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aletheapierce · 4 months

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{ NATASHA LIU BORDIZZO, 21, GENDER NONCONFORMING, SHE/THEY } Is that ALETHEA PIERCE? A SENIOR originally from SAVANNAH, GA, they decided to come to Ogden College to study DANCE. They’re THE DRAG-ALONG on campus, but even they could get blamed for Greer’s disappearance.

no one ever really likes me for more than just a couple weeks...

NAME: alethea ivy pierce NICKNAMES: none, thea to a select few BIRTHDAY: february 23, 2002 ZODIAC: pisces sun, scorpio rising, aquarius moon SEXUALITY: bisexual RELIGION: ceo methodist (christmas & easter only) THREE POSITIVE TRAITS: idealistic, hospitable, wholesome THREE NEGATIVE TRAITS: paranoid, indecisive, timid THREE SKILLS: fluent in french, calligraphy, detailed-oriented ENNEAGRAM: 9w1 MYERS-BRIGGS: intj EXTRACURRICULARS: ballet company, tri-del (member)

AESTHETIC: pink painted nails, tucking hair behind your ears, off-distant stares, shy smiles, hollowed looks, books in tote bags, quiet giggles, leaning in when intrigued, earbuds, furiously scribbling in journals, waking up with tears, monsters chasing you in dreams, warm tea and milk, a cookie crumbling in your hand, barefoot on hardwood floors, watching the sunset alone

CHARACTER INSPO: nina sayers (black swan), georgiana darcy (pride & prejudice), jaz sinclair (caos), betty cooper (riverdale). myrtha (giselle), daisy buchanan (the great gatsby), juliet capulet (romeo & juliet), lady edith crawley (downton abbey), betty elms (muholland drive), andy bernard (the office), harriet smith (emma)

LIKES: ballet, taylor swift, dresses, gin and tonics, daydreaming, sparkles, quietly reading, the wind through her hair DISLIKES: stares, having to answer questions, being alone, being in crowds, people yelling, being judged

FAVORITE MOVIES/TV: the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, shrek, black swan, the secret life of walter mitty, gilmore girls, dance academy, big fish, all the boys love many lane, fleabag FAVORITE BOOKS: six of crows, the invisible life of addie larue, on earth we’re briefly gorgeous, pride and prejudice, the uglies series FAVORITE ARTISTS: halsey, taylor swift, lizzy mcalpine, nicholas britell, hans zimmer, chelsea cutler, phoebe bridgers FAVORITE BALLETS: giselle, firebird, la sylphide, carmen

FAMILY: mother - jennifer tiner pierce (katheryn winnick) father - carl sile pierce (daniel wu) younger brother - hu jacob pierce (kazuma mitchell)

pinterest here, playlist here.

WHEN ALL THE BRIDGES HAVE BEEN BURNED:

jennifer pierce expected the best of her children. she gave them the best so of course they had to return the favor. she had inherited her father’s business, and was excelling so much her husband took her last name. it wasn’t a feminist thing, but a money thing you see. alethea grew up without a want, but the truth of the matter is she never knew what she wanted. her mother made those decisions. from what she wore, to how she cut her hair, to who her friends were and what activities did. her entire life was planned to a t, and alethea never questioned a moment of it. how do you question something that you didn’t know was an option?

her brother jacob was doted on, and grew up with a grin and popularity. this was easy to him. this was painful for alethea. she smiled and waved, and the only matters of relief she found were in her ballet classes. going professional hadn’t been her mother’s first plan, but seeing the natural talent her daughter was, and just how feminine she was, allowed this small change in the over all path forward.

jennifer and carl met at ogden, and she knew that was where her children were to go. there was no exception, and jennifer would do whatever needed for her kids to follow her legacy. the major was flexible, but they would go to ogden, they would find suitable spouses, and they would carry on the family legacy. it was picture perfect, and she never heard a single word of complaint from either of her children.

AND ALL THE TABLES HAVE BEEN TURNED BY ME:

growing up without decisions meant college was terrifying for alethea. she had to pick her classes, find friends that her mother couldn’t approve of, and suddenly had free time that wasn’t planned out for her? it was paralyzing. but during the second week of classes greer spotted alethea across the way and took her under her wing. she showed her what the world could be, and she still fit under that approval from jennifer pierce. greer wasn’t just her best friend, but she was a bit of a savior for her.

this whole time there has been a gnawing in her chest. a desire for freedom, a petition to let the real alethea out and run free. but who was she? alethea couldn’t answer that, not honestly. just who her mother had manufactured her to be. but this confusion, this shyness, this quietness played into a different picture of alethea. it allowed her to be whatever anyone wanted her to be, they could paint their own ideas of her. she could be mysterious, she could be all they ever wanted. and she could be a dream.

and it was through this exploration that alethea slowly stepped out of the pillars her mother had built for her. first came the time greer dared her to kiss another girl during spin the bottle, and alethea realized that she might have enjoyed it more than her mother would have liked. and then came the time greer put her in a suit instead of a dress, and she liked the way it looked on her. and that maybe she wasn’t a girl after all, but something that could be shed. and so they started to pick up new pieces of theirself, putting them together to form a whole new journey. was ballet even the career they wanted? did they even like ogden? who were these people that had been decided as their friends? the questions became overwhelming.

WHO WILL BE LEFT TO LEAVE? JUST ME:

and now greer is gone. and it’s noticeable the change in alethea. it began before her disappearance of course, but could it somehow be correlated? alethea willingly goes out, sometimes alone, now. they are keeping greers friends, they are speaking up and out, they have a bite to them that hadn’t existed once upon a time. what does the future hold of alethea? are they becoming who they really are, or are they once again pretending, shedding the quiet role they had lived into for all their life for one that looks a little more like their now missing friend…

GREER:

during freshman year at ogden, alethea was absolutely lost and in-over her head. she had never been the rebellious type, her parents had been too strict to allow non-sense in their house, and so alethea was overwhelmed with the freedom college could allow, and she had no idea how to deal with it. her mother had always taught her to seek out the ‘right’ people to befriend, and it was just her luck that greer extended her own friendship to alethea. she brought them to the parties, encouraged her to flirt with whomever was necessary in order to go after who she wanted, and overall guided alethea through college. they doesn’t know if she would have been able to survive any of it without greer. there was little jealousy on alethea’s side at the beginning - she was just grateful for what greer could offer her through her friendship. and alethea was not a threat to greer. but as they’ve grown older there has been a tension living in the friendship, the reliance upon each other that might not be as necessary anymore. alethea was not anymore outgoing or less shy, but now her shyness was being interpreted as mystery, making them a bit more intriguing to others and perhaps sparking some jealousy on greer’s side.

THE DRAG-ALONG:

you know that girl that was always a few steps behind greer and the fallen princess? the one with wide eyes and a quiet demeanor? they never seemed to talk much, but even in their silence never seemed to be entirely so observant that you had to watch what you were saying. really, she just seemed like a little pet to the best friends, a third they allowed to follow them around.

and that person? that was alethea, taken under greer’s wing during the first weeks of school freshman year but never brought too close. it was the kind of relationship where alethea was sure to call greer one of her best friends, and greer might hesitate, only referring to them as a simple friend. but wherever the fallen princess and greer were, alethea was there. fingers picking at each other, posture both immaculate and slouched. each semester they seemed to get a bit bolder, inching their way up next to the other two, but still never find herself as an equal.

extra:

previous tasks found here

they have their septum pierced that they flip up whenever they go home and hide from their mother

her room is usually incredibly clean

often found walking around campus as if they are in their own world

junior year recap:

g told alethea to start a fight at greer's birthday party so she picked a fight with heni who pushed her in the pool

found polaroids with monty in their chalet during the winter ski retreat black-out

told heni about the polaroids (it was their chalet after all)

thought they saw greer in the hall of mirrors during the spring carnival

g set them up with lola in the library before the rave, did a poor job looking for g when tempted

suffered from smoke inhalation during the fire in the commons trying to escape out of the back

went mia for a bit over the summer

#honest to god have no idea what alethea did this year #ogdenintro

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englishstrawbie · 2 years

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Ready or Not (2/2)

Fandom: Station 19

Characters: Maya Bishop & Carina DeLuca

Summary: The morning starts with joy and laughter and making plans for their wedding anniversary - and then a call comes that changes their lives forever. As the day unfolds, Carina is confronted with her worst fears about Maya’s job and Maya has to come to terms with the death of another friend. Accompanies episode 5x05 - Things We Lost in the Fire.

Also @ AO3.

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Maya

They sit in silence in the back of the fire engine – Maya, Travis and Robert. Once the teams from Stations 7 and 42 had arrived at the scene, McAllister had given them leave to follow Miller and Aquino to the hospital. Maya had wanted Carina to come with them, to keep her close, but she insisted on waiting for an ambulance to arrive to take her patient to the hospital.

Maya didn’t like the idea of leaving her behind. Carina had seen the worst of her job today and she could tell that she was struggling with all that had happened, but Carina was stubborn and Maya had to get to the hospital, to sit vigil while they waited for news.

She had seen the look on Carina’s face, had heard it in her voice when she had told her what she knew of Dean’s injuries – that his heart had stopped and he needed help breathing. Still, Maya knows that the doctors at Grey Sloan are the best at what they do. They would save Dean, they had to. She refuses to believe that there will be any outcome other than Dean walking out of that hospital in a few weeks’ time, cracking jokes and desperate to get home to his little girl.

She can’t help but wonder if things had gone differently if she was still captain. Aquino is one of the best, and she trusts Dean’s judgement explicitly, so something had to have gone wrong. Someone had to be to blame. It couldn’t just be an accident.

It is not the first time such a thought has crossed her mind. Every time Beckett has made a bad call and they have had to tidy up the mess he has left behind, she feels aggrieved by her demotion all over again and often finds herself asking ‘what if?’. What if she had followed McAllister’s orders that day? What if she had found a different way to save that kid without defying the Chief? What if the fire department wasn’t filled with men like Dixon and McAllister, who viewed women has inferior instead of equal? What if she had fought harder against her demotion?

What if, what if, what if.

What if the water supply hadn’t been affected by the blast and caused a delay?

What if they had found another way to attack the flames instead of sending Vic up the ladder?

What if they had closed the valve sooner?

What if Beckett had sent Dean to check on the even numbers instead of the odd numbers?

What if, what if, what if.

Her spiralling thoughts are broken by Travis’ phone pinging. All eyes shift to him as he pulls his cell phone out of his jacket pocket and opens the message. Maya holds her breath as she waits for him to speak.

“It’s Emmett,” he says eventually. “He’s gonna stay on the scene and help in the first aid tent.” He looks up at Maya. “He says Carina’s still waiting for an ambulance, but her patient is stable.”

Maya exhales slowly and nods her response, her eyes returning to their spot on the floor of the engine. They are only four blocks from the hospital but the roads are still at a stand still because of the explosions so Cutler is forced to drive more slowly than usual. It leaves her alone with the thoughts that she wishes she could escape.

Her colleagues, her friends – her family – hurt. Morse dead.

It is the worst of her job.

They pull up outside the hospital a few minutes later and climb out, no-one talking. The fire engine from 23 pulls up behind them, and they form a circle, looking around at each other in a numb silence.

Theo is the first to speak.

“I need to find Vic.”

“I’ll come with you,” Maya offers.

“I’ll go and check on Dean,” Andy says.

“Me too,” Travis says straight away.

“Everyone else with me,” Sullivan commands. “We’ll find a space to wait.”

Another beat passes before they disperse, Sullivan leading the way with the remaining members of 19 and 23 following him into the hospital. As they follow, Maya tugs at Travis’ arm to hold him back out of earshot for a moment.

“Do we tell her?” she asks quietly. “Do we tell Vic about Dean?”

Travis looks towards where Theo is marching at a quick pace, then back at Maya as he debates the answer in his head.

“Not yet,” he answers eventually. “Not until we know more.”

Maya nods slowly, then follows Theo towards the ER. A nurse at the admit desk directs them to Vic’s room and Theo strides forwards.

“Hey,” Maya calls out after him. “Hey!”

He stops, shooting her an impatient look. His face is pale and his damp hair hangs limply in his eyes. She doesn’t know Theo very well, but she knows his history with Travis and Michael, and she guesses that today is bringing back painful memories for him.

“You’re a mess,” Maya says. “You can’t go in there like this, you need to get it together.”

“I need to be with my girlfriend,” Theo bites back at her.

“Fix yourself up first,” Maya tells him. “She needs you to be strong and right now you’re in pieces. You’re no good to her like this.”

He opens his mouth, but she leaves no room for argument and he relents, heading down the corridor towards a rest room. Maya hovers outside of Vic’s room, taking a moment to take a deep inhale of breath before she steps inside. Vic’s bed is flanked by two doctors – Schmitt and Tseng, familiar faces to her.

“Maya!” Vic greets her cheerfully.

Maya’s eyebrows raise in surprise at her bright mood.

“Warren gave her morphine,” Schmitt says.

“Ah okay,” Maya says. She steps closer to the bed. “How are you feeling? Other than blissed out on drugs.”

Vic shrugs. “Doctor Hunt said a whole bunch of medical things that I didn’t understand but I think he’s worried about my heart.”

That doesn’t sound good and Maya looks at the two doctors with alarm.

“It’s standard procedure with an injury like this,” Tseng says. “We’re just about to run some tests, maybe you should wait outside?”

“Oh, she can stay,” Vic says, gesturing for Maya to come closer.

Maya moves to the top of the bed, resting one hand on the top of Vic’s head.

“I saw Carina in the first aid tent,” Vic says. She frowns. “Or she saw me, I’m not sure which.”

“Yeah, Ben called her. There was a pregnant woman in pain and they thought she could help while they waited for an ambulance,” Maya says. “She’s still there. I think she’s a bit freaked out by what she saw, to be honest.” She forces a chuckle, trying to keep the conversation light. “I think I’m gonna be in trouble when I get home tonight.”

She knows it is selfish to lean on Vic about this right now, but Carina is on her mind and it stops them from talking about Dean.

“You know she works at Grey Sloan, right?” Vic says. “This place has seen more catastrophes than any other hospital. And Pac North almost blew up last year!”

She has a point, of course. Grey Sloan has seen a bomb in a chest cavity, a gun man rampaging the hallways, a plane crash, a fire – amongst other things.

Maya can’t help but smile at Vic’s honesty.

“Hey, where’s Theo?” Vic asks, jumping to another conversation.

Maya looks through the glass windows into the hallway, expecting to see Theo show up any minute, but she only spots Travis. He hangs back, keeping out of Vic’s view. His face tells her what she has been dreading and her heart drops hard and fast, like a heavy rock falling to the bottom of the ocean.

She looks down at Vic, who stares innocently around the room, as if she expects to see her boyfriend at any moment.

“Yeah, he’s um…” Maya stumbles over her words. “I’ll go and find him for you.”

She hesitates, then leans down and places a soft kiss on Vic’s hair.

“You be strong, okay?”

She doesn’t know if she is talking about her heart tests or Dean – or maybe it is both. Either way, she needs Vic to get through this.

“Okay,” Vic says brightly, oblivious to the bombshell that is about to be dropped on her.

Maya makes her way out the room and into the corridor where Travis lingers out of view.

“Maya…” he starts, but she cuts him off quickly.

“No, don’t say it,” Maya says. She is not ready to hear it.

Travis’s eyes are already red from crying and his body sags as he pulls Maya into a hug. She doesn’t want to believe it, she wants to convince everyone that there has been a mistake, but the way her heart hurts confirms the reality of what has happened. She waits for her own tears to come, but her eyes stay dry.

“I need to tell Vic,” Travis says, pulling back.

Maya nods. “You want me to come with you?”

“No,” Travis says with a shake of his head. “I can do it.”

“What about the others?” Maya asks, thinking of the teams from 19 and 23 who are sitting vigil somewhere nearby.

“Andy said she’d go tell them before she goes to pick up Pru.”

His words are like a sucker punch to her stomach and Maya feels herself recoil at the imaginary blow.

Fuck.

Pru. That poor little girl, whose mom left her when she was just a few weeks old and now is going to grow up without her adoring daddy too.

“Oh,” is all Maya can say.

Travis looks around them. “Where’s Theo?”

“He’s cleaning himself up,” Maya says. “I’ll find him – and tell him.”

Maya steps to one side to let him past and watches as her takes a deep breath, squaring his shoulders before making his way inside the room. Her eyes drift back down the corridor where she sees Ben and Miranda walking towards her. As soon as they reach her, Ben envelopes her in a hug and she feels his chest heave against hers – but still her own tears refuse to fall. She tightens her arms, giving him a squeeze, and they hold each other for a moment, a shared grief between them.

“I need to find Theo,” Maya says eventually. “For Vic.”

Ben rubs the tears from his eyes and nods. Maya feels a hand on her arm and looks down, then across at Miranda.

“Carina’s here,” she tells her. “In the ER. Trauma room two.”

Maya has never needed her wife more, she realises. She flashes the doctor a grateful smile. “Thanks.”

She leaves them outside of Vic’s hospital room without looking back. She can’t bear to see Vic’s devastation at hearing the news when she can’t even cope with her own. She bumps into Theo as she turns the corner, his face freshly washed and his hair brushed back. He knows – as soon as he sees her grief-stricken face, he knows they have lost someone.

“Oh no!” he cries. “Vic?”

Maya shakes her head. At least she can give him that comfort. “Miller.”

“Oh God, no!”

He brushes past her and runs down the corridor. Maya watches him go briefly, then turns on her heel and heads towards the pit. She doesn’t know which is trauma room two, but a nurse points her in the right direction. The door is ajar and she waits outside for the right moment to interrupt.

She isn’t sure there is a right moment. She feels jumpy, her right leg jiggling beneath her as she waits impatiently. There is a part of her that wants to go charging in and demand her wife’s attention, but she won’t. It’s not like it will change anything anyway.

Carina is focussed on the ultrasound screen as she rolls the transducer over her patient’s rounded belly. She must sense Maya’s presence though, because she looks up and over her shoulder, spotting Maya immediately. Their eyes meet and Maya sees her left eyebrow raise slightly before she returns to her patient. She places the transducer back in its hook and wipes the excess gel from the patient’s skin. Maya can’t hear what she says, but she guesses that the diagnosis is good as the woman relaxes. Carina leaves an instruction with Jo then walks out of the room, pulling the door closed behind her.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t want to interrupt,” Maya says. “But uh…”

“Dean?” Carina knows straight away.

Maya nods dumbly. Carina’s arms are around her in seconds, her voice in her ear whispering words of comfort to her. She sways them from side to side, the slow back-and-forth soothing. Maya is eerily calm in her arms, her emotions still buried, not ready to confront them yet.

“I need to finish with my patient,” Carina says softly. “Why don’t you wait for me in my office? I’ll meet you there as soon as I can.”

Maya nods, feeling cold when Carina steps back into the trauma room and closes the door, and she shivers.

The walk to the fourth floor is a familiar one. Since all Covid restrictions have been lifted, Maya has spent many hours on her days off hidden away in Carina’s office, distracting her wife from patient charts and medical journals.

The joy that usually comes from being here is gone today. Maya’s heart is heavy with grief – heavier than she has felt before. She thought that losing Pruitt was hard, but this feels unbearable. Dean was her friend and brother; the one who would always give her sound advice when she needed it; who would crack a joke and make her smile; who challenged her and pushed her to be a better person.

He was the beating heart of their team and now he is gone; and of all the people they have lost, Maya doesn’t think they will recover from this one.

It could have been her, she knows that. She could have been the one with Beckett, evacuating people from the houses with even numbers, but he had assigned her to the odd numbers with Jack. He chose Miller. He could have chosen her, but he didn’t, and because of that she is alive and Dean is dead, and she doesn’t know where to begin in getting her head around that.

Not that she could if she wanted to – her head hurts too much, the pounding ache between her ears beating against the back of her eyes. She perches on the arm of the couch in the corner of Carina’s office and drops her head into her hands, closing her eyes and rubbing her temples slowly. She tries to let her mind go blank but she keeps replaying that moment over and over in her head – she and Gibson going one way, Beckett, Miller and Aquino going another.

“Maya?”

Carina’s soft voice catches her attention and she looks up, squinting at her wife through her tired eyes. It is only now that Maya notices her work out gear and she is reminded of this morning – Carina packing her gym clothes, intending to use the station gym after her meeting with Jack about the clinic; making plans for their anniversary dinner on Friday night and dragging her wife back to bed for ten (okay, fifteen) minutes of mind-blowing sex before work.

How could that have only happened this morning? How could she have felt so happy and light and carefree, only for those feelings to be replaced by such sorrow just hours later?

“…Maya?”

“Hmm?”

“You zoned out on me,” Carina says gently. She runs her hand down Maya’s arm and links their fingers together, tugging at them to encourage Maya to follow her onto the soft cushions of her couch.

The moment she sits down, Carina’s arms are around her and her grief threatens to emerge from its hiding spot. She tries to bury it, too afraid to feel it, but it won’t stay at bay and the tears that have so far refused to fall come spilling out. She lets out a guttural sob and falls forwards, hiding her face in Carina’s neck and letting her tears soak into her sweater.

“It’s okay, I’ve got you,” Carina murmurs.

Maya’s entire body trembles. Her hands grasp at Carina’s sweater, the only way to stop them from shaking so much. The pounding in her head gets worse and she shuts her eyes tightly, blocking out the light.

“Just breathe, bella, just breathe.”

She thinks about screaming, of letting out all the pain and anger she feels in one almighty cry, but she doesn’t have the energy. She tries but it comes out more like a whimper, muffled against Carina’s chest. She can feel Carina’s hand rubbing her back in a small, circular motion and it takes all she has to focus on that, instead of her grief.

When she is too exhausted to cry any more, she slumps against Carina’s body.

“Can we go back?”

“Back where?”

“To this morning,” Maya clarifies. “To before.”

“I wish we could, tesoro,” Carina says. “I wish it all the time.”

Maya knows she is talking about Andrew. She lifts her head to look at her, realising that it was not that long ago that their positions were reversed.

“Why does this keep happening?” Maya asks. “Why do we keep losing the people we love?”

Carina’s eyes prick with tears. “I don’t know.” She looks like she is about to say something else, but she stops and her face clouds over with something that Maya can’t read.

“What?”

Carina shakes her head. “Nothing.”

Maya can tell that she his masking something. “Hey,” she coaxes her gently. “Tell me.”

Carina purses her lips. “Today…” she starts, “it was a bad call, right? They’re not usually like that.”

Her whole demeanour yells fear. Maya has felt it before, the way Carina’s body goes rigid sometimes when she is talking about her day and telling her about the crazy emergencies they have dealt with. She has seen it in Carina’s eyes when she comes home with a graze or burn on her arm, or when her body is bruised and sore from a particularly physical call.

They brush over it, or Maya will laugh it off, because she has never come home with any serious injuries and Carina doesn’t say anything so Maya convinces herself that she is okay. Except now Carina has seen it with her own eyes, felt it herself, and they can’t avoid the conversation any longer.

“It was as bad as it gets,” Maya says. “A gas line got nicked, which caused the first explosion. It also interrupted our water supply, so we had to run to the next street before we could start putting out the house fires. Our first priority was evacuating the road and treating the wounded. Vic getting electrocuted was a freak accident, the power line came loose. The bigger problem was that the ruptured pipe was like a sitting bomb underneath us. The emergency response team was stuck in traffic and Beckett… I don’t know why he was so hesitant. Maybe it was because of what happened to Vic. We managed to the turn the valve off eventually, but the pipeline was compromised and there were too many embers in the air. We got sent to evacuate the nearby streets, but by that time there had been a build up of gas in some of the houses. So when Aquino opened the door…”

She trails off. They both know what happened next. Another explosion – deadly this time.

“It could have been you.”

“But it wasn’t,” Maya says.

“But it could have been,” Carina argues back. “And I…” She bites her lip.

“You’re scared,” Maya finishes her sentence for her.

“A little bit,” Carina admits. “A little bit all the time, but a lot today.”

Maya reaches out to hold her hand. “How long have you felt like this?”

“Since I met you,” Carina says. “More since I fell in love with you.” She pauses to take a deep breath. “And it’s been harder since Andrea died.”

“Carina…”

“I know,” Carina interrupts her. “I know it’s your job and I’ve never told you because I try to believe that it will never really happen. But it might.”

“It won’t,” Maya tells her.

“It might; one day, it might be you.”

Her words hang in the air between them. Maya wants to reassure her, to say anything she can to make Carina feel better, but she knows she can’t win this argument.

She can’t promise her that she will always be safe.

She can’t promise that nothing bad will ever happen to her.

She has no idea how to give her wife the comfort she needs, and she hates that.

“I’m sorry.”

Carina shakes her head. “No, Maya, I didn’t tell you to make you feel guilty.” She runs her hand over Maya’s hair, smoothing the messy strands. “It’s part of the deal of falling in love with a firefighter, I know that. I just wish it wasn’t.”

“Me too,” Maya says.

“But I wouldn’t change anything, you have to know that,” Carina says. “I would never change walking into the bar that night or asking to buy you a drink. I would never change getting to know you or falling in love with you or marrying you. All of that, it’s…”

“Fantastico?”

Carina smiles. “Fantastico.” She leans forward and presses her lips against Maya’s temple. “I’ll always be a little bit scared. You’ll never be able to stop that because I love you too much and I’ll always worry that one day you won’t come home.”

Her voice cracks a little at the thought of it ever happening and Maya reaches for her hand, holding it tightly.

“I know that you’re always careful. I know that you would never take risks or shortcuts,” Carina says. “But we both know that accidents happens. So just… always check in after the big ones, okay? I don’t want to hear it from someone else.”

“I can do that,” Maya says.

“And if anything ever does happen to you…”

Maya opens her mouth but Carina holds up her hand, pointing her finger at her to stop her from offering an empty platitude.

“If it does, I need to know right away. I don’t need to be shielded from it. You need to tell me,” Carina says.

She pauses and Maya knows that the next part is hard for her to say.

“And if you can’t tell me, then someone else must. Because I need to be there, with you, okay? No matter what.”

Maya knows the guilt that Carina feels at not being there when Andrew took a turn for the worse, berating herself for going to find coffee instead of staying by his side. It still tears her apart that she didn’t get chance to say goodbye.

“Okay,” Maya says, a tear involuntarily falling down her cheek. “I promise.”

She leans in and curls a hand around the back of Carina’s neck, gently guiding her lips to hers and kissing her softly. She tastes a salty tear as it lands on her top lip and she isn’t sure who it belongs to.

“I promise,” Maya repeats, her voice getting softer.

Carina runs the back of her hand over Maya’s cheek to wipe away her tears.

“Then that’s enough,” Carina says with a small smile.

It is all that she can offer. It has to be enough.

“Come on. Let’s go home, bambina.”

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ncisfranchise-source · 1 year

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TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE FOR THE NCIS TEAM AS THEY TRACK DOWN AN OLD PAL OF TORRES’ WHO DISAPPEARS AMIDST AN UNDERCOVER FBI OPERATION, ON “NCIS,” MONDAY, JAN. 23

“Big Rig” – When an old pal of Torres’ comes to him – disheveled and bloodied – for guidance amidst an undercover FBI operation and then disappears, NCIS helps track him down. Also, McGee prepares to be a contestant on a popular game show, on the CBS Original series NCIS, Monday, Jan. 23 (9:00-10:00 PM, ET/PT) on the CBS Television Network and available to stream live and on demand on Paramount+*.

REGULAR CAST:

Sean Murray

(NCIS Special Agent Timothy McGee)

Wilmer Valderrama

(NCIS Special Agent Nicholas “Nick” Torres)

Brian Dietzen

(Medical Examiner Jimmy Palmer)

Diona Reasonover

(Forensic Scientist Kasie Hines)

Katrina Law

(NCIS Special Agent Jessica Knight)

Rocky Carroll

(NCIS Director Leon Vance)

Gary Cole

(FBI Special Agent Alden Parker)

GUEST CAST:

Zane Holtz

(NCIS Special Agent Dale Sawyer)

Nancy Youngblut

(Joanna “Mama Jo” Dalton)

Alex Mortensen

(Emmet)

David Meunier

(Wade Cutler)

Susan Diol

(Doris Sawyer)

Aline Elasmar

(Annie Hankamer)

Kaipo Schwab

(FBI Assistant Special Agent in Charge Liam McCullers)

Rahvaunia

(Fire Captain)

Andy Marques

(Policeman)

WRITTEN BY: Marco Schnabel

DIRECTED BY: Rocky Carroll

#ncis #press release

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cameronhcwes · 1 year

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what’s your top 10 favorite female characters? and top 10 ships?

hi! it changes around all the time but it's more or less like this (also it's all tv).

top 10 female characters 1. cameron howe (halt and catch fire) 2. abby lockhart (er) 3. gretchen cutler (you're the worst) 4. jen lindley (dawson's creek) 5. peyton sawyer (one tree hill) 6. elizabeth jennings (the americans) 7. brenda chenowith (six feet under) 8. kate austen (lost) 9. nora durst (the leftovers) 10. kim wexler (better call saul)

top 10 ships 1. mulder/scully (the x files) 2. pacey/joey (dawson's creek) 3. abby/luka (er) 4. jimmy/gretchen (you're the worst) 5. andy/nancy (weeds) 6. jimmy/kim (better call saul) 7. josh/donna (the west wing) 8. logan/veronica (veronica mars) 9. lee/kara (battlestar galactica) 10. myka/helena (warehouse 13)

#ask #anon #about me

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uncrossedrhyme · 1 year

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Guide to Life-Sustaining Nutrients: Vitamin A

Vitamin A's critical role in development, aging, intelligence, beauty, vision, hormones, sexuality, and immunity. The first in my series of Guides to the Life-Sustaining Nutrients.

The following begins my series, A Basic Guide to the Life-Sustaining Nutrients, a tentative multimedia project that will be almost fully Patreon-exclusive. Today’s Vitamin A entry serves as a preview of what the project entails. I hope you find value here, always keep learning, and support me on Patreon for much more to come. Patreon A few generalizable concepts coupled with their mechanisms…

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movienized-com · 1 month

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Goosebumps

Goosebumps (Serie 2023) #BenCockell #RhinnanPayne #AidenHoward #WilliamChrisSumpter #MichelleMao #SamanthaBlaireCutler Mehr auf:

Serie / Gänsehaut Jahr: 2023- (Oktober) Genre: Abenteuer / Comedy / Fantasy Hauptrollen: Ben Cockell, Rhinnan Payne, Aiden Howard, William Chris Sumpter, Michelle Mao, Samantha Blaire Cutler, Alex Felix, Taylar Hender, Gardiner Millar, Sophia Carriere, Hugo Raymundo, Andy Thompson, Dave Beamish, Craig Haas, Nathan Dashwood … Serienbeschreibung: In Kleinstädten herrscht immer nur Langeweile?…

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#Aiden Howard #Ben Cockell #Disney Originals #Michelle Mao #Rhinnan Payne #William Chris Sumpter

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fxxckinjapanesetranceblog · 11 months

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Fiora

Fiora について調べてみました。

オーストラリアのTasmania出身で、本名は, Fiora Cutler。Anjunabeats, Subliminal, Trice Recordings, Zouk Recordings, Monstercat, RAM Records, Universal Music, Trees & Cyborgs, Armind Recordings, Mau5trap Recordings, GR Recordsなどのレコードレーベルと契約しているヴォーカリスト兼ソングライター。Jason Ross, Seven Lions Blastoyz, Erick Morillo, Armin van Buuren, Antillas, Vitodito, Markus Binapfl, Andy C, Robot Koch, Tensnake, Arty, Moguai, Audioflyなどのアーティストとコラボレーションしたことがある人物で、時々Tranceプロデューサーとコラボレーションするアーティスト。Pop, オーケストラサウンドの制作を得意とするアーティストで、ベルリンを拠点に活動しているソングライター。

Zenith をリリースしました。

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The Sun をリリースしました。

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Automatic をリリースしました。

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sonyclasica · 2 years

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HANS ZIMMER

HANS ZIMMER LIVE

Hoy, Sony Classical anuncia el lanzamiento del nuevo álbum doble del ganador de dos Premios Oscar® Hans Zimmer, titulado Hans Zimmer LIVE, que saldrá a la venta el 3 de marzo de 2023 y que ya está disponible para reserva. Junto con la noticia de hoy, se ha publicado el primer single, "The Last Samurai Suite".

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Hans Zimmer LIVE presenta más de dos horas de nuevos arreglos de algunas de las composiciones más populares del legendario compositor de Los Ángeles. El álbum se grabó durante la exitosa gira de conciertos del mismo nombre en Europa en la primavera de 2022. Zimmer creó “suites” de algunas de las melodías más conocidas de bandas sonoras oscarizadas Ò-como Dune y El Rey León, al igual que de clásicos como The Dark Knight, X Men: Dark Phoenix, Dunkirk, Gladiator, Inception, Interstellar, The Last Samurai, Man of Steel, No Time to Die, Pirates of the Caribbean y Wonder Woman 1984.

"Simplemente quería hacer el mejor álbum", dice Zimmer, que grabó Hans Zimmer LIVE como una producción de estudio durante 10 noches, y pasó semanas mezclando el álbum con su amigo y productor, Stephen Lipson. "Quería crear una oportunidad para que la música respirara de forma diferente, en su propio contexto. Para esta aventura, estoy encantado de haber contado con el mejor equipo posible de colaboradores".

Junto con su banda de 20 integrantes "The Disruptive Collective", que incluye a compañeros musicales de larga data, la Orquesta y el Coro de la Ópera de Odessa, Hans Zimmer ha creado un espectáculo musical épico que fusiona arreglos ambient de clásico y elementos electrónicos con el poderoso sonido de una banda de rock.

"The Disruptive Collective" cuenta con músicos que llevan mucho tiempo colaborando con Zimmer, como los cantantes y compositores Lisa Gerrard (Gladiator), Lebo M. (The Lion King) y Loire Cutler (X Men: Dark Phoenix), la chelista Tina Guo (Wonder Woman) y Nick Glennie-Smith (director musical de la banda). Otros solistas son Andrew Kawczynski (sintetizador, percusión), Pedro Eustache (vientos), Refi (vocalista), Rusanda Panfili (voz), Guthrie Govan (guitarras), Andy Pask (bajo vertical), Aicha Djidjelli (batería), Steven Doar (percusión, teclados), Molly Rogers (voz), Juan García Herreros [Snow Owl] (bajo eléctrico), Nile Marr (guitarras), Leah Zeger (voz), Holly Madge (batería), Aleksandra Šuklar (percusión). Hans Zimmer toca varios instrumentos en el álbum.

Hans Zimmer LIVE estará disponible en los servicios de streaming en estéreo y en los formatos inmersivos Dolby Atmos y Sony 360 RA, para su descarga digital, así como en un DigiPac de 2 CD y en un set limitado de vinilo audiófilo de 4 x 180 g.

Zimmer ha llevado a cabo con gran éxito la gira Hans Zimmer Live por todo el mundo y recientemente ha concluido la primera parte de su gira europea en abril de 2022. Los fans podrán seguir disfrutando de la gira de conciertos Hans Zimmer LIVE en abril de 2023. Para más información, visita: www.hanszimmerlive.com

HANS ZIMMER LIVE – FECHAS DE LA GIRA 2023

23 de abril

Oberhausen, DE

Rudolf Weber Arena

25 de abril

Antwerp, BE

Sportpalais Antwerp

27 de abril

Frankfurt, DE

Festhalle Frankfurt

29 de abril

Stuttgart, DE

Hanns-Martin-Schleyer-Halle

01 de mayo

Turín, IT

Pala Alpitour

03 de mayo

Bologna, IT

Unipol Arena (aplazado desde 2022)

06 de mayo

Niza, FR

Palais Nikaia

07 de mayo

Montpellier, FR

La Sud de France Arena

09 de mayo

Bordeaux, FR

Arkea Arena Bordeaux

11 de mayo

Bilbao, ES

Bilbao Exhibition Centre

13 de mayo

Lisboa, PT

Altice Arena

16 de mayo

Madrid, ES

WiZink Center

20 de mayo

Hannover, DE

ZAG Arena

22 de mayo

Zurich, CH

Hallenstadion Zurich

24 de mayo

Munich, DE

Olympiahalle Munich

26 de mayo

Berlín, DE

Mercedes-Benz Arena

28 de mayo

Hamburgo, DE

Barclays Arena

30 de mayo

Cracovia, PL

Tauron Arena Krakow

02 de junio

Praga, AT

02 Arena

03 de junio

Viena, AT

Wiener Stadthalle - Sala D

05 de junio

Budapest, HU

Papp László Sportaréna

06 de junio

Bratislava, SK

Ondrej Nepela Arena (aplazado de 2022)

09 de junio

Colonia, DE

LANXESS Arena

10 de junio

11 de junio

Ámsterdam, NL

Ziggo Dome

12 de junio

Rotterdam, NL

Ahoy Rotterdam

14 de junio

Londres, Reino Unido

The O2

15 de junio

Londres, Reino Unido

The O2

16 de junio

Machester, UK

Manchester Arena

18 de junio

Dublín, IE

3Arena

22 de junio

Bruselas, BE

Palais 12

23 de junio

París, FR

Accor Arena

24 de junio

París, FR

Accor Arena

ACERCA DE HANS ZIMMER

Hans Zimmer ha puesto música a más de 500 proyectos en todos los medios, que, combinados, han recaudado más de 28.000 millones de dólares en la taquilla mundial. Ha sido galardonado con dos Premios de la Academia®, tres Globos de Oro®, cuatro Grammys®, un American Music Award y un Premio Tony®. Sus trabajos más destacados incluyen Dune, No Time to Die, Gladiator, The Thin Red Line, As Good as It Gets, Rain Man, la trilogía The Dark Knight, Inception, Thelma and Louise, The Last Samurai, 12 Years A Slave, Blade Runner 2049 (música compuesta con Benjamin Wallfisch), Dunkirk, y el tema de Planet Earth II , además de poner música a películas recientes como Top Gun: Maverick, Wonder Woman 1984 y Kung Fu Panda. Además, Zimmer ha ganado el premio de la Academia® al mérito en música escrita para películas por Dune. En 2019, Zimmer compuso el remake de acción real de El Rey León, por el que recibió una nominación al Grammy® a la mejor banda sonora para medios visuales.

CONECTA CON HANS ZIMMER

HANS ZIMMER LIVE | FACEBOOK | TWITTER | INSTAGRAM

#hans zimmer

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aletheapierce · 1 year

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{ NATASHA LIU BORDIZZO, 21, GENDER NONCONFORMING, SHE/THEY } Is that ALETHEA PIERCE? A JUNIOR originally from SAVANNAH, GA, they decided to come to Ogden College to study DANCE. They’re THE DRAG-ALONG on campus, but even they could get blamed for Greer’s disappearance.

no one ever really likes me for more than just a couple weeks...

FAMILY: mother - jennifer tiner pierce (katheryn winnick) father - carl sile pierce (daniel wu) younger brother - hu jacob pierce (kazuma mitchell)

pinterest here, playlist here.

WHEN ALL THE BRIDGES HAVE BEEN BURNED:

AND ALL THE TABLES HAVE BEEN TURNED BY ME:

WHO WILL BE LEFT TO LEAVE? JUST ME:

GREER:

THE DRAG-ALONG:

extra:

previous tasks found here

they have their septum pierced that they flip up whenever they go home and hide from their mother

her room is usually incredibly clean

often found walking around campus as if they are in their own world

#ogdenintro #not much changed

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