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inkskinned · 1 year

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it's been said before and i'm sure said better than i can phrase it. but really, really - if you like making "i'm going to kill myself" jokes, please try switching to being ironically conceited instead.

anytime something goes wrong, say things like "ah well at least i'm beautiful and charming and everyone loves me." when you forget something, try "my big huge brain is so smart and thinking about too many other very big wizardly thoughts you wouldn't even understand." when you're frustrated by one of your symptoms, start talking like you're in My Immortal. "Life has come for me but my eyes are beautiful pools of gorgeous fire and my hair is amazing. I stuck my middle finger up at life and told it to fuck off and it did."

just... try it for a month or two. try saying the most absurdly self-congratulatory shit you can think of.

i know it's tempting to make suicide or self-harm jokes. and for me at least, a decade ago (!) when someone suggested i stop making those kinds of jokes, i was kind of at a loss for what to replace them with. i wanted to make light of these moments, but genuinely (at the time) my first thought really was suicidal ideation. there was a part of me that even felt like ... i was kind of "making light" of that voice. that if i could say i want to die lol, it would help take the sting out of that genuine (albeit passive) desire. like i could turn my illness into a joke.

when i started complimenting myself instead, it felt awkward and stupid. it felt really, really ironic. what i was actually saying was nobody would ever think this stuff about me, that's what makes it so fucking funny.

but. the effect was immediate. first thing i noticed was the people around me. when i dropped a glass and said ah my skin is too beautiful and sleek the glass has swooned and broken for me, other people were suddenly overjoyed to jump in with the joke. rather than making an awkward moment, we'd both start cracking up. ah princess sleek hands, i've heard of you.

i was 19. i hadn't noticed i'd been making others tense when i said i want it all to end. i know now that it's incredibly hard to know how to walk that moment - do you talk to them about your concern? do you potentially make them uncomfortable by asking if they're okay? do you ignore the situation? do you help them pick up the glass, or do they need to do it by themselves? are they genuinely made suicidal over this small moment? and most importantly, how do you - without professional training or supplies - actually help?

most people want to help you pick up the glass in your life, they just have no fucking idea how to do it. they don't want to make anything worse. they don't want to make assumptions about you. they love you, they're scared for you - and being scared makes people kind of freeze up. it's not because they don't love you. it's because they do.

now when something bad happens, my first thought is how can i make a stupid joke about this. it isn't my brain saying you're a dumb fucking bitch. i spend more time laughing. i spend more time being gentle with myself. i spend more time feeling good.

and the thing is - what's kind of funny - is that you'd be surprised by how many people agree with you. the first time i said i'm too pretty to understand that, someone else said to be fair you're the prettiest person in this room. i promise - you really don't know how kindly your friends see you. but they love you for a reason. they sort of reverse-velveteen-rabbit you. your weird and ugly spots fade away and you just become... the love they want to give you.

go love yourself ironically. the worst thing that happens is that you end up tricking your reflection into actually loving you.

#something something toxic relationships notwithstanding #(re: the friends stuff)#most people love you. automatically. for being alive. like people are just MADE that way.#and the reason kms jokes don't always land is bc people fucking love you and are like - ahhh how do i help #let them help you!!!!!!

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chiptrillino-art · 4 months

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sooo... @ranilla-bean wrote a fic The Iconoclast beta read by @faux-fires but before rana and i got to talk lots about sout eats asian clothing and khmer cuture and... i stat down... drew the first one... and the other two. enojoy?

#atla #zuko #druk #ahhh i am not sure how to tag this....#but look at druk!!! look how cute druk is!!!#WE HAVE BEEN ROBBED!#no acctuallyi have been robbed because i asked for 'tiny arms???' on druk #because its cute and hillarious but...#its not accurate...#sadly...#and i also lost smal thin squiggly mustache debate....#which is truly a loss if you ask me!

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happyheidi · 5 months

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#ahhh such witchy cottage vibes #I love it #cottagecore #nature #naturecore #flowers #flowercore #warmcore #chaotic aesthetic #alternative aesthetic #dark cottagecore #plants #witchlr #witch aesthetic

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giselez · 10 months

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metal ⚔️🦈

#my art #nimona #nimona fanart #ballister blackheart #ballister boldheart #words can’t explain how much this film and its graphic novel mean to me <3 #this film has been such a huge art inspiration ahhh i adore it

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catharsistine · 11 months

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The scene in the Barbie trailer when Barbie is skating around with Ken and asks "Why is everyone staring at me?"

THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE AN ADOLESCENT GIRL.

Living in Barbieland (childhood girlhood) but then suddenly you're all grown up in the real world subject to scrutiny and sexualisation (the guy slapping Barbie's ass) and feeling like existing is a crime?

Being forced by adult men into a box (which leads to the not like other girls syndrome) and exploring the 'real world' (being forced to grow up too quickly) while fighting the realisation that maybe the world sucks and being a woman is so difficult while hoping with all your heart that it's not always going to be this way.

Losing touch with the very things that made you happy because they're considered immature and girly? (The group of teens that said they hadn't played with Barbies since they were five.)

Older women telling you that you have to learn the truth about the world and that you can never have your old life back (Kate Mckinnon's Barbie) despite it being the only thing you yearn for, but also older women being a bright spot and support (the old woman on the bench) in the endless slough of life.

And this is just the trailer!!! I'm so excited for this movie I can't breathe, Greta Gerwig the woman that you are 😭

#barbie #more thoughts on this when my mental coherence returns #but ahhh!#im also really excited to see america ferrera's role because I have a feeling it's gonna be pivotal #Barbie meta #the barbie movie #barbie (2023)#shut up im so excited #ken is the emotional support pet every adolescent girl needs #THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE A TEENAGE GIRL #i already love this movie so much #and it hasnt even released #thoughts r scattered cuz the trailer is that good

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barblaz-arts · 3 months

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It's like catholic guilt or something idk

I'm not one for the who fell first who fell harder debate usually, but Charlie definitely fell first based on that flashback. And I don't need to elaborate who fell harder, cuz it's definitely Ms "I'll be your armor, I'll spend my life being your partner".

I like to think Vaggie spent some time kindly brushing off Charlie's advances because she was still holding out hope that she could somehow return to heaven. But eventually she decided that Hell's worth staying for as long as Charlie is with her, and that she'd help her achieve her dream of getting other sinners to ascend instead to make up for all the souls she destroyed.

#hazbin hotel #chaggie #charlie morningstar #vaggie #cant stop thinking about charlie and Vaggie pre-relationship #guys they were probably so cute ahhh #my art #also i cant draw on the computer rn but these scenarios have to be let outta my head

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shotmrmiller · 2 months

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i love Simon in all shapes but there's just something so fucking delicious about him getting fuller because of the way you feed him.

he's not military no more, he's hung that beret up.

no more MRE's and whatever else.

Just home cooked food that'll put a meat on his bones.

He ain't gonna starve no more. Simon comes home to a warm meal that'll fill his belly and he better ask for seconds, otherwise you'll be thinking he didn't like what you made him.

You like the extra pounds he's put on! He's gained happy relationship weight, and you love how his tummy presses into you as he gets between your thighs.

His hard body is turning soft and you love every inch of it.

The way to his heart is through his stomach and even if you make cookies that you messed the recipe up on by adding salt instead of sugar, he's eating it.

Like a good husband should.

#simon ghost riley #ahhh i love him #simon ghost riley x reader #simon ghost riley x you

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circuscountdowns · 4 months

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#cult of the lamb #This took so long I no longer like it ahhh #I think for a while these two can only talk about their problems in a confessional ass way instead of face to face.#The cat’s upset reality doesn’t match the fanfiction in his head!!! Lambbbb!#cotl art

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salamispots · 5 months

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confetti cat + back view for fun

#rug hooking #artists on tumblr #fiber arts #purely personals #the backside is a creaTURE kjfhgjfh #finished up the otter one but I'll post the finished pic after I bind it #and decided to sneak in another gift one #the bigger pieces are really fun but so are the smaller ones #I keep thinking it's monday anyways I will now slumber #also it's very rainy today ahhh

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grzybjek · 10 months

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And I hope that all of the fake memories I’ve created with you in my head, will someday become real for both of us.

#digital art #procreate #oc art #original character #digital artist #doodle #oc #digital drawing #oc drawing #i love gay people #goofy ahhh glowing silhouette

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lovl3igh · 3 months

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sir, that's your future wife you're talking about, you're gonna hit the wall with a car bc you'll be too busy looking in her pretty eyes, don't make me laugh at you

#if he only knew #boy's gonna think about their possible children in 5 years #ahhh I love the evolution of their relationship #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #pjo tv show #percy jackson spoilers #annabeth chase #percabeth #pjo

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area51-narutorun · 5 months

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