“There is an appointed time for everything, and a time for every affair under the heavens.”

Ecclesiastes 3:1

AAAAHHHHH I LOVE BEING ANGLO-CATHOLIC I LOVE LITURGY I LOVE SACRAMENTS I LOVE THE BOOK OF COMMON PRAYER I LOVE INCENSE AND CANDLES AND PSALMS AND HYMNS AND THE ORGAN AND ROSARIES AND QUEERNESS AND GOD GOOD LORD!!!!!!

A morning prayer that was shared on r/Episcopalian which I loved, from the Book of Common Prayer (1979). It's from the Ministration to the Sick (under "Prayers for use by a Sick Person"), but I hope it'll be helpful for anyone facing a difficult day. I prayed it this morning; I'll certainly need it often.

This is another day, O Lord. I know not what it will bring forth, but make me ready, Lord, for whatever it may be. If I am to stand up, help me to stand bravely. If I am to sit still, help me to sit quietly. If I am to lie low, help me to do it patiently. And if I am to do nothing, let me do it gallantly. Make these words more than words, and give me the Spirit of Jesus. Amen.

—The Book of Common Prayer (1979), p.461.

Lichfield Cathedral, February 15th 2023. truly a veritable feast for the eye.

Making an Always Sunny In Philadelphia-style corkboard of theological theories that will revitalize the church only to discover I have reinvented Episcopalianism.

religious trauma from Christians... as a Christian

I have a bit of a weird circumstance, because I wasn't Christian at the time of my trauma, but I was dating an Evangelical Christian when I was 14 (yeah, yeah, yell at me or whatever) who caused my trauma. As a result I developed PTSD and the circumstances worsened the OCD I have struggled with my whole life. I'm not going to go into detail, but let's just say his lust caused him to sin and he did not pluck out his eyes. (he did more than that but whatever) I love going to Church and talking about religion and the Bible and can usually do it without problem. But sometimes, I go into these thought spirals where my brain attributes Christianity to the things my ex did to me. Which is like... what OCD does. It attacks our morals and beliefs. I'm essentially doing therapy by myself because of bad past experiences (and in part because I can't fully trust a Christian therapist to not be anti-gay or anti-trans. I also have a fear that a secular therapist will just tell me to stop being Christian, which will just lead to more thought spirals). I've banned myself from doing compulsions (while still giving myself grace if I mess up, which is the hardest part), so I feel like a werewolf chained up to a tree at practically all times. The best thing to do is distract myself, which usually ends up with me reading interpretations of Scripture, philosophy, politics, anthropology, writing (I have writer's block, sadly), or interacting with the fandom that I'm in since these are things I whole-heartedly enjoy. But I'll do these things and then a thought will come in (i.e "Some people who are Christian have done bad things and used God to justify it, therefore, you are bad", "Well, you kinda did this bad thing 10 years ago, therefore, you're getting left behind in the rapture, sorry lol!" (I didn't even know about the rapture until I dated that guy), "You aren't doing enough to help people, therefore, you deserve to die", "You dare to eat while other people can't? Um... kys?", "What if you actually beat someone to death in your sleep and you just didn't know about it?", etc.) and then I'm back at square one. It's been like this all of my life (first time I remember having an intrusive thought/image was when I was 5). And it doesn't help that the OCD triggers my PTSD so it's just like a horrible game of ping-pong in my head. I don't know... do any of you have advice? Prayers are always appreciated (no matter your faith).

You know, growing up as a Mormon, we didn't do crosses, and I doubt if LDS Churches will ever use crosses out front just as a branding issue.

The irony is, in my own Episcopalianess, I'm not super drawn to the Jesus of Good Friday, preferring the Jesus of Christmas, Maundy Thursday, and Easter.

In the meantime, and actually this started to happen before I ever left, Mormons have become obsessed with the crucifixion, albeit in a very Evangelical, substitutionary atonement sort of way.

Thus the reason when I finally got a crucifix for the house, I was drawn to one that depicts the resurrected Lord.

most days all i can think about is religion; mostly christianity. i'm very fixated on it but because of my encephalitis i have a hard time thinking clearly and in order so i can't even understand what i believe in no matter how much i think about it or how much i read it. this is upsetting to me because all i want to do is learn more about my religion.

Evening Prayer

Remember that you are dust & to dust you shall return.

(heads up: morning prayer + litany + combination is 45 minutes of praying plan your kneeling/sitting situation accordingly)

“Where can I go from your spirit? From your presence, where can I flee?”

Psalm 139:7

From the Sarum Primer. (Saint Augustine's Prayer Book, p. 67)

God be in my head, and in my understanding. God be in my eyes, and in my looking; God be in my mouth, and in my speaking; God be in my heart, and in my thinking; God be at my end, and at my departing.

sola scriptura types act as if Jesus just came to earth, handed each of the apostles a KJV, told them 'good luck' and then left

how could one possibly believe 'i am with you evermore' and that the Holy Ghost rests on the church (as Christ breathed him onto the apostles), and *not* think that the tradition of the church, guided by the same Spirit, continues to reveal God's will?

Christus vincit! Christus regnat! Christus imperat!

Merry Christmas, I (digitally) drew a thing. Inspired by the anglo-catholic art nouveau pen and ink art from Martin Travers and others in the early 1900s. Modeled after the reredos at my fiancée's church.