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iovesia · 10 months

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hey josie (i hope you don’t mind me calling you that) !

so…imagine coming home to conor drunk as hell and taking care of him, with the blood on his hands from getting shards of glass in them after punching the bar’s windows up.

sitting on his lap while wrapping bandaids around his hands in bed <3<3

then when it’s late you eventually get tired so you tell him you need to go home, but he insists on you staying and tells you to just borrow his clothes.

“oh conor,” you clipped the last bandaid around his hand. “i have to go home. i’m sleepy.” you kiss his forehead.

“no, baby, stay here tonight…” his words are slurred. “stay - here.” he sighs as he pulls you down on his chest, as if you were going to sleep on him. you giggle with a flustered face.

“my clothes aren’t comfy to sleep in. let me just go ho-“ “no, wear - wear my clothes - just stay baby.” you gulp.

in the morning, you wake up finding yourself asleep in his ginormous shirt and your panties, on his chest. he’s still sleeping, so you don’t dare move.

- 🌸 anon ! :)

my honest reaction (#SEEPICTURESBELOW:) eek!! my first conor ask god bless you nonnie (sidenote, totally fine, ofc you can call me josie ♡). i'm literally kicking my feet. i love my disheveled little man.

୨ ˙ ∘ cw. drunkenness. a jumbled hc / drabble thing going on.

it's another night when you come home to find your boyfriend grumbling and stumbling around the apartment like he has two left feet. you sigh as you help him rest on the bed. and even in his drunken state he can feel your disappointment and concern radiating from you.

".. 'm sorry," he mumbles, pressing a kiss to your shoulder as you quietly wipe his cuts. you briefly look up from what you're doing, taking out a shard of glass a little too roughly and making him wince. ".. fine.. i deserved that."

of course you're a little mad— you never like him hanging out at the that bar— let alone picking a fight and coming home trashed. when you're finally done and pack away the first aid kit, you come back into the room and see conor already lying face first down the bed.

"wait.. don't go," conor mumbles tiredly, gently holding on to your wrist. you've come to kiss him goodbye when suddenly he's awoken.

"conor, honey, i have to go— i'll see you tomorrow okay?" you try and plead softly with your boyfriend, but he only frowns, lifting himself up. he rests his forehead against yours, gently pecking your lips. "conor," you grin.

"c'mon.. just stay, you're..you're here, anyways," he hiccups a little.

"conor, you're drunk and tired— i'm tired," you reason softly, resting a hand on his chest. "plus, i don't even have my pajamas—"

"me neither," he interrupts, with a smirk. "see? you're fine, just stay. i'll give you my stuff to wear, c'mon."

(needy ass man, but i digress! 🤨) of course you stay with him after he continues bugging you about it. you actually managed to find a clean shirt and throw it over yourself, leaving you in only your underwear as you crawl into your boyfriends bed.

conor's soooo clingy in the morning or when he's really tired. when you try to get up out of bed the next morning, he damn near rolls on top of you.

"conor, c'mon," you giggle softly when he shifts closer to you, pulling you closer to his warm chest. "some of us have jobs, y'know?"

"hey.. i have one," conor mumbles sleepily, his arm wraps tighter around your waist. before you could protest again, you hear soft snores falling from his lips and you sigh.

i guess you could stay a little longer . . . 🤭

#love letters.#this was so cute nonnie ily for this #conor o'neill x reader #conor o'neill imagine #hardball 2005 #keanu reeves x reader #keanu reeves imagine #*⠀conor o'neill.#🌸 anon.

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judasisgayriot · 3 months

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hello again! you once again prove yourself as the queen of heroes ramblings. you responded with so much detail so quickly! loveeee it :)

i wanna ask you more, i like getting your mini ted talks. what are your thoughts on sylar/peter as a ship? i personally don’t really see it in the show, but i’ve read some real good fics with them.

Hahaha omg I love you anon I’m glad someone enjoys hearing my unhinged rants about this show…

Soooo. Maybe the girlies will hate me for this one lol. Thing is, I can see how sylar/peter would lend itself to having some good fics written about it. Like, the concept is there, it has potential. The foundations for a good hero/villain ship are there, they are definitely set up as foils and parallels to each other, they have the whole ‘two sides of a coin’ thing going on. But like you, I don’t really see it in the show at all. It’s like they had the potential but didn’t actually execute it/make me give a fuck about it/make me remotely want to ship it, lol.

It is/was a popular ship in heroes fandom (lol heroes fandom in 2024 is like 12 people but hey) and I do see why for the above reasons. I actually think the episode ‘the wall’ is a great concept but again, they don’t sell me on it/execute it well/actually follow through on making me remotely believe they’d become friends by the end. Right before they break out, having spent what was apparently like 10 years of mind-time together in there or whatever, Peter still hates his guts and wants to smash his head in with a sledgehammer lmao?? (I mean girl same. The whole ‘peter has to forgive sylar, narratively and kind of literally, if he wants to escape the mind prison’ plot point grinds my gears. I think he should get to never forgive him ever for killing Nathan if he doesn’t want to lmao. Shout out to that one fan panel with Milo where he’s like ‘peter would never forgive him he would eviscerate him’ king you are speaking my fucking language lol. I digress.) like afterwards I can buy that sylar has latched onto Peter and wants to be his friend/wants Peter to like, model being a good person for him, but not that Peter actually gives a shit in return or wants anything to do with him lol

(Sidenote, that in itself is a rly interesting concept, and me and @buildarocketboys developed a fic idea about peter agreeing to like, ‘mentor’ sylar and hang out with him but if and only if he kept shapeshifting back into Nathan for him. Now THAT is fucked up and deranged and the good stuff and actually makes me, avowed sylar disliker, feel kinda sorry for the guy lol. Yessss let me marinate in the badwrongness of all of that and how Peter is the one acting fully insane. Anyway. I digress once more.)

Anyway I’m clearly also biased bc I used to like sylar as a character back in the day but sometime over my like 4 rewatches over the last few years he really started pissing me off lol. Now it’s not like I’m being an anti about him being an evil villain or anything, I love a problematic king and I’m a Nathan stan lmao. In fact I only really enjoy sylar when he is getting to be a proper fun cackling all-out villain, he’s actually enjoyable and funny in that mode. It’s the like 9 flip-flopped badly written redemption arcs they keep trying to give him like they’re trying to make me feel sorry for him bc his dad sold him to one direction or whatever, but sorry!! I feel nothing! He’s a whiny bitch and they should have just let him be killed off one of the first 900 times it nearly happened! I don’t have any sympathy and he’s completely lost me lol. So yeah. That does make me biased plus being a Petrellicest girlie and a Nathan stan and an Elle stan sorry I selfishly won’t forgive him for killing them 😔 poor baby serial killer I’m being such a mean hater. Stan my absolutely fucking awful morally confused self hating politician guy instead loooool

Well. All that to say that I see why people ship it, it has interesting foundations that could have led to something good but IMO it just didn’t, I can definitely imagine it has some good fic out there that can sell you on it, but I just don’t see their great poetic love or whatever. It’s soooo ‘baby’ ‘fellow associate’ core by the end lmao. And it actively annoys me. But I am just being a hater I know. Sorry to the cool petlars out there it’s all hashtag my opinion

#asks #anon #heroes ramblings #hooo boy you got me monologuing again!!!!#anyway stan petrellice.st and their red string of fate fucked up ness xxxx

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rush-the-stars · 1 year

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idk what kinds horror in a/b/o you mean, but i immediately thought about the subtle horror in this reylo fic called "Until You" by ever-so-reylo on ao3 (sorry if you dont like reylo. i dont. but i recognize reylo authors can be BEASTS and i just use cognitive dissonance if i need it) where it's like.. horror in the sense of how society limits and treats omegas and it's all very normalized. like the fic describes a marriage pathway, alarms on doors, omegas cant be present to hear the results of their own doctor appointment, how not getting pregnant is reason for annulment, and so on, and it's just so wildly subtle in how horrific itd be to live like this and i think the scariest part is, in parts of this world rn, there are places where women are treated very similarly to this. it's a one-shot and not super long, and Kylo/Ben/whoever isnt a dickbag or anything, he treats Rey well, and the author is good about making a distinction between "this is how it is here" and "that doesnt mean its good or ideal or warranted" which i think just adds to the horror kinda sorta, i dunno, i could see you having fun writing about a similar kinda world

regardless, id love to hear more about how youd wanna add further horror to a/b/o, bc what i was talking about was Handmaid's Tale-adjacent (not that i like Handmaid's Tale bc the author's a fucking terf and also, m'am, that IS how the world is like for many woc in various parts of the world, it isnt "even more horrifying" having it happen to white women too jfc idk if it counts as "apocalyptic" if its happening here and now and no one seems to care tho; but you get what i mean when i name-drop it however. anyway. i digress) and im curious if you mean in a monster-fucker way or sex pollen way or what, i find the concept of a/b/o + horror fascinating so, again, id LOVE to hear more pls ♡

firstly anon thank you for coming into my inbox and taking the time to share all this with me!! it is greatly appreciated!!

now to get into this!! i’m gonna put this under a cut w some warnings just in case!!

cw: sexism, mentions of violence against women/feminist horror, reylo (LMAO SORRY), a/b/o, uh romantic cannibalism, blood

i am so sorry anon i detest reylo lol. and sorry if anyone follows me and likes them </3

also i think this is very fascinating that i mentioned horror and your mind jumped to what is essentially feminist horror! not a bad thing—just something observed!!

i personally read a lot of horror outside of fanfiction and i read a lot of feminist horror specifically. or i see or have been apart of plays/theater works/etc. that feature feminist/gender horror in various ways. i write short stories that are not fanfic about this topic as well, so with fanfic, i tend to avoid this a great deal! it’s an incredibly heavy topic and for a whole year last year, i had surrounded myself in it (and acted in shows where stage violence was enacted on me by men, acted in roles where i was often in distress because of male characters, acted in emotionally straining and difficult scenes) and realized i was actually…very drained. and learned what i liked to see in these stories and what i thought was needless violence against women reiterated again and again as torture porn of some kind. but long story short, fanfic was a reprieve of that for me!!

(i know you’re thinking—but cielo! you seem to love yandere content! and you are right! but i think all my yan content i enjoy is seeped in a warped love rather than a gendered violence. not that both can’t exist. it’s sticky.)

more than that, i am also interested in a/b/o that breaks gender constructs and dynamics in ways and is not just an afab omega enduring societal and personal violence!

the horror i was mentioning more i think had to do with body horror, possession (as in, almost…demonic. spiritual.), etc.! romance as a horror. (“but the horror? the horror was for love”)

blood lust being tied to heats/ruts. an omega, feverish and in heat, slick with blood and wild eyed. some romantic cannibalism with the way a bite is for claiming. it’s vampiric. it’s a devouring.

it’s a conjoining. a possession. two souls being forcibly twisted together. the horror of having only one true mate that you cannot choose. that is, for better or for worse, only yours. the horror of not just being yourself anymore, but someone else and vice versa. your uncontrollable “other half”.

sublime heats/ruts where you cannot tell what is real or not, shaky snapshots of mind melting ache and pain, only relieved by one person. hallucinations or ailments that come from deeply lonely and isolated omegas and alphas. nightmares when it reaches a fever pitch.

omegas with needle sharp teeth and so much hunger that need to feed and take relentlessly from alphas. omegas and alphas with eyes that glow in the dark and watch too keenly.

rituals where heats/ruts are watched, the horror of bareness and vulnerability. the horror of being an animal in a human skin. of your own desire or pleasure.

also just the horror of being dependent on someone. of needing someone so greatly you’ll be sick with it. the horror of being powerless to their love. the horror of their power over you. or yours over them.

the twisted care. i am interested in strange/more uncommon dynamics; alphas who are nurturing and motherly in awful ways. who hand feed and coddle and smother. omegas who are possessive and violent towards other alphas or omegas.

i just think there is A LOT that could be played with. thought of. messed around with.

i also think we don’t see enough historical au with a/b/o….i’m thinking also gothic-style. western man vs. nature. cowboy a/b/o…victorian…ancient civilization….etc.

anyways, i hope you don’t take this as me like scolding you or hating on what you’ve said in any way—defs not that!! i just had a different sort of horror in mind!! like i said, fanfic for me is all about romance at its core! it’s a reprieve and escape from the work and art that often is very serious and heavy (whether feminist/gender horror, capitalist horror, etc. etc.) that i usually spend my time creating or apart of in my day to day life! it’s deeply important work to me, just not something i wanna do here really!!

#anon thank you for your thoughts!!!#i am so sorry i hate reylo a great deal </3 #i just dislike kylo ren a lot sorry sorry sorry #star wars is a whole other can of worms i CANNOT open #ANYWAYS!#sorry this got rambly and long!!#i can also elaborate or answer other questions i’m not scared of a healthy back and forth #just my thoughts on it all!#cielo chats!#cielo rambles!

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georgiapeach30513 · 2 months

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Hiya Widow Cole Anon again! 👋

Sorry , the first sentence of my second anon was directed at the anon that said he should have stayed as producer not you. Chris looked his age with his character so I was a little defensive.

Oh yeah I loved Stella got her groove her Back! Got to watch that again sometime soon. I see your point with there being younger people that fit the criteria for Ghosted I think I’m just tired of this genre specifically looking at only younger cast and setting aside women 35+ as undesireables. So I was hoping with the casting and premise they’d be poking fun at that with a little wink wink nudge nudge. The constant fresh young ‘newness’/first love that’s promoted tires me out.

Yes Cole does fit my Big Dumbo Himbo fantasies to a T. After that “IM NOT A SuPEr SpY!” clip I was sold red flags be DAMNED. Like girl Sadie, RUN, you could do better. I, however, will not. That is mine. That clip has me giggling and kicking my feet in embarrassment. I’m still down bad

Also little tidbit, to the Brian Peck thing. Based on the people that wrote letters for him, he basically just said he was jailbaited so nobody really looked into it. Like he admitted to have slept with a minor but played it as him being tricked to the people who trusted him. Eye roll but fits the bill with someone like that

Welcome back Widowed Cole Anon!!

Okay, just wanted to make sure. I actually think Chris looks his age. So I was hoping it wasn't directed at me, anyways. I get a bit defensive with the age talk, too. Aging is a privilege and not everyone gets to do it. Remember that.

I think with Ghosted the script was better suited for a younger cast. With that being said, I do wish that there were movies in the romcom genre with ALL ages in mind. I want to see it all. The 20 something movies are a dime a dozen. But let's put out some different age movies as well. I think with an older cast you can get a much more nuanced script. It's more than just he cheated, or she has an ex boyfriend. Bring in some real life problems that other ages can identify with. And for heaven's sake some different skin color. Different types of relationships. They don't always have to be het relationships.

Haha!! I love you anon! I'm glad that you found you a Big Dumb Himbo fantasy in Cole! He's super whiney, so you got you a little subby boy. It's silly, but I enjoyed Chris' whiney moments. "I'm a farmer!" gets me every time.

I love that he's blaming minors like they can consent to anything. But I digress there's a lot of disgusting people in Hollywood, and Brian is just one. But everyone that wrote a letter in his defense tells me all I need to know.

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moondal514 · 2 months

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kevin/aaron for the ship game?

Ship ask game

Thanks for the ask anon <3. I respect my KevAarons and I love that there’s such a vibrant community for them, but unfortunately I myself do not ship them

Why don’t you ship it?

To me, this ship lowkey gives off too much of this terrible combo of “pair the spairs” and “ignoring canonical het relationships because we desire yaoi” vibe for me to like it, if that makes sense. Like you have the Monsters, right? You have Andreil doing their thing and Nicky’s long-distance relationship with Erik, where does that leave Kevin and Aaron? Together apparently, never mind that Katelyn and Thea exist (now. KateKevAaron? Or KevTheaKateAaron? You have my attention. But I digress). It’s the AFTG equivalent of Zukka to me, in that it is essentially a crack ship that I would never think of going solely based off of canon, and yet it is somehow taken so seriously and shipped so intensely by a pretty large segment of the fandom that I’m a lil like “????” about it

What would have made you like it?

Correct me if I’m wrong but off of the top of my head, I can’t recall a single moment in canon where Kevin and Aaron hang out alone together besides that one time they were therapy buddies to go see Betsy. If there were more moments in canon where we’re told Kevin and Aaron hang out alone together, I might be able to get more behind this ship (I am a believer in the “Kevin Day doesn’t know how to have a male friendship without making it homoerotic” agenda 😂). Or like. If there were actual hints in canon of Aaron being into guys maybe

Despite not shipping it, do you have anything positive to say about it?

Yes! I have many positive things to say about this ship actually. I have read and loved fics for this ship so I see its appeal. The thing is, what I actually like best about this ship is how it relates to other characters, which is incidentally another reason why I don’t ship it cuz I don’t like the ship for its merits in isolation, I like it for the drama it can cause with other characters 😂. Specifically Andrew.

Like 1st of all, Aaron being bisexual raises some interesting questions about the twinyard deal. Would Andrew react as badly to Aaron dating a man as he canonically does to Aaron dating a woman (personally I think yes). And then let’s say that person was Kevin. This would directly put Andrew’s deal with Aaron in opposition with Andrew’s protection deal with Kevin. That is some drama.

There’s also the Aaron-Kevin parallels in relation to Andrew to consider. There’s no doubt in my mind that Aaron resents that Andrew made a deal with Kevin cuz like how is that not breaking the twinyard deal? (Not to self-promote but I wrote about that in my Aaron-centric fic here). Not to mention how Andrew canonically treats Kevin’s alcohol addiction vs. how Andrew treated Aaron’s drug addiction, Aaron has got to resent that too ( @orionauriga has written amazing fics that address that subject too, like this one and this one). So add romantic feelings to the mix? Messy messy messy but definitely delicious drama.

Lol that got long and I couldn’t resist throwing in fic recs that aren’t actually KevAaron 😂. Sorry anon, hope you appreciated this anyways

#anon #aftg #ask tag

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runawaymun · 1 year

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I don’t even go here (neither Christian nor queer) but I just want to say thank you so much for your kind response to that earlier anon. As someone who has grown up feeling constantly othered by the experience of being an atheist Hindu-raised kid in a culturally Christian country, your belief that your religion is more than some of the horrid results it produces is really really touching to me. I remember how angry I felt for you during that whole homophobic tag debacle as well and just wanna say that it really means a lot to see there are Christians who are as kind and loving and open-hearted as you out there! (And please don’t take this as an attack on Christianity at all – I’m not trying to denigrate your faith in any way, just sending you some appreciation!) sorry ik this is quite a personal thing to send especially on anon, I hope I’m not overstepping I just think you’re great 💞

Oh my god thank you so much for taking the time to send this in. It truly means the world to me 😭🫶

Yeah the homophobic tag debacle ajdjfjjkkll. I will say that I am happy it happened, if only because it gave me a chance to speak some justice into the situation, step into their echo chamber and attempt to offer an alternative view that they had the opportunity to consider (which is always the first step toward possible change. I never want to assume people’s level when it comes to these things and it’s entirely possible that some people in the tag have never heard anything different & need the opportunity to consider something other than what they’ve been taught. I was there once myself and but for the grace of God there go I still) and so many people came forward to either lend support or just to say that it was nice to see that they weren’t the only ones who are in that queer & religious (or questioning/unsure/traumatized adjacent etc etc) area. Because yeah! It is extremely isolating — the assumption from both sides is that you can’t be both. Part of why I am so loudly religious and loudly queer is so that other people who are going through this journey can see they’re not alone. No matter where you wind up with your beliefs — religious trauma is universal and isolating. It’s important that people talk about it.

Something something what they meant for evil (exclusion) wound up being a good thing in a way (found unity with others, made friends, and also now the bigots are helpfully and willingly labeling/outing themselves ajdjfhjkl). The only thing that makes me still genuinely angry about it is that they have twisted and bastardized the term “salt and light” for so many people who will not know it in any other context other than hate 😔 (and just…it was genuinely such a wasted opportunity for something good, but I digress).

Anyway this really means the world to me. Please don’t apologize 🫶 you’re such an angel for dropping this in my askbox.

#cw religion #religious trauma #out of uniform

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cosmobrain00 · 7 months

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you mentioned you like trigun and i have a question? i’m not into trigun but i see a lot of fan art shipping vash with wolfwood, but i’ve also heard people call it a proship (which is gross obviously) is it true? i heard something about wolfwood being mentally younger than he is physically but idk since i haven’t read/seen it sorry if this is a stupid ask it has nothing to do with you i just don’t know any trigun fans

hello anon! first off love tht u came to me w this I feel like an official in the fandom now, but I digress.

anyways, here's a quick lesson of wht I kno for u, as well as how the answer varies due to the diff adaptations:

(keep in mind there has never been an official age stated for any of these, u just gotta use clues. also I dont use the term "proship" arnd here, but I get ur overall point)

for trigun max n the '98 anime, n based off of wht ive found/ heard, its gonna be safe to guess he's arnd his early to late twenties here, not rlly a chance of him being a teen at all, so there's a pointless argument right there.

here's where it gets interesting: trigun stampede.

im assuming this is where the most "discourse" comes from (n also where ur question originates from) considering the newest anime takes a huge left turn w his backstory n ovrall character, which is tht wolfwood was taken from the orphanage itself as a kid n experimented on until his physical body shed its "younger skin" so to speak, n was pushed into growing into an adult's instead.

so. yeah. easy to see how his age is the most disputed here. I have sifted thru many diff posts n speculations, n have basically come to this conclusion: no one has any fucking idea. it ranges from "he could still be 12 in an adult's body" to "he could actually be arnd 20 now", but again. p hard to decipher tht when u kinda have to get into the mental vs physical state of him also, bc how exactly do u factor in having ur body forcibly aged up while the rest of ur mind was forced to be "left behind" in a sense? did tht also speed up his mental age due to evrything he had to witness? hm.

so unfortunately my answer isnt gonna be completely satisfying bc truthfully imo, it could go either way. a few posts tht ive seen arnd have stated tht u can simply age him up if its more comfortable like the original series instead of sifting thru the nitty gritty details. u feel me?

#tried to confirm as much as I could so I hope nothing here is wrong since also im still relatively new as well #hope I sorta kinda answered ur question tho! didnt add my personal opinion cause I wanted to be objective but personally I go both ways #lowkey ship them in the original series but also love to fuck arnd w the idea of ww's twisted age in tristamp for horror potential tbh #cosmobrain asks #ty again!

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vintagedaydreams · 8 months

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Long winded paragraph anon here again.

GOD. I want to slurp Marcus up like some pan cooked egg yolk. …Pardon my strange phrases of affection. Oh to be swept off my feet by some old downtrodden vampire that for the first time in centuries has a little bit of life to his eyes.

Y/N “WHATS WITH VAMPIRES ASKING ME ABOUT THINGS I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT?!” L/N

As I am ever the drama enthusiast, I’d like to see some jealous Carlisle and protective smug Marcus. I want Marcus to treat the reader with absolute love & attention and I want to see Carlisle suffer through the everbreaking bond on what he ruined. I want Marcus to flaunt the reader’s happiness, knowing Carlisle will forever regret what he’s missed out on. But I am as ever a Carlisle girlie (/gnc), so that may just be my urge for Carlisle angst.

I hope Marcus & the reader cuddle and kiss and get everything good in life. I genuinely love the wives & the Volturi. I think it would be interesting for the Cullens/Hales to have broken Y/N so far, only for Y/N to stand back up and end up having… accidentally grown the favour of The Vampire Royalty™️. Of course, Caius has yet to be introduced, and he may not ever be. But I think he’s on Y/N’s side, though perhaps more violently inclined than the rest. …As usual, carry on, Caius.

Seeing Marcus GET ON HIS KNEES? Goodness. Goodness Gracious. An old king, on his knees to worship his newly found love… Delicious. He definitely knew we, the reader, had no idea what he was asking when it came to him being our protector. I think he relishes in knowing so much more. In a way, I think he wants to guide the reader, to spoil them. …I’m sure there’s specific tangents that his mind may wander to relating to knowing more but I digress. ;)

Hilarious to think about everyone getting on a plane together awkwardly. Living for the bordering-pain silence that will happen. Or the near constant fighting. I wish luck & money to the pilot. 🫡

Still, completely awed, inspired, and in love with your writing. Your descriptions are not overly detailed, but still descriptive to not leave anything unwanted. Which… I’m unable to explain how much I envy & admire that skill. Whether or not you continue, is absolutely up to you. Of course everyone wants it continued but you’re not a failure if it isn’t. Things change as time goes on. Sometimes things end. That’s life, :)!

I think everyone is far more chaotic when it comes to writing, but something that may help is simply listing big plot points you want to put down. If you’re stuck between an awkward plane scene or a fierce one, maybe have either route hold a different side of the scene. Carlisle’s route, maybe he’s too busy drowning in himself to say anything, and no one wants to inflict Y/N’s wrath again, lest they lose the reader forever. With Marcus’ route, Carlisle is, as much as he can, holding back… until Marcus/the reader is ‘overly affectionate.’ So he gets snarky, passive aggressive, low growls. Etc, etc.

ANYWAYS, sorry to strain your eyes. I hope this wasn’t bothersome. I’d love to read your other stories when I have time. If you ever plan on posting these to Ao3, I’d love to know the username but you’re not at all forced to share. Have a lovely evening, morning, and/or noon! ❤️

Anon,

THANK YOU for the incredibly kind words!!!! I have to admit, I have not been interacting with my blog/my stories on here for so long- this was such a treat to come back to!!!

I’ve never been officially diagnosed with anything, but I do have the attention span of a walnut. So it is hard to say if this series will ever be continued- the walnut is on to other things at this moment, unfortunately.

But I am so humbled by your appreciation for my writing! And I wish I could be more consistent with it.

You are an amazing person, Anon. Thank you.

Never change. 💜💜

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sheinthatfandom · 10 months

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I do not understand New Japans booking at all this years G1 was so fucking much better than last years and they had so many opportunities to make it even greater by focusing on new stars and really building storylines and new champs and then decided t go back to the same people they always do like wtf then they wonder why viewership goes down

The way I’ve literally avoided this ask all morning so for that I’m sorry nonnie but I wanted to get my thoughts in order. So okay first off I do not watch NJPW its not because I don’t want to it’s just I get tired like firstly I’m in New York so EST and also between dynamite rampage collision and ROH I only have so much time for other things if I add in another wrestling company I honestly think I might go even more insane.

Now that’s not to say I don’t know anything of what’s going on like tumblr twitter and insta are pretty good at telling me what’s going on and there’s people I love and woman support however I can. (Shota zsj elp)

Okay so that said there’s a very important rule promoters follow and that’s book for the people buying tickets to come see the show. Yes PPV buys are also important but not at the cost of having an empty arena. The people who buy tickets and actually bring their family out to the shows aren’t thought of often because social media is loud. But having an empty Tokyo dome would be even louder like…. Njpw might legit just cancel all future g1’s could you fucking imagine? Like they need to sell tickets they need asses in seats and they have to book for the home crowd to actually get out of their house and walk or drive to the show. Social media and people paying 10 bucks or whatever to watch online like we matter but not that much cause you can’t make the whole world happy but you better fucking make people who will actually sit in a hot ass arena happy .

Also (not saying it was you cause the language here is dramatically different) for the shitty ass angry ass anon about my saraya post I do not like the bitch I have her name blacklisted I don’t want her on tv or in any wrestling company at all with her transphobic ass but end of the day no company owner gives a rat ass about her thoughts or her boyfriends transphobic thoughts they don’t give a fuck about being an ally or sticking up for what’s right they just care about money. Which is why I said I rather her be in another match instead of a 4 way (I believe I said Giulia or just thought it cause I’m sure she can carry the match so saraya can not do much and hopefully someone on staff could keep her bf from preforming live) I don’t want her on the show at all but in London they want her they will go to the show to see her (they probably also agree with her views cause online it does not seem like an inclusive place but I digress)

What I want is more womens matches more womens 10+ min matches I want roh level matches I want multiple women storylines not connected to belts at all I want feuds that feel personal and I want them to be long term stories that I can get excited about I want womens matches to also be intergender matches I want to see Eddie and willow on a team against Kip and penny or orange and kris vs Claudio and Nyla i want Bryan and Athena Vs Trish adora and Shawn dean like…. So many possibilities anyway yeah not gonna happen cause shows aren’t booked for social media and since I’ve never gone to a wrestling show and probably never will cause we are not going to Trenton we just aren’t people whose entertainment is focused on and the best we got is just to find what we like and focus on that instead of what we’re not getting.

Sorry for the ramble my coffee hit like halfway through the post

#I don’t even wanna tag this #might delete later #imma nap on it

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kitakashi · 1 year

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I know but like this is why I avoid fandoms as a whole. especially if it’s made most up by men. men can’t take a joke, opinion or anything in between it’s always on the defensive side of them. it’s black and white with them. which is why I don’t even like involving myself in the one piece fandom at times. it’s like a distance I keep with and I mostly associate with the women in the fandom.

anyways I don’t let it get to me either way I just find it funny.

I’ve never felt the need to discuss stuff I like with random people? Like, I’ve never participated in a fandom discussion?

I see fanart I like, I reblog/retweet it, occasionally leave a comment.

I read fanfiction I like, I reblog/retweet it, occasionally leave a comment.

My comments are usually like any variation of 😍🤤🥵😩🥺🫠🥰😘.

If I don’t like something, I let it be. I don’t look at it. I don’t read it. It’s not hurting me. Never understood the need to leave hate comments.

To me a fandom should be a bunch of people who love something so much they share their loving creations with others.

I don’t get why insults are necessary.

Not everyone likes chocolate, some people prefer vanilla.

I know there are crazy anons are out there. I’ve seen it. Don’t understand it but witnessed it.

I think people take things too personally. Just because someone’s opinion differs isn’t a personal attack. But some people, and many men, have fragile egos.

Also, it’s so easy to hurt people online. And it’s hard to trace that back to a person. It’s like a shield or something. You can go anonymous, you can create a new account, you can change your ip address… People pretend that the way they act online doesn’t effect their real selves. That’s a big fat lie.

I digress.

I’m sorry you experienced that. And I apologize for the rant. 😅

You can always be excited with me, even if it’s not my thing, I’ll always listen. 😘 No hate here!

#precious mutuals 💍

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neteyamsilly · 1 year

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It’s ramble anon!!

Tumblr being silly as usual 😑

Thank u so much!!!

I don’t feel obligated at all by the way!! I’m always super excited to send you anything!! I’m actually pretty shy lmao, even if I have been on tumblr for years now, you are the first person I interacted in this way!

(My exams results were good btw!! Thank u 😊)

LMAO we might as well be all connected together 😭, I swear that’s what happened, and I’m SO glad it did, I wouldn’t have been able to concentrate at all if I knew the new chapter was waiting for me while I was in class 💀

I HAVE TO SAY: I LOVE the name JACK, she just sucks at naming things like her dad 😌

Or she just doesn’t care, like her dad lmao

It’s so funny that she’d name her ikran just to piss off Jake, like, what is he gonna do??

Btw the jack in cards is like a symbol of good luck; like she is the wild card of the family, what better name for her ikran than that? (There are many (or so anyone keeps telling her), she just doesn’t care 🙄)

[Why can I picture Norm and Max teaching Y/N to play cards?? I mean, IK the group at the old shack (Jake, Grace, Trudy and Norm) had to do something other than eating and sleeping (not sleeping with, I’m looking at u Norm and Trudy) and I think cards would have been an easy, entertaining enough and not too tiresome game to play together and it got passed on to Y/N (maybe those cards were Trudy’s or Grace’s, that’s why Norm still has them.. now I made myself sad 😭)]

And Neytiri somehow finding out and being fucking mad lmao, like “we have our damn games at home, u don’t need this skypeople crap”

If the events of TWOW happened I totally see Y/N maturing more and being a lot more astute about being a little shit lmaoo

Like convincing Ao’nung to fly with her?? That took SKILL and a silver tongue (like the art of persuasion type of crap she’d pull lmao)

[not me inventing happy lalaland headcanons nonsense while Y/N is literally dying and could be taken away from her family 💀💀]

But anyways I digress!!

Of course I look forward to the next chapter!! But I hope you get to rest and don’t get pressured or stressed to write the next one!!

I hope you have an amazing day!! Thank you so much! ❤️

HELLO RAMBLE ANON SORRY THIS IS LATE!

I'm so happy that I get to be the first one to get to interact with you like this, I might just turn into a webtoon/kdrama male lead that goes "you're the first one to do this to me" LMAOOOOO

ALL THE THINGS YOU SAY ABOUT JACK IS EVERYTHING IM GOING FOR SDJDSDJSD sister!reader is meant to literally be a copy of jake, so i want to give her some of his funniest traits as well and naming of the ikran is one of them. fucking jack. she does it out of "funny haha" and "dads gonna hate this and im gonna love it" and "i do not care" venn diagram thing BSBDHBSH

ALSO YOUR HEADCANON ABOUT PLAYING CARDS???? HAS ME IN MY FEELS PLEASE 😭😭😭😭

And neytiri full on going mom mode: "we have cards at home"

cards at home: entirely different subservient thing

AND UR SO RIGHT sister!reader would get smarter about being a little shit. she has to be because lo'ak is an idiot

NOOO DONT SAY LALALAND NONESENSE IM ENJOYING IT SBSJDBSJD

Thank you so much for the ask, as always <333

#irma mirma ask mask #irmanons: ramble anon

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sewercentipede · 2 years

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https://thebaffler.com/salvos/bullys-pulpit

re:cowardice

imo it's something of a virtue. i'm so glad you're still here. i'm really glad you're still alive and i hope you stick around as long as you can.

I’m gonna put a “read more” cuz my response is kind of long 😅

thank u for the article. it is... interesting, and while I don’t agree with many of its claims and wordings, and there’s a lot i could say about the things it discusses, dissecting it would take a while as it covers a lot of ground and doing so would b a digression imo

but i think yes many times dependíng on perspective cowardice can be seen as a virtue and sometimes what is socially deemed as cowardly is actually bravery

im really touched by ur message, it’s hard to believe that ppl on the internet give a shit — and when I’ve gotten replies from ppl telling me they care, at the time i felt only apathy or resentment due to my depression — but you and the other anons I’ve gotten have made me feel a lot of love today.

in truth there is more to my inability to kms than cowardice alone, a lot of the reason I stay alive is bc i don’t want to hurt the ppl who love me. I’ve had friends attempt suicide, had friends and family struggle with their own suicidal desires, and have had friends and family die from the methods I’d use to kms, and others die suddenly and young; I’ve even had friends attempt to kill themselves and had to intervene to save their lives, which is fucking weird to think about. every time I’ve gone thru ppl I care about dying in these ways it’s hurt me so much it’s like it has wounded my very heart and soul and that wound may scar over but it will never leave. I struggle a lot with my desire to end my suffering—the feeling that I deserve for it to end on my terms—and the resulting wake of pain doing so would cause my loved ones that would alter them for the rest of their lives. and I will never come to a decision on whether suicide is more selfish than keeping someone alive to suffer because losing them would hurt too much.

when it comes down to it in the moments where the pain is overwhelming and all I want is to stop it by any means necessary, what stops me isn’t my loved ones, it’s fear. and I think whether that fear is a virtue doesn’t really matter, the fear happens to keep me alive which most ppl would agree is a good thing (i have mixed feelings about whether it is good or not). it serves a purpose. can the instinct for self preservation be considered virtuous? idk.. idk. it is certainly a perspective I’ve not considered so deeply before now.

anyway im sorry to ramble but thank you again for ur words <3 I rly appreciate it

#suicide

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mishervellous · 2 years

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oh my, i'm gone for one afternoon and mayhem ensues. anyhow, first off the important things (which, hello, you, in case that wasn't clear)- you can't just drop these beautiful blossoms without simultaneously dropping an address in my dms, that's just outright criminal and i will riot-

please imagine the bongo cat looking a tad bit more menacing, there's just not a single version of it not being cute.

secondly, i do wonder what that anon was on about. like - i'm out here camping in your ask box for you, obviously? that's how i started, that's what feels natural. also, we can't suddenly have dead silence over here and have everyone wonder whether we secretly got divorced?? absolutely unbelievable. also, saints forbid we spread some positivity and wholesomeness on the dash, how dare we.

(just to make that clear, i'll stay camping here for as long as you'll have me 😌💙🌷)

(hey that’s a funny coincidence, you’re important too! 🌾)

listen i’m not above doxxing myself on this very blog if it means you’ll get on a plane to italy js

also is this bongo cat angry enough or

i think that anon probably a) can’t stand it when not every single thing is catered to them and crafted with them in mind and b) just hates happiness. it’s the only explanation 🤔 plus, they had already taken the steps to blacklist your tags (which i think violates the geneva conventions because what kinda monster would do that) so i’m left here wondering why would they still give me the time of day by clicking on my blog and asking me that question. god forbid someone has fun and wants to smooch their hubby in public 🙄

but anyways! i digress. the tabloids would absolutely go crazy if we interrupted our lovely daily ritual out of the blue!! we could never let that happen. nosho is here to stay, folks. deal with it 😤 i’m sorry if you don’t have the human embodiment of serotonin in your inbox every day but don’t take it up with me 👊🏻

#daily hubby my beloved 💙#creepervellous 🌷🌼#💙💙💙💙#ask

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probssomethingorother · 1 month

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Hi!!! I absolutely loved your most recent fic even though it was so (!!!!) sad, it was sad in a really soft and elegant sort of way. And also explored a part of the world the fandom doesn’t delve into too much which was super cool! Anyway, I’m just wondering what you might be planning to write next? I’m super excited for whatever it is 😌

Whoa an anon!! Truly shocked

WELCOME TO MY PAGE ANON!! 💕

So glad you liked Next of Kin (shameless plug)! It was so different than my usual writing so it was an interesting thing to make! It was pretty fun to write and share all my ideas about Claire and Joel but def not easy….I was so petrified the sadness was going to fall flat and people would be like “um what did I just read that was so boring” 😅

BUT I DIGRESS….

What am I writing? Very good question.

So,

I am a serial wipper.

I have many unfinished works out there and many many more unpublished wips started. I probably will try to get back on to finishing Derail the Mind of Me pretty soon because people seem to like it. I have another one shot in progress that’s similar format to Next of Kin but it’s a Joel and Ellie post Silver Lake story. It hopefully will be the same vibe as Next of Kin where it’s sad but I’m kinda a soft way?? It’s much different to my other post Silver Lake stuff in that’s it’s kinda slow. I’m excited to post cause I think people will really like it (🙈) but it’s long and needs a lot more work before publishing. Currently it’s called “Depth Over Distance”, but that could very much change.

Unfortunately, I barely get time to write and I am a slow writer so it might be a while before you see anything new from me! Sorry 🥲

Thanks for dropping into my inbox! Always love a good chat ✨

#anon ask #tlou #the last of us #tlou fic #ao3 fanfic #next of kin #ao3 #my writing

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moemammon · 3 years

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When I was in High School, my crush and I got into a fight and neither of us were talking to each other. One day I was headed up the stairwell to get to my science class, when I saw them coming up from behind... I don't think they had even noticed me yet considering that they were busy talking to their friend BUT I am slow going up stairs so even if I rushed up the stairs roadrunner style they would have caught up to me, well; the little corner that connects the steps going up to the second floor and the steps heading down to the ground floor had a large open window... and I jumped out, like I literally just jumped out. I didn't even think it through, I just saw the window and my body was like "Yep, IK what to do." I landed on a bush or tree? It's too big to call a bush but too small to call a tree, landed in a squat before my feet gave out and I fall onto my knees and got two large grass stains on my jeans knee part, couldn't walk right either after that landing, I was shaky all day lol but it was a risk well calculated bc the whole thing would have been so awkward. I mean we used to be like BFFS before the rumors began and then they started and we just stopped talking without warning, we couldn't even look at each other. Our science partners, bc we were in groups of four, literally got fed up of our bullshit bc we literally refused to acknowledge the others existence... anyway, I digress...

Anyway, this whole story is a long winded way of me requesting how the brothers would react to an MC that literally just jumps out windows to avoid awkward moments, or to dodge people that want to ask them for favors, or when they straight up want to avoid someone?

And sorry about the large ass message, but thanks for letting me vent

You have a special place in my heart, window-jumping anon. Just uhhhhhhh look down next time okay? Ily

The Demon Brothers react to GN!MC jumping out of a window to avoid an awkward moment

(Mario jumping sound effect)

Lucifer

He approached you after class to ask exactly what you were snickering at your D.D.D. about during class.

Must've been real funny if you weren't listening to your lecture, huh?

"I imagine you've somehow found something worthy of laughing about in Demonology 101?"

You do not have the guts to tell him that you and Mammon were texting back and forth, abusing a new photo editing app to alter pictures of the eldest himself.

I mean, take a wild guess about how he’d react to seeing how big you edited his head to be-

The avatar of pride lets his eyes pierce into you, like he's trying to stare a hole through your blanket of "uh"s and "um"s,

You don't exactly see a way out of this one, but you can NOT let Lucifer see your photo gallery.

So you glance to your left to the open classroom window, and do the only thing you can think of: you jump.

Luckily you're on the ground floor so you??? really didn't have to jump so dramatically. But the fact that you yeeted yourself into a bush JUST to escape has left Lucifer speechless.

Honestly? He so impressed with your dedication that he's not gonna stop you. Besides, he's gonna see you back at home anyway so-

Also thinks you might be hanging around Mammon too much because that 100% seems like a stunt he’d pull.

Mammon

GIVE GOLDIE BACK RIGHT NOW

He KNOWS Lucifer told you to bring the credit card to him, and he demands to know where it's hidden! He's positive you know where it is!

But you don't really though?? You just brought the card to him like you were asked. If anything, you're the victim here!

But Mammon isn't having that. The avatar of greed is circling around you like an angry cat, patting you all over like airport security to see if you've got his beloved card.

"Where is it, huh?! Ya really think you can steal from THE Mammon?! Even if Lucifer told ya to, who do ya think you are?!"

When he has confirmed that you don't in fact have his previous Goldie, he's now cornering you up against a wall.

If looks could kill, you would've exploded into a fine powder

And you feel like your mental strength is about to do just that. So what do you do after you notices the slightest of breezes caress your face?

You jump outta that open window, before Mammon can even finish his "Wh- Oi! What're ya-"

Even though you just face planted into the garden, you're up on your feet and making a mad dash for somewhere that wasn't here.

Mammon lets you run for ten while seconds before he's hopping out after you. You think you can outfox the Great Mammon?! Think again!!!

Levi

You... weren't interested in this movie in the slightest, but you didn't have the heart to tell Levi that. Especially not after he’d begged/harassed you for the past week about watching it with him!

Reluctantly you agreed, and now you were suffering,,,But Levi was ecstatic! This movie was a classic! Sure it was an old one and the acting was a little bad, but you could overlook that if you watched it with your heart, not your eyes!

According to Levi.

You managed to keep your eyes open for the grueling one and a half hour movie, enduring every corny line of bad acting, horrible CGI, and lame sound effects straight out of a 90s super hero movie, and now the hell was finally over...

Or so you though, until Levi followed that up by immediately pulling out a cosplay outfit worn by one of the supporting characters in the show.

Funny how it seemed specifically tailored to your measurements. Even funnier how Levi was looking at you with those damned eyes.

You knew what he wanted without him even having to say it. But one look at the gaudy outfit he presented to you made your heart burn with a sudden indescribable urge.... to escape.

Honestly you caught him so off guard by suddenly getting up and sprinting out of the room, that he makes a sound that's pretty much the noise equivalent of "?!?!?!?!?!?"

He watches you run down to the end of the hall, throw the window open, and fuckin JUMP. Pretty sure he just witnessed your death??

Also this kinda solidified his 'gross otaku' mentality, seeing as you literally jumped out of a window to get out of cosplaying with him. A simple no would've sufficed, MC.......,.,,..,,,

Hey gamers... can we get an F in the chat? 😔✌️💦

Satan

Satan lent you a book to read last week that he was sure you'd be interested in! He found it pretty interesting himself, so he wants to see if you'd like it as much as he did.

That being said, you don't have the heart to tell him that you,,, didn't read any of it. Well you kind of did, if the cover counts for anything.

You doubt he would accept that as an answer, considering how you told him how much you appreciated receiving the book, and how you'd definitely read it and let him know how it was.

So now, Satan had come into your room with two cups of tea, ready to settle down and have a nice, long talk about your thoughts on the riveting plot that you promised you would indulge in.

"I'm really glad you decided to read it. I found that the protagonist reminded me a lot like you. I'd like to know what you thought about it."

Satan sets down the tea cups, and one sip tells you that he brewed it exactly the way you like.

His expression is eager and warm as he waits for you to begin gushing about just how deeply the story touched you... how absolutely moved you are by the sheer majesty that was the book he lent you...

Okay yeah, you're sweating bullets. You can't imagine how the sparkly eyed avatar of wrath would react to learning that you chose the company of your D.D.D. over Satan's book.

You don't have such an ice cold hard that you can just crush this book nerds dreams like that! And every time you look at his expectant face, the weight of your crimes weigh heavier on you until... you break.

Satan watches in shock and awe as you almost perfectly reenact the big scene where the main character leaps out of the window of a building rigged to explode, before making their escape. And you did just that.

Wow.. he never thought you could be so moved by a story, but he completely understands...

Asmo

How many outfits, Asmo. HOW MANY OUTFTITS WILL IT TAKE TO APPEASE YOU?

He's made you model TWELVE outfits so far, and you swear if you see another ascot, you're gonna lose your mind.

Asmodeus doesn't seem to notice the way the light slowly fades from your eyes, because he's pulling out outfit number thirteen with that cheery smile of his.

"Isn't this one absolutely adorable? Look, this part will look lovely around your waist! This part here hugs your body in all the right places, and this-"

You can't do it. You've gotta get out of here. You'd love to stand around and get mild rug burn from trying on a billion different clothes, but-

Actually no you wouldn't.

You DID promise Asmo you'd hang out with him today, but this wasn't really your idea of a good time.

"-Oooh, just thinking about it makes me want to eat you up~! Here, put it on for me, will you? I'll give you a kiss as a reward!"

You would do no such thing.

You make a mad dash for his ornate window and push it open. He has no time to stop you as he helplessly watches you vault yourself out like the room was on fire.

"MC?! Wh-where are you going?? Come back here! Grass stains are impossible to get out of that fabric!!!"

Beel

He means well. I swear he does. It's just that Beel can be a little... overbearing when he's worried about you. He cares, okay?

But he hasn't seen you eat anything all day! You tell him it's because you've got a stomach ache from who knows what, and you promise you've had little snacks here and there to keep from starving, but he can't accept that!

Eating is important, and you need it to survive. So Beelzebub was currently trying to nudge your mouth open with a pizza slice, while you vehemently refused. "Just one bite. And then another after that. You have to eat, or you'll go hungry... and I don't want that."

Beel knows the true pain of being hungry, and he’d never wish that on you! So just forget about your stomach ache for two seconds and open up-

Not that you really can. The aroma of that pizza was not sitting well on your stomach, and you were pretty sure you needed a fast escape or you'd risk losing your lunch. Greasy foods didn't exactly mix well with sour stomachs...

Beel still won't let up. He has a strong hand planted firmly on the small of your back, as if trying to prevent you from leaning back any further in your attempt to escape the pizza.

"If you eat this, I'll treat you to dessert at Madam Screams," he says, as if bribing your refusal of food USING food will somehow work out.

You can't break his heart, but you seriously can't eat that! Your head is spinning, thoughts racing, face becoming greasier and greasier from the pizza pressed against it, and-

You snap. In a sudden burst of strength you break free from Beel's grasp, and sprint toward the nearest window. All you see is your chance for freedom, and you're taking it.

You leap out and tumble into the ground, all while Beelzebub wonders what?? Just happened???? Did you really hate pizza that much...?

He never knew you were such a picky eater... To think you'd go so far as to jump out of the window though...

Belphie

You thought it was cute at first, when Belphegor wanted you to join him for his naps. And you didn't mind much. It was the weekend, you were tired, and he makes a pretty good body pillow.

But you didn't realize he planned for this to become an everyday thing. The youngest might not act it, but he sure could be spoiled.

But seriously, if you slept any longer, you might never have a normal sleep schedule again! It never occurred to you just how often Belphie sleeps.

He's definitely not human, because there's no way you can keep up with that, and maintain a normal lifestyle.

But the way he quietly, gently grabs your sleeve to cue your next nap session makes your heart clench. Why was it so damned hard to say no to this gremlin??

You were trying your best though, but the words always seemed to get caught in your throat. Belphie picked apart your excuses, doing everything in his power to take you back to the attic.

"You can study when you wake up." "Mammon wants to go shopping? Reschedule." "Lucifer told you not to be late to the board meeting? Just hide."

You're starting to get sucked into the sleepy lull of his voice, and it feels like your entire body is becoming heavy with fatigue. But no.... you resist!

Since there's no escaping this through words, you have to think fast. Fortunately, your fast thinking has led to an amazing solution!

Jump out of the window, baby

Belphie is just??? Did you fuckin???? Are your legs okay??????????????

He probably stops asking you to nap with him for a while, since you're willing to almost break your legs just to get out of it. You're gonna make him have weird dreams....

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