Soap who falls in love hard and fast.
Soap who believes in love wholeheartedly to the point that he does everything he can to make any relationship he's in work even at his own expense. Soap who has to face disappointment at the end each time knowing he gave it his everything and it still didn't work out.
Soap who grapples with the reality that just because he does everything he can doesn't mean things were meant to be that way. Soap who slowly gets disillusioned by the notion of love. Soap who thinks that maybe they were right, maybe he did get hurt more because he wore his heart on his sleeve and dove into relationships with his bare chest like a lovesick eejit. Soap who decides that he needs to stop acting like one.
Soap who shoves his feelings aside to focus on other things in his life. Soap who focuses on building things that are tangible and long lasting. Soap who cherishes that his career, finance and family don't make his efforts loom wasted. Soap who convinces himself that it's enough. Soap who tries to convince himself that he's changed.
Soap who catches himself spiralling down that hard and fast pit again around a certain Lieutenant. Soap who panics and tries to ignore his feelings. Soap who deeply represses. Soap who keeps his distance. Soap who backs off when he's told to, gives space when Ghost needs it, doesn't flinch when he puts up walls thicker than steel between them.
Soap who digs through what's given to him anyway because he hasn't truly changed, his feelings have never disappeared. Soap who is terrified of finding himself at the start of the cycle he knows the end all too well of.
Soap who prays again after years of not doing so, to a God he hasn't spoken to in a while. Soap who is hoping and begging for things to be different this time. Soap who wants Ghost to be the exception to every experience he's had in his life so far.
Soap who tries to convince himself that if he can do things differently, things will end differently. Soap who can't help but be himself.
Soap who falls in love hard and fast.
Soap who gets addicted to his smile whenever he gets to see it. Soap who discreetly stifles his laughs at his dumb little jokes. Soap who sees how much he cares despite his reluctance to directly admit it. Soap who starts loving and trusting him regardless.
Soap who decides that, if he is meant to crash and burn from the start, loving Ghost wholeheartedly is a damn good reason to be a martyr anyway.
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“such a good girl,” alejandro’s words were quiet and forgiving, your head gently laid against his pillows as you could only blink tears of overstimulation away and keep letting out your string of faint moans and sighs when his tongue made contact with your fucked out cunt. too numb to move your head, you kept your eyes on the same mark on the wall. an innocent conversation turned into riding his thigh in his office, riding his thigh in his office led to him dragging you out, dragging you out led to making out on the ride home much to the taxi driver's disgust, the ride home eventually led to him going to town on your body. it was overwhelming and your body was sore at this point, but you still wanted more and he was happy to oblige. alejandro rested one of your thighs on his shoulder, the rest of your leg laying against his back as his tongue did lazy drags on your clit before his lips wrapped around the sensitive bud and left you only able to grip his hair and a soft, half-hearted call of his name.
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anyone else resprout after being burned to the ground or is it just some species of eucalyptus and Mary winchester
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mycelim -> sanctuscariot hehe
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jesus christ you tell someone new to egl that its far better to maybe save a bit of money and buy a secondhand dress and get a quality piece worth your money than to buy a poorly made knockoff from shein for 10 dollars and they act like if they don’t get a whole new wardrobe this instant them and their whole family will die the next day.
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