#all i can do is classes bc i'm terrified to go alone and i'm in a new gym bc i went back to my hometown :(((
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if i beat my gym anxiety this year i will literally be unstoppable
#all i can do is classes bc i'm terrified to go alone and i'm in a new gym bc i went back to my hometown :(((#i wanna just go run on the threadmill tomorrow and i'm still shitting myself lmao#and weightlifting?? nah i'm terrified. i wanna do it so bad but i'm genuinely scared shitless#as soon as i see those jacked up dudes in the weights section i wanna run for the hills#yes i know no one cares. yes i know there are tutorials. i'm still too scared#it's frustrating bc i just feel that there's a straight#male inside me with anger issues whose only fixture is lifting weights jfkdghkdf#AND I WANNA UNLEASH HIM!! + i haven't been the same since megan said 'when i'm in the gym thinking of all the bitches that i'm shitting on'#i even had a pt at one time for a bit but she made me do mostly cardio so i don't know how tf to use any machines 😭#imma start hairstyling classes soon and i just wanna have a lil routine go to the gym in the morning do my classes and that's it#.txt
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Professor!reader and severus being married but hiding it from the students, bc they dont want the gossip and are just private people in general BUT one day sev forgets to take off his wedding ring and the golden trio go on this whole mission to find out who hes married to; completely freaking out when it turns out hes with reader cause theyre complete opposites while teaching
(Sorry if this is too long or doesnt make sense :^ i had this scenario in my head for some time lol)
Secret Lovers
Severus Snape x Professor! Reader
Warnings: use of the name "git" a lot lol, reader is the astronomy teacher but you can swap it out for any class, Snape smacks Ron and Harry
A/N: I LOVE THIS REQUEST SO MUCH OMG!?!?!?! also this isnt really set in any specific year but its more leaning towards where theyre older since snape you know.. hits ron and harry over the head and harry has the map <3
You and Severus had managed to keep your relationship secret for a couple years now, with the exception of only Minerva and Dumbledore knowing.
Why does anyone else need to know anyway? It was none of their business!
So one regular morning when you and Sev were getting ready for the day in the early hours of the morning, he had somehow forgotten to take his golden band off. You both would usually keep them in a little ring box at home so they were hidden but safe and put them back on at night, but today Severus had just forgotten to take it off.
You would bid your goodbyes at home before you left together, getting one last kiss in before heading back to Hogwarts, then Severus would put his usual cold face back on.
You both headed to your classrooms like normal, Severus still failing to notice the wedding band still on his finger.
When classes started, everything was going how it usually would: he would deduct house points, snapping at kids whenever they would interrupt his teaching, etc. That is until Hermione noticed a particular shine off her teachers hand.
Hermione looked closer before very quietly gasping. "Holy cricket!" She whispered so only Harry and Ron could hear her.
“What?” Ron asked curiously but not very quietly, earning the attention of Severus.
“On Professor Snape’s hand, he was wearing a wedding ring!” She said in a hushed voice.
“You must be crazy Herminone, there's no way that he’s married to someone.” Harry chuckled.
“Yeah, no ones gonna want to let alone be in any relationship with that old git-” Ron was interrupted by getting smacked over the head by Severus, followed up by Harry getting smacked as well.
Hermione just kept quiet, keeping her giggle to herself.
“Would you mind repeating yourself Mr. Weasley?” Severus sneered down at him.
“...no, sorry.” Ron grumbled.
“Mhm. 5 points from Gryffindor, and that's me being generous.”
After class, Ron, Hermione, and Harry all gathered at the library at break. “Are you sure you saw a ring, Hermione? Was it even on his ring finger?” Harry asked as he sat down some books in front of him.
“I'm certain! The real question is though, to who?” Hermione thought for a minute.
“Harry, why can't we just use your cloak to spy on him?” Ron questioned like it was obvious.
“Brilliant!” Harry exclaimed but Hermione smacked him in the arm.
“That's invading his privacy! It's terribly rude.” She scoffed.
Ron then mocked her, earning a smack. After a while of begs and pleas, she finally caved.
“Alright, alright!” She sighed.
They then all made their way back to the dorm to get everything they needed. Harry also grabbed the Marauders Map so it would be easier to find Snape. And then off they went on their little adventure to hunt down his wife.
They had to do some weaving and dodging to not bump into anyone (they bumped into Neville at some point, terrifying him) until they made it to the staff room. Harry looked down at his map to find Snape and you, they're astronomy teacher, alone.
“What are Professor Snape and Professor y/n doing together?” Ron asked in a confused voice.
Harry hushed him and then looked into the keyhole to find Snape and you talking to eachother.
“Are you sure no one saw the ring?” you asked again.
“Yes, dear, I am sure of it.” Snape said in a somewhat annoyed tone. “If someone did see it, I would be getting hounded with questions!”
“Yeah well not if all the students are terrified of you!” you sighed. “Look I'm not mad, I don't want you to think that, it's just we've gone this long keeping it secret it feels weird to just slip up like this”
Severus stepped towards you and grabbed your face in his hands. “Listen love, no one will know. Maybe in the future we can be more open about it.” He then bent down and kissed her gently, and you wrapped your arms around his neck pulling him closer.
Harry gasped quietly and backed up. He was about to say something before he heard footsteps walking towards the door. “We gotta get outta here!”
They all then scurried off down the hall back to the dormitory.
“Harry, what did you see? What were they doing in there?” Ron asked.
“Its professor y/n, that's who he's married to!” Harry was slightly out of breath from running.
“Professor y/n?? But they're so.. so different!” Hermione was shocked.
“You must be seeing things mate, there's NO way Proffesor y/n is married to the old git.” Ron scoffed.
“I'm telling you! They were talking about how he had forgotten to take his ring off or something and then they kissed!” Harry gushed.
They then talked about why you would ever want to marry Snape for the rest of break. Interestingly enough they next class was with you!
Since you were an extremely nice and open teacher, they felt more comfortable talking to you about it.
"So professor y/n, have you been seeing anyone lately?" Ron asked before class actually started.
You were caught off guard to say the least. "Well... I dont really see how my romantic life concerns any of you," you laugh whole heartedly.
Ron then smirked. "You never denied it. Perhaps another Proffesor that teaches here!" Hermione pinched his side as a warning to shut up.
"I don't know what your getting at, Ron" you chuckle becoming a little worried.
"Well the man I'm thinking of is a mean, old, cranky git that likes potions-"
"Thats enough! You don't ever talk about another Proffesor like that!" You scolded him.
"Alright, sorry proffesor... but im right, aren't i?" Ron smirked.
Harry and Hermione perked up to listen.
You sighed, before making sure that no other student or teacher was around, nd then said "You must not tell anyone."
#severus snape x reader#pro snape#professor snape#severus snape#snape#snape fandom#snapedom#snape x you#snape x reader#snape x y/n#severus x you#severus x reader#severus x y/n
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Didn't you want this, Cara Mia? (part 2)
(Wednesday Addams x fem! Sinclair! reader)
Summary: You are now back to Nevermore after you completely recovered form your fight, and try to spend some time with your girlfriend Wednesday..
Part 1 || Part 2
Warnings: mention of scars (bc of the fight), fluff with our beloved Wednesday <3
(English isn't my first language, I'm sorry if there are mistakes or if something doesn't make sense TvT)
A month had passed since you fought the monster. You were back at Nevermore, and everyone wanted to know what happened that night. You were surrounded by people all the time. In between classes, at lunch, in the library, ... Everywhere you went, you were asked the same questions all over again.
Wednesday wasn't too happy about that. You were so busy answering everyone's questions you didn't have time to spend with her. She missed you. She missed your laugh, your voice and your lips. She missed the way you looked at her. That look only her could see.
And there was always this girl, way too close to you. Always being so touchy, hands wandering here and there, on your arm, or brushing her fingers over the scars on your jaw. She was flirting with you. And you were totally oblivious about it.
She wasn't mad at you, you were kind and didn't want to hurt anyone by saying something a little too harshly. She respected that, even if she had difficulties understanding it.
No, she was mad at her. So mad.
How dared she flirt with you so openly when you were taken? When you were hers?
"Come on Y/n, tell us again what happened!" she begged you, getting closer to your face
"Haven't I told you like 10 times already? A-and can you back off please..? My girlfriend-"
"What do you mean? I'm good here.." she put a hand on your thigh, invading your personal space a little too much "I'm sure your lips taste so sweet.. just one kiss.. your girlfriend doesn't need to know.."
You couldn't even back off, as you were sitting on the edge of the fountain. You looked over the girl's shoulder, and spotted Wednesday in the crowd. She looked ready to decapitate the girl.
"Oh I think she already knows"
And she's coming, you thought. She looked hot when angry, her black eyes, which were getting even darker, filled with rage and jealousy.
The girl wasn't fast enough to back of before the ravenette grabbed her wrist, glarinf at her.
"Lay an eye on her again and you will forever loose the ability to see."
The girl looked terrified. She ran away the second Wednesday let go of her.
"Thanks.. I didn't know what to do.." you sighed
"She will not bother you again." she said, as she turned to face you
Her gaze soften a little when you smiled while standing up to stay by her side, your shoulders almost touching.
"Thing is upset. He said you didn't say hello since you are back."
"Oh, yeah I'm sorry.. What about I go to your dorm tonight?"
You didn't know if Thing was really upset, or if she was actually talking about her. You didn't have much time to see your girlfriend since you got back, it was true.
"Don't make me wait too long."
That being said, she took your hand into hers softly, and interlocked your fingers. She wasn't a big fan of PDA, but she did like holding your hand.
You walk to your next class together without anyone trying to ask you more questions, thanks to your girlfriend's death glare. No one tried to sit next to you either this time.
Even if you didn't talk much during the class, just being next to the ravenette made you happy.
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When night time arrived, you sneaked out of your dorm, silently going to Wednesday's. You'd lie if you said you weren't excited to spend some alone time with her. When it was only the two of you, she was much more affectionate.
You knocked at the door, which got opened pretty quickly.
"You are late."
"Yeah sorry Yoko didn't want to-"
You got cut off by her lips crashing onto yours, her hand pulling at your shirt to make you go inside the room. She then guided you to her bed, not breaking the kiss, making you sit on the soft mattress before sitting on your lap.
She pulled away, staying only inches away from your lips, her dark eyes looking directly into your e/c ones. You looked back at her, your eyes bright with that little shine you only had for her.
"You're so pretty.." you whispered
"Shut up"
She kissed you once again and you smiled against her lips, knowing it was her way to say I love you.
After a quite long making out session, her hands made their way under your shirt, her cold fingers caressing your smooth skin.
"Show me your scars, mi amor"
She already asked you to show her your wounds, but you couldn't because of the bandages you were forced to wear all day. She wanted to know what kind of beast did this to you. And she was sure you would look even more beautiful with some scars.
You took off your shirt, leaving you in your bra, letting her see the marks left by the monster. You weren't feeling so confortable with those marks on you, you thought it looked disgusting.
You had some scratches on your stomach, on your right shoulder, and a smaller one on your jaw. She had no idea what kind of creature could cause that, and she knew a lot about wounds.
She placed a little kiss on your shoulder, her fingers tracing the scars on your abs gently.
"You look gorgeous mi vida"
She was sincere, and it warmed you up a bit, knowing that she didn't find you ugly or anything with those scars.
One more kiss, and she was standing up, leaving you with a feeling of emptiness, your legs now used to her weight and her warmth.
Even for you she wouldn't screw up her writing time. You understood, and supported her in her work; you were her biggest fan.
You put your shirt back on, and laid on her bed while she was typing, scrolling on Pinterest for a moment, before putting your phone down and closing your eyes, eventually falling asleep.
When she was finished, the ravenette turned back to your sleeping form. Her lips curled up a bit when she saw you hugging her pillow.
She changed quickly into her pyjamas, before walking up to you, gently taking the pillow out of your grip, replacing it with herself. She positioned herself so your face was in the crook of her neck.
You moved a little, adjusting yourself, a smile creeping on your face at the smell of her.
She played with your hair softly, and found herself enjoying cuddling with you. Well you already slept together, when you were still at the hospital, but this time it felt different.
She never thought she would ever fall in love, let alone cuddle. But here she was, with you in her arms, a smile on her face. The more she was with you, the more she became like her father; totally in love, constantly wanting to kiss you, be with you.
And it didn't feel disgusting. Maybe a little. But she really enjoyed those moments with you, your kisses, your hugs, your voice, you.
She came back to reality when you moved a little against her, mumbling in your sleep
"I love you so much..."
She looked at you for a second, before kissing your forehead lovingly.
"I love you too, Cara Mia"
[Previous part]
#wednesday x reader#wednesday addams#wednesday x fem reader#wednesday addams x fem reader#wednesday netflix
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Jr Year ep 3
This is me live blogging bc I need to get thoughts out also would love fandom friends full spoilers bellow the cut just so no one accidentally reads anything they don’t want to this will be long
EX GIRLFRIEND I will legit fight Brennan why did we at least not see it....
btw me saying I will fight brennan is mostly a joke like I get why we made all these changes, I don't actually love everything but I do trust all these people enough that it will serve the story and play out great
Immediately clocking the fairy festival (Frosty whatever it is I'm so sorry Brenan says it and then it's immediately out of my head) connection we love
love love looove the aguefort projections, so many Arthur statues!
Riz's manic energy is such a vibe, not exactly healthy but a vibe I get
the astral realm where all the dead gods go
lowkey love that Gorgug and Fabian are solid like the boys lowkey play them so dumb but that's just teenage boys for ya (also thought maybe Fabian would be in less trouble but still some so this makes my anxiety relax a bit, only issues we already knew off)
Actually for the wizards I'm really chill is an A+ and also probably true sentence
ah the answer I needed about Fig's multiclass
Ah the society of shadows again, and a college for sad alone adventureres lol
their record is bad but it should be worse when talking about the one person sports team is SO FUNNY to me
the friends bit is so good, everythig about it, all the laughing, Emily failing intentionally, Ally letting it work even tho it shouldn't, perfection
Lydia still making half orc meals we love and stan
Adaine-Riz friendship is SO IMPORTANT to me
the sibbling energy our girls have are amazing
the Thisstlesprings will literally just go into sex ed and Gorgug's reaction is gold everytime
"Can I run from you?" LMAO
ok I'm getting the silly energy they were talking about now
listennnn we are gonna get into Gorgug isn't a good barbarian according to his teacher again aren't we? it's why it wasn't pre approved? I will fight this teacher he literally saved the world twice as mostly a barbarian let him be a chill barbarian
WHY DID GILLEAR NOT TALK TO FIG
yes Fabian make Fig go to class
yay new lunch lad
also I legit thought the time quangle was just an explain continuity errors away and also get rid of the agueforts who break encounters thing but it might be related to the plot now that it's come back up in the recap and in the intercom in story
Fig has Gillear's luck confirmed ok
Zac's physical comedy continues to be SO GOOD
the sillies really are here I'm laughing so much
straight away this lady is insane
four different dogs is such a good burn, love agro Kristen
do not trust this people at all
ohhh skullcleaver, Katya's aunt? cousin? I don't recall the seven mentioning that
listen Fabian's house being party house is lowkey dangerous
Kristen being a disaster gay even when trying to help friends flirt is a mood and a half
ooohh I like mazey
don't trust the attomaton tbh
also yes I just thought of this now so it's late but going back to Kipperlilly whatever her name is, like homegirl can't make big institutional changes youre class president not on staff
rules always being followed to the letter is tbh scary there has to be room for interpretation, perfect order doesn't exist
YES PLOT love how it's already too much bc mood and "yeah I cannot think about that right now" and "embodyment of writers block" oh this season is gonna continue to hit me in the face
Wanda Childa is wild
she was a turncoat, more importantly she was a mirror
why is Ally's hey girlie voice so terrifying
fully forgot porter was the barbarian teacher and I will fight porter LET GORGUG MULTICLASS...
aaaa I'm going into a worry is here, legit thought it was gonna be in battle but I love Gorgug's energy here bc I've been there where you do things kinda nontraditional way and have teachers make the achivements sound so much worse just bc i didn't get there through the path they wanted me to take
love terpsichore immediately
they get 30's fairly often now we love level 10
fabian is such an arsty kid at heart and always was like Lou wanted to make a jock maybe but never did
listen trashbag sandwich is worrying but it was indeed fine
I get that Riz is type A but he is the non annoying kind
homegirl who desn't like technicalities and ppl gettign away with stuff got out in one huh? also I have no idea what that means the teacher found her? what?
Jawbone I love you and also I worry about how much I relate to Riz
I so hate this girl I'm with Adaine, she's the worst we've had
oh no the Applebee's
ok so I have a huge like essay somewhere about both why I don't like how Kristen is dealing with Cassandra but also how I 10000% understand her as someone who abandoned religion but was then forced to still be in similar roles and religious enviornments after that somewher in my head buut also who cares but just know it exists
omg Bucky giving her a hug I cry
Kristen is not doing well but that was actually a pretty good parental confrontation tbh I'm proud
oh damn poor Adaine I'm sosorry my dear you don't deserve this
Brennan really went you know what? we are not having your wildness work for you this time Emily, your shit is catching up to you
yay fig went to class finally
we got SO many designs with all the teachers and such and they are all so great
oh nooo Kristeeen, each step I take the step behind me vanishes is such a raw ass line like this poor teenager is legit so lost like someone help her please (also that was a relatable little monologue.. am I ok?)
love the cleric teacher a lot
ok but i love cassandra alright twilight, mystery and doubt are such a cool ass domain you can sell it and embrace it Kristen I belive in youuuu
but also again: a good ass teacher
awn I love that they're back in the forest
again Siobhan promised no taers and I have cried twice now maybe three times in three eps??? rude af
the bad kids should've helped with the whole Cassandra stuff I just realised I'm so sorry
oh shit not Kalina again.... I feel like i got stabbed in the heart
oh I am sooo pumped for next ep!!!!!
#fantasy high#dimension 20#fhjy#riz gukgak#kristen applebees#fabian aramais seacaster#adaine o'shaughnessey#gorgug thistlespring#fig faeth
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You know what if you're still doing the ship hc asks i want the swap au kim harry i said i wasn't picky last night but now... It's different I'm invested also bc i loved that emotional hc and then the harrys a bottom right? one killed me lmao thank u
DAMN RIGHT LMFAO
You're very welcome, Anon! I live to make people laugh and cry (usually in that order).
Also, I've been getting really carried away with these. They're... not just HC's, they're ficlets. I'm just admitting it to myself lol. To shorten the posts a bit (and because I'm probably spending more time than I should on them, lol), I'm going to do one HC per ask. Y'all can feel free to keep sending them in!
Kim gets Harry to dance in the church, and it barely takes a nudge.
This Harry is more openly invested in the citizens of Martinaise than Kim. He's still a cockatoo - flying from place to place and talking to everyone he meets. At first, Kim rolls his eyes. What a fucking loser. Why waste our time with this shit? Let's just get out of here...
But, despite himself, Kim stays and helps. They confront Annette's mother about why she's stuck out in the cold. Harry nearly backs down, not wanting to cause a scene. Kim doesn't.
His childhood is unreachable - lost to the same void as the rest of his memories. But that can't banish the sensation of shivers. He looks through the window and sees Annette rub her hands together, trying to stay warm. He knows her nails are bitten down to the quick. He clenches his fists. Ragged nails bite his palm.
He knows Harry wants to snap at Plaisance but can't get the words out. So Kim does it for him. Does she want to see her daughter lose her fingers to frostbite? He asks if she's fucking proud of herself.
Harry is speechless - he doesn't know how to react apart from dragging Kim outside. But the next time they walk by the bookstore, Annette is inside. Kim never apologizes to Plaisance; she glares daggers at him whenever they come into the store.
(Harry doesn't know how to say it, but he's proud.)
Harry feels for Lena and worries for her husband. Kim rolls his eyes and says they'll look for him. Harry wants to hear about more cryptids but is terrified of looking insane. Kim tells him everyone thinks he's insane already, so he might as well ask. But the look they share keeps no secrets. Kim doesn't think he's crazy. Harry almost cries.
Harry wants to help Cuno but can't get through to him, so Kim talks to the kid. They find the Working Class Woman's missing husband and give her the bad news. Kim stands behind Harry, and it hits him how much the big oaf cares.
They meet the Speedfreaks and help them find a new sound. Kim doesn't remember his old friends, but he feels them. He feels their heartbeat in the thrumming bass and flashing lights. Whispers of cigarette smoke and too-big leather jackets dance at the peripheries of Kim's mind. Dancing, twirling, laughing.
He taps his feet. He wants to dance. He needs to dance.
And he won't do it alone.
So Kim extends his hand to Harry and nods at the dance floor. Harry tells him he can't - he's not a good dancer.
Kim tells him he doesn't care.
Harry stammers and says he only knows disco moves, that he wouldn't know the first thing about dancing to this sort of music.
Kim laughs (not bitter this time but joyful) and says no one knows how to dance to this music. It was only just made tonight.
Harry stammers. He'll only slow Kim down.
Kim says that he doesn't care. He'll wait all night.
Harry squirms and shrinks, but he knows Kim is right. He's not getting out of here without dancing. So he takes Kim's hand and assumes they'll just do an awkward little shuffle and call it a night.
They don't. Kim holds onto Harry. He holds him close and makes them move. He laughs with unrestrained delight and, despite himself, Harry does too. They dance under the 2mm hole in the universe. They lean into each other's arms. They're blanketed in silence, but they aren't afraid.
It gets late - later than either of them realizes. The music is off, and the ravers are asleep. Kim is almost nodding off as Harry holds him upright. It feels like a dream. So they sway, Jr. High Slow Dance style. And they don't want to leave. But they have to.
And they will. Just... not yet.
God, please, not yet.
#these... are just ficlets now aren't they?#they're ficlets lmfao#harrykim#kimharry#swap au kim kitsuragi#swap au harry du bois#disco elysium swap au#misc ask#ask meme
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stayed up til 3 when I have an 8am again. I do this because I hate myself so sos sososososososososo much. It's really funny because I don;t fall asleep in class thanks to my meds but I've noticed every time I go to class after 4 hrs sleep people act weird around me which is how I know im acting really weird. And I am so extremely angry at myself. I spent 4 hours. well 8 hours. Well all day. Pretending I'm going to do homework and distracting myself with various other things on my laptop or crying on the phone to my parents. Got zerooooo work done at all i stayed up most of the nihght for literally no gain whatsoever this is pure self harm. Which I do becauase again I hate myself. Because I didn't do my work. Which i won't do tomorrow either because i'll be so tired I wont be able to string a sentence together even though I'm supposed to give a presentation haha. My favorite activity is staring at the clock on my laptop getting later and later and later. new high score etc. Who's a hypersomniac now. Imagine how much easier this semester would have been if I'd gone to bed before 2am ever. I'm so fucking angry at myself I'm not sure I'll be able to sleep now even. If I fail my classes again my parents are gonna make me live at home forever and say im too crazy to live on my own. I know I was supposed to get a therapist but I hate them all so, so, so much. I think people get that job bc they feel powerful telling some pathetic person what to do knowing I literally cannot do it and will come back week after week admittingn failure and paying
I know I was supposed to take the new experimental FDA approved drug for IH but the list of side effects is fucking terrifying and I live and sleep alone so i really don't want to take a super powerful sedative that can make you stop breathing. So I'm gonna keep taking stimualnts and lying to myself that today is the last day I stay up extremely late for no reason.
#it's really sad I'll skip the meds sometimes to try to sleep and it doesn't even help. I just feel worse while awake.#The real reason i can't sleep is because im screwing myself over by doing no work and im terrified im going to fail my fucking classes#and theyre all going to say im crazy if I fail my classes. theyre going to say im crazy and I self sabotaged on purpose#bc i dont want to succeed. Dad says that every day#Dad loves telling me everytjhing wrong with me multiple times a day every day so i never ever forget#hes so helpful. He's trying so hard to help. If i dont answer the phone he starts worrying ive committed suicide#again i was suicidal one week in 2019. Get the fuck over it. You've literally threatened to kill yourself multiple times. Fucking hypocrite#a bunch of my friends are going to graduate this semester and best case scenario i graudate next semester and then I'll lose touch with eve#ybody#and then the good times are over and life is boring and hell forever and ill get more disabled every year until I can't work and then I'll#run out of money and die#you know when I talked to my genetics professor about the alzheimer's results he said somethign will kill you eventually and it#wont be that unless you live to old age which will be good!#so true bestie. so ture#Guys lets be real here. Why the fuck. Do we live. why. It is so goddamn hard. Maybe it;s easy when u get sleep . But that hasn't happened t#me for a while#all my classes end next week and i havent done most assignments since spring break#also over spring break my parents met w a lawyer to revise their will adn afterwards dad told me im executor and explained to me what will#happen after each person in my family dies.#the assumption is that I will outlive everyone. they don't think my sister will live to old age adn they are already old#the lawyer apparently has clients with the same disability as me and all of them had the same thing happen. Once they get another disabilit#and get older it becomes impossible to manage IH and they cant work til retirement age#i just spent an hour typing this shit instead of sleeping. 4am-730am sleep lets go. I should kill myself#i hate my parents fucking advicce bc they;; be like well when i was ur age I was married it sure must suck to be single!!!! fuck you guys f
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Heethans reaction to y/n getting jumped by bitches in a alleyway behind the school who are jealous of her relationship with Heethan
yooooooooo..... (mentions of murder and physical harm in the answer below)
so this is a good question bc i'm pretty sure alot of you may think that heethan only will attack guys....but um....remember what he did to tiff?
so generally, he wont really use violence against women...unless they cross the line. and believe me, that line is not too hard to cross. if a girl gives you mean looks or lashes out at you, he'll glare at them, tell them to fuck off, or just take you away while he gives them the death stare (ethan's death stare) and take you to your favorite cafe or pastry shop.
now......if a group of girls...(for some reason i got an image of those bitches from that show Glory...such a good show but man...it really pissed me off in the first episodes bc of what they did to to that poor girl with the curling iron) lets say we get those same girls, and they have a hot iron that they intend to do burn you with (just like in the show) of course we all know, that when you're not in class, heethan is always going to be there with you. he wont let you go anywhere without him, so i can't foresee you being in an alleyway by yourself...however....lets say it's after class, he's waiting for you, and just like in his heethan fashion, he gives it literally 1 minute after the bell sounds off, he'll watch as everyone exits the building because he's always parked along the curb that's outside the front entrance....if he doesnt see you or hear from you, he's walking in.
lets say you were assigned after class clean up for that day and you were in the classroom by yourself, going inside the storage close to put away the cleaning supplies as you wrap things up. and these bitches come up and they have a hot iron and say some terrible things to you because they're jealous (like tiff was). heethan, being prompt as ever (bc again....unless you're in class with your peers and teacher, he's never leaving you alone) he walks in and sees whats going on.
now, just popping up in my mind without even thinking about, he will handle this in one of two ways....
1.) he'll glare at them, walk right pass them and take you away back home. leaving the group terrified from his glare. as soon as he gets you back home, he'll put you on the bed and make you go to sleep, whether its by cuddling you to sleep or by giving you some melatonin to have you drift off......so he can make sure you stay put while he goes out and rest assured (again...line was crossed....heethan normally wouldn't resort to murder buuuuuuut....) anyone who means to do you harm, they're going to get it. just like scott and his crew. and in heethan fashion, probably will use his family influence to have that shit covered up, (again like he did with scott) if for some reason he can't pull off murdering those bitches, then he'll FUCK THEM UP in the worst way possible and let them know to keep their mouths shut otherwise he will go and kill them. man does not play around when it comes to ppl messing with you.
2.) he'll walk in, glare, walk right up the leader of the group, and will probably do exactly what he did to tiff. he'll ruin her face or disable some part of her, like her limbs or some shit. maybe will even take said curling iron and will burn her face off, ofc he'll be in his ethan mode bc thats the sadistic, twisted, and violent side of him taht he suppresses on the regular. I see this option being the likely one bc it would be very hard to get away with murder, but in this universe, he comes from such a well off and powerful family, that has such strong connections, it wouldn't be too hard for him, just i think he wouldn't find it necessary to actually kill them off unless they had actually burned you....at that point, game over.
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Oooo I read your hcs on Jeremy and Waylon dynamic and a bit of an idea sorta came up, it’s a little unrelated but… Do you think Jer would see Miles as some sort of replacement for Waylon and try to go after him? I feel like it becomes way too obsessive and it scares off Miles (but Jer doesn’t see it that way, he’s just gone into incel mode bc of everything that’s happened with his past relationships so far, like ‘why do you all leave me????’) or something lol
TLDR: It could happen! But I have my reasons AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO STOP RAMBLING IM SO SORRY ANON
That could happen if we're taking the desperate route hahaha though I feel like Miles can replace Rick rather than Waylon, since they're both kinda similar, in a way. So basically RickJer is the rich and spoiled version of camerashipping.
So, if the thing with Miles really happens, I think he'd just give everything up and put up a thick wall and just do something by himself. It's up to Miles if he wants to get closer to him or not (huge possibility by the way, Miles is just THAT adamant sometimes, mainly because Jer is a former one of the leaders of a shady transnational company, and he wants to know more about Murkoff)
It's too long so I'm going to place the details of Jer's feelings about Rick and Way under the cut!
So, to put it simply following this anon's question...
It's nothing climatic tbh. He doesn't lash out or anything like that. It's just... When you knew a person would do something bad to you before they do it, and the thing really happens in the future, you feel almost numb about them. It’s juft poof all the positive and even negative feelings are gone. “I’m not surprised, but I’m still mad” kinda feeling?
He's met people with various personalities, he can predict how people would react and act based on their personalities alone. He knew Waylon would actually send the emails (he just didn't expect worse stuff will happen as well). It's almost like he has no energy to even be mad about it lol but he still wants it to be hurt as much as his efforts were gone to waste (to understand this, please read my ramble under the cut, I'm sorry,,,), so he's being petty about it,,
"Somebody's been telling stories outside of class. Mr. Waylon Park, consulting contract 8208. Software engineer with a level 3 security clearance. Graduated cum laude from Berkley, but still somehow not smart enough to realize that the last thing a fly ought to do in a spider's web is wiggle. Somehow dumb enough to think that a borrowed laptop, onion router, and firewall patch would be enough to fool the world's leading supplier of biometric security. Stupid, Mr. Park. More than stupid, in fact, that was crazy."
LIKE ITS KINDA FUNNY IF YOU THINK ABOUT HIS DIALOGUES THAT WAY. I'd love to imagine that he was genuinely surprised Waylon actually attempted to send them through a shitty plan, it was insane, so at the same time he's laughing at Way's attempt while the actual person is terrified senseless on the floor. akjaksdjkad
I think a lot about Jer and it's really embarrassing......
My take on him is pretty boring and weird, I guess? Jeremy never actually... Feel the need to befriend/love someone, he didn't expect to have one so soon - it was just that Rick and Waylon happened to be people who were close to him, so he made some efforts into their relationship, expected something more from them in return, since he trusted them. Rather than mourning over people who betrayed him, he's frustrated over the things he had sacrificed in exchange for their companionship; All the money, all the covering efforts, all the emotions, the sentiments, etc, etc, are all wasted on people like them. It's not like he's close close with them either, they're pretty much just friends with benefits to putting it in summary lol
One of my friends described it so much better but unfortunately I don't remember how he worded it so bear with me anon I'm sorry, When Jeremy watches as Rick was sent to the engine, he doesn't feel sad. Rick wasn't his friend, but he feels like something is missing - something about it made him feel betrayed - probably betrayed by himself... Even the feeling itself disturbs him because even he couldn't pinpoint what was causing it. It's between "I'm completely fine even if you die" and "I wish you were here" to put it simply. I know I'm sorry if your brain exploded there,,, emotions are complicated tbh
So... it's not really like Jer isn't capable of human emotions, but rather, it's more complicated because he views emotions as something to be suppressed because they can weaken you. Showing emotions makes him vulnerable, thus making him pile up emotions and complicates stuff because he doesn't even understand himself.
My god its 3 am rn i hope im at least making sense,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
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Okay girls this is 🤰anon and I need some advice badly. So I feel like you all know my baby daddy has been like completely uninvolved this whole time and wanted nothing to do with me since I told him I was pregnant. But like I've still (probably stupidly) been sending him updates and ultrasound pictures and stuff just bc I've wanted to give him the opportunity to change his mind I guess. I didnt want him to have made a hasty decision at the beginning bc he was freaked out and then completely shut him out bc of that, I've wanted to keep the door open so he knows he can still be involved if he ever wants to be. Well he's literally never answered any of the texts I've sent him this whole time but I let him know I was going to the hospital the other day and he actually texted me back the next morning???? And asked if everything was okay and if the baby was here???? And I told him no it was just a false alarm and he thanked me for letting him know and said he was worried about us 😭😭😭 and we just like texted for a really long time and he apologized for not being there this whole time and said he was just terrified and unprepared but he said when he found out I could actually be having the baby soon something changed and he realized he didn't want to miss out. So ofc I was like extremely wary bc we literally have had zero contact in the last 7 months and now all of a sudden he's like talking about wanting to be in the room when she's born and asking if he can help buy anything for her or come to my next doctor's appointment or my birthing class and it's all just so much at once 😭 like I'm used to doing this alone and was fully prepared to give birth and parent by myself and have been getting myself ready for that this whole time and now it's like everything has changed for me as well and I'm gonna have to think about another person's wishes for my child??? And like obviously I was hoping he would come around and that's why I kept extending an olive branch even when he never answered but now I'm like do I immediately let him back in and let him participate in everything he wants to be a part of now or do I keep him at arm's length and have us slowly adjust to this in these last few weeks of pregnancy and first few weeks of her life?
thats so fucked up that now hes interested tbh yeah its nice and all but tbh imo thats 7 months too late I wouldnt personally let him in the room but obvi let him in to see her but def set up rules and boundaries to protect you and especially her cause even though he may seem involved and interested if hasn't been the last 7 months I dont think suddenly over night hes gonna be like this caring great and involved father
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we were all part of the ‘special ed’ (it was actually supposed to be a room where kids went to regulate their emotions) class and while some of my ‘friends’ had the option and did go to actual main line classes, i was not so lucky and was permanently stuck to that room (i still am! i just avoid going there now cause most of the kids are now physically violent and not just verbally rude anymore plus im now on a parttime timetable and go to a second far smaller school where the staff and kids are way nicer lol)
so i was just, stuck?? with this like.. emotionally and physically abusive kid?? AND I ALSO HAD TO HANG OUT WITH HIM OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL??? (which, if i had the chance to go back in time, little me would get a screaming cause the warning signs were all there and i would love not having the memory of getting literally strangled over a plush toy -^-)
literally the best thing that kid did for me was physically defending me from a kid twice my size.. and being so shitty i was allowed the almighty power of being able to literally put him on restraining order minus the legal documentation lol
adding coloured text so its a little easier to read cause i do just.. ramble on lmao
Jesus 😨 sorry I keep saying that its just my auto response for "wHAT THE FUCK"
I hate when schools do this type of shit and I hate how common it is too. Like it should NOT be this common to handle neurodivergents- specifically for this case those of us with emotional regulation issues- that horribly like oh my god...
That's terrifying I'm srsly so sorry you had to go through that :<
IF A KID IS HAVING TROUBLE REGULATING THEIR ANGER YOU SHOULDN'T PUT THEM IN THE SAME ROOM WITH A BUNCH OF OTHER KIDS HAVING TROUBLE REGULATING THEIR ANGER THATS JUST LITERALLY BEGGING FOR THINGS TO GO VERY VERY WRONG
You should let them go to regular classes but when they have an outburst you should take them to a room alone or with one other adult with comfort items they like, and also maybe a cold/cool room bc being angry makes you feel very hot... and you should make sure there isnt anything important and/or easy to break in the room too
...the fact that im a minor and I can come up with a better solution for handling this stuff than so so so so so many adults is...disappointing
I wish people were more educated on this stuff
#niko.txt#asks#genuinely shocks me every time i remember that im more educated on this stuff than even some people with literal psychology degrees#js bc of my personal experience#AND I KNOW I AM BC I HAVE MET PPL WITH PSYCHOLOGY DEGREES WHO KNEW SO MUCH LESS THAN ME THATS ITS HONESTLY PRETTY DEPRESSING#uhhh#tw caps
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bioethics blog 1
Hi deep thinkers and smooth brain babyloves, I'm blogging for posterity now. who knows how long this will keep up <3
Its day 2 of my Bioethics class and I am already ahead of the curve. This is a 2 week 3 credit hour rollercoaster and I started the dang thing front row seats with our arms up. Anyway, I just got done reading the passage in the book about the ethics of Christian Scientists and others who don't believe in medical treatment and how horribly common it is for parents to be providers of maltreatment on religious grounds. I thought the quote from the supreme court ruling about the Prince V. Massachusetts case was incredibly sharp and on point. It said, "Parents may be free to become martyrs themselves. But it does not follow they are free, in identical circumstances, to make martyrs of their children before they have reached the age of full and legal discretion when they can make that choice for themselves"
beautiful logic. brilliantly written. chef's kiss. i just wish it were that simple. cults are so so powerful. belief is terrifying when diametrically opposed to any facts or logical processes of any kind and those people represent the ultimate opposition to logic-- Healing by faith alone bc your wounds and ailments are a symbol of your failing relationship to god, not the reality of being a goofy little delicate meat machine. all systems can be vulnerable! But I digress... We're not going to spiral down that rabbit hole because here i doth present the only conversation I ever *knowingly* had with a Christian Scientist Nurse.
I did hair for about 8 years professionally in my 20s. This is from nearing the middle to end of that 8 year period. I had seen this woman a few times but infrequent, maybe once or twice a year but she alwys came back to me and she was sweet, pretty with lots of freckles and very bright eyes. It was probably 4 or 5 visits before she came out to me as a Christian Scientist Nurse. She was always really sweet but kind of in that guarded yet pleasant way-- Not a moral judgement just an observation based on the premise that people kind of let you know how to they want to be engaged if you let them (and hairdressers who pick up on this make better money). Anyway, she started venting to me about how hard it was to treat with people and work with them with end of life care and that sometimes she wishes she could sneak in some real morphine or some drugs that are more effective than ibuprofen. And i said yeah i cant imagine how painful dying of old age is, I dont think i could do it without hard drugs XD Then I asked her what it was like to provide care like that but not medication and she said that its basically just regular hospice care. sitting talking, helping with the little things. Holding their hand and listening. I was really nice and pleasant but she kept going on about people she was "treating", more elderly and end of life care, more diabetes related complications. I was just floored. flabbergasted. What could I say to her face but holy hell i was upset and confused hearing all of this willful ignorance, failure to comply with practical medical advice, idk what to call it bc faith "healing" implies people get better and they dont. they die.
So thinking about it now years removed seems so strange. Cuz like at what point are you not a monster for pretending to offer treatment but only offering hollow words and hand holds. Its so strange. I still dont understand if that is good or evil. If they truly believe they're doing good, how can we make them see the harm or be responsible for truly setting aside their moral stances for the betterment of their kids when they see it as a complete failure of faith. failure of faith or not, I certainly wouldn't call it moral to withhold medication or to promote the rejection of modern medicine. Plus, by the morphine comment, it felt like she knew that medicine would work in some capacity so i just dont and will never understand the decision to choose to suffer and to choose to witness and support suffering like that.
anyway maybe i'll write my paper on christian scientists and how fucked up they are. religion is a cancer sorry not sorry
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Airplane au
Vega: Now that i'm on the plane, i'm just like...... pilot/cabin crew steddie au ???
freckles 🧸: i would be terrified to let either of them fly a plane, but i suppose i would trust steve over eddie to do it. lol
however airplane sex sounds like a fun time.
eddie would be the type to be like "you think we can drift in this bitch?"
kesbird:!!!!!!
Vega: They could both be air stewards i suppose, if it's too dangerous to let them fly! 😂 but yeah, mile high club was my think
kesbird: Ok but Eddie who has never been on a flight before freaking out and Steve “has been on a billion busniess trips “ harrington is sitting right next to him trying to get Eddie not to barf
Vega: Oh, soft
kesbird: Fluff so much fluff AND mile high club would be such a great distraction for a first flight 😇
wynnyfryd: omg also, steve who flew as an unaccompanied minor all the time to meet his parents in different cities and thinks flying is the absolute best
kesbird: YES
kesbird — 11/04/2022
Steve gushing about it and saying it can be a really cool and pretty just look out the window! Meanwhile Eddie has his head in a bag and white knuckled grip on the seat whenever there is a hint of turbulence. And of course it’s like a 4 hour or more flight
wynnyfryd: yes!!! and then they finally land and eddie’s like “…tell no one of this” cause he can’t ruin his metal rep lmao
kesbird: Awww but what if it was like his first big hit for his band out in another state but all his band mates somehow got pit on another flight so he’s just riding it solo so it’s just WORSE
wynnyfryd: rockstar eddie frazzled beyond belief in first class + one supremely attractive flight attendant steve harrington crouching into his space and putting a comforting hand on his knee and asking “do you need anything sir?” and eddie’s just like “your number heyooo 😎 i’m kidding i’m so sorry i make terrible jokes when i’m nervous”
kesbird: YES VERY GOOD
Idk how but some point I need hand holding as reassurance that they are not about to drop from the sky because “at this point your gonna strain something in your nice guitar hands dude give them to me”
His hands are cold so Steve rubbing warmth back into them and Eddie forgets he’s on planet earth for a second let alone a plane “wow first class really is better.” Steve- “nothing but the finest on insert airline here” just winking at him before going to another person who wants water or some shit
Ok I might have to write it if that’s allowed
wynnyfryd: ooh, sudden turbulence and steve has to sit in the empty seat beside him until it’s steady enough to walk the aisle again (and/or gets pitched forward into eddie’s lap for a hot second)
rainbownerds: damn, at least buy me dinner first" and then they both turn to look at the dinner tray Steve literally just brought over
kesbird:
Yessss
Kingdom Kai:
Is
Is Robin the copilot
rainbownerds:
(i want you to know I am ABSOLUTELY listening to "air hostess" by busted bc of this conversation)
Spamton Djo Spamton — 11/04/2022
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I can’t stop thinking about bully! Baji >///< <3
cw: 🔞! college!au, bullying/harassment/hazing, voyeurism, blowjobs, slightly dub-con.
yes!!! ... can i entertain this? bc i'm i was my brain was having a lil brain rot moment yesterday. not proof read cos that's for not stupid people.
Baji can't seem to get enough of you. Snickering as you try to present to the class, he can hear you loud and clear but he just loves your embarrassed form when he shouts for you to speak louder 'cause he can't hear you. His friends are laughing, encouraging him to go on as he kicks his feet up on the desk— sneering as you stutter to go back to the topic.
He usually doesn't like picking on women but you're just so fuckin' cute it changes him, and since he's in college his mom can't be up his ass about how he's not respecting women. He honestly throws it all out the window for you, you should be goddamn grateful. You're special after all.
Following you as you walk to your next class, he's so big you can practically feel his air as he's coming close to you, pushing against you as he passes by. It's all on purpose, it always is. Spilling water on you just so your bra is see through, just for him to see you cry as you run to the bathroom. Who were you wearing lace for anyway?
It's so soul crushing, knowing he's watching you on the other side of the door as you frantically try to dry yourself off, adrenaline rushing to his head and cock.
He's a menace and he knows it, but he doesn't care.
He's smirking, with his pearly white fangs as you nervously try to pick up your books, ass and panties all in his view. "'M sorry, Baji.." You're apologizing for no reason, he tripped you on purpose. "Oh? For what?"
"Getting in your way." You sniffle, "Won't happen again."
God you were making it too easy. He's laughing his ass off as you were picking up your last text book, kicking you on your ass— face planting and ass jiggling. "Got in my way again. What are you gonna do to repay me, huh?"
You had no idea how to deal with this, telling and promising him you'd do anything for him to forgive you and leave you alone. Little did you know meeting him in the back of the campus just ended with you mouthful of his cock. Whining and choking as you struggle to handle his vicious face fucking. Drool, snot and tears dribbling below you.
"Fuckin' skank, you take cock this often?" you're sobbing, throat clenching against his length. He groans, phone getting shaky as his body squirms under you. He grabs a handful of your hair, shoving you closer to his base. "Fuck yea! god- keep being a good lil' slut and I won't send this to anyone."
He's holding you as he fucks through your gag reflex, throat bulging and never giving you a breath of fresh air. "Oh, but you'd like that wouldn't you?" he's chuckling in between grunts, pistoning mercilessly into you. After a few slamming thrusts, he's dumping himself inside of your mouth, painting your throat with something extremely salty, gagging against his length. "Swallow."
You comply, terrified of finding out what he would do if you didn't. He's panting as he removes himself, quickly shoving up his pants and walking away, snickering. "Heh, I'm definitely sending this to your little boyfriend."
You go to grab at him, but he's too far to reply to. He wishes he could see your face right now, only hearing your wailing as you lay and ponder with humiliation and extreme confusion on why your cunt is so wet.
#tokyo revengers#tokyo revengers smut#baji keisuke x reader#baji x reader#baji smut#keisuke baji x reader#keisuke baji#keisuke baji smut
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Hi, I'm new to the descendants fandom, was wondering if you had any headcanons you wished to share with the class. I like knowing things
aww that's so sweet of you! i feel like i have so much stuff swimming around in my head but now that i have a chance to put it out there, i can't think of anything good D: i'll try my best tho!!
i don't know how well the tagging system will do so TRIGGER WARNING for suicide, death, child abuse - the usual for this fandom
First of all! It's a very very morbid thought but I think that death is possible on the Isle, it's just temporary. Like an Old Guards situation. Bc otherwise I think people would be killing each other left and right, or trying to off themselves to escape the Isle, or dying of starvation or disease or god only knows what. And I think each member of the Core Four has died at least once
Mal drowned when she fell into the ocean. Jay was about 14 when he was practicing his parkour-ing over rooftops and ended up falling from like four stories up. Carlos fell out of his tree house when he was like 11 and broke his neck. And Evie was about 13 when she died of starvation, bc her mom thought she was getting chubby and locked her in her room for days without food
Also it happened to Harry when he was a baby and fell out of his pram. And Gil was about 7 when he and his brothers were taken hunting for the first time, and someone was being careless with one of the guns and it went off and hit Gil. I'm not sure about Uma, tho. Maybe she's the one anomaly and hasn't died
So that's my big general one. Now I'll try to go character by character and just say whatever comes to mind!
Mal: Nonbinary, she/they pronouns. On the ace spectrum. Obviously suffers from anxiety and panic attacks, that’s p much canon. She’s a virgo, very much a perfectionist, and terrified of disappointing people. I think if it were a real world au, her name would be Mallory. And she’d hate that so she’d just go by Mal. Introvert. Doesn’t do well in crowds or on the spot. Loves her alone time, and spends most of it listening to music and drawing. She experiments with more art styles than just spray paint and sketching once she’s in Auradon. Always has charcoal or oil pastel smudges on her hands (and sometimes face) or paint splatters on her clothes. Doesn’t care about mess. Loves the rain, and splashing in puddles (also canon tho lol)
Evie: Lesbian, she/they. Super femme and obsessed with her looks at first, but I think a lot of that is just bc of her mother. I love the idea of Evie cutting her hair short, and experimenting with makeup and fashion in a way that’s true self expression, and not just trying to look pretty and dolled up. Still girly and nowhere near as rough and tumble as Mal is tho lol. But I like the idea of her being a little more tough tho. Not saying she’s delicate or anything but her mom didn’t want her to smile in fear of wrinkles, so she obviously wasn’t doing anything before that would cause her skin any damage. But imagine Evie getting in a fight or an accident and getting a scar from it. And it’s a new perceived “blemish” that her mom would freak out about but Evie is oddly proud of it. Bc it’s unique and it’s hers and it’s now part of her. So with that in mind I think she would be like “how can I change my body in a way that would make me happy and piss off my mom, without getting hurt again” lul and I think Evie would look kickass with a whole lotta tattoos! Just all over, turning her body into her own little scrapbook/collage of things she likes and finds beautiful
Carlos: Gay, he/him. This isn’t a headcanon so much as a complaint but I HATE how a lot of the fandom perceives Carols. Like he’s some soft little whimpering puppy that hides behind his friends at the slightest bit of trouble. And that’s not him at all! Maybe he was freaked out to go back to the Isle in D2 but he was standing up to Harry and Gil in D3 and shoved Harry and stuff. He can stand his ground and he’s as scrappy as the rest of them! It’s not talked about in the movies but I imagine his mom is the Cruella with her own fashion line. And so Carlos grew up in that kind of industry knowing a lot about fashion. I imagine he’d be able to kill that one “fashion and technology” theme at the Met Gala. Making dresses that light up and change and making clothes out of recycled materials and whatnot
Jay: Pan, he/they. I think Jay should’ve had some magical powers since Jafar had his own magic, and that was before being turned into a genie. And it’s not good but I imagine Jay growing up to be kind of a misogynist thanks to his shitty dad. But he starts to grow out of that when he meets Mal and Evie and stops seeing girls as pretty little trinkets to own, like his dad probably taught him. And I know we see him on the tourney team as well but I love the idea of him being into more extreme sports. Skateboarding, bmx bikes, motocross, that kind of thing. Anything that keeps him on his feet or keeps him moving. And if it were a modern au (even though I think canon Jafar is weird and inaccurate) I do like the idea of Jay helping to run some big antique shop or something. With lots of old treasures and trinkets that he helps sell. He and Harry could run it together. I think that would be nifty. They are two characters who are tied to “treasure” after all
This was a lot and I didn’t even get past the core four but !! Here’s some fun stuff to start with sksksk hope you like ittt
#descendants#disney descendants#dizzy speaks#qna#evie grimhilde#carlos de vil#jay#mal#core four#anonymous
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Can I have a "The truth is… I love you.” with either hubert or m!Byleth ( either or I'm not picky :) ) with a gender neutral reader? Please and thanks love you lots
Pairing: Hubert x reader
Prompt: “The truth is… I love you.”
Description: You’d like to think, back in your acedemy days, you and Hubert were close. In the five years since, fighting on opposite sides of a terrrible war, you even liked to beleive that the same, illogical feelings you kept close to you for all this time remained in him too.
Rating: sfw
Word Count: 2914
Notes: I saw this, and I thought, but what if it was angst? also featuring mentions of nb prof byleth bc *nice* (Several months later) I finished this, finally. having some rat content folks u deserve it!!
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Honestly, it was scary how easily you could turn your back on the empire. The people you had grown up with, the only home you had ever known… all of it, to follow Byleth and the Church of Serios. You weren’t alone in this endeavor, all of your class had joined your fight… sans Edelgard, of course, and ever loyal to her, Hubert.
Fighting had never really been your strong suit, loathe you hated to admit it. In your academy days you would much rather dedicate yourself to healing others and tending to the animals. Professor Byleth insisted you learn to defend yourself at least, if it came to that-- though they promised to always be there to protect you. You took them at that vow, and divided your time between offensive magic and learning the sword from the best only. Five years later, you found yourself a seasoned dark flier somehow, able to clear enemies easily if need be but much preferring to heal your enemies.
It was funny, you had always thought you preferred horseback, but someone very important to you changed your mind…
“Hubert?” It wasn’t like him to get lost in his thoughts, his hardened gaze quickened coming back as he focused on you once more.
“What?” Whether he meant it or not, his voice came out as a hiss.
“Are you ready for sky watch?” You saddled the Pegasus you were to ride easily, use to how to care for them by now.
“Of… course.” He looked fine but there was hesitance in his voice; he still stood rather far from the wyvern provided for him, looking at it with both curiosity and something else you couldn’t quite place.
“Oh, do you not like wyverns?” You laughed gently, coming up to the wyvern yourself and resting a gentle hand on its nose. It huffed in content, large puffs of breath coming from its nostrils as it closed its large eyes and leaning in to nuzzle your hand in affection. “He’s so sweet though!” You couldn’t help but laugh as the large creature tried to lean into your touch more. You gave its tough scales a nice scratch.
“I fear I don’t possess the same skill with animals as you do.” He still kept his distance, wary of the wyvern and looking instead towards your pegasus.
“Oh that’s right, you’ve never really flown before, huh...” You frowned softly. “You probably don’t know how to, right?” You smiled at him and though he rolled his eyes at being caught, Hubert didn’t try to deny it.
“It’s… true. In fact I try to avoid sky watch at all costs, for personal reasons.” He frowned. You were still smiling.
“That’s fine! I’m perfectly capable of teaching you, and I know you’ll catch on really easy.” Disregarding any personal space Hubert had tried to make between you, himself, and the wyvern, you took him by the hand and lead him over the pegasus you had been taking care of for a while now. She really liked you and seemed to mostly like other people when you were around, usually... “Come here, meet Georgie here! She’s a little less intimidating than a wyvern, right?” You giggled. Hubert stood before the pegasus, frowning at Georgie as well.
“She’s… alright.” Hubert made no move. Georgie huffed at him, unfazed as well.
“Oh come on, let her sniff you at least. You’ll be riding her.” Hubert couldn’t question you as you once again invaded his personal space and lifted his hand with your own so she could smell it. Georgie did just that, bowing her nose a little and bumping into his gloved hand. She didn’t seem to mind him, probably because you were still holding his hand up, but secretly Hubert was quite pleased like this. To keep up airs, though, he dropped his hand, yours falling slowly after.
“I’ll be riding her?” he frowned.
“Well, yeah, we both will be. It’s hard to teach someone to ride otherwise.” You laughed. Hubert wasn’t sure what you expected, because he surely wasn’t getting in the air, let alone in the air with you on the same pegasus.
“That’s not happening.” He said simply.
“Hubert don’t be like this.” You frowned-- no pouted, even. He remained unfazed once more. “Really, I think it will be good for you! And I’d really appreciate it, too.”
“What good do you gain this?” He’d admit, he almost wanted you to convince him, to help him get over his damned fear of heights. But if Hubert wasn’t stubborn then he wasn’t anything.
“A chance to spend time with you, of course!” You winked-- At him. Hubert didn’t even know what to think at this point. This may as well happen.
“...Very well. If only so we can bring back results to the professor.”
“That’ the spirit!” You were quick to jump on Georgie’s back and hold out your hand to Hubert so he might join you. Reluctantly Hubert took your hand and sat behind you, finding the unfamiliar pooling of anxiety in his stomach. He was Hubert Von Vestra and he didn’t fear much anything. But of course, the one thing that got to him was heights. And the professor had to put him on sky watch with you. “Make sure you hold on tight to me, alright?” He wasn’t one to hesitate either but he found himself doing just that when prompted to wrap his arms around your waist. Obviously he knew it was so he didn’t fall when the pegasus took off but he could blame this hesitance to the anxiety already blooming in his stomach. Not other feelings that may or may have not already existed in him. “Oh don’t be shy Hubert, we both know that’s not you. And I really don’t mind.” With little more than a huff, Hubert relented, (only a little unnerved at how well you seemed to be reading him today) and comfortably wrapped his arms around your waist, holding you close to himself. It was silly, you would think with how his head rested near your shoulder and how tightly he held you, he was the one protecting you.
That thought was quite literately torn from his mind as you took off without warning, Georgie doing as directed and flying in the air. Hubert could not help but cling closer to you as he closed his eyes. You didn’t say anything, bracing yourself against his sudden crushing hug.
“Hey, it’s okay now. You’re fine.” Hubert hated how your voice had gone so soft. How the sound of it comforted him, enough to open his eyes. The world was far below him, so small before him. “Don’t look down, that’ll only make it worse.” Hubert could only heed your advice and instead turn his gaze to the sights around him; the tall spires of the Monastery and Officers Academy around him, other wyvern riders and pegasus knights taking to the skies.
“How can you do this so often? I feel as if I’m going to be sick.” Closer still he held you, with one more glace to the cold ground below.
“I trust Georgie. She wouldn’t hurt me. Won’t hurt us.” Careful to not let go of the reign, you pet her mane. She let out an appreciative neigh. “Learning to fly is one thing, though, fighting atop a flying creature is rather different that mounting fighting.”
“I can tell...” Nearby, students from another class were sparring. Here, high up in the air. Their movements seemed much more refined and poised compared to the two of you, hovering here from where you had first lifted from the ground.
“I’m sorry if it seemed I ushered you into the air.” You sighed suddenly. “I hadn’t realized your hesitance was because you were afraid of heights...” You shook your head gently and Hubert felt every movement of it. “I was just eager to share this experience with you.”
“Don’t linger on it. Despite being terrified I… it’s nice.” He sighed. “I may be scared of heights, but I always wanted to fly on a pegasus...” Hubert didn’t know why he was admitting this to you. You just made it easy, he supposed.
“I’m glad you trust me.” It was strange to hear it allowed but Hubert supposed that was the only resason any of this could happen. How that happened was beyond him but the only other person who knew this much about him was Lady Edelgard… “I hope you can learn to cope with your fear, it’s nice being up here is it not?”
“If it’s with you… I suppose it’s alright. Let’s just get on with our duty so we can get down faster.” You didn’t question him, just giggling to yourself (Hubert of course noticed, with how close the two of you were) as Georgie took off on your patrol route. For the most part, the two of you sat in comfortable silence, with you occasionally explaining certain aspects of flying with him, and Hubert’s grip on your waist never faltering. Eventually, it was time for the two of you to return down to the ground. Georgie landed gracefully, with Hubert quick to let you go and return to the ground. Of course he was ecstatic to be back on his own two feet after such a long time in the air but he didn’t let that be seen, composing himself again once more.
The two of you had gone to share your result with Professor Byleth who, just as you were, was surprised to hear that Hubert was afraid of heights. With your pleading though, Byleth allowed you to continue teaching Hubert how to fly (much to his chagrin) during patrol. The two of you had never been closer in that time, so much so that you had grown to love him despite everything. You loved him so much bu despite that when the time came… you couldn’t betray the professor and he couldn’t betray Edelgard.
Of course, in the five years following it almost felt like the dumbest decision of your life when your precious professor was nowhere to be found. It was all you could do to stay with the church of Serios and try to find them and Rhea. With their miraculous reappearance, there was hope once more. Your former classmates were once again with you, the professor was here… This war could be ended.
But in order for that to happen… Edelgard and Hubert would have to be defeated… And you knew they would keep fighting until the bitter end. You all would, and you hated it. You had healed more people in the past five years then you ever did at the academy, killed more people that you ever even feared you would, all in defiance of the Empire and Edelgard. Yet you still dared to love Hubert? As if he ever did you? And even if he did at one point-- those feelings were most certainly quashed when you decided your trust lay in Byleth over Edelgard five years ago. Since your dear professors return only victory seemed to be in your sight but direct conflict with the empire meant Hubert was sure to show up sooner or later. You knew, as you neared the Imperial Capitol, he would be leading the charge. Atop Georgie you could see him clearly, leading his own charge.
Just because you disliked conflict doesn’t mean you weren’t prepared for it-- while it was a tough battle it was one you had to win. You had to see Hubert one more time, let go of feelings that had remained unspoken for so long. You knew he likely wouldn’t care, that he would probably laugh in your face that you even bother to bring that up in such a battle. But if it was going to end-- for you or for him-- you wanted those words out in the open.
You weren’t sure how long it took you to reach where Hubert wait, controlling his army. It was hard to find the proper words, facing him like this for the first time in forever. Feelings you thought had dwindled in you only seemed to blossom further as he watched you with a frown. You could swear he softened slightly at realizing just who you were.
“Hubert…” You hardly had words, unsure if it was proper to get of your pegasus in this situation. This was war; he was the enemy commander. But all rights, the two of you should be tying to kill one another right now, not stare at one another with a look too soft to be hate, but too distant to be fond.
“_____” Your name left his mouth curtly. Time seemed to slow down for the two of you only as you dismounted, hesitantly approaching him. How you weren’t dead now, you weren’t sure.
“You’ve grown.” Hubert hated how you managed to smile at him, how your voice had that familiar softness he had tried so hard to forget. “I wish this reunion could have been on better terms but…” You sighed.
“What have you come to say?” He was curt with you, if only because he couldn’t bring himself to be rude. Not to you, who had only ever showed him kindness. You, who had somehow found yourself a special spot in a heart he was certain once he didn’t have.
“It’s… kinda silly, I admit.” You shook your head, a small laugh falling from your lips. He really was the same as always. “It’s been five years, and despite having the courage to come up here to fight you I don’t have the courage to admit how I feel.” You shook your head, clenching your fist tightly at your chest. You tried to pretend the anxiety flitting about in your stomach that was from the battle that was surely about to commence. Hubert narrowed his eyes at you.
“What are you going on about?” He ignored how his heartbeat picked up at the words you danced around.
“I don’t… blame El for what she did; that was her path to follow, and yours as well. I just… wish I could have had a little longer with you Hubert.” He frowned a little deeper but you didn’t let it discourage you. “I had to follow my path too, even if I knew it was in opposition to yours… but, it would have been nice, I think. To graduate with you and everyone else, have all that time together. To get to go to the millennial festival and reminisce our youth…” You sighed and shook your head. “Look at me, going on about meaningless things. I’ll get on with it.” Now you were smiling again, looking at him so dearly Hubert could swear you were looking at someone else. But, no, it was only the two of you here; with words so thick they took up the air between the two of you and caught in his throat, preventing him from saying anything in return. He probably would have said something foolish anyways. “The truth is, I love you. And I have these entire five years away from you, Hubert. I know there’s no happy ending for us here today; I just… I don’t know what I thought, really, I guess I wanted those words to be out there.” How you managed to smile at him, you weren’t sure. It felt like a weight was lifted off your chest though.
As always, his expression was impossible to read. What he was really feeling, you weren’t sure though by his lack of response it must have been some sort of tumultuous. You took that as your time to return to Georgie; after all, you had done what you came to him to do, so you supposed his response didn’t matter (even if you were dying to hear one, whether it be in your favor or otherwise; something was better than nothing). You were surprised to feel him catch your wrist and for a moment, you feared the worst; even if he was the man you loved, Hubert wasn’t below playing dirty to see to what must be done. But no, instead he spoke, words that hurt more than perhaps hearing him say he didn’t feel the same. “Had I not given my life to another long ago… I may have given it to you, instead.” You stiffened, his touch dropping as quickly as it came. You didn’t know how to respond to that, the weight of those words far greater than any confession he could have given you.
“...Thank you for that.” You didn’t have to heart to face him and say those words. You knew, once you mounted your pegasus again, the two of you would go back to being enemies. One of you would end up killing the other, in all likelihood. “Despite everything… I happy I got to meet you, Hubert.” You jumped upon the saddle staring down at him now. “I hope, next time we meet…. Things can be different.” He could only nod as you took to the skies, taking on his own fighting stance as you readied to attack as well.
Next time… perhaps, next time, the two of you could find a way to be happy together. Hubert couldn’t wait to find it, wherever it may be. He looked forward to the day he might be able to fly with you once again…
#heros-spiritus#hubert x reader#fe3h#fe x reader#hubert von vestra#feh#fire emblem heroes#I swear to god if this formats weird on mobile im gonna SCREAM
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I'm feeling in a particular mood for some more Logan stuff, (totally not my comfort character who unfortunately is a medium for a lot of angst /s) so maybe the almost-relapse?
the littles accidentally trigger logan's ED (janus and patton help him thru it)
This is a copy pastd from a really long message i sent to liv a few weeks ago, just in case the grammar is weird or somethin!
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context: whenever roman is a brat and refuses to eat dinner, logan gets noticeably more frustrated than with any other bratty behaviour because it hits too close to home to his eating disorder
so...
one day when patton is out somewhere, maybe at his carpentry class ((thats actually slightly spoilers for a big concept for the main blog lol)), logan has both the littles
and roman is bratty and refuses to eat dinner and logan breathes evenly and tries not to worry abt it bc he KNOWS roman always eats, hes just doing it to be annoying, breathe, he isnt actually restricting its ok
and logan was literally holding the baby fork up to vees mouth and suddenly she giggles and pushes it away
"come on baby, yummy time" logan coos and smiles a little but he doesnt feel it, and with his other hand he tickles lightly under vees chin and she giggles and logan smiles and goes to feed her again
but she pushes the fork away and babbles "mo bima!"
and roman laughs "yeah, no dinner! no dinner!" and bounces
and logan is feeling rlly shaky and hot suddenly and swallows thickly and ignores roman, and keeps looking at vee "princess, please open up," trying not to pay attention to how shaky his voice is. "its papa's spaghetti remember? yummy" he nods enthusiastically and goes to feed her again
but again vee just giggles all squeaky and pushes the fork away and looks at roman with a big smile for his approval. and roman is like "yeah vee! rebellion!!!" still so playful
but he hasnt noticed logans chest is heaving a little and hes staring at where vee pushed the fork away and logan was too shaky not to drop it on the floor.
and he looks up at vee and how small she is and how shes genuinely on the lower end of average weight and they need to make sure she doesnt dip down into underweight and thinks about how terrified he is of the idea that if she did develop an ED like he did it would be so dangerous and he cant see his baby go through that and-
it just hits him so so so harshly and hes suddenly crying and roman and vee freeze and look at him. and he hurriedly wipes away his tears and breathes shakily and tries to say again
"vee pl-please just ea--" and his throat closes up, he cant even say the word 'eat' and he gags on his tears and jumps up from his chair to run out to the downstairs bathroom and locks himself in trying to calm down and stop gagging.
and he can hear vee crying and roman - adult now - promising her its okay, mama feels a bit sicky but everythings okay, lets phone nana, its ok baby
and logan is breathing too fast and shaking and crying with his back against the bathroom door, not gagging anymore, but unable to take himself outside
. he hears roman feeding vee, and vee giggling and clearly enjoying the food, but no matter how comforting that is to hear he cant get over that genuine terror he felt when vee refused to eat, its his worst nightmare for vee to develop disordered eating - for any of them, but vee is already very thin and it could be critical, and logan cant get over that
when janus arrives (barely ten minutes later, he must have jumped in the car straight away which is only used for emergencies bc of janus' partial blindness) he speaks quietly to roman, and of course theyre trying to be subtle
but the kitchen is only across the hall from the bathroom and logan hears every word of roman explaining what happened and how confusing it was and how patton wont be home for another forty five minutes and roman didnt want either vee or logan to be alone but they probably shouldnt be around each other right now since vee gets so upset when the others arent happy
roman tries to talk to logan first through the bathroom door, apologising for misbehaving and promising he wont do that again. but can logan tell him what exactly was so bad about it this time? so roman can not do whatever it is in future.
but logan cant bring himself to say anything. he cant tell roman about this at least not yet he hasnt felt ready yet even if its been years and he doesnt know if he ever will be ready to tell roman about his ED
so after realising logan wont talk to him, roman swaps with janus. janus doesnt know the details but he knows theres something about logan and eating and hes made an educated guess from all the fibs hes heard over the years.
"hey, dic" (janus' unsavoury nickname for logan that he insists is just short for dictionary) "do you need a glass of water?"
logans throat is actually dry from hyperventilating and he says with a quiet scratchy voice through the door "yes please"
and when janus brings it to the door he just knocks gently and when logan opens the door to accept it janus doesnt make any comment on logans messy hair where hes run his hand through it or on his glassy red rimmed eyes or on the tremble of his fingers. but he does say "i know it must be so cozy in there" he nods to the cramped cold bathroom "but you might just prefer it in your room"
logan flushes a little and nods, comes out of the bathroom and heads to the stairs, but he pauses at the bottom of the stairs thinking... he doesnt know if he can be trusted alone upstairs. theres another bathroom up there and the gagging has made his stomach churn and he feels FULL from dinner and if only he emptied it then maybe he would feel better right? .... no
so he rasps without turning back to janus "i... i cant be alone"
"look behind you, idiot" janus says and its far closer than logan remembered him being.
he whips his head round to see janus was following closely behind him. janus raises a pierced eyebrow "well, are we going to stand in the stairway all night?" and of course its snarky but its soft too
so logan breathes deeply and they go upstairs to his room. janus makes himself at home, immediately grabbing a book from logans book case and collapsing sideways in logans armchair as soon as they stepped in the room. logan reclines on his bed and sips his water and does breathing exercises and tries to not feel humiliated about this breakdown
every time logan tries to apologise for disturbing janus' evening (he didnt) or asks if janus is sure roman is grownup enough to look after vee appropriately (he is) or insists that he is okay to be left alone now (he's not) janus just murmurs "shut up im reading"
when patton gets back roman just tells him logan isnt feeling good and patton hurries up to see him - and upon seeing his husband logan is overcome by shame that he almost relapsed and relief that his best friend is here and a wave of tears that he tries and fails to blink away
and janus just quietly bids them good night and promises he'll stay a couple hours to keep roman and vee company, but patton insists he stays the night in pattons room (its not safe for him to drive in thr dark) and janus is used to this routine by now that he knows where the spare pillows are
so janus leaves quietly and logan croaks "thanks, old man" trying to sound casual but regretting it when his voice shakes. janus just holds up a peace sign and closes logans door behind him on the way out.
as soon as the door closes logans face crumples and he hides his eyes behind his arm and patton practically bounds over to logan and climbs onto bed next to him and cradles logans head to his shoulder as he cries
they stay like that, cuddling in bed, patton cradling logans head and kissing the nape of his neck and wrapping his arm around logans waist to spoon him and whisper about what happened and how they can avoid it in future
but mainly they just breathe and cry together and patton fills the hours with soft affirmations of love and getting logan a tea and promising its okay if logan wants a cookie with it but logan says maybe later (later turns out to be 2:30 in the morning but at least it really was later)
they barely sleep that night but its all comfort and talking and by morning despite being exhausted, logan feels safer and breakfast goes by without a hitch
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just some notes me and liv made that i think highlights some main points:
logan struggling so much even when he knows that the kids are just playing around and they don't really mean that they don't want to eat, but it's just one of those things that inevitably hits too close to home
it just suddenly hit him! like any other day he can cope with roman doing that, its a small blip usually, but the fact that VEE started refusing food freaked logan out so much bc they genuinely have to keep an eye on her weight just bc shes naturally so small
his emotions about his history with an ED plus his overprotective mama cg space making him nearly go into a panic attack from the thought that vee could develop an ED is very sad and very true
and janus coming right away!! and he and roman handle the siatuation so well, like roman was so smart knowing not to leave logan alone, and janus calling him dic and taking him to his room and staying there until patton gets back
and him crying from just seeing patton because he's his best friend and he can be vulnerable around him is very :'c <3
hes so so relieved to see patton but theres also the slightests "ive let my husband down" bc he thinks bc patton helped him so much he owes it to patton to not relapse - but of course pat reassures him its natural to relapse but he didnt! he caught it in the early stages and asked for help and patton is never disappointed in him
he caught it!!! he caught it and he stopped himself and he let himself be helped by both roman and janus and patton and he didn't even relapse!! and this whole thing is really a sign of how far he's come that he was able to accept their help in his vulnerable state, even if roman and janus didn't have the full story, they still wanted to help him through whatever he was experiencing
#mama logan#little big eating disorder#do not reblog#long post#asks#adorable undead queen#little big after dark concepts
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