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Hii, could I please have a matchup ☺️💕 thank you!!

* What song are you fixated on at the moment? What lyric or verse, and why?

Million Dollar Houses by PTV!! My fav verse has to be “maybe we’re meant to lose the ones we love but I’ll fight for you till then”. I feel this way a lot wether it’s for something I’m doing or towards someone I’m dating yk, I think it portrays that feeling rlly well

* What is your Enneagram type?

Type 9

* Do you love gargantuan Youtube video essays, and if so, which is your favorite and why?

YES OMG I watch sooo many but my fav has to be “learn to be bored” by Farah. It’s just so interesting and her way of explaining things is so calming I love all her stuff

* Tell me about your childhood imaginary friend.

I remember I had this fish tank in my room, so I’d pretend they could hear me and just yap away to these poor fish lmao, I think that’s the closest to imaginary friend I had

* What is your go-to way to fall asleep?

Tbh I fall asleep anywhere and anytime easily but on the rare occasion I can’t I just put on some music and it seems to help

* If you had to change your name, what would it be, and why? (In tandem, if you have changed your name, why did you pick that one?)

I’d probably change it to Amada. It’s one of my old relative’s name and she’s somebody I look up to and hope to be like, so I’d love to be named after her tbh. Family is def something that’s important to me so it fits

* What is your favorite of Redacted's audios, and why?

One that’s up there for me is deeefinitely that David audio where he catches you with his hoodie. I always go back to one of his audios if I need to relax and that’s fs one of them (side note, I remember after listening to that audio I knew immediately that he was gonna propose for the next one ommmg)

* What Redacted boy holds no appeal to you, and why? Like, not the one you hate but the one who you don't get the hype for. (I won't judge, I promise.)

Tbh anything with Marcus or James I know nothing abt. Nothing against them yk but I’ve never rlly bothered to listen to any of the audios in that series

* Tell me about that one book/movie/tv show you know all the words to.

Guardians of the Galaxy, both movies but tbh more of the second one. I could recite majority of the movie and I know ALL of Rocket’s lines by heart I’ve watched it countless times by now. Might rewatch today tbh I love them

* Which Redacted boy are you platonically attracted to? Like- forget dating, which dude do you want to be your best friend?

I’d love to be friends w Damien. My best friend is similar to him and I feel like he’d bring out the best in somebody, I could see myself working rlly well with him esp with school and stuff

* Do you have a go-to thing you ramble about when you're tired, and if so, what is it? (For example, my boyfriend knows l'm ready to sleep when I start talking about space.)

Hmm I don’t really ramble but if I’m tired I love to listen to somebody talk. I’m more of a listener in general but when I get sleepy I’ll call one of my friends and have them just rant until I’m actually ready to sleep

* Tell me your go-to gas station and drink combo.

Ironically, 711. I dont get the slushees though, I just get a strawberry milk with those fruit bowls. Idk what it is but it’s like routine atp

* Tell me about your favorite playlist at the moment.

My fav playlist rn is my main one- It’s pretty much just rock and like grunge w a little bit of metal, I listen to all genres but I mainly listen to that. Lots of Radiohead, pierce the veil, Red Hot Chili Peppers yk

* What's your guilty pleasure media, and why?

Any anime ever but esp Ouran. I can’t help but rewatch yk 😞

I hope I’m not too biased as a fellow type nine when I say this, but you’re a family-oriented type nine who’d get along with Damien. Who would be a better match for you than Huxley?

Type Nines are the peacemakers, the mediators of the Enneagram, always listening and taking care of people, watching the mood. This combined with family being important to you and Damien reminding you of your best friend leads me to believe that you’d have so much in common with Huxley as all these things describe him too, you know? He’d see a kindred spirit in you and would know you’d be a good fit with his life, loved ones, and values. Apropos of your enneagram type, this would build a very peaceful life together.

That’s not to say it’s not a fun or romantic life, of course. This is Huxley, we’re talking about; he is a total sweetheart to be with. He watches all your anime with you, even though it’s totally new to him, and he watches OHSHC as many times as you’d like, jamming to the theme song. (My headcanon is he’s totally in love with the shoujo genre and would love A Sign of Affection and Kimi No Todoke best.) For your next gift-giving holiday, he gives you a life-size Rocket Raccoon. When you’re sleepy, he lays you down, holds you close to his chest, and rambles about socks or some such until you fall asleep. It’s a perfect life, honestly.

Song:

I don't want this moment to ever end/ Where everything's nothing without you/ I want you to know/ With everything, I won't let this go/ These words are my heart and soul (I'll hold on)/ I'll hold on to this moment, you know/ As I bleed my heart out to show/ And I won't let go

Finding a balance between your rock/grunge music and what I headcanon Huxley to listen to was very interesting, but I think the Sum 41 song I picked is a good fit. This song would have come out when Huxley was a kid, and the nostalgia of it combined with having someone to listen to it with would just make him overjoyed.

Runner-ups:

Guy would be a really fun runner-up, because if you like falling asleep to the sound of a loved one talking? Is there a better possible match in that respect? Geordi, I like for you because he’s one of the few boys who I think would be an anime fan, especially OHSHC. (Asher is the other anime fan, I think, but he’s more a fan of shounen.)

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

i don't think i sent an ask after reading demon hyuck bcs i read it all in the midst of a crazy ass week w deadlines i totally forgot m so sorry 😞 i had like 4 deadlines within a 3-day uni week bc we have a long weekend but i didn't wanna to push back reading demon hyuck so i only read it and didn't tell u how i felt abt it WELL .

gah it's so USBFJWFNEJ bcs on one hand i liked thinking of demon hyuck corrupting the reader simply bc it's demon behavior to wreak menace but also. im so obsessed w the idea of hyuck being so enraptured by reader's angel allure/glow whatever she got going on that really caught his eye i love it. and the scene w the diamond necklace i think is the perfect metaphor for that (i might just be reading into it too much omg) like i bet hyuck j found her shiny n pretty for a bit but he got bored of it and moved on zzzz

the smut ok u are a legend in the department of hyuck mannerisms while having sex descriptions i loved it it got me kicking my blankets n squealing n shit I LOVE U n ur brain so much

but also i think i need to tap in a bit bc i dont understand how/why hyuck developed a slight conscience at the end of it like he.. knew he did smth wrong ? or reader knew smth was def wrong? and is the girl at the ending a wholly different girl or reader or what omg pls do explain to my pea brain

BUT I LOVED IT SO MUCH have a happy june happy haechan month baby 🪽🤍 - niki anon

NIKI ANOOON i’m so glad u came back to talk to me about this fic <3 u encouraged me sm by interacting w me as i was writing it hehe so i’m really happy u like it !!!! hope ur weeks are less hectic now and that you have time to rest, you deserve it sm🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

YES hyuck actually being under the reader’s (unintentional) spell just bc she’s an angel is definitely something i wanted to explore beyond just the usual corrupting trope . omg the diamond scene as a metaphor ngl babe i did not think of it like that but i can see it now that’s so clever 😭😭😭😭

thank u especially for complimenting my hyuck mannerisms bc i am SO worried the smut i write gets repetitive so it makes me rlly happy to know that the stuff i write still has an effect on u hehehe

YARRR the questions… WELL the girl at the end is a completely different human girl, and as for the rest of hyuck’s motivations… i wanted to leave stuff open-ended and idw spoil esp bc i might write a part 2…. but i wrote it so that it feels like hyuck may be genuinely falling for reader and it hurts him to see her hurt by him so he had to stop…. but at the same time he might just be unfazed by it and he’ll lather rinse repeat this cycle with as many pretty angels he can get his hands on…WILL definitely explore with more character study and lore if possible bc im the one making the rules here 😎 it means so much to me that i managed to peak ur interest hehehe

Re: life update asks for when you are active

Spring break was really good for like 4 days and then I got very bored and watched both Deadpool movies back to back which is never good for me because I think of wade wilson and nothing else for at least a week. I’ve also been having my bi-monthly breakdown over the aids epidemic (which for whatever reason is one of like the 3 things I cry about) where I weep for all the dead people and lost knowledge and generation and whatnot, so glad to see that we’re both doing just a little bit shitty. BUT on the bright side I’m watching Angels in America, a very long and sad but funny play about the aids epidemic that I think you would love. I’m also maybe getting a car soon! In any case, you should watch this 2 part 7 and a half hour long play that makes you feel like you’re going crazy but also like you’re discovering new truths about life that no one has ever come about before. I hope good things happen!! You deserve them!!

Sincerely, Abigail

g*d, i fucking..... LOVE wade wilson.... you should try reading hawkeye vs. deadpool if you want more ww content....

if for no reason else besides this interaction:

i hope you're not STILL doing shitty/are in a hiatus from taking on the burden of barring the full weight of our gay brothers and sisters' death and suffering 😞

i LOVE angels in america, but i feel like we already talked abt this and same w the car

<3

no because you definitely do have big brain energy!!!!! tumblr why do you hate seeing us happy and in love. "i only ever thought about replying to you and the joy i feel from communicating with u" literally cannot see through my tears why do you have to be so adorable☹️ a button? i mean you're definitely as cute as one😌 about hobbies,,, i used to draw quite a bit but i haven't done that in YEARSS, i feel like nowadays i don't really have anything i could call a hobby quite depressing tbh😐 what about you!!!! and omg stop i don't even really consume mbti content but whenever i come across something my type always gets dragged i love u😭😭 beffie we're in the same boat about astrology i am very bad at it i should be glad that i can name all signs atp🧎🏻 but i find it so interesting so i just got my chart calculated and read on one of those astrology sites online :D i'm a taurus so we're both earth signs😼 (whatever that signifies😭) ooooo another trip!!!! how long will you be gone for!!! as always i hope you have fun and stay healthy🫶🏻🫶🏻 omg i love both dogs and cats but i think i might like cats just a little bit, although i always feel like i'm at a job interview whenever i meet one because i've never had a pet so i get very nervous around them :/ what about you!! do you have a preference + do you have/have you ever had pets😸 that encore stage☹️☹️ one of the first txt vids i ever saw literally could already feel that i would not be able to let go of them anytime soon😵‍💫 AND THE COMPILATION NOOOO :( he is so very dear and precious to me head in hands here's something for u too!! he is gigantic with tiny behavior😞 you could never ever talk too much whenever i get a post notification from you i'm just 💓💘💗❤️🫶🏻 my entire day brightens up immediately!!!! also YES I SAW how did he change hair colors TWICE since my last ask😭 soobin said he will be bleaching it and i just need to know so bad,, my brain is itching for information😾 thank u for the beoms☹️☹️☹️ i always get so happy that you take the time to add some for me and i'm even happier that i get to do the same for you now since i finally managed to set up my new blog!!! - apple, formerly 🧃<3

there’s this movie i love and probably for the inside jokes that it gave me and my sibling but one of the lines is “…thank you. i love you. i knew it the minute i met you. sorry it took so long for me to catch up. i just got stuck…” and i think it really works for what i mean for you. sorry ive been so bad lately. you finally made ur blog and it’s so beautiful <3 of course it fits u so well ~ you’re AS CUTE — CUTER THAN A BUTTON!! honestly it’s hard to have time to do anything we all remotely like since life is so busy so i get u!! i don’t have any besides reading and music haha im boring as frick 🫶🏼 i love u ❤️‍🔥 earth signs woahhhhhh me trying to tie it to atla w/ my limited knowledge haha i just got back and i was driving for most of it 😵‍💫😵‍💫 hey i like cats just a bit more also hehe they’re more our temperament i think haha but AWWW that’s so cute (to me) that seeing one means a lot to you (in that sense) but i hope it’s not a bad nervous 🥺 i have 4 cats and 5 dogs but the cats are more mine rather than the dogs haha (we’re like an animal shelter 😭) i love my kitties more than anything !!!! OMG even though it was literaly 3 seconds THAT VIDEO IS SO PRECIOUS hyukaaaaaa ❤️ u know what’s sick i see ur notif (if tumblr actually does notify me) and i just think about it for a while and anxiously try to clear my schedule just to have a clear head when i do respond to you (it’s a habit ive noticed that applies to ppl i love) and it’s so odd so that’s to blame 😥 sorry im like this 🥺 AHHHH !! soobin never bleached haha but maybe he will for jpn and South Asia tour :0000 who knows hehe truthfully im happy and infinitely lucky you still talk to me ik im very frustrating 🥺 so thank you very very much. i sincerely hope you’re doing well and are safe and taking care, my dearest apple. you mean very much to me ~!!! ALSO THE PICS U ADDED ARE SO CUTE!!!!!!!! AHHHH some of my fav really 😽🥹 here are beoms and a song you remind me of even though i just cried to it dw 💓

Fandom/fic asks 

Tagged by the wonderful @thenookienostradamus (and I hope you’re feeling a bit better!)

B - A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind.

I never really thought about Celebrimbor and Annatar as a sexual thing until reading Encairion’s The Price of Vengeance II which is just so brilliantly written. It becomes more than what it appears and there’s no softness in it at all. Just thinking of it makes me choke up. 😞 

G - Have you ever had an OTP? If so, do you remember your first one? Who was in it?

In 1983-4? When I read the Silmarillion I immediately went: Snap: Fëanor/Fingolfin, Maedhros/Fingon, Glorfindel/Ecthelion and Beleg/Túrin. 

I was young. I was aware that some people could be attracted to their own gender but that was about it. It wasn’t a big topic in my family. It was more like: ‘This happens and it’s life.’ (My nan was very open about having a huge crush on a young lady who she was at Brighton’s Ladies College with and worked with in a production of Macbeth). 

Back then it was…if you read about it in novels or what would be now called YA books, it was called a ‘pash’. A girl might have a ‘pash’ on her female sport’s mistress for instance. I saw it in real life too.

Anyhow, I’d never known (then) any openly gay men and only read one novel with a male/male kiss. However, I just thought: ‘Yes, these four’ and no more about it, really. Didn’t write it until decades later.

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending.

Not die defending 😂 but the above OTP’s are what I choose to believe and write about. Doesn’t bother me if other people don’t have the same view, of course! they’re just what I like personally. 

I also don’t believe Maglor degenerated into a mad, moaning regretful derelict who eventually begged the Valar for forgiveness and I don’t view the Valar as pure, holy and morally ‘right’. I personally would find that unbelievably boring to write about anyway, let alone think about. (eldritch Valar are fascinating).  

(Steven Erikson’s Malazan Book of the Fallen has a cast of ‘gods’ and they are fascinatingly written, morally grey, strange, wicked, kindly, incomprehensible and yet sometimes completely understandable. If there must be gods, let them be like that!)

Again, the above is just what I like and what other people believe and like is none of my business :)

W - A trope which you are virtually certain to hate in any fandom.

Oh god, not tropes again? What even are they? 

I looked on t.v.Tropes and there’s too many and I’m none the wiser, really. I don’t know. I’ll just like or dislike some things. And any trope can be written brilliantly; it’s all in the execution.

Just within the Tolkien Fandom it was an article of faith ten or more years ago that all Girl Falls into Middle-earth stories were absolute crap. They and Legomances — which generally occupied the same space — were almost universally derided and sneered at. Some authors on FF.net were brutally shamed and flamed. Which was wrong; they weren’t harming anyone, but the Pit was always a bastard of a place for that kind of thing,  Legomances, slash were always in their sights! and I’m glad my stories were ineligible at NC17. 

Anyway, @thegentlestmaenad decided to write one to show it could be done well. It was more than done well! It is unique and incredible story. Well it would be; the author’s a genius! 

@thenookienostradamus Thank you so much. May I ask you the same questions please (if you’re feeling up to it?)

Hello!

For the ask game: #5 with Gojou, Naoya and Toji!!!!

- @ame-791

5. go on a six hour road trip with (no car radio, you choose who drives), sit next to on a six hour plane flight, sit across from on a six hour train journey

Omg for the road trip, I think I'm the bigger issue bc I get carsick on long journeys so I always just go to sleep which is probably boring if we're alone agdhjs I think maybe touji would like that the most out of these three, like we'd talk for a bit, I'd give him food if he's feeling hungry, but for the most part, it'll be time for him to just unwind and not have to think/ do much other than focus on the open road ahead. I think he'd be the most appreciative/ enjoy that sort of calm moment <3 also just imagine how sexy he'd look w one hand on the wheel, the other on ur thigh, window down so a lil breeze runs thru his hair...... A dream 🥰

Plane flight w gojou definitely for that first class experience 🤩🥰😋🥳 I'll plug in my headphones and ignore him the whole time <3 jk bc he'd def pull them out my ears so he can yap :/ it would be fun playing those multi-player games like battleship w him lmao (he screenwatches like a loser ☹️) & he'd probably sweet talk the staff into getting extra food agdjsk would let me fall asleep on my shoulder but also takes pics of me like a creep so it's a struggle 😞 kicks the seat in front of him then blames me knowing I don't have the social skills to defend myself 😐 makes funny faces at the babies on the plane then looks away if they start crying 💀 CLAPS WHEN THE PLANE LANDS ☠️👹

Train journey w naoya fs. He hogs an entire compartment and gives ppl dirty looks if they even so much as think abt sitting w us lmaoo 💀💀 he'd be so much quieter than normal on the journey, probably really enjoys playing games too. Like when I pull out sudoku on my phone he'll move next to me and start helping me out (gets tired of me double checking everything he says & takes my phone from me to do it 😐 starts playing w/o me bruh 💔) I also think he'd really like people-watching, like yk when u look at someone and start making up their backstory, etc. He's so good, he comes up w the wildest things that actually make sense. I can imagine he gets sick/ sleepy on long journeys too, and he has those sucking sweets to make him feel a lil better, but eventually he'll doze off on my shoulder :( sweet angel baby who can do no wrong ily :( 💗💗

Ask game

it’s 1am and i’m bored so i started thinking abt things i’d change in buffy if i could.. 😨 these mostly revolve around season 6/7 cos they’re my favs but also the ones i have the most problems with.. 😖

- tone down warren Slightly: i get that he’s a creepy evil inc*l, which is probs even more relevant 2day than it was in the early 2000s, but that episode where he hypnotises katrina is Rly hard 2 watch.. if they Had 2 go in that direction, at least let katrina survive and have him kill someone else differently 4 the “trio trick buffy into thinking she’s killed someone” plot 😕

- change That scene w/ spike/buffy: like, i get that buffy + spike had a toxic relationship and s/t needed 2 happen 2 make him realise he’d gone too far, but That scene is far too real and far Too far.. i’m sure there was some better way they could have shown that 😣

- DON’T KILL TARA: the “bury your gays” trope sucks i think we can all agree there.. so willow needs s/t 2 happen so she goes ~dark willow~, just have tara get shot and survive, willow could still go evil over that and just make it so by the time she founds out tara survived she’s already too far gone, or even have her turn evil over buffy getting shot 😧

- have willow/xander/dawn put up more of a fight when buffy gets kicked out her house in s7: up there 4 one of my least fav scenes in the show, Literally like spike says they’re her friends and they let her get kicked out of her own house!!!! just have them put up even a little bit of an argument 4 buffy b4 they back down and get outvoted omg.. 😫

- don’t kill anya!!!: 2nd least fav death in the show after tara, she’d come so far and there wasn’t Any need 4 her 2 die right at the end of the show.. 😞 she could still get stabbed defending andrew, but let her survive and give andrew a hero moment by saving her in return 😔

oh i've heard about that, its name was tears of themis or smth... if i don't remember wrong?? is it good? :3 and OMG well that scene was kinda... just EPIC. there're lots more too but they all are underrated compare to the proposal 😞

yea that’s the one it’s hmmm good for a bit but personally I get a bit bored w these games bc they’re repetitive n idfwt

LMAO well I look forward to watching it then

kate nash!!

thank u!!! 🥰✨

kate nash is a bit of a weird one, like i was sort of a fan for Years, but i only knew made of bricks, it wasn’t until a couple of yrs ago i listened 2 the rest of her stuff and rly fell in love w/ her 😧💕

favourite song: ooo.. birds, mariella, sister, one eye, life in pink!! 😵✨

least favourite song: uhh.. maybe mansion song?? mainly bcos it started playing when my mom was in the room once and i was just like 😳

favourite album: girl talk!!!!

least favourite album: if i have 2 pick.. my best friend is you 😖

song that got me into them: it would b boring 2 say foundations sngdjfhjf, so i’m gonna say fri-end? from the first time i listened 2 girl talk after only listening 2 made of bricks and i was like 🤯💕

seen live?: no.. 😞

rate: 10!!!