guys I wanna get a tattoo so bad

i think im just gonna start blocking people that engage in flowey age discourse <3 im not in the fandom for petty drama about nothing im here for analysis and art and its really irritating to be looking for art and all there is is arguments. i love uty dearly but the sudden uptick in pointless arguments regarding floweys character is infuriating. why can't we talk about how well hes written and that hes an extremely good example of ptsd why must we argue. if u disagree with something block and move on dont act like children

a sneak peek for an upcoming (timeline tbd) update 😊

…ok so I got inspired <3

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Thesis in the tags

Friend is talking to me about the ghosting situation of our mutual friend- saying "these are some of the phrases I drop in the chat when I feel I'm being ghosted"

And wanting to say "no, I don't want to be petty, I just-" when one of the vaguer, one word ones catches my eye and I remember he randomly dropped that in our chat later last year right as I was about to respond to him

I had been out all day, just gotten home and was about to start mass responding to everyone who'd sent me messages that day, and if my memory serves correctly, the group server was popping off, so I made the mistake(?) of responding to that first and in the time between me getting distracted right before responding to him, he had said "damn"

So I asked him "everything alright? Sorry I've been out most of today" and he'd responded "nah, just some headassery on my part" or something of the sort and I never understood it

Until now lmao.

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Is my discomfort with my boobs gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, or just a general discomfort with the sensations of having a human body that comes with possible neurodivergency

girl help my mother has achieved what she couldnt achieve in 23 yrs (give me an ED)

Sigh

I miss my husband tails

I miss her a lot

I’ll be back

earlier tonight my roommates were talking about the halloween party they're planning in a couple weeks (i will be out of town) and since the convo went towards "party supplies needing to be purchased" one of my roommates mentioned that she had the present she's planning on getting me for my birthday in her digital shopping cart already and then made a little mischievous face at me. and like it's sweet i suppose but my idea of "celebrating" my birthday is basically acting like it doesn't exist cause i'm kind of...uncomfortable with receiving Direct Praise And Attention especially for things i don't think are worth it (for example, Existing Another Year). at any rate my idea of the perfect gift this year would be Not being stuck in rehearsal until 10pm that night but that will certainly not be the case so whatever

i had a fun day 2 day ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა everyone has been so nicey 2 me all day from the minute i left my house earlier ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა ♡⁠

i went to a Retreat for the first time for work earlier 0: and I did SO good for being up since 2am it didn't even feel like it 💀

it was so chill i drove like an hour away but Away from the city so there wasn't rly traffic and the mountains r so pretty 2 drive thru (❁´◡`❁) got some rain n v low clouds and since it's autumn there's all these pretty colors. i took an edible on the way n was just jammin out n enjoying the scenery among the many safe opportunities 2 look

and then at the thing we got 2 do different ice breakers n go on decently long breaks; i got 2 hang in different groups n actually Talk w a bunch of ppl which i never have time for omg. it's nice working at a legal nonprofit, i would NOT want to do this with corporate mfs !! 😹

went around n said hii to the enbies and i ran up a hill that looked a lot smaller than it was, i made it like 80% of the way before my legs were immediately like no girl we're done !! but my brain was like but it's Right There, and i struggled 2 finish the climb but I Did !! ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა and i was so so tired i do not remember ever being that winded before 💀 getting down was so much slower n worse bc my legs were Done and when i finally made it to the bottom i laid flat on my back for like 15m, and when when i made it back to sit n chill i still need like 10 more minutes akskska. i do not b exercising !! i just wanted 2 play it looked fun and i got excited (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠)

in between things i was working on my sister's choker n kept winding up w a group of ppl around me 2 talk to about it and just talk 2 in general n the company was rly nice (❁´◡`❁) ♡ had a lot of different kinda talks 2day!! everyone is a sweetie!! some ppl r so funny n chill and i rly hope 2 get 2 talk more casually w people perhaps As Friends when i go in 👉👈

there's one girl in particular who is rly cute n sweet and i want 2 see her again ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა when I got home finally i had 2 hop on my work laptop real quick 2 look up her name again 2 make sure i didn't forget ☝️😌 we do not work at the same office but hii i am visiting next week 🐇

yippee!!!! ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა !!!

I wanna shave Bakugous face for him ☹️

IIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE yeah. Idek know what to say, really. How to begin w/ this.

I feel like... shaving for him isn't just a razor and cream type moment but rather... a sharpened blade and unscented soap one. He has a whole... routine and special kit, and when you first start dating, it's kind of a surprise to see given that... he never really talks about it. Tho... why would he really, cuz it's mundane to him, you know? Something he's been doing for a while.

But like... i feel like.................. there's probably a lot of days in your relationship where you don't see each other all that much because of work... so maybe the only time you can really be w/ each other is in the morning before he leaves? Which is why you'll sometimes make a point to just sit w/ him in the bathroom while he gets ready (even if it is like. asscrack am)...

So his shaving routine ends up being something that he teaches you that way. Or maybe you just pick it up on your own by watching and ask to help w/ it eventually... and he actually really enjoys it; a rare treat for him on his few days off from work a month, when he can sleep in and you can go slow and take your time.

it honestly probably becomes a little... ritual, of sorts. Bonding. Something he looks forward to. Esp when you rub aftershave on him all gently and go around smelling like him for a while after.

Oh and maybe on vacations or holidays, too, when he doesn't have to be in work for a couple days, he lets his scruff grow out a bit so you can shave it in the evening sometime. He definitely gets all sleepy as you do it... and it's berry CUTE to watch him try to stay awake for it all!!!

(What a sign of trust tho, just in general, to let you hold and direct his face w/o fear of getting hurt.)

anyway. You guys end up the old couple that has a weekly day for it and everyone is jealous of you. What if i cry myself to sleep?

my mom keeps telling me that things keep getting messy between her and my dad because of me leaving and that he's saying the reason i left is because of what happens between them and that im never coming back and if i do it'll never be the same and its like sigh. the reason i wanted to leave was just because of him. i wanted to finally be in a space where i didnt feel like i had to walk on eggshells all the time. its lonely but i can finally just exist like my paranoia has been nearly nonexistent since leaving

cut my hair just above my shoulders today and discovered that i have a cowlick (or two maybe idr) that makes my hair way thicker on one side than the other

which makes sense but it's also kinda infuriating cuz the last time i cut it was the first time i've ever had short hair and it felt like it was so uneven i was losing my mind

dear tumblr users... how do you talk about your ocs without feeling like A Dumb Piece of Shit Loser

fathers day is this month how am i going to inflict psychic damage on myself