WHY CANT I JUST FUCKIN

AUGH

Just finished watching Dead Meat's kill count for Trigger Happy Havoc. It got me thinking about how the heck they would handle a hypothetical kill count for Rain Code cause uhhh there's a lot. Would they count the homunculi 'deaths' as kills even though they're revived in a zombified state? Would they only count the Amaterasu Express Massacre deaths then? In addition, how would they even quantify the deaths of the Express Massacre or even more mind-fuckeringly the Blank Week (if they decided to count those)? Where would you even begin to count an entire city of people and an unknown amount of detectives other than make educated guesses? I'm not an avid watcher of Dead Meat so there might be some process for how they handle those sort of uncountable mass numbers, but for now my mind is pitifully mushed like a soggy rag.

Yknow that sudden feeling when you suddenly wanna look man enough so that instead of looking like a lady in a dress and high heeled boots you look like a man in a dress and high heeled boots?

mountains 🤝 whales

So I mentioned a while ago that I'm writin' a DBZ au that I'm postin' up on ao3 (titled Intergalactic Vigilantes -- I'll add another link at the end in case y'all lost it or yer new t' my blog)

A few things t' note from my currently sleep deprived self:

1, I'm slow as shit at writin' 'cuz I'm dumb an' ferget how t' write sometimes -- an' also I have a job 'cuz a guy's gotta get that fuckin' coin, baby, my country's economy's ASS JESUS CHRIST I SWEAR-

2, I may or may not have a slight obsession with Raditz an' Krillin an' their relationship in this fic an' I will be focusing on them fer pro'lly about 70-80% of the entire story 'cuz my boys don't get enough screen time (especially Raditz -- that poor bastard was fuckin' robbed of screen time). I wanna explore how their brains an' their personalities work in this fic so bad. I will do it, I swear. There's so much potential fer how well they could mesh together.

3, I've actually been conceptin' another small fic (on an' off) focusing on Raditz an' Krillin (ofc) an' I don't wanna spoil it but at the same time I really wanna spoil it, but I should pro'lly actually get sketches done up of the characters in it before I say any more. It's absolutely a self-indulged fic, though, jus' like IV.

4, and the whole reason fer this post, the smut. The smut I've been secretly writin' an' keepin' on my phone's notepad this entire time. Everything is radikuri. Everything. But they're all unfinished an' all solely fer practice writing 'cuz I've got no idea how the fuck I could (potentially) even slip any of these into the later chapters of IV. There's a high chance I'll pro'lly leave all of 'em unfinished, unless there's a particular one that tickles my brain. An' if there is, I'll let y'all know when that chapter gets uploaded.

5, I've been workin' on chapter 3 fer the last few hours an' I swear to God, it feels like it's takin' longer than it should 'cuz I've been thinkin' about it almost every night at work the past few weeks!! But I think I've got what I want -- fer the most part. Unless I change my mind on the fly like I did an hour ago with this one scene I've been stuck on this whole time. Gods help me an' my brain. I really need sleep before my ability t' write completely vanishes fer the next week an' a half

Anyway, I'll stop rambling. Here's a link to the fic, in case y'all wanna peruse my bullshit: https://archiveofourown.org/works/52500985/chapters/132813154

Remember t' eat an' drink water, you fucking nerds (lovingly)

I want everyone to know, when you say nice things about my weird lil mechs. You are feeding my soul with pure healthy drugs. Like it gets me high but there’s no downs. Just makes me want to draw more weird dudes and showing their pilots taking care of them

Who knew crying hurt the brain this much? :O /sarc

sometimes I’ll have family therapy flashbacks n just

Me when I play cult of the lamb 5 hours straight urgh

UGJQHA IM SO TIRED, LET ME OUT

Hmm

So, I used the Mature community label on everything and checked the Sexual Themes thingie, but every post got hit and flagged for needing a community label? Which I did??

So confused... D:

AND OF COURSE IM GONNA FUCKIN DO LINK erm i mean draw him ??? ew pukes and vomits everywehre

btw these requests are still open !! but my brain is fried so if you do request them i will do them some other time bc eberythig hurts

ough it’s 2am and i just finished reading over chapter twenty. i thought it wouldn’t make sense but mmm angst and comfort… i’ll post it after i wake up

Look. I know it shouldn't bother me but it DOES. Chairiel is 2 completely different chairs between Undertale and Deltarune.

Dude I'm straight up not feeling fergalicious rn someone needs to give me a bear hug ASAP

Body - everything is achy. There's no reason for muscles to cramp, but we're gonna cramp anyways.

Brain - we're dealing with a combination of Silent Hill levels of fog and an overflow of wastewater. Nothing is going to get done.

You've been warned! (aka - I apologize in advanced for any and all dumb responses or posts today).