#and ill give up
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I relate to the
“I have things to do, better take my medication”
“but I need to eat”
“Okay no medicine”
“but things to do-“
loop SO MUCH
I typically just eat right before I take medicine- that doesn’t solve having to cook but you can always just make ramen or get microwaveable meals
I dunno why I sent this- it probably won’t help much- uhh-
yeah no i feel that. = 3 = I try to do that but;;; idk! i feel! bad about only eating dumb microwave meals and stuff. like. i worry about it not being very healthy or financially wise and shit like that, y'know? and then i'll like. be awake in the dead of night trying to fall asleep and be like.
omg.... you know what would be so good...? soup.... i would love to make soup i haven't made soup in forever it's FALL WEATHER i should make SOUP ugh it would be so fantastic i should do that i'll make soup...
but then the morning comes and it's like... ah... well... the desire for soup still somewhat persists, but....
#and then sometimes ill like. BUY INGREDIENTS and shit at the store#not even like COMPLICATED INGREDIENTS but like. fucking. shit to make sandwiches with#and then i wont fucking eat half of it#and it goes bad#and i FEEL BAD coz i DONT LIKE WASTING FOOD but AHHHHH ITS HARDDDD#screaming#cooking is so hard sometimes and ill be like#OKAY IM GONNA COOK BEFORE I TAKE MY MEDICINE OKAY LETS GO#and it just... it just doesnt happen. despite my best efforts#and ill give up#i also tend to like. make food and start eating#and then take my medicine while im eating because im an idiot#and then i get distracted while im eating so its taking me forever coz im doing other shit at the same time#and then the meds kick in#so i dont wanna eat anymore#but i still have the food that i made right here#and then i just end up#spending the day sitting around with a fucking. bowl of pasta#that i just slowly nurse over a period of like 8 hours#idk man its ridiculous#it might be better when i have a new job and likeee have a routine again idk#asks#anon#i bought potatoes to make soup i HAVE SOUP STUFF... but... but soup takes so long... and... and what if i dont eat it... then ill be sad..
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Simon has always been confused on why you gift him toys. Sure, most of the gifts you gave him were some of the things he liked. Bourbon, masks, gloves, make up for him to smudge his eyes with, some daggers and knives. Things that we're useful for him, just him. But later, you gifted him a toy airplane. He makes a comment about it, saying he is not a child anymore and you were better off giving it to Johnny instead.
"No, this is specifically for you, take it."
When he gets to him room, he walks toward his trash can, opening it with the tip of his boot. He gives one more look at the toy, his mood souring before throwing it into the trash. He goes on about his day, training, signing paper work, drills. Doing anything to ignore the pain stinging memories that the toy brought back. Emotions that were buried thousands of feet deep it could reach hell itself. Later, he lies awake in bed, staring at the ceiling, avoiding looking at the cylinder shape that's calling for him in his peripheral.
Fuck.
He pulls the covers off vigorously and stomps over to the trash can. He is standing over it like he's trying to intimidate it, as if it was an enemy he's trying to get rid of in battle. To anyone else, the scene would look comical.
He sighs to himself and reaches down to take out the toy he so cruelly threw away. He sets it on his desk and quickly walks toward his bed, facing away from his desk.
The next day, he wakes up feeling different. He swears he sees his room more vibrant, more lively. That energy follows him through out the day, having his other teammates notice his rather bright mood.
You catch him in the hallway. Pulling him aside to ask him about the paper work you left at his desk this morning. Of course, he notices the way you smile brightly, more so than usual. But he notices that you're not looking at him. More like looking at something next to him.
"What's got you so cheery?"
You turn to look up at him, feeling a bit embarrassed.
"I just..." You take a quick glance at the spot next to him, before bringing your eyes back upon his.
"I just hope you liked your gift." The same bright smile appearing on your face.
He stares at you, examining your words. Your expression.
You think you see his eyes crinkle a bit.
"Yea,"
"I liked it."
#call of duty#cod#simon ghost riley#simon riley#ghost#simon riley x reader#medium!reader#Joseph really liked his toy airplane#Honestly this was her way of giving his nephew toys without her bring up that she sees dead people#she can't be like “Ghost let me gift Joseph something”#he would be like “How the fawk you know who that is??”#sorry for errors its so late#but yea ill have more soon#I just cant figure out how to traumatize Gaz and Soap#Only Ghost and Price#love to see the old men suffer#ghost simon riley#ghost x reader
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yknow what. *undooms your yuri again*
#genshin impact#arlecchino#peruere#clervie#arlevie#hi they still make me feel mentally ill#finished arle's story quest and like the brainrot has gotten worse actually#obsessed with the fact that Clervie is like the only girl to look at Peruere and say “I can fix her” and ACTUALLY fucking fix her#well like. for the most part.#shes still a little bit fucked up but in her defense clervie ended up giving up on life and the pursuit of freedom and died in arle's arms#WHICH YKNOW ADDED A HINT OF EXTRA TRAUMA but we dont talk about that
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btw anyone whos following the drake/kendrick thing but doesnt listen to rap music. this is a sign you should start listening to rap music. listen to some kendrick. you wont regret it i promise. listen to to pimp a butterfly. listen to good kid, m.A.A.d. city. listen to other rappers to, not just kendrick. if anyone wants recommendations feel free to message me/send an ask. rap music is awesome. this is your sign to get into it. rap is such a broad genre with so many incredible artists, there is something for you i promise.
#tumblr girlies please start enjoying rap music. please. please.#rattling bones#rap#kendrick lamar#drake#i mean it about giving recs btw. PLEASE hit me up i love hip hop so much#tell me what you like and ill find a rapper for you. i prommy. pleeease please talk to me about rap/hip-hop#OR GIVE ME RECS!! if you have some good shit you want me to hear hit me with it. i just fucking love rap/hip-hop. please talk to me about i
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S O L D I E R
#final fantasy vii#sephiroth#ff7#ff7 ever crisis#Square Enix can give me 50 of these little silver haired bitches and ill eat it up every time#execute artwork
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littlest furth shop
@laikascomet
#i think i had a little too much fun with this lol#i also wanted to draw road boy and other characters but maybe when they actually get introduced#i do have a sketch of him with a lil chainsaw.. im not gonna be normal when he gets introduced man he looks so sillygoofy#if you squint laika's eye marking is a clover yue's is a crescent moon and mars' is a star ^_^#i wanted to give laika an accessory too but i couldnt think of anything.. maybe a stack of pancakes??#im curious to see the apocalypse side of the story too.. like so far we have an idea of the comet fucking everything up#and im assuming that lead to a ripple effect causing the apocalypse but exactly how bad?? i cant wait to find out#rn im kinda piecing stuff together.. larkspur delivers mail in a beat up van so that might mean all transportation is grounded#the buildings we've seen so far are intact like the observatory and turnip's house but idk if thats the same for big cities#laikas playlist only includes songs downloaded on yue's computer and there hasnt been internet in 20 years.. but radio signals might#still work.. if yue grows his own food we can assume that mass production and distribution also isnt a thing anymore#sorry im a sucker for worldbuilding.. and the furth puns are fun to me. i like to think toronto would be clawronto.. and vancouver wld#be nyancouver.. barktic circle.. mewfoundland and labrador.. canyada....#christ i have so many drawing ideas. willow if youre reading this im so sorry youre probably gonna expect to see a lot of drawings frm me#like. i wanna draw laika in the akira bike pose so sosososo bad. IT WOULD BE SO AWESOMECOOL. ill teach myself to draw bikes if i have to#i also wanted to animate laika leekspin.. man#my art#myart#fanart#laika's comet#laikas comet#laika#mars#yue#furry art#fur#littlest pet shop#lps
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Unmasked & unguarded
#ghostsoap#soapghost#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#my art#cod fanart#more painterly than my usual stuff#wanted to try something new#this type of rendering is not for me I think#took so so long#love the idea of the total trust Ghost has in Soap that he will sleep completely bared to him#in a way he’s never been with anyone else#and soap just staring at him in awe that he gets to see this side of Simon#they make me ill#the colours got a bit muddy but I’ve fiddled with this for ages and I give up 🥲
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off on an adventure !
this au turns 1 week old today
jjk atla!au with @philosophiums
pose ref [x]
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#fushiguro megumi#kugisaki nobara#yuuji#megumi#nobara#fanart#jjk fanart#jjk atla!au#lmhs#atla!au: illust#atla!au: art#finalized earth kingdom clothes !!! tht did not change much barring a few tonal shifts fr megu#1 week in and it already feels like a lifetime has passed. i have a small portfolio's worth of pieces Already#im in so deep and i do not want out#got given the master Lore Scroll today and . sharp inhale. BOY#im so hype abt this im so hype abt THEM#they r taking megu out on the town :D and trying 2 one-up each other. god they make me ill#i have never wanted good things to happen More to a group of characters than i have fr them#i originally ws upset @ my me fr giving nobara a bag tht covered her charm#but then i remembered she Also wears it at her collar :D#im so happy i make the rules. so happy i hold the keys to their closet#so happy their adventure is going to b fun and mundane and void of significant character defining events#they r just going out to grab lunch probably <3
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My take on a Sonadow fankid! She actually existed for a while now, but the trend gave me motivation to finally draw her!
Most sonadow fankids are purplish and tube-grown, so I decided to make her neither!
Background for the story under cut, in case it gets long!
So in this AU, stories from the more recent games happen when Sonic and Shadow are at most around 20 years old. Back then Sonic was rambunctious and reckless as we know him to be, and Shadow was a depressed, traumatized emo kid. While at first they were rivals as depicted in the games.
Over the years tho, just like their friends, the two matured. They started getting along a lot more, and became official friends, which eventually lead to dating. They both were afraid of getting serious though, so they took things slow and casual. Due to some of their unresolved issues, they couldn't get any closer. But not for much longer.
Some of it has been brought on by a Particular Event, and some of it due to restructuring how they go about saving the world, but things changed. As Forces has shown, putting so much responsibility on One Guy isn't wise. Sonic felt so quilty for failing, but it never should've been his job alone, so they created an organization, to share the load more evenly!
The org became global, with local groups of heroes being recruited all around, meaning that now the characters we know and love now had more time to take care of their personal lives.
While for some the change hasn't been much, Sonic, and to a lesser extent, Shadow, struggled quite a lot. Many of things happened in between, but eventually both of them grew to quite enjoy the domestic life.
They moved in together, and started taking things to the next level, now that both have done some healing and therapy. They found that they get along quite great. After a bit longer, they decided to start a family :)
Shadow came up with the name. He wanted to honor his sister's memory, but Mar-Mar was also a symbol of all his progress. He did go to therapy to make sure that he can handle them sharing a name, to see if it's a good idea, and well, it was!
She's now 4 and very loved, and her dads love each other very much as well. For a certain Sonic though, things won't go so great.
#sonic the hedgehog#sonadow#sonadow fankid#sonic oc#sth#sonic design#shadow the hedgehog#sonic#shadow#sonic au#my art#the art is kinda shitty bc i didnt wanna miss the train#feel free to ask any questions if ur curious abt any details this one is quite thought out#also they're married now :) they used matching earrings instead of wedding bands bc neither likes em#also i couldnt give less of a fuck about the shoes i Really wasnt in the mood so i halfassed it#gave up on shadow's completely ill design him new ones later
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I am going insane about these stoats
(my insta is @trisideseye and that's where I mostly post art. I'm purely posting here bc @quiddie is active on here and I need aabria to know, personally ,how fucked up I am about these stoats)
#burrows end#burrows end spoilers#burrows end tula#tula burrows end#brennan lee mulligan#aabria iyengar#i. abandoned tumblr. i am trying to not use tumblr for any more than following people. i used to post here but i gave up bc i got annoyed#im in physical pain. every ounce of me doesnt want to post my cool art on fuckung tumblr.#tumblr CANNOT be my main social again. I need to give my socials to EMPLOYERS. i want to make art for a JOB#but there are more dimension 20 bitches on tumblr than insta bc its the mentally ill platform#and i need. peiple to understand how fycked up i am abt this stoat mom.#im insane. im insane. im insane. im biting this piece of media im the jugular like i myself am a stoat#and i cant SAY that on instagram the EMPLOYERS will have my ass!!!!!!#anyways.#dimension 20
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the quiet show of support from kim despite his own nerves... the playful ribbing between the two of them... the image of kim lending a crying harry his handkerchief, doing what he can to dry this broken man's tears....... these moments are really making me feel some type of way alright
#these two men make me physically ill#disco elysium#kim kitsuragi#harry du bois#harrier du bois#kimharry#harrykim#esprit de corps#i checked fayde for mentions of handkerchief but nothing about this crying incident came up so i have to assume it happened off screen#and in other instances of you crying in-game kim will turn away to give you privacy#even here in this scene he tells you not to “emote” so much in public right after#so that leads me to wonder: what were the circumstances that led kim to actually lend harry his handkerchief???#ALSO you only get the half smile & nod in the first scene if your kim reputation is high enough otherwise he's crabby about it!!!!#once this man has decided he likes you he will follow you into hell and back <3
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happy disability pride month to anyone having a really bad flare-up rn btw. take care of yourself
#this post was brought to you by a pain level of 8 a migraine not being able to stand up without getting dizzy and my knees giving out on me#that's just how it be sometimes with The Illness y'know#disability pride month#disabled pride#chronically ill#disabled#cpunk#cripple punk
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page one | page two
now roll over already😖
#yes ok i give up fine dont let me post the pages in a bearable way then tunglr#art tag#gortcas#casim carnarvon#ill add the old context tags back too >#its about sigh.... gortash slowly realizing he has been a selfish lover for a long time and trying to make up for it#in a way he understands anyways but he doesnt know that Cas doesnt desire or is able to accept that#the apologizing part anyways him doing it anyways is a bit of that and his pride🙂↕️#or his fragile masculinity if u will
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I have been thinking about the blackening (as one does)…
…and it’s so interesting to me, the penalty Shen Qingqiu is faced with should he not decide to yeet his disciple into hell.
Account termination. Instant death. Sent directly home to his already-long-dead body, and that’s it for the villain of the piece who outright refuses his villainy. The protagonist needs a blackening for the story to continue, and Shen Qingqiu is going to provide it or get written out of the narrative. Either way, Luo Binghe is going to lose him. Either way, this is a turning point.
I wouldn’t claim that this is the intent of the penalty, but it fascinates me that the System has, potentially, backed the plotline into a corner - because Binghe still stands to be blackened even if Shen Qingqiu took the other choice.
Think about what that would look like, to him. He’s at the Immortal Alliance Conference, and everything is going wrong. He’s been outed as a demon, and not just a demon - the top tier of demon, as bad as it gets from the perspective of a righteous cultivator. His beloved teacher, the person who has been kindest to him and opened his home and heart to him, is standing there with his sword in hand, deciding what he’s going to do about what must look, to him, like a horrific betrayal. Binghe is apologizing. Binghe is begging for his life.
Shen Qingqiu hears him. Maybe it shows on his face, or in his voice, that he already knew; maybe there’s no hint at all, but Shen Qingqiu is suddenly talking quickly with an abrupt sense of urgency that Luo Binghe is having a hard time keeping up with. Telling him he’ll be wonderful - telling him he’s the best. Telling him the world will be his, with emotions cracking through that aloof mask that Binghe has never seen on Shizun’s face before, and it’s terrifying for reasons that Binghe cannot identify.
(He will, later. When he has time to think, he’ll realize it sounded like a goodbye.)
And then Shen Qingqiu is bleeding. And then Shen Qingqiu is on the ground. And then Shen Qingqiu is dead. There’s no countdown for Binghe - there’s no System, there’s no warning, there’s no answers.
Luo Binghe is a heavenly demon in the middle of a conference sabotaged by demons. Luo Binghe is alone. His fellow competing disciples are scattered, some dead or injured. The Peak Lord of Qing Jing Peak, the second in command of Cang Qiong Mountain Sect, maybe the only person he loved and who loved him back, is dead at his feet. No one will believe him if he says it isn’t his fault.
(He can’t believe it isn’t his fault.)
What choice does he have but to run? The last heavenly demon the cultivation world went up against has been sealed under a mountain for years, and one of the people responsible for that is probably looking for Shen Qingqiu already. They’ll be looking for him, too. There isn’t anywhere to hide; there isn’t any time to mourn.
There isn’t even enough time to ask why. Why again.
There is no closure waiting for him, because there is nothing to explain what happened. It just is.
It would be a different kind of blackening, certainly - less intense, probably, less of a warping, desperate thing. But how many times can one person have all the love and safety in their world torn out from under them before it starts to show? Before they just don’t allow things like love and safety to touch them, because that’s the better option?
Interesting to consider that, simply by offering the choices it did, the System rigged the story to guarantee that Luo Binghe would end up in hell (deliberate or not).
Interesting to consider that, even if Shen Qingqiu made what might have seemed like a kinder choice, there was every chance it wouldn’t have been.
#scum villian self saving system#svsss#shen qingqiu#luo binghe#I have been thinking about Alternative Blackening Methods#(for reasons)#(don’t worry about it)#and while I don’t think it would be on the same level as the endless abyss#I think suddenly losing his Shizun would fuck Binghe up#especially like that with no explanation right in front of him??#like#he is not gonna be okay#and then he’s stuck in a realm filled to the BRIM with cultivators after his blood#maybe it’s not THE blackening but it is A blackening#and it gives me feelings#because even if sqq was willing to make that sacrifice I’m not convinced that would have… helped Binghe#(also au where sqq somehow has the mushroom body ready to go before the conference)#(and Binghe unexpectedly encounters his Shizun in the wild)#(and they run away together in the most ill-conceived escape plan known to man)
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"You know... You didn't have to take that with you."
"But I promised him I'd take him out to see the ocean one day."
#for context uhmm how do i explain this#so around a few weeks after Jd arrives Bruce is like “Hey... where are the others?”#and Jd is like “ooooh 🤪🤪 he doesnt know...”#Since at this time JD believes that the entire tribe is dead. including his brothers and grandma#so Jd has to take Bruce to the now abandoned troll tree and give him the bad news#Bruce doesnt believe it at first. even if the tree is abandoned they cant be dead? right?? they cant be#so he rushes over to their grandma's pod. thinking that theyre just in hiding and waiting for them to return#and all Bruce is able to find in the empty pod is Branch's old stuffed toy Croco#which solidifies to Bruce that everyone is dead. their friends their family. everyone#Bruce is obviously devastated by the news. he doesnt show it a lot but he doesnt take it too well#he ends up bringing Croco with him back to Vacay Island and patches Croco up#since Croco is a bit worn out due to being left in the pod for years#and since then Bruce always keeps Croco hidden in his hair. both as a memoir of his baby brother#and also a reminder of how he failed as an older brother... ouch#ofc the others arent dead. its just that now both Jd AND Bruce believe that the rest of the trolls are dead#also King Trollex is there bc i wanted to put him there. I like Trollex :]#a knee ways more bb au art i promise the next bb au art will be lighthearted#tho now im gonna work on the next violet gijinka batch bc ive been starving my friendlocke audience for too long#sorry friendlocke fans ill feed u next dw#cherris canvas#trolls#trolls band together#trolls john dory#john dory trolls#trolls bruce#bruce trolls#king trollex#beach bros au#sorry for rambling in the tags i hope u dont mind ahaha
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klance as scott and ramona because…. because…. uh… uhhhh… anyways almost started to cry trying to draw lances hand so ignore the fact it disappears into a black void
#voltron#keith kogane#lance mcclain#klance#vld#klance fanart#voltron legendary defender#vld fanart#scott pilgrim#spvtw#kl#lance is so scott except for the part about dating a minor….#keith is so ramona like give my boy some rollerblades and an amazon package#they make me violently ill#throws up
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