#but I was like 9 and have adhd
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thinking about the time my dad let us taste a raw sugar beet that fell off of a truck thinking we would be grossed out by the taste but he ended up needing to stop me from eating half the thing after I tasted it
#my dad is a farmer okay?#and I love root vegetables and sugar#so feral child me would sneak bites of beets that fell off the trucks into the yard and split open#emma posts#it had fallen onto the shop floor and he was like 'that's not a great place to eat off of'#but I was like 9 and have adhd#this wasn't even a young beet#I know people eat those sometimes#but this was a mature one the size of my face at least#he was like 'unprocessed is far less sweet and adult beets are tougher. these children will not like it'#and I was just like 'crave the sweet dirt root'#I really don't know how to describe the taste but it's not bad#it's not like the beet sugar you buy after processing#it's like wet and kind of tough and cold but has a kind of earth sweetness?#us being myself and at least one of my brothers
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im going to be so annoying all week
#agghagahah HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HYYESAAHHHH#★ arin rambles#BRO BRO PLEASLE#PELASE#my apology for everyone. I have to make it now . Sorry. If youre following me destroy that notif button you dont wanna hear how worse i will#get#actually no just Unfollow entirely#ITS THE ADHD#PLEASE. HE IS SO . COOL. his trailer is so awesome IVE REWATECHED IT 3 TIME SNOW.#I LOVE HIMMMMMMM SO MUCHHHHH#I LOVE HIM SO BAD I JUST ADORE HIM PLEASE#HES SO PRETTY. JAW DROPPING. ICONIC. LIFE CHANGING. THE TEARS IN MY EYES. GENUINELY SOBBING RITHT NOW IT S SO OVER#aventurine likers hold me. Nobody understands. Everyone is scared of me im too crazy#actually its everything wrong with me . Hes ruining my life#i dont struggle as an aventurine liker i actually excel at this its my full rime job now#‘9 to 5’ no i work 9 to 9. Every hour is dedicated to him#im glad uguys agree with me thannk uou i was starting to think i was a freak#Well i am but im glad someone else agrees hes cool#Hes so pretty im so happy#I CAMT WAIT RILL WENDENSDAY PLEASE IM GONNA FREAKIFN BLOW UP#I LOVE AVENTURINE. I LOVE AVETURINE.#i get so happy when i see him i get a little violent its unsettling .#like im like shaking my hands and jumping around my room and then u blink and im bashing my head against the floor#its carpet. Im ok. But like not but i am#DUDE. I LOVE. THIS GUY. EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM#i needto. Just. Okay brb gonna watch ir like 20 more times ill see u guys next year im going into a Aventurine induced coma#this makes me realize people read my tags. Oh dear. Sorry everypony#i apologize for my behavior. I will get so much scarier.#HES SO COOL. HES ACTYALLU SO COOL. LIKE HOW CAN SOMEBODY BE SO COOL.#oh god OH LORERDRDRDDDDDDD WHEN I GET YOU BOY WHEN I FIND YOU. WATCH OUT. WATCH OUT I WILL GET YOU.
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Hey question 4 autistic/adhd/ppl who didn't socialize much as a child, do y'all have ppl say shit like "can't you talk about anything besides yourself?"/"you're really selfish/self centered" to you??
#the last couple times I've been trying 2 talk 2 mom she keeps saying shit like that and its bugging me#bc 2 me im just having a conversation abt my day or whatever#or im saying smthn i wanted to tell her b4 i forget which occasionally interrupts her#and she keeps saying it like im being this narcissistic person or smthn. as if me talking abt the MH dolls i saw @ work last week is like-#idk man. like im boasting abt how great i am. also she asked when i was gonna grow up after i talked abt the dolls so.#anyway#ive noticed that idk how 2 rlly hold conversations with other ppl so i just- default to talking abt somethin i did or whatever#when idk how 2 respond 2 smthn. is that rlly me being self centered?#i just- all i had 2 talk 2 for the last like- 8 or 9 years was myself and now i have 2 socialize again & i feel like im being rude#or only talking abt myself bc i have no experience with talking 2 other ppl#idk#anyway lmk#autism#adhd#elliot rambles
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b4 i go to sleep i have a quetsion
#i def should have made this when i was more awake so i couldve made it more. like better ig 💀#i kind of forgot somehow that bpd chloe wasnt implied. im just so used to it i Forgor#just double clarifing for everybody sho doesnt have the timestamps on. i made this at ONE AM while i was half alseep#i would put other stuff other than adhd autism and neurotypical but that is what the Other choice is for :p#i will be genuinely surprised someone votes on max being neurotypical#i have to look away from the poll to stop trying t make it pretty/organized#anyways for me personally i say either choice 1 or choice 3#so technically choice 9#anyways#lis#life is strange#poll#max caulfield#chloe price#headcanons#hcs#i’ll probably add more tags tmmr
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I must have said Larry isn't his actual name, right? That's an entire Sir Larold of Lichen
Will be putting these in my pinned post for more charas eventually, as inspiration strikes :>
#SILVS ADHD PROOF CHARACTER SUMMARIES (BRIEF) (MANIPULATED WITH COLOURS) (SPACED)#ok thats at least a bit of a lie they arent adhd proof it takes me ages to narrow down the info from a huge rant#i have to manipulate myself into writing stuff with pretty colours!!!#oc:dralsin#oc:fedsy#oc:larry#ocposting#gw2#oh wait. btw.#larry is actually like 6“9 without the shroom hes a LIAR!
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decided to make a list of all my diagnosed issues and like fucking. god damn. how am i just living day to day.
#nine bullet points#of diagnosed things i struggle#i struggle with#1. type one diabetes 2. adhd 3. bipolar 4. severe anxiety 5. depression 6. insomnia 7. migraines 8. dpdr 9. ptsd#and im just ?? existing like this??? literally how what the fuck#there’s more than that too thats just like the actual able to be diagnosed shit#probably also at least slightly autistic but my psychologist said that its not bad enough to impact me big time and a diagnosis would do mor#more harm than good so im just kind. Not lmao#but also: abandonment issues self worth issues guilty conscience issues feeling unworthy of literally everything issues#awful at establishing boundaries#sh issues#(not for like years but its a struggle to not relapse every year esp during winter)#suicidal ideation but at least ive never actually been suicidal#not bc i particularly love being alive but because the fact that i dont know what comes after death scares me too much lmao#even at my lowest of lows i have not wanted to kms SOLELY bc the unknown scares me enough to be like#yeah this sucks but at least i know it#at least it’s like familiar which is sad but still true lma#OH ALSO eating disorder lmao. diabulimia is a thing.#genuinely how have i not been fucking hospitalized#not in a bad way but like. idk how i havent gotten to that point yet#tho to be fair there are multiple points i probably should have been tbh#i just. dont want to worry people? or inconvenience anyone. and i know im not gonna kms so its easy to be like ‘i dont need that’#i have overshared way too much in these tags sorry i’ll stop now#if anyone has actually read all of these: i’m sorry. i love you. i hope you feel better than i do. i hope you smiled today.
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SPEAKING MY TRUTH ‼️‼️ I got carried away when scribbling the trolls and drew some of my headcanons (giggle) + some eriroxy things <|:)
#homestuck#hs#roxy lalonde#eridan ampora#eriroxy#wwizards#YAAAYY t4t eriroxy you have my heart an soul#fefetasprite#nepeta leijon#karkat vantas#aradia medigo#im so close to figuring out how to draw all these trolls i just need to draw terezi i think#i love rezi .... maan i have got to draw her more#also. umumum these doodles made me really happy for some reason. i think it was the headcanons#i think i like seeing a bit of myself in these characters i love it i love it so much#i was very happy drawing these i think i am going to draw MORE !!!#probably an adhd moment to be honest. thing im hyperfixated on makes me happy more at 9#potatart
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I wonder how many tags i can add on to this
#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30?#idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo#this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed#the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do.#i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg#but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count?#I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or#something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who#thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding#very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting#absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is#basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post.#why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags*#it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows.#where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since#i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li#type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to#be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell#'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one.#this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer#anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can.#which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi#whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23#except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang#i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue#i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan#to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone.#thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really...#...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though#would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y
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Me when a single day alters the course of my life forever
#in a good way ofc#(gonna start rambling today was a good day)#so like. made plans last night to hop on and play some warframe with a friend#thst friend is uber cool. and also american so we dont get to vc and game togethdr much#but i woke up at 8 30#had brekkie#and got on at 9#played gamed with coolest homie for 3 hours#watched the first ep of jjk while eating food w them and takijg a breather from games#as we finished up motivation hit so i had my adhd med abt 20 mins before we finished#cut my hair so i no longer feel wonky abt the length#tried a new way of styling the cut and it works really well#then went to the mall to get some things ive been meaning to get for years#came back home cleaner my room#saw facebook advert for a job opportunity i have been seeking out for quite some time#sent in a very formal and well written email application while figuring out how to go further in depth about the things i said#went back to room and sewed on the last remaining badge for my scout uniform#checked up on fb for scout things happening tonight#hyped myself up to go#night went better than i thought it would and nobody got unreasonably upset and everyone stayed levelheaded#and!! i got secretary!! one of the four core exec roles!!!#came home and chatted to parents about an event they went to#it was just. such a good day#and now i eeby#ren rambles#OH AND NOT TO MENTION#before i came home but after scouts#i talked with my closest friends abt my hyperfixations (and the ones we share!!) and it was sososo fun#i love sharing hyperfixes with friends#<3333
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A fun thing about me is that when I was in high school we got a smart TV and my dad named it batcomputer because he's a dork so when you chromcast or connect to it with another device the TV shows up as batcomputer right. And now that I have my own place I thought that was so funny because I'm also a dork that my TV is also called batcomputer and honestly? 10/10 I love telling my device called batcomputer to blast my chemical romance while I study Just Like Bruce Wayne. Only good smart appliance.
#The adhd meds have NOT kicked in yet I need to be grading papers#OH the batcomputer™️ is now playing green day#JUST like Bruce Wayne#This is my study Playlist it's like 9 hours long
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Six more weeks of timesheets to input and then I'm FREE for the semester...
I feel like I deserve some sort of reward for finishing this...maybe a small treat...but what?
#Xayk Hates College#And For Reassurance When I Say Six Weeks I Mean Three Days Each Week#They're 20 Hour Weeks And I Just Have To Bullshit About 12 Of Them -- 9 After Adjusting For Progress Note Writing#I'm Just Very *chomps down and shakes head like a terrier* About Paperwork In General#Couldn't Be The ADHD Certainly...No...
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...i'm starting to wonder if i wasn't actually pretty often failed by the adults in my life as a young kid tbh.
#i'm always doubtful where to put the blame#in a morally neutral causality kind of way to be clear#because like. i dont know. if i was the adult. confronted to the opaque behavior of a child. would i have done better?#but also i can't help but think#why the fuck did they make me skip a grade (last grade of primary on top of that) when i was notorious for never doing my homework#and was incredibly inconsistent across topics#like i sucked at math. like ''needs to count on fingers to do a simple addition or substraction'' sucking at math.#like i never learned any multiplication tables sucking at math#like i never got how to pose divisions and still can't at age 18 because logicomathematics are completely counterintuitive to me#and just. the work was never done to make me Get It. my work or teachers' work who knows. but perhaps skipping a grade wasnt the solution#or like#apparently when i was three years old the pediatrician suspected smth was up with me#either autism directly or ''generally suspicious child'' we're not clear on that#but he told my parents. and everybody said ''we better test that'' and then. nothing. idk.#they filled a parental report of behaviors questionnaire for... adhd i think? autism maybe. and that's it. never fucking heard about it.#god. i just remembered my mom saying proudly they almost never put me in the nursery as a kid.#always either with a parent or family or a nanny.#and perhaps mother. you could have foreseen that a kid with no siblings no pets no kid neighbors no playdates. would end up socially fucked#i remember the teachers scolding late students and showing us that we were supposed to be in bed by 9:30 or something#and internally i was like BUDDY AT 9PM WE'RE HALFWAY THROUGH DINNER#MOM'S BEEN HOME FOR LESS THAN AN HOUR#and shit. i don't know. i was scared of the dark as a child. to the point that even with the compromise#of keeping the door ajar and lights in the hallway (which i had to fucking advocate for btw)#i still slept curled up in the bathroom on a towel sometimes when it got too scary#and i would cry and scream before going to bed. i would beg my mom for sleeping pills from a young age.#i would often find myself in the morning sleeping with my face smushed between the pages of the book i literally fell asleep on#because i read until my eyes gave out#and a couple years later when i got a 3ds i'd play at night and if my dad caught me he'd storm into my room and i'd hide under the comforte#and he'd punch a couple times and whisper-yell at me not to do that and go to sleep#it took until i was about 15yo for me to see a sleep specialist
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Do any of y'all have adhd and bipolar or know of any good accounts of what having both is like? I've noticed that I've been having some seriously abnormal moods recently, and the more I look into it, the more I think that it looks a lot like bipolar, but I'm not sure how it would interact with my adhd, or even if there's anything other than my adhd going on at all. Feel free to DM me if you don't want to talk about it publicly
#personal#adhd#bipolar#(?)#as an example of the mood swings: last night i worked on a project that isnt for a grade from 6pm to 1am with a 20 minute dinner at 9#and now im 10 minutes into my first class of the day. and im sitting on my bed in my robe not even dressed from the shower#(yes the class is in-person)#and i know i need to get up and move but its just not happening#and this isnt super weird for me w the adhd but ive been having really long stretches of unsteerable hyperfocus for a few days#when normally being medicated means i can control the general direction of the hyperfocus#and since monday ive felt like i need less sleep and have been even more nocturnal than usual which i think is making mornings harder#and ive been feeling like im on top of the world#like being late to class doesn't matter and i can spend my time doing what i want to even if i have other shit to do.#ive been super late to classes recently bc of executive dysfunction in the morning#and hyperfocus in between classes.#idk it feels like im losing it a bit and im really frustrated by my dumbass brain rn.#n e way. that was a long ass rant. pls lmk if youve got any experience w this or any resources that talk ab it. thx!❤️
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Ok just a question but is it normal to stim when you’re not neurodivergent cuz I realized today how much I stim I just got very very overwhelmed and I was like flapping my hands and scrunching my whole upper body at points which does happen when I get like that a lot and I read that that’s a stim? I don’t know if it is but I just wanna know if it’s like normal or if it just figity or something cuz a lot of people have told me both things that it’s stimming and that it’s just me being figity so I don’t know at this point
#stimming#i just want to know if I’m just figity#Cuz I can’t sit for long amounts of time unless I’m focused like now writing this#So I just wanna get a second opinion#Googles not helping either it’s just showing me tests for autism#I don’t have autism#Or adhd#Please don’t mind the typos it’s like 9 and I’m tired
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#im very curious bc me and my sister are diagnosed and my brother suspects he has it#it helps my sister focus#it wakes my brother up/he'll get withdrawals/hes literally a different person without coffee#id have to say im secret fifth option#if im dead tired. it makes me feel a little less dead.#but i can go a whole day without. i usually do my 9-5 shifts without a coffee in the morning#it doesn't keep me awake like i can drink a coffee at 11pm and still fall asleep at 12#but it does help a little????? it doesn't do nothing??? id rather have a coffee than not????#also when i go to Starbucks i usually get a drink with 3 or 4 shots. and i usually make them blonde#thats a lot of caffeine!!!! but it just sorta kinda helps#adhd#mental health#neurodivergent#polls
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i gotta say, a cool $5k in my bank account would be really cool right about now
#combo of my good gas mileage car getting held ransom and my brother suddenly moving out and raising my rent 50% has me. augh#mostly making the post bc the barely-more-than-interest payments on my credit card feel Fucking Bad and if i could just. not have that. wow#like i can still get takeout on occasion and eat gluten free bagels and chicken breasts. i will be fine. but also. augh.#also though dont even get me started on the gluten removal tax. it triggers my fibro shit really badly so if i want to work..#i will pay $6 for a box of crackers and $9 for a loaf of bread. and thats most of the easy lunches to take to work right there.#and the adhd makes it hard to plan other lunches in advance... you can see the issues#i cant even have. like. backup lunches or anything. no cup noodle in my classroom or anything like that. cos they have BREAD#and FLOUR.#actually though now that i think about it i could leave some cans of soup in my classroom. thatd be a good idea. anyway.#contribute to the random-tumblr-asshole's curry takeout and can of soup fund today#squawk
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