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Anna Kendrick | BTS Shape Magazine photoshoot
#anna kendrick#breathing getting difficult#and why does it feel like my heart is on fire and melting at the same time?! 🔥❤️🔥#stunning beauty#shape magazine
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stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!
wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end
#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh#some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2#recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person#and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety#like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that#my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms#UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child#so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had#a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time#which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem!#its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it#and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome'#instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems!#anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now!#house md#hilson#greg house#james wilson#stacy warner
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That moment when you have a character you realise you'll never be able to draw accurately since most of his charm lies in the way he moves and his overall aura. I'm a masochist, clearly.
My OC Nightshade, anyway, who is an absolute PAIN to draw. But this is definitely my most successful attempt so far! So there's that :D
#Art#OCs#Nightshade#Also known as The Dramatic Bitch (TM)#He is absolutely HILARIOUS#Because he's so graceful and refined#And so very pretty#But also the pettiest bitch imaginable#And a full-blown psychopath#Who throws tantrums when he doesn't know how to handle his own emotions#Which is always#He manipulates people as easy as breathing#And can copy emotions FLAWLESSLY#But gets overwhelmed as soon as he experiences real ones#I'm so sorry you have feelings Nightshade#That must be so difficult for you#You disaster
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Among all those comments, a particular one caught her attention.
– Dear author-nim. It was a great read. May I ask about your release schedule?
Such an unparalleled naivete that made him use his real name as the username. Han Sooyoung stared at that name for a long, long time. She looked closer, and discovered another comment attached to it.
– Are you… going to release another chapter tomorrow?
She repeatedly clenched and unfurled her fists many times. Sweat was soaking her small hands.
Is it really okay for me to write this?
Even then, isn't it fine this way?
Han Sooyoung hesitated for a long time, before typing her reply.
While thinking about a certain someone, still alive beyond this screen.
While thinking about a certain boy who'd breathe, eat, shout some nonsense about 'I'm Yoo Joonghyuk', and do whatever it takes to endure his own apocalypse.
And so, the story of a regressor that reached 3149 chapters started in this manner.
– Yes. A new chapter will be published tomorrow.
I WAS RIGHT!!!!!!!!
Well, I was right after I spent like half the novel convinced the author was actually Dokja. At least I wasn't alone in thinking that, considering Sooyoung thought so too. 😂
Though I do love that it's not at all how I thought it was. I figured she was the author and just forgot because she lost half her memories to her avatar and just assumed that Dokja wrote it because that was the most logical option that her Predictive Plagiarism could come up with.
Was not expecting all this wibbly wobbly, timey wimey stuff, though I guess I should have by the time I reached the end of the novel and all sorts of things in the beginning were being affected by the ending. Time travel. Dimension travel. Just full of paradoxes.
I loooooove though that the novel is "trash" because she has to speed write it as fast as possible based on vague memories while using Predictive Plagiarism (...plagiarizing herself...) because she only has a limited time with her own body and also because she needs to keep Dokja engaged, needs to pump out chapters as fast as humanly possible to give him his reason to live until the next day.
And I love that the reason it only has one view is because she doesn't bother to read it, not even to typo check. She already knows it has a reader. A paradox it may be, I love that the novel truly was written for Dokja and not just after the first hundred or so chapters when all the other readers fell off. Nope, it was written for him and him alone from the very beginning. Sooyoung already knows that she doesn't have to make it good, she just has to make it, and that in turn will save him, even if it dooms millions of others.
Oh man, Sooyoung seeing him in the hospital after he tried to jump out of a window and wondering where the heck tls123 is, why haven't they started posting yet, they need to hurry up and save this unbelievably precious idiot. 😭💖
Sooyoung of all people having to wrestle with the knowledge that if she saves one person, she will kill billions (perhaps trillions) of other people across multiple worldlines.
Well, actually, perhaps it's fitting that it is Sooyoung of all people because I don't know how many others in Dokja's party who would doom this entire universe of parallel worlds to save a single person, even if that single person is Dokja himself.
Like, it parallels pretty well with what's going on with Sooyoung's other half...she's the weird one in the group who wants to go save the Dokja they left on the train while even Dokja's incarnation is worried that they're going to cause a lot of harm in the process and open up another worldline of tragedy, which they all know Dokja would not want.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that Han Sooyoung is perhaps one of the few people selfish enough to save Kim Dokja at the cost of the entire universe and it's so interesting to think back on the fact that she literally tried to get Joonghyuk to kill him way back in the earliest chapters and now she's using Joonghyuk to save him.
(Oh man...when Joonghyuk finds out who his creator is...)
#granted it's almost difficult to think of hsy as yjh's creator because of all the weird circular time travel stuff#like...yjh lived as a real person because dokja read about him...dokja read about him because hsy wrote it...#hsy wrote it based on things dokja told her and things the living breathing yjh said and did or MIGHT have based on his real personality#...the personality that she gave him...which dokja read and brought to life...which made hsy write it later...around and around we go#like she's his creator but also it's almost like yjh created himself along with the help of dokja???#lol orv you hurt my brain sometimes but I love you#(also hankim shippers rise up! get you a woman who will destroy the universe for you!)#orv spoilers#orv epilogue spoilers#orv#orv novel chapter 532#omniscient reader's viewpoint#orv liveblog#hsy#kdj
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has anyone ever had such a bad panic attack that it makes the back of your neck hurt 🤨🤨🤨
#I just had a really bad one and started PANICKING even more#cause I was like. omg. bitch. you’re not getting enough oxygen to your brain#which made breathing even MORE difficult#but I’m doing better now!!!!#this wasn’t a cry for help but I’m genuinely curious#bc I’ve had panic disorder since I was like 11/12 and this has never happened#and it just freaked me out a bit#I’m gonna go lay down now tho 👍🏽#—in store chit chat! 🍫
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#one day at a time#the only way out is through#you will be okay#eventually#you will get through this#coping#difficult times#breathe#self care#mental health
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Film Thanapat and Jam Rachata for Madan Magazine - Behind the Story
For @ladymcbetth
#Film Thanapat#Jam Rachata#To sir with love#khun chai#jamfilm#nads gifs#mjtag#alright sharkloans i see you <3#film you are way too...it gets difficult to breathe
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… well I wasn’t planning on finding THAT while cleaning
#dove rambles#cleaning my room which is also in the basement (old field stone basement)#and things can get in; usually bumblebees#but i found a fucking RAT. A DEAD FUCKING RAT#and it’s MOLDY!!! (it was behind a storage thing which is difficult to move)#how do I react to this?!?!?!#like I put on a mask so I don’t breathe in the spores but I’m shakey
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so home cant eat metal but can she eat plastic? is the house immune to microplastics
also if i spilled some nasty chemicals or a bunch of lead paint would it poison her. and if so how would host react cuz the thing nearly had a stroke when thatcher broke a window
She can eat plastic, though it's. really not good for her. same with chemicals, it can just make her really sick.
Host would. not appreciate it definitely. would be super worried over Home getting ill.
#asks are neat#home (tmc)#Cleaning in the torres House has to be done with gentle soaps and no harsh chemicals.#Otherwise the walls make weird gurgly noises and secrete a substance you can't identify.#Breathing gets a bit harder when you smear chemicals over her lung tissue. Also makes feeding a bit more difficult for it.#body horror#for. that other tag
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mixing , , , , , , hard , , , , , , ,
#i just came back to a mix that i thought sounded Okay™ and it turns out it's super round and tight and nasty#it's so so difficult to get the sound stage to sound right with vocaloid and i have no idea why#is it just ? ? ? garageband ? ? ? ?#why is it that my only two choices are#'everything is on the same very narrow center channel and has mad interference as a result which sounds So Bad'#or 'everything is weirdly round and pulled tight around the head and has no room to breathe'#how do i make things sound wide#like even when i'm using exclusively my Widening™ plugins that spread things out as much as possible it's still#very round and tight#agony befalls me on this night and i wish it the cruelest of fates for ruining me so
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zhiji. zhiyin.
moments since then--
i wanted / the past to go away /
i've been looking for places where silence means peace
i wanted to leave it, like another country;
and not loneliness, because i've spent enough time
i wanted / my life to close, and open / like a hinge, like a wing, like the part of the song / where it falls /
tell me about despair, yours,
down over the rocks: an explosion, a discovery; /
and i will tell you mine. / meanwhile the world goes on. / meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain are moving across the landscapes, /
i wanted /
over the prairies and the deep trees, / the mountains and rivers. / meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air, are heading home again.
to hurry into the work of my life; i wanted to know, whoever i was, i was /
tell me about despair, yours, and i will tell you mine. / meanwhile the world goes on.
alive /
i've been looking for places where silence means peace and not loneliness
for a little while.
"Moments since then" (from 'Places I’ve Taken My Body: Essays' by Molly McCully Brown, source); "I wanted the past to go away" (from 'Dogfish' by Mary Oliver, source); "Tell me about despair, yours, and i will tell you mine" (from 'Wild Geese' by Mary Oliver, source)
TYK excerpts under the cut:
"Close friends that can completely understand each other" ('Story about Zhiyin', from the wikipedia article of Bo Ya, source); "I thought you said you intended to live and die with me, Part 1/2" (TYK, Ch.46, tl. wenbuxing); "Luckily, I haven't fallen deeply in love with you yet." (TYK, Ch.29, tl. lianzi); "Does it hurt?" (TYK, Ch.45, tl. wenbuxing); "I thought you said you intended to live and die with me, Part 2/2" (TYK, Ch.46, tl. wenbuxing); "To feel a closeness to a friend or a loved one despite being seperated by a great distance" (from the idiom definition of "海內存知己，天涯若比鄰", wiktionary article, source)
#yes!! i indeed put the novel quotes in the wrong order!! that was intentional!#i have a lot of feelings about wenzhou's connection in the novel#what they have is so deeply entrenched in and enabled by death#when they meet they both intend to die! as time progresses they both want to change their fate yet struggle with the how!#what they share in these sweet moments far away from 'responsibilities' and 'duties' and 'fate' is like something frozen in time#wkx says at the end of the puppet manor arc when his ghost master duties come knocking: do we really need to wake up yet?#at the same time what they have is so real! it literally saves both their lives it changes their fate!#but they dont know that for most of the story. they look zzs's deadline in the eye fully expecting him to die.#what always takes my breath is that they sit with this grief. and priest too forces us to sit with it.#it is uncomfortable and difficult#through this we get a glimpse of what it must be like for wenzhou#to have found the one person who knows the song of their heart#yet being doomed to loose him again#webweaving#wenzhou#wen kexing#zhou zishu#tian ya ke#tyk#poems#poetry#天涯客#faraway wanderers#zhiji#zhiyin#also: have you noticed the line of the zhiji idiom contains two of tyk's characters? the 'tian' and the 'ya'#according to some sources i consulted on the poem (this idiom is from a tang dynasty poem) the line can be interpreted as:#'there will always be people close to your heart even when youre flung into the farthest corners of the world'#the characters that are of interest are the 'zhiji' in 'ppl close to your heart' and the 'tian ya' in 'farthest corners' (pharaphrased)#the poem itself tells of two officials needing to part. no need for sadness they are kindred spirits even when seperated.
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tmi and grossness warning, but ive coughed up more mucus in the last 48 hours than i ever did when i had pneumonia
#y'know that thing where like. if your nose is stuffed up you cant imagine a moment in the future where your nose wont be stuffed up#like logically you know you wont always be sick but youll be making plans months in advance#and thinking 'should we go to that restaurant? itll be gross if im sniffling everywhere'#anyway thats been me this last week and just the literal ability to breathe#i got new medicine today thats making all the difference#but its putting me at a weird stage in progression where im no longer coughing to get my lungs open#but now im coughing to get the gunk OUT and its more difficult to mask#my lungs also feel like they ran a marathon#anyway i should maybe ask a doctor to look into if i have asthma
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Worst flex of mine is that I’m good at overwatch :/ wait your turn, ladies
#me playing breath of the wild: Help HEEELPPP this game!! it’s difficult!#me getting called an egirl in the f2p game that is so toxic: pro gamer coming through#me playing botw wound up being more me watching my wife play it bc I’m bad at it#I skipped a whole section to get to the first village bc I see a minimal and I just go straight#idk if there’s a road. I climb mountains for that marker#totk seems great tho I can build things and I’m good at that#prawn posts
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"This place that's basically a room with utensils would be a good place to start" okay but I don't want to rent a place that I'm looking to move away from before I'm even in there
#gnawing through the bars. all I get is waiting!!!! all anyone ever gives me in this god forsaken life is waiting!!!!#I've waited for years for so many things and it has gotten me nowhere at all#I've waited for friends to give me the tine of day and most of them left me hanging#I've waited for every partner to meet me where I am and no one ever did#I've waited for years for somebody. ANYBODY to travel places with. to build a home with#I'm fucking tired and yes I'll do it alone!!! but then I want to do it RIGHT#I don't want to be somewhere I don't care to be and delay that waiting until I'm in a different place#I need to find that place and I need to START. DOING#I don't know how to explain this to people. I feel insane when they don't seem to understand it#I just want a home and I don't need much but I DO need a little breathing space#it shouldn't be this difficult#bien rambles
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New Achievement Unlocked: Baby's First Panic Attack
#it was NOT pleasant#weird tingling in my fingers#hell's bells it just sucked#I came within an inch of passing out#breathing. who knew it could be so fricken difficult?#stupid body being like hey we're in danger. you know what you need to live? oxygen. you know what you don't get? oxygen#v grateful for the one guy who sat down on the floor next to me and asked if I was okay because no I was not#he was an absolute angel#panic attack#cw: panic attack
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Hello! I need medication for life to prevent my lungs from collapsing, this implies permanent treatment with steroids, oxygen therapy, control of oxygen in the blood and antibiotics to prevent the development of bacteria in the lungs.
I'm afraid I have to insist on this because it may be the only way to get my treatment.
I need medication for life to keep my lungs from collapsing, this costs around $700 per month.
Things are really tough on me,I can’t afford. Please donate🖤
Sorry dude but i do not have the extra money rn but i can reblog ur go fund me
#i may not know what you're fully going through but i have severe asthma and if i don't use my steroid inhaler and take pills it becomes so#so difficult to breathe#hope you get your meds dude
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