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raytorotits · 1 year

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i know nothing about coheed but claudio is such a beautiful woman my god?? i may actuaally start listening

if my legacy is getting people to follow their dicks into coheed world. that's beautiful. but good god they are good at making music.

if you think Claudio is beautiful now. listen to his voice.

it's severe.

#ive gotten like. 4 people into coheed over the past week? not bad #join me. tell me what tou think #and if you want to listen id reccomend starting with in keeping secrets of the silent earth: 3 #i initially linked shoulders but i wanted something more representative if their general prog soace opera vibe #so. welcome home. ots a classic for a reason

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akutasoda · 4 months

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Hello! Can I request fyodor, Nikolai and chuuya having a dream that their s/o cheated on them?

you'd never leave, would you?

synopsis - they dream you've cheated on them and even though they know it's not true they can't help but seek reassurance

includes - chuuya, fyodor, nikolai

warnings - gn!reader, angst to comfort, mentions of cheating, accusations of chraring?, petnames, reader hot on in nikolai's, wc - 1.2k

chuuya nakahara ★↷

he hadn't really been having a great day. the boss kept assigning him work after work and therefore he had to spend a fair share of evenings stuck at his desk or put on the field instead of the comforting embrace of you. what made it worse for him was that your schedule didn't align either.

so when he was finally having a rest, you were busy with either work or something else. so he hadn't properly seen or hung out with you for a while and somewhere in his stressed filled mind he started imagining the worst. and as he walked into your shared bedroom he almost forgot everything.

seeing you so relaxed made him feel more relaxed. he quickly got ready for bed and slipped under the covers beside you, careful not to wake you and eventually drifted to sleep. except it wasn't pleasant. within a short amount of time he began tossing and turning.

why? because somewhere in his mind he had the awful thought that all this time you were out, you were cheating on him. his dream reduced him to a nervous wreck and he was shook awake. you had been woken by his tossing and turning and seeing the look of discomfort and pain on his face made you quickly shake him awake.

he was startled as you look at him concerned asking him something along the lines of 'is everything ok?'. he could only stare at you. he was ashamed he even considered the thought of you doing such a thing and he didn't want to say anything as he didn't want to seem as though he was accusing you of anything.

so he responded with a shake of his head as he wrapped his arms around your torso and pulling you back down beside him. and before you both began sleeping again, he lifted his hand, his pinky out infront of you. you could faintly make it out in the dark and linked yours with his as he said 'promise to stay with me?'

fyodor dostoevsky ★↷

alot of the time, fyodor spent a longer than average time sat infront of his rather excessive amount of monitors. sometimes you would join him but you honestly couldn't see how he could sit there for as long as he could as you got very bored after a while.

especially because the most response you could get out of him was a simple hum or nod. and besides you did have a life outside of your relationship. but nowadays you found yourself more and more busy with said life. whether ot was hanging with friends or working, you barely had time to spend time with fyodor.

and it's not like he made an effort. so the most you would see of him would be briefly before you went to bed. and fyodor was a rather rational person so he assumed you were always just so exhausted and he respected that.

but as his eyes drroped a bit from exhaustion, he couldn't seem to help but let his mind wander, to drift to less than desirable scenarios. some of which involved you and other people. he immediately stilled and thought over the absolutely horrific scenario his mind played him. you. you with someone else. someone that wasn't him.

now he would never accuse you of doing so as a small part of him was arrogant enough to be rather cocky of your relationship, but considering the past weeks he felt more inclined to indulge that idea. he cleared his throught as he stood up, he wasn't going to allow such scenarios to distort his view but he had to check.

he saw you were fast asleep by the point of which he entered the bedroom and he felt a little bad for waking you. you stirred before waking up as you sleep filled voice ran out a simple 'what?'. he didn't really want to be direct about the subject but he still wanted to address it.

so he settled for the simple statement of 'dear, would you ever consider cheating on me?'. he secretly feared you answer as he dreaded you uttering the words yes but instead you returned a very sleepy 'no, whatever gave you that idea?'. he smilrd to himself before uttering a 'nothing before pressing a kiss to your forehead.

but you reacted quickly and dragged him next to you. nestling into his side as you muttered a 'now stay' as you caged him in your arms.

nikolai gogol ★↷

he was never one not to create elaborate scenarios in his head. he also enjoyed dragging you out with him. so after a very long day he decided he just wanted to see you and be with you for the evening. but he could barely sit still for five minutes.

and that's what lead to you beibg dragged around by him until he found a bar suitable for his mood. and whether or not you were one for this kind of scene, today you really just didn't feel like doing much. completely ignoring everyone else around you and focusing on your conversation with nikolai.

eventually nikolai excused himself for two minutes and so you turned your attention to idly swirling around your drink as you zoned out. you heard someone sit back next to you and assuming it was nikolai you looked up with a smile, just for that smile to drop as you realised it was a stranger.

they started talking to you and no amount of disinterest on your end would stop them. even as you internally wanted to just leave, you wanted to wait for nikolai. you thought they would never shut up and that was until nikolai came storming back over immediately grabbing your hand and dragging you back home.

you were silently very glad and much enjoyed just staying at home with nikolai. but he seemed off. and that was due to the fact that he saw someone else trying to hit on you and for some reason, tonight his mind drifted to rather different scenarios.

his mind was clouded with questions suxh as would you ever cheat on him? did you have any interest in anyone else? and more. you noticedhe seemed distant so when the front door closed you turned him to face you.

you brought your hands up to his face, cupping it as you asked what was wrong, even though you had a pretty good idea. he'd never looked so sad before and it made you worry. he pushed your concerns away before resuming his normal cheerful mood. but you weren't convinced.

so when nikolai was shaking you awake you knew exactly what was up. he couldn't shake the questions away and eventually shot up like a bullet from his nightmare. taking a minute to assess where he was he immediately looked for you. a bit surprised he hadn't woken you but he needed you so he begrudgingly woke you.

he seeked out your embrace as he expressed his concerns with his head buried in your shoulder as your sleep muddled brain barely worked out much but you knew what was happening. you returned the words by offering nothing but comfort and promises that you'd never dare such a thing.

eventually you both drifted off to sleep and he felt more content. he did have faith that you'd never dare cheat on him but he still couldn't help it, especially when he got jealous.

#x reader #x gender neutral reader #bsd x reader #bsd x gender neutral reader #bungo stray dogs x reader #bungo stray dogs x you #dazai x reader #bsd x you #bsd chuuya #chuuya x reader #bsd fyodor #fyodor x reader #bsd nikolai #nikolai x reader

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beautiful-basque-country · 2 months

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Kaixo !

Would you know words in euskara to refer to LGBT people ? I'm learning the language since only one of my parents speaks it and I only had a child vocabulary, and I don't really know where I would find slangs or if basque LGBT history is totally similaire to the one of Spain and France. The dictionaries I looked at only give the formal words and I was wondering if there was others (I don't dare to ask my father so I come at you, ô stranger on the internet).

Have a wonderful day !

Kaixo!!!

Here's a little word list found online:

Words to say lesbian:

Neskazale: girls enthusiast Aluzale, motxinzale, potxorzale: vulva enthusiast Motxinjale, pikujale, txirlajale: pussy eater Lesbiana hutsa: A lesbian who has never had sexual relations with a man. Bargasta: It has been used to designate shameless women, although it does not exclusively refer to lesbianism.

Bekatorosa: it means "sinners" and it's used in Iparralde. It was used as a queer response to the exclusion promoted by the hegemonic Catholic religion.

Bilitisen alabak: it means "the daughters of Bilitis". Lesbians were also called "the sisters of Bilitis". In 1894 Pierre Louÿs published a fake collection of Greek poems called The Songs of Bilitis where Bilitis is a Sappho's student and that is the reason why Bilitis and his daughters are rightly associated with lesbians.

Joxe-Joxepa: it means John-Jean taken from the dialect of the valley of Deba.

Kuku: it means cuckoo. It is used in the area of Oarsoaldea. "Cuckoo parties" were held in the past, the term may be related to the Kuku Herri district of Azkoitia.

Lamia: character of Basque mythology. A name that gays, lesbians and transsexuals use to call themselves in good humor or jokingly.

Lesbiama: from lesbiana + ama (mom), a word game for a lesbian who is a mother.

Emakoi, emaztekoi, andrakoi, neskakoi and verb neskakoitu: they can be used to mean to have a crush on girls, to slip into lesbian attitudes and actions.

Piper-opila: it means pepper cake. A word proposed by the Basque lesbians of EHGAM in Donostia to name themselves about twenty years ago.

Sorgin: meaning witch. It has been used in both good and bad ways.

Soropila: proposed as an alternative to 'bollera'. Formed by sorority + opila (cake).

Tortillera and bollera: literally, omelette maker and buns maker. They're common Spanish loanwords for lesbians in many areas of the Southern Basque Country.

Ulertua, kapaza: The understanding one, the one who understands. Codified statement to indicate that someone is gay or lesbian.

For butch:

Emarkia, marimutila, tunkurruna: tomboy

Hartzeme: it means female bear. It describes a masculine lesbian as an alternative to the English word butch. Other words are mariaker (mary male) and mari-motrailu.

Lumaontzi, lumadun, lumatzar, lumatza: the feathered one. A lesbian with a masculine look.

For femme:

Emaztetto, ematto, maripinpirin, marinexka, mariguapa

Words to say gay:

maritxu, garbiñe: they mean little Mary and Claire, used for femenine gay men. It was a slur but now it's been reclaimed.

tximeleta, marikoi: butterfly, fag*ot. Homophobic slurs, more and more reappropiated among the gay community.

atzelari: top

erregina: queen. A proud gay.

hartz: bear Vocabulary related to sexuality:

Andraketa: from woman + suffix of action. Sex or sexual activity between lesbians.

Andramin: from woman + pain. Strong sexual desire for women. Lesbian sex passion.

Neskatan or mutiletan egin: sort of "to do among the girls" or "to do among the boys". Flirt with girls / boys (same sex flirting).

Opila, opiltxo bat egin: Cake / Make a little cake. Two lesbians have sex.

Bilbon ibili: literally, to walk in Bilbo. To have sex.

[x, x]

Regarding LGBTI history in Euskadi, it's been linked to the one in Spain: heavily prosecuted during the dictatorship and after it - late 70s - the movement started to rally and ask for rights and legal protection. Some highlights:

1978: Basque congressman Francisco Letamendia Belzunce “Ortzi” defends for the first time ever LGBTI rights in Madrid.

1983: Legalization of the first Basque LGBTI association and decriminalisation of sex reasignment surgeries.

1994: First registration of a common-law partner in Gasteiz.

2003: Right to adoption to same-sex couples achieved in Euskadi.

2004: First edition of the International Gay-Lesbo-Trans Film Festival Zinegoak in Bilbo.

2009: Unity of Gender created at the Gurutzeta hospital (Bizkaia), formed by a multidisciplinary team of psychiatrists, psychologists, endocrine system specialists, and plastic surgeons.

2010: The Basque Parliament passes a law proposal supporting the end of the consideration of transexuality as a mental illness.

Sorry for the loooong post!! Eskerrik asko for reading!

#euskal herria #basque country #pays basque #pais vasco #euskadi #culture #lgbtiq #words #euskera #euskara #basque #languages #history #word list #anons #queer community

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bogleech · 11 months

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An extensive review of most of the Link to the Past enemies and bosses (crunched a bit for space) that I've been working on! Leave comments if you have a disqus account! (or make one and leave comments, I judge the whole success of an article by comment volume honestly)

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blindbeta · 3 months

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Hello!

I’m writing a story (fanfic) featuring a blind character starting in the late 60s and am having a dickens of a time figuring out what technologies were available, when. Do you happen to know if that information is collected anywhere?

On a side note, trying to figure that sort of thing out on today’s internet really highlights how much of it is engineered to sell us stuff.

Thanks for being a great resource!

Researching Assistive Technology for the Blind for Stories Set in the Past

Here are some ideas that might help with researching for anyone writing stories that are not modern or fantasy.

Writing a story set in a different time can be challenging, especially because assistive technology for blind folks isn’t as widely discussed. It is easier to look up when color television entered family homes, but much harder to find a timeline of when exactly technology for blind people was invented or when techniques were more widely taught. At least, I have not been able to find a nice timeline myself and have instead had to search backwards. For example, if your character pours liquid into a cup, you can search for when liquid indicators were invented and where. I found this page with the following writing: “In the early 1960's he came up with the Say When, a compact, battery-operated device that hangs over a drinking cup and signals when poured liquid nears the top.”

If your story takes place in the late 60s, it is probably reasonable to assume this device may be available to your character. Additionally, the article I linked above mentions that the blind inventor, Tim Cranmer, according to this page here, was born in Kentucky and worked there, which means it is likely the liquid level indicator he invented was more likely available in the United States first. I am not sure how long it would take for an invention like that to spread to other blind communities around the world in the 60s.

You can do the same with technology like the Brailler, which would have been available in the 60s, while Braille displays were not. The previous link provided does include a timeline, although ot starts after the 60s, which is not helpful to you.

Your blind character in the 60s is more likely to have Braille books. The 1960s also saw the rise of cassette tapes, with the Listening Library as a major distributor of audio books by 1955. Your character could also listen to books on vinyl and cassette tapes.

When doing searches backwards, starting with when a particular device was invented, I find a lot of devices that were invented in Western countries. I would love to go more into non-Western blind inventors, but that may be for another time.

My advice is to reverse search devices you want to use and start by finding out when and where they were invented. You may also look into online spaces with older blind people who may be able to verify if a character using such a device at the time might be plausible. You may also search for videos to see if anyone has already collected helpful information.

As for writing, your character might have enough vision to write in large print. They may also be able to use a print typewriter with someone else proofreading.

Another technique I found was to research the history of blindness organizations. This page, while it suffers from some unfortunate ableist tones in the phrasing chosen by the writer, has a bit about the history of the Royal National Institute For Blind People. Researching the organization might help with figuring out what came from it. In this case, the page I linked mentioned distribution of Braille books and books in audio formats. You could probably do the same by researching schools for the blind around the area the story is set, as records might be accessible online or obtainable through staff. For example, students who ran school papers.

You can also research history of orientation and mobility or the history of canes to see what your character would likely use.

As for accessibility around the home or frequented areas, it may not be as different from today. Your character will still adjust lighting to a comfortable level. Your character might make a grocery list using a tape recorder or a slate and stylus. They might fold their money in a specific way for easy identification. They can mark specific bottles, buttons, or dials using any number of methods, including ink, tape, paint, stickers, etc. I have tried to research when bump dots were invented, but I came across websites trying to sell me bump dots.

Lastly, for fanfiction you might be able to get away with bending the timeline a bit. You can use notes to explain your researching and writing process to readers.

If anyone has resources to share, please feel free to do so.

#assistive technology #blind #ask #writing blind characters

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anxious-witch · 5 months

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Inertia 7

Summary: Newton's first law expresses the principle of inertia: the natural behavior of a body is to move in a straight line at constant speed. In the absence of outside influences, a body's motion preserves the status quo.

Jan choose a direction of his life the moment he walked out of his parents house and cut all contact with them. He didn't want anything to do with them, or God anymore. Even his soulmark he wished he could leave behind. But when Nace Jordan joins the band, with a mark matching his own, can Jan keep going the same way he did? Or will the force make him change a direction?

Pairings: Jan Peteh/Nace Jordan

Warnings: None, I think? Please do tell me if I'm wrong I'll edit ot immediately

Notes: AO3 link

urprise! Early update of the last chapter. Thank you everyone who made it this far, especially people who consistently commented throughout. I have several things to say before you jump right in.

1) I am aware JO didn't actually preform at the EMA, but since this is already and au and I really liked the concept of the scene, it is here. Just roll with it 2) There will (hopefully) be two fics following this one, one with the focus on Bojan and the other on Kris. I am not sure exactly when I'll be writing and post them though, since December is quite busy, but until then, at least this is finished.

Anyway, this part is pretty much all fluff and very cheesy at the end, but I figured we all deserved it after all the angst

I believe that witness is a magnitude of vulnerability. That when I say love what I mean is not a feeling nor promise of a feeling. I believe in attention. My love for you is a monolith of try.

The woman I love pays an inordinate amount of attention to large and small objects. She is not described by anything. Because I could not mean anything else,

she knows exactly what I mean.

Once upon a time a line saw itself clear to its end. I have seen the shape of happiness. (y=mx+b) I am holding it. It is your hand.

What Space Faith Can Occupy By TC Tolbert

Jan wondered if light green walls of the therapist's office were suppose to somehow elevate the space. Made it seem more colorful.

Personally, it only reminded him more if a hospital.

Still, just as in all previous sessions, he had to remind himself he wasn't there just for himself. Kris had been genuinely worried after his breakdown. Jure and Bojan didn't know about it, but they likely suspected something had transpired.

He would need to tell Bojan about him and Nace eventually. But that, at least, was a problem for future Jan.

There was also Nace to think about. In the past three weeks, there had been slow, almost painful progress made between them. Still, he was trying. That counted for something, right?

He turned his attention back to the matter at hand.

His therapist was a young woman, Jan would guess somewhere in her thirties. She hat jet black hair and looked perfectly put together. She reminded him of Kris in that regard.

Which made sense, considering he only got a spot so quickly due to Kris' connections. Jan really, really didn't want to think about how he managed that.

"So, Jan," Nina said, "do you want us to continue on where we stopped last time, or do you have something from this week you'd like to discuss?"

Her voice was unkind, or even cold, but Jan still had to force himself to talk sometimes. His trust issues weighted heavily on him in moment like these.

"Well, no. Except that Nace and I actually went to play basketball, but I mentioned we will last week anyway."

Nina patiently waited for him to continue. When he didn't, she spoke again.

"How was it?"

Jan sighed. It was awful. Jan felt genuinely bad for even going along with it, considering how much Nace hated any sport that you had to play with the ball. It ended when Nace didn't manage to catch the ball one time Jan threw it. It hit him in the face and made his nose bleed.

Jan supposed there was a metaphor there somewhere.

"It wasn't great. Nace is...really bad at basketball."

She quickly wrote something down and Jan tried his best not to feel judged.

"And how did you feel about it?"

"Shitty, I guess. I didn't make him play, but it kind of felt like I did."

Nina tapped her pen to the notes.

"From what I have here, it seems Nace usually initiates these activities and they seem to be activities you like. Am I correct?"

Jan shrugged.

"Yes."

"And what do you think about that?"

How many times could she ask him that? Wasn't she supposed to tell him what to think about that? Jan felt increasingly annoyed.

"Why do you keep asking that? If you want to say something, then say it."

She pursed her lips.

"I am not here to tell you how to feel, Jan. I am here to help you verbalize it."

That was the dumbest fucking answer he ever heard.

"I already said I feel bad about it. What more do you want me to say?"

"Have you thought about doing the same for him?"

Jan paused. He haven't. Or well-he had, but he wasn't really sure there was an activity Nace liked that they could do together.

"I don't know if we have anything in common. Other than music, I mean. I know he is trying, but maybe this wasn't a good idea, after all."

Nina nodded, his face neutral. Always so goddamn neutral.

"Have you talked to him about it?"

"What, and break his heart? He'd just try even harder. I don't-"

I don't know what to say to make him give up on me. Jan clenched his teeth.

"I think you should consider trying one of his activity. Surely, there is something he likes that you don't hate."

Jan took in a deep breath. He was fighting the urge to mess up his nails even more, but if he started bleeding during practice again, even Bojan will notice.

"I guess. But that doesn't solve the main issue, does it?"

Nina sighed.

"Alright. How about you think about it, and we talk about something else for the rest od the session?"

Jan agreed and they moved on, but the thought stayed with him. Was he simply not putting enough effort?

The question haunted him enough for him to drive to Nace's apartment few hours later. He only sent him a text asking if he was home, and once he got a confirmation, he sat in the car and drove here.

It was probably rude, but Jan figured that if Nace had an issue with him being rude, they wouldn't be here in the first place.

It wasn't until he rang the doorbell and heard the barking did he remember Nace had a dog. Ollie.

He knew that, of course. It was just that the two of them usually met outside of Nace's apartment and several times they came here, Ollie was being babysat by Nace's sister.

Well. Jan supposed it was bound to happen to or later. If Ollie hated him, did that mean he was immediately disqualified from soulmate status?

Nace opened the door, trying to keep Ollie from rushing into the hallway. Jan felt caught off guard, despite the fact that he was the one who rang the doorbell.

Nace was wearing a tank top. Had Jan ever seen him in one before?

"Please get in before he runs out, I don't feel like trying to catch him."

Jan quickly stepped into the apartment and Nace closed the door behind him. The Nace carefully let Ollie come closer.

Jan kneeled down, offering his hand for him to sniff at. He liked dogs well enough, but he was always at a bit of a loss on what to do with them.

Cats you had to build a bond with. Usually just being in their general vicinity was enough at the start. You let them come to you. Even if you offered them treats, you had to leave them at the same distance at first.

Dogs? Dogs were unpredictable. They could love you or hate you your smell. Or whatever it was that they could feel around you.

"Dogs can always tell if a person is good or bad", his brother used to say. Jan, who had dogs both love and hate him for no clear-cut reasons over the years, couldn't quite agree.

Dogs could feel something, certainly. But that something was only a first impression and they choose that intangible thing as a base to be loyal or not.

Cats, at least got to know you first before making any judgments.

Ollie sniffed his hand and cocked his head to the side, as if trying to gauge if he was alright or not.

"Hello," Jan said awkwardly.

Ollie came closer, nudging his snout against his hand and Jan carefully petted him on the head, waiting to see the reaction. When he started wagging his tail, Jan felt relieved.

Nace's dog hating him wasn't something he wished to deal with. There were plenty of other things that made him want to turn back and run away.

"He seems to like you," Nace said softly.

One bad call he share with his owner, Jan thought grimly as he stood up.

"That's good. I think we should talk."

Nace sighed.

"As much as I love how direct you are, that sounds very ominous."

Jan simply took his shoes off and shrugged off his jacket.

Ollie followed them as they went into the living room. Jan wondered if they were creating some sort of bad karma for the place, having all their fucked up conversations here.

Or perhaps he spent too much time around Bojan and his superstitiousness was starting to rub off of him.

"Do you want something to drink first or-"

"How about we just get this over with and then after you can offer me stuff if you want me to stay?"

Nace awkwardly sank into the couch, far enough that Jan would have to stretch to be able to touch him, despite his long arms. Was it for his own comfort, or for Jan's?

They were closer physically since they talked the last time. Sitting closer, hand brushing against each other, squeezing each other's shoulders on occasion. That sort of thing.

Now, though, there was no of that. As if Nace was already getting used to the distance. Which Jan supposed was fair, even if he felt a familiar burning at the soulmark.

Before Jan could say anything, though, Ollie jumped on the couch and attempted to nuzzled at his chest. Jan felt thrown off balance a bit as he petted him, which only prompted Ollie to settle in his lap.

"I don't think I am doing this whole thing right," Jan confessed, not taking his eyes off Ollie.

"Could you please be more specific?"

Jan scratched behind Ollies ear. Matej's dog liked that. Ollie made a content sound so Jan continued.

"You keep putting so much effort into liking things that I like and trying them out. And I-I mean I can do it too, but I don't know if it's even right. Like, shouldn't we already have matching interests? Is it even healthy if we both have to change?"

He took his hands off Ollie and clenched them in frustration. He hated how his tongue always felt like lead when he was supposed to talk about these things. He harshly pulled at his hair and tied it back with the tie around his wrist.

"This works like any other relationship would, Jan."

Jan scoffed.

"Does it? I don't remember any of my friends tailoring their interests to fit me."

Nace took in a deep breath. Jan learned he always did that when he was frustrated, like he was stopping himself from saying anything before he was ready.

"Really? Kris never tried listening to metal for you? He knows you favorite brand of tea on accident? You always keep ear plugs in your car if he gets overstimulated because, what? You did that before you were friends?"

Jan felt speechless.

"That's-

"Different? Yeah, of course it is, because this is Kris we are talking about."

Nace sounded resigned. Hurt, even. Jan slowly looked at him, but now it was Nace avoiding his gaze. He was staring at his hands, his expression troubled.

"I don't mean to say discard your and Kris' friendship. I think it's amazing you have him, but I'm jealous. Not because I think there is anything going on, but because you seem to allow others to get close to you while keep me at arms length. And I don't know what to do at this point to change your mind."

Jan's heart squeezed painfully. He never heard Nace so resigned. He was always the one to try and find a solution and not give up.

He gently set Ollie on the couch, despite his small, protesting whine. Then he stood up sat closer to Nace. Close enough that their shoulders touched. This time, he was the one to take Nace's hands in his.

"I'm sorry. You are right."

Nace's head slowly rose, like he barely dared to be hopeful and look at Jan straight on.

"I was, well I am scared. We said we'll be friends, but I don't think I can be your friend. From the moment we met, I kept you at arm length and for one single moment I didn't, we ended up hooking up. You terrify me, Nace."

Nace's breath stuttered. Jan leaned his forehead against Nace's and closed his eyes.

"I had all but convinced myself everything about soulmates was bullshit, that all that was stories and people kept confirming them because they were desperate for it to be true. But that was all it was, a placebo effect. And then you came along. Shattered everything I thought I knew."

For a moment, there was silence. Then Nace's hand touched his neck, just a bit below the soulmark. Jan took in a deep, shuddering breath.

"May I?"

"Yes."

The first time Nace touched the soulmark, Jan was too terrified to even appreciate the sensation. But he did now. The feeling was warm and safe. Jan expected his heart to race, but instead it calmed down, as if soothed by Nace's touch.

Something about a gesture made something deep inside him uncoil and words just started pouring out of him.

"When I was fifteen, I started secretly listening to metal. The first time I did, I felt so guilty, I ended up crying and not allowing myself to eat for a day, as a penance. For weeks, I had been worse off than if I had never listened to it. It took me months to gather the courage to try again."

Jan hoped Nace would understand he was saying. He wasn't sure he could say it outright. Nace hummed.

"You are afraid, but you also know that doesn't mean this is bad because you are afraid."

Jan nodded, but Nace didn't say anything immediately after. When he finally spoke, he didn't say what Jan expected him to.

"When I was twelve, I was bullied a lot because of my weight. I remember being terrified of going to school. The only place I felt safe in was the church, because nobody bullied me there. I felt safe. Even if the conditions and rules weren't perfect, it was still better."

Jan opened his eyes, almost indignantly.

"I am not a church."

Nace cracked a small smile.

"No. But you are a safe space, even if the conditions and rules you impose aren't perfect."

Jan's answer was to kiss him. Not roughly, like he did before, but softly and slowly. Giving Nace time to pull away.

He didn't, instead he kissed him back and pulled him closer. One of Jan's hands curled around Nace's nape and the other reached for his wrist. He knew exact moment he touched his soulmark, because Nace shivered.

The only way Jan could describe the feeling was that the bond between them sang. Like the world slightly tilted and found a perfect balance.

Like they were perfect together.

Jan had to pull back from the kiss, fighting a near overwhelming fear that washed over him. Nace didn't let him go far this time, instead pulling him in a hug.

"It's okay."

Nace's voice was soft, and he was warm and comfortable and it was almost unbearable.

"I know it's fucking okay," Jan said, his voice breaking.

He buried his head in Nace's chest and hope he didn't feel the tears soaking his shirt. Nace didn't say anything after that, he simply held him as he cried.

Until the tears dried out and the fear slightly pulled back. Still, some doubts remained.

"What if the rules and conditions can't be improved anymore? What if this is just...who I am?"

He pulled back a bit, to study Nace's face as he answered. Unexpectedly, Nace grinned.

"Well, if a church gets a new priest-"

Jan rolled his eyes at the awful joke.

"You've been hanging with Bojan too much."

Nace was still grinning.

"A priest can also recommend new way of worship-"

Jan groaned loudly and pushed Nace back, so he landed on his back, laughing openly. He had a beautiful, infectious laugh that Jan couldn't help but laugh along as well.

"Please don't use church metaphors anymore. They are awful."

Nace stretched his arms over his head, exposing his muscles and tattoos even more. Jan couldn't help, but let his gaze linger on them.

"Make me."

Jan was never the one to avoid temptation. And Nace had always been so tempting. Almost like a red apple in a garden without color. Jan leaned down and kissed him again.

Nace melted into the kiss and reached out to him again. His hands reached Jan's hair and Jan tense slightly, but Nace gently pulled at the tie, until his hair spilled from the ponytail.

Jan was distracted enough by the kiss to let him. He wanted Nace closer and-

They were interrupted by a loud, insistent whine. Jan pulled back enough to look in the direction it came from, finding Ollie looking at them with the saddest expression he could possibly muster.

Nace burst out laughing, his whole body shaking.

"I think he doesn't like me hogging his new favorite."

Jan chuckled, sitting back up. He held his hand out and petted Ollie gently, immediately receiving a lick on his hand.

"Maybe I could have some sort of tea, if the offer still stands," Jan said, not looking away from Ollie.

"It absolutely does. I have mint tea Kris mentioned you liked."

Traitor, Jan thought, giving away my secrets.

"Nace?"

"Yeah?"

"Which one is your favorite?"

Jan turned his head to look, catching a surprise that flitted across his face before it melted in a soft smile.

"Probably chamomile."

Of course. The calming thing one always drank when they felt unwell to soothe and comfort. It fit him.

"I'll remember that."

With that Nace went into the kitchen, and Ollie brough Jan a ball he could throw for him. Jan took in a deep breath, feeling as if he just climbed a mountain. Whatever happened after this, he had a feeling he could handle after.

As terrifying as it could get.

Jan was nervously tapping his fingers against the wheel, resisting the urge to bite his nails. It was not a smart thing to do while driving.

"Are you really not going to tell me where we are going?"

He chuckled a bit at Nace's pleading tone. This really was an unusual role reversal for both of them, wasn't it?

"I told you, it's a surprise."

Nace huffed and settled back in his seat. Jan sneaked a glance at him when he stopped at the red light. Nace had his arms crossed over his chest, his warm brown jacket tightly wrapped around his biceps.

"One would think I am taking you to get shot," Jan teased, turning his gaze back to the road as the light changed to green.

Nace laughed at that, at least, his shoulders relaxing.

"No, I just-I am not used to surprises. You barely gave me any hints on what to wear!"

Jan smirked.

"I said wear something comfortable that you don't mind getting dirty."

He could feel Nace's unimpressed stare on him.

"Very helpful."

Jan chuckled and took a left turn, parking to the side. Nace immediately started glancing around, trying to gauge where they were. Jan couldn't help but think it was kind of cute.

He unbuckled his belt and got out of the car, waiting for Nace to do the same. When he did, he led him to a nearby building.

Nace was frowning, trying to piece together what they were doing. Jan decided to take pity on him.

"It's a pottery class."

His head immediately snapped towards Jan, his eyes widening.

"You are taking me to a pottery class??"

Jan swallowed, growing nervous all of a sudden. Did he misjudge? Did Jure mix something up?

"Jure mentioned you wanted to try it since your sister did pottery. I thought..."

"No! I mean, yes, I love the idea!"

He sounded so eager, so terrified that Jan would change his mind and snatch the offer away from him. Jan felt bad. Was he truly treating him in a way that made him think he'd play him like this for a joke?

"Alright then. Let's go."

There were people inside already, and their teacher quickly introduced himself. He gave them instructions on hand-building techniques with clay, saying they need to get used to that before they can move to the pottery wheel.

The process was messy and Jan underestimate just how bad he was at shaping the clay. When Nace looked over and saw his wonky cup, he doubled over laughing.

Jan side-eyed him, before taking a bit of clay and smearing it over Nace's shirt. Nace gasped.

Then he grabbed a piece of clay and smeared it over Jan's cheek. Jan slapped his hair away, trying to rub it off.

"If this gets into my hair Nace, I swear-"

Nace laughed again and someone shushed them.

"Can you two please let the rest of us work?" A blond man left of them said.

He was short, with blind hair just below his ears. He was frowning at them intently, reminding Jan of an annoyed cat.

His tall, tattooed friend-or partner, how could Jan know, really-gently pulled him by the sleeve.

"Lovro, com'on. They are just having fun. Look at this."

The man, well maybe even a boy, with how soft his features looked, immediately turned to the other man. He looked at him like...oh.

Jan looked at Nace, who was clearly eyeing the situation, seeing if Jan could handle it or if he needed to get involved.

Jan was hit by the sudden realization of how much he had come to care for him. Despite all the back and forth and his own grievances, he was-

He stopped his thoughts before any bigger words came to mind. It was still too early to think that. But maybe it wouldn't be, eventually.

Jan never thought of himself as someone who could settle down and yet that spark of hope still lived, nestled deep in his chest.

Maybe.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" Nace asked, titling his head to the side.

Jan shook his head.

"Nothing. Let's try to shape these into something decent before we do that...wheel thing, yeah?"

Nace smiled, like a sudden light igniting in the dark.

"Yeah."

As Jan tried to save his clay cup, he suddenly felt bolder. He could ask, right? At worst, Nace will refuse, but when did Nace refuse him before? Jan cleared his throat.

"You could...come over after, if you'd like. You didn't meet Igor yet."

He didn't look up as he asked the question. It would be easier to take a no when he didn't have to worry about which expression he was making.

"You want me to come over?"

There was that tone again. Like Nace was shocked by this. Like Jan wasn't trying to do better for weeks now. He supposed he'd just have to keep trying.

"If you'd like to, yes. I did get some chamomile tea recently."

He sneaked a glance in Nace's direction. His eyes were soft and his mouth was lightly open, as if in wonder. Jan's heart started beating fasted.

"I would like that," Nace said quietly, looking directly at him.

Jan had to look away, but he couldn't help but smile slight. There was slight fear in his stomach still, but there was no ringing of the church bell, or an urge to reach for a necklace that wasn’t there.

He was still himself and he was still in control of it all. Simply taking steps in the right direction. It had been as if he was in inertia for very long time. After being stuck for so long, it was hard to get back into motion, but once he did, he knew it would get easier.

All he had to do was keep moving.

All Jan could hear was a drum of his own heart as they waited for the host to announce them. Thud. Thud. Thud.

It was finally time for them to preform at EMA. To try and get chosen to represent Slovenia at Eurovision. The importance, the fragility of the moment made all the colors more intense, almost as if they were in new, swirling patterns.

Jan took a look at his bandmates. Each of them in a different outfit that fit them perfectly. Bojan, in his loud combination of green shirt and pink pants, that he somehow managed to pull of regardless.

Kris, in a gold sleeves shirt and lighter pink pants that match. Of course-Kris always knew how much attention to draw to himself. Not too much and not too little.

Jure, with sky blue button up that perfectly fit his sunshine personality and darker purple pants for contrast.

All of them looked amazing, really. But it was Nace that Jan couldn't look away from.

Nace, who finally wore color. A purple suit with a silver shirt underneath. The suit had intricated details that made Jan want to run his fingers over the material and feel it's shapes.

When he arrived, he was always pale beige in their mix of chaos and color. Slowly but surely, that changed. And here they were now.

Jan shuffled closer to him, almost as if pulled by an invisible force. He could feel it, but he found it more comforting now, rather than scary.

"Ready?" He whispered, smiling at him.

"Ready," Nace answered, briefly brushing his hand against Jan's.

"And next up, we have Joker Out!"

They stepped on the stage as the people clapped and Jan could feel the adrenaline fully hitting him. He couldn't concentrate on whatever Bojan briefly said before he started singing.

All Jan could focus on was playing. His fingers slid over the strings just as perfectly as they did the very first time he nailed a song when he was sixteen.

Everything else faded away, like looking at the world through a sort of fog. Only music existed. Even Bojan's singing was slightly muted in that moment. Like Jan was alone with his guitar.

Then his gaze slid to Nace and he found him already looking in his direction. Nace, who still had the ability to be in Jan's bubble that one else could touch.

He didn't mind the company, though. Not anymore.

He sent him a little wink and watched as his cheeks turned slightly red. Then he turned back to the audience and took a deep breath. Then let the bubble snap and all the sound and sensations rush back to him.

Because there was never really a need for the bubble at all. Not when he was at the safe space.

There was no divinity here. None other than the music itself, that they shared with the audience.

When they played the last note, there was a thunderous applause and part of Jan already knew. He could feel it in their bones that they won.

The knowing of being at the right place, at the right time. With just the right people, too.

The rest od the night passed in a blur. Jan knew he talked to people, but later he'd be unable to recall what he said. He'd remember the high of the announcement that they won and all of his friends rushing into a group hug.

It wasn't until they all changed back to their everyday clothes and were waiting for Bojan in the cold, that the realization finally started to sink in.

"We won," he whispered into the night air.

"We did," Kris said, smiling.

Whatever makeup they put on him made him look more ethereal than usual. He looked more content than Jan had seen him for awhile.

"What is Bojan doing for so long?" Jure wondered, his eyes lingering on the doors they all cane through.

It was odd. As much as Bojan paid attention to his looks, he never took this long.

"I'll go check," Jan said, getting to his feet.

Jan felt slightly guilty, over how little he talked to Bojan outside of the practice in recent weeks. Being caught up in the whole soulmate dilemma, he didn't take the time to pay as much attention to his friends.

Well, that was another thing he could start fixing now.

He found Bojan in the changing room, completely dressed, but staring off through the window.

"Bojan? Is everything okay?"

Bojan flinched, as if woken up from a very deep sleep. He blinked at Jan, confused.

"Ah, yeah! Yeah, I was just a bit lost in thought. Did you guys wait for me for long?"

Jan stepped closer, putting his hand on Bojan's shoulder. Bojan leaned into the touch, breathing out slowly.

"Are you sure you are alright?"

"I-" Bojan bit his lip, his gaze jumping around the room almost frantically, never staying for long and completely avoiding Jan's face.

"I just...this is a lot. It feels enormous. And of course, of course I am happy we won. It just feels like we set a new course all of a sudden, if that makes sense. Like it feels like my life already changed."

Jan pulled him into a hug. Bojan took in a sharp breath and then relaxed, hugging him back. They just stayed like that for a moment.

"I know. It's terrifying but it's going to be okay. You have us, alright?"

Bojan's arms tightened around him for a bit.

"Yeah."

They were silent for a bit and Bojan already pulled away from the hug when Jan spoke again.

"I actually owe you an apology. With how I reacted when you brought up soulmates for all these years."

Bojan shrugged.

"It's fine. I figured it was a sensitive topic."

Jan shook his head.

"Yes but it's not an excuse. I am sorry, Bojan. You were allowed to be excited at prospect of meeting them without me putting you down for it."

He rubbed tips of his fingers against the nail of his thumb. Resisting the urge to mess it up more.

"I won't say I completely understand, even now with Nace. I still very much love being independent from him. But I am saying I understand more."

Bojan smiled, reminding Jan that if Nace was the light in darkness, Bojan was certain a sun, his rays bringing about a new day.

"Thank you for saying that. I am excited to meet her, one day. Whenever destiny decides we are ready."

Jan rolled his eyes, more for the dramatic effect than anything else. That was still extremely cheesy, but it was very on brand for Bojan.

"Sure, lover boy. Now, can we go before the rest of them freeze outside? It is December, y'know?"

Bojan laughed and grabbed his bag. He dramatically pointed to the door.

"To wherever destiny may lead us!"

Jan cracked a smile, unable to keep up the brooding persona.

"To whenever destiny may lead us," he repeated quietly.

Then he stepped over the threshold after Bojan and for the first time in many years he knew everything would be alright. As long as he had his family, soulmate included, by his side, everything would be alright.

No matter the challenges that awaited them.

#my writing #joker out #jance #inertia

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psychicdreamfriendoperator · 1 year

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Hi I don’t know if you take Melon requests, but if not feel free to ignore this. Would it be ok to request headcanons of Melon with an affectionate caring s/o please?

MELON WITH AN AFFECTIONATE, CARING S/O

I write for all of the characters featured in Beastars and its sister series, Beast Complex 👍🏾

I get the feeling that this is meant to be wholesome, so, I tried not to lean too heavily into angsty territory. At the same time though, since Melon’s ... instability and love of violence is such a large part of his character, it would feel strange removing references to that completely.

Anyway, hope you enjoy, anon!

— Psychic

General Headcanons

It's very tempting for prospective partners to take on a nurturing, maternal or even an almost therapist-like role in their relationship with Melon.

Those past partners became so embroiled in their fantasies that they failed to remember one important fact: that you cannot “fix” Melon.

More importantly: Melon does not want to be fixed. He doesn't regret his actions, either, and, given the opportunity, he would likely have things play out the same way.

But this is a reality Melon’s s/o is well aware of.

Borders in Communication

Communicating with Melon is like communicating to an alien; although Melon comes off as suave and charismatic, his social skills are very, terribly underdeveloped.

(It is no fault of his.)

Melon learnt to communicate by studying the way herbivores communicate with each other — Melon’s entire style of communication (at least when he is actively trying to be non-threatening) can be described as “see? I’m perfectly harmless”.

That may be fine for one-off talks with co-workers or people on the street, but it is uncanny.

Melon’s attempt at masking his poor social skills comes off as endearing at best, and disturbing at the absolute worst.

But over time, Melon stops masking around his s/o.

He convinces himself that he stops because he can't be bothered to keep up the façade, but really, it's because he doesn't want to make his s/o too uncomfortable.

Melon’s s/o is very big on hugs, and other, physical displays of affection. At first, they may not be able to understand why Melon doesn't appear to reciprocate their feelings.

If left unchecked, ot may even lead to resentment.

But, an honest conversation helps. (Honest conversations are a common thing in this relationship — they're almsot required when dealing with Melon)

Small Affections

Melon's s/o is wary of being 'too' affectionate; if they are, Melon tends to misconstrue it as mockery or something else negative.

It sounds paradoxical, but the smaller the displays of affection, the more likely it is that Melon will accept them.

So, Melon's s/o is forced to start small: first with light touches (not petting -- petting Melon makes him feel like an animal), and then working slowly up to holding hands in private.

Melon's s/o knows their attempts are successful when Melon begins doing it without prompting.

In what appears to be another paradoxical trait: Melon is very affectionate in public, but considerably more reserved in private. This links back to the 'masking' mentioned earlier -- herbivores are stereotyped as being more affectionate + family-oriented, so those are the traits Melon tries to embody when in public with his s/o.

As Melon becomes more comfortable with his leopard side, he gradually decreases the affection he shows publicly -- while increasing the affection he shows to his s/o privately.

Melon's s/o has to be patient with him -- a difficult task, but one they undertake sincerely.

Adventures in Cooking

Melon's s/o doesn't understand what Melon means when he says all food tastes like sand to him.

S/O takes that to mean that their cooking is tasteless, and spends an embarrassingly long time reading cooking books and crawling related forums for help.

I'm certain Melon must've noticed the misunderstanding, but says nothing because ... well, it's nice to be fussed over. Especially since his s/o is fully genuine in their efforts to help him.

#beastars #beastars headcanons #beastars imagines #beastars melon #beastarsxreader #beastars x reader #ask #for this ask i interpreted 'caring' as 'caring enough to understand that melon thinks and feels differently'

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charmwasjess · 2 months

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hi!! qui-gon + 2, 3, 12

Hi!!! Thank you for playing!! I'm sorry I'm a little bit late with this answer. I have been absolutely savoring these and spending too long on my answers. THEY ARE SO FUN.

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

Honestly, the moment where Qui-Gon is in the middle of the Duel of the Fates and kneels down in front of the wall of lasers and the prowling, glaring Maul to meditate. Coming into TPM after the OT, Qui-Gon is the first full-on Jedi in his prime we've ever seen, and that moment is so precious to me, not just for how it characterizes him, but for the picture it gives us of what the whole Jedi Order are like as a people. It's a beautiful, iconic scene. When I think about why I like the Jedi stories in Star Wars best of all, I think about that moment. 3. Least favorite canon thing about this character? I think we're supposed to wince at this moment in TPM - the camera cut to Obi-Wan's blindsided, hurt eyes, literally left behind as Qui-Gon steps forward to announce to the Council that Anakin will now be his Padawan. It's excruciating. It's uncomfortable. The echo of that same fact coming back when he spends his last words on Anakin, and not the boy he's already trained who is actively crying onto him.

But frankly, I actually like this about his character, even if it kills me - because the best characters have interesting flaws, and Qui-Gon has some horribly good ones. I could go on and on about this. And the point is never that I think Qui-Gon is deliberately thoughtless or evil in this, it's just the painful complexity of a really good character.

....If you want a more petty answer, I'd also say I'm annoyed at Master and Apprentice's vague and unclarified suggestion that Qui-Gon had Some Big Love Interest in his past, unless they plan to actively re-canonized Tahl. (Which they should. Light of the Force. Love of my life.) 12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

I don't know if this counts, because it's definitely a Theory as much as a headcanon, but nothing will convince me that Darth Maul wasn't specifically added to the Naboo shitshow by Sidious for no reason other than to kill Qui-Gon. Maul does nothing during TPM except try to isolate and destroy him. He routinely ignores his actual target (stopping/controlling Amidala) to get at him. And I think the reason for this is because, much like Sidious groomed Anakin for years as his ideal/intended student while Dooku was his apprentice, Sidious was moving out Maul for Dooku, and he needed Qui-Gon's death as the ultimate destabilizing factor to topple Dooku's house of cards.

* Here's the link if you want to send me an ask or reblog to play!

#qui gon jinn #answered asks #the phantom menace

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littleststarfighter · 2 years

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Boys Don’t Cry Kylux Art book

Is a go.

It’s now available for pre-order at my Etsy store

ETSY LINK ♥

A fanbook I put together of my Kylux art from the past few years.

It’ going to be £20. The size of the artbook is A5 (148x210mm) with Perfect bound binding.Printed on 150g silk paper, with a 300g gloss cover. And has 48 pages of full colour illustrations. Which I swear look better in person than the pictures my potato of a phone took.

🚨🚨IMPORTANT STUFF🚨🚨

This is a pre-order for 4 weeks. So it will end on the 29th of July. The books will be posted out after those 4 weeks. I’ve set it for a limited number of books available because Etsy wants to know the amount right away, so it may end before that date. If it looks to sell out before that I’ll try and up the numbers. But I can't promise that’ll work. Also, please be aware you won't get it right away after you order it, as I will have to print it out. I will start posting them ot on the 29th. I will try my best to get everything shipped out quickly. But, please realise I'm posting these individually, and will have to fill out customs on anything outside the UK, so it'll take me a while. I will keep you updated via my tumblr.

If you have any questions or queries please don't hesitate to contact me via messenger on Etsy or directly here on tumblr. I’ll try my best to answer everything and fix any problems if I can.

I do not ship to Russia, Ukraine or any country listed as 'on suspension' on this list https://business.help.royalmail.com/app/answers/detail/a_id/5317/~/international-incidents-update I will cancel any from those countries due to the Royal mail being unable to send to them. I'm really sorry about that.

After all that ramble I really hope that all goes well, and thank you as always for the support.

#kylux #kylux fanbook #kylo ren #general hux #armitage hux #star wars #I hope I don't mess this up #argh so nervous

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stillsolo · 2 months

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ROLEPLAY HISTORY post characters you’d like to roleplay as, have roleplayed as, and might bring back.

CURRENT MUSES

han s. — star wars ( canon/eu )

anakin s. / vader — star wars ( canon/eu )

luke s. — star wars ( canon/eu )

obi-wan k. — star wars ( canon/eu | discord only )

WANT TO WRITE

it takes… a lot for me to pick up a primary muse lol

PAST CANON MUSES ( primary )

john shepard — mass effect ( ot canon )

kaidan alenko — mass effect ( ot canon )

kurosaki ichigo — bleach ( canon )

grimmjow jaegerjaquez — bleach ( canon )

PAST CANON MUSES ( secondary / casual )

dr. henry walton / "indy" — indiana jones ( ot canon )

elka solo — star wars ( fc | canon/eu )

astri solo — star wars ( fc | canon/eu )

chewbacca — star wars ( canon/eu )

leia organa — star wars ( canon/eu )

lando calrissian — star wars ( canon/eu )

padmé amidala — star wars ( canon/eu )

assaj ventress — star wars ( canon/eu )

wedge antilles — star wars ( canon/eu )

biggs darklighter — star wars ( canon/eu )

ARC/CT-8080 / liner — star wars ( oc | canon/eu )

urahara kisuke — bleach ( ss canon )

kuchiki rukia — bleach ( ss canon )

david anderson — mass effect ( ot canon )

WOULD WRITE AGAIN

primary muses never leave me! e.g: han harassing me for like 10 fuckin' yrs

TAGGED BY: @valorums omg thank you for thinking of me!! TAGGING: @techniiciian @sgterso @desiccation @jedibattlemaster @strcngered @fcalty @debelltio @vibraea @red-flight @reawakcn @cnlyluck & anyone else who wants to do this! pls link me if you've already done it 👀

#( . fc = fan created. sw fanzine author irene heron/vysila created astri + elka solo in 1996 #( . before book 1 of the 1998 han s. trilogy published #( . i’ve included the two in many of my au threads in which han didn’t grow up an orphan #( . just wanted to clear that up in case anyone raised a brow at it lol anyway i had to make a separate category #( . bc there’s a huge difference between primary and secondary muses for me #( . how to differentiate between the two? having a bare minimum of 50k words worth of written content #( . anything less is a casual muse i have no real drive to write but will do it for threads in need of NPCs/world building tbh #˒・*。◞ ( dash game ) *･ﾟ✧ ⎸ ғᴏʀᴛᴜɴᴇ ғᴀᴠᴏʀs ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴏʟᴅ‚ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ’ᴍ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢ ʟᴜᴄᴋʏ.#˒・*。◞ ( ooc ) *･ﾟ✧ ⎸ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄᴀʀʙᴏɴɪᴛᴇ.

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meanae · 1 year

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Hi I’m new to the bjd community but I already admire your work! I’m looking for a trustworthy website to purchase off of. Do you have any suggestions? I’m looking for a dragon like bjd, also I’ve seen a lot on Aliexpress but is that a decent place ot order off of or do you recommend any specific sellers? I’ve also seen you have some beautiful dragons, I’m sorry if this come off rude if they’re not for sale but do you have you are selling? If so what are the prices? Thank you!

Hey there and welcome to the hobby! <3

There are a ton of links coming, so the questions first. For one, Aliexpress and Ebay are horrible sources to get BJDs, because 99,9% of dolls there are bootlegs, also known as recasts. They're basically illegally made copies of original dolls. While in the past recasters tried to pass their dolls as 'the real deal' from the company (just extremely cheap), nowadays, they're giving the dolls new names and are selling them under their own 'company name'. Don't be fooled. They're still copies. There are a few very good BJD facebook groups, like BJD Addict or BJD Lovers, where you could ask for help to identify a recast listing.

A more in depth text why recasters are a problem can be found here.

If you're looking for dragons specifically, Dreamvalley is releasing dragons once in a while and for events (like 2 to 3 times a year). You can get them via any of the dealers I've linked below.

Most of the dragons I own are made by Cuartodolls who is (was?) a russian doll artist that went completely silent in 2022. Her page got shut down. Even before the whole Ukraine War, she was hard to get ahold off... I'm currently only consider selling my Cuartodolls Ketar, but he originally was 1500$, so he's not really suited to be starter doll :,D

Trustworthy places to buy BJDs are:

And basically any company you can find here:

#bjd #abjd #meas resources #ball jointed doll

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writernopal · 4 months

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{Nopal's 2023 Writing Round Up}

I will start by saying that 2023 was a pivotal writing year for me because it marked the start of sharing my writing online and starting this blog! With all of that came of course, the formation of my own little community 🥺 I've made so many lovely friends along the way, fallen in love with their characters and stories, and I just feel so privileged and honored to experience the worlds they've created. I'm so glad I took the plunge and met all of you, even if it was really scary at first! Thank you all for being so welcoming, kind, supportive, and for making space in your hearts and days for my silly little characters and their stories 💙 That said, lets take a look at some of my writing highlights from this past year! Throwing this under a cut because it got long (of course it did lol)

{Total Words Written}

160,512 (as of 12/27)

This excludes tumblr posts, miscellaneous notes, and outlines. It includes WIP work (AASOAF 3, M.O.W), WIP adjacent work (AASOAF 2 companion/release material and side stories like Chanterelles), and miscellaneous prose pieces (Pare, Fetch, and Bowl of Brown). I don't have much to observe here other than holy shit that's a lot LOL.

{Longest Chapter}

7043 (AASOAF 3: Axtapor - 16 First Seed)

This chapter is the first battle sequence of AASOAF 3 so it makes sense for it to be the longest so far! This category's runner up is the Part I finale of M.O.W, Halcyon, at 6663 words.

{Shortest Chapter}

638 (AASOAF 3: Mariel - 3 First Seed)

This chapter is a little go between chapter with a tiny bit of whump in the mix. It might get longer after I get to editing it, we'll see! For this one I excluded the prologues of both AASOAF 3 and M.O.W because it kind of felt like cheating otherwise. Both are <300 words.

{Most Loved by the Author}

Some Lines! (Snippet from AASOAF 3: Mariel - 27 Sun's Dawn)

I limited my choices to snippets I'd posted since it felt weird to make a new post and be like that one! I like that one! lol Appropriate content warnings have been listed on that post as, unsurprisingly, it contains body horror who could have guessed lol. The runner up in this category are the cryptic little monologues I wrote leading up to Tierra Madre (linking to the AASOAF 3 masterpost for ease if you want to check out all four pieces!). These link up the overarching story the prologues of each book are telling and hints at how they come into play in AASOAF 3.

{Most Loved by the Readers}

Covenant (AASOAF 3's Prologue)

For this category I excluded meme posts and the like, ranking the winner based on notes that piece received. As for the runner up, its actually a tie! It's between AASOAF 3's WIP Intro and, surprisingly, Lexlar's character intro lol. He would be so proud and flattered that he's more popular than his other Lizardfolk counterparts!

{AASOAF Original Telling vs. AASOAF Canon Telling}

475,524 (OT) | 381,725 (CT)

Now I know this wasn't all done in this year but it felt right to put in here since I'm getting closer and closer to finishing the canon telling of AASOAF with each day that passes so I can't help but look back to where it all started. These word counts include words in each version of the WIP and the dead darlings of each while excluding Fay's discovery writing (120k+), side stories, WIP adjacent work, spin-offs, and oneshots. I'm really not sure if canon AASOAF will surpass original telling but that's because the story back then was a lot of Fay and Wilkes origin story work and the tale of their romance which isn't explored in canon and also includes Mariel and Axtapor's stories. Two reasons for this, Fay and Wilkes getting together all happens before canon begins and because canon focuses primarily on Mariel and Axtapor's romance. In any case, those are some FAT numbers holy mama. Putting this post together was actually the first time I saw them side by side like that.

#2023 writing round up #aasoaf #m.o.w #my writing

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beautifulpersonpeach · 1 year

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OMG BPP! I just heard (and counted) that there are 13 'set me free's when the song concludes!! I'm,,, what?! I mean, it must not be a coincidence, right? I'm so delulu right now, can't think straight. Oh,,,, Jimin,,,,,,,😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 P.S. Thanks for sharing your reaction with us. It's always a delight to hear your thoughts (and know that someone is definitely freaking out with me, barely alive)

Ask 2:

From magnum ice cream to universal music Brazil... everyone be tweeting about his solo.

Ask 3: I think the dichotomy between the autotune and his regular voice and the "fuck all your opps" being in quotes (its one of the two lines quoted in the lyrics) is meant to convey Jimin having a conversation with himself that's how I understood it and tbh that's highkey the only way to interpret it in a way that makes sense cus we not bout to switch up the meaning of an actual word just cus the internet people don't understand something

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Hi Anon(s),

Anon in ask 2, when I copy-pasted your ask the link pasted like that, I'm not sure if that works but I've linked it here too.

I went to count the "set me free" myself (because I usually check for myself whatever y'all tell me here) and by golly, you're right. There are nine 'set me free's in the chorus, four in the outro, and 13 in the final chorus + outro.

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Hate to be the party-pooper here, but I feel it's coincidence Anon. Then again, Jimin is the same person who sings "All this is not coincidence." So who knows?

Anon in ask 3, thanks for sending in your thoughts too. I agree with you and have said more or less the same thing in previous posts. Frankly I think it's obvious how autotune is used as a narrative device and stylistic choice in the song. The only people missing it are those with an interest in 'missing' it. Or people who cannot tolerate autotune in any way, shape, or form. Sucks for them though because Jimin just dropped the song of the year.

Take breaks, stay moisturized and hydrated, treat yourself to something sweet, and stream Set Me Free Pt 2.

Aside, I feel the need to say this: I'm getting that rush again. That orgasmic, euphoric high when the tannies drop music designed to be perfectly wired to my wavelength. In terms of solo work, D2, JITB, Indigo, and On The Street all stimulated that rush in my head. I expected that from the rapline but to be honest, while I've liked a lot of Jimin's material (Black Swan, Dis-ease, Friends, Promise, Vibe, and you won't find a stronger defender of Christmas Love than my sobok sobok-loving ass), I've not experienced that rush with his music and I didn't expect to feel that rush with his material.

The minute I heard the autotune in Jimin's voice at the start of the song though, how it was used, the fact that right from the jump they make it impossible to miss or ignore, it's like something in my brain shifted. Jimin has blown out every doubt I ever had about him. He's exactly what I suspected is.

A freak.

And I feel a bit ashamed I had dimmer expectations to begin with. Don't get me wrong, I expected Jimin to bring the roof down and dominate, but I expected him to do that differently. Instead, Jimin has not just brought the roof down, he's obliterated the very ground the house was built on. He has quite literally ended k-pop in 2023. It is ended. We're all existing in the post-mortem universe of k-pop. Our dates now read B.J. and A.J. - Before Jimin and After Jimin. He has served all there is to serve by any man, woman, creature to ever exist in k-pop.

But thing is, I feel this way about Hobi most recently with his Vlive & OTS, Joon most recently in his El Pais interview & ig pics, and Yoongi most recently three minutes ago when my friend sent me this picture:

So I've been reflecting on BTS, on the fact that it is BTS who is at the very top of this unforgiving and cruel system, a status paid for by their blood, sweat, and tears, and that to have gotten to the top all seven of them were forged through fire in the process. It's comical when people comment about how BTS lacks in this or that area, because most times, it's simply not true. All seven members are extremely remarkable people. To be in a group like BTS requires nothing less. Jimin could only shine in a group like BTS, where there are members with similar intensity but distinct and dissimilar colours. And their solo projects fully highlight the value and magic they each bring to BTS.

It hit me today that I might not survive Jungkook's solo debut.

That's what I'm really saying here.

Taehyung too is going to do something very interesting, after all he is a BTS member, so I'm expecting him to shock and awe. But today I realized that Jungkook could also debut this year, and I really had to sit down and think about if I could handle it. We know Joon and Hobi are back in the studio so we might get even more music before they enlist. And then there's Yoongi's tour right after Jimin's promotions, and what if they tour together...

Just... there's so much going on. And I'm loving it.

Chapter 2 is incredible!

#I lowkey love how almost all my anons are still losing their shit about SMF Pt 2 #I feel y'all because honestly...#same #jimin #park jimin #bts #bangtan

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thelovelypoems · 9 months

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Today the psycho pass radio hosted by kougami and Ginoza Va's aired today with Akane's Va.

When i clicked on the link on twitter and took me to the japanese site, my homepage thankfully translated the page. Ot said that today episode is free and features a guest. It said that past aired episode were premuim(so I assume not free) and some feature guest some not. The radio show air every 2nd friday monthly. I don't understand japanese. But they seem to have a fun time. I hear them mention providence and Saiga sensei at time. I even hear them mention about Ko eating hamburgers and possibly took Akane to eat onigiri riceballs. Then they mention about eating cooking eel. Bit the eat part sounded like the Va's liking eel and then saying characters would only eat it if they cook it at each other house since they don't like synthetic fish. Here the link below that I got off Twitter to play the radio show.

【WEBラジオ】「復活！PSYCHO-PASSラジオ公安局刑事課24時」#12 の配信開始！

今回は常守朱役の #花澤香菜さんがゲストで登場！

長い間の隔離から時を経て、ついに3人が同じ空間に…！

あの頃は若かった…みんな年をとりました。いろいろと。。

onsen.ag/program/pp24

#pp_anime #pp_10th