hyperfixations really make boring activities much easier, for example i was in a long car ride yesterday and thought about vashwood and before i knew it 4 hours had passed. the downside is when they make you cry in your car

//You potray paris as like- i don't know, showing how he is affected by things outside of the thing very well if that make sense. Like making posts about going to unova to get to the picnic, or being frustrated with people on rotumblr after rwat anon, idk makes him feel like more of a whole person. also how he cares for others despite not having conventional ways of showing it :)

// HI. I actually had to calm down for a bit after reading this??? I am so so happy that someone's noticed because all of this is what I've been working to portray since the start of this blog! I am so so glad that he comes off like an entire person too- and. AUGHH

A couple more eternal gales refs that I’ve managed to finish up the past week, goodbye staliens I will miss you so as I move on to the human kids

he exists

so does his brother

is your blorbo really your blorbo if youre not gonna eat a photo imprinting of his face on ur bday cake (im losing it)

its my bday !! and … yes that is my baby girl .. director stedman. what can i say,, he has invaded my brain like the parasite he is as well as having formed a symbiosis with my hypothalamus ❤️ (im obliged to make atleast 10 drawings of him a day)

will be drawing and posting here more often soon enough.. hopefully this stirs some hidden cecil fuckers to come out of the woodworks and express their appreciation for my princess,, love yall !! take care

i would love to give you an excuse to ramble about kitrye and raphael! (i don’t even go here, but they delight me.) my personal favorite way to play with my assorted blorbo barbies is to dump them in as many sandboxes as my brain can hold - do you have any AUs you’re especially fond of for them? or, conversely, an AU that you think would Make Them Worse to be dropped into, for the drama of it all?

God. The Blorbos (one of whom only exists in my head + the game files). God, so when they first meet, it's important to understand that Kitrye is TERRIFIED. She hadn't been back down to the Underdark in over two hundred years, and there she was, back in this place that caused her so much trauma, hoping to find a cure because a parasite's been put in her head that won't just kill her, but will transform her, painfully, into something Other. And THAT was when Raphael decided to make his appearance, so she pulled her sword at him, to which he basically went "nuh uh" and poofed it away.

But over the next two acts of the game, they developed this odd dynamic -- a level of fondness, physical attraction, and respect mixed with apprehension and caution on Kitrye's end. She serves a morally good goddess who is chaotic, YES, and does genuinely care about her followers, but probably wouldn't like Kitrye...just...making eyes at a devil. So, the push and pull continues. Because, DESPITE that, they...get one another. In a way that her companions don't get her, because they're so wrapped up in their own issues (which are, admittedly, big issues), that they don't realize that Kitrye is very much Not Okay, or even really...know her. While she and Raphael have shared interests in art, literature, and music. (Their second meeting was Raphael stumbling on her practicing the lyre and listening to her play, as he started to realize there was more to this paladin than he'd thought.)

It's also vital to understand that, in DND mechanics, high level paladins' souls are RIDICULOUSLY alluring to devils, because they're worth more. So as this dynamic develops, Raphael ALSO becomes increasingly interested in *her* soul -- he wants her to give him the Crown of Karsus, yes, which would give him the power to (maybe???) take over the Hells, but he ALSO takes a *particular* interest in corrupting her, all while remaining oblivious to how hooked he really is....

Right until the point where she breaks her oath. Because he had given her the (actually true!) information that a vampire lord was going to try to sacrifice 7000 souls to the Archdevil Mephistopheles (aka Raphael's father, who he hates), she stopped it, but the way she went about it was a case of "either stay true to your oath or stay true to your morals", and she chose the latter. Raphael has the possibility for a perfect victory -- he's managed to deprive his father of 7000 souls, he has his paladin in his clutches, practically BEGGING him to take her pain away, to take her soul...and he refuses. Because he realizes that he doesn't want her like *that*, he doesn't want to break her.

At the end of the day, she is someone who, despite appearing very cool and collected on the surface, albeit something of a loner, is actually EXTREMELY love-starved and depressed, with a hint of survivor's guilt; he is someone who, despite appearing cool and collected on the surface, has EXTREME abandonment issues and a tendency towards obsession (and a corruption kink). It's shocking but also kind of inevitable that they'd latch onto one another. She has someone who, while he's aloof and distant in public, is OBSESSED with her and makes her genuinely happy, who protects her from Lolth, the main figure in the Drow pantheon who really, really does NOT like when Drow defect to the surface world (and likes to do *fun little things* to Kitrye like, say, give her nightmares of being eaten alive by spiders -- the first peaceful rest she's had in over two hundred years was the first time she slept with Raphael). Meanwhile, he has someone who adores him, who accepts his obsessive love, who will never leave him, and who is able to match him -- she's just as sharp as he is, she's just as interested in culture as he is, she can keep up with him. And they're both half-one evil DND race, half-one good DND race -- Kitrye is half-Drow, half-Wood-Elf; Raphael is half-Human, half-Devil, which means that both of them is AWARE of what it's like to not fit into one world or another, with one incredibly abusive parent and one dead parent (Kitrye's mother sacrificed her father to Lolth after she captured him, Raphael's father is...a literal archdevil who might or might not have had Raphael unconsensually, from DND lore around Mephistopheles and the Cambions he produces.) Kitrye is the only member of the party who GETS *why* Raphael is the way he is, even when she doesn't AGREE with it...because in another turn of events, maybe she would have become him. Or he'd have become her.

And then, at some point, she realizes that it's either her morals or Raphael's life. Because he's done too much and, frankly, doesn't WANT to be redeemed. It isn't that he's passed some arbitrary point of no return for redemption, it's that he doesn't *want* it. And they were broken up at the time, after a truly massive argument. And Kitrye knows that the moral thing to do would be to either kill him herself or let someone else do it, but...she can't. Because that would mean things were *over* and she can't do that. In the same way that he can't be TRULY mad at her over the breakup, even though every law of the Hells says that him showing her that level of deference is a sign of weakness. Which is what subsequently makes him marry her.

By the time of their endgame, after killing or otherwise debilitating no fewer than one elderbrain, two gods, and one archdevil, they're very formal and dignified in public, for the most part, but very quietly affectionate couple in private who still enjoy bantering with one another, who enjoy exploiting the various clauses in their 500+ page long marriage contract as a way of toying with one another, who enjoy teasing one another and dancing around one another while, on occasion, embarrassing their daughter with how in love they both clearly are and scandalizing the Nine Hells. There is an active rumor in the mortal plane that he abducted her, mainly because the truth is too difficult for people to come to terms with (once again, people liking the IDEA of Kitrye more than the extremely broken woman she actually is, clinging onto a heroic version of her who...IS Kitrye, yes, because she STILL advocates for souls that Raphael has bartered for as much as she can, but also doesn't capture the nuances of who she is BEYOND that.) She's the only being in any plane of existence that he truly, fully loves, and that means that he is very, very protective AND possessive of her...which suits her perfectly well, because she has no interest in anyone else.

So, for AUs:

Some of my friends have been very valiantly putting up with me talking about an academia AU for them -- which is part academia AU, part "Let me rant about all the power imbalances that occur in academia." It's still a fantasy setting, just a modern day one instead of Vaguely Medieval, but there's a Lot as far as the way that women are treated by academia, the way that women are presumed to be sleeping their way to the top if they get into a relationship with a senior male professor and then achieve success, the "soft" labor that female academics are expected to perform, the way that male academics are allowed to be "eccentric" in a way that female academics aren't, the way that some female academics develop a tendency of...tossing their female colleagues under the bus to prove their toughness and worthiness, the power dynamics that can exist between students and their supervisors, the emphasis on things being Proper VS them being Right, etc. All of which. Is in NO WAY. For LEGAL REASONS. Based on ANYTHING. I have personally either experienced or observed. Kitrye is a grad student, Raphael is a senior scholar from another university. He isn't her supervisor or even on her dissertation committee, but it still IS scandalous when they get together and MORE scandalous when they get married shortly after her graduation.

Another one, in a canon timeline, would be the "what if Raphael had met Young Kitrye two hundred years before the events of the game?" Some part of me says that it wouldn't have ended well for her, because he had no reason to maintain his interest in her, but some part of me still wants to see Young Kitrye falling head over heels in love with a devil and going "That one. I want that one." The two of them running away together, causing romantic ballads to be written about them. It's great for business for Raphael. What would a Kitrye who had never been as fully influenced by her goddess be like? That would have been two hundred years of being a loner that she wouldn't have had.

Another is "What if KITRYE had found Young!RAPHAEL" -- this is something Kitrye actually wishes for, and it's even murkier since we know less about Raphael's backstory, but Kitrye does sometimes wish she could go back to him before he was as strongly influenced by the Hells and try to reach him. He doesn't believe it would have been possible, Kitrye does -- of the two of them, I trust her more than him, but, again, what would that have led to? Who knows. Maybe Mephistopheles, in an attempt to get Raphael to embrace his destiny, would have fridged her.

Another canon-verse AU is the What-If for Kitrye dying at some point and her goddess having to go to the Hells to ask Raphael for her soul back, so that she can be reincarnated, which Raphael, grudgingly, agrees to, and then their reunion in the modern day. (Please note: Raphael. Will NEVER. In canonverse. Allow her to die. He is in full "I will dig up your grave and then defy every natural law in order to bring you back how DARE you die on me" gothic antihero love with her.)

One that I discussed with @antiqua-lugar (I am. So sorry to you. For having to get through the block of text. To get here) was one where Kitrye had actually MARRIED Gale following the events of the game...only for Raphael to show up. And because it's ALSO a Soulmate AU, things getting really, really messy really, really quickly, which leads to Kitrye ultimately going to Raphael after Gale, in a fit of insecurity, makes himself into a god, which functionally kills whatever love Kitrye felt for him...or guilt over having an emotional affair with Raphael. Which becomes a physical affair soon after because...well...her husband is a GOD, that HAS to count as a functional divorce.

Then, there's the Soulmate Goose of Enforcement AU, which is just me...having Raphael get chased by a Goose. Until he is willing to come to terms with his own feelings. (Yes....this is a real thing. No, I have no excuses.)

hide hunt mask for anyone :]

LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOO

HIDE- onyx my current blorbo my main guy for the project im doing with friends, he hides the fact that he is a hybrid of human and parasite(specifically like. the parasite from The Thing), genetically engineered in a lab to be a more sustainable and stronger human being.

the reason why he hides it is because its a massive safety risk for everyone around him. cause if he dies well um. theyre going down with him to say the least. but also because he doesnt want anyone to really think of him differently or hate him due to something he has no control over.

HUNT- onyx is hunted by an entire agency that he ran away from. he ran away because almost everyone there treated him like Shit and dehumanized him, reducing him to just a tool at their disposal. this isnt the first time hes ran away from them either, they have put gps tracking in his prosthetic arm to try and stop it but. he just ripped it out.

hes able to let his guard down slightly but not a lot. since he has already had a run-in with someone from the agency, which led to their death

MASK- figuratively, he does! onyx puts on a facade of being overly dramatic and charismatic, he was taught to be charismatic as a way to get information from people, as well as gain their trust. he pretends to understand his feelings and thoughts when really, he doesnt.

he had it pounded into his head that hes not supposed to feel anything, not supposed to have any emotions, so hes conflicted on if his thoughts are actually real, or just his brain trying to make him feel more human

This is poorly drawn but for the past 4 months i have been playing Db2, Cole Volkov became my little blorbo in this sad miserable game where nobody is happy- This is my little brain parasite, God's weakest little soldier, he rotates in my head like a plate of food rotating in a microwave-

sorry for all the rambles its like . almost 4 am i havent sleptin 10 hours so blorbos from fictional government agencies are taking over my brain like a parasite

hi new here tell me anything you want about your tavs/durges!!!!! some fun facts that you don’t get to mention often maybe?

^ this one's my current blorbo that ive been rotating in my brain nonstop like a rotisserie chicken. Sloane Augustine Blackthorn / 34 years old, human / the dark urge.

fun facts:

she's rogue (thief) 6/warlock (fiend) 6. in-character she's very much inspired by the dishonored protagonists. fast, stealthy, shortsword and crossbow user with magic to enhance her sneaking and stealth kills. her patron is a powerful horrid little parasitic treachery demon generally known as "the big bad wolf."

she's got no shadow a lot of the time

she's incredibly light on her feet and moves quietly enough that she has a bad habit of jumpscaring her companions because she refuses to announce herself. pre-tadpole she would also jumpscare ketheric and gortash all the time. nothing there has changed

she's fairly reserved and quiet but she's also very up front and honest + her voice is fairly monotone and she's not very expressive.

excessively good hygiene for someone who used to spend so much time murdering people. she's very into hair care and such. she may have been an evil blood-and-guts murder villain but she was an evil villain who spent a lot of time on her hair and makeup and kept herself very clean. her teeth are also perfect. that's not to say she's never unkempt but even out on the road she does her best to look the way she wants to because it matters to her. it all borders a little bit on being obsessive

she's an Extremely Femme Bisexual Woman with an evil dad, a demon parasite and so so many problems.

the one bitch in the world who cared about orin the red once upon a time yes i will eventually elaborate on this someday i love horrid problematic siblings who may also want to murder each other

i just wanna share her pinterest board

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I follow from my hosts account @polychaeteworm

My name is pronounced "Sara". I'm not a girl, not a boy, not a man, not a woman. I'm a tall alien. Femme like an elf, masc like a vampire. I'm mostly autoromantic and objectum for large bongs and blades.

I don't care what pronouns you use on me. My host defaults to he/him but I do not mind she/her or shee/hir. My species only has one sex, but an individualistic gender system, so I am Xenogender and genderflux in every sense of the words. I don't human gender concepts.

I love swords and smoking weed and I have a strong desire to run into the woods/onto a highway/into the ocean when I'm upset because I get weird alien homesickness. I talk about that here a lot, but don't worry, I am safe and supervised.

Really into Saltburn right now, so that shows up here too. Felix Catton is my Tumblr blorbo. I also just really really like dark royalty/vampire and academia in general as well as sick little freaks.

Kinks that might appear here- smoking/intox, blood/blades, shibari, parasitism/corruption, and maybe sometimes consang.

Discourse positions-

I'm anti misinfo and pro endo. My system is traumagenic but I do not like associating my existence with a mental disorder because of my origin within my paracosm. I respectfully don't like being referred to as having "come from trauma".

I'm a CSA survivor who writes and reads nasty things to cope and I'm not interested in hearing why you think I'm a freak for my kinks or the stuff I reblog. I'm pro-recovery and pro fiction. I do not support irl harm. I don't think of what I write as "shipping" because my system only reads and writes OC and we associate the term shipping with fandom. We don't mind fanfics, we just favor focusing on OC content.

Send all complaints to my host and steward, Orn (@polycheateworm) he is better articulate and I'm not nice to have an argument with because of my language challenges so please be patient. He also is better equipped to answer most questions you might have about me. Most of what I say here is dictated within the system so I'm actually less articulate as an altar than I appear on average so if I get upset and don't have an alter to dictate to, my language might decline.

What does your username mean?

My system has maladaptive daydreaming and I am an introject of an extremely developed OC from a paracosm.

Because I spent most of my life living inside an inner world that is as complex as the real one, my personal history and memories are not fully Earth Related.

Neurothea is an illness on the planet I come from. It hurts your brain in a lot of ways, you catch it from parasites and it can kill you. If you survive it you will have large scars from it. it's an exotrauma embodiment of complex abuse my human body has suffered. Its a fictional way that I as an alter interface with the difficulty my body has.

bro i think youve converted me I keep having dreams about Izzy where hes obsessed with rly colorful flowers for some reason. but anyway i think this is a sign to watch the show cause i know this would be the blorbo ™️ if i watched it

LMAOOA PLEASE THATS SO FUNNYY YOU HAVEN’T EVEN WATCHED IT???? SHHSHAJ

the izzy parasite that worms it’s way into peoples brains is really reaching new levels… it’s getting to people that haven’t even SEEN the show,, what the fuck this is so funny

ok but wouldn’t it be extra funny if you actually got around to watching the show and just fucking hated his guts instead. like I know we’re pretty confident that he would be the beloved Blorbo but I just think that would be hysterical.

also this ask reminded me of the time rlly recently where I had dreams about izzy that involved softly kissing him on the cheek TWO nights in a row. consecutively. giving him a lil kith. let me tell you I was Sick and Ill after that…

[points at you] tell me about a blorbo. you have ten seconds /s

(jokes aside hi i want to hear about ur ocs pls and thank u, i just don't have specific questions in mind)

Blorbo…

Anyway I’m gonna talk about Renfield bc he’s always on my mind so, cw for body horror, cannibalism, and corpse talk under the cut

Ren is from Inferno, and is the ‘mouser’ in Gordon’s Ridge, the main town the story takes place in. By mouser I mean he eats rats and mice after chasing them on all fours.

He’s not human! In-text no one is sure what he is (except his partner Jordan). He’s actually a parasitic worm that’s attached to the brain of his dead bf. Because of this, he looks anemic and kind of waxy. Like a bad embalming job.

Worms need to eat flesh to survive, and often eat people; they don’t see the issue and don’t distinguish between meats. They’re not human, after all, so that’s not part of their outlook.

He’s also not fully developed; worms like him live in large colonies where they all work to protect the egg clutches and stores of corpses kept preserved for the new worms to live in. However, he was separated from his family in 1700s Britain during one of the Jacobite wars (I can’t remember if I ever specified exactly) and began wandering trying to find them.

Instead he found his first partner, Justin, (who belongs to my partner) who later died, and Renfield switched his old corpse out for his boyfriend’s in an attempt to save him. It didn’t work.

Eventually he stowed away across the Atlantic and ended up in Boston in the 1800s, where he met Jordan. They entered a relationship and, when Jordan left their home, the two headed west.

Ren is very animated, and is mostly gentle, he loves petting soft animals, playing in the dirt, and basking. Another worm has referred to him as a ‘lamb with fangs’, as the gentle aspects of his personality contrast the part where he needs to hunt to survive, and is very good at killing.

He tries to befriend people, but humans interacting with him have their fight or flight response triggered because of the way he moves is just outside of normal for the human brain. Inhumans (the term for supernatural creatures) don’t have this problem.

Also! He just didn't have a name for a while, either he wasn't given one or he forgot it, but he just didn't have a name for a while (he probably went by pseudonyms). Then Jordan read Dracula to him and he latched onto the name Renfield. (as an in-universe reason why he's named that when in reality i named him that as a joke)

I have so many blorbos I lust for but it's like Katsuki is this little parasitic being that takes over my brain and kills every thought that isn't about him

I'm going back to sleep after this I only wanted to be up for a short while but I saw the notes on my blorbo house notes

I just want to state that no as far as I am aware I am not a system and the blorbo house is purely an imaginary thing that I made up, that just takes place "in my brain". It could've been any setting but when talking with my friend we made it be in my brain specifically because of things like saying a character is like a parasite in your brain or like you're rotating them in your mind... Just imagining how your blorbos would live in a house together, but it's tied to you specifically because they're away from their source in a safe environment with you specifically.... And also it's in my bio as a way to list some of my Blorbos

I am definitely very much so mental illness and let me tell you I am not normal about these characters I can get quite obsessive over these characters when hyperfixated but I feel like I had to make up a thing for them all so they feel like they're always there and aren't upset when I'm focusing on other things

I'm very happy that I made a post that's a hit with system communities but I'm just saying here to people possibly trying to diagnose me - I am not a system as far as I know, I definitely have undiagnosed things but DID/OSSD is not it because... I think I'd know if that was the case

But yeah, again, the blorbo dream house is a purely made up thing and I'm just mentally ill about fictional characters in Another Way

(I think a part of this is the wording of my post, especially when I said "supposedly exists in your brain specifically" I worded it that way because we were just making this up at first and it was kinda funny that like... I was discussing an AU thingy with a friend when the setting is MY brain like the were talking about a fictional place in another person's "mind". Except not really it's just... Made up. It's like saying your brain is empty except for 2 braincells who just slap each other with pillows, personifying 'two braincells')

If I'm allowed to ask this about your OCs I want to ask about Jasmin from Black Orbit! For the Blorbo Bingo!!

OF COURSE UR ALLOWED PWEASE ALWAYS FEEL FREE TO ASK ABOUT OCS ! ! !

god Jasmin.... I think I only have like TWO posts tagged with him so I'm surprised you'd mention him - NOT COMPLAINING THO I LOVE HIM. He needs some more screen time in my brain honestly

Since there's like. NO info about Jasmin bc I've never talked about him I'll give a little fun fact ✨ Jasmin and Cass were really good buddies at one point. Cass lowkey stole his look Twice - here take a look

Jasmin is totally taking this as a personal attack. Cass did not have any control over how her appearance would turn out when she got her dragon parasite - but Jasmin is convinced she did it on Purpose just to piss him off specifically <3