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Major Shōgun Ep. 9 spoilers:
Yabushige truly gives meaning to the term 'rat bastard'. Toranaga factored his inevitable betrayal into his plans, and Yabushige STILL somehow managed to spring a surprise betrayal. If it wasn't so horrible, it would be impressive how two-faced the man manages to be.
So, about Mariko .... (I'm actually glad I randomly got spoiled the day before seeing this episode and was prepared otherwise I would not have survived what happened to her.)
My take ... Mariko's death was 'pointless' in the same way Nagakado's death was pointless. Nagakado died a senseless death that failed to accomplish anything, but then Toranaga gave his son's death meaning and honour by thanking Nagakado for dying to earn him some time. Mariko blocking the door with her own body served nothing in the sense that it wouldn't prevent Ishido's men from getting in nor did it change the fate of anyone else in that room. But by choosing to sacrifice herself like that and die at the hands of Ishido's agents, Mariko derailed Ishido's plan to take her captive and ensured she'd become a martyr to Toranaga's cause. Mariko not only fulfilled Toranaga's plan, she exceeded it.
Mariko's mission was to get the hostages freed or die trying and in so doing force Ishido to dishonour himself by openly revealing his hand instead of keeping up the facade that he's not keeping anyone against their will. Mariko did both: got the hostages freed and died a martyr to the cause. (Yes, Ishido may choose to turn around and keep the hostages anyway instead of releasing them as agreed, but in doing so he'll only dishonour himself further and lose more support.)
When Toranaga gets to Osaka, he'll have the moral highground and the support of the other samurai families who didn't want Mariko to die like that and who now see Ishido for what he really is. (Also, when the time comes, I think the Christian Regents will now be prepared to turn against Ishido.)
And Mariko got what she'd wanted all along: dying with honour in response to what happened to her family. Her death was meaningful. She served her duty like her father told her to. And she got to spend her last night being at peace and experiencing something like happiness with John.
Buntaro dishonoured her for so many years by keeping her alive for selfish reasons and when he finally offered her the release of death, it was also for selfish reasons. Buntaro was only willing to allow her to finally die because HE wanted to die then and wouldn't be affected by her death since he'd be gone too. Buntaro ordered Mariko to stay alive. John asked Mariko to stay alive many times, and when she ultimately wouldn't change her mind, he not only accepted and respected her decision, he honoured it by offering to second her. Mariko died knowing John finally understood. He finally got it.
Mariko died, and now she is finally free.
EDIT to add:
She died calling herself Akechi Mariko instead of Toda Mariko. She disavowed her husband and her unwanted marriage with her last words. She was truly freeing herself!!!
#shogun#shōgun#shogun spoilers#shogunedit#toda mariko#lady mariko#anna sawai#give her all the awards!!!#new patron saint unlocked#our lady mariko#but i'm still sad as fuck#crying like omi#may have to write fanfic to console myself#*meine
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Case Closed.
#dimension 20#d20#mentopolis#dimension 20 fanart#imelda pulse#hunch curio#the fix#elias hodge#daniel fucks#conrad schintz#anastasia tension#my art#what a wonderful series#I'm so sad to see it go...#I might finish up a few wip posters I still have for it though ;)
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looking back on a crime scene that he created
#edward elric#fullmetal alchemist#color study#photoshop#bro fuck photoshop and fuck my computer bc I don't run anything but the internet and ps on this rickety thing and it still can't handle it#fma03#fma#fmab#I'm SORRY he always ends up cuter than I intend#he was supposed to look annoyed but he just looks small and sad sawree#fan art#art#this pose is not my fave at all but. whatever
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weird day to have been an rt fan several years ago
#waveridden.txt#so many of my friends today are people i know because of rtah. either directly or indirectly#the people i met in that fic scene... like 8-10 years ago at this point are still some of my best friends and my mutuals#this is like. so fucked. i am sad and vindictive and outraged and feeling lots more stuff i'm not getting into outside of group chats lmao
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I really like that they made Jor-El speak Kryptonian and Clark unable to understand him. The whole "aliens speak English" thing that happens in every goddamn media has bothered me all my life. Ik sometimes Clark just gets zapped in the brain for insta-second language but that always felt like a cheap shortcut.
Jor-El had a lot on his mind when he set up that magic spaceship okay. The world was ending and he was trying to do as much as he could before time ran out so he could be there for his son. He was rushing. He likely didn't consider Kal would be raised with a whole different language and not know any Kryptonian nor have anyone to teach him.
#my adventures with superman#two talks#he still might get zapped with kryptonian but at least it wasn't immediate#let there be a language barrier#it hits home so hard too bc i barely speak my mom's language and can't really talk to my family members bc of iz#it*#that's what being raised on a different planet IS! It's isolating and sad bc that's your FAMILY and you can't even understand them#fucking love superman#clark is so close and yet so far bc everything he craves to know about himself is Right There#but he doesn't speak the language of his own people and has no way to learn#it's heartbreaking and i'm so fucking here for it
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lil secret desire of mine is like. i hide my face a lot and I fucking dream about being forced out of that; someone pulling my hands away, or grabbing my chin and making me look at them, or otherwise not letting me hide away
sexually or not that shit slaps so good every fucking time 😵💫
#fuckin. soft or violent both are so amazing#sexually context is great#but it's also so fucking good when like. you're sad and want to be comforted#that idea that they still wanna see your face they want you to stop hiding enough to pull you to them#oiughjgg#hi I'm normal and definitely don't have any trauma what are you talking about
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All this softness and no one is here to feel it. Shameful.
CashApp | Venmo | Ko-fi
#i'm so sad to be leaving this place in a few days#gotta take advantage of the mirror while i still can#anyone wanna come fuck me in front of it?#mine 🩶#princess pics
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*Tap mic*
Yes, it is I - your poor little Dollya
As some of you may have known already because of my constant whining and bickering for the past few days, my original blog was flagged and I'm trying to appeal. Things seem to not be on my side, though, so I figured a new blog is a must.
I won't delete the og blog, there are too many things going on over there and I simply can not. All my contributions to the DoL fandom, my AU and asks and stuffs,... have all been hidden away from the tags.
Not gonna lie I was terribly discouraged and couldn't pick up a pen to draw or do anything for several days. Terrible, just simply terrible, to look at the ask box or that stupid default avatar icon... But, well, you know, it is what it is, no point just weeping around so might as well make a new place to post stuffs!
This is a sub-blog with the same email address as the flagged one, I think I would still use the same tags as the original flagged blog: Dollya art, Dollya ask,... and I won't repost my higher interaction posts here either, that's just bitter.
I will post more "community-friendly" kinds of stuff here, so spicier asks or requests oughta go to the original blog' ask box... I don't really know, I guess things will kinda fall into the right places after some time... What do you call it? Settle down?
Anyway, I'll try to be positive. After all, the Pandora box was opened, so if I don't hold onto the tiny hope left behind, I will have nothing.
Let's just hope for the best.
#dollya art#dol pc#robin the orphan#dol robin#dol fanart#degrees of lewdity#dol#You can already tell I'm still very sad :( and I'm gonna be a bitch about it to the day Tumblr un-flagged me that blog is my everything#I didn't spend every last thread of my sanity drawing and answering to be flagged fuck it I haven't even opened any commission slot yet#I won't let that blog go what if my mutuals come back one day and wonder where am I?? Some of them've gone for a while I want to wait#my face is exactly how my icon looks: fucking bitter and can't do anything#Lya the Blossom#Lyah the Emancipated
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My FSH is high, which means that I can't...
Maya and Carina || Station 19 - 7.05 ‘My Way’
#not a surprise tbh… we all kinda predicted it#but still very sad#why carina has to always suffer this much?!#just give her a break and let her live and be happy#for fucks sake#i'm glad they can still try and she can still be pregnant tho#but maya won’t ever hold her little carina and that makes me very upset#marina#maya x carina#maya and carina#maya bishop#carina deluca#station 19#station19edit#danielle savre#stefania spampinato#mine#otp: you’re my home#tv: s19
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'Harellan'
Solas: Dragon age
Mixed media on paper
#I was aiming for the ancient sad puppy eyes#the 'i'm faced with the burden of my mistakes every day' kinda look#haunted by the past kinda vibe#the look while thinking of Lavellan kinda look#the 'fuck i fucked up do you think she still thinks of me kinda look??!#'I have only dedicated the last few thousand murals to my Vhenan while drowning in my sorrows and Heartbreak' kind of look#honestly heartbreak is a good look on him? I mean yes he's one of my favourite characters but i still like watching him suffer i am sorry#and i'm awful#like we're all suffering in solavellan hell#heartbreak solas#solavellan#solavellen hell#solasmance#solas dragon age#solas dread wolf#da: dreadwolf#fen'harel#ancient betrayer#harellan#the dread wolf#solavellan hell#da fanart#fanart#my art#my fanart#dragon age fanart#dragon age#traditional media#illustration#dragon age inquisition
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R.I.P. Achievement Hunter
2008 - 2023
It was fun while it lasted.
#achievement hunter#gavin free#michael jones#jeremy dooley#alfredo diaz#trevor collins#matt bragg#lindsay jones#geoff ramsey#jack pattillo#fucking tumblr ate my first post so fuck you tumblr#i know i have not been active in the fandom for awhile and this honestly feels like it's been a long time coming#but I'm still a bit sad#sure it could be toxic as hell and some of the fans were absolutely the worst#but for a very long time#Achievement Hunter was my home#good luck to (most of) the cast in their future endeavors#thanks for the good times and the laughs and for being there for me when i really needed you#💚💚💚
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Idk I was thinking about that invention that let them see into the future. Like a revision of it or something that showed different possible realities and outcomes
(Plus I just needed an in between commissions doodle thing)
#i haven't drawn them in a bit sorry it's so messy#I'm still trying to work on commissions I'm sorry it's been taking so long I've been so fucking busy#and also sad#and hghghhh#I'm sorry#pinky and the brain#dark pinky#my art#art#doodle#drawing#digital art#fanart
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I have another idea for a story, but I once again don't know what to write, so I'm building a skeleton.
It's a DC x DP x ML crossover. Damien, Marinette, and Danny are triplets born into the LoA. From birth, they were taught to not see each other as siblings but as rivals for Ra's attention. When they were five, they were dipped (more like dropped) into the pits for the first time. Danny never comes back out. The second time was when they were six. Damien and Marinette came back from a mission gravely injured. Marinette doesn't come back out. Damien becomes the sole heir.
As one can imagine, Danny and Marinette aren't dead but simply taken to where they were needed at the time. That being said, things for these two characters go mostly according to their respective shows after they integrate into society. With the exception that the two of them are more competent and don't fight like rabid raccoons. But things take a dark turn when they turn sixteen.
Marinette
. After finding out that his father is Hawkmoth, Adrien is unable to carry the weight of being the holder of the cat Miraculous, as he doesn't want to fight his father and gives it to Ladybug. He promptly moves to the States to further his modeling career. Marinette, unable to find someone else worthy to be the holder of the cat Miraculous, stores it away and becomes the sole hero of Paris (with occasional helpers). But because of this, her two lives get more intertwined, and she is forced into a corner where she has to choose between being Ladybuy or Marinette.
. But she doesn't get a chance as Hawkmoth is dethroned and replaced by an even greater threat. She is forced to take on the persona of LadyNoir. Her life crumbles as she tries her hardest to balance her life as a hero and a person. She tries to save everyone but someone always ends up getting hurt. Whether it be her as Marinette, clinging to what little of her life is left. Or her as LadyNoir, with no choice but to watch innocent civilians die because she couldn't think of a better plan that could've saved everyone.
. It gets to the point where she makes an unforgivable wish. But every wish has a cost. She only finds out the price when she is forced to stand behind an invisible wall and watch as her life replays before her eyes, the film slowly burning away till there's nothing left. She cries as she falls into an ocean of familiar Lazarus green.
Danny
. Danny's life is also crumbling around him as he struggles to separate his human life from his ghost half. But after becoming the Ghost King, things only became more complicated and even more dangerous as more ghosts started coming through the portal to challenge him for the crown. And while he would really love to give it away, the guys that kept fighting him for it are very clearly evil. So he has to keep fighting, winning, and solidifying his position as the King of the Infinite Realms. But with every win comes a newfound power. Power he doesn't want. Power that scares him.
. It gets to the point when Danny has to drop out of school. He wasn't even scoring double digits anymore so what was the sense of keeping him? But Danny couldn't stay home either, it was too dangerous as his ghost and human halves were slowly becoming one. And his parents' obsession was slowly becoming a threat to him. He thought he had the solution. He was going to shut down the portal and leave Amity Park.
. It was perfect really, as no ghost portal meant no ghost. And he couldn't be vivisected if neither the GIW nor his parents could catch him. He talked the plan over with team phantom and they reluctantly agreed. The ghost portal is destroyed, and Danny leaves Amity and files over Elmerton and a few other towns. But after flying for a while, Danny gets to a sort of border where nothing meets... NOTHING. On the other side was just an infinite void. Nothing.
. Danny slowly realizes that in this world, all he knew was Amity Park. He never actually traveled or went on field trips. Never went to visit extended family nor did any visit. No one 'new' ever came to Amity Park because they were all just nearby. He learned no relevant history besides Amity Park because there was nothing outside of Amity Park. When the realization had finally set in the world began to crumble into the void and it became a race against him and the void.
. Danny knew that he was fast but the void was faster, and before he knew it he was back in Amity. He was going to warn them and try to save as many people as he could. But saw something in their eyes. They already knew. Danny watched how teary eyes and big smiles, everyone and everything he loved crumbled into the void, fading into nothingness.
Scientists across the galaxy, the universe even, often theorize about how everything came to be. Well, it didn't start with a bang, that's for sure. 'Well then how did it start?' you might ask.
Well..., it started with some tears and a scream.
#dp x dc#ml x dc#ml x dp#dp x dc x ml crossover#dpxdc#dcxdp#dp x dc crossover#dc x dp#dp x dc prompt#dp dc crossover#dc x dp prompt#while I'll admit that I didn't think Danny's part very well I still think it's pretty angsty and sad#I'm also not a big fan of the Miraculous Ladybug show but I am proud of how good hers sounds#there's obviously more but if i add it it'll end up being to long so pt2 coming soon#also I'm very obviously setting up for Danny and Marinette to become fucking GODS#idk about Damien yet tho#think I'm going to let him simmer in jealousy for-#ahh shit im spoiling#nvrm that tag yall#wait till pt2
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there’s just something about a good superior-subordinate professional relationship built upon mutual hate...
#they are both children#edward elric#alphonse elric#roy mustang#fullmetal alchemist#also don't tag this romantically that shit is weird......#this is a mutually despised relationship between superior and subordinate and it's hilarious#yeaaaa I'm still on this... sorry unwilling followers ily#my art has to be funny because the source material is fucking dark it doesn't need more angst#genuinely I subscribe to the idea that roy and ed care about eachother but I also subscribe to the idea that they'd rather die than say so#mutual respect is the closest they will get#alphonse is really becoming my fave ... like ed is my fave bc idk he has nice fashion and he's very sad but alphonse is just so !!!!!!!#fma 03#fma 2003#fmab#even tho that's not what I watch#you are still welcome here I guesssssss :-)#k bye#tw blood
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Yukine's journey toward acceptance of the life that was robbed of him, this time with finality, exemplifies the emotional and beautifully rendered arc that has defined his character.
Yukine finally accepting the reality of his death. Yukine stepping out from the fridge that contained memories of what was once his life. Yukine freeing himself from the shackles of his trauma. Yukine running to protect the person who cherished him the most in the world. Yukine standing up to an abusive father. Yukine wholeheartedly apologizing. Yukine's growth, and Yato tearing up as he stretches his little arms to pull him for an embrace.
Yukine's gratitude for what Yato did for him is evident throughout the series. He was given a name more precious than any other. He was treated like a human--an ordinary teenage boy. And life after that was one exciting journey after another. Now, Yukine can no longer be entirely consumed by the horrors of his past because he knows that his reality with Yato is so much brighter. Far brighter.
Yukine could break out from that refrigerator because of the true, sincere, and nurturing love shown by the only father figure in his life. Yato has said multiple times throughout the series that Yukine was his priority above all else, and Yukine was the only person he swore to protect the most. Hell, he even went straight to hug him after Yukine apologized for turning into that form! Yato did not need to summon Yukine. Yukine came to protect Yato on his own decision. As he always did.
The journey to their healing will be painful, and this chapter shows that Yato and Yukine will face it together. No more secrets and no more miscommunications. They will help and be by each other's side as they always have, not only as god and shinki but, this time, as family.
"I will not let him die. Not Yato. No matter what happens... I swear I won't let anyone take him from me!" -Yukine, Noragami Vol. 17 Chapter 67.
#noragami manga#noragami 104.2#ah yes i've finally calmed down#i am still however sad as fuck but at the same time relieved#my boys have reconciled and i look forward to the yato and yukine duo once again :')#i was rereading my fave chapters and i missed seeing them in battle TOGETHER#hopefully we get that next chapter when they completely annihilate father <3#i love them so much and i love this series sm#i will never shut up abt them man. their father and son dynamic is one of the best and i will stand by this till the day i die#i remember a post i made abt hoping yukine's life w yato will outweigh the grief of his past#and it did :'))))) it really did. yukine realized that himself and now he is back with yato#he is back by yato's side. the place where he rightfully belongs#i'm so emotional rn holy shit i've had this chapter dominate my head for the whole day today#anw WAR IS OVER LADIES Yukine has come back home 😭🫶#noragami#noragami spoilers#yukine#yato#mine
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I'm happy that the "Helen is of Sparta, not Troy" post is getting seen and people are giving love to her as they should but I'm getting a wee bit frustrated by the Menelaus inclusion with the whole "She was a possession to others and never had a choice".
Yes, Helen is a victim of fate and multiple horrible circumstances. She gets kidnapped by Theseus and Paris. So much blame is being put on her when she really isn't at fault and doesn't have much choice.
A choice she made though? WAS MENELAUS!
The Oath of Tyndareus was all about how "If you want to have a chance of marrying her, you have to swear to respect her and her choice and defend their marriage if it's needed".
If anything, Menelaus was her "prize"! Not the other way around!!! And they are clearly shown caring for one another!!! uyfuygluhyutfugy
#we technically don't know EXACTLY why she chose him but that doesn't matter with this. She still chose him.#She picked the goofy guy!!! :D She picked the silly sealy guy!!!🦭#Menelaus: Hello! I'm Helen's Husband🥰#Not people erasing women's agency even when it's explicitly stated.#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#menelaus#helen of sparta#helen x menelaus#tagamemnon#greek mythology#fuck it. I'll use normal tags. I'm getting sad about this. More for Helen.#She didn't have a choice all the time but the time we KNOW she did and people will act like she didn't.#That's not even going into her yelling at Aphrodite and Paris and her knocking on the side of the horse!#this is very semi-unserious btw. I'm talking about the Sealy boy. That's clearly for the silly.
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