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So... this is just my life now, here is another awesome Dead Boy Detectives edit out there in the either.
since I apparently am on a mission to spread by hyperfixation
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#emma actually talks#edwin payne#edwin paine#he's just a little guy#dead boy detectives#edits#the code#hyperfixation station#he's my new character (tm)#i'm so sorry lmao#Youtube
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life update i'm dating bachira part time and isagi part time
#and sitting on bachira's face rn#in my blue lock cock era#anw i luv him sm sm sm sm he is so weird and cute and unsettling i want to date him so bad#im also heart eyes over is.agi he is painfully my type but i will not get into that rn#also hey uhm what the heck happened Wut is the everyone option is there a new mutuals only post option????? 0v0#its only been a month and tumblr breaks into my house (blog) and rearranges my furniture (settings) without me knowing -_-#ANYWAY i am reading the manga rn and it is sooooo goooooood#kinda insane but like normal at the same time cuz its soccer yk i get it... LMFAO#pray for a bllk hyperfixation era for me bc i miss tumblr i just dont see a reason to come on here BUT HEY... BLLK... PERHAPS...#ALSO CSM AND BNHA AND SOOOO MUCH DSKJFHS AND KINKTOBERRRRR AHHH I FORGOT#& i miss u all so bad life is so BUSY and full time job stupid and i go to gym now bc getting jacked slowly to look like j.osuke from j.jba#smirks#however im currently still Sad TM irl if u will thus i am not fully back yet#but i just needed to yell abt ba.chira for one second to the void#also to get mutualstonin for a bit and dip
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Sometimes I wonder if I actually like drawing/writing or if it’s the depression+adhd combo. Cause I want to do those things but the minute I sit down and try to I can literally feel all motivation flee my soul. 🙃
#rrf complains#sigh…#it also doesn’t help I have a new (tm) hyperfixation#ffxiv the current love of my life#though I wish I had that kind of energy for my projects lol
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You know what would be both Cool(tm) AND Pants Shittingly Terrifying? Eldritch Space Whale Danny!
Except NOT! Because he's not a whale! Just snoozing and Giganto-Fuck-Off HUGE!
Imagine it! Danny. Joint Custody Child of The Ancients Of Time And Space. Space is SALTY AF because their BITCH OF AN EX has used his FUCKING POWERS, AGAIN, to CHEAT. Clockwork how DARE YOU.
You knew he'd be our Son in advance!
YOU SNUCK IN AND STARTING BONDING WITH OUR CHILD BEHIND MY BACK!
YOU [REDACTED]!
Danny? Sitting off to the Side as a Sentient Everything and Nothing made of galaxies and starlight, howls expletives at their Ex, who is being... REALLY snippy back? WOW, Clockwork. I mean, JESUS, man. Danny's from "oh bless their heart" Nowhere, Midwest. And even HE thinks that last one was both backhanded and cold af.
......he should take notes. *continues to eat his popcorn*
Anyway! APPARENTLY, Space Parent has taken him in the divorce. With much huffing. Tucked under their arm Like The Football(tm). And honestly? This is kinda hilarious, so he's cool with it. Byyyyyy~ Clock Dad! See you on weekends~☆!
*Exasperated Time Noises*
It's pretty cool! He learns a lot. Learns he's probably? Gonna be SOME variation of Space Ghost. Might even take over Space's... well, EVERYTHING, should the unforeseeable occur. So obviously, gonna have to learn The Family Business, as it were!
Which?
UNSPEAKABLY HYPED, YES PLEASE.
SPACE AND STAR STUFF! HECK YEAH!
Unfortunately? Still a Halfa. Bleh, squishy need to eat and sleep. Why they get in the way of Hyperfixation? Why no more space dust? Nooooo, don't drag him away from the controls! He can still learn! Sleep is for quitters! Cowards! *whining in Give Me Back My Blorbos, You Monsters*
But, no. He apparently has to "take care of his body" and "not burn out". Eat "real food". A protein bar counts! He probably ate one of those! Give him back his STARS! He doesn't CARE if he sounds like a toddler! That's DIRECT ACCESS TO THE SECRETS OF SPACE ITSELF! He'll BITE, so HELP HIM-! *Is scruffed like a cranky infant being carried off to beddy bye*
Injustice! D:<
But, none the less, body's require sleep. He shovles down his food, washes up, and flops down in his bed. In the nice lil cozy "Safe For My Half Apprentice Who Is Also My Adopted Son" corner. He passes out in that corner. Starts to float, as he has done countless times before, when agitated before bed. Floats OUT of that corner.
That Safe Little Corner.
IN THE CENTER, THE BEATING HEART OF SPACE.
You know... the place ALL OF SPACE connects too. Where Universe Form and Die. The Grand Recycler. Dust to Dust, from the ashes of old, to the creation of new. Where PORTALS are randomly assigned. So that the Omniversal Ectoplasmic Levels may always be balanced at near to perfect levels, allowing free flow of Souls through the various Reincarnation cycles.
Space, of course, doesn't MANAGE the Ectoplasm itself. Nor the Souls! Different Ancient for THAT, but they DO manage the PORTALS. We live in a SYSTEM after all. Everyone has their "departments" as it were. So really, it's quiet... Danny? Honey? Awful quiet back there! You, uh, fallen asleep, Starlight?
*empty room*
(O.O)
*inhale* AAAAAAAAAAA-!!!!!!!
Meanwhile! He be Snoozin'! And Ghostin'! Ghost Snoozin'! Is extra comfy, cause he weightless and got not booooones~☆!
But! He? Is not a child anymore! Has learned to... for lack of a better term, Let Go. To finally ACCEPT his Death. His inhumanity. His Amortality. Death no longer holds him, can no longer let him go. He is... not immortal. He is disowned, by his own doing and his own choice, at his timeless moment of Ending.
When Life let go of his hand and Death kindly offered theirs, he did not take it.
And that's okay.
It took awhile. Talking to older ghosts. Most vague and vast, near formless. Because it's... it's scary. And it's all you know. All, really, you've EVER known. Inherent to your identity, even after you leave that part you behind.
You are "human". "Martian" or "Xy'xeruian", something else, and you never question it. Even when you've left behind everything ELSE. Your name, your eyes, your history and skin. Yet you fly around and pretend. Still alive, still human.
But is that YOU?
Or just the form you found your start in?
And like? It's okay if it IS! Sometimes, yeah, you ARE. You look down deep and find a "don't know what you were expecting, buddy" sign stapled to a mirror. But more often? It's that last hurdle. The final step in Letting Go.
Everyone mourns at their own pace.
And they are the ghosts of who they were.
It helped. Mourning for the kid he was. Who was fourteen and wanted to be an astronaut. Who died and will never have a grave. The longer he exsists, for he can't technically be called Alive, the more painfully young that child seems.
It was okay.
To cry for Danny Fenton.
Then? To let him go. Let his memory, be memory. And his Past be the grave that child rests in. Loved dearly and remembered, but no longer binding his soul.
He doesn't have to wear that face anymore.
No tributes to the Dead.
He got? Kinda... BIG. Like REALLY big. Spiraling, serpentine, cracking ice, and burning galaxies. Like a fourth dimensional dragon, of ice and stars, somehow forcing its way into a three dimensional space. Atop it all, between two vast, impossible horns? Made of glacial ice coating the warping hearts of black holes, who's shape themselves seem to shift in unknowable ways? There burns, like comet trails, with super novas, compressed to decorative gems beneath glittering morning frost, a Terrible Crown.
He? Thinks? He MIGHT have wings.
He can't tell.
Because APPARENTLY he's a fuckin tesseract! Oh, no, sorry. He might me a Zone DAMNED PENTERACT!!! Is THIS what he gets for hanging out with Clockwork all the time? He just liked the quiet! Now his "true form" is PHYSICALLY PAINFUL for most people to look at!
Clock Dad WHAT THE HELL?!
(You see, now, why Space broke up with him? An ASSHOLE)
So! Danny stays, usually at least, in his "Hi, yes, I am Normal Human Man" Ghost form. But NOW? Now it PINCHS. Because it's TOO SMALL. But hey, that's fine! It's not like he has an ingrained habit of transforming when super tired and stressed! To float sleep for Maximum Restfulness(tm).
Ha ha!
Why does that feel like foreshadowing?
BECAUSE IT IS!
Danny? Snoozing! Space? Has LOST THE BABY! Portals? Have done a Jood Gob in Portalling, something they are vaguely sure they are supposed to be doing! Yay them! They have no brain cells but still enjoy helping! They moved a thing! That's helpful right? Yay! Probably!
And on DC's planet Earth?
They? Just choked on their fuckin coffee. One moment? La dee daa~ oooh~ look! Stars! Deep space! Oh, hiiii~ Watchtower! The NEXT? *every alarm in the building starts LOSING ITS SHIT* Giant World OBLITERATING SHAPE completely takes up the screen.
From near PLUTO.
There are NO WORDS TO DISCRIBE HOW FUCK OFF BIG THIS THING IS, MR. PRESIDENT. It will eat our nukes and LAUGH. Call! EVERYBODY!!!
Obviously? Superman. I mean really, OF COURSE Superman. Frankly, all the Supers. Because we would like to KEEP having a planet, thanks. Only? The more reports that come in? The more everyone is getting "oh fuck. This is a Workd Eater" vibes.
A massive, massive, Sleeping Titan of a Planet Destroying World Eater.
That MIGHT BE MAGIC.
*highly stressed Everyone noises*
And WORSE? Superman? Can't TOUCH it! Oh sure, at FIRST he could! But then he apparently pushed too hard in just one spot! And it felt POKED AT. So now, after flicking superman HALFWAY BACK TO EARTH to make him stop? No one can physically touch it!
But! There is hope!
Because? The creature is GREEN. Bright, luminous, Lantern Green! And Earth's Lanterns have already sent for back up. Combined? The were able to move a... hand? Paw? Something. But! With the combine forces of several nearby sectors of Lanterns? They promise the power to either relocate the creature or at least hold it in orbit until FURTHER forces can be deployed!
They refuse to harm the creature until it proves actively hostile, as it could have been seeking a place to nap and chosen one inconvenient to established planetary life. Frankly? Earth doesn't CARE where you relocate the giant Eldritch Space Dragon. Just NOT IN OUR BACKYARD, PLEASE.
....YES WE ARE SURE! We don't CARE if the scientific community of our planet is begging you to set up an area for them to place an "observation satellite"! No giant Eldritch Space Dragons in our solar system! It might WAKE UP!
Naturally, about half way THROUGH this Highly Delicate Operation?
Danny Wakes Up.
@hypewinter @hdgnj @lolottes @babbling-babull @nerdpoe @the-witchhunter @mutable-manifestation
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It’s a bit sad that like 77(and possibly more) had to deal with an England anon at some point (I say assuming everyone who liked that post has gotten one)
#tbh I think my h//etalia hyperfixation is finially GONE gone#rot//tm//nt my new beloved <3#I’m procrastinating on sleeping lol
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It just occurred to me.... that I've enjoyed making videos edits of Phantom of The Paradise so much that....
When I watch another film and enjoy it.... I can use this power to make video edits of it too
#gnashing my teeth like that one meme with teef#I'm...... going to go insane i cannot wait to move on from this hyperfixation with New Transcendent Knowledge of VIDEO EDITS#evil cackling#tm#EHEHEHEHEHEHE#i need to start tagging my personal posts again but eh
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Once again back on my "Please write whatever the fuck you want especially if it's unhinged" bullshit.
I feel like fandom doesn't talk enough about contrast to understand how important it is and how human nature will always inevitably seek it out to some degree. One of the BEST things about a pairing in fandom is that you get to read fic about them in all different ways. From Canon typical meet cutes and happy ending fix its to serial killers AU and dead doves ahoy. Contrast and multifaceted expression is necessary. It will always exist. It needs to. It should. It MUST.
I say this because the suppression of "contrast" (I.e anything the loudest people in fandom don't vibe with) is especially rampant where the pairing becomes an extension OF the people engaging with it. The inability to separate and share space securely without needing to dominate through bullying and harassment is behind so much of what's wrong in fandoms now.
But see, most people don't understand what fucking contrast IS. They can only imagine someone doing what they are doing: trying to dominate and suppress by asserting superiority, when in fact that's not the case at all.
Contrast is a good thing. A fic that's different and weird and provocative might inspire something new in a reader. Art doesn't only come from happy hyperfixations and an echo chamber of agreement. Salt tastes AMAZING after chocolate. Everyone's tastes can be expressed and contrast is what's responsible for so much of creative expression that we barely realise it. Contrast is Eddie Munson DYING in SE4. Did anyone like it? Fuck no. Did it trigger a mass movement? Hell yes, at least in part. If everything in fandom is "Happy and Safe and Approved By The Self Selected Voices of Fandom TM" then everything will become a replica of everything else. There must always be space for the new, challenging and downright dark explorations because they provide balance, they trigger reactionary imagination, they provide context and critical thought and that's without even touching upon catharsis or human experience in a narrative frame.
Contrast is necessary. Anyone can write ANYTHING. AO3 is an archive, it's for everyone and anyone but not any ONE person to try to control.
No cruelty or discourse will be worth it in 5 years time. Only the art will remain.
💜💜💜
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im sorry if someone has pointed these out already but i replayed p5t again and i am in absolute SHAMBLES with these new observations. i never actually post my thoughts here but i kinda need people to talk to about p5t IM AUTISTIC AND HYPERFIXATED. anyway onto the real post, sorry if this is unorganized and messy. im just really excited
i really wanna talk about the whole event that happens in the 3rd kingdom, on the rooftop.
soo.. when the school crashes and transforms.. it resembles a clock. a train station??? and. said clock is unmoving. what struck me is the time it was stuck on. 6:00pm, or 18:00, the exact time The Train Incident (tm) takes place, and the exact time eri was pushed onto the train tracks at the station.
i guess you could say, toshiro is stuck in the past, unable to move on and process his trauma. it's the extreme guilt of him losing his closest friend and how standing up and rebelling... just ended up in so many people hurt. he can't possibly live bearing the sin of that.
but here's when it gets more interesting... when shadow toshiro was threatening to kill erina, and when erina/eri inspired toshiro to take a stand, he throws joker's knife through the shadows hand, but more specifically, through the gloved hand, the one damaged from the train.
then with a really good sequence, toshiro runs as fast as he possibly can (i wonder how he did that actually) and with flashing memories of him failing to save eri in between, he manages to catch erina before she falls. and... he catches her with his damaged hand. the same hand that failed to save eri, saved erina.
remember the clock from the beginning? it STARTS MOVING AGAIN right after this.
this whole scene is genuinely such a beautiful and symbolistic way to show that toshiro finally found his resolve, and that despite all that trauma in the past, he's ready to change for the better and move again.
oh, and one more thing. toshiros mask only has one eye shown. the left one... the one that eri lost. they have ONE EYE EACH AAAAGHHH!! their souls really are connected.
what gets me more is that one of toshiros catchphrases in combat iirc is "witness OUR power as ONE" and it makes me go insane because he basically sees eri as his hero (here ill quote a futaba dialogue that hit me hard: "natsuhara's like the undefeated heroine in toshiro's life story, huh?") and she made him feel like he's more than just a puppet of his father. she inspired him to take a stand, and while this resulted badly, it led to his LITERAL SOUL subconsciously manifesting into a being heavily based on her (erina)
he just believes that eri/erina is a huge part of who he is. so "witness our power as one"
the fact he doesn't have a real PT outfit disappoints me a bit, but id like to think it's because eri taught him that he doesn't need to become all cool and change himself to rebel. he just needs to be himself. that's really it.
some extra things i have noticed:
-shadow toshiros 'weapon' is basically just bandages. i first thought this was a twisted more distorted version of the bandages eri gave toshiro when they first met (since shadow toshiro claims to despise eri)?? but someone in yt comments pointed out its probably made from eri's bandages after the incident. and i think that makes much more sense
-toshiro is the only persona user that has a persona opposite of his gender... that's kinda... 🏳️⚧️ if you ask me...heh (im trans)
-i know many know already but erinas character design is GENIUS . like ... the covered eye and the prosthetic leg?? referencing eri?? SO FUCKING WELL DONE. genuinely one of my fav character designs in persona
-not really an observation but remember the 'thank you instead of sorry' hideout talk where toshiro tells the gang about eri more?? when it was finished and toshiro said "natsuhara-senpai...um, thank you." IT TORE MY HEART STRINGS STOOOPPP
-idk im kinda unnormal about eritoshi. that's all
#persona 5 tactica#persona 5 tactica spoilers#p5t#p5t spoilers#toshiro kasukabe#p5t erina#eri natsuhara#thanks for reading all of this if u did :)#i love this game so much. seriously amazing#i migjt post more of things like this. maybe#eritoshi
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Late top 5 ask because I just thought of it: 5 shows that you are always down to rewatch
What a great question that is also such a mean and incredibly evil thing to ask me, wen-kexing-apologist, Chronic Rewatcher lmfao
So fun fact I have seen KinnPorsche 14 times, Our Flag Means Death 11 times, The Old Guard 11 times, Heartstopper 11 times, The Eclipse probably 6 times, Bad Buddy and ITSAY 4 times, etc, etc, etc. And those are counting all the times I have watched a show all the way through. This is not counting the number of times I have actively gone back to watch specific episodes or specific scenes.
See the problem is sometimes I hyperfixate and then I just have to watch it until it is out of my system, sometimes an OST pops in to my head and then I get the urge to watch the show again, and sometimes I agree to edit the transcripts for the backlog of @the-conversation-pod and @bengiyo and @shortpplfedup start talking about a show and I'm like "ahhh good times! I should rewatch that!"
So you can imagine the stress I am under. I'll have to do this by category
Show I Am Constantly Rewatching: Bed Friend
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I know what you may be thinking, and yes you are correct I am in this rewatch for Uea's emotional journey. Uea is my sweet summer child, I love him, I have adopted him in to my family, his happiness is my happiness and I love love love watching him go from a quiet, reserved, unhappy character who keeps getting put in unfair situations through no fault of his own in to this confident, vibrant, happy person who is on his way towards healing. Often times it can be hard for me to pick A Favorite thing; a favorite character, a favorite scene because there are so. many. good. ones. But I am constantly, and I mean constantly rewatching the scene in Episode 8 where Uea tells King about his past. I have lost count of how many times I've seen it, no even kidding I watched that scene before I went to bed just last week. I will always always be down to watch that show because I love seeing how far my boy is able to grow with just a little bit of love, care, and therapy.
Show I Would Rewatch for an Instant Mood Boost: If It's With You
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I have a difficult time understanding/feeling emotion in my body unless I abstract it in to fiction. So when I experience strong emotions it is typically when something super happy or super tragic happens on screen, in a book, during my D&D game, etc. One of my absolute favorite things is when something makes me so happy that my body is no longer able to contain it and I have to do the Neurodivergent Hand Flappies(TM). I think I spent 80% of this show grinning so hard it hurt my face and doing the Neurodivergent Hand Flappies because it just...they made me so happy. Amane is so sweet, and he deserves happiness, and he is getting his happiness and he's just full of sunshine and I already rewatched this show like immediately after it finished. This show joins my This Could Fix Me list.
Show I Would Be Down to Rewatch for Emotional Catharsis: Eternal Yesterday
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I have not rewatched this show...yet. But I want to, and I know that I will eventually. I can only imagine that it is sadder and more evil the second time around. I cried soooo hard over this show. But it is beautiful, and it is healing, and the pain is a good type of aching pain that comes with coming to terms with grief. With acknowledging grief. With finding where the beauty and peace lie within death and memory, and the way its claws dig in to you and leave you changed forever. Ghosts can be warm, and this show makes me warm despite it all.
Show I Would Be Down to Rewatch for Content: I Told Sunset About You/I Promised You the Moon
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I think I am in @shortpplfedup's camp about how you find new things to think about every time you watch this show. I actually desperately, desperately own I Promised You the Moon several rewatches because I have seen ITSAY four times at this point and IPYTM once. I am currently rewatching IPYTM with a friend who is seeing it for the first time, so that should help. But the first time I watched this show I was unable to function to notice anything, and it wasn't until the third time I'd watched ITSAY when I was rewatching it to prepare for the podcast panel, that I finally was able to form any level of coherent analytical thought to it. So I would rewatch this at any point just to see what more I could pull out of it.
Show I Would Be Down to Rewatch But Haven't Yet: 180 Degree Longitude Passes Through Us
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Bold, based on how intense of a reaction I had to this show, I know. But this was one of my favorites, I never wrote anything about it because I was too busy having a literal mental breakdown over it, one that was so bad I almost had to bail on the entire show with like...20 minutes left of it, and I originally nixed my plan to show it to a friend. BUT I have watched the specific scene that did me in (and only that scene) and it went over fine once I knew to expect it so I do want to watch the whole thing again. I have a friend who I have been forcing to watch BL shows I liked and I watch them with her, and this is on the list. However, I am currently running her through I Promised You The Moon and What Did You Eat Yesterday? Season 2 so this show is still quite a ways out from a rewatch because I am not a total monster and want to give her some modicum of emotional break between those two shows and 180 Degree.
Bonus:
Show I Would Never Rewatch: Enchante
I hate this show truly an unreasonable amount. I hate Theo so much oh my fucking god. I refuse to watch this again and I'm mad that I finished it.
ASK ME MY TOP 5 OF ANYTHING BL
#best of bl#ask game#bed friend#bed friend the series#if it's with you#kimi to nara koi wo shite mite mo#eternal yesterday#eien no kinou#i told sunset about you#itsay#i promised you the moon#ipytm#180 degree longitude passes through us#180 degree#180d#the true answer to this is: my list of shows i'm always down to rewatch is long#my list of shows i will never rewatch is very very *very* short
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Hi I really love your save everyone au and it has me hyper fixated on it for a week now! My personal question is does Angel ever have nightmares about the factory and their ptsd so badly that they actually wake up and start crying? How would the toys react? Also, how would the toys react if they found out Angel had any self harming coping mechanisms? (Sorry if that is too sensitive, I actually have self harmed myself when I felt like my existence was just making everyone around me miserable. And a I was going through a lot of stress at the time. I am actually 1 month clean now which I am super proud of. I hope you have a wonderful day and I appreciate you reading and potentially responding to my ask :DDDDDD
You got hyperfixated?! Oh my God 🥺💝😭!!!! I'm so glad you have been enjoying it, please don't be afrad to send me more asks and interact with my posts! I saw your comment on the AO3 fanfic and it made my day!
BEFORE WE START THIS, I just want to let you know that I'm so proud of you for going one entire month clean!!!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! The answer will be under the cut just for the safety of other people reading this, so let's go!
In the past, when my own trauma was still super fresh and I was alone, I unfortunately also had problems relating to self-harm and bad coping mechanisms. It was bad!!!! I have been clean for some time as well, thankfully, but I have been projecting some of that trauma juice(tm) over the toys, Prototype and Angel. And Angel, oh, dear...
I imagine they get some Awful nightmares. They had some during the past decade, but Angel thought of them more as stress dreams than "proper" nightmares related to their PTSD from their coworkers going missing. After the rescue, however, they do get actual nightmares related to their new trauma. They involve the toys being captured and/or taken away from Angel, Angel failing to save them, and the toys they couldn't save staring at them and asking them why didn't they come to the factory during those 10 long, long years. I think it's a matter of time until Angel can't prevent themself from waking up when another toy is already awake and breaking down in tears. Angel would try putting on a brave face, smiling softly as they always do and trying to help the toy to go back to sleep, but it doesn't work.
I think that the first one to see Angel like this is Dogday. Angel wakes up trying to reach to something - or rather, someone -, thinking for a moment their kids were taken away from them. Dogday asks them what's up, Angel tries to brush it off, but they're already crying at this point before Dogday gives them a hug.
When Angel eventually wakes up (Dogday is still good at luring others to sleep, despite all the horrors), they apologize to Dogday, but the big pup is already on high alert for what Angel has next. He tells Poppy, Mommy Long Legs, Delight and Catnap about it so everyone can make a plan on how to comfort Angel. They inevitably wake up in tears again some days later, but this time Dogday isn't the only one awake. I think that the older toys all hug Angel, because they know what it's like to be like this and they want to give Angel some of the kindness they gave to them. Angel ends up breaking down in tears before thanking the group.
During the decade post-HoJ, Angel did develop some self-harm habits. They have some scars they gave themself, and one really nasty one on their belly area from the time they got themself drunk and fell down on some glass. After that, Angel's family begged them to go to therapy. They still drink and still like drinking, but they never got to the point they were before. They also quit self-harm and have been doing clean for around 6 years before returning to the factory.
After the rescue, I think Angel's bad habits creep out again with drinking, some smoking and them overworking themself to take care of the toys. This time they're able to do a work-around their smoking and drinking problems before they could get as bad as before, but it's the toys and the Prototype who have to force Angel to sit down before scolding them with phrases like "how are you supposed to be the parent if you don't rest??? Uh???? UHHH????"
Angel's skin also gets really bad whenever they're stressed - the problem started from their first big trauma -, and post-rescue it sometimes comes back. Angel is more annoyed than worried at this point in time, thankfully.
I think Prototype is the first to take notice of Angel's scars. It's when Angel goes to "visit" him to drink a tiny bit and talk about the kids. It's summer, and Angel takes off their shirt and is only with a pair of baggy shorts + a binder Crafty made for them. The conversation is going as normal as it could be, when all of a sudden Proto just GRABS Angel's arm and asks them about the scars. Angel sighs. "These are old", Prototype takes notice. "Far too old and clean".
"You know why, don't you?", Angel asks. "I did those myself".
"Why?"
There's a pause. Angel sighs. "Because that's everything that helped me deal with the pain of losing all of my coworkers", they confess, not wanting to sound accusatory, not wanting to feel like a coward for doing that instead of running back to the factory (but again, Angel was never a coward. It's the trauma reshaping their own view of themself). "I got better. I don't do this anymore, the kids aren't at risk of my own lack of care for myself".
Prototype is silent for a moment. "I did no ask because of the children. I asked because of you".
Then, he points at his own body, both at the flesh and the wires and metal that made him himself. And although the hut's lights aren't the strongest, Angel can see some marks.
"I was often careless on purpose", Proto confesses. "Focusing on the physical pain helped more than remembering the children I doomed due to my own egoism. Protecting the few I could was all that mattered. I did not care about this body. Sometimes, I still don't".
Angel nods. They both understand what it is like. The human then drinks from their bottle of water, staring at nothing.
"It did get better for me", they tell the Prototype. "Been clean for seven years at this point. One day your scars will be old, too".
Prototype, too, drinks water. "You give me no option but to believe in your words, Angel".
"Good", they nod. "Your only way is up. Never down".
"Or, at least, never as down as we both were in the past".
That's when the human smiles. "That, too".
I can imagine one day during the summer where the family is playing with water guns and throwing water balloons at each other when a toy (maybe Bobby, Poppy, Catnap or even Bunzo) points at one of Angel's scars, asking them if they got that at the factory, and Angel takes one look at the almost-gone cut before replying that it wasn't because of the family's rescue, but something they did to themself post losing their coworkers. "I wasn't feeling well", they explain. "And doing that helped me deal with the pain, even though it hurt me. But I got better. I don't hurt myself anymore".
"Because you have us?", Bunzo asks, innocently.
"Not just that, bunny", they reply, petting him on the head. "I asked people for help and went to a nice doctor, so they could help me. And they did. It's been seven years since I last hurt myself".
"Oh...", and then Delight, covered in water, takes notice of the scar and explanation. She politely touches Angel's arms, before petting them.
"It healed very well", she notes.
"I know, right? I never told it would get this good, but it did. And now I guess it'll be your turn as well", and Angel then grabs a water gun and SPLASHED Delight, causing her to laugh and attack them back.
Later on, when Angel is helping Kissy try up, they feel Catnap headbonking their back. The feline licks Angel's arm before sitting next to them, just like how Dogday himself playfully did that just some hours before, in order to "kiss it better". Angel thanks Catnap, of course, before petting him.
They're glad for having them.
#the sillies got the hurties#cw self harm#tw self harm#poppy playtime#save everyone au#poppy worldwide#ask tag#catnap#dogday#experiment 1006#poppy playtime prototype#the angel#cried writing this ngl
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bees?
I have a riddle for you: The answer is yes. What is the question?
The question is, of course, bees.
Of which I have seen 11 this year (counting bumblebees as bees, ofc)
One of them investigated this new t-shirt I got from Hot Topic (thanks parents), it had a tardis design with little yellow balls of light, the bee was investigating those specifically, which I understand, really!
I've been investigated by bees before but usually I've just been anxious. Now however, after the December Incident (TM) (me crying over bees, being super newly hyperfixated on everything Sherlock Holmes, then my bestie Jelly telling me Sherlock likes bees, causing them to become a special interest) my fear of getting stuck has been overridden by pure euphoria and fascination.
I tried to get a good look at this bee, however sadly I was too happy to bee investigated that I didn't think about it until moments before it flew away. From what I could gather it was pretty standard size for a bee, a bit fluffier than other bees I've typically seen, and it was black, then orange, then black again. It may have had more stripes?
I didn't get a good look at her body shape, she just looked mostly oval to me.
Thanks anon <3
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Hey Ame, where have you been?
Well, you see, remember that post from a few days ago where I mentioned absorbing my writing demon and writing like 17k words in two days? It's slowing down a bit, I might be able to actually work on my proper projects now. BUT. I will. Tell you all what I've been writing and also drawing. Here's some doodle.
Ghost in the Shell is a fic that's a crossover between 2003's Same As It Never Was episode universe and the Rise universe.
Remember how in SAINW, Donnie disappeared, and they had no idea where he went or if he was even alive? Well surprise, he ended up in the Rise universe after he started trying to build a dimensional portal. Accidentally ended up punching a hole through realities, slipped through, and ended up not only alone in the Rise universe, but also 10 years before the Rise turtles are even mutated.
The appearance of an alternate version of himself and his brothers comes as quite the Shock(tm). But he's been isolated in the sewers for 10 years and caution has turned to paranoia and he has netted a five mile radius of cameras around his home. Through these, he watches the Rise kids grow up, and occasionally appears to them to guide them home when they got lost in the sewers.
The Rise turtles have no idea who this guy is, only that he appears and disappears just as quickly. They think he's a ghost, so that's what they call him. Donatello takes the name because. Well. "Donatello" died back in his dimension.
Eventually they find him and force him to live with them and accept love and a new family. And also drink less coffee.
This whole fic is inspired by a few things!
@b0t-4-bra1ns' 2003/Rise crossover which includes the episode The Freaks Come Out at Night going horribly wrong. Only Casey and Raph escape, and they end up in the Rise universe. Cue Raph becoming a father of six.
@wondrous-art's SAINW fic (it is jokingly titled Smame as it Smever Smas atm and I laugh every time I think about it) where SAINW Donnie went missing through a dimensional portal and ends up getting found by our canon 2003 Donnie and pulled into the canon dimension.
and finally, @virgilisspidey's fic Two Souls, which features 2012 Leo (Aoi) dying and somehow becoming soul-connected to Rise Leo. Only Leo can see him, he is a literal ghost instead of. Y'know. A metaphorical one. It's very good.
I've got 17 chapters and 37,000 words written. I hyperfixate when I'm stressed and I'm moving so this is what has consumed my brain. None of my other projects have been abandoned, I'm still working on them, just, this past week has been only this.
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Aww tysm for tagging me for this thingy (get to know you thing) @mon-sher-liam!!
1)Three Ships
That is sooo hard but probably:
1. Reonagi from blue lock- Reo Mikage is my favorite boy ever
2.Soukoku from bsd- they are like half of the art I have posted lol and they make me feel sometimes (all the time)
3. Shuake from P5- I love them both to the moon and back and Akechi is 'literally me tm' plus being hyperfixated on P5 makes me do well in school and actually finish my assignments soooo
(honorable mentions go to Satosugu, sns, and madohomu who only aren't on the list bc I am not hyperfixated on those shows rn)
2) First ship ever
Probably like Kataang from ATLA and Percabeth from PJO
3)Last song
Strangers by Kenya Grace
4) Last Movie
Dead Poets Society, I started pirating random movies some nights and I had heard practically nothing about it except that it had dark academi vibes so I went into it thinking 'oh this will be fun and help motivate me to do school work' NONE OF YOU WARNED ME!! (I did not look for warnings this is completely on me)
5) Currently reading
Nothing actively but the book I read for 15 minutes every English class because I chose it as my choice book is Death by Black Hole and Other Cosmic Quandaries by Niel DeGrasse Tyson
6) Currently watching
Jjk season 2, it looks sooo good and the new intro is the best thing ever
7) Currently Consuming
Air; I am currently in class :(
8) Currently Craving
Fries actually sound sooo good rn, I have to go to a football game for marching band tonight so I will go to the nearby McDonald's after school
I would love to know more ab some of my other mutuals too, only if you want to tho ^_^ @moonheartsss @kurtiness !!!
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老师好！从16年开始就喜欢您画的兆，默默表白!!
And I’m so glad to see that you also hated the show lmaooo I was such a devoted GO fan before the show freaking yeeted me out of my year-long hyperfixation. If NG actually reread his own book the show would’ve been better imo. I also feel like he doesn’t rly care about characterization at all, or other (human!!) characters beside Aziraphale and Crowley who SHOULD HAVE ALSO BEEN IN S2, given how he handled the Dove TM and how, at this point, the show has become the new Supernatural. I’ve forgotten how disappointed I was with the show when it first came out and S2 served as a perfect reminder.
呜呜呜你好！谢谢你！抱住！！
看完第二季当时真的好难过……有失恋的感觉（雾
Season 2 really played as if Neil Gaiman has never read Good Omens. I was telling my friends that my ideal Good Omens sequel would have been Adam all grown up and living a banal human life, until one day there is another crisis on Earth, and Adam has to come out and save it once again -- because he's the goddamn antichrist after all. Meanwhile, Aziraphale and Crowley are still off to the side trying to help but actually doing absolutely fuck all 🤣 I just think Aziraphale and Crowley should never have been the main characters. I was even shocked about that a little in season 1 because I didn't think of them as the main characters from the book. I think making them the main characters in the show ultimately led to the "they are actually important and high-rank" concepts that we hated so much, because god forbid you have main characters who are loser nobodies who fail at everything they try to do 😂
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What I know about the batman characters based solely off osmosis from the mutuals
Batman - seems sad but actually loves people so so much. Is trying to help all the time. Isn't always very good at it. The writers screw him over regularly. Let this man rest please. Against murder so struggles with everyone else in this post because they all want to commit murder to a certain degree.
Dick Grayson - ok so here's the thing my title was slightly a lie I did watch the '60s batman show I am well aquainted with it, so I know about this boy. An icon. A legend. A Good Boy. Trying his best. Good at riddles. Now all grown up and has an absolutely terrible outfit. Oldest Sibling tm.
Jason - he died??? He came back?? And decided the way to deal with that was Murder? He doesn't have a good relationship with Batman but actually he does? The fans voted to kill him????? He's the only one I can tell apart from the others because he has some white hair so he's actually recognisable??? Angsty and sad but apparently not like that anymore????? Seems to have wildly varying characterisation??????
Tim - I know next to nothing about this boy. No one says anything about him. Vagely sure he had a mental break and started killing people at some point but tbh that's like 90% of people on this list so who knows. Named after a duck so that's all I can think about when I see him. Short??? Is that canon????
Barbara - so when I was younger Barbara was batgirl and ran around a lot but now she's in a wheelchair so I'm assuming there was an accident of some sort that messed up her spine/legs. Librarian and does cool library stuff. The Voice Of Reason (absolute lie).
Stephanie - another batgirl??? Blonde??? The least psychologically damaged of all of them perhaps??? Or just really really good at hiding it???? Very much like Tim re not being talked about as much so I'm assuming her storyline has less drama (read: doesn't actually die and then go off the rails and kill everyone).
Duke - I barely know this man exists I'm not even sure if that's the correct name. I think he might be new. Again seems chill. But what do I know. The mutuals never talk about him.
Cassandra - banging name. Child assassin? Raised to be an assassin? Murder parents???? Doesn't want to murder??? Sad about it all??? Emo girl?????? All I know about her is vibes I'm so sorry but the vibes seem cool.
Damien - actual son of Batman, literally related to him. Doesn't know how contractions work. Weird little kid should probably learn to hyperfixate on dinosaurs or something it would do him good. Hates other people. Shorter than Tim. Also wants to commit murder.
I am convinced there's another? There's another batboy of some sort??? But I can't for the life of me remember????? I'm so sorry
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Hey I was always wondering what made Magi to be one of your favourite anime’s and how did Sinbad become your comfort character so much so that you made a fic about it?
Love Sindria’s Prophet
I went into a bit of this here where I talked about my favorite arcs in the franchise.
Here's the full version:
How Magi came into my life UwU:
Me and Lyly started watching Magi independently around the same time. Our mom had just died and I was having a ton of issues with theft in the Miraculous fandom, so we were both looking for something new. A friend recommended Magi to me saying that Morgiana had a similar name to me and acted like me. (She's very autistic with PTSD coded.) I found out about halfway through season 1 that Lyly was also watching it because they messaged me "Sorry about the purple guy." They took one look at Sinbad and knew I'd fall for him. I'd even say they were more into Magi than me at the start though since they had already been hyper fixating on different translations of 1000 Arabian Nights for several months.
We watched it separately, and together. We spent a ton of time analyzing the characters, world, and story. It's rare to see an anime centered on the middle east, and the magic systems worked with physics instead of against it so there was a lot to explore. We agreed that Sinbad and Ja'far's dynamic was a lot like ours; it was like looking at the two of us if we had managed to break out of the abusive situation we were stuck in much sooner. Our free time became us talking about what we might be like in that world, and what our adventures would be like. Then Lyly found The Adventures manga and it just gave us more to talk about and explore. Sadly, the differences between the Adventures manga and anime were to great for Lyly and it broke their hyperfixation on the franchise. They still like it, but their engagement ended there; they haven't finished either manga, but they do let me talk about it at nauseum.
Why Sinbad became my main comfort character:
I know I mentioned in an ask before that Yunan is technically closer to my type than Sinbad, but Sinbad is the pattern I keep repeating -especially when it comes to anime crushes. I really like the Prince & Gentle types, but they have to have Main Character Competence TM. Gorgeous, confident, kickass, and kind when it matters. For some reason that means I keep ending up attracted to characters that are revealed to be flirts. I swear I thought Sinbad was just a competent moron teacher type when I fell for him. Even though he was a bit egotistical he was also very compassionate for the people around him, and -at least in the Balbadd arc- seemed willing to help the next generation instead of forcing his ways onto them. (He was impressed Alibaba's solutions even though they were different than his, and respected Alibaba for making them.)
Even after finding out that Sin was a womanizer, I saw that he was attentive to those he is using, and when he is done with them it's obvious, so his targets get a clean break. My Ex was a coward that refused to end things himself even when he was done with me. So while I was going through the breakup, I hyperfixated on Sinbad harder because he treats his partners better than I was. Even if I fell for Sinbad's manipulation, I knew that he'd treat me right while he needed me, and when he would be done with me he'd send me off and stop talking to me. I wouldn't be dragged around by my nose for months when I was going through one of the hardest times of my life. Sinbad is never shown flirting with someone in a bad mental place, anyone like that he would help heal (which could just be more manipulation, but he'd still be helping them get back on their feet).
And then I read Adventures. Sinbad's childhood put him through severe parentification like me. And in the the Slave Arc Sinbad went through more similar abuse to what I grew up in. There was no going back for me. I related to Sinbad so much at the start because how he responds to stressors is the same as me, so seeing him also have a past similar to mine made me feel seen in a way I hadn't felt before. It also explained why Sinbad seemed so trauma informed from the beginning.
Here's an exert from my current draft of Ch38 that explains how I felt:
When I had originally read this arc, it carved Sinbad into my heart. It made me think, 'This person would understand me.'
(Mori is working on Fate scrolls in the scene. Honestly, I'm happy I finally have a place to put this scene. I originally wrote it nearly a year ago.)
The biggest difference between me and Sinbad was that I grew out of my illusions of grandeur through middle and high school. It went hand and hand with realizing that what I was going through was abuse. I only had one person to protect, not a whole country's worth. Who knows, maybe if I was under that much pressure I would have slipped back into it like how Sinbad did after Zepar's dungeon arc. I know I some times get close when things get bad. The confidence it brings can be both addicting and reassuring when you need to be able to make quick or life changing decisions.
But yeah... I hope that answered your question in enough detail :3
Thank you for liking Sindria's Prophet so much! I'm finally working on the art for Ch37. It will probably only have maybe 3 art pieces, but 2 of them will be comics so I think that's okay.
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