i say this every week but this has been the most emotionally intense week of my life. or at least it’s up there. lol

i'm struggling so hard with my thesis rn but remembered: it is tomáš tatar thursday. while this does not help with my immense writer's block or manic depressive spiral because of said writer's block, it does remind me that there is, indeed, good in the world. :)

happy tomáš tatar thursday, neon!

:') this was an incredibly sweet message to recieve, good luck with your thesis !! i hope the good in the world visits you too <3

confession: i keep forgetting when thursday happens and then looking at the calendar on friday and going OH SHOOT ITS FRIDAY

you would never guess what happened this week LOL

update again ✨

Thanks again for all your well wishes about the move, I am currently in the process of unpacking and organizing! Still spending a lot of money on furniture and stuff bc I have none but that’s okay because I’ve been saving money specifically for this 😅 anyway now that I’m trying to get settled I feel like I can get a head start in some other things, so here’s some announcements:

1) I’d like to order pins and patches for us! But since I am eating through my savings I can only pay for one on my own :,) I made it a ko-fi goal (link here) to hopefully fundraise enough to be able to order pins so I can open shop with them. Here’s a mock up/colored version of what I’ll send to the company, and see how close we can get:

2) because two (2) people have asked I do in fact have an amazon wishlist for things I’d like for the apartment! As soon as I get a bed frame and a desk in here I can start showing off my room lol but it is still a Mess. So this is absolutely completely unnecessary but on the off chance you both have extra cash and would like to send a housewarming gift, here’s the link to that.

Neither of these are expected honestly, I will always understand if donating/funding is just not in the cards. Or if you just don’t feel like it lol that’s cool too, either way I hope you guys have a great rest of October and I hope to be back in full force very soon 🥰 (and if you can only pick one let’s get some pins in here, that’s the thing we can all enjoy)

🌂 for any/all of them! Also, have you ever talked abt the story/world of ur ocs? I feel like you have, but I can’t remember 🤲

what genre do they belong in?

mystery/fantasy i suppose? its a group of friends who live in a haunted town. theres been different 'canons' over the years i guess and some of them were a lot different than what it is now. i think ive talked about it here and there but never super in-depth (mostly cause im not 100% sure about it either lol).

coming of age story thats also a small town horror story, basically

what r the serendipity gospels?

tamsyn muir's 130k homestuck fanfiction magnum opus from 2013 &lt;3 my beloved <3

it's about a hate-turned-codependent relationship between two ppl who have just become adults in a futuristic dystopian imperialist empire. it's about a juggalo face paint wearing death cult in space which the main characters are being primed to one day lead. there is a character who discovers they have a long-lost father figure who is an important religious leader in the juggalo death cult. there's a character who is like jesus, and who is also the child of an infamous enemy of the empire

vriska is there. ianthe is basically vriska

there are more similarities but hilariously also now that i think about it there's definitely a scene in gtn where harrow puts gideon's face paint on for her and it's like intimate and weird. well there's also a scene like that in tsg. doesn't harrow also use blood for her paint in htn. yeah that happens in tsg too

Guess what

35 CATS BREAKING INTO UR ROOM!1!1!1 RAAAAAH

WHAT DO YOU MEAN VEHICULAR MANSLAUGHTER???

i love him

I know there's so much talk abt logan regressing & bring more in tune w/ his feelings, which is so real & true, but i don't see any talk about how he might have trouble putting those feelings into words because he's young

Little logan being able to know when he's sad or angry or overwhelmed, but not having the words like big logan to explain why he's upset 2 his caregiver/older sibling/etc.

(Cue Logan getting angry or upset & shouting "i hate you!!" & immediately feeling guilty afterwards. He just cant word the big feelings he's having)

Do you have a timelapse of any of your recent art? I'm curious to know your drawing process :0 (if you feel like doing so ofc! No need to do so if you dont want to)

Yess! Unfortunately I draw reaally small on huge canvases so it’s kind of blurry. My techniques change a lot. Never consistent. but here’s that postal dude and champ drawing i recently posted

Top 5 mutuals you've considered kissing

listen. listen. that one's confidential

however I feel like I can say that I've wanted to kiss like at least half of all my friends at some point so like. interpret that however you wish

anyways do we agree that dom kanata is a Thing

(sorry i had to get this off my chest lol)

YESSIR.

Like ok so hear me out "umm but Kanata is short and Allen is ta—" shut up shut upppp. Kanata is a short guy with some anger + emotional issues not in the "oh I need to be coddled by someone uwu" but in the "I need to hit someone consensually right now" way. and that someone just so happens to be Allen. The people who see him as a submissive or whatever will never not make me ????? Because where!!!! is coming from!!!!!

Erm geometry doodles

Hi sappy :3

hi charlie omg her little cat dress :(( a cat in a cat dress im crying

looking through old pinterest boards for ocs and i found a folder called 'setting' thats just entirely filled with horse pictures. great job past me

4/8: Favorite class aspect

OKAY AHH @413countdown

apollo. beverly. buddy. omg... please feel free to explain what the easily solvable issue is cuz omg...... Big Deal it seems

OK THIS IS KIND OF EMBARRASSING BUT BEVERLY (15, boy scout, uhhh my blorbo my little meow meow) HAS THIS BOYFRIEND IN THE CAMPAIGN. HIS NAME IS ERLIN, HE IS ALSO A BOYSCOUT (the in universe alt is Green Teen lmao), HES GINGER, I CARE ABOUT HIM VERY MUCH. I care about this relationship so deeply. I love them I literally cannot NOT gush about Bev and Erlin theyre adorable theyre amazing i adore them.

Im not gonna cover everything, but for context when Bev & Erlin got together (~ep 20?) there was a big war going on in their home city. technically the war is still happening but it has since moved. Beverly's house gets bombed etc etc, they have to flee to escape the city. They split up, with Erlin and his family fleeing, Bev's dad and the other Green Teens are sent to a different dimension (THROUGH A KISS FROM BEV AND ERLIN MIGHT I ADD), and Beverly and the rest of the party go somewhere else that isnt important rn.

Since that episode, Beverly has been collecting things for him. A book about his interests, a poster, some drugs?? i think??? Just little trinkets he thinks Erlin would like for when he next sees him. The DM and player of Beverly have said that the relationship was never planned, it just sort of happened, but after that theyve discussed a long standing mutual crush and other stuff that makes me weep.

Bit of a time skip to around episode 50? By this point, theyve had a few more adventures, and have ventured into this other dimension to try to find Beverly's dad and their friends. They do, and after a lot of hardship and other stuff, they have a big celebration. Beverly, in his defense, is a LITTLE drunk, and meets this autumn looking boy. To be perfectly honest they hit it off. At the end of the bit, the boy tries to kiss him, and Beverly very maturely says something to the effect of, "Im sorry. theres someone else." and leaves. at this point im sweating fucking bullets. I am way too invested in Beverly and Erlin to be normal. But im thinking, oh, sweet, a breath of fresh air. And then he doubles back and kisses him.

And there are so many factors to this. I am fully aware that Beverly is 15. I am fully aware it is both his and Erlin's FIRST relationship. I am fully aware that they will probably be fine after a couple of conversations. but the BETRAYAL 😭 I was heartbroken im not even gonna lie LMAO. I paused the episode and I called Raya to rant about this stulid bullshit 💀. Am i angry at Beverly the character? No. Do i think Erlin's gonna be fucking DISTRAUGHT? Yes.

For me, if it was in the moment and then a, 'fuck, sorry, i shouldnt have-" Thatd be more acceptable. but its the fact that he clearly chose not too and then changed his mind. 😭😭😭

And yes. Beverly has gone through a lot in the past couple of days. His dad and friends aged 25 years in a month. His Dad keeps telling him, after being away from him for several months, that if they are to let anyone die, to let it be him. Another one of his father figures is going through a MASSIVE identity crisis. A war is happening. Beings that are as close to gods without being gods are putting expectations and pressure on his shoulders. I fully understand that this is a situation that is not as bad as i have presented it and that it is fairly easily fixed. but I was so fucking sad? We havent seen Erlin in like, 30 episodes. Hes literally a refugee rn. hes going to be so sad. He is going to be sooooo sad. 😭😭😭

TLDR: I have an unhealthily strong obsession with DND boyscout bfs, and one of them cheated, and I am so unreasonably sad.