month (car i called about was a 2012 chevy sonic hatchback). Does this large of an increas seem correct? I have never gotten in to an accident nor needed to call upon my insurance for anything, so why does the price jump so much higher?""

How much will insurance co pay us?

i was 35 wks preg and had a car accident that was other drivers fault. had to stay overnight at hospital for pre term contractions and plancental tear from seatbelt injury. out of work for about a week befor being released from scrict bed rest. had to have someone else keep kids and all. im 37wks now and just got the ok to get chiropratic care. we both have geico and they have been really nice about everything. husband doesnt want to get a laywer yet wants to see what they offer first. just wanted to know a ballpark number to look or ask for if anyone knows.also suffered chest injury which cause me to loose my voice due to sudden onset of Gerds from seatbelt injury.still in pain and not back at work had plans on working till i had the baby but cant now.already suffer pregnancy now have pain from accident just feel terrible. help.

Im going to buy a car and insure it under my parents name..is a camaro a cheap car to insure?

what are some cars that are cheap on insurance

Best life insurance for baby? Cost?

Trying to figure out the best life insurance plan or place to use for new baby to come. How much does it cost upfront? Do you pay it overtime?

I need affordable and reliable health insurance. 23 yrs old.?

hi I am a 23 year old foreign student currently studying in the US in a student visa..I am thinking about getting an affordable health insurance that covers emergencies and any sudden diseases that might occur in future.. also may be a yearly doctor visit etc.. i do not need dental.. i just want to make sure i am covered in case of emergency.. i am just a student and do not have a stable job so i cant afford a lot.. i have heard about medicare and medicaid but they are not for foreign nationals.. i have also heard about blue cross blue shield i was thinking about going with them but what do you guys think?? and what should be the monthly price?? thank you in advance .. no advertisements or spam please!!

Wrong name on Insurance?

I have a court summons to appear in court for driving with no insurance. Now I do have insurance, just had last years paperwork with my accidentally. I noticed that the insurance company never changed my name on my insurance (I am married and my license has my married name on it) so my license and insurance don't match. I have called my insurance company and they are changing my name on my insurance paperwork but I haven't received it yet. Do you think if I brought my insurance papers (which include my car's vin #) and my marriage certificate to show the name change that would be enough? I do have insurance. (I live in Ontario Canada)""

What is the normal procedure for a car accident without insurance?

On Febuary 2012, I had a car accident and I hit the FWD Nissan, The car that I hit is still drivable condition, the only damage that I caused was a dense on the door. But My car was damaged badly, but it was fixed for $4000. Six months later, I receieved a bill from other car insurer asked me to pay $12k for the repair of the damage. HOwever, I did not recieve any phone call from the victims or the victim's insurance company at all. So is that a proper procedure for the insurer to call me and ask me about the accident? Because I did not know what I did to pay $12k, as in you could buy a new car for that....""

Insurance for a 17 year old male?

we are a fairly poor family, but have been waiting for my 17th birthday for absolutely decades, now that i am i want to drive, but EVERY car i look at seems to be asking for big numbers. a 1986 1.1l fiesta would cost 11k!!!!!!! a 2002 Hyundai Accent 1.3 over 16k my cheapest quote is for a 1988 360 VW Polo for 7k there seems to be absolutely nothing out there! are there any tips to getting lower costs? im putting it in as me insuring the car as the owner, fire and theft""

In California I Pay $16 for my two kids' health insurance as low income family?

can I do the same in New Jersey? I am afraid to move to a new state whereI don't know the roads and malls but may have to for a better life

Child support and health insurance???

If someone is going to provide health insurance (and dental,vision) for a child does that lower child support even a little??""

Why do you think insurance is important?

I am writing and essay on why insurance is important and the consequences of not having it. I just wanted to know some of your thoughts of why you think insurance is important to help me get a better understanding ! thanks in advance !

Insurance payout after lien paid?

My insurance recently sent my lien-holder, Chase Bank, the agreed amount for my totaled car. I owed about 3k less than what they paid out so am now left wondering when I will receive the difference. Chase received the payment a week ago.""

I have impacted wisdom teeth but no insurance or way to pay in cash what can I do?

My credit is too bad to get a loan

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Letting go of my fp

I was obsessed with him so much it put a strain on my relationship. It started before I was diagnosed. I didnt even know what was happening to me. Think of the biggest dickhead in the world, and imagine yourself infatuated with him. I even wondered if I had genuine feelings for him. I didnt, fucking obviously I didnt It was this fucking disorder warping everything and making my life a living hell Im not even sure why it happened. I usually keep people at a distance from me. I dont value peple in my life but he suddenly came in my life and he was the coolest, funniest, most charming son of a bitch I ever laid eyes on. (Seriously though, he is a fucking asshole.) He has a lot of issues of his own. Like super super depressed and self harming in every way you could think of. The friends group I was in? Everyone hated him. Treated him like shit, talked shit about him behind his back. I didnt understand why people could pretend to be his friend but hate him so much. It is so fucked. Anyway they probably had reason to hate him (theyre not excused from being fake assholes, he is still a fucking human being) because he was rude and mean. I was the only one who would properly call him out on his shit. I was also his biggest cheerleader and defender. I saw the positive side of him, saw how much pain he was in. I took it upon myself to try and "fix him". Lol. Obviously, that wasnt and is not and never will be possible. I became obsessed with helping him, being there for him, I forced my way into his life, I sledge hammered through the walls he had up whether he wanted it or not, and for a moment I felt so close to him and so happy because this was also the first time I had a friend of MY OWN? MINE? MY friend, because everyone-- including my girlfriend-- fucking hated him. I hadnt had an FP since I met my girlfridnd and that was 8 years ago. I had been giving HER my heart mind body and soul (dealing with the torment of that not being reciprocated for years. Honestly I feel like ill never trully feel im 100% her priority or like she loves me as much as I love her but fucking what ever). Anyway she was the one everyone was drawn to and I was always kind of the one off to the side, she would introduce people to me and thats how I would make friends. Do you see where im going with this? The preference everyone had for her over me was clear as day and I struggled with that and her being the center of attention for years. I was shy, awkwardly ugly as fuck, my fat didnt fall well on my young body yet, I was shit. Fucking pathetic and gross. She has BPD too. (Invalidated me alot when we were younger, I couldnt share any of my feelings without her making it obvious that I, and I quote, "will never be as crazy as her". I shit you not.) It all shifted when we joined a larp at this dingey little alternative school. By then, my skin was clear, my hair was the BRIGHTEST fucking pink you could imagine, still fat but I honestly wear it very well now, and my confidence was higher than it was since I was maybe 6 years old. Bitch. That group was eating out of the palm of my fucking hand. It was the first time that I was the group leader/head bitch in charge. She didnt seem to mind it! Said she was happy for me. But again. First time for me. He wanted to be my friend, too. He was intimidated I could feel it off him. It felt great. He respected me more than he did anyone else in the room and he made it apparent. I guess I internally knew him and I would be close friends and that everyone would be mad about it. One of the guys at the program was oddly possesive over me and he particularly hated my FP the most out of everyone. Started treating me different as FP and I got closer. Exluding me, doing things to pin me and FP against each other. Shit got weird. There is a whole ass history when it comes to that boy but ill bitch about that in another post. Anyway as I was trying to say before getting sidetracked, the minute I laid eyes on FP it was almost instant? I could read his vibe(badass bad boy asshole the fucking works), and on top of that he was attractive. Instant. I needed him to be my friend. My close, cool, bad ass friend. Fast forward to me crying to my brothers because my girlfriend was fed up with the little relationship I had going on with him. I began to resent her, thinking that she wasnt allowing me to have friends of my own when deep down I knew what the fuck I was doing was wrong and if I were her I would have cussed me AND FAUGHT HIM a looooong time ago, but I was lying to myself and to her. He has a girlfriend he loves very much, yet he would do things on purpose to make my girlfriend jealous? Like one time when I was running late to the program (no surprise) my girlfriend didnt have a phone at the time, I was texting him and shit telling him when I would be there and shit like that. And you know what he does? He says "its a shame you dont have a phone, because shes texting me instead of you right now." To my girlfriend. Needless to say when she told me this shit I was pissed off but did I say anything to him? No. I was hurt, though. Because just like everyone else in my fucking life, he was using me to get to her even if in a negative way. He kept doing little shit like this. He invited me over his house to play with his pets in front of my girlfriend and purposely excluding her (he had promised her she could visit and meet his cat a few weeks prior) And what did I do? Like a giddy pink school girl, I anxiously agreed to go to his house alone. in front of her. I did it because I never get asked to hang out on my own. I wanted him to be my friend and have someone be only mine for once. My distorted thinking was making me not care about how it made my girlfriend feel, because inside I was in her shoes countless times and it was sort of a silent revenge. He was toxic. I mean toxic. I felt ignored often, belittled, made to feel like I was a stupid little girl and like he was above me and like he needed to baby me, when really I was helping him better himself. A real asshole. Class A shit. My best friend and my girlfrend hated him so much at this point. It must have been so obvious to everyone else. I feel so fucking stupid. Just the other day I was trying to talk to him about some basic shit and he again ignored me and sent a meme instead. He did that thing often where you can say something to him but he will change the subject to what ever it was he wanted to be talking about, completely ignoring anything I had to say. Questions, statements, talking about my dreams or wants, opinions, all fucking ignored like it didnt fuckng matter. The other day I brought it up. He used excuses and didnt even try to listen or say sorry or that he would try and fix it. None of that. And I guess im just going to have to accept that I will never be special to him, im not valuable enough to him for him to even care or listen. Fuck him. Im fucking done with him. My girlfriend and I and the relationship isnt centered around him and I anymore, I think ive let go of him months ago but its becoming more concrete these days. I let him go the first time for her, because at the end of the day I love her over everyone and no one will ever change that... but it wasnt for me. I didnt do it to save myself I did it to save the relationship, I distanced myself. This time im letting go because im finally accepting that I need to do it for my own sake. For me. For my health. My sanity. Good bye FP. I hope this never happens to me again. -nani P.S I will try and dissect this entire situation in bpd terms at some later point. Like what caused my certain behaviors, what was happening because of my illness and trauma, a general analysis of it from what would maybe be more of a psychiatric view. Im no professional but despite all my shit im super analitical and im good at looking at cause, effect, rationalizing etc. When it comes to others and after im finished having a personal experience.

#actuallyborderline #actuallybpd #borderline personality disorder #fps #fp #letting go #recovery #actuallymentallyill #lgbtq #nani #nanirants #nanivents

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