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skykashi · 1 year

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Do you think Kakashi had romantic feelings for Rin? I know they were still just kids when she died, but it is for me so frustrating to see this character living his entire life crying for this loss and staying alone. Is it maybe because he loved her and he can replace her? Isn’t it too painful? I wish he could find some happiness with a love, not only helping the village and his students but nothing… He is just waiting his death to meet her again? And what about Obito? There is this issue in naruto universe that people dies but actually the are alive someway and can interact with the world 🤔this kinda makes the plot controverse… What do you think about it? Thank you.

Thank you for the ask

Tbqh, I don't really think Kakashi had romantic feelings for Rin and if he did, he never showed it. At that time Kakashi was deeply traumatized by what happened to Sakumo so he put his entire focus on trying to be the perfect Shinobi and prove that he won't fail like his dad did so he didn't give himself enough chance to think about anything else other than that, there was no room for romance or anything else.. and that kept dragging on with each new trauma, the poor man kept getting constantly hit with one tragedy after the other and so after Obito's death, that one goal changed from being the perfect Shinobi to protecting everyone and hoping for a better future where no one ever has to get hurt or die like his loved ones did... As much as I too, like you wished to see Kakashi having kids of his own, Kakashi himself gets his happiness from seeing the ppl he loves happy and at peace with their families which are like a family to him too. So yeah, I don't think he's single because he can't get over an old love or anything like that, he just feels content and fulfilled because he did achieve his only dream, his students and friends are fine and alive and happy and the ninja world finally found it's peace and learned to work together for a better future, that's all he ever wished for.

As for how ppl can interact with other ppl after their death, they aren't free to do that whenever they feel like it, no. When Obito died and talked Kakashi for the last time he explained that to Rin by saying that all chakras are connected somehow in the land of living so before he completely moved to the afterlife with the little remaining chakra he still had in the living world he can momentarily contact Kakashi, same thing goes for Minato and Kushina because Minato actually sealed a little bit of their chakra in Naruto before they died and so they were able to contact Naruto momentarily too when their seals were triggered, and same goes for Dan, Asuma and everyone that was reanimated in the war, when the reanimation Jutsu was released they only had a brief moment to talk to their loved ones with their chakra that was brought to the land of living by the reanimation Jutsu before they are forced to go back to the afterlife.

#naruto #kakashi #hatake kakashi #kakashi hatake #kakashi sensei #uchiha obito #obito uchiha #obito #rin #nohara rin #rin nohara #team minato #meta: naruto #naruto meta #naruto analysis #my asks #sky answers

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sapphire-weapon · 5 months

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Hiiiiii. My opinion might be unpopular and controversal even to some but i just gotta share this with you because FINALLY i found someone that is actually rational about how fucked up Aeon really is. I'm sorry i said it.

First, nothing wrong with the ship it's self, it's just that it ain't it. I personally realistically could never be able to picture Leon with any of the girls he's been seen with so far. I'm so fucking glad RE4R choose to shut it down or at least tone it wayyy down a notch than the OG.

It gives my wee heart some comfort knowing that i can enjoy self insert/reader/OC fics with Leon out there without constantly having to think of Wong at all times. What can i say? I'm a sucker for this man and i wanna be self indulgent and give him happiness he deserves. AND i'm grateful for everyone else that does exactly the same, regardless if it's just a fictional pixel.

Also, your little take on EagleOne is very cute and interesting, i love multishipping and whilst i personally never saw their interactions like that (sorryyy) i do like the creative theories people come up with in the fandom while remaining respectful to those around them unlike some shippers i know... But yeah, if it means anything, i just wanna say that i saw Leon's interactions with Ashley sincerely as this older brother that saw himself in Ashley like he was once in RC and wanted to protect that "innocence", maybe there's a bit of Sherry in there too. I think this is also something Capcom was going for too, one of the directors said i believe.

But all in all, there's no hope for these characters outside of fanfiction really, just gotta keep fighting the good fight.

what kind of relationship do you have with your siblings

i have to ask this question every time someone says they see leon and ashley like that, because it makes me feel like i just got an ask from alfred ashford or ruben victoriano.

people can be friends, man. if my brother (6 years older than me, so basically the same age gap as leon and ashley) put his hands on me the way and as often as leon did to ashley, i'd stop taking his calls and move out of the city.

i'm known for exaggeration and hyperbole, but i'm not being hyperbolic with this one. it actually sincerely grosses me out, as someone with an older brother. if you don't ship them, just let leon and ashley be regular-old friends, because the sibling shit is incestuous and weird with what their dynamic is in canon.

and i get that this wasn't the point of your ask, but like... you talk about respecting other ships but then throw "siblings" at me, when "sibling" discourse is only ever used to try to discredit ships and shame/ostracize the people who ship them. you do this while also infantilizing ashley (comparing her to sherry??? a 20 year old to a 10 year old???) and being patronizing towards me ("your little take"), and i just

i'm glad i could give you peace of mind as far as the aeon thing is concerned, but i find it so weird that your way of saying thanks is to go out of your way to try to be rude about a different ship.

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dejjablu · 10 months

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Hi! I’m a-random-nerd, you can call me Star if you want. Saw you reblogged that post about wanting more asks so that’s what this is :)

I followed you for lotr stuff, and I was wondering what you think about the differences between the book and movie versions of the Hobbit?

I personally have only read the book (multiple times) and I’m planning on watching the movies, but from what I’ve seen (in posts) they added in a fair bit of characterization of their own for the dwarves and especially Thorin. Does that line up with your experience or do you think the movies stay pretty true to the book character-wise?

I’m free to talk about lotr and especially the Hobbit anytime if that’s soemthing you would also like :) hope you’re having a good day!

hii Star!! im so happy you decided to send an ask, it brings me so much joy!

and oh gosh.. i could talk about this topic for HOURS. if i honestly had the talent to formulate my thoughts into a whole video essay i would... but i shall do my best!

so i have seen both the movies and read the book (am rereading and reading in my native language) and i think i truly love them equally! they have a special place in my heart now ever since i randomly decided to rewatch the movies a couple of years ago now.

there is of course a lot of controversy surrounding the hobbit trilogy which i think is not quite fair compaired to the lotr trilogy. again am no expert in storytelling or filmmaking for that matter but as a simple fan and viewer i too can judge of what i like about the adaptations. and you are correct! they put a lot of characterization for the dwarves to make them into more like their own individuals and have personality. they are all so lovable and they did a really great job with them.. and especially getting thorin's story and presence across very well. from hearing the stories and thoughts from the cast of the dwarves especially, you can feel how dedicated they were to the job of bringing their characters and this story to life.

now the big controversy and difference of these films being the changes in the story, adding in characters that were not there originally and pre-production being a bit of a mess with warner bros. some major differences in desolation of smaug the most i think... that legolas is there, theres a love story between tauriel and kíli, some differences with bilbo's encounter with smaug, also the more emphasis of the arkenstone. now i know its also controversal of all the cgi in the film compared to the lotr trilogy but honestly, it was in an era when cgi was the big thing to have in movies in the 2010's i believe. it does not excuse from being a bit too much cgi when there could of been some practial stuff instead maybe.

but the films for what they are i think are really fun and entertaining and i wont pretend they are...to me they are really good in their own way as a tolkien book adaptation. so my biggest problem with the controversy being people who claim all the problems with the hobbit dont hold the same towards the lotr trilogy, that i mean with story changes that would deem it "not a faithful adaptaion", to me lotr trilogy is not really a faithful adaptation if you look at it literally, its really good because its made well in its own way the best they thought they could make it... but does not mean its perfect. the hobbit isnt perfect either, but again, its really good for what they managed to make from interpreting the original book. there as also another thing of that the hobbit didnt need to be a trilogy but honestly, being the massive nerd i am, i want that.. give me more.

now i could talk about thorin FOR DAYS even but to summarise for those who have to read all of this. i love how they made thorin in the movies.. a little different maybe how he is in he book, the thing about making him about middle-aged instead hasnt bothered me. the actor, richard armitage who has quickly become a favourite of mine, put a lot of dedication to his role as thorin from having a personal connection to the book and it just warms my heart seeing that love and care for it, from the whole main cast really.. i love them dearly. i saw the movies when they came out in theatre when i was a pre-teen and i was blown away from seeing it.. and years later when i found my way back again and reading the book as well, can't do anyhing but love it. it is not a faithful book-to-film adaptation but i think its really great, its linear and as the original plot points.. if you just want a fun watch i believe the movies are great, if you ever want to discuss if you end up seeing the movies, dont hesitate to come around again!

im sorry if i strayed too much from main question and ive tried to summarise the best i can.. i shall add on if i remember more things i could bring up! hope this was something to read at least! <33

#ask #oh boy this is a long one...#went a little off and i think i will add on of like actually going into detail with the story and not production of the film..#i cant write essays-#but im so so happy for your ask.. it truly makes my day because i love talking about the hobbit #thank you for reading <33

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bibliophilecats · 8 months

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Book asks - 1. 2. 3. 23. and 24.

Thank you for asking

1 What is the best book you have ever read?

Always my last 5 star read *lol* So at the moment, that would be The Bookstore Cat by Charles Santoso and Cylin Busby

2 What is the worst book you have ever read?

I try to rease really bad books from my memory. But I can only warn against the Edinburgh historical crime novels by Ambrose Parry. I got very strong anti-LGBTQ (especially B and T) vibes from the first two I read.

3 What is your preferred genre?

Fantasy in all shades

23 What book to movie adaptation do you love?

A rather boring answer but: The Lord of the Rings. And maybe a little more controversal: the Discworld movies (Hogfather, Going Postal, even Colour of Magic)

24 What book to movie adaptation to you dislike?

The Hobbit

Ask me about books

#book talk #bookish ask

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dojae-huh · 7 months

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this is gonna be a controversal take 😅sometimes i just think about the way doten relationship and johnjae relationship are different yet also similar? as in there were better days for them and they are mending things or look more comfortable now but someone can irritate the other from time to time. jaehyun getting jealous when johnny flirts with doyoung, ten annoying doyoung or making him feel left out if he speaks english with the other guys? i have no proofs and there could be other reasons but it's just hard to deny jaehyun looks more offended if it's johnny flirting and doyoung looks uncomfortable with ten sometimes. not trying to paint them in a bad light. i believe ten and johnny didn't mean harm and it's because of the way doyoung and jaehyun feel too. personalities not matching and other reasons i'll never be able to guess. i just can't shake this feeling and assumption off.

johnjae must keep working together as 127 neos and jaehyun seems fine these days. doten, after this bgj promotion, might meet for dinner as they promised but they won't be like 2016 or before.

A lot of things with JohnJae could go unnoticed. When members normally interact little before cameras, it's hard to notice a change, especially if it doesn't last.

I sometimes wonder how Johnny can continue to be excessively touchy with Doyoung. Like that time he stroked Do's cheek with his palm, which sent Jaehyun-ie into shock of disbelief and offence. Being overly friendly and huggy is in Johnny's character, but it feels like sometimes he does it intentionally. His defiant "I'm not changing for anyone". The way his fight to win Doyoung back included all means, including unfair, and not taking "no" for an answer.

JohnJae look like they can become closer later, when they are both older and past turbulent times. Currently, Jaehyun is clear he is not interested in being too close, Johnny doesn't insist.

You wrote your Ask before BgJ MV bts was released. In bts there is a moment of Ten teasing Do in his usual manner. This opportunity wasn't enough to comeback to how it was before, but a lot of metres in the proverbial bridge were restored.

I doubt DoTen were ever very close, or both would work on the issue without waiting for years, feeling the void. Maybe all they need is an honest heart to heart talk to reconsile fully, but "too busy for it now", and ignoring the problem, mostly Do, can last a long time.

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yenvengerberg · 1 year

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If you read the books closely we have every motivation for yennefer's character. They are not told us like we are children reading a fairy tale but everything is there just not in chronological order. From her aduced from her father and the rejection of her mother and siblings, to her coming to aretuza, to lose her capability to have children bc of magic and not operations like the show, to not believe she is worthy of love, to feel a piece is missing, to not be able to accept it like other mages, to never cry bc that is pathetic like her mentor says, to take matters in her hands and not bieving in magical solutions, to harden her heart, to not be able to love, not istredd even if he could be useful to her, to suddenly fall in love with geralt bc he treated her different (why me?, no one ever chose me), to feel unworthy of that love (both did) so they messed up many times but they returned to each other bc they experience a tenderness together they never felt before, and even when they were apart they kept looking out for each other (yen paid for geralt's debts and geralt wanted to help her regain her fertility), to fight to a war bc out of duty to the council, losing her sight, having pstd, she became the newest member of the council, she has a whole backstory with Francesca in blood elves eugenics, she goes to help geralt with ciri even if she's mad at him at the time, she meets the little girl and at first she feels her as an antagonist but later loves her unconditionally and sees her as her daughter, she goes through hell to protect her and dies for the man she loves. What we dont know about her? What motivation is missing? The thing is that in the first few books she's a mystery (did she betrayed geralt etc) but that's bc her past is revealed in a non chronological order. But once you read it all, everything makes sense. She presents her self as cruel bc of how she was treated at early age but she doesn't want geralt to think she doesn't have a heart (remember her conversation with dandelion in blood of elves?) , she doesn't believe in herself on a personal level - she's the best at magic but not the best partner - she wants a home with geralt but feels unworthy of that etc. That has nothing to do with the show. I loved the decision to show her past in s1. It was my favorite story but I can't understand people who say she was not as strong in the books. She wasn't shown so much maybe for mystery reasons but she was a great, innovative female protagonist in fantasy and I hoped in s2 they took that story and expanded instead of change it completely. Sorry for my rant, just my two cents.

sorry anon but most of this is just a list of events rather than anything to do with her personality and complexity. we're able to understand more from her because of the depth the show has given her, but the books truly just give throwaway comments that, unless you fill in the blanks for yourself, create a sketch of a person and not a fully three dimensional being. the books give you the bones - sure, we can sit and put it together, add the flesh ourselves in what we think of her as a character, but yennefer in the books can be easily molded to whatever people want of her and that’s why she’s ‘less controversal’ than the games or show. this feels like a pointless argument because i have my viewpoint and you have yours. to me, yennefer always deserved better than the books.

#Anonymous #the witcher for ts #i'm done with this like love the books if you want to but pls stop trying to persuade me that they treat yen well cos they really don't #if the show was adapted to the books you do realise she'd only have appeared in two episodes of season 1 right?

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seonghwasblr-moved · 2 years

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Maybe a little controversal opinion, but I don’t want skz to be bigger internationally (in Korea it’s another talk) than they are now. It scares me if they become as big as the bulletproof dudes lol. I think the amount of popularity they have now is perfect

#maja talks #except for in Korea #I want them to become as big as the bulletproof dudes and e-x-o and seventeen in Korea!!#also please come to europe lmao

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a-story-with-no-end · 1 year

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I decided to rank the songs from midnights (3am edition) on how much I like them from least favourite to favourite. This might be controversal so I am just gonna say that this is just my opinion.

20. Labyrinth

I just don't remember a time I actually wanted to play the song. It's just there for me.

19. Bigger than the whole sky

I just very rarely listen to it. The only time chose I listened to it (which means this song wasn't on shuffle) was after I watched the first episode of the third season of The owl house. I'm not gonna spoiler but people who watched the episode probably can guess why I made that connection.

18. Question...?

Same as BTTWS but I listen to this song a little bit more. (Minus The owl house part)

17. Would've, Could've, Should've

Hear me out: I totally get why people love this song. The lyrics are amazing, many people relate to it and it's heartbreaking. I don't even have anything bad to say about this song it's just that I prefer songs that are on the happier side.

16. Sweet nothing

Normally I don't like to listen to these slow songs and at the beginning I just didn't listen to this song at all. But it really grew on me.

15. Snow on the beach

The song is pure magic and I don't have anything bad to say about the song itself BUT I hate snow with a burning passion. Everytime I see it snowing I just want to scream at the sky and tell them to stop. I just can't stand the cold and I often get cold when I listen to the song because I think about all this snow. Maybe I can use this to my advantage when it's too hot in summer but right now I don't want to think about anything winter related.

14. Dear Reader

When listening to this song I can see these vivid pictures inside of my head. It's a beautiful song but it's sad and I don't listen to sad songs very often.

13. Maroon

I can see this song. It's like I'm watching a movie while listening to it and it's so cool. The story telling is really amazing but I prefer other songs more.

12. YOYOK

It's a fan favourite and I can totally see why it's that way. I just don't listen to the song that often anymore. It's really great but just not one of my favourites.

11. Midnight rain

I really love this song and the lyrics but this song would be a lot higher if there wasn't all these changed vocals in the chorus (I cannot remember the actual name of this effect)

10. High infidelity

I love to write stories and this song makes my writer heart very happy. It's about cheating and that's an asshole move (of course it's different when you're in an abusive relationship but that's another story) BUT the song gives me ideas and that's all I'm gonna say.

9. Bejeweled

Another fun bop. I really enjoy to listen to this song. It's about knowing your own worth and I love this.

8. Vigilante Shit

When the album first came out it was much higher in my ranking I have to admit. I was still very angry at the time it came out and this song was what I needed to hear. But I gurantee when I get angry at someone again it's gonna be all I listen to for days (this and LWYMMD)

7. Glitch

I feel like this song is really underrated but I love everything about it. It just flows so naturally and the transition between the verses and the chorus is so flawless. My favourite part of the song has to be "In search of glorious happenings of happenstance on someone elses playground". This part hits so much different.

6. Anti-Hero

I love the way some of these lines get delivered and it's a song that just won't get out of my head. I REALLY love it and I am so happy that it was put on the album.

5. Lavender Haze

First of all my favourite colour is purple so I was immediately drawn to this song. It's fun, I really love the bridge but what really sold me was the accoustic remix. This version hits so much different and I might actually prefer it over the normal version.

4. Paris

This song really grew on me. It's so much fun to listen to it. The beginning is so much fun and almost reminds me of a song in a musical. I always imagine a group of friends at a sleepover gossiping in their pjs. I have really specific pictures for this song in my mind and it's everything.

3. The great war

I always loved the song and its imaginery. I always made up so many stories for this song but since I rewatched She-Ra (2018) I realized that this is the perfect Catradora song. This just made the song so much better for me.

2. Mastermind

Since midnights came out the song was always really high in my rankings. I really love the theme of the song and always make up these cool stories and characters when I listen to this song. It makes my writer brain very happy.

1. Karma

It's my favourite TS song of all time. I just love everything about it. When I think about Karma it was always these negative things (Karma is a b.) but to turn it into all these positive things is so nice. It's something different and I was pleasently surprised. I am always smilling when I listen to it. It makes me happy and that's what matters most to me.

#taylor swift #swifties #swiftie #midnights

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struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor · 2 years

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Hey, it’s the anon from yesterday with the long, depressing ask. Decided to come off anon since I realized no one here knows me anyway lol. First of all, thank you so much for answering, it meant a lot to me and you made me feel a little better, though I’m still iffy about all of this, I can’t help it. The timing is just so weird to me. I really don’t wanna sound greedy but they could’ve done one last tour (since they apparently missed performing so much anyway?) and then get out with a Big Bang but this… There has to be something going on behind the scenes that they aren’t telling. I’m sure it is because Jimin said something similar in the Festa video, no? Ugh I just hate it when I have a feeling abt something but can't seem to find out what it is because I'm constantly imagining strange scenarios in my head that trigger my anxiety -- I love being me ✌🏼

Also, I just woke up, did I miss something or what makes you think this break will last for five years? That's such a long time, I can't for the life of me imagine that this is going to work... and I know this is controversal but I don't think their solo careers will be that successful in the long run.

Many fans (myself included) have become fans because they like the dynamic of the band itself, how they treat each other, how funny they are etc. I can't imagine bts without a single one of them and I love them all as a group, but not really on their own. I know this sounds bad and I swear I don't mean to offend anyone but I don't vibe with some of the members individually, though I do love them all together. Does that make sense? Again, I'm not trying to hate I'm just saying I won't force myself to like a members solo stuff, if I simply don't.

Hi! Nice to meet you! Don't be scared to come off anon! I think we're all invisible on this site. I barely have any followers, haha.

I get the timing being weird. I don't get it either. A lot of people were thinking they'd go on tour before Jin's probable enlistment, so I don't know why they didn't. I thought the LA, Seoul and LV concerts were only the beginning. But I guess a longer tour would've been exhausting and required a lot of planning. They said the PTD concerts were really tiring because they had no solos, but adding solo performances would've required a lot of practice, so that would've been challenging too? Maybe they had no time? I've no idea. It's weird. They were happy to finally perform, and I think they could've toured as seven for a little longer. Dunno...

What did Jimin hint at? Didn't he just mean that, in general, they couldn't be totally honest, which is why they are only now sharing all of this? That's how I understood it...

Maybe I should've explained myself better, sorry... I went on Reddit (always a big mistake, I hate that place), and someone posted that Armys were delusional for thinking BTS would comeback within two years. Since all the members might only enlist the year of their 30th birthday, it could be that the next group comeback will be after JK returns, and that would be more than five years from now. That's when I started to freak out, lol. Sorry! There was no announcement. This is all speculation, though it is rumored that next week we'll get news about their enlistment...

And I absolutely understand what you mean about their dynamic. I'll watch JK's solo vlives, but even as a huge JK stan, I find it a bit boring when he's not singing or when I don't really miss him. I've seen all his recent lives, but I missed a few ones back in 2020. I also love Jin and Suga the most after JK but couldn't find it in me to watch their solo vlives. Since I need to read subtitles and they're not super dynamic, I end up not watching them. Sometimes I can't commit to watching anything because I feel too drained... Right now I'm actually in the process of watching lives I missed, but I'm starting with the group lives and then my biases. I won't watch a lot of lives for sure. The thing with vlives is that if you watch them the day after they come out with subtitles, it's fun; but if you forget, then you miss your chance and never watch them haha. They keep piling up so it gives me anxiety.

Anyway, what I meant by the vlives is that the best ones are by far the OT7 ones, and then there are a few units I love, as well as my biases. My interest in watching a vlive depends on who's in it, and that's a good representation of what I feel for the group. I too love them as seven, but I'm not equally interested in them individually. I don't vibe with some of the members too. I love J-Hope, but he's also my least favorite member in many ways, though it pains me to say it. I'm usually only interested in him in BTS or when he interacts with the other members. I can't really connect with him solo, though I wish him the best and will listen to his album. But I know I won't follow his career too closely. I also love V and RM, but can't say I'll be super interested in what they do solo either.

I don't think you're being mean or offensive. That's just being human... Unlike them, we don't know them nor spend time with them. It's normal that we can't love them equally. It's a miracle that BTS do.

Thanks for the ask! I'm glad I made you feel even a tiny bit better. As you saw in my last post, I'm not doing super great either haha! Sending you a virtual hug!

#ask #bts

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werevulvi · 3 years

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Perhaps it's not so special to just be a woman. Half the population is. So what? But to me it is a huge thing. To even be able to say those words "I am a woman." They feel magnetic somehow, clinging to my tongue. It's like the word "woman" has a texture in my mouth like no other word does, vibrating at a different frequency. As if it's poisonous to taste. Yet I taste it, yet I say it. And I will keep saying it until I've cleansed it, no matter how long it takes. No matter how annoyingly repetitive and unnecessary it may sound to you.

It is a big deal to me, because up until age 29, I never spoke of myself using that word. Not even once. To then pick it up, for the first time, at age 29... was huge. And it's been 2 years since then now, but I'm still struggling with it, and it's still huge. I still don't understand why it's so hard for me to hold and hold onto that word, yet I am fiercely protective of it. I toss it away, then pick it up again, remorseful and protective of it. And I do that again and again. For each time I pick it up again, it's as if I understand its value a little bit more. All the significance, trauma, love, pain and curiosity it carries. It is mine, and no matter how hard it is to hold... I refuse to ever truly let go of it.

I may not look like a woman, I may not even want to! But why does it matter? Why should it matter what a woman looks like? Am I taking it too far, with the masculinity, the beard and bald head? Am I pushing my idea of freedom for women's expression too far? "Yes, women can be masc and gnc, BUT..." is what I keep hearing. But what? "...but you're taking it too far by looking like a whole ass man" is what I feel like the rest of the sentence, which they do not speak, is. Perhaps I'm wrong, I can't read minds. But sometimes I feel like people's minds are so loud that I can't not hear their thoughts.

I get a lot of backlash for every time I state myself as a woman, with my obnoxious reluctance to pass as my true identity. It's difficult to properly word that, what I actually mean. Perhaps I mean to say that I refuse to look like the traditional ideal of what people expect a woman to roughly wanna look like, whether that be masculine or feminine, as long as it's clearly recognisably female in some way or another. And my "true identity" has nothing to do with my personality, or my preferred expression, but only my deep down true love for being bio female. Thus, my "reluctance to pass" is indeed my desire to keep and maintain my transition traits, and my "true identity" is my womanhood, but I don't mean it in the same way TRA's do.

That true love for being female, isn't an ideal, but rather something much closer to my survival instinct.

It's that feeling of wanting to protect yourself when in danger. It's that instant self defense you act on without thinking when you feel like you're being threatened. It's that instant reaction of removing yourself from danger the split second it touches you, your body. It doesn't matter which part of you that danger touches, whether it be your hand, knee, your love handles, scarred chest, hairy face or your genitals. No matter what part of you is touched by that danger, you will instinctively protect it. It's in that instinct that I found love for my female nature, in my instinct to protect it from harm. I found it beyond my survival instinct, because no matter what part of me is ever touched by danger, my subconscious mind recognises it as not just lovable and worthy of protection and care, but also as part of the whole. This means, that deep down I'm not just loving myself... I also know that I am whole. No matter how many parts of me are cut off or distorted... I will always be whole.

I don't always feel aware of that like in my frontal lobe, but damn, my reptile brain knows it and won't ever question it.

With that, I found that my dysphoria is a shallow creation of my frontal lobe, and that it's in contradiction of my survival instinct. Being suicidal and/or self-harming is similar to this. Even wanting to die, always came second to my survival instinct. That is probably why I never succeeded to kill myself, and also why I never succeeded to truly hate my body. This does NOT mean that such horrible suffering as dysphoria or whatever feelings lead to self harm, is somehow not real. That is not what I'm saying at all. I'm saying it's a kind of cognitive dissonance, which messes with the very core of your core instincts, and that... I think, makes such psychological issues especially harmful.

And I also mean that my self love may not always have been accessible to me on surface level, but that despite that, it has always been innate.

And with that said... having found my innate self-love, and invited it to my frontal lobe... that is sorta why I can't really regret my medical transition. Even though I still have days when I struggle. Because I can't think of my body as broken anymore. Not since I found that deep, deep, VERY deep down I view myself as whole, lovable, valuable, and worthy of respect, love and safety... no matter what ever happens to me. Because my body is me, and there is no true disconnect between my sense of self and my flesh. Only on surface level there can sometimes be disconnect.

Kinda like the branches on a tree may be disconnected at the crown, but deeper down they all share the same trunk. I see myself in a similar manner. That at the top of the tree is most of my conscious thoughts, feelings, memories, etc, as well as all the various parts of my body. Or that is what my frontal lobe is aware of. That is how I perceive myself on surface level, as a scattered mess of branches, twigs, leaves and what not, each representing aspect of me, seemingly chaotic and all disconnected. But I'm also partially aware of what's going on deeper within my mind. I'm aware of the trunk that connects all branches, twigs, leaves, etc, and I'm also aware of the roots. Not directly aware, but I sense it like an inkling. I can sense that not only is there a trunk and roots deep down that connects to all twigs, and all twigs to each other, but also there in lies my knowledge that no matter how many of my twigs are left intact... the tree will always be a whole tree.

And it doesn't matter what I look like, or what troubles my body has gone through. Survival will always be the first priority. And my self-love IS equal to my instinct to survive. Because the reason I will always come to my own rescue whenever faced with danger or threat, or perceived danger/threat, is because I love myself. Self-love is the first move before I'm even saving myself from the danger, before that split second reaction takes place. That is how fast, instant and innate my self-love is. It was too obvious to even be aware of, for most of my life.

I think that's why is was so hard for me to find my self love. Because well... it was more deeply buried than my survival instinct itself, which I thought must be the innermost core aspect of my existence. But I was wrong about that. Self-love goes even deeper than survival. THAT is the innermost core aspect. Or so I believe. Can't think of anything that would possibly go even deeper than that.

But also, although I am the most aware on my self-love in moments my survival instinct takes over, I am also aware of it in other moments.

This is also why I can't get rid of my transition traits such as my facial hair. Because finding that true self-love from deep within my core, basically made me fuse all my aspects and physical traits together into a complete wholeness. All needs to be protected and loved. Every twig, every leaf. Sacrificing bits and pieces of me that are not damaging to my health, is self harm and goes against my survival instinct/self-love. It does not matter if the parts of me are in their natural state or medically/cosmetically altered. Even if those parts of me are inconvenient for my social life.

You know how a people who get organ transplants, their bodies try to reject the new organ because their immune system regards it as foreign? Well, this is kinda like that, but the exact opposite. My body/immune system/whatever-the-fuck regards my transition traits as heakthy parts of my original body, and thus to be protected at all costs. Loss of them will result in pain and grief. Just like losing any other part of my body would. And why? Because we mourn the loss of what we love, and what we regard as "ours" and as important, whole, healthy, lovable.

Deep down I do not care as much about such things as having a functional social life. Deep down, I care much more about things like keeping myself whole, safe, healthy and loved. Getting rid of my beard goes against that. Even just shaving it goes against that. My subconscious mind regards such an act as self harm.

Does this make sense to you? That it has nothing to do with "gender," be it manhood, womanhood, dysphoria, femininity or masculinity. It has to do with self-love, self-respect and survival. And that is a hell of a lot more important than being read or respected as a woman by others. No matter how much it hurts, because respecting and reclaiming myself as a woman is also highly important to me. Thus, I have to find a way to be open and honest with myself as a woman, without further harming myself.

I know this is deep and complicated spiritual shit, but I'm just trying to explain something which I think is probably very important. This discovery I had changed my life dramatically. So am I trying to teach self-love? No, I dunno. I don't think I can do that. I don't think anyone can. Perhaps I'm just trying to show a possibility.

I also need to clarify that despite knowing I love myself deep down now, I still struggle to stay connected to that aspect of my brain. And when I'm disconnected from it, I override my survival instinct and it misinterprets itself. Basically I fall out of order and act in a self destructive way, thinking it's self protection when it's actually the opposite. With that I understand that my self-love and my survival instinct are dependent on each other and need to be in harmony with each other to really keep me alive, safe and healthy. And although I'm now sometimes aware of this bond deep with myself, I'm still in imbalance. Because I still confuse self destruction for survival sometimes. When I skip meals, when I stay up too late, when I ruminate, when I smoke cigarettes, when I skip exercising, when I let my dirty dishes mould, etc. So simply being aware isn't quite enough, but it got me very far ahead of myself.

Also, trivial matters and superficial woes still get to me. I'm still human. I'm still fallible. Which is okay, but also frustrating. And that is basically why I love being a woman, while at the same time I also still struggle to accept myself as a woman, because it does include accepting being too norm-breaking for the society that I live in to accept me. And that hurts. It's a challenge that I'm not gonna overcome over night, just because I found the most important key to my healing. It's still just a key, a framework or an attitude - not a cure or some kinda magical spell. It's highly valuable and extremely important, but I still need to properly work through my emotions and learn how to navigate my social issues.

But what I feel my self-love is doing to help me, is carrying me through all this, and soothing me when I most need it. It makes my struggle worth it, and it makes me see a hell of a lot more of my potential than I was ever aware of before. The only backside of it is... well, it seems it does get to my head sometimes, and causing me some mild narcissistic tendencies. It sometimes makes me impatient hearing people with low self-esteem go on and on about how worthless they feel. That isn't great, I know. I'm working on fixing that error too.

By Werevulvi, dated November 29th, 2020.

#my text #detransition #womanhood #gender nonconformity #self love #deep ramble #a little controversal maybe

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taki118 · 3 years

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Maybe its a little controversal butttttttt whatever fight me

Cordelia Chase was the best character in both Buffy and Angel and deserved better

#cordelia chase #cordy #buffy #buffy the vampire slayer #angel the series

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myreygn · 2 years

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I have a lot to ask so here (for the ask game) :

Avatar - The Last Airbender

Hamilton

Snowpiercer (Netflix)

Brooklyn Nine-Nine

Encanto

How to train your dragon

jesus christ that's a lot- i'll put it under the cut. thanks for asking 💜💛✨

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avatar - the last airbender

blorbo: mai is my forever queen

scrunkly: theo he's so adorable :D

scrimblo bimblo: PIANDAO

glup shitto: jin from ba sing se, would've loved to see more of her and zuko

poor little meow meow: jet. i do not take criticism on this.

horse plinko: also jet he deserves it

eeby deeby: ozai can go die

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hamilton

blorbo: eliiiizaaa

scrunkly: and peggy >:D

scrimblo bimblo: maria is amazing and deserves more love

glup shitto: the epic book guy and also whatever jon rua is doing

poor little meow meow: i would die for daveed in magenta jefferson

horse plinko: ... also jefferson

eeby deeby: king george. no mercy for colonialists.

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snowpiercer

(note: haven't seen s3 yet)

blorbo: laytonlaytonlayton-

scrunkly: till i just want to hug her

scrimblo bimblo: this is my love for boki petition

glup shitto: the guy from the night car who was among those layton had to abandon in s1, i don't know his name but sometimes he appears in my dreams and it's an ethereal experience i swear

poor little meow meow: idk how controverse this is but i'm still attached to pike

horse plinko: wilford.

eeby deeby: wilford.

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brooklyn nine-nine

blorbo: rosa motherfreaking diaz

scrunkly: maybe scully? he can be so sweet

scrimblo bimblo: david santiago :)

glup shitto: i actually really like rosa's dad

poor little meow meow: old hag madeline wuntch

horse plinko: i wanna say hitchcock but he'd probably be into it so i'm picking teddy because he sucks

eeby deeby: the vulture. no explanation needed.

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encanto

blorbo: oh god now i have to decide- dolores pls don't make me think about this too much

scrunkly: antonio 💕😭

scrimblo bimblo: casita is amazing

glup shitto: goldfish lady was kinda epic tho

poor little meow meow: i mean. abuela alma was a pretty amazing character.

horse plinko: none of them

eeby deeby: the soldiers from the flashback

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how to train your dragon

blorbo: gobber best character

scrunkly: tuffnut he's so stupid i love him

scrimblo bimblo: RUFFNUT

glup shitto: literally every single viking in the scene in the first movie where stoic says that anyone who doesn't volunteer for the mission has to watch hiccup and everyone starts screaming for a place in that mission

poor little meow meow: lol also ruffnut

horse plinko: the villain from the second movie he was so pathetic i didn't even memorize his name

eeby deeby: also that villain he's so bad he deserves it

#ask game #rey answers #avatar the last airbender #hamilton #snowpiercer netflix #brooklyn nine nine #encanto #how to train your dragon #blorbo #scrunkly #scrimblo bimblo #glup shitto #poor little meow meow #horse plinko #eeby deeby

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sohoharlem · 3 years

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When I said he is not a geek I meant to the people who say he is all fake to realise how stupid their sound. But if I think about he may just playing around I think it's a little sad that he may needed to do so many thing he maybe not even like.

I personaly don't think he is all fake, I think he is an avarage geek man but looks good and people want him to be the devil or a god. I don't think people think about what they say. Yes he said some controversal things, but I think all of us have some controversial thoughts, yes he dates/dated with controversial people but if a women constantly date with dickheads people say oooohhh poor queen she deserve more, but if a man do he probably just as trashy. Double standard.

I know probably many people in Hollywood not who they say they are but I think he if not a 100%, I can't see how dating someone is making them fake their full personality.

- SH

#henry cavill

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ugh-jolras · 3 years

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you can’t just ask for sources and not give any yourself lmao

Not sure why this is hindering you from providing sources when I specifically asked because I wanted to get more information on the subject? Like, when someone asks you for your hobbies, do you say “you can’t just ask for my hobbies without telling me your hobbie first”. Some people want to learn and get informed, you know!

Can I ask? Do you actually care about cats and their well-being? Or do you just want to be rude to strangers on the internet? I think, someone who actually cares for the issue (and not just for the thrill of controversity) would provide helpful information for people who want to learn, right?

I also explained that I’m tired and that I will get to the research later. Meanwhile I asked for sources, so maybe I won’t have to do all the research because you guys have already convinced me!

I don’t understand why everyone is so aggressive and unwilling to communicate on a respectful level.

But here:

“Cats are simply not as domesticated as dogs despite sharing households with humans for at least 9,000 years, researchers at the Washington University School of Medicine have found.”

Unless they are kept indoors, the behavior of house cats is not much different from that of wild cats. Though the cat may regard more than one house as home, the house is the base where it feeds, sleeps and gives birth. There are clear territorial boundaries, larger for male cats than for females, which will be defended against other cats when necessary. The brains of house cats have diminished in size compared with their wild counterparts, but that does not make house cats less intelligent or adaptable. Since it is the part of the brain that includes the fight-or-flight response that has shrunk, house cats have become able to tolerate situations that would be stressful in the wild, such as encountering humans and unrelated cats.

Scientists say there is little that separates the average house cat (Felis Catus) from its wild brethren (Felis silvestris). There’s some debate over whether cats fit the definition of domesticated as it is commonly used, says Wes Warren, PhD, associate professor of genetics at The Genome Institute at Washington University in St. Louis. (There are apparently some really interesting debates about the word “domestic” and what it means exactly. Turns out, people have different opinions on that too. But defining a term like this is essential if you want to see a common ground!)

Anyway, not all sources are fairly recent, but most of them rely on the research mentioned in the first quote. I couldn’t find any recent scientific proof that debunks this research from 2014. But, of course, I haven’t done proper academic research. That’s why I keep asking you guys for information! I WANT to learn more about this because I CARE.

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