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not-poignant · 1 year

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Gwyn/Temsen anon. Sorry if it felt like pushing for another Gwyn story, but hilariously as much as I love Gwyn I wanted Temsen focused story where we got to see them both hiccup and thrive in a relationship. His partner being Gwyn was just the cherry on the sundae. Thanks for taking the time to reply, your other characters are not veggies.

Hi hi!

Tbh idk that it would be much of a 'relationship.' I ship them, but I don't think it would be a particularly nice ship. Temsen is very seriously not invested in any kind of emotional caretaking in his personal life that isn't connected to say, someone like Gary. He's not very kind to his lovers, and he specifically looks for conquests. He would enjoy taking Gwyn down, forcing him to confront reality, and then being like 'welp, that was fun :) I have people's lives to look after.'

I think that's the thing with things I sort of headcanon but don't plan on writing is also that a lot of the time it's because I don't necessarily imagine that relationship thriving or having a happy ending? Which again, doesn't mean it can't, just that it's not my headspace!

Temsen's already thriving. Putting him in a relationship is like...going to do the opposite of that to his life :D And I love him for it. And Gwyn being topped by a peak alpha is great to imagine, but idk how many times I can completely shatter his psyche, esp with a character who has almost no interest in repairing the damage because the damage was kind of the point. x.x

I love Temsen, but he's far more responsible in his role as a healer, and I think sometimes he treats alphas the way 'bad alphas' treat omegas on purpose, to deal with some of his rage. Gwyn's a perfect target for him, but 'target' is probably a better term for it than love interest fsdlakfjsdasd

#asks and answers #ohlo ohlo temsen #gwyn ap nudd #underline the black #it's what silvia and i have been talking about tbh #the absolute miserable noncon tragedy of it all #and how kind of semi-satisfying that would be #but also how it wouldn't make for like #a very good story necessarily #in that sense a *happy* relationship for them is way better as a headcanon for other folks #and thanks for your kind words anon!#i just get asked an awful lot about gwyn and augus stories the most #sometimes it feels pretty terrible to keep saying no sdlkfjsa

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skcirthinq · 8 months

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Soooooooo I may have gotten invested in tangledinink's (@tangledinink ) 'Im Sorry, Teenage Mutant What Now?' And like_theletter started a fic based off of this series, and taking inspiration from alicat54c's 'Empathy is Learned' series.

Anyways, here's some scenes from Scotch Gambit, by like_theletter (@liketheletter-l ), using tangledinink's human designs of the Rise of the TMNT boys.

Featuring:

Mikey unleashing youngest sibling demonic energy. (sketch 1)

Raph's counter to that. (sketch 2)

Leo getting parental praise being enough to break through the chess hyper-fixation. (sketch 3)

Leo smugly trying to manipulate Donnie into playing chess. (sketches 4 & 5)

#rottmnt #did i tag everything correctly? who knows. not me.#but really all of these works ive hopefully linked to are a lot of fun and i recommend them if youre into rise.#sorry that the sketches are messy and some of the resolution is bad. if i dont post it now im gonna forget!#i didnt tag alicat54c bc i didnt want to bother them since like. their story isnt necessarily being shown here? but like. i have read it!#its very good! totally different premise from the other two stories tho

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infizero · 7 months

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i cant phrase this well but infinity train book 2 is for the aroace transgenders. lake transgenderism is obvious but nothing in my life has screamed to me queerplatonicism as much as lake and jesse like their qpr readings are off the fucking charts

#infinity train in general is for the aromantics. i've talked about this before (very poorly) but the way it handles romance #as in ''there rlly isnt any theres just characters and they interact naturally and sometimes that involves things that read as romantic''#tulip has 0 romance in her story. lake and jesse as stated before have crazy queerplatonic vibes.#grace and simon is probably the most romantic it gets and thats literally barely anything.#and ryan and min ofc have the classic homoerotic childhood friends thing going on.#its literally so good i dont know how to describe it but just. i think its the fact that like i said they're not treated as ''romances''#you can absolutely read them as such its very easy to. but theres nothing explicitly romantic about any of it #there's no discussion regarding any of these guys about crushes or dating or whatever. they just exist #its not necessarily the absence of romance. its just the removal of the label romance. i love it so so much #serena.txt #GAH i still feel like i didnt explain it properly. idk its really one of those things you just kinda Feel watching it

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ceryulean · 6 months

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thinking about Kim Hansoo from the stars of this universe are crueler than ours by fireflyfall on Ao3 ; I'm not a huge fan of OC fics/SIs but I'm really intrigued by the plot of this one (and also I just love Hansoo a lot)

I took some general liberties and made some assumptions about Hansoo (at least partially Korean, is the second youngest and appears to be a teen (as KDJ describes them) but owns a driver's license so they should be on the older teen/early twenties side, passes as masc, etc, etc) and also just put a whole bunch of personal headcanons on them (note the liberal use of teal lol) and now here they are :D

#fanart for fanfic #my favourite concept lmao #my art #fanart #orv #kim hansoo #orv oc #(I guess?)#this fic made me laugh out loud a good few times #also transmasc/enby pov character was very validating lol #this is my own interpretation of hansoo btw #not necessarily 100% accurate to story #I mean it's an SI story so.#uhh please check out the fic it's really great!

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topflights · 2 years

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wrestling is so weird. like. these aren’t real people. but they ARE real people. but they’re not. sometimes they use their real names, sometimes they act like themselves, but they’re still CHARACTERS, despite using the same name and acting like themselves and generally just being a person. but then you have people that act like they’re demons or gods or aliens and like. they’re considered just as normal and average and they’re just tossed into a ring with ppl that are Just Dudes, and sometimes the Just Dudes WIN!!!

sometimes it’s so hard to be like “hey this is a character, this isn’t a real person” when you see like. dante martin or jon moxley or toni storm or jamie hayter or somebody that’s just a Person. but then they go up against malakai black or danhausen or abadon or alien gimmick kris statlander and it’s like oh yeah, that’s right, this is all very much a story telling experience that’s being acted out for my entertainment and i LOVE that. i can’t get that kind of experience anywhere else. thats such a pro wrestling specific emotion to feel and i love it so much. kayfabe is so fun.

#note that this isn’t me insinuating that kayfabe can’t be broken #i think it’s totally fine for ppl to break kayfabe. i was JUST praising the bucks for breaking kayfabe on bte this week #bc it gave the video a somuch more authentic feel bc it WAS authentic.#at least more authentic than usual. sometimes it’s nice to see the people that play our favorite kayfabe people #the person behind the character is still important #even if i usually don’t partake in a ton of out of kayfabe content just bc i rlly enjoy the stories and characters #i don’t usually talk out of kayfabe. i’m a very in kayfabe person. but i love and appreciate that wrestlers aren’t forced #to maintain their characters at all times anymore. sometimes i DO wanna know what wrestlers think. and it’s very nice especially in times #like this where they can use their influence for good and offer their support for causes they care but #even if their character wouldn’t necessarily do that #anyways. i have a lot of feelings and opinions abt kayfabe but it basically boils down to.#let people enjoy kayfabe. but let wrestlers be people. respect people that enjoy and get invested in kayfabe #but also don’t harass wrestlers that like having a separate out of the ring persona where they can be more themselves #astra talks

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iiguess · 2 months

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What spirit of the Zodiac possesses you?

CAT.

You have been chosen by the spirit of the Cat to be the outcast. You must fight your way into deserving anything in your life... or at least that is how it feels sometimes. You have the ability to gain some perspective and let go, allow yourself to do so. You have great passion and incredible instincts.

ROOSTER.

You could be anything, but sometimes it’s easier to be what others need you to be. You feel deeply, and act as clay molded by the hands of others. Maybe you feel like you can be sacrificed so long as others are happy. But you find that that is a difficult venture when not everyone can be made happy. This is why the Rooster has chosen to possess you.

TAGGED BY: @chibitantei TAGGING: @everlastiingiimmortals, @epitomees, @phantomuheist, @spaced-out-muses and you!

#;; from one story to the next ( tag game. )#;; the girl who cried wolf ( persona 5 au )#;; all the world's a stage ( persona 4 au )#;; world hopper ( main verse. )#o|<#mAN #both are very fitting to her respective verses #with sam in her p5 verse clinging to her identity of being an outcast not necessarily because she /wants/ to #but because it's what she's used to #and the idea of letting her guard down and being happy--of having that happiness taken away from her again?#that terrifies her #as for p4 and main verse sam?#good /gosh/ does the whole being molded by others' needs apply #of course that aspect applies to p4 verse since she's more likely to hide aspects of herself to meet the needs and expectations of others #but the devastation of not being able to make someone happy is very main verse sam #because that again plays into her frustration and fear of not having control or being powerless #and by gosh does it tear her apart to not be able to make the people she cares for happy

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mirrortouchedsea · 11 months

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Everyone tells me to just stay the same (but it's not like that)

Word count: 1640

Summary: Hinata finally decides to tell Rinne about his past at Yumenosaki. CW for Setsubun mentions, identity issues, and mentions of abuse

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Hinata isn’t entirely sure what compels him to send a message to the leader of Crazy:B. Rinne Amagi had a habit of doting on him and treating him like another younger brother, which he knew Yuta wasn’t a big fan of. Yuta would often call Rinne a bad influence on Hinata, but Rinne was also one of the only people who treated him like a normal kid.

It was kind of addicting in a way. It wasn’t just Rinne who had treated him like that either. The rest of Crazy:B had taken him in as one of their juniors (despite the fact that Kohaku was younger than Hinata) and Alkaloid, or at least Hiiro, had taken a liking to him as well. He treasured those nights that he spent with Niki and Hiiro playing video games and snacking on homemade sweets late into the night.

Maybe it shouldn’t have been surprising that the first person he texted was Rinne on the anniversary of Setsubun. It had only been a year and yet it felt so much longer than that. He was grateful that the year since then had been filled with smiles and warmth, much more than years previous had been. The Amagi brothers were partially responsible for that change in his life.

Rinne responded quickly and asked if he’s alright since he doesn’t normally send cryptic messages like this in the middle of the day. He said he’ll be there in 15 minutes after debriefing with his unit.

Hinata didn’t bother replying to that, instead opting to just tell Rinne everything when he gets to the rooftop garden with him. He needed to figure out exactly what he wanted to tell Rinne anyway. It’s not in the older man’s nature to judge people based on things they can’t control, and he would understand a lot of Hinata’s own problems…probably. Rinne also wasn’t fond of showing weakness in front of other people.

Hinata sat at the edge of the garden, towards the back. Being so high up reminded him of that day, but this was almost cathartic in a way. He was in a better place now, with people who didn’t know about that incident at all and cared for him as his own person. As much as he knew Yuta didn’t like the nickname Rinne gave him, it was a comfort for Hinata.

Hina, such a simple nickname and yet it was a breath of fresh air, a new start, and here he was about to change everything. He just hoped that Rinne wouldn’t change how he talked with Hinata afterwards.

Hinata was dangling his feet over the edge, looking down at the bustling street below when Rinne finally sat beside him.

“What’s up, Hina? Somethin’ on your mind?” Rinne’s voice was gentle today, soft and even. Such a strange contrast to the Rinne most people knew.

“Mmm, you could say that,” he replied, not looking at the older man. “Rinne, have you ever felt like…people don’t see you for you?”

Rinne chuckled. “Every damn day Hina. Even back home…” he trailed off. Hinata knew not to push that topic.

The two of them were like peas in a pod in that sense.

Hinata laughed too. “Yeah, I knew you’d get it.”

They sat in silence for a few minutes, Rinne waiting patiently for Hinata to keep going and Hinata searching for the words to say. But just having someone else there helped keep him from spiraling too much.

“I just…feel like people wouldn’t miss me if I was gone, because they see me and Yuta-kun as the same person. It hurts a lot but I don’t know what to do about it because…I feel the same way. Like Yuta-kun and I are one person in two, but that’s not true anymore. I try to keep telling myself that we’re different but it’s hard to change how you think when it’s all you’ve ever known.

Yuta-kun has so many friends and is always laughing and smiling with them and I want to be like that too, but after ah…”

“After what, Hina?”

“After Setsubun fes, people started treating me like I would break at any moment. I’m not grandma’s fine china or anything that will break if you handle it too roughly! But everyone at Yumenosaki can’t seem to get past that video.”

Hinata still couldn’t look at Rinne, but he knew Rinne was confused. He hadn’t known about Setsubun at all. Of course he hadn’t, he didn’t go to school with them and was much too old to have been there at the same time as Hinata even if he had. It’s why he was drawn to him in the first place, along with his roommates, Niki and Hiiro.

“Ah, sorry. You don’t have any idea what I’m talking about, do you?”

“Not a clue.”

“Long story short, I had a mental breakdown on the roof of the school last year and…it was filmed and everyone at the school saw it. It’s not like I had much of a choice in the distribution either, so everyone was just watching me like I wasn’t a real person.”

Rinne moved a hand to Hinata’s back and began rubbing gentle circles between his shoulder blades. There were damp spots on Hinata’s cheeks. He rubbed his eyes with his hands balled up in fists. Why did his lowest moment have to be broadcast to everyone he knew? Why was it made to seem like a spectacle for people to watch and not do anything to help? Even after his monologue to his brother making it clear that he didn’t want to be treated like the same person anymore and not knowing how to distinguish himself without just moving into the background, nobody offered him help.

He was drowning in the unknown and it took the creation of ES and Crazy:B for him to find a lighthouse to guide him to somewhere safe. Even when Crazy:B was against the entire world, hated by everyone, Rinne and the other members never once hurt 2wink. After their collaboration at the nightclub Rinne had taken a liking to Hinata. He was there for him to lean on when he wasn’t sure about the direction of his unit or how to be a big brother or a good senior to the new first years or just how to navigate life.

At some point, Rinne had pulled Hinata into a side hug and just let him cry into his side. Hinata leaned into the touch and allowed himself to let it all out.

Rinne’s hugs were always warm.

It took several minutes of crying before Hinata ran out of tears. His sobs turned to sniffles and he pulled his legs to his chest.

“You didn’t deserve any of that, Hina.” Rinne’s voice was serious, but not cold. It was a warm honey-sweetened tea on a rainy day.

Another stretch of silence. Hinata’s head was spinning and numb and full of cotton.

“But…I know how it feels. When I was younger, I had to keep my emotions in check, especially in front of other people. Any sign of weakness was always punished by my father. ‘A good leader doesn’t cry’ he would tell me.

When my mom died, I was…eight or nine. I couldn’t cry at her funeral and when we returned home I just couldn’t hold it in anymore. I’ll spare you the details but he punished me severely. I never wanted Hiiro-kun to see me like that again and I made myself stop feeling. It felt like I was just there to be the next leader of the village, never allowed to be myself.

What I’m tryin’ to say here is that I get it. I know how it feels for people to try and put you in a box that doesn’t fit, and how they treat you when you finally break. It’s okay to be frustrated and angry that it happened, but you can’t let it consume you. Show the world that Hinata Aoi is his own person, that you aren’t just that video and that you’re here to stay.”

Hinata sniffled and leaned more into Rinne’s touch.

“Thanks, Rinne-senpai. It means a lot, heh. I guess we all have our own burdens to carry.”

“Yeah. Life is about learning to carry them and not let them drag you down. If it gets too heavy, I’ll be there to pick you back up and carry it for you.”

“You don’t have to go that far, Rinne-senpai. How will I learn to carry my burdens if you take them for yourself? Wouldn’t that just make it heavier on you?”

“I’ll take on everyone’s burdens if it means they get to smile just for one moment. I’ll fight fate itself if that’s what it takes.”

“I’m not sure why, but I believe that you would find a way to do that, even though most people would say it’s impossible.”

“Thanks for believing in me, Hina.”

Hinata laughed, Rinne lightened the mood just enough that he felt like everything was at peace for the moment. His cheeks were stained with tears and his eyes would be puffy and red when he returned to the dorm, but at least he’d be smiling.

Even if the world was against them, Hinata could count on Rinne at least being in their corner no matter what. Rinne was a lighthouse to people like Hinata, a steady light in the rocky ocean saying that someone is there, watching out for you.

Despite the front that he put up and how he had a bad habit of pushing people away, Rinne was always there when it mattered.

Hinata fell asleep curled up on the rooftop as Rinne hummed a gentle melody from his hometown. And everything was right with the world.

#shay writes #enstars #ensemble stars #hinata aoi #rinne amagi #aoi hinata #amagi rinne #dont tag as ship #i think about them too much. have you seen my meta post on main? have you?#this is based on that. ugh theyre so.#i read setsubun a month ago and then reread night club and i was like. oh this make so much sense #why hinata feels kinda distant from the other characters sometimes #the kid just wants to be normal but he really cant after setsubun huh.#and then you get these new guys who know nothing. and well. second chance.#also i felt like rinne was too direct but also i considered that like. 1) hinata doesnt need stupid riddles and games right now and 2)#rinne was very straight forward with hiiro in the main story so i think he can be up front about this stuff when he knows the situation #calls for it. so i think this is fine. its good. big bro rinne means so much to me do u understand #also he gives the warmest hugs. not necessarily the gentlest or anything but theyre very warm. to me #anywayyyyyyyyyy tag ramble over im waiting for an email from my loan provider #biting and maiming i need to pay my student loans please please please #okay im doneeeeeeee im done i'll cross post this to ao3 in a bit

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all-seeing-ifer · 10 months

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prefacing this by saying that I know that this is truly not a hill worth dying on, it is merely one I am choosing to die on because. idk man I make bad decisions. but I do think it's a crying shame that steven universe got saddled with this negative reputation as being kind of the quintessential example of a piece of media that's very safe and unchallenging and quote unquote wholesome, because like. ok i get that this negative reputation is really more about the fandom than about the show itself (and that's fair. the fandom sucked. i would never deny that. i was there gandalf etc.) but it does still feel a bit unfair bc when you take steven universe For What It Is (namely, a cartoon network show aimed primarily at kids and families) and compare it to other contemporary shows with the same genre/target demographic, it honestly was pretty challenging and complex and ambitious. even leaving aside for a second that it was very ground breaking in terms of children's media acknowledging that gay people exist in a way that left the crew constantly catching shit from the network, I struggle to think of any other children's media that would dare to explore the kind of themes and topic that su explored. things like grief, bereavement, how this kid's relationships with the adults in his life are impacted by the fact that his mum died in childbirth giving birth to him, trauma and mental illness (I know that dealing with mental health has become more common in children's media recently but there's definitely none that have been prepared to address the uglier sides of mental illness in the way that steven universe future did), explaining consent in ways that kids can understand, letting its protagonists be genuinely unlikeable at times, introducing the idea of restorative justice and there not being one singular bad guy that can be killed to save the day. These are topics and themes that you don't see a lot of in kids' media because they're hard to portray in a way that feels honest while still being appropriate and understandable to kids, and I think the show does deserve the credit it got for actually being willing to tackle this stuff and imo doing it very successfully most of the time.

AND to be honest, at the risk of leaning a bit close to talking mad shit about some of su's contemporaries (especially when at the end of the day i do quite like these other shows), it does. kind of grind my gears that other tumblr-popular animated shows like gravity falls and the owl house have managed to completely sidestep getting saddled with the same kind of negative, unchallenging reputation that su has, despite the fact that from a purely storytelling perspective both these shows are WAY safer and more easily digestible than su ever was lmao

#i mean toh was very envelope pushing in terms of queer representation hence why it got cancelled #but in terms of pure storytelling? yeah it's a pretty conventional good vs evil story #and like i think it does that WELL same for gravity falls but they're not necessarily. breaking any new ground #which is fine! not every show has to!#and i am going to shut up now before i say anything. actually potentially inflammatory about them lmao #steven universe #ifer rambles

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neige-leblanche · 7 months

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"idk why i hate neige so much" probably because he is an antagonist! hope this helps

#txt #like. the premise of twst is that the villains are the protagonists #& while as major characters the main students get plenty of development to break apart the hero/villain dichotomy #the premise of the game does in fact suggest that characters who are by pretty much all definitions Good Guys are going to work against you #ive talked about this before but while i myself absolutely adore neige i dont claim that hes meant to be a sympathetic character #the masquerade event is the first time we see him being really noble; book 6 revealing that he actually is a v good person is written as a #bittersweet moment (the characters are contemplating who 'deserved' to win the vdc & are implied to be a lil uncomfortable w their grudge #against neige) whereas in book 5 the main two facets we see of him are 1. people like him 2. he's very professional #neither of which are traits that are necessarily endearing (which since imo the writers are skilled in general. they are aware of)#why i like neige is a whole different & much sappier story lololololol #anyway maybe i'll rewrite this into a post of its own sometime lol if so im sorry in advance for the repetition #anyanyway. now im thinking abt neiges character development🥰

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ghost-proofbaby · 1 year

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24h eddie is so the type to be like “do you need me to come fight someone? or come get you?” when you’re just like ranting about a coworker being annoying

“no, unfortunately murder for microwaving tuna in the break room is frowned upon”

i see your scenario and raise you the scenario that prior to all this, he would have absolutely been the annoying coworker who microwaved tuna.

#you're right but i like chaos #r is so lucky her and eddie don't work together #he'd be a fuckin menace #suddenly the hating would be oh so very real #now i really want an enemies to lovers story where eddie and reader work together #at a coffee shop #at a.... notable coffee shop #one that isn't good necessarily but is very popular #totally not talking about the one *i* work at psh #thank u ily <3 #adoringdanvers <3

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seahydra · 2 months

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Aaahhhhhh I forgot I have teeth extraction tomorrow. Hell world

#atari.vnt #I've tried to be brave and relaxed about it but as the time inches closer I'm scared. I'm actually scared #Getting 2 of em pulled... they're close to the front but not necessarily visible #which means they shouldn't be noticably missing thank goodness.#I dunno. I read up on the process a little and maybe I'm only reading horror stories from a vocal minority buuuuuut...#All the stuff about people talking about their face shape changing and their cheeks sinking in kind of worries me :[#I just got used to/started feeling a little confident in how I look so any kind of change to my appearance now would be scary #Also people were talking about other physical problems they had post-extraction that freaked me out too #Maybe I should just stop reading and try to relax ... aahhhhhh.... but I'm still nervous!!!!!!!#I'm also a little ashamed of myself. I didn't take very good care of myself or my teeth as a teen coz my mental health was BAD.#So I know I only really have myself to blame here and it hurts... orz #Oh well. I just hope everything goes fine and I experience not many bad side effects or results ;o;#dentist tw #Then again due to other physical conditions my teeth are kinda crowded around in my mouth so maybe they needed to come out eventually..

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allieinarden · 16 days

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I pride myself on having hit the most niche Simpsons gripe of all time which is being the sole “Barthood” hater.

#The episode based on the movie Boyhood #“Hate” is a strong word. I love what they were trying to do with it (10 stars for character design) and it had some nice moments and ideas #However long (very long) story short I feel like the real audience for Barthood is people who are peripherally aware of the show #It leverages the power of the characters as pop cultural symbols to tell a more universal story about growing up not necessarily about Bart #So it’s like an interesting 22-minute short film I just don’t think it’s a good episode of The Simpsons #The Simpsons #Anyway I keep seeing this episode on every top 10 modern episode list and I’m like somebody tell them to watch Bartless instead 🙏

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sherlock-is-ace · 9 months

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i find it fascinating how intrinsically different i am from my family for the simple fact that I'm queer and they're not... They respect me and love me, even in their ignorance. And I can't really ask for more than that, but they'll never understand what it's like to be queer, they'll never see the world the way I see it, and that's absolutely mind blowing every time.

#we watched nimona just now #and MY GOD do we experience that movie differently #fdjghdfkg #they litterally don't see past the shapeshifting girl is a monster to knights cause she looks dangerous #the whole deeper meaning of that story is completely lost on them #and sometimes is for good reason #sometimes when i say stuff like ''disney didn't want to make nimona cause they didn't want a gay main character'' their answer is good #it's like ''that's stupid. people don't care''#cause THEY don't care so they don't see past that #but wow are we aware of different things kdjfhdfg #ame energy as when my mom speaks of leonard and daniel from grantchester (a show set in the 50s) like they're married #as if there wasn't a whole plot on s6(?) where leonard went to prision for ''gross indecency''#dfkjgdg #i would LOVE to live in their world for just a little bit #angel talks #personal #feeling very detached from my family today lol but not necessarily in a bad way? just in a sad way

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drinkthemlock · 1 month

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alright now azevedo (fake álvares) is not just a bit of a cunt he is straight up the villain of this novel.

#up until now at least. i feel a redemption arc coming for him #rosauraposting #the story is basically that azevedo invited a few of his friends from school to visit the house of a friend of his (the major) to eat-#-fruits from his orchard. he also has a very beautiful daughter named adelaide-#-whom azevedo is courting. belmiro; one of his friends; catches adelaide’s attention; gets really jealous of azevedo and falls off a tree-#-(they were picking fruit from the trees); so he has to stay at the major’s. azevedo stays with him; trying to malign belmiro at every oppo-#-rtunity (boy is Jealous). it goes dreadfully wrong and adelaide shows more and more affection for belmiro. when they both go to school the-#-next day azevedo starts spreading rumors about adelaide to get revenge on both her and belmiro (who is at his side at all times bc he hurt-#-his foot on the fall and has to be carried around). and that’s where i stopped reading.#there’s the racial and class aspect bc adelaide is not white (her father is half-romani and her mother was black) and belmiro is poor and-#-provincial while azevedo is pretty; moderately wealthy and from the court (Rio)#and the rumors he spreads about her are not only misogynistic but racially motivated (not necessarily because he thinks in that way but bc-#-he wants to weaponize adelaide’s race against her. something she is very insecure about)#(the boys are rousseauists lol)#it is Not Looking Good for Him

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fragmentedblade · 9 months

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No but even beyond the heathcliffean air of his story as a kid, Nelly scene and revenge fantasies included, and even beyond the identification of the self with the craft, the entire concept of Yingxing is so good.

The glimpse we get of the relationship he has with his master has so much potential. What it says about him, what it says about everyone around them, what it says about the kid.

The fact that already as a child Yingxing was vindictive, as he will be as Blade.

His self-consciousness about being a short life species, and how he is right to be self-conscious about it. How in such a short time, being so young, he's had to deal with enormous tragedy, so that he can even as a kid look the truth in the eye and admit it. Admit that he has to work harder, longer, more obsessively, and that still nonetheless there's little chance to get ever at the level of the long life species that look down on him and take him for granted. How he is able to overcome it.

It's incredible also in the context of Dan Feng. How both struggle with their identities and how they get new ones, but in totally opposite ways. Dan Feng is weighted down by what he is and what he can do, and wants to escape that fate, and dreams of a new life in which he can be something else; and Dan Heng is born. Yingxing takes pride in that which he can do, something he wasn't born into, something he had to work very hard to achieve, and that was the path to overcome the prejudices and undermining gazes he had to bear as a short life species. He crafts his place into the Xianzhou society and becomes the legendary Furnace Master. Even on a more personal level, one could argue this is his way of maneuvering his life, of expressing himself, this is how he deals with things; like his relationship with Jing Yuan having a turning point after giving him his weapon, or how he crafted that jade flask. And then he loses his ability to create and loses himself; he becomes Blade.

The fact that even as an adult, as an exceedingly arrogant craftsman, something of the shy self-conscious kid remains is both endearing and heartbreaking as well. In some ways we still see that in Blade.

We also see echoes of that personality in Mr. Xiao, who worked under him. And that alongside his craftsmanship, his ability to fix and create auromatons even though they are vanishing in the civilian landscape, live on through Mr. Xiao. And die alongside him, for Mr. Xiao too has become but a relic of another time.

The way the other stories of craftsmen enhance facets of Yingxing's is so good too. Mainly in the story of Master Ryan and Chengjie, with the insight we get of the struggles of short life species in the Xianzhou, especially those dedicated to a craft, and how hard it is for them to reach positions of prestige. It also poses the question of how we can transcend time, if it's possible at all, and how the sharing of knowledge, the passing down of skills, the shared loved, is one of the answers. This was all already significant before, but the information gains weight with the existence of Mr. Xiao. I'd argue there's echoes of Yingxing even in Master Gongshu. His love for his automatons, his sincere fondness for them, his pride on his job, his loyalty to his position and duties, the way he is both hard and stern as well as loving with his apprentices, and how he talks about short life species.

On a sort of ontological way, it's very interesting to see how Yingxing goes from craftsman to tool or weapon, from creator to creation, from subject to object. The potential in the context of Abundance/Destruction is also extremely intriguing, I think. He who created is unmade by a curse of Abundance. He who forged weapons now follows that path of destruction. There's so much going on with Yingxing conceptually around the cycles of death and rebirth, destruction and creation; it's so fitting that now Blade is stuck in such a cycle in the most literal way.

And it's so fitting too that, in all this context, given Yingxing's entire story, Blade's entire being, that which he made unmade him. That which he created and gave him so much pride was the weapon that killed him. And now he wields it himself, his tool of revenge while he follows the path to eternal and irrevocable death.

#Yingxing #Blade #I talk too much #Fragments and scraps #sort of. I think I'll delete that tag when I save these ideas somewhere else #These are only some of the things I can't stop thinking about #Among other things I wondered what it must have been for Mr. Xiao to see his master's face everywhere around the Luofu #Fu Xuan makes a comment about not believing the short life species are necessarily less knowledgeable and that also said a lot I think #Due both to how she worded and the context. How it seemed to be another sign of her superior wisdom that she realises this #but how it's still an extended pov along the Xianzhou #The idea of being/becoming/losing oneself through and/or because of one's own skills and abilities is also applicable to Jing Yuan #I don't know. There's really so much to think about and dissect. It's so juicy #For real Yingxing is so good as a character. I didn't expect something so good and so well crafted #(and so in tune with all my favourite characteristics and stories. I've not talked #about the Orphic elements and the suicidal tendencies here‚ or the play on betrayals‚ but goodness)#I really wasn't expecting something as good and with so much potential (I am so afraid of them ruining the writing)#The way the worldbuilding and the little glimpses at everyday life of NPCs enhance every concept forming the character is amazing #I truly can't stop thinking of Yingxing/Blade in every facet he has. The very way we are told things is telling #I always say form is substance‚ and I mean it. Yingxing's and Blade's story is such a clear case of this #The fragmentary condition of the storytelling as well as the different levels of trust one can give to every fragment works magnificently #with Blade as a mara-struck person dealing with memory loss and the loss of the self #It also works well with Dan Heng and Jingliu going through something similar‚ with Jing Yuan being manipulative and deceptive and silent‚#with Baiheng being dead. Ironically in my opinion it also works very well with how it seems to be hinted that both Dan Heng #and Blade may recall more than they let on or admit. I'm talking a lot and I should stop already but yes. I can't stop thinking about him #He's skyrocketed to the higher positions in the list of my all-time favourite characters in no time at all #Or at least his potential has. Goodness‚ I hope they don't ruin him...#Ugh I've talked way too much. I'm going to have to move the tags

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