I think what I’m getting beyond annoyed at is I’ve been telling everyone that my brain has been having a harder time than normal, especially within the last three to four years with specific things but people didn’t really believe me on it. I’ve just been called lazy, unmotivated, someone who wants to stagnate when I’m literally fighting against that internally. The fights so hard that I’ve just been exhausted all the time, I started to notice a sharp decline in what I could get done what I found think of. I only started to do things that kept my mind busy, not that I enjoyed. I enjoyed the company that I had more while doing it, but I didn’t work to making that permanent and a reality. My brain just fought me on getting started so much because I was convinced I didn’t belong, I’m still partially prone to thinking I don’t belong anywhere and that I don’t have anything to offer except disappointment. It’s such a vicious fucking cycle and I just want help from a specific person but I know that is not possible too. So I just keep on telling everyone else to help and try to understand who is in my life but there’s a limit to what they can truly see me as — in terms of how I struggle and there’s also a limit to the things I can put them through with what I’m dealing with too. I don’t want to be burdening them but the nature of this disease in my brain does just that. I crave external responsibility but fight against it out of stubbornness. There is so much wrong with me that I just want to yell, I didn’t choose to be like this and noticing my symptoms more and more now is just so frustrating. I’m so sorry I put you through all this and I put you through what I’m going through,

I genuinely just wanted to keep things so simple and love you and make you happy but I feel like I make that/made that impossible too because of how I am.

Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.

Alliance, Sep, guerilla, partisan front. One of them. Isn't it all the same? It is to me. I think it's all useless. It's better to live. / I know guys like him, guys with causes. Causes that get people killed.

[attaches my izzy hands apologist pin to my vest] kind of fucked up that some find izzy Irredeemable when we have seen him do next to nothing violent or even particularly mean, whereas we know ed made fang shoot his dog and then shrugged at him while he cried about it and also, apparently, regularly forces people into autocannibalism for the smallest of transgressions. which is not hate towards ed! he is a pirate and this is typical pirate behavior, and if ed wasn't prone to violent behavior then that would make his path towards self acceptance and kindness weigh less than it does. but it does seem as if izzy has only ever been the enforcer of blackbeard-slash-ed's Rules and Regulations, and while ed seems happy to abandon all that and turn a new leaf because he fell in love, izzy is left with the harrowing memories of what he has done For Blackbeard, in blackbeard's name, and wondering what the fuck happened.

Today, in The USA and Israel are Miserable Pieces of Filth and The United Nations is The Rag it Uses to Wipe its Ass:

I just. Have no words.

Make no mistake that the UN is facilitating this genocide in concert with the rest of the West. If this doesn't break the UN then nothing will. If this isn't the last straw for Arabs then nothing will be.

2024 year of charlie gets a fucking break (hopefully. maybe. tbd.)

Quick Quiz and a Question Pinky 1.Why is Claire so Loyal to team and to Jim

2. if Blinky learn about Jim Training earlier how do you think their interactions Would be Like do you think that Blinky Would stop the training Like he did in canon. or Something else would happen

I think Claire's loyalty to Jim is the reason she has any loyalty to Jim's team lol. Although I don't believe she was loyal to Jim until he risked everything to save her baby brother. THEN and only then was Claire 100% loyal to Jim and his team.

I think Blinky in Canon caught Jim training with Strickler and Nomura at the worst time lol. If it was earlier it's hard to say, as Jim was training for a possibly at least a month or more, but I doubt Blinky would have been impressed. Probably disappointed and guilty in himself for not having time to train him. And a little hurt and jealous that Jim sought Strickler out instead and didn't tell him. I wouldn't say in Canon Blinky STOPPED the training, just stopped the gravesand high Jim. I think Jim would continue to train with Strickler actually, even if it was not shown on screen, because Blinky still didn't have time to help Jim, and when Jim became half-troll he fought like a changeling (albiet a REALLY strong and powerful one). Clearly Strickler and Nomura's training style improved Jim's fighting capability quite a bit.

I played Season over the weekend, which if I had to condense "thematic meandering" into a videogame is probably what I would most closely end up with; but it was still a cozy chill time that targeted my very specific niche of robust cow petting mechanics. Followed by journaling the heck out of them.

I do think cute indies living and dying by their sincere desire to paint the human condition should never ever ever fall into the temptation of obtuse and nebulous worldbuilding that desperately needs to explain itself so it can function as an aesthetic blanket for their vignettes. Just keep it loose and metaphor-heavy, fellas.

Cause if you're not extremely, painfully specific about your intention with a story that centers ignorant tourism and historic preservation, you're gonna beef it, bud

some of yall when a persecutor isnt a "misguided protector" or "misunderstood" but a fucking racist

Maybe I’m making more of this than is actually there but ZYS is not a character I like until she also gets knocked down a peg in the finale…like nearly every interaction she has with another character she’s manipulating them including the girl, how are you? convo. Like maybe it wasn’t supposed to mean anything but when Auntie shows Stede Ed’s body she’s grinning in the background. She just got done saying she doesn’t let people go on and on about their feelings she’s NOT interested in how Stede is feeling…like absolutely girlboss simp but she gets her ass handed to her because she always assumes she’s the smartest person in any room. Idk it just feels like everyone wanted to jump on her bandwagon (at least what I was seeing) and I’m like nah she doesn’t care about anyone new but Olu and only in a selfish way so…🤷🏻‍♀️

Me, BooBoo the Fool: I hope Izzy finds love next season and becomes the new captain of The Revenge when Stede and Ed inevitably quit/fake their deaths to run off together.

OFMD season finale:

yesterday i also watched the movie "poor things" and i have several thoughts about it , most of them not enthusiastically positive, but i have a soft spot for franeknstein-like scientist/doctors with a passion for giving a new sort of "life" to creatures and who are misunderstood as "monsters" despite doing what they do for a pure unadulterated Lust for Life. thats just something im Always drawn to. That's dragica, and to some extent, salice as well

does anyone know if there are any solid rules regarding underwater animals in the sonic universe and if they need water to survive or not? i know later issues of archie sonic had a lot of characters who were from the ocean but i cant remember if this was ever clarified or not because my memories on some parts of archie sonic are a bit fuzzy

Coming up with specifics that I Do Not Need for a verse in such a way that I spend hours upon hours upon hours researching for it, otherwise known as Chris' HSR verse!Nikolai Adventures

Ok so I need to rework my Wendy skilltree concept because klei heard ppl complain abt the combat and went alright then time to completely rework combat but very slowly one update at a time so no one realizes until we straight up give Willow spells

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