TC reread chapter 3, some thoughts
(Be warned: if you like Andrew, it’s best to just ignore this post and keep scrolling. I’m not a fan of this character and I don’t hold back on my opinions here)
Both Laurie and Ralph started their careers at the bottom of the army & merchant navy hierarchies despite having an “educated” accent. Another similarity and shared experience!
When Laurie asks to see his x-rays, the charge-nurse replied “I know what you are, reading your notes and getting half-baked ideas. Shakespeare says a little knowledge is a dangerous thing.” This reminds me of Ralph’s story about Alec admonishing him for reading medical anatomy books. No wonder Laurie’s like: there’s nothing wrong with that 😤😤😤
“No one discussed what he had really felt; they took it out on other things.” Yep. True for like everyone in this entire book 😂
Poor Laurie, fighting the drugs because he nearly outed himself on that ship when he was drugged out of his mind, called Ralph a “dearie” and turned him down with a flirty smile 😏 (I wonder if he ever decides to call Ralph “dearie” again, perhaps while they are on holiday, lying on the deck of a little sailboat? “Yes dearie, I’m ready this time” 🤗)
Also, Laurie remembers finding Ralph’s concern for him on the ship “very flattering” and “reflected that he [Laurie] was filthy and unshaved”, and thus proposes “some other time” 😏👀 Like, Ralph is hovering over him, desperately hoping he might still make it out alive, and Laurie is lying there, casually revealing that he’s been considering the bearded man in front of his as a potential lover and decided that he can’t do it now because he hasn’t shaved yet and his leg is a mess 😅 (but also, an early hint that Laurie will be hesitant to date Ralph because he is afraid of being not good enough for Ralph 😭😭😭)
Love the water = queerness metaphor in this book. Laurie the champion swimmer, not wanting to swim because it is not allowed 😭
And after the surgery, Laurie is doped out of his mind, all inhibitions removed. The first we see this happen, he thinks about sex with the bearded captain (Ralph), the second time we hear about this, he recites queer poetry and invites a nurse to bed, and now he is rambling to Nurse Adrian about how “there was a man at school” with whom things would have been different from his failed relationship with Charles. Laurie’s horny-ness for Ralph is so sweet 🥹. And then telling her “it was all wrong the way they treated him” 😭😭😭
“Exit a quiet tidy patient […] enter, somewhere else, a young man with a lame leg and an unanswered question. Vital statistics have this new character something like fifty years’ expectation of life.” I like to imagine that with the stability of Ralph’s love, care, and companionship, Laurie will live to a ripe old age 💪
Laurie makes up a whole life story for Nurse Adrian, “bumpy tennis court […] a wire-haired terrier you couldn’t show” all based on her “schoolroom smile”. I write her as a repressed lesbian in one of my WIPs 😅😅😅
I love how Laurie gives Sandy a flirty smile out of pure boredom. He obviously delights in the expressing his queerness and in casually flirting with another man (as long as there are no social consequences for him)! Hilarious how he convinces himself later that he can live a chaste life. If Laurie had become a sailor like Ralph, he would absolutely go cruising in bars in foreign ports and pick up men with that dazzling smile of his. (Omg perhaps in an AU where it is Laurie who has an affair with Hazel and gets expelled….)
Also Laurie, just because you are masc4masc does not mean you can look down upon femme folks 😤😤😤
Poor Laurie crying under the covers after hearing Major Ferguson’s discussion with the visiting surgeon and understanding that he’ll be disabled forever: “Then he slipped down in bed […] soon he was able to blot his eyes on the sheet and come to the surface again” 😢
“You know, my father wasn’t faithful to my mother.” Thinking about Laurie’s abandonment trauma, and his tendency to abandon ppl before they can abandon him: Andrew prolly seemed like a “safe” choice because he seems to have no romantic prospects (he doesn’t even seem to have any close friends except Laurie). Meanwhile Ralph is popular in the queer community, he seems to have lots of romantic prospects, so Laurie felt like Ralph didn’t really need him for emotional & romantic fulfillment (until he read the suicide letter). After all, like Madge, he “was one of those that know what a man needs.”
Ugggghhhhh the book is so boring without Ralph 😩😩😩…..two more chapters to go….😫😫😫
“It was Nurse Adrian […] he felt at once that it was she all the time whom he had really wanted […] she had none of that awful knowingness; one could take one’s time with her, hesitate, and she would only be grateful.” She is innocent of queerness, has nice hands, fair hair, and BLUE eyes, and Laurie helps her with the washing up in the kitchen in the evening 👀. It’s a little sad how Laurie just replaces her with Andrew and abandons their budding friendship once he has found an equally innocent and Ralph-looking male version of her.
Also, I think the 1953 version of this chapter makes it more clear that Laurie feels very terrible and guilty about having killed people in the war. That is why he thinks it’ll be “embarrassing” to meet the C.O.s, whose hands are “clean” of blood. It is a crude metaphor, but both Laurie and Ralph have participated in both queerness and the killing, while Andrew has declared himself morally above acting upon queerness and killing Nazis. Although he “dirtied” his hands for a good cause, Laurie is feeling very down-beaten and guilty after Dunkirk, so it’s quite understandable that Andrew’s “clean” moral position seems quite aspirational and superior.
But I don’t find Andrew any more virtuous than the other characters in the novel. His moral “cleanliness” from standing above the violence is basically non-interference, doing nothing as people suffer. This doesn’t make him more virtuous or morally superior to those who were willing to get their hands dirty to take a stand against fascism. I think choosing pacifism when your country is under attack is really just choosing to escape into an illusion: the pacifist’s hands are clean indeed, but his boots are drenched in the blood of those who died because of his inaction.
Laurie and Andrew’s interactions are such fertile ground for finding Ralph/Laurie clues 🔎, like Andrew wearing a grey flannel shirt on the day Laurie first sees him. Ralph was also wearing grey flannel when they kissed in the study, on the last day Laurie saw him. And we later learn from the old photograph of Ralph that it was love at first with Andrew because Laurie recognized 19 year old Ralph in his appearance.
“The brush with Willis had fortified Laurie’s self-confidence.” Andrew’s social vulnerability and inexperience gives Laurie ample opportunity to provide protection and guidance. Like Ralph, he needs to be needed. He especially needs this ego-boost after losing both the war and his leg.
I know I’ve said this many times in the past, but I find it so telling that Laurie is jealous of the much older Dave for being Andrew’s mentor & father-figure, rather than any of the young Quakers, who’d make more reasonable romantic prospects for Andrew. He doesn’t want to be Andrew’s partner or equal, he wants to replace Dave as Andrew’s pederastic mentor.
In the 1953 edition I’m reading, Andrew whistles the Enchanter’s Theme from Swan Lake after Laurie mentions Tchaikovsky. The enchanter makes the protagonist mistake the black swan, the impersonator, for the white swan, his true love. Similarly here, Laurie does not realize that his sense of deja vu & love at first sight is because Andrew resembles Ralph, his true love.
The meeting with Andrew reminded me of that Twitter meme about how there are two kinds of ppl you’ll meet: those who are kind to you and those who are nice to you. Nice people are polite and considerate about all the little things, but unwilling to make any kind of personal sacrifice to help you when push comes to shove. Kind people may be a little blunt and severe when you first meet them, but genuinely care about your wellbeing and are willing to go through a lot of trouble to help you.
Laurie and Andrew are nice to each other, while Laurie and Ralph are kind to each other. Laurie will do anything for Ralph, once he knows what Ralph needs from him, but cannot ultimately bring himself to disavow his emotional truth & love for Ralph to let Andrew have his cake and eat it too. Ralph, however, is willing to sacrifice his dignity and happiness to give Laurie what he wants, while Andrew is unwilling to compromise his pride and moral dogmatism to understand and fulfill Laurie’s emotional needs.
Also, I will go into it in more detail once I get to chapter 15, but Andrew’s final letter to Laurie is rather rude and presumptuous. He thinks he can ask Laurie to disavow his love for Ralph and his own emotional truth, without offering Laurie anything in return, not even a continuation of their chaste friendship. Fuck off!
(This reminds me: I should write a fic where an older Laurie digs out Andrew’s letter from a box of his old things, reads it, and is like: “oh dear! I’m so glad he broke up with me. Saved me from so much future heartache. And now I have Ralph 🥰”)
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Cutie Pie Live Blogging
I was really looking forward to this before it aired because of the concept and how high budget it seemed. I know a bit about what happened in the first few episodes before I muted the hashtags related to the show and from the general comments I’ve seen, it seems like it takes a while for situations to like... change or progress. An episode would come out and the discussion around it would be like the same as the previous 3 episodes lol (maybe with some excitement for nsfw scenes though). I hope me binging will make that not as noticeable and that I end up really liking this. I remember everybody loving the first few episodes though, so maybe watching them will bring my own hype and excitement again.
Episode 1 (May 25)
1-1
I like Nuea and Diao’s friendship
Not to be shallow but to be shallow, how often does Zee wear suits in this? Suits do less than nothing for me, I just remember seeing a few gifsets of him in casual clothes in this show and I hope that happens often.
Oh yeah, the rebuke of this ad. Sets the tone for how kinda melodramatic the show will be (’and then everybody clapped’ vibes) but I’ll let it slide because like it’s a criticism of media punching down queer people. do wish they explicitly mentioned dark skin isn’t undesirable.
I like Kuea, as Kirin being all cool and also when he’s being snarky in his head while being Nu-Kuea
Couldn’t escape the reducing women to villains/boy-crazy trope huh? All these men and the only interactions with women thus far have been the 2 servers who were speaking about Lian (so Kuea had to be sassy to them) and the business partner who’s also clearly moves on Lian. like goddamn let girls live
1-2
someone kick Lian, why is he needlessly cruel?
I don’t get why the show tried to make the Annabelle comment funny? It happens during a sad scene bro
1-3 and 1-4
a secret House?!
Kuea and Diao are cute, once again
many flashbacks. tbh I don’t get the grandpa’s reasoning for this engagement lol
when this episode was released, i was surprised to learn that lian learns about kuea/kirin so early on
oh yeah, that dream sequence lol I just finished Cherry Blossoms After Winter and it had a similar scene to that too
Episode 2 (May 25)
2-1
Dude even Kuea’s voice sounds different when he’s with his friends vs his parents/Lian. His voice sounds to nasally when he’s speaking to Lian but it sounds much more pleasant to me when he’s speaking with school friends/Diao
Naur, Diao coming in to take care of Kuea and also the flashback to him taking over cooking from Kuea ummm they’re very cute together. The day we get two cute, soft boys as the couple in a BL... we get plenty of masc4masc couples, how about fem4fem or just softer characters
broooo Kuea literally beginning Diao to marry him instead, why can’t they get together fr
2-2
I remember people being confused about what Yi/Diao’s deal was and I too am confused about that.
So true Kuea, what is up with Yi and Diao? Why do they act to tough and mysterious? It’s just not my type
Bro, what’s up with the “doing it” conversation, how can you be 20 something and be so scandalized about just talking about sex. It’s one thing to be like I haven’t had sex/I don’t want to have sex/I’ll wait until marriage/etc but what’s up with being so blushy blushy about it
Why does Lian as so dang detached to Kuea goddamn. Like even if he’s unsure about Kuea’s feelings or wants to be better for Kuea, he’s so impersonal with him
Kuea and Diao are freaking cute
I like Foei lol
Zee has very pretty eyes and eyelashes
2-3
I do like that New can sing, so Kuea’s singing is fine + the lyrics and song break make sense with the story.
Kuea’s really endearing
No like fr what’s up with Yi/Diao. What’s their relationship
2-4
Not Diao crying his eyes out suddenly and Yi being unsure what to do. Did Yi kinda get teary eyed too?
Perth’s character’s “You know my Thai isn’t that good”
lmfao Perth’s character and Kuea interacting, then panning to Lian watching them
Kuea seeing Lian everywhere T.T but also not recognizing actual Lian lmfao
Dang what does Perth’s character Jay have with Lian? Maybe Lian has contact with him because he knew Kuea would perform as Kiring at Jay’s club? I suppose he’s actually the one Lian called when he was like “save my usual spot” at the club
Bruh how is Lian able to just take a drunk, protesting Kuea out of the club with no resistance from the other patrons?
Me *handshake* Lian being very endeared by Kuea and his confusion
Also, I was waiting for Lian to show up in these casual clothes, he looks attractive in them + his smile
Ayo that last scene </3 Kuea T.T
For that last car scene I was just thinking wow this is really well done but if I was reading a well-written and well-crafted novel/fic with this scene, it would’ve changed me
From the r/boys_love thread for ep 2, seems like they thought it was a let down from episode 1 but I think I enjoyed them the same amount. I didn’t find it to be too draggy, I liked the Kuea/Diao scenes and also part 4 with all the Lian/Kuea.
Also they spoke about how Lian maybe has sat at that table and watched Kuea as Kirin previously and that’s sooooo cute actually.
Should I go through the people I follow’s cutie pie tags from when this episode was released to look through them? I kinda want to but I kinda wanna watch ep 3 too. hmm maybe I’ll just go through like 2-3 blogs.
Episode 3 (May 25)
3-1
At first I was like aww Lian wiping away Kuea’s tears but now this kissing scene has been going on for too long like why do we need a minute of them making out like that when it’s supposed to be heartbreaking lol
What’s interesting is that the whole plot is that Lian doesn’t know the real Kuea but also, we see that Kuea doesn’t know Lian all that well either. Keeps thinking the Lian he’s met is sooo different from his Hia Lian that it can’t be him at all, doesn’t know how Lian wants to kiss him and that he loves him, doesn’t know why Lian acts the way he does etc.
Glimpses of Kuea’s engagement ring is so <333
Will they not show us the aftermath of Yi/Diao’s scene? I think I read that apparently Diao was pretending to cry to get Yi off his back and idk how I feel about that, so I hope they show it soon
3-2
This is kinda funny and cute but also I’m like uhhh your relationship is on the verge of falling apart, is this the time for such fun
Wtf, I kinda find Mat or his character Yi cute in this scene
Getting to see the other best friends Yi and Lian spend time together is fun
Wait so the maid takes days off when she’s not supposed to but what does the mom not like about praying to the deities behind their house and what’s writing numbers on paper about? Maybe I’ll find some post that explains it
Okay, we get the confirmation that Lian’s doing all this to prove himself worthy of marrying Kuea but damn even his dad was like hey, talk to Kuea about your plans
3-3
Bro Jay’s caping for Lian so hard, why?
3-4
Kuea and Diao are freaking cute bro they’re so cute with Kuea’s sorry for making Yi lose and make up lunch date and the sandwiches Diao prepared for Kuea
Oh, I thought this Nuer kid had a different love interest but I guess he starts off liking Kuea
But why did Diao lie?! It’d be easy to say he’ll be grabbing food with Kuea
I don’t like how authoritative Lian is. Him tryna order Kuea is annoying
No but like I really don’t get what Lian’s plan is. I know he wants Kuea to live with him and I’d guess he wants Kuea to come clean about who he is but how are those correlated? In the preview for next episode, he tells Foei to make the house so nice that Kuea never wants to leave, which makes no sense like why would he want that? I don’t get it man.
Episode 4 (May 26)
4-1
The tone of this show really does throw me off like it’s serious but it’s silly
I really do have to turn my brain off to watch this because how are Kuea’s mom and fiance forcing him to live with his fiance even though he doesn’t want to agh
I think Lian and I both like it when Kuea has enough of Lian’s looming and just stands up and says what he wants lol. That one part where Kuea was actually the one moving forward while speaking and Lian was the one moving backwards
aw, does Kuea refer to himself and Qilin’s papa? a motorcycle dad
4-2
It’s funny how confident Lian and Yi each are about their standing in their own romantic relationships while being completely wrong
4-3
Killing me how people have been dying to know what Yi/Diao’s relationship is for the past 3 episodes while apparently Lian doesn’t even know despite being good friends with Yi lol
Kuea making the two stuffed animals have a conversation as him and Lian, cuteee
4-4
lol watching the car scene with Kuea silently crying while Lian ignores it just made I Knew You Were Trouble pop up in my mind “ No apologies / He'll never see you cry / Pretends he doesn't know / That he's the reason why / You're drowning”
girl what kinda blackbeard “don’t ever go to that room” vibes? He probably doesn’t have human bodies in there but rather something for Kuea because he knows Kuea’ll disobey? Maybe just something cute or like a Kirin memento to show that he knows it all actually?
Lian’s so annoying, what’s up with the “we’ll share a room” give Kuea choices or I’ll kick you
Like here’s the thinggggg it could be a good and fun game Lian’s playing if it didn’t hurt Kuea this bad. Tell him you love him and continue to play this game. You could even be like “hmm I think I kinda like you but maybe we should live together to see it blossom to love before we get properly engaged?” and we’d get the cohabitation but happier and it wouldn’t hurt so bad and we’d still have the conflicts of “I like Lian more than he likes me” and “I’m hiding secrets from Lian” and “Kuea’s not telling me everything”
Also it’s beyond me how Kuea thinks Lian doesn’t know everything despite everything literally being on Youtube and also Lian stating he knows everything.
Episode 5 (May 26)
5-1
Okayy they don’t have to actually share rooms
bold Kuea is always great, so he does still get shy or comply
loll Kuea also being tired of Lian putting his face so close and them just walking back and forth with mostly Lian looming
“A housewarming present ~From Hia” is actually really cute lol. A drumset that you know he’ll like behind a door you told him not to go to but you know he won’t listen.
The CCTV observing isn’t as cute though lol
5-2
The music that plays when Diao’s apologizing to Yi is the same was ep 5 part 4 in Bad Buddy after the fight, I’m pretty sure. That little episode was sooo much better than this, I wish they used a different song lol
Okay like Yi really doesn’t do anything to Diao or really even yell at him, so I’m confused why Diao doesn’t just tell him the truth about where he goes/what he does. If he doesn’t want to tell him at all, why doesn’t he communicate that?
5-3
Kuea thinking he’s tricking Lian but he’s actually the one being tricked ! cute
lmfao “Kuea, maybe telling the truth isn’t all that bad” - Diao
Oh, Kuea’s singing the Tilly Bird song Just Being Friendly, which is fair enough but I also associate this song with Bad Buddy lol I do like this performance though because listening to the other people in the club singing is also freaking fun. Makes it more dynamic
What exactly does Kuea do that’s “naughty” except lying?
5-4
Lian knowing Kuea doesn’t eat ginger and so giving him the bowl without it before Kuea even says anything... murder attempt against Feu, I really nearly died, love shown through food >>>>>, arrow straight to the heart etc
Anyway, Zee in casual clothes for the 2nd time
The cheek kiss + susunakrab + Foei combo is entertaining and cute
bro I hope the Nuer/Kuea scenes end soon lol The scenes with his other friends are fine
Episode 6 (May 26)
6-1
Is Foei’s actor in other shows? I might give them a try too, he’s entertaining
Buying the Keerati mansion? Why would Lian buy the mansion
Syn’s adorable lol so earnest
6-2
The friends pretending to be prim and proper computer engineers is killing me. Not all the humour of this show works with me (esp when I think it should be a more serious scene) but this one does
do I care about Yi/Diao...
6-3
The Ai’Hia! is great
It just makes me :< because Kuea feels trapped and like he can’t do what he wants while Lian’s giggling by himself, thinking this is just a fun game
6-4
Rip getting mistaken to be brothers while on an awkward ass date to begin with
Kuea talking more and more casually with Lian even by accident is sooo cute and Lian’s slighted face
Their little talk in the garden was sweet. They’re both trying but still, the secrets :<
Why can’t they kiss while Kuea’s not crying about his insecurities and about Lian not loving him
ngl I did skip a few times because the kissing lasts so long but I really liked how Kuea was atop the counter and Lian having to look up at him. Also Lian kissing his shoulders and jaw
In the BL Babes podcast, they mentioned in the book reason Lian wants to be partners with Gemini in ep 4 or smth is because Gemini isn’t booming except on days when Kirin performs. He wants to make sure it doesn’t close because of the lack of profits on other days so that Kuea will have Gemini to come back to whenever he wants. That is soooo cute bro >.< Much better than the kinda possessive vibes in the show because it doesn’t explain his reasoning at all
Episode 7 (May 26)
7-1
They show the whole make out scene again? I didn’t rewatch most of it but I do think the rings on their fingers is attractive
Oh yeah +1 Lian’s casual clothes counter: 3
7-2
Tbh we don’t know anything about Lian, it’s either his official self or stuff he’s doing to impress Kuea, so this dancing goofy thing is probably one of the only truly Lian bits we’ve seen, along with the cooking
I don’t really understand Yi and Diao but I stopped caring and wanting to tbh. Skipped most of their kiss scene too
At least Kuea and Diao don’t seem to be shying away from the kisses and seem to be fairly bold, which I like
7-3
Destabilized Nuer after the eye contact with Syn is interesting
Boun is sooo attractive.
7-4
Queer rights speech!
Girl, this Never Have I Ever at the club with the owner of the club while you’re late 20s? Funny writing choice to get Kuea to reveal things
Bruh whyyy would Lian say “Never Have I Kissed A Stranger” with the intention of making Kuea drink bc he thinks Lian that night was a stranger ?! alksdfj doesn’t that make them look bad because Kuea’s been engaged to Lian since forever ?!
What is this declaration in public in front of their friends and if Lian has always loved him, then why did he say he didn’t in the first episode?
Anyway, as always, I like Kuea taking the initiative and being bold after Lian pulls away but I’m still fastforwarding the long ass kiss, so rip the friends who have to just... sit there. They seemed to like it though, BounPrem’s characters are cute.
I think my method of having as little critical thought as possible while watching this is the best way because the character motivations is not the writer’s strongest suit lol. I think they had some quite cute moments this episode and that’ll tide me over.
Also, I haven’t watched anything with BounPrem except this and some tiktoks but Boun is seriously sooo gorgeous to me.
Episode 8 (May 26)
8-1
“I didn’t want to say [I love you] carelessly” but you said the opposite... said he didn’t love Kuea and that marriage doesn’t need love and they could live apart... I feel like they wanted the beginning to be SO DRAMATIC that it doesn’t align with the character or what he’s been saying since then
Here’s how I feel about this sex scene: I will not be watching all that but good for you. In between my fast forwarding, seems like the characters both really desired it and had fun and good for them. I am who I am so I liked seeing Kuea above Lian and kissing all over him. Also, as always, the glimpses of their rings is so good; like I’m not even into marriage like that but I guess it’s different when it’s gay
8-2
Lian puffing out his cheek for a kiss and the sniff kiss attack was cute
8-3
Nuer’s so sleek with the calling and then sniffing him
Foei’s first thought being like “oh I should punch him” “oh I should burn this” when Lian means much more mundane things by “sort out” is hilarious
I was kinda spoiled that in the novel Lian’s buying stuff because the Keerati family is going through tough times and he’s helping them out, so I’m not super suspicious of him even though he’s buying behaviour is suspicious
The Yi/Diao date would’ve been cuter if I cared about them at all. I’m more into the 3rd Nuer/Syn couple than them
8-4
What I don’t get is why does Kuea keep still worrying about whether Lian will like the real him when he knows that Lian was the one he kissed that night? So Lian knows he’s Kirin
Kuea and Diao are good as always, it’s just Yi/Diao is hard to care about
Kuea and Lian dinner meeting was so cute and domestic
Episode 9 (May 27)
9-1
Bro, Lian talking about how he wasn’t born rich and had to work as a kid etc is literally reminding me of immigrant parents’ stories to their children like why does it seem to fatherly i’m dead
9-2
Lian casual clothes counter +2: 5
Why did that scene speaking about queer rights need to be in the bathtub lol
woahh Kuea coming down with his Automotive Engineering shirt and earring on
Feoi!
9-3
Honestly Nuer and Syn are kinda cutee. Their scenes are kinda not NuerSyn scenes cuz Nuer still looks at Kuea sometimes but then Syn looks at Nuer and it is, in fact, a NuerSyn scene
9-4
I don’t care about Yi and Diao anymore bruh let their scenes end I want more of Kuea being Kirin and how the main couple will deal with that. I wanna see Lian’s reaction and stuff man
Like that’s the main conflict of the story right, Kuea’s hiding something and doesn’t know how Lian would react. Shouldn’t they tie that up properly soon
Oof, Kuea found all the documents where Lian’s taking over the Keerati family properties
Episode 10 (May 27)
10-1
Why did Yi buy Diao a dog while thinking he might be scared of them tf
Kuea’s gonna pay for food and delivery at the Pentagon? Why do they even do delivery, it’s a club. Maybe delivery works differently in Thailand
Yeah Kuea call your mom! Get her to tell you why all the deeds are in Lian’s name since she and your dad would’ve had to sign off on it! I don’t get why they didn’t explain it to Kuea from the start like lasdf
Dang, Kuea waiting for Lian to explain the documents on his own. It’s kinda like a reversal of how Lian was waiting for Kuea to tell him about Kirin/the house/racing/etc.
10-2
Girl, he saw you in your automotive engineering uniform lmfao
No but why are Syn and Nuer so cute to me. Everyone talks about being bored of the engineering guys falling for each other but I guess I’m not
Ooh, boundary setting between friends when Kuea tells his friend to stop joking about ~hot night with the fiancé~. Interesting to see
rip Kuea crying. I know in ep 11 Kuea rejects Lian’s public proposal and I guess that’s because this still hasn’t been cleared up by then?
10-3
No but for real though why did nobody tell Kuea anything?
Why am I :D watching the NuerSyn scene?
This Yi/Diao scene was cuter than the last few
10-4
The love confession from Yi was... okay, though we still don’t know what he was originally gonna tell Diao. I fully skipped the nsfw scene though. Not even fast forwarding here and there the way I did for Lian/Kuea but just full skip forward because why are you wasting time showing this right now, there are 2 episodes left agh
Okayyy Kuea’s finalllyyyyyy calling his mom. I hope his mom actually tells him everything
lol I just went and rewatched the NuerSyn scene from 10-3 because it was cute ! Sitting beside each other and the knee hold was cute ! I only care about them and Kuea/Diao friendship tbh (+ some Kuea/friends)
Episode 11 (May 27)
I’m like... dreading watching this lol I was kinda bored during ep 10 and I know there’s a rejection of a public proposal in this ep like what if I just skip this ep and go to ep 12 lol but I won’t
11-1
So the call cleared up nothing
These supposedly cute scenes between KueaLian like ep 10 “be my boyfriend” and the happy scene here are like... not happy because we know Kuea’s just pretending and like agh. Reminds me of Dark Blue Kiss PeteKao where I wasn’t having a fun time during cute moments because of all the secrets
Why doesn’t he ask Liannnnnnn or why didn’t he tell his mom what he saw? Get an actual explanation instead of being haunted by those documents and decide to pretend they don’t exist and everything’s fine. Not to mention I still haven’t gotten a satisfying enough conclusion to the Kirin/Kuea’s secret identity arc because they still haven’t addressed it. Kuea still thinks Lian believes he’s in Computer Engineering for fuck’s sake.
Nuchy’s hardly there but at least she got to kick Ton’s ass about “are you annoyed because you’re on your period?” bs
No like why is it that this show is supposed to be new and have unique dynamics but it’s fucking up with the writing so bad that the engineering students’ antics + the 3rd couple engineering students are my favourite parts. Syn’s “I don’t usually go to places like that but if you go, I'll go too” > KueaLian and YiDiao’s sexy times where they’re hiding things from each other or being annoying.
11-2
Foei kills me every time alksjf Drops the apple pen or whatever and is like “Khun Lian krab, could you get that?” alskdjf At least when he said it about the paper a few episodes ago the paper was actually on Lian’s side of the table.
Yes! I was hoping we’d get another Lian with Kuea’s friends scene
aaaakkkkk. How do I feel about that? First the accidental kiss lol cringe but Nuer made it better with the “That wasn’t a kiss, this is a kiss” and kissing Syn properly buttttt why is it with all their friends just staring bruh? This show freaking loves PDA with an enraptured audience but it’s so awkward. I like how when Nuer pulled back, Syn stumbled a little chasing his lips.
Diao’s curfew being 9pm kills me because even I’m allowed to stay out till 11/12
11-3
I truly don’t get it, so Kuea still thinks Lian doesn’t know he’s Kirin even though Lian admitted to being that person that night? Or is Kuea like maybe Lian didn’t know what he was saying yes to
Okay, so they do discuss the land deeds documents here.
“Why didn’t you ask me when you same them?” Yeah bro, Kuea should’ve just been like hey what’s this?
So Lian’s gonna propose publicly after this whole ordeal?
Alright, I’ll watch the last part and ep 12 tomorrow lol I can’t watch the rest rn
11-4
Girl I don’t wanna watch this lol A public proposal is cringe enough but one where mans is rejected ?! Nope.
Yeah I don’t get how we’re at last part for episode 11 and still Kuea doesn’t straight up tell everything to Lian and act like himself around him, rather much more polite and soft.
I’ve been watching most of this 4th part but especially since Lian started singing as watching 1 second, fast forwarding 5 secs, watching 1 sec, fast forward 5 secs
It’s such an awkward place to do propose brother. At Lian’s father’s very grand 60th birthday party where Kuea knows and is comfortable with like 2 people total. Also, the guests are like... business people too I’m assuming? Lian was just gassed up and introduced as the new CEO or whatever, taking his dad’s place in everything, and then gets publicly rejected? Gosh lol
“It’s better if we don’t” omg
Anyway, skip skip skip I can’t watch this. Saw some glimpses of tears and walking away. Like I’m not even invested enough in the relationship or characters for this to be like painful or sad for me, just anxious and embarrassing.
This comment under the part 4 video by Made In Busan kinda summed up all my thoughts: “This was hard to watch but expected. They lied to each other throughout the whole relationship. The only truth they ever told each other is that they love each other but everything else was an unnecessary lie. And like Kuea said in episode 9: "love is not just about the two of us, there are many factors involved". As a kid, Lian felt insecure about not being good enough because he was just an ice delivery boy and Kuea was from a wealthy family. As an adult, Kuea lied about his studies and his singing career because he felt that he was not fancy enough for serious, businessman Lian. Lian lies to Kuea about his family property and does stuff behind his back without telling him about any of it. At least the lies that Kuea told don't really affect Lian's life, whereas Lian keeping the Keerati property thing from him is a big deal that is tied to Kuea's inheritance and wealth. It's a mess and it's true that this is not how a relationship should be so it's expected that Kuea doesn't feel comfortable being engaged to him anymore. He just wants to be his equal and for them to be honest with each other. I totally understand him but I also wish I didn't have to see Lian cry in front of all his family and friends. I'm heartbroken for both of them. I hate public proposals LOL”
I wish the show just had better writing and character development lol. Like I don’t get how in ep 2 or something Kuea called off his engagement because he was upset and wanted to show everybody who he was and then in freaking episode 11 he feels guilty for keeping secrets and not showing the real him and so he rejects the proposal.
Anyway, I’m not even that annoyed or upset because I knew it was gonna happen and the writing has been bad the whole show and I’m not invested enough, my feelings are mostly bored and yikes!
Episode 12 (May 28)
People said episode 12 is a much better ending than expected considering where episode 11 left off, so that’s good at least
12-1
Doing all this in front of the guests, my gosh. This shit is the reason my mom is always like “pray we return with all our man-shomman (honour-respect)” before we go anywhere lmfao
12-2
Like, couldn’t the episode 11 dramatic falling out be a little less dramatic? Because it’s being wrapped up easily and quickly here compared to how big I’d think the actual ramifications would be
Anyway, this show could’ve been so much better if this conversation of them discussing Kuea’s alternate identity was discussed a few episodes into the show and we got to see them fall in love as their true selves.
The Yi/Diao conclusion didn’t flesh out anything at all lol but it’s fine sure
12-3
Bro Syn and Nuer are sooo like average and common, so why do I find them cute >.< like they’re any and every side BL couple, so I’m not like super invested or anything, it’s just I like them the most out of the 3 I guess? Or maybe tied with KueaLian
loll Feoi with Yi’s personal assistant?
I wonder how this show is affecting the viewers’ thoughts of gay marriage. There must be people out of the millions who are watching who don’t support legalization of gay marriage and I wonder if this’ll sway them?
12-4
We get to see Kuea be more forward and open with Lian but why must it be sooo late in the show man
Lian continually thwarting Kuea’s plans to propose ?! lol
Kuea kissing Diao’s cheek and him getting getting shy haha
I know Lian’s pulling a little joke but just the thought of this couple having a second public proposal go horribly wrong is like aging me by 10 years. Had to pause and do some other stuff lol
Foei’s greatt
Me skipping the long ass confessions and marriage stuff because I really cannot handle that many sappy words. This show’s really pushing for marriage legality rights though and I really am curious to see if it has any irl effects (not that I’ll really be able to tell) and whether other shows will take a stance like this too. Like this show managed to say “yeah, sadly we don’t have all the rights” without veering off into depressing queer territory, so maybe other BLs might? I’d be curious to see
It’s true, the last episode is quite good. Wish some of this happened earlier so that we could’ve actually seen Kuea and Lian be themselves around each other without secrets. Throughout the show, Kuea flip-flopped so much between being forward or rebellious against Lian or being obedient and ”good”.
So much of this show felt... filler and repetitive because the overarching plot wasn’t really moving. Wish it was 10 episodes, the Kuea/Kirin stuff was wrapped up in the first few episodes, we get to see them falling in love and we can have some small internal drama here too, maybe the land deeds drama, and finally 1 external drama in episode 9 that causes conflict but we still get to see that they love each other and will fight for each other, etc. Instead, the same thing was dragged on and on and on.
Didn’t like Yi/Diao because their relationship wasn’t explained well and didn’t have much draw. I don’t like love interests like Lian and Yi, so there’s that - the actors are both quite beautiful though but still not enough to make me like the characters. Like Diao and Kuea’s friendship, as well as Lian and Yi’s. I liked Kuea’s friendship with his classmates too and how they interacted with each other, both looking out for one another but also being forthright when they didn’t like another’s behaviour. I liked Foei.
I think people really liked the makeout and nsfw scenes because apparently they had great chemistry and ease but I skipped through pretty much all of them, so that wasn’t a draw for me. I have to like the characters and be invested in the relationship to really like the more physically intimate scenes (exception: Y-Destiny Puth and Kaeng) but I didn’t like either couple like that.
Astonishing that this show was supposed to give me some uniqueness, some new dynamics and characters and plot and setting, etc. Instead, I thought the engineering friend group was endearing and NuerSyn’s few scenes were the cutest even though it was sooo typical. Although, I did end up skipping through their kissing scene too.
I was impressed by New and his acting, so I hope he does well in his next series too.
My overall feelings about this series is: mild annoyance and mile boredom and mild enjoyment.
Rating: 5.5/10
Tiktoks
Saved this before I watched the show and while I still had hope that it’d be good lol it’s from ep 1 while Kuea was waiting for Lian to be finished and played the airdrums to Lian looking on with “I love everything you do~” in the bg
this random NuerSyn (TutorYim) parallels to UWMA WinTeam (BounPrem)
“Hia?” “Khap”
Lian imitating what Kuea looks like when he’s mad
random video of Tutor “being jealous” of Yim with NetJames but actually I saved it because Yim just kept getting mandled by everyone
NuerSyn kiss in the club
Nuer and Syn looking over the project together and then the knees thing
umm look away, TutorYim dowry price negotiation @ the fans
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