2023-10-13

The sheer rush of academic power when you walk into your nearly empty school on a day off to study there — absolutely unparalleled

Well, i went to the old growth forest that's not too far out of town... i think we might have found some tiny baby nettles at the very end, but i'm not super familiar with what they look like when theyre small, and they need to be much bigger to use anyway. But i might drive back in a few months and see.

However, i did grab a ton of lichen. I havent dyed with it before, and i definitely have a few different types in there, none of which i can identify. Hopefully i'll figure it out. Also found a few new spindle sticks, which is good bc i'm out and i have some whorls that dont go on anything.

i did spend $78.62 today Its true .

Tee…

I’m now on my hands and knees BEGGING for bully Gojo who is (secretly) DISGUSTINGLY IN LOVE over the reader PLEASE ANY CRUMBS I WILL TAKE

(you don’t actually have to write this it was just a nice thought)

idkkkkk if it’s rly bully gojo—but he’s definitely a real cunt for sure.

i just think about an asshole! gojo a lot like he’s ur lab partners or something and he does that stereotypical jerk move where he’s like “seriously ?? her ??” when he’s first paired with you. and he’s just naturally an douche, yk ?? wears sunglasses indoors and makes jokes at the professors expense under his breath that gets him snickers and snorts from his frat guys in his class. has to be asked more than once to “please keep it down in the middle of class” by wtv prof he’s in class with.

and he ofc makes u do all the work bc he can’t be bothered—and on the rare occasion that he is bothered, he just does a poor job that’s the bare minimum and sloppy enough that ur like wtv i’ll just do it myself. and then ofc sometimes u don’t have a choice but to meet up to finish something after class every now and then—he wouldn’t care to, but he actually needs to know the stuff for the final report he has to write individually, so he begrudgingly meets up with you, and sometimes you notice his friends give you an amused look when he walks up with them. they snicker before they leave as he sits with you. sometimes they make a snide comment here and there like “have fun with ur super hot date” that makes him roll his eyes—he doesn’t do much to hide the look of distaste on his face.

but then—and he doesn’t even know when it happens—you start to slowly grow on him. because ur actually pretty snarky urself, sometimes making a dry comment here and there about the professor and his stupid bald headed self. sometimes a girl in the distance laughs too hard a group of guys that u roll ur eyes and mumble how “if i had a voice like that i’d never laugh in public” and it makes him snort a bit without meaning to. sometimes you stare daggers at the person who has their music so loud thru their headphones they can’t help but notice u and turn it down in embarrassment. ur actually not as much of a pushover as he thought—you just genuinely think he’s too incapable to help u out that you’ve just shrugged him off and started doing his part. it’s an easy weekly lab class anyway, you don’t need him—and then he realizes that u rly just don’t care for him. his little snickers at u with his friends and their snide comments roll off ur back bc well…he’s him—an asshole little frat boy and u didn’t expect anything better from him. so it makes him a little intrigued—maybe a little wounded in his pride, deep down, because no one has ever been indifferent to him before. they’re either madly in love, or they hate his guts, or they follow his lead. either works—he still gets the attention he craves.

but u just don’t rly care. and ur actually pretty cool, and kinda sorta funny in a way no one else is. he likes it…and fuck, now he’s starting to like you. he can tell bc when his friends ask how his little date with you went, he starts getting a bit huffy ab it bc they don’t need to talk about you. they don’t even know you…but also….its not a date. and that’s the worst part. sometimes it feels like a date. almost—sometimes you both decide to take a break in between and go get a coffee or a light snack. sometimes he’s even paid (to which you look mildly shocked before politely thanking him) and you both walk back to the library while u make light banter and it’s…well, fun. and nice. and your laugh is pretty. and your smile is kinda cute and he (though he hates to admit it) rly likes it when u laugh because of him.

and then things start to get messy—really, he didn’t mean for it to start this way. he really was meaning to ask you in a genuine manner to see u again once the semester was finished. because he’s actually started pulling his weight—he wants u to see him for someone who’s smart. satoru is actually rly rly smart and no one knows it because he doesn’t rly show it but he is. he wants u to see that side of him—somehow there’s some sick validation he rly needs from you knowing he’s not a dense frat guy who drinks and fucks until 3 am every night. so he starts doing his parts and actually communicates with u about sections. so starts ur texting routine—sometimes a little longer than u rly need to for just doing a lab together. sometimes it’s “did u hear ab that girl in our class getting dumped in front of the kfc ??” and sometimes it’s “god our prof rly needs to get some pussy” and other times it’s “look what the guy who sits behind us just posted on his story” and it leads to a few long convos that admittedly…are rly fun. ur so fun. he likes it. he rly does like u and he thinks maybe….maybe he’s grown on u too and you know what ?? satoru’s always a jerk but ur nice and who’s to say he can’t be nice too ?? just for one person. for u, he can be a nice guy—u carried lab all on ur own long enough that u deserve it anyway.

until he gets swayed in that way only a coward can. in that way you do when ur used to being “the man” around ur friends and ur too pressured to keep up that energy for appearances sake bc u don’t wanna be the laughing stock who softened up for “some nerdy chick who’s a nobody.” so he laughs when they laugh at the fact that ur probably “still a virgin who’s never touched a guy before” and then they’re patting gojo on the back and shoving at his shoulder as they laugh harder and suggest that “y’know what would be so funny man ?? if u took her virginity. you could probably do it.”

the thought is sickening because…satoru wouldn’t want to fuck you like that. god, you have him caring about when and how he fucks you—in fact, just thinking about you lewdly makes him feel guilty. disrespectful, even. you’re more than a fleshlight for his dick. since when did he become so respectful ?? but he doesn’t know how to say no, especially when everyone starts agreeing one after the other—and oh no, now they’re betting on how quickly he can do it….and oh, now it’s not just fucking. now it’s “how long until you think she’s head over heels for you? man, that would be a sight, huh ??”

and….well, satoru decides it couldn’t hurt, right ?? he does want to be romantically involved so that would include you being head over heels. hopefully. fingers crossed. and he doesn’t rly want to seem lame in front of the guys either, so he gets to keep both sides of the coin, so is it really that bad ?? maybe not the right idea but certainly the right execution. he’ll treat you well—that much he’s confident of. so he forces out a laugh and says “gimme a month or two, you’ll see.”

and a month or two they give him. and a month or two it takes—but not for you to be head over heels. it’s him who’s utterly and completely obsessed and fallen head first and whatever else they say to describe love because wow. this must be what it is. this must be that stupid fairytale shit they always talk about because fuck, no one has ever looked at him like that. like he’s some miracle to this earth and some wonder only you know of—like you hope it stays that way and that he’s yours and yours alone and no one else comes in to take him away. satoru really likes being yours, it kinda feels better than you being his. being yours means you hold him like that at night and wake him up to a kiss between his brows and sometimes, when he gets those migraines he’s prone to getting, you always seem to know. always seem to understand when to close the blinds and keep quiet and wrap him up in the covers as you rub your thumbs over his temples soothingly.

he almost forgets about that silly little bet he made two months ago when he’s around you. actually, he forgets everything when he’s around you. he’s only ever thinking about you, you, you. when he comes back to his frat house, on the other hand, they’re all gathered around waiting for the newest details. how you must’ve been so pathetically star struck by him. how you must be embarrassingly bad at kissing. how you must stutter over every other word around him. how you must be making a complete and utter fool of urself trying to impress him and be someone you’re not bc the real you would never pique his interest.

they’re wrong ofc. if anyone’s star struck, it’s satoru bc how the hell are u so…cool ?? and so funny and witty and carefree ?? and you’re good at kissing—have him chasing your lips with a whine every time. sometimes you even chuckle at him when he does and make him blush a bit. he’s the one who stutters over his words when he sees you in your little date night outfits. sometimes he watches you drink from your straw and his brain short circuits a little until you snap at him and ask him in confusion if he’s alright. but the real kicker ?? it’s that if anyone’s pretending, it’s satoru. you’re always just you—unapologetically so, that it’s endearing and beautiful and so unearthly he wonders how he got so lucky. but him ?? he’s always acting like some guy he’s not. some chivalrous guy who opens doors and pushes out seats and kisses the back of hands and waits at least a few dates before even considering fucking. some nice, sweet, genuine guy who’s deserving.

he’s not that—never was. if you knew the real him, you’d leave in a heartbeat. it’s a scary thought. a raw feeling he doesn’t like. makes him feel all self conscious and insecure and all that weird shit he never thought he’d feel.

he tries. so hard, he tries to make them forget about that silly little bet and just slowly drop it and maybe even forget ur dating so he can just stay living this peaceful little fantasy with you—but that’s stupid. that’s naive. it’s been 4 months and enough is enough—the guys need to see the look on ur face when u realize what a fool ur being and satoru is “being a lazy ass who’s too comfortable not having for work for pussy these days.” so then there’s a video going around. it’s everyone gathered around on the couch drunk and talking about you. and satoru. you both, in fact. how it’s been two months and u seem desperate for his attention with the shrill little voice you use to call him toru, baby! it’s so, so fucking embarrassing, they say. how you think he likes it. (he does. god he does so much, it hurts. he loves it, actually, when you call him that. makes him feel special in a way he never has.) but then, the worst, most disgustingly nauseous part of the whole thing is when satoru laughs along and plays into their awful words. just lets them talk about you like you’re some piece of meat. something for him to chew up and spit out after he has a taste or you. not even worth savoring and enjoying. he laughs along and agrees—you’re nothing special and he can’t wait until he’s free of you.

that part hurts. that part sucks the most—when he acts like he didn’t tremble under your touch every time you kissed him. like he didn’t beg you to stay just five more minutes! before walking out the door to go home. he acts one way in front of you and one way in front of them and what’s worse ?? you don’t know which one is real. couldn’t tell even if your life was on the line to decide. because there’s no way he’s that good at pretending to be desperately in love, no fucking way. but there’s also no way he can be in love if he’s talking about you like that. that’s not what love is—that’s not what love feels like. that’s not what it means to someone.

you don’t know which satoru is the real one, but you know that neither is worth your time. not if he can’t stick to it.

it’s terrible thing—the way you break up. it’s messy and teary and he’s begging, he’s actually begging. he never thought he’d do that. but he doesn’t even hesitate to plead for you to hear him out. baby, please let me explain. wait, please don’t walk away—please just listen! i can explain.

he can’t explain, though when you as him to. stands there with a bitten bottom lip and teary eyes that are pleading you to just stay with him. to overlook this and just … ignore it like it’s nothing. like what he did and said was just nothing and you can shrug it off like you’re nothing too. like your feelings are nothing and so is your worth and that’s why you should just ignore the way he absolutely destroyed your pride and reputation and dignity and worse….every ounce of your love.

such deep, raw, pure love—it’s almost enough to heal every dry crack and crevice of this earth and bring it back to life.

you look at him with teary eyes and something so broken, it makes him feel like dirt beneath your feet.

“it’s embarrassing, satoru,” you hiss that night through tears, “you’re in your twenties getting a degree and you’re still just a high school bully. life’s really gonna kick you in the ass some day.”

life’s already kicking him in the ass as soon as you walk out. the air is colder. the world is dimmer. food doesn’t taste as good and fuck—there is just so much loneliness when you have no one to be yourself with. when there’s no you.

but he supposes you’re right though—he is just a bully. it’s pathetic, really. and maybe it’s for the best. maybe you don’t deserve someone who’s only ever known how to feel good because someone else doesn’t.

Omg you HAVE to further elaborate onto that inexperienced reader x inexperienced schlatt fic omfg that shit drove me UP the wall it was too good. You have made my year

oh anon i love u sm <3 yes im obsessed w this idea esp speaking as a barely experienced virgin gal :D

nsfw under the cut, minors dni!! 18+ only.

(also PLEASE lmk if u want more i love writing these!!)

so you and schlatt met in a calculus class. it was required for his major while it’s just a general education class for you. because you sit near each other in the lecture hall you're often paired together for quick discussions (those 'turn to the person next to you' talks that i dread lmao).

he always thought you were really hot but was too shy to ever say anything, mostly just thinking about you in every way imaginable while he jerks off.

and you too, your size kink rly went brr seeing his tall ass like...

you once made the mistake of looking at his hands for a little bit too long and then that was all you could think about for a week.

you eventually became friends slowly over the course of the semester which was how u started fooling around in the first place.

both of you opened up that u were both virgins and not that experienced. and this mf was really like 'oh wouldn't be funny if...'

"how am i attracted to you?"

it starts with some making out. you've both kissed people before so you were a bit familiar with it. and it's nice!

you starting to kiss down to his neck and omg his fucking reaction when you leave a hickey for the first time. he's flaunting it so everyone can see, his roommate and friends are gassing him up sooo much.

while in class he's reading on how to give a hickey and ends up giving you so. many. all over your body. did he just awaken a marking kink?

also like once you guys start you just can't get enough of each other.

he's just so. obsessed with your moans. he's watched porn loads before, he knows how exaggerated those moans are. but somehow your more subdued noises turn him on even more. AND THE WAY YOU SAY HIS NAME???? he loves it.

his face going all red when you touch him anywhere. he whimpers so much, it's like you have him under a spell.

like i said before, he's super vocal. he usually can't help himself, especially when you're on your knees sucking his cock. because duh <3

once you started sucking him off, you can't get enough. and he can't either.

blowing him under the desk in the library. oh lord help me.

wearing one of his sweaters (the harvard one came to mind particularly) for the first time and he's just. jaw dropped.

the prettiest girl ever is wearing his clothes???? if he doesn’t have you right then and there he’s jerking off to you as soon as u leave.

and also you wearing his sweaters when walking around campus and he is just so proud like wow. you're all his.

falling asleep together after your first time and waking up to his morning wood‼️ he’s so needy in the morning he’s practically humping ur leg as soon as he wakes up. thank god your roommate was out.

lazily riding him while he just gushes at how beautiful you are in the morning. fuck. me.

whenever he spends the night at your dorm or vice versa you always help him out in the mornings <3 whether it be a blowjob or a handjob or turning to your side so he can slip it in and fuck you :D so what if you've been late to class a couple times?

you call him ALL the pet names. angel. sweetheart. darling. baby.

and his for you? oh. all the ones you call him and more. toots (thats a major one). doll(face). princess. bark bark bark.

you sending him nudes for the first time one night when he's home visiting family. what starts off innocent enough, you in one of his t-shirts without any pants on turns to pics of your tits, your fingers in your pussy, then VIDEOS OF YOU MASTURBATING!!! he's ripping his jeans off as he slams his bedroom door shut and dials your number into facetime.

SKIPPING CLASS JUST TO HAVE SEX SJKLFBHEDDJKLSJK

HE DRIVES TO SOME REMOTE PLACE ON CAMPUS!!!! AND U HAVE CAR SEX FOR THE FIRST TIME OMG

it's SO awkward at first😭where do you go? the back? stay in the front? go into the trunk?

you're glad he wanted to stay in the front because OMG. RIDING HIM IN THE CAR SEAT. he tries sooooo hard not to cum too fast bc ur tits are literally in his face and your pussy is squeezing him so well fuck fuck fuck he's obsessed with you. wow.

TBP HEADCANONS

• Vance likes to be nurtured and prefers quiet, gentle things. If you approach him nicely and you talk to him nicely then he won’t be mean to you he just has a trigger for aggression.

• Bruce is multitalented. One of those guys who can do anything he really tries to and has done a lot. He’s done theatre, baseball, he’s really good at braiding hair and is excellent at writing informative essays but his main things are studying unsolved cases and filling notebooks with information on thinks he’s into.

• robin boxes every other day after school, he goes to this gym that’s sort of old and kind of empty so it’s usually just him in there. He brings a little radio and hustles a punching bag for hours. Sometimes Vance comes and works out with him, usually they don’t talk rather just enjoy each others company (and music taste. I think they like similar stuff.)

• Vance and Gwen and Amy are actually really good friends for some reasons 9/10 of the times the boys can’t find Vance it’s because he’s at one of their houses letting the girls braid his hair. He protects them but truly he’s scared of them they’re vicious rabid creatures

•Gwen, aside from her dreams and shit, just has really good intuition and can read people like books. Which is why she and Vance are such good friends because she reads him so well she somehow manages to know exactly whats wrong at all times, besides, she went through a stress toy phase and now has a drawer full of them she doesn’t use and Vance has taken all of them. Win win.

• griffin doesn’t know how to ride a bike. He swore up and down that he did and billy got annoyed and called his bluff, hopped off his bike and pat the seat. He couldn’t even get on it he was down on the sidewalk in half a second.

•billy is an advent fan of the outsiders and his favorite character is Darry. He likes to associate characters to his friends and it’s an inside joke between them who’s who. (Finney is pony boy, robin is Johnny. Vance is dally, Bruce is soda pop (but also billy argued he was cherry. He wanted to be soda pop) griffin is two bit, and billy is Darry. (And they wonder why that’s his favorite.) Gwen thinks she should be soda pop and Bruce should be cherry and not reverse but whatever! )

• finney and Gwen’s movie is grease. It’s their favorite, they have The soundtrack on tape and know the dances. They sing duets, finneys danny and Gwen is sandy. Gwen’s favorite song is hopelessly devoted and finneys is you’re the one that I want

•robin listens to a lot of rock and a bit of metal (mostly because of Vance who just needs someone to talk to about albums he likes so he tells Robin cuz Robin always actually listens to them.) he rly likes run dmc and the beastie boys. Any fast paced or loud music is his shit. Finney doesn’t like loud noises and he doesn’t enjoy listening to that kind of music it makes him antsy so their common ground is soft 50s / 60s music. (I.e those magic changes - Sha na na & anything Ritchie valens) but most of the time robin plays whatever he wants on his stereo and just keeps it super low.

•robin and Vance have daily smoke seshs in the bathroom (one robin fought to own literally. Like he put a group of seniors on their asses freshmen year and now it’s his bathroom no one goes in there)

•Billy’s really into old movies and is constantly in the library trying to read up on old 1920s actresses

•billy likes classical music. He buys cheap tapes and lets them play softly in the background

•robins bed is in the corner of his room against a wall so whenever finney sleeps over he sleeps on the side pressed against the wall because sometimes he gets nightmares and makes monsters out of the shadows in the room but from the corner he can’t see them.

•Vance hopper is a writer he’s awful at SAYINg how he feels so he writes to people. He writes poems and stories and stuff and he’s a real good story teller he just can’t figure out how to get the words out of his mouth

•griffin has undiagnosed adhd and spent all of his life getting yelled at by his mother over it. He’s self conscious about himself and tries to do things quietly in dark corners but the boys are never annoyed with him when he talks or runs around or stims and it helps him come to terms with himself

• griffins dad and Vance’s mom are dating and have been since they were younger. They live together and even though Vance still has to go see his dad on a court order and stuff griffin always waits at the doorstep for him or drives with his mom to drop and pick him up

•Bruce is the oldest in the group and takes on a motherly type role. He’s always there to help them, constantly feeds them and buys them stuff and talks to them like he’s sooo much older then them and how he’s sooo tired from raising kids and working but deep down it makes him happy to provide and make other people happy. He needs to be taken care of too and there’s always someone there for him (usually Vance because he’s a little more mature then the others and notices when Bruce is down before they do. Not their faults though, sometimes they just don’t peep it for a while.)

•robins mom loves finney, she jokes about loving him more then robin All the time. Sometimes they’ll lay at the foot of her bed while she’s watching tv and just whisper to eachother. She enjoys their company and really likes it when they stay home she much prefers they just stay right by her side for safety

•robin has a dog named paco , he’s a 3 year old brown pit bull. Very rowdy and clumsy just like robin :)

hmm ystrdy i was feeling a lil off when i woke up and he asked if i wanted to call and we talked a bit and i felt like Better after talking to him abt what i was anxious abt isnt that wild. and then im like do u still want me to come over and hes like of course lolol why wouldnt i and im like umm bc im annoying for having emotions and being an anxious girl duh. then i came over. i was like late too i always am im trying to work on punctuality like if i say a time im gonna mean it IDK its my worst trait. like if theres any vague time in the air i def just am not good at sticking to thaf i was onlg a lil late but i remember he called me cuz he was coming back from the laundromat and got to his place a min after i did and said sorry for being late and im like its ok i am too lolol and he teased me abt it but hes always sweet abt it he texted me dw abt being late take ur time and drive slow. and then we ran errands together couple trips to the laundromat and i made us eggs and i drew a little picture on his whiteboard and he took a pic of me w it and sent it to his friend they said they hope i ruin him 😭 and we just did mundane shit i helped him sort his clothes he said im a Helper and i realize i like being useful lolol and hes like used to doing all the work in his past relationships w cleaning and sruff and so am i its kinda funny and we both also like driving as a control thing but i actually dont mind being passenger princess bc hes a pretyy normal safe driver so i dont feel nervous in the car at all and since were in his town idm him driving since he knows the area and i let him drive my car lolol. we went to the laundromat and also dollar tree and then made pizza and idk i watched him play celeste and i kinda forget what else we did not too much cuz i was kinda tired lol and i dont even rly remember falling asleep. and then he woke me up this morning to remind me abt my therapy appt and brought me coffee in bed it was kinda sweet okayy and then the cat kept opening the door bc the bedroom door opens rly easily so the cat can open it and he took the cat and put him in his office room and like blocked the door w a bunch of dhit so the cat wldnt get out and bother me it was cyoot and then we just talked while i colored and idk we went to the library and thriftstore it was fun!!!! and he said he likes my hair down a lot but he doesn't want me to wear it down only bc he likes it and the lady at the thrift store was very nice and also the lady at the library too we were talkjng abt using email addresses we made up when we were like a kid hah and then me n him just browsed for a long time and each got four books ;3 and he said he really values my company and idk its sweet..........and he said every time i kiss him i kinda push him back on accidentand he has to remember bc hell kind of fall back bc i kiss kinda hard or go into him LOL i didnt realize i do that. and its cute he walks me to the car and waves at me from the door while im sitting there for at least 4min setting up my music and gps. yayy

11.30.22

last day of nov :o time rly does fly

i took my public health final and it went rly well!! i also finished my last assignments for that class so now i’m officially done. wish i devoted more time into it tbh bc i rly love public health, but ended up spending more of my focus on chem + writing this quarter :,( but still v good class i recommend

afterwards, i walked to tj’s to grocery shop! i needed to buy veggies bc i do not have any and i need nutrition :D ended up buying broccoli, mushrooms, stuff for breakfast. not too much bc i’m going home next week anyways lollll

i made lunch and it was goood. rice + broccoli + nem nướng, which is like one of my fav types of protein ever. reminded me of home :,) then, i ubered to my new babysitting job! the kiddo is two years old 🥹 so adorbs even tho he was rly shy hahahah still v smiley tho :] i’m excited to get to know him! i also met his grandma and dad who were rly kind. SUPER nice house in brentwood i was in awe. beautiful grand piano too! i’ll start in winter quarter hehe

then, i took the bus back to my apt and then went to the hill to visit kayla, gian, + steph for a bit! it was very good to see them since it’s been a while. they’re v v studious and focused so i didn’t stay for long :D they’re such champs. then, i met w jay for a bit and he swiped me a smoothie <3 love my twin. then i went to anderson to study w adi, and then jay came by after a bit too! it was pretty productive,, i rly like the library there it’s very peaceful. i’ll go again tmr in the daytime when there’s more sunlight. i listened to a lot of beabadoobee + cigarettes after sex for some reason. was in the mood ig LOLOL

i went home at 9ish, made dinner, watched vampire diaries, did a little work (very little tho bc im pooped tbh), and now going to bed :) it was lonngggg day but good day. excited for tmr 💛

side note: damon salvatore is so hot im not even watching this show for the plot anymore he’s just so nice to look at. and i love his character

also i really like puffer vests + looking at peoples spotify wraps

anyways that is all

love

kd

To make it worse:

Joyce moves on from Will's death within second because Joyce has another son (Jonathan) after all so she moves on (As this plot point makes sense according to some Melvin's logic)

But also Vecna isnt the one that kills Will, it's El who does it because she has no other choice to left according to some Melvin's theories and logic, that's what the writers decide to pull.

Jonathan dies mid season and Stancy is endgame. Nancy realizes that Steve is hotter and better than Jonathan after all and despite that the series has spent all those time to show that Stancy aint working and aint compitable, they decide to make them and endgame couple.

Melvin marriage happens and they have 3 sons that they name them after Jonathan, Will and Eddie.

None of the lose plot points in the show ever explained. The way Will disappeared and the way it played out? Never explained. Why the UD looks like 6th of November? Never explained. How Will managed to survive the UD for a week, despite being just a 12 years old without (seemingly) having any powers or equipment to protect himself? Why the Demogorgon didn't kill him instantly and instead just decided to let him go for a week, why Will was found at the center of the gates aka library with a tube inside him? Never explained. All the other important plot points get ignored as well.

Max wakes up but forgets about everyone and everything else that happened on the show, she doesnt remember anyone. And her memories never come back. She's left to ''live a normal life''.

idm why some milkvans think that – joyce would never move on from will’s death that fast. it doesn’t matter that she has another son because losing either would equally hurt the same. plus, just look at how worried and distraught she was when will went missing in season 1. so, i don’t think that’s plausible at all.

making el kill will for no reason wouldn’t make sense and would be extremely difficult to watch. these two are siblings who love each other very dearly…it’s just horrible to even think that the writers would want that to happen.

i don’t think st*ncy could ever work, i’m sorry, but even if jonathan were to die it still wouldn’t work. like you said, they’re just incompatible and don’t work as a couple.

please eddie wheeler, will wheeler AND jonathan wheeler??? jeez-

again, one of the things i would hate the most (mostly bc i just find it personally frustrating). glossing over all those points and not giving any concrete answers would be so infuriating.

that’s one i’ve never heard before- i don’t rly like that. max mot remembering anyone or anything that happened would suck, though i suppose it would be nice for her not to remember any of the trauma?? idk😭

ellie listens to the top 50 best-selling albums of all time: 40-31

started this bunch yday and just finished now!! so for this lot, no jacket required, ...baby one more time, queen’s greatest hits and nevermind were the only albums i already liked and had in my library beforehand, and as for the ones i hadn’t heard before..

eric clapton - unplugged: already posted abt this in the tag but.. yeah i was unimpressed w/ this one lmao 😭 i was willing to give it a go, for the sake of listening to All of these albums, and it wasn’t a terrible listen.. but not being anything special there’s like.. plenty of other, better music, made by ppl who aren’t completely abhorent, so i don’t think i’ll be listening 2 this one or any of his other music again 😕

james horner - titanic: music from the motion picture: i was actually surprised by how enjoyable this was, considering it’s just an orchestral score (besides “my heart will go on”) and i’ve never seen the film b4 😧 probably not something i’ll be likely to listen to ever again, but it was an enjoyable enough experience!!

eminem - the eminem show: apart from a couple of tracks i didn’t like, i enjoyed listening to this a lot more than “the marshall mathers lp,” mainly bcos it eased up a lot more on the ~edgier~ lyrics 😅 still not gonna become an eminem fan™️ but once i’m done w/ listening 2 all these albums, i might actually go and check out his next couple of albums, just 2 see what they’re like too 🤔

various artists - grease: the original soundtrack from the motion picture: i thought i’d enjoy this more cos i like the film, and yh the john travolta and olivia-newton john songs are gr8!! but this album is 24 songs long, with a bunch of songs that were either cut from the film, or only used a background music, and it was kind of a slog to get thru.. 😔 also i’m not the biggest fan of either the “grease” song itself, or the “beauty school dropout” one 😕

mariah carey - music box: never listened to a mariah carey song other than “all i want for christmas is you” before, and i rly enjoyed “dreamlover,” the album opener!! but then the album went into 3 consecutive piano ballads, and i kinda lost interest, especially bcos “hero” is a song i’ve never liked v much, and didn’t know was by mariah carey 😅 it picked up a bit after that, and i did like her version of “without you,” but i wasn’t especially keen on this one, altho i might look more into getting one of her greatest hits albums or something, and seeing if i like that better 🤔

norah jones - come away with me: i didn’t rly know who norah jones was and i’d never heard any of her music before this, but this was a rly nice listen!! ☺️ i went and downloaded the recent 20th anniversary super deluxe version of this album once i was done listening, and i might check out some of her other albums then too 😄

so onto the top 30 now, starting with the beatles’ “abbey road!!” 🥳

we don't talk enough about the girls in 1st to 4th year. Like we got all those hcs for the guys, but i want he girlies to have cutesy hcs to so:

Lily: Friends with Snape, ofc, but hated pretty much every boy except for him. She'd barely get along with Remus, let alone James, and that was it. Hung out a LOT with Marlene in 1st to 3rd year, and got closer to Mary more around 2nd year, they became a trio at the beginning of 3rd year and became inseparable. Lily was pretty quiet in class, but would be absolutely wild when it came to grades. First in all of her classes, and would compete with anyone else who even tried to catch that title from her. Very competitive, and get closer with Remus at the end of third year after they had a huge competition over who'd be at the top of their DADA class.

Marlene: an absolute beast. Energetic, would either love you or despise you, friends with pretty much every Gryffondor (despised Sirius in 2nd year because of something he'd said to Lily, and James from in 4th year because the flirting was rly getting to Lily, the hatred ended at the end of 4th year when he got absolutely destroyed by Lily and stopped flirting with her obsessively, and apologized profusely) LOVED Peter and would always hang out with him, would be an absolute MENACE in Quidditch, she was a batter along Sirius and no one could convince me otherwise, average in grades but would suck at potions, Lily started pairing up with her to help, which was one of the first things she did against Snape. She could also throw a mean punch, even when she was 13.

Mary: absolute sweetheart in 1st to 2nd year, became more like Marlene in 3rd and 4th. hung out a lot with Sirius in 1st year (when he wasn't with the marauders) and Alice in 2nd, she was a sweetheart and would be nice to everyone, smart and overall an average kid. Then she befriended the other girls and oh. She was wild. 3rd and 4th year, she pranked everyone, caused a mess everywhere she went and managed to always blame it on the marauders, and would show it when she hated you (which she probably did, especially if your name was James Potter or Severus Snape) Her grades, surprisingly, went up and she became a top student pretty quickly

Dorcas: the quiet but not to mess with girl. Immediately befriended Pandora and Regulus in 1st year, and basically didn't talk to anyone else. She got picked on a bit in 1st year, then in the beginning of second she dragged a boy that slapped her ass out of the castle, and he came back the next morning with blood everywhere on his face, hexed and unable to remember what happened, Dorcas just sipping on her morning tea as the Slytherin table went in flames at his return. It was never traced back to her, and no one messed with her afterwards. Was an absolute sweetheart towards Pandora, they were best friends, met Evan in 2nd year and warmed up to him pretty quickly. She had a little rivalry moment with Regulus when they get in the Quidditch team, but they actually became friends easily and treated him like a little brother (the big sibling Sirius couldn't be, snif) Barty and her spent so much time hating each other, just to realize their entire feud was ridiculous and become best friends the next day

Pandora: An absolute NERD. And by that, i mean that if Evan was the one to avoid all the classes their parents taught them when they were kids, Pandora would be the kid to ask all the uncomfortable questions and destroy your logic in a few seconds with your own reasoning. Never get into an argument with her. She'd always be either at the library, or in a common room. Befriended Regulus immediately and only hung out with him for 6 months, made up an entire language for them to speak in between each other, made bracelets Regulus would hide under his sleeve but always wear, ect. Met Dorcas and hit it off relatively quick, their early friendship more like a black cat and white cat, where they just supported each other and hung out constantly.

Tape the technology of the future. Rly anything that has use can be the technology of the future. Use is defined as filling a function. It is rly up to the techno-wizard to bring out the context of that use. I have been reviewing the meme archives, the stacks , 🌆 lib city 🏙️ . This will sound random but this one is for the [ acronym deleted for security purposes] but what ever happened to two guys a girl and a pizza place? I mean it’s rhetorical I was there for the start of the meme war as officially laid out by the [ acronym deleted for security purposes] I’m there paper titled something along the lines of “a number of people then this other person and there base of operation”. Don’t quote me on the name of the paper honestly I only half read it while in meme space which is so close to a nightmare you might as well just consider me asleep 😴 .

Any ways I know I haven’t updated in a while about the progress of the company mostly because I am still unsure if it is even viable . I have convened a war council to see if it is even logical or if I���m just wrapped up in my own head.

The council is made up of the original four+ but unfortunately not everyone can be in attendance.

So I mean yeah the company will specialize in meme tech. Most because that’s all I can remember from before(joke). I know it sounds silly but I do feel really well positioned. Especially with All Intelligence dog whistled out of the conversation thanks to the people at [shadow institution] with there direction of the media.

Honestly things are ripe for meme tech right now. I am really glad I found that old dusty book with the secrets to the current situation in them. Or did I? I hope you enjoyed the mental image of me blowing dust off a stack of books in a poorly lit library deep in the stacks late at night.

I mean when you live in 🌆 lib city 🏙️ these are your daily doings. Fun fact time only flows on the turn of each page in 🏙️ lib city 🌆. There use to be billions that lived in lib city and almost all of them read voraciously so it was a wild time people lived and died fast 💨.

But last time I went to 🌃 lib city 🌃 I was the only one there. I nearly suffocated before I realized it was just me.

This story has gone on a little to long I intended to come on here to talk about the council. Also no one wants to hear a private contractors stories about sed involvement in the meme wars.

Oh heads up no phones when we meet up. I know I said it won’t go over 20 min ( I think I said that) but I don’t know what we are going to talk about and I don’t want the algorithm involved just quite yet. There is room for the algorithm eventually but I don’t want to ruin the surprise for everyone.

Bravo you made it to the end you bot! Dam your Fiendish, call me a Dr! To bad the dwarf with the face got lost in the fjord. It would have been nice to have him and his stories of the fjord .

Ps I have only ever spoken in code except when I am near the source.

Pps explanations will be given at the short council.

THANK YOU FOR THE PLAYLISTS THEY ALL LOOK LIKE THEY SLAP INCREDIBLY HARD !!!!!!! I WILL STREAM THAT SHIT. also thank u for the bisexual lighting songs that is Also a fantastic list. i’ve seen your posts about synesthesia and i think the way you perceive the world is so damn cool !!! i don’t have actual synesthesia the way you do but sometimes voices really do have colors that suit them idk okay they just Do. but srsly though i love seeing you talk abt how you perceive sounds and colors it’s all so interesting!!

loona rly does have some Shit going on i sat down w my friend jack and i was like “okay can you explain at least some of this story” and he just went “okay so first off heejin is god-“ AND I WAS LIKE “WHAT???” i understand a good amount of it now but it’s rly so unhinged

i remember you reblogging gyehyeon gifsets in the very beginning !! he rly is so pretty. i may end up going the same way w e’last because choiin,,,, that man. Whew. he is . very very attractive .

i am also not entirely sure about noa?? i think i read something about him being able to control shadows/darkness and i think . it would be Very funny . if he just caused a power outage in decelis because he didn’t want to go to class that day. just boom it’s dark in all the classrooms suddenly. on a similar note, imagine an Actual power outage due to storms or something (i live in a beach town, we get outages from hurricanes frequently </3) and jino being used as a human flashlight bc he can literally light up the rooms. just fun little thoughts

- vrvr anon, who is very touched that you make all your followers feel welcome and represented even if you’re not part of that group itself <3

ehehehe ywc!! and also thank you im glad u think my rambly posts abt people and sound and colors r cool :> i like the way my mind sees things i think its pretty cool too!! its especially fun when im first getting into a group and my brain slowly starts assigning colors to the members like "okay ur gold and ur red and ur this very specific shade of purple and—"

"okay first off heejin is god" bro???? what a WILD fuckin sentence to hear first thing when being introduced to a group's lore wow. i mean i knew their lore was a LOT but i never bothered to look into exactly HOW it was a lot, i just knew that it WAS. but heejin god??? really??? good for her. its nice that u have a friend that was so willing to sit down and explain all that to u dhfjhfjf (altho to be fair id probably be the same with enha or vrvr lore lol) (kinda like your asks when you first explained the vrvr lore to me actually!!)

yea gye!! i honestly dont entirely remember the progression of how i got into vrvr, even tho it was only a couple weeks ago . like i think i mightve seen ONE gye gifset on my fyp or smth at first, then i decided to go into the gye tag to reblog more bc i thought he was pretty, then i remembered liking get away and O a lot so i figured "why not listen to their other tts?" and then came YOUR asks and now im . well. now im here HSJFBFJFB

NO SERIOUSLY WITH CHOIIN i think it went pretty similarly for me too ..... i didnt know e'last all that well but i thought he was pretty (its the expressions when he dances i swear--) and i liked their music and now im a full-blown stan with like three biases hgsjfhfjhdhf

i think ive heard abt noa maybe manipulating shadows somewhere too-- like a mutual told me abt it or something idk. that sounds like an absolutely badass and potentially terrifying power to have but also the idea of him just using it to cause power outages so he doesnt have to go to school is great-- AND YES FLASHLIGHT JINO. that is a brilliant idea with lots of potential for things being burned down by accident (like he sets the entire school library on fire or smth and shion is like "well at least we can SEE now" while hes just crying.)

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u ever find a book that legit exceeds ur expections so much that its like. almost too good to be true ????

Now I need to mello, what type of students do you think the ppcrew were like?

umm my opinion is biased cuz i was there for that stream where they all got drunk and made fun of what each other would be like in highschool but

punz - actually lowkey popular, vaped all the time and went a little wild. he has stories he refuses to tell onstream

sam - fucking like. jock basketball player who's rly nice and then u find out that he's also a genius and super smart and it catches u off guard

5up - one of those ppl who does like work and pays attention in class and then vanishes from school grounds to do their own cool shit. maybe you'll see him at a party absolutely blazed and go is that fucking 5up??? from math class?? and then you lose track of him and you see him in class next day at 9 am looking like he's never smoked a joint in his life

gumi - im so sorry gumi but like absolute NERD played pokemon on her ds in class read wattpad on the bus and (confirmed) type of person to wear a fake wrist brace to get out of participating in PE class

bbh - bro gumi is right he's the type of person to remind the teacher they had homework. probably a TA who helps grade stuff but also likes to prank his friends (is bad at it)

boomer - we all know that type of guy; the loud-mouthed hypeman for his more popular jock friend who he absolutely adores. whether he's simping for foolish, sam, or punz depends on the day

foolish - fucking HIMBO JOCK motherfucker who you'll see in the library looking annoyed and then you find out he's pissed bc he's doing extra work for a college level class also i think he'd be the type of person to take his shirt off in PE class during coed dodgeball without even trying to show off

antfrost - fucking shy little nerd kid who hangs out with other weebs like gumi

red - (this is mostly facts) thinks edgy = funny, lowkey in denial about being gay, also a simp, maybe kinda popular but in that way where there's a knife to it and you're a little worried he's going to ridicule you