On September 16th, I met my best friends for the very first time.

So I watched this one horror... film? Would you call a feature length twitch vod reupload on youtube a film? Whatever, I think it should count. I watched this horror film last night and it's been sticking with me, giving me feelings and all that. "the gmod stream" it's called. Warning if anyone wants to watch it, the video contains sudden flashing lights and loud noises. Honestly it could probably have done without the loud audio.

It's basically a vod of a stream where three people streaming one by one become corrupted by something. There's some creepypasta to go with it and some creepy glitchy visuals. It's not the most incredible work, I've seen better small indie horror art pieces on twitch and youtube before but I think it's very good. It gave me a specific vibe I enjoy seeing in horror, speficially that feeling of discomfort you get at watching a situation that you know is only going to get worse and the people who could stop it don't know to stop it.

Now it's weird because while watching it I didn't really care much about the paranormal elements (they were still neat but not what I focused on). What grabbed me was the shifting dynamics between the people acting on stream. The way that, when their friends gradually become more off, more out of character or weirdly cruel with no explanation, the others' reactions were, just, very genuine. They empathized with the odd behavior, wrote it off as a bit, played along, tried to ask if everything was going okay, opened up to them more and just genuinely seemed very distressed that they couldn't reach them. They never got angry, frustrated yeah, but never vocally angry.

literally up to the last moment the last "normal" one of the three is still trying to reach out and ask why their friends are acting so cruel towards them. It's distressing and heartbreaking and it just hit me in a really specific way.

So yeah, just felt like I needed to get these feelings down on digital paper. It's a decent watch of you have the hour and a half to spare. Just know going in that a lot of it is watching and listening to a mundane stream... also, the aforementioned warning about loud noises and flashing lights. I legit had to turn down my headset a couple times.

The video:

Redman's Lament

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we will be together soon.

you know, it's funny, I watched this earlier with a friend, and it did leave me with... uneasy feelings of dread, but I was also confused

unsure what to think.

but that being unsure what to think has like.... caused it to stick in my mind. i'm up at 3AM after posting stuff thinking about it still.

I think I'm definitely gonna give it a rewatch when I've actually slept

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A quick drawing based off a perfectly normal gmod stream and the creepypasta connected to it

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this gmod shit is lame, call me when they announce another Church Of Kong stream

redman's lament

thinks about how it took the invention of generative AI voice cloning for gamers to understand the appeal of fanfiction. and they used it to make dr. breen and dr. kleiner argue about what-a-burger (which, to be clear, is based).

""old"" half-life fans:

wow that sounds wild. wonder when hl3vrai is gonna drop /j

hl3vrai is gonna just be better call saul vr

the people who were really dickish in either direction must be feeling soooo silly right now