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My Take on Levi's Age
I originally wrote this as a rb addition to another post. I've been meaning to make it a stand alone post since then, and with all the talk about Levi's age since the publication of bad boy, here it is, finally.
If you ask me, Levi could not have been more that 4-5 years old at the time Kenny found him around 829.
Why?
He's severely malnourished, probably spent several days cloistered in the room with Kuchel with nothing to eat. So my guess is that, though he was old enough to speak and understand Kuchel was dead (even if he could not quite grasp the bigger concept of Death), he was too young to go out and procure himself and his mum some food, be it by stealing or begging. And for that, he's need to be very young.
I lived in Greater Buenos Aires more than half of my life (the infamous "conurbano"), and I've seen lots of very small kids, 4-5 years old, begging like pros for either change or food. It's unfortunately very common in impoverished areas. And I wasn't even in the bad ones. So, in that aspect, the Underground wouldn't be different from our villas or Brazil's favelas.
Kuchel was a prostitute. She wouldn't want Levi to witness her at work. It is fair to think that as soon as he was old enough to cross the street she'd let him roam and go play with other kids while mummy's busy. There, he'd quickly learn how to come by a piece of moldy bread to stave hunger.
So in order to just sit starving by his mother instead of going out looking for help, Levi must have been young enough that his mum could still keep him under wraps; too young to know his way about the Underground's streets, too much of a rookie in terms of using his charm or his cunning to get a bit of food.
Uri Reiss inherited the Founding Titan in 829. BUT, nowhere does it say that Kenny's encounter with Uri happens right after the latter became a titan. So Kenny might have joined Uri up to a couple of years after 829 (not many, as Rod Reiss still looks young in that flashback).
So Kenny finds Levi between 829 and 831; And Levi is 4-5 then, meaning he was born, at earliest, in 823 (considering his b-day is only one week before the year's end, that'd make him 5 in for most of 829) and latest in 825 (same if Kenny found him in 831). That makes him 10-12 years older than Eren and company. , ~20 when he joins the SC, ~26 during seasons 1-3, ~30 after the time skip, and ~33 in the epilogue.
"But Yams said he was thirty-somethiiiing!"
TLDR: I wouldn't consider canon some spur-of-the-moment answer given by Yams in a panel where he's probably tired, nervous, and doesn't have his timeline handy.
Allow me to speak here as a writer: the whims of your imagination often don't align with the logic of what needs to go on the page. So it is perfectly possible to imagine your character in a way that is inconsistent with your timeline. You see them with short hair and summer clothes fixing lunch in their sunny kitchen in a scene and, when they move to the dining room you see them with hair 4 inches longer and serving supper as a snowstorm rages outside. When you write it, you're going to have to pick up one, and go back to your notes often for continuity after, bc your brain keeps forever placing the kitchen in sunny summer and the living room in a winter night. Oh, and they're both simultaneously on the ground and the second floor. Escher pictures make more sense.
The story of AoT spans many years, so we don't know which year Levi is the default Levi in Yams' brain. It could even be the Levi from the time skip, or from a future after the last chapter that only exists in his imagination. Also, Yams has bungled up numbers before so, personally, I don't trust him much in that department.
In any case, Math is a hard science, so if Kenny found Levi with 4-5 years in 829, he can't be 30+ in 850. 5+21=26. No matter what Yams says.
Additional notes:
The original post. With additions. I recommend reading the quoted twitter thread.
Another, recent twitter thread on Levi's age
A lengthy post by an actual psychologist providing scientific foundation for Levi's age when Kenny finds him.
I saw yet another post on Levi's age recently, but I can't find the link rn and I have to make lunch. if/when I find it, I'll add it (and others I may come across)
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No One Like You.
Ship: Ronnie x Kaden
Words: 1,590
cw: A little self loathing speak BUT DOESN'T GO INTO DETAIL! // COMFORT FIC COMFORT FIC!
Summary: Kaden is doubting if their mind is playing tricks again.
**As you know, I have been feeling down today as this morning I woke up from a really bad dream that had me in tears. I decided to write this for comfort and I honestly feel so much better. This was a great form of self care and self love for myself that I think I really needed.
If you're not a self-shipper please dni, nothing against ya, I have anxiety. lol // ok 2 rb
Kaden sighed heavily as they leaned against the register to Bobby's shop, they fiddled with buttons on the machine. They were feeling downhearted which made their company not as lively as it usually is. Today Bobby, Kaden's brother was working with them and he certainly noticed the change in Kaden.
"Hey, is everything alright?" Bobby asked cautiously. If they didn't want to talk about it, he wasn't going to pry….at least not too much.
"I 'unno" Kaden mumbled, their head resting in the palm of their hand.
"You seem really down… want to talk about it?"
"No," Kaden said sternly, shooting Bobby a small glare.
"Did you get into a fight with Ronnie or something? I don't think you two are the types to do that though" Bobby hummed softly and Kaden shook their head.
"No- I haven't talked to him at all today."
"Is that why you're down?"
"No."
Bobby let out a small sigh, he really wanted to help his sibling out but at the same time he really couldn't do much, he knew bugging would only piss them off and he didn't want that happening.
"Just feeling blah?" Bobby raised a brow to which Kaden sighed heavily.
"I guess you can call it that. I didn't sleep well…" Kaden mumbled once more, standing up straight.
"Why not go home. Go rest, I'm in the shop today anyways, there's no use for both of us to stay here."
"I'd rather not be at home" Kaden sighed.
"Go. Rest. I'll fire you." Bobby teased which made Kaden crack a small smile.
"Fine-" Much to Kaden's dismay they really didn't want to go home, they were afraid to fall asleep.
The moment Kaden was out of sight Bobby decided to call Ronnie and give him the heads up that his dear partner seemed out of it of sorts to which Ronnie was quick to make his way over to Kaden's place after hanging up the phone with Bobby. If anyone could figure out what was eating Kaden up inside it was Ronnie.
Kaden got home and unlocked their door, kicking their shoes off inside and trailing to their couch. They plopped down sideways and stared ahead they felt terrible, not due to sickness but because of their own mind. They had a rather terrible dream that turned their stomach and kept them up all night afterwards, they were avoiding Ronnie today too which really sucked but their mind was playing tricks again and telling them things.
Kaden couldn't get lost in their thoughts for too long because they heard a knock on their door and judging by how the knock sounded, they knew who it was almost instantly. They groaned softly to themselves and slowly trailed towards the door. They gripped the knob and twisted, pulling the door open to see a very concerned-looking Ronnie at the door.
"Bobby called you didn't he?"
"Yeah, he told me you didn't look so good.."
"I'll kill him," Kaden mumbled the sighed softly. "Come on in…"
Ronnie was quick to see that Kaden wasn't themselves in the slightest. They were usually spastic and talkative, rambling about the most mundane things in the world but they were always excited about something but, today they looked like they just received the worst news in the whole world and Ronnie's heart ached at the sight.
Once he got in he didn't waste time, he pulled them into a hug, a hug that Kaden didn't return at first but eventually did. "Hey.. tell me what's wrong.." Ronnie mumbled softly, pulling away from the hug for a moment to better look at Kaden and Kaden wouldn't even look at him. His heart sank, did he do something wrong? Did he upset them somehow? His face held a worried expression when Kaden pulled away.
Kaden trailed into the living room and sat down on the couch, Ronnie soon following after them to take a seat beside them, his hand reaching out to gently take Kaden's he knew that when they were feeling down or sad they liked the physical contact to remind them that he was there and present. He interlocked their fingers and gently ran soothing circles into their hand with his thumb.
"……did I do something?" Ronnie asked softly.
Kaden inhaled deeply their breath stuttering for a moment, they hated this feeling, they felt like they wanted to cry and sadly, they felt the tears prick and sting the corners of their eyes which only worried Ronnie more but he waited for them to speak, he wouldn't rush them.
"Am I insufferable?" Kaden's voice cracked a little and Ronnie looked at them in shock. "Am I bothersome? Annoying? Am I awful?" Kaden stared forward as tears started to roll silently down their cheek as they spoke. "Am I ugly and unlovable?" Their throat felt dry and they were afraid to look at him.
Ronnie felt an overwhelming sense of concern and heartache course through him as he was quick to stand, pulling Kaden up with him, the motion was quick but just as soon as he stood he sat again this time, pulling Kaden to sit on his lap, his arms quickly wrapped around them and Kaden let out a small choked sob.
"Sweetheart, no. Who said these things about you?" Ronnie pulled them close and they felt Kaden grip his shirt a little tighter.
"Y-You did" Kaden sobbed softly. "I had a really bad dream last night… You said I was hard to love and that I was disgusting and unlovable…I couldn't go back to sleep my mind kept replaying it and it was trying to tell me it was true and--"
"Stop," Ronnie said suddenly as he brushed Kaden's bangs out of their face before he moved to wipe away their tears.
"Kaden, listen to me- That was just a nightmare, you know deep down I would never say those things. Never. You're the most important person in my life and I love you. I love you as easy as breathing air." Ronnie's eyes met Kaden's and his heart felt like it wanted to shatter simply from the state they were in but he was determined to let them know how much he cared.
"You're not annoying or insufferable. I love it when you ramble and go on tangents about even the smallest things, you make the mundane feel exciting and adventurous. You're not awful.." Ronnie leaned forwards and pressed a gentle kiss to Kaden's forehead before resting his own against theirs "You're the most kind-hearted person I've met and you always try to find the joy and laughter in life. You bring happiness to everyone you meet even if it's in the smallest way possible."
Kaden listened to his words but couldn't help but let out another sob, their eyes closing but they opened quickly after when they felt Ronnie's hand on their cheek, their wet green eyes searching his and Ronnie could feel Kaden trembling in his arms. He wanted nothing more than to soothe their aching heart and reassure them.
"You're far from disgusting too. You're very attractive to me, you have the prettiest green eyes I've ever seen, they remind me of emeralds or spring days- You have the sweetest smile I've ever laid my eyes on, it's infectious." Ronnie let his hand slip down over their neck gently as it continued its descent it landed over their chest right over their heart. "You have the kindest heart, it's full of passion, light, and love."
Kaden had stopped crying, and their attention was fully on Ronnie, they felt their heart sink, they didn't know he thought all of these things about them, and they never knew how positively he saw them.
"I love your arms.. they give the best hugs...your hands, fit so nicely into mine.." Ronnie gently grabbed their hand, bringing it to his lips to give their knuckles a soft kiss. "I love everything about you. You have both inner and outer beauty and no one can compare to you or how I feel about you and nothing will ever change how I feel whether it's from a person or from a nasty nightmare. Always remember that I love you with my entire heart and if I need to remind you every single day for the rest of my life I will...You are everything I ever hoped to find."
Kaden let out another choked sob but this time they were smiling and Ronnie couldn't help but return that same soft smile. Kaden finally reached out, wrapping their arms around him to pull him into a tight hug that Ronnie quickly returned, his hand running gently up and down Kaden's back. "I'm sorry…" Kaden whispered softly as they nuzzled into the crook of his neck.
"You don't have to apologize. I know things inside your head can get a little tricky sometimes but please remember Kaden, you can always talk to me, you know I will never judge you or think of you any differently. I might not have all the answers but I can help ease the pain."
Kaden pulled back enough to look at him, their hand coming up to caress his cheek. "How did I get so lucky?" Kaden spoke softly, they leaned forward and gently pressed their lips against his to which he returned the soft kiss, it was filled with love and sincerity.
"Thank you.." they mumbled against his lips. "I promise I won't forget ever again…I know you got me."
"Forever and always sweetheart."
tags: @ama-ships || @heatobrienswife || @dragonsmooch || @lysandreslittlechatot || @retrojem || @kylars-princess
#I needed this tbh. Sorry for another long fic :c#those who slay together stay together#ronnie 💞#This one like the others is going to get rb a LOT#cause this one really means something to me.
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okay i lied. the emotions i have for that man are not normal.
#em is yelling#lol you can rb bc i just like this post on it's own but also#i was not normal about that fwb lmaooo (did i really think i would be)? i got the usual post satisfaction confidence for a few days but#i was worried when he wasn't responding to anything from me#but i got a response to a story i posted yesterday wearing the shirt he gave me and i can't help getting all mushy again#bc on one hand it sucks that i didn't get responses but on the other hand he's going through a Lot that's similar to me#and i need to show the compassion and understanding i'd want someone else to show me during times like this#he said 'it looks better on the floor' i'm going to walk into boston harbor#one of his many green flags is he also was unfased and possibly chamed by me using the word monotony in a flirty text
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juno thinking they're being stupid for being stressed all the time in certain online spaces and I take a quick scroll stroll through the spaces they inhabit daily and nah man. that shit is fucking insane. people say the boldest bullshit you've ever seen in the most inflammatory aggressive way; no wonder you're on the verge of a nervous breakdown constantly, especially if this is your main source of social interaction holy shit dude how do you deal with that on a daily basis
#chase on the mic#rewriting my tags because I don't like the way I was wording things#this isn't vaguing anything specifically lol it's like... a bunch of things that i'm bundling into one pissy post rn#maybe this is stupid of me (esp for ME to say lmao) but I think the better way of handling a lot of this shit is to just surround yourself-#-with better people lmao#angry ranting is great and all but you're not going to get very far with that#its just going to make spaces turn a lot more hostile in a few different ways#people get suspicious of each other and start snapping at each other and pointing fingers in random directions#what is a lot more effective is to make a well worded post and then display the behaviour you're wanting to see more of#yknow what actually. maybe that's not even true lmfao that's some cheesy ass shit#I don't know what I'm fucking talking about. that sounds like some shit juno would think up christ i'm going soft LMAO#maybe people do need to yell and bitch about things to get anywhere with certain communities#I think maybe this is another scenario of black and white thinking lmao there's a time and place for everything#i WILL say though. that the yelling and snarling is tiring when it comes from ppl who want interaction#and then have a really stupid thing on their DNI. lmao. lol even. I guess I can't rb your posts because you're shitty towards bigender ppl#your loss 🤷♂️
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ive been a little upset about it all night so i need to write out all the things that happened at work today and are bugging me so i can TRY to get it out of my head and actually RELAX bc i just keep pacing in circles around it instead of just accepting it and moving on
#for context i was working frying chicken today. ok so i arrive and literally all the chicken out expires within ten minutes of each other#meanwhile to remake everything takes about an hour 20#tried my best to get everything out and replaced and make sure i have enough of everything and then take my break bc with chicken there are#few narrow windows to take your break in you have very little control over when it is#get back and while im getting ready for my next fry one of the assistant leaders comes back and passive aggressively asks 'everything ok?'#and when i say yeah shes starts saying how shes 'just checking' because apparently i didnt have enough chicken out for her liking and went#on about how we're in a chicken drive (I KNOW. I WORK CHICKEN SHE NEVER HAS.)#etc etc. i just say ok and she leaves#like 20 minutes later she comes fucking back to rag on me again about how i need to choose my break times better and i need to have more#chicken out there as back up (extremely difficult bc there is literally only so much room in the fryers. the batches i usually make already#nearly completely fill them up) blah blah and then when i try to explain how i WAS making pretty big batches people are just snatching them#up fast she keeps trying to walk out the door right away and keeps stopping and looking over her shoulder to just stare at me while i try t#finish my sentence#and she just. doesnt say anything in response when i do finish she just leaves#so clearly she didnt want a conversation she just wanted to rag on me#then later for cleanup the timing of everything just kept lining up inconveniently so i kept having to get in and out of raw cleaning gear#and slowing myself down and i end up having to stay almost 15 minutes late to finish cleaning#during cleaning i have to go grab a key to the back door to take out my trash and this one coworker i have was standing in the way of the#door. i say excuse me and she just stares at me and goes huh?#and i say i need a key and she barely moves out of the way without responding and she has a look like im bothering her#why are you acting like im being douchey. i just need a key. thats something she does a lot she acts like im inconveniencing her by asking#basic favors . ive stopped asking her to help me open the back door (sometimes needed if i also have raw garbage to take out and therefore#cant touch the key myself) for some reason she takes it upon herself to almost completely close the door after i walk out so when i come#back i have to awkwardly use my foot to reach around and pull the door open#ive asked her before not to do it and she just ignored me#GRAH GRAH. and then like i said in my last rb i realized while i was drivign home i forgot to wash a damn pan#im mostly worried about it because ive forgotten a couple times in the past too . in my defense its a pan i personally dont use but it just#gets left behind from first shift sometimes and then second shifters end up having to make sure its clean#im just irritateddd and im mad im worried about it all. its all little things piling up on each other#LOL I WROTE A LOT MORE BUT THE REST GOT CUT OUT IG I HIT A TAG LIMIT. tumblr voice ok dude quit your bitching !!
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if I try to mess with the eyes on the first one anymore I'm going to lose my mind DBDNDML so here have some self insert art,,,, also the houndoom was largely copied from someone else's art (dvixie/SkyVixie on deviantart, the art seems to have been taken down from their gallery though, I just found the art on pinterest and then had to track down the artist fjfkdl idk why ppl repost art with no credit 😭), I was trying to just get a feel for drawing them so I figured (HEAVILY) referencing someone else's piece would be alright for this sort of personal art thing!!
#aaaand I'll turn off rbs too djdksl i dont want to take any credit for that houndoom#i changed a couple minor things but dbfkdl it rly is just me looking at that other person's art and trying to draw it myself#it was good for getting a feel for how to draw them though!!! this was before the other art featuring houndoom i did a while ago#so i think it helped a lot to be able to draw houndoom again on my own this time fjfkdjdl#gave me a feel for placement and anatomy and whatnot#i know copying is largely considered to be Bad in the art community but if u do it the right way i think it can be beneficial to ur art#u just have to be careful and not claim credit for it fjdkl like... idk be smart and respectful#i think this is the first time I've ever done smth like this actually SNDKSL#the closest i get to copying is using free-to-use pose bases occasionally and even then i sometimes clarify in the tags that im using one#every day i fear someone will walk up and show all the drawings I've used free-to-use pose bases for#and be like AHA. I'VE FOUND YOU OUT. YOU'RE A FAKE ARTIST!!!!#and its like... no... i just like using free-to-use pose bases sometimes DBDJDKL#takes out the work of figuring out posing sometimes when im tired of coming up w my own fjfkdl#ANYWAYS. RAMBLE OVER SORRY SNDJFKDL#moral of the story: if u copy art just do it in a respectful and clear way and don't take credit for it when its not yours sbdjdksl#okay im going to skedaddle off this post before i stick my foot in my mouth if i havent already djdkdls WAUGH i am afraid of posting this#but i want to share self insert stuff somewhere sjfjdkl and i like the human posing i did on the second one so... SIGH.#dandy.cmd#doodlebug.png#junebug 🪲
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PS I’m afraid I haven’t seen any dragons about of late. I hope this isn’t a problem.
It felt wierd as hell to finish this after reading the last book since it’s been sitting on my desktop unfinished for weeks. But BEHOLD, I learnt how to render 😊
Come closer, I am SO normal about these books rn :) No seriously stop backing up I have things I need to tell you that are Definitely unrelated to a certain series of books about dragons.
#the last dragon chronicles#tldc#david rain#elizabeth pennykettle#liz pennykettle#lucy pennykettle#i should probably use one liz tag or the other but it is 2am and i just spent 6 hours updating my laptop to get paint to work for one (1)#shitty doodle <3#ragnar art#oh also say hi to my 36000 versions of images#i spent too long on this and then liked them all for different reasons and believe it or not there were at least 5 that didnt end up here 💀#ill go rb the stuff on my other blog too in a min#idk if i actually posted more than one thing but boy howdy have i drawn a lot#also im a big fan of making the animals/dragons look SO stupid#its fun and im thinking of getting one tattooed 😭
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The gays are winning ‼‼
#kris.txt#it was probably higher earlier but I was late today sadge#my rb spree will prob kick off at like 1 am I'm sorry besties#I am thinking abt them prommy I have just had a lot of shit goijg on today and will prob not scroll till I eep#also kinda getting sick of twitter so I'll prob just make a full return#I just like being able to just like stuff and not rb#but liking on tumblr sucks ass and I always make sure to rb art#erm anyways#gay people#I need to work on my future au fic#I kinda abandoned the other akeshu fic I was working on because in my future one akira is a single dad and it's making me go insane /pos#also thinking abt Akechi bonding with the kid and healing his inner child as well#they watch featherman together they're besties
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I beat pokemon scarlet today hi for the love of god hello
#I'm gonna wait to rb spoiler stuff til like next friday and when I do they'll be tagged under 'spoilers' BUT#I Will rb new pokemon designs now tho#still tagged with 'spoilers' but yeah#GENUINELY. GENUINELY HAD AN AMAZING TIME WITH IT HONEST TO GOD IT'S UP THERE WITH BW FOR ME THAT'S A HUGE DEAL#it has so so many graphical/mechanical issues yes I'd write a whole fucking essay about how gf needs to give it's employees-#-better work conditions and more time and pay and Yeah#but oh my god. oh my God oh my fucking god#the pokemon designs are SO inventive and interesting and good the flavor on these lil guys is so peak#THE CHARACTERS ARE SO!!!!! THEY ARE SO I LOVE THE FRIEND GROUP AND TEACHERS AND TEAM STAR AND GYM LEADERS AND YEAH#they way all the story paths and challenges are set up is very intuitive and fun!!!! you don't feel pushed to go a certain order#but if you feel like where you are is too strong then it's easy to gather yourself and figure out what to do#and it almost seems like the leveling accounts for the player wanting to fuck around and find out I did that a Lot#and was only a few levels higher then the final fight by the end#don't even get me started on the story I'm not gonna say shit here but I cried like 5 times and wanted to a few others even still it's so.#god I haven't fallen for a pokemon game this hard in awhile if you don't wanna get it full price please like#get if second hand or watch a cutscene movie at Least and make sure you get one with all the area zero dialogue#I'm sorry for all the tags I'm just. listen special interest became good again in a few aspects I am living#risk.txt#pokemon#also I got 7 shiny pokemon before even beating the game so that's how my infamous luck with that in this game went DSFKVHBFV#the first one I got after only beat the first titan and nothing else! she's a litleo/pyroar named rhea and I love her so much
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Ohmy god my bad guys i spent like an hour ramblingabout music opinions. at least its in the tags of my own post though could be worse
#iloooooove talkinf about music btw if you want to talk to me about music im always open-eared. i dont think thats the saying#my ears are always open?#it might be my ASKS are always open / i'll always lend an ear. i fhink i mixed them up#been doing that a lot lately i cant for the life of me remember phrases corrwctly (if i can remember them at all)#Anyway. music opinions of any kind u can send me dms or asks with or without anon i seriously dont care#no judgement dude im serious. bad people can make good art ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ same way good people can make bad art. does that make sense#like your opinions or beliefs or whatever dont change your level of talent. Youre picking how to use that talent though#does that make sense. someone who hates women can direct good movies. someone who hates fags can write good books#like supporting that artist is a whole other topic. my point here is anyone can make anything i guess?#and your kindness does not equal your artistic talent. Like those are two totally different things. does that make sense#like is my point getting across idk 😭#preemptively turning off rbs omnthis one i always get nervous someone random is gonna be looking for random old posts#and theyee gonna reblog this in 2038 to start a fight or something#idk. i have anxiety#okay thatsenouhh ramblimg i have a post ive been trying to make for probably an hour and a half now but i keep getting distracted#so. im gonna go write that#muffin mumbles
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{With the L i g h t} (E d i t)
~ S p e c i a l I n t e r e s t s
+ H I K A R U Azuma
{Cap'd by Me} {Do Not Re-post}
(Please ASK to U s e)
#koushiro relevant#koushirouizumi wtl#koushirouizumi cap#koushirouizumi wtl cap#koushirouizumi wtl hikaru#azuma hikaru#wtl spoilers#chai reads wtl#(O k so this arc is Bit Hard to Read Too)#(Coming Back To LATER)#(Since this is Super early 2 0 0 0 s m a n g a)#(Yeah theres a bit of T r a i n A u t i s t i cs going on here)#(The other instance is more something Sachiko suggests Hikaru to do because Hikaru {s t i m s} with it???)#(but the others)#(the mini arc before relates the {G a r d e n i n g} yeah)#(this arc brought back {if simple} {C o o k i n g})#(But its still more varied examples than I often see with A LOT of Aut!charas like at least its not ONLY {T r a i n s})#({Using spaces to keep out of S e a r c h for now})#koushirouizumi no rb#(This is also what Ive been hinting in relation to 'Koushiro likely learns {c o o k i n g} bit better later too')#(We DO SEE in Tri spreads DID TRY TO CANON {C O O K} MIMI CHOCO JUST... Was Maybe Little Too Enthusiastic About Getting It 'P e r f e c t')#({Later I will add full cap+probably make some comparison sets Im just using this one to emphasize Sp Ins Besides 'Just' T r a i n s rep})
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Please, if you can, take a moment to read and share this because I feel like I'm screaming underwater.
NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) stigma is rampant right now, and seems to be getting progressively worse. Everyone is using it as a buzzword in the worst ways possible, spreading misinformation and hatred against a real disorder.
I could go on a long time about how this happened, why it's factually incorrect (and what the disorder actually IS), why it's harmful, and the changes I'd like to see. But to keep this concise, I'll simply link to a few posts under the cut for further reading.
The point of this post is a plea. Please help stop the spread of stigma. Even in mental health communities, even around others with personality disorders, in neurodivergent "safe" spaces, other communities I thought people would be supportive in (e.g. trans support groups, progressive spaces in general), it keeps coming up. So I'm willing to bet that a lot of people on this site need to see this.
Because it's so hard to exist in this world.
My disorder already makes me feel as if I'm worthless and unlovable, like there's something inherently wrong and damaged about me. And it's so much harder to fight that and heal when my daily life consists of:
Laughing and spending time with my friends, doing my utmost best to connect and stay present and focused on them, trying to let my guards down and be real and believe I'm lovable- when suddenly they throw out the word "narcissist" to describe horrible people or someone they hate, or the conversation turns to how evil "people with narcissistic personality disorder" are. (Seriously, you don't know which of your friends might have NPD and feels like shit when you say those things & now knows that you'd hate them if you knew.)
Trying to look up "mental health positivity for people with npd", "mental health positivity cluster bs", only to find a) none of that, and b) more of the same old vile shit that makes me feel terrible about myself.
Having a hard time (which is constant at this point) and trying to look up resources for myself, only to again, find the same stigma. And no resources.
Not having any clue how to help myself, because even the mental health field is spitting so much vitriol at people with DISORDERS (who they're supposed to be helping!) that there's no solid research or therapy programs for people like me.
Losing close friends when they find out, despite us having had a good relationship before, and them KNOWING me and knowing that I'm not like the trending image of pwNPD. Because now they only see me through the lens of stigma and misinformation.
Hearing the same stigma come up literally wherever I go. Clubs. Meetings. Any online space. At the bus stop. At the mall. At a restaurant. At work. Buzzword of the year that everyone loooves loudly throwing around with their friends or over the phone. Feels awesome for me, makes my day so much better/s
I could go on for a long time, but I'm scared no one will read/rb this if it gets too much longer.
So please. Stop using the word "narcissist" as a synonym for "abusive".
Stop bringing up people you hate who you believe to have NPD because of a stigmatizing article full of misinformation whenever someone with actual NPD opens their mouth. (Imagine if people did that with any other disorder! "Hey, I'm autistic." "Oh... my old roommate screamed at me whenever I made noise around him, and didn't understand my needs, which seems like sensory overload and difficulty with social cues. He was definitely autistic. But as long as you're self-aware and always restraining your innate desire to be an abusive asshole, you're okay I guess, maybe." ...See how offensive and ignorant that is?)
Stop preventing healthcare for people with a disorder just because it's trendy to use us as a scapegoat.
If you got this far, thank you for reading, and please share this if you can. Further reading is under the cut.
NPD Criteria, re-written by someone who actually has NPD
Stigma in the DSM
Common perception of the DSM criteria vs how someone may actually experience them (Keep in mind that this is the way I personally experience these symptoms, and that presentation can vary a lot between individuals)
"Idk, the stigma is right though, because I've known a lot of people with NPD who are jerks, so I'm going to continue to support the blockage of treatment for this condition."
(All of these were written by me, because I didn't want to link to other folks' posts without permission, but if you want to add your own links in reblogs or replies please feel free <3)
#actuallynpd#signal boost#actuallyautistic#mental health awareness#narcissistic personality disorder#people also need to realize that mental health professionals aren't immune from bias#(it really shouldn't come as a shock that the mental health field has a longstanding pattern of misunderstanding and mistreating ppl who ar#mentally ill or otherwise ND)#the first therapist i brought up NPD to like. literally pulled out the DSM bc she could barely remember the criteria. then said that there'#no way I have it because I have low self-esteem lmaoooooo#anyway throwback to being at work and chatting with a co-worker. and the conversation turning to mental health. and him saying that#he tries to stay informed and be aware and supportive of mental health conditions & that he doesn't want to be ignorant or spread harmful#misinformation. and then i mentioned that i do a lot of research into mental health stuff and i listed a bunch of things. which included#several personality disorders. one of which was NPD.#and after listening to my whole ass list he zeroed in on the NPD and immediately started talking about how narcissists are abusive and#he knew someone who had NPD and how the person who had it had an addiction and died from the addiction in a horrible way and he#was glad he did#fun times#or when i decided to be vulnerable and talk abt my self-criticism/self-hatred bc i knew my friends also struggled w that and i wanted to#support them by sharing my own coping methods. and they both(separately!) started picking and prodding at my npd through the lens of stigma#bc i'd recently opened up to them abt having it. they recognized self-hatred as a symptom and still jumped on me for it. despite me#trying to share hurt vulnerable parts of myself to help them and connect with them.#again..... fun times
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˖⁺｡˚⋆˙no saving u | LS2˖⁺｡˚⋆˙
pairing: logan sargeant x piastri!reader y/n (she/her)
genre: social media au, break up, brother's best friend/childhood friends to lovers
warnings: trigger warning many max verstappen mentions unfortunately /j
summary: in which they are pulled together following a particularly messy crash during the last race of the season and an even messier break up
a/n: i got this plot as a request and i love it ahhh i linked the request below!!! hope u guys enjoy i lowkey luv writing logan fanfic especially when max loses something 😆
request!!!: max is getting too cocky and dangerous on the track and he knows you disagree with his antics which causes tension between you, he continues his dangerous streak even though he’s just had the pit lane rules changed for abu dhabi and ends up crashing into logan during fp2, you’ve had enough of max putting himself and others in danger whilst he’s on an ego trip and rush to check on logan after he’s been taken safely from his car and end up going to the hospital with him (you’re childhood friends because he did karting and f3 with your brother), you leave max that night and end up spending more time with logan as he recovers, the summer is spent exploring your new relationship and you go public when you’re spotted in his paddock in 2024, max is humiliated beaten by the worst driver on the grid in his opinion, he’s finally humbled, you could also maybe have logan doing better as he’s had an opportunity to be involved with the cars development, and he even gets a couple podiums in his sophomore year :)
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logansargeant vacation time 🏝️
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landonorris should we all give up our seats and hang out 24/7 instead
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oscarpiastri no
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lilymhe yes wahoo
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user26 y/n & charles taking a flight together🥹
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yourusername exposing my weird airline meal
charles_leclerc still dont know what it was
oscarpiastri lol flying with y/n/n is an experience
user28 who is y/n dating im confused ??
user29 no one her & max just broke up but she's oscar's sister so she's always been friends with a lot of the grid
alexandrasaintmleux i can't believe u saw y/n without me
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alexandrasaintmleux get on a plane now
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lilymhe oh hello
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logansargeant ...where should we go next?
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user33 looks like y/n .. anyone else?
user34 that is deffo y/n
user35 why would we assume y/n is dating logan everyone has been posting them hanging out with her lately
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user37 omg not them going to japan because daniel told them to
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oscarpiastri just got the strongest urge to bully you for this post
yourusername u hate to see a girl win!! ur a misogynist or something
landonorris u didnt win anything y/n
logansargeant she won my heart actually
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spilled tea and hot gossip - f1 grid
+summary: there's nothing she loves more than spilled tea and hot gossip.
+pairing: f1 grid x female!driver
+warnings: cheating, mentions pregnancy, gossip.
a/n: this is just an idea that popped into my head.
I do not give my permission to have my work reposted. I do not give my permission to have my work translated. If I'm notified that you've stolen my work or claim it as your own, you'll be asked to take it down before I'll report you. End of discussion.
Any drama, gossip, or tea that is spilled on a formula one paddock, you best believe she's going to know about it because she's got eyes and ears everywhere. Like for example, the whole situation with Oscar, Daniel and Mclaren. Or how Fernando signed with Aston Martin and didn't tell anyone much less Alpine. Pierre wonders where, or who she's getting this information from, but she'd never reveal her source for they wish to remain anonymous.
"Thanks so much for helping, y/n. You've made our job a lot easier," Jon, a member of her pit crew, smiled and tapped her shoulder.
"I'm always happy to help!" she said. " Do you guys need anything else? If not, I'm going to head out."
"We should be all good to go. Again, thanks for the help."
"You guys have a good day!" she left out the back of the garage and walked down a relatively empty paddock with the exception of other teams' staff here and there.
She was almost at the entrance when from the corner of her eye; she spotted a man wearing a black and red Haas shirt. Whoever he was talking to she didn't know, and it wasn't her business. But what he told to said person on the phone shocked her.
"I messed up, man. I shouldn't have even slept with her," the man paused, running his hand down his face. "Oh, the girlfriend of a mechanic over at Alpha Tauri. But that's not even the worst part of it. She's pregnant and doesn't know who the father is."
The sound that came out of her mouth wasn't human, and she quickly had to pretend she saw something shocking on her phone because the man looked in her direction. Man, she couldn't wait to tell the boys.
The following day after scanning her id, she strutted down the paddock like a woman on a mission.
Spotting the dutchman, who conveniently was standing with Daniel, Charles and Pierre outside the redbull garage, she excitedly walked right over. "You'll never guess what I heard yesterday."
"Judging by your excitement, I assume it's something juicy." Pierre replied. Just by the excitement alone, he knew that whatever she was about to say was going to be good.
"Yesterday, I stayed back after qualifying to help my pit crew clean up and put things away. When I was done, I left and walked down a relatively empty paddock, but stopped when I overheard somebody from Haas talking on the phone. I don't know who he was talking to, because it's not relevant, but what is, is what he told them."
"Get to the point, y/n."
"I was getting there, Max," she paused. "He told them he slept with a girlfriend of a mechanic over at Alpha Tauri. That alone is pretty juicy, but what he followed it up with had my jaw on the floor. And he followed it up with and she's pregnant and doesn't know who the father is."
Gasps leave their mouth as their jaws drop just like hers did from the day before. Behind Charles, her pr manager, Tracy, waved her over.
"Enjoy the tea, boys." she smirked, patted Charles on the shoulder as she walked away.
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I know Visa Cash App RB team name isn't Alpha Tauri anymore, but I hate the name Visa Cash App RB with a passion.
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I'm upset over something my friend did earlier and was gonna make a post about it but I totally forgot
#vent in tags#vent#they did a few things but i had a specific one#like they asked me if i got gender ency from endermens when i mentioned i wanyed to start a count for how often someone compared me to them#and that upset .e for whateve rb reason ig#OH I REMEMBERED WHAT THEY ITD#so basically i have an awful sleep schedule because of poor mental health which is something i dont like to talk about#ans most days i end up going to bed at 6-8 and waking up at 3-5 (or just not sleeping) and they and my other friends tease me a lot for#waking up so late which im fine with#so they specifically were teasing me and i said how i was rlly happy because i went to bed at 4 which is a big improvement 4 me and they#said how it was still a shitty time to go to bed#cause like i get that but also i was really proud of myself because thats genuine progress for me but eh#its fine ig
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quiet love
in which your boyfriend vernon likes showing his love for you in a quiet way.
pairing: vernon x f!reader
words count: 2k
content: childhood bestfriends to lovers, fluff, domestic
warnings: so soft but very corny, contains pretty common prompts imo, vernon's love language is not words of affirmation lol, implied that kids are mean to vernon, mention of driving, drinking, loss and exes, reader is sick at one point (the flu), a lot of food/eating talk, they are so healthy youre gonna throw up, soooo much physical affection they make me SICK (holding hands, kissing, playing with each other's hairs, hugging etc), babe/baby petnames
note: omg im alive?!?!? hiii!! it's been so long since i posted a fic! this one is a birthday gift for the loml @vcrnons <3 happy birthday, u know it all already but don't forget i love u sm!!! i hope you enjoy this childhoodbff!vernon (it's ur thing) who's very very in love but very very shy to say it. hope anyone else who sees this fic enjoy too! don't forget to interact with this if u liked it, rbs are very very very appreciated! thank u<3 (also this was proofread by tired me so if there is any mistakes, ignore it pls thanks <3)
Vernon has always been a man of a few words; when you first met him in elementary school, he was the quiet boy and nothing could get him to speak apart from spinning tops and his favorite cartoons. Still, you decided to befriend that calm boy – at the time, people used to think you were only being nice but deep down you knew: you were making a friend for life.
Going through all of the different steps of childhood and teenage hood with Vernon by your side was an experience – you raised hell together, driving your parents crazy. But it was also having a best friend to experience each other’s every first times: first partners, first time driving, first time getting drunk but also first breakup, first bad haircut and first loss. You have seen each other through everything. No, you have watched over each other through everything; wherever you were, Vernon was standing two steps back, making sure you were always safe. And wherever he was, you were always standing two steps back, making sure he was always loved.
And that’s how you both fell in love. It was slow and secure; falling in love with Vernon was never complicated or painful. It was how things dropped into place and none of you ever denied it; at the time you knew you were meant to be – maybe you always did. And so, you let yourself fall into each other’s arms, a safe place, full of quiet love.
You were 24 years old when Vernon first wanted to tell you he loved you; yet, he didn’t have the courage to fess up. Having spent his whole life showing his love through actions, he had a hard time saying it out loud. After a nice date to the cinema and the restaurant, he drove you back home, small talk and look exchanged during the trip. As soon as he puts the car in park, he reaches out to hold your hand, his thumb drawing circles.
“Had a nice time tonight?” he asks.
“Of course I did,” you answer, a blush creeping on your cheeks, “You know I always do with you,” you add, reaching out to cup his cheek.
“You need to go, you have an early day tomorrow,” he tells you, kissing your palm.
“Yeah, I’m going,” you say as you reach down for your bag and open the door, “Let me know when you’re home, okay?”
“Of course,” he says as he holds your face between his hand, “You do the same,” he adds against your lips before kissing you softly.
“It’s literally two steps away, I’m already home,” you chuckle as you exit the car.
“Won’t leave until I get the text, babe,” he smiles as he leans over the center console to look at you.
You roll your eyes sarcastically at him but still, your lips go up into a smile as your cheeks reddens from the way he so apologetically loves and cares for you. This boy would do anything to make sure you see how much he adores you. So, you wave him goodbye and it’s only when you close your front door and his phone buzzes with an i’m home :) drive safe, text me xx that you hear him drive off.
The second time he almost confessed to loving you was when you were 25. You had just gotten over an awful flu that got you bed ridden for days, unable to go on with your schedule as you normally would. You were sleeping the sickness off for hours on end, only waking up when Vernon knocked on your door to check up on you. Honestly, he knew it was only the flu, but he was so scared for you; in his eyes, you always appeared as the strongest women on earth so seeing you so weak and tired pulled at his heartstrings. He thought about confessing his undying love as you were blowing your nose – maybe it will magically heal her, he thought one night. But deep down he knew you needed someone to help you out physically and so, he did. He had taken such good care of you; he kept your home clean, did the laundry and helped you out to the shower if needed. He had thought about doing the cooking but he knew his poor skills wouldn’t get you to eat at all. So, even if you couldn’t finish your plates, he had ordered your favorite meals all week, even if he didn’t really like some of those.
It's been a few days since you last had a fever, so even if you were still blowing your nose and coughing a little bit, you could still get out of bed and hang out with Vernon. You two decided to have an at-home date, ordering your favorite meals and watching the show you recently started together. Since you were less sick you could finally finish your plate and eat more than usual; even after finishing your food, your stomach was still grumbling.
“I’m still hungry,” you whisper to yourself, not thinking Vernon would hear you.
“Yeah?” he asks, still looking at the TV as he holds a spoon full of food in the air, “Want a bite?” he says as he looks at you.
“Is that okay?” you ask, not wanting to take away his favorite food. Even when you were sick, you saw how Vernon only ordered your favorite foods – he deserved to have every bite of his favorite dish.
“Of course it is!” he smiles at you, extending his spoon in front of you, “You like it?” he asks, waiting for your nods of approval.
You nod enthusiastically, giving him a thumbs up with a smile, “That’s so good!” you exclaim before Vernon reaches for your plate. You look at him, wondering what he is up to before you see him fill your empty plate with more than half of his meal, “No, no, no,” you say, trying to reach for it as Vernon puts it out of reach from you.
“You need to eat, babe,” he says as he puts the dish on your lap, “Go on,” he smiles, patting your head before turning his attention back to his almost finished meal and the tv.
You smile down, cheeks red from your boyfriend’s attention. You notice how he gave you the tastier part of his dish – meat, veggies and a lot of gravy with a good amount of rice – and he kept most of the rice and only a piece of meat for himself. You start to eat happily, re-adjusting your position on the sofa to be closer to him. It might have been a year and a half since you started dating with no I love you’s said, but you know this is how he shows he loves you. And that is enough for you – it will always be.
It's now been two years since you started dating Vernon; you’re 26 years old, living with your boyfriend, your two cats and waking up every day with the love of your life next to you. Life is beautiful and you could not ask for more. To celebrate your anniversary with Vernon, you planned a trip to your hometown - only a 1 hour-drive from home – so you can have your date where you first kissed: at the cinema. If someone told Vernon he would one day ignore a movie to give his attention to a human being, he would have laughed at their face. But here he is. Countless of movies and shows watched with you right there, next to him, and yet you always steal his gaze away from the screen. You are just so beautiful, he thinks to himself. And when he sees you, laughing at a stupid joke from a character, he smiles with you. Not because the joke is funny, no, but because he cannot watch you without his heart filling up and his feelings pouring out onto his lips. He knew since he woke up that day, on your 2 years anniversary, that he would say it. It had been on the tip of his tongue since the first time he saw you in elementary school, smiling at everyone and saving bugs, but he always held it back. He thought it would be too soon, too fast, too much – but how can love ever be those things? he realized recently. He had said I love you a thousand times already through his actions, he had said he loved you out loud to his friends, his family, his cats. He thought now was the time you should hear it. So, all day, his head was in the clouds, thinking how to bring this up, how to say I’m in love with you to his soulmate. It happens when you pull him into your apartment at 1 am, your anniversary already over. You both get rid of your shoes, the tiredness of the day finally falling on your shoulders, before you pull him into you for a hug. Your arms stay at his waist, his heart going thump, thump, thump against yours as his cheek rest on the crown of your head.
“Gonna let you go to sleep,” you mumble against his shirt before letting him go, “I’m gonna shower.”
“Hey- babe,” he says softly to get your attention, his hand wrapping around your wrist, “need to tell you something,” he tells you as you’re pulled back against his chest, hands on his front as one of his rest on your waist, the other one covering your cheek.
“Everything’s okay?” you ask, rubbing circle on the fabric of his shirt.
“Yeah, everything’s good,” he whispers, his eyes going down to look at your lips and up again, “You’re pretty,” he speaks under his breath, a blush making its way on your cheeks – and his.
“Thank you,” you smile as you reach for his neck, pulling him down for a kiss, “You’re not so bad yourself,” you whisper against his lips.
He holds onto your cheeks, your foreheads resting against each other, “I love you,” he murmurs so low you think you made it up but as you open your eyes and see tears in his own, you know this is nothing but real life.
“Oh,” you gasp softly, taken aback, “I love you too,” you say, smiling up at the love of your life.
“I know this was long overdue and I’m sorry it took me so long-“ he starts to babble, uneasiness bubbling in his chest before you cut him off with a kiss.
“It’s okay,” you whisper, playing with the hair at his nape, “To me, you’ve said it a thousand times,” you reassure him as he blushes, chuckling softly at how you always find the right words for him, “But a thousand more wouldn’t hurt,” you tease slightly, making him snort.
“I love you,” he repeats, his arms wrapping around your shoulders as yours find a resting place at his waist, rubbing his back over his shirt.
“Again,” you say with a smile in your voice before kissing his chest in an I love you too.
“I love you,” he says against your hair, his hands making its way under the straps of your dress.
“Again,” you ask him, never getting enough of these words flowing out of his lips.
“I love you,” he whispers against the shell of your ear, leaving a kiss behind, “so much.”
“I’ll never get tired of hearing this,” you whisper, your hands meeting the end of his shirt, “I love you,” you say as you touch his bare back.
“I love you, I love you, I love you,” he says like a mantra, “I’d unlearn any other words so all you could hear is my love for you,” he whispers, his eyes meeting yours, before your lips collide – just like your worlds did so many years ago.
You’ve always found reassurance in this quiet love you and Vernon were giving each other – but maybe you liked your love being a little louder sometimes.
thank u for reading! hope you enjoyed hehe <3
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