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xxbrightshadowxx · 5 months

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Trolls Band Together Review

Huh. Didn’t think I’d be doing this. But here we are. I watched the new trolls movie on Saturday and have rewatched three times on ‘legal’ sites to see how I felt about it.

And I give it, a 7.3/10. Now while that doesn’t sound the best, my ratings go like this.

0-Toy Story 4

.5-This is the worst piece of shit I have ever seen

1-who thought this was a good idea

1.5-this is fricking terrible

2-this is a bad movie

2.5-I can see the vision but the writing is terrible

3-if you squint, you can see one good thing about this film

3.5-this is the type of film where, you have to get drunk to enjoy

4-not good but not terrible

4.5-I feel nothing towards this movie

5-mediocrity at its finest

5.5-this is a decent movie

6-not bad

6.5-I enjoyed this more then I should

7-This is an enjoyable movie I’d be willing to watch it multiple times

7.5-This is a good movie

8-Probably will obsess over this movie for a while

8.5-this is a great movie

9-This a fantastic movie, holy sh-

9.5-This will be on my top five

10-this is a masterpiece aka Toy Story 3

Now that you know that the rating is good, let me now talk about why I feel like I like this movie.

Cons

Let’s get the negative out of the way before. Quick warning, there will be spoilers so if you haven’t seen the movie and want to, go watch it before my review. Now that’s out of the way, the cons

I’m going to be honest I have a few minor flaws for example: some of the dialogue is a bit off and could’ve been fixed without changing much, the whole talk about Branch and Poppy getting married could’ve been cut, I found Tiny Diamond flat, but these are just personal pet peeves.

I also had a small problem with the ending there’s nothing bad about it but Branch having been in another band doesn’t make sense since he became emo depressed when he was a small baby. And if you wanna say that he joined a band before his grandma died when he was still a baby that still doesn’t make much sense. And if you wanna argue that he joined after the first movie, you can’t tell me poppy didn’t find and if she did, that would lead her to know about BroZone’s.

My real problem is the Poppy’s long lost sister reveal. This section of the movie dragged out for so freaking long. Viva, while interesting, feels so out of place. They took like almost more then twenty minutes of screen time where I feel like it could have been devoted to more Brozone family bonding to make it so when we had the third act breakup more heartbreaking. While you could argue that they needed Viva and Gretchen and the king(I can’t remember his name) in the movie to help Poppy and Branch, you really are going to tell me that Poppy and Branch couldn’t find a different method to get on the boat?

Overall, the biggest problem I have is that I wish they cut Viva out of the movie, simply to tighten up the pacing and to create more time for Branch to get along with his brothers and for to see more of his brothers’ flaws so we could’ve built up to a more dramatic fight scene. If you still want the scene with Gretchen and Viva and the king, then I feel like it should’ve been a short. I personally think that it would’ve worked better as a short where the bergen king and queen went on a honeymoon and witness the damage the Bergens did to the trolls.

Pros

Each movie has its cons and pros and this movie had a decent amount of pros. I’m going to let you guys on a secret. I watched the Wish movie, and I don’t have any major problems like I did with this movie. Do you wanna know what I rated it? 4.5/10. Why did I rate it lower than this movie? Because unlike Wish, I had so much fun with this movie.

This movie was investing and fun and the rule for me is if a movie is so fun that I can ignore some dumb things it does for the first and second watch, then it will automatically get a 4/10 for me.

So other pros? The humor was decent, nothing that me laugh out loud, but some made me smile and I was SO glad to know that there was no poop or fart jokes. I also loved the character designs of Branch’s brothers. (Especially Floyd for…reasons) they look a look like him but the same time don’t which is exactly how me and my sister look.

I also look how depending on which creature we are interacting with, the props that, that character has, matches a different vibe. When we meet Brandy, Spruce’s extremely tall wife, the props such as the cookies look plastic and childlike. That also goes for her design and her kids design. Everything looks as if a 4-6 year old played with it and had unrestricted access to glitter glue. The same goes to the trolls. Everything is whimsy and cheesy, just like they are. Poppy’s scrap book and their homes really shows how small and outdated they are compared to the other creatures. This also applies to Velvet and Veneer. They give 80’s vibes and look so different compared to the other characters. Even though they look like a different artist designed each of the creatures, they all work and look great together not out of place.

Speaking of Velvet and Veneer, I loved them as villains. Not only do they have a good motive that’s not a sad backstory nor they want to just be more evil for no reason, they are iconic. I love their one liners and how stretchy they are. While they couldn’t sing at all, they were gorgeous and I love how they aren’t exactly alike. Veneer reminds me of that one meme of “I can excuse racism but I draw the line at animal cruelty” except replace racism as torture and kidnapping and replace animal cruelty as killing.

Another part I like is Poppy. Not gonna lie I found Poppy slightly annoying in the first movie. But she was funny, sarcastic, and was street smart. However, in the second movie she was so unbearable. Not to mention her and her relationship drama with Branch was boring in the second movie.

In the third she was so much more fun and I didn’t wanna gouge my eyes out when she was being optimistic. It wasn’t over the top and it was helpful in helping Branch. Speaking of Branch, the moment they share when Branch is leaving his brothers is so cute. I’m so glad they didn’t decide to have a third act break up with Poppy with Branch. It was so much more refreshing and it made me find the ship so much more sweeter.

My last pro is the music. While the Trolls movies just do covers, they are damn good at doing covers. Especially when they sang to stop Velvet and Veneer. I loved the beginning and you can never go wrong with Justine Timberlake. He has my favorite vocals out of all the cast.

In conclusion, this movie was by no means ground breaking or brilliant. But this was a good movie and I enjoyed it a lot.

Thank you for me Ted-talk.

#trolls #trolls band together #trolls 3 #branch #poppy #velvet #veneer #movie review #brozone #i have opinions

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luverofralts · 1 year

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Arkhelios Adventures

"Bellamy's Twikkii Island inspired Family Restaurant. What do you want? I mean, how can I help you?"

Theo rolled his eyes, barely listening to the voice on the other end of the phone. It was Saturday and Adam had invited him to spend time in Pleasantview with his family, which Theo would much rather be doing. Instead, his parents had insisted that he come home for the weekend as scheduled to help with the opening of Roman and Adrian's new joint venture. Business had been slow, staff hadn't shown up and they were losing money. Theo had been appointed to greet guests and answer the phone, a task he resented. Barely anyone called the restaurant and the few that did had complicated requests that Theo wasn't sure how to navigate. So when Theo couldn't understand or hear a customer, he simply hung up. He wasn't getting paid for this shift anyway. His father had told him that it would be his way to repay the family some of the expensive tuition they spent on his schooling and Adrian had uncharacteristically remained firm as well.

A sudden crash tore Theo's attention from the phone and he quickly hung up the phone to investigate.

Damien Hydes was busy cringing and trying to fish salad from a well dressed visitor to Arkhelios. Theo had seen him talking to Aunt Wanda before, using the name Maricourt in their conversation. The Maricourts were a famously powerful line of witches and warlocks from all over the globe. They were powerful and smart and dangerous, and Adam just happened to have Maricourt blood in his veins too.

Theo often wondered about what his and Adam's kids would look like if they got together. With a warlock for one parent and a demon studying blood magic for the other, their kids would be the stuff of legends. Pretty cute too, if they took after Adam. Would Theo keep his last name when they got married? He was technically the heir to the Bellamy estate in Arkhelios, but if Adam wasn't interested in that, he could always pass the title to one of his little sisters. Theodosius Ulysses Maricourt had a certain ring to it. No, Theodosius Ulysses Maricourt-Darktide. That was better. Their first kid could have Bellamy as a middle name so Great Grandma Malika didn't burst out of Adrienne's Ouija board and murder them for leaving the Bellamy name in the dust.

"I'd like a table for two please."

Theo snapped abruptly out of his fantasy and back to the cold reality where he wasn't married to his best friend. His great-aunt Darcy was staring at him expectantly for some reason.

"What?"

"I'd like a table for two, Theo," Darcy repeated, looking annoyed. "It's date night for your uncle and I, and we really want to support your father."

Her husband is named Adam. It must be nice to be able to say "my husband, Adam". This is my boyfriend, Adam. I'm Adam's partner.

"Theo? Do you have a table for us? I can seat myself if it's too hard to sort out."

Theo blinked, snapping back to reality for the second time in two minutes.

"There’s a table over there," Theo replied, gesturing broadly towards a row of booths. "You can try over there if you want."

"Another order is up!" Tennyson announced, inspecting a cup to ensure it was clean. Working with Roman was a bit of a side hustle for Tennyson, who mostly wanted to stay on the good side of the rich Bellamy family. If this job didn’t work out, it was no big deal. It was good to see the Hydes boy out as well. His twin brother was away at school while Damien chose to remain in Arkhelios.

Roman nodded and added the new order to the list of orders he was juggling already. Cooking and baking for his family was one thing. It was a lot more hectic preparing meals for strangers on demand.

"Okay, this one should be ready to go," he replied, passing a plate to Damien to serve. "Try not to drop this order too. We only have so many plates."

"Theo, have you seen your sister lately?"

Theo barely looked up from the phone he was suddenly clinging to. Adrian probably wasn't there to yell at him, but Theo had more pressing concerns to deal with. After getting bored of working, he had summoned the courage to call Adam just to chat. Adam hadn't hung up even after they'd exhausted every topic they could think of and talking to him was a much more enjoyable way to pass the time.

"Which one? I have a billion sisters between you and Evren and Dad," he replied snarkily. "How am I supposed to keep track of them? You're the grown-up."

Adrian sighed, pinching his nose and focusing his attention on not strangling the teenager who had made it clear that he didn't want to be there.

"Saturnia. Have you seen Saturnia?" he asked. When Theo shook his head, Adrian sighed again and walked away to continue his search for Roman's daughter. The twins and Fiolett were accounted for and Abe was being babysat along with Adrian and Evren's boys, leaving only Saturnia.

"Saturnia? Where are you?"

Adrian's search ended quickly, having spotted the missing child outside, entertaining something that shouldn't be hanging around food and hungry guests.

Tabitha Durant, or perhaps Tabitha Chun to be generous to the woman who had stolen away Ian Chun from Elaine, was standing, groaning repeatedly at the child. After his own brush with death, zombies were the creatures Adrian hated most to come across. Witches and demons were attractive and powerful, while zombies were powerless and uncomfortable to even look at. Tabitha had technically been Saturnia's step grandmother in life, but to imagine leaving the girl alone with a walking body of rotating flesh was unthinkable.

"Saturnia! Come here, it's not safe!"

While Adrian took off after Theo's little sister, the teen returned his focus to his phone call.

"Sorry Adam, my stupid step-father thinks I should know where my hoard of siblings are at all times."

To his horror, there was no reply. The dial tone haunted Theo's ears. Adam had hung up on him. Adam hadn't been able to wait for Theo to answer his step-father. Adam was bored of him.

Theo cringed, trying not to panic. Surely he had accidentally hung up or the line was dead for the entire block. Someone probably ran their car into the phone network box on the street outside. That was definitely better than Adam hanging up on him.

"Theo? How's your shift going now? I saw your stepdad yelling at a zombie outside, so we can talk, right?"

Theo's heart skipped a beat and threatened to stop altogether.

"Adam? You're here?"

Thank whatever god or mystical force that allowed witches to teleport in the blink of an eye. After their conversation had been interrupted once again by the business of running a restaurant, Adam had come to see his friend in person. Theo blinked and tried to think of something cool to say. He blinked again, completely blanking on how to speak when Adam smiled at him.

"Hi." It was lame, but at least it was a word.

"I was hoping to get a table here," Adam said kindly, seeing that Theo's brain was slowly trying to reboot itself and failing. "You're welcome to join me if you want."

Dinner with Adam? He's asking me to dinner? As friends or is this a date? It's probably just out of pity for having to stay here and help. He's such a good friend, that's all this is.

"Yes. I'll find something," Theo promised before being cut off by Adam wrapping his arms around him in a hug. He honestly thought he might die of the complicated feelings rushing to his head.

"Great, it's always good to eat your dad's cooking. Mine is the worst at it, despite being a potion master. I'm sure he won't mind me charging a dinner to him that's actually worth eating."

#sims 2 #arkhelios #arkhelios adventures #tabitha durant #theo bellamy #sim: theo bellamy #saturnia bellamy #sim: saturnia bellamy #sim: Adam Darktide #adam darktide #damien hydes #adrian siew #sim: adrian siew #darcy mishra

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chaoticfandomthot · 4 months

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Ep 14 mouse thoughts

- called the bong yi not saying anything and also the mu chi misdirection

- i fear if he stays close to his friends he'll end up killing one of them but if he tries to separate himself he'll fall deeper into yo han's brain

- Choi PD that was kind of stupid af of you ngl

- ah unless it was a trap/test FOR ba reum.. still stupid but smart stupid yknow

- im having the 'i could fix him' urges towards ba reum ill be honest

- okay this is cute af but so so so so sad i hope the dad was able to come to the wedding (HE WAS!! YIPPEEEE!!)

- i.. enforcing that him killing people is a good thing is stressing me out i'm scared of how it'll affect him long term (if he gets to have a long term)

- the aunt.. she knows.. she going to the us cause she knows..

- ba reum giving the cat away feels like a good thing for the poor kitten but i'm scared it might be a further loss of control but im glad the kitten can be safe but i have so many conflicting thoughts

- ..'she can fix me...' ...ba reum.. no...

- this would be better if she wasnt a highschooler when they met and there wasn't the 'i'll marry her when she comes of age' i can't root for them together

- NO DANIEL YOU'RE REALLY REALLY NOT DOING THE RIGHT THING BUT IT'S A BIT LATE ISNT IT YOU STUPID BITCH

- aaah fuck the kid will die or have very important evidence fr fr

- AMAZING SATURDAY??? I hear kibum💕

- were the other guys just training?? 필요없어?? Daniel is bad news bad news bad news

- i feel like that target was really important tho..

- yo talk to that grandma she knows things for sureeeee

- i mean it feels like it's the meat truck guy but it seems a bit too straightforward?

- i mean okay then

- Chi kook! The shot was really weird and a bit ominous.. worried...

- okay so he's using the grandma as cover, he probably killed her cat which is the one she carried around and the keys are either for trophies or-

- okay so for evidence of bigger crimes

- OH ISNT THAT THE GIRLFRIEND?? THAT'S SUPPOSEDLY ABROAD??

- the concept of identifying killers by dna never fails to piss me off because it assumes people can be born killers and never have the choice to not be one and no one kills vulnerable people unless they were 'born this way' but this show is too good for me to stop watching

- BA REUM HIDE YOUR FACE OMFG YOU NEVER KNOW DON'T TAKE STUPID RISKS

- oh he had time? I'm glaf but also please stop before you can't anymore ba reum

- damn ba reum is quick af??? (Kinda hot)

- ba reum.. don't act dumb when you were previously sooooo fast to understand it's suspicious

- i feel like he'll believe he's getting better only to fall deeper

- mu chi my poor mid 40s baby boy

- not the sibling adoption😭😭😭 break my heart more will you

- wtf. Why is that necklaxe there??? The scar?? The brain can't replicate that but it can't be him?? It was before the surgery??

- WHAT???!???? HOW?!??!?

-no. No he didnt. He wouldnt. It cant be him. It was before. It was before. It cant be him. Please its not him. Please he wouldnt. No no no no no no non on ono no no no no no no no no come on no please.

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#mouse #aiden originals #kdrama #마우스

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chubbycutegirl · 11 months

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Trigger warnings ⚠️

Cancer

Injury

Surgery

So I'm going to try blogging every week about little and big things. Try is the keyword here, who knows how this will go.

So recently we found out my aunt was very sick, she has stage for breast cancer that spread to her bones.

I got to visit her this past Saturday in the hospital, and to my surprise she is doing better than I thought she would. I thought she was going to be on her deathbed, but as always she was fighting. I wouldn't say she was comfortable it was obvious she was uncomfortable, but she was able to hear us to squeeze my sisters hand and make eye contact with us. I'm hoping and praying she recovers. I have a good feeling she can pull out of this.

About a month ago I hurt my right knee (not the wrong knee) in hapkido. We were doing this jumping excercise, and my leg went to far out my knee popped and I fell to the ground.

Since the incident my knee has hurt a little. I would say it's consistently at a 3 out of 10. Which isn't all that bad just more annoying than anything else. I saw my orthopedic on Tuesday May 30th. He told me he is suspicious of a torn ACL. Which to me would make sense because I haven't been able to do everything since the incident. I get an MRI on this upcoming Tuesday to see what all is going on. If it is a torn ACL that will require surgery to fix it.

The idea of surgery does not bother me. If it will help me get back to 100% sooner put me under the knife. Just assure me I'll wake up from it. Of course I will its an outpatient surgery that only takes an hour, so it isn't a huge deal.

I actually looked up how the surgery is done and it really isn't all that complicated. And this is where the surgery trigger warning applies itself, so if anyone is reading who gets bothered by surgery this is your place to stop reading.

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They make 3 incisions on the knee 1 for a small camera and 2 for the tools. They remove the torn ACL and shave down the bone in order to prepare it for the "new" ACL. they then drill a hole through the femur and the tibia that way they can insert the "new" ACL there and they will stretch it as much as a normal ACL is. They place a button on one end and a screw in another to keep the ACL in place. The screw is biodegradable so it will eventually just become part of the bone. Then after that they stitch you up.

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Okay for all of those who don't like surgery talk you can continue reading from here. This surgery does not bother me. However, my grandmother had issues with general anesthesia I can't remember exactly what it was besides she couldn't wake up on her own afterwards. Both my parents are okay with regular anesthesia so I shouldn't have to worry about that. I still do though because what if that skips a generation and next thing I know I wake up a long time later. What if I wake up alone in the hospital or surgical center.

Another thing is I just learned that Ehlers Danlos Syndrome runs on the paternal side of my family. My grandpa had it my uncle and his daughters have it and my father has it.

For those who are unsure what this is. Here is what Google says in simple terms is this:

Ehlers-Danlos syndrome (EDS) is a group of genetic disorders that affect the connective tissues. Connective tissues are proteins, such as collagen, that provide elasticity and support to the joints, blood vessels, and skin. Most children with EDS have hypermobile joints that are prone to full or partial dislocation.

So this could be an explanation as to why a fall could leave me hurt a month later. If I have this I don't have a severe case of it because I would have been hurt a lot worse a lot sooner in my life.

So you know a lot of stuff happened this week/month. Hopefully I'll get some answers on Tuesday and get this all figured out. Also I will make the doctors aware of what happened to my grandma under general anesthesia and that Ehlers Danlos Syndrome runs in my family.

~Chubby Cute Girl

#Chubby Cute Girl #fuck cancer #breast cancer #ehlers danlos awareness #ehlers danlos syndrome #what the fuck #acl injury #knee injury #possible surgery #wish me luck

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sunspray-peak · 1 year

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Ch. 24: What-Ifs & What’s Nexts

SATURDAY - SUMMER 20

Between the bath bombs, Gus’ meals, George’s humidifier, and yes—Abigail’s gossip—he’d made a quicker recovery than both he and Harvey had anticipated. Still on the weaker end of things physically, of course—no way he was going to able to do any intense hikes without getting massively winded—but feeling good enough to at least get back into briskly walking, if not jogging, around the town.

Figuring early Saturday morning was as good a time as any, he dragged himself out of bed to head down to the beach for the sunrise, today’s paper in his hand. Salty sea air was good for the lungs, right?

Padding softly across the still-cold grains of sand (which probably were not good for the lungs), he made to take his usual seat close to the ice cream stands when a familiar green letterman down by the shore caught his eye.

Alex must’ve gotten to the beach even earlier. Perhaps a very early morning walk with Dusty, who was sniffing around the waves.

“Alex!” Achilles called, walking over. As he approached, he could hear a trace of tinkling music below Dusty’s greeting howls.

The boy looked up and returned the wave, though, Achilles noticed, with less enthusiasm than the former swimmer typically gave. “Hey, Achilles.”

Achilles took a squat next to Alex and gave Dusty a pat on the head. The tinkling tune was coming from a small silver music box by Alex’s feet where two tiny swans, necks bent to form a heart shape, rotated smoothly on a turntable in the center of an engraved platform.

“Hey, you feeling better? I’m guessing you’re not here for a swim lesson.”

“You guessed correctly. No longer indisposed, I am, thank you for the humidifier and cookies. But yeah, no swimming, unfortunately. Harvey wants me to take it easy for a bit. Just thought I’d get some sea air before the beach gets too crowded.”

“Seems like the beach has really grown on ya.”

Achilles shook his head at the ground, though he’d broken into an easy smile. “Don’t get ahead of yourself, I’m ditching this for Sunspray in a few days…”

Alex nodded wordlessly, and returned to tracing patterns in the sand, while Achilles turned to the day’s crossword. 11 letter word for an “element of 1990s fashion.” Where was Emily when you needed her…

“My mom died 12 years ago today.”

Achilles dropped his pen with a tiny sound of alarm he tried to turn into a cough, but Alex paid him no mind. Or perhaps he simply hadn’t heard the squeal.

“After this year, I’ll have lived longer without her than with her, you know… it’s kind of a weird feeling. I don’t remember too much from before Stardew, but I still remember her pretty well… she’d make salted radish sandwiches for lunch and toss the grid ball with me in the backyard.”

“Salted radish sandwiches?”

“Yeah,” Alex said with a laugh. “Don’t knock it till you’ve tried it.” He leaned back, his hands digging into the sand just as the sun began to bleed into the sky.

“When she got sick… or, I guess, when we sort of knew the end was coming, we came back out here to be with Grandma and Grandpa. She loved being by the beach, so we’d roll out here to watch the sunrise every morning. Sunset every evening. I’d swim in the sea, and she’d laugh, throw the ball back and forth with me and Dusty. All the way up until things got really bad. It’s dumb, but I like to think she held on until after my birthday on purpose…

“She took good care of me… and I, of course, was too young to really say ‘thanks.’” He sighed, scratching under nose in what may have been a subtle attempt to dissuade any tears. The tenor of his voice, however, had remained steady. “And now she’s gone forever.”

Alex slid the music box towards Achilles and gave the little tab at the back a twist. The swans once again began to twirl to the delicate chimes.

“This is the only keepsake I have left of her, you know. And my watch. It’s not much, but, it’s something.” His fingers traced the burnished gold trim.

As the song neared its end, Achilles fiddled with his pen, preemptively anxious to fill the approaching silence but unsure of what to say. He had never been good at these sorts of things. He had been fortunate. Loss like this had never touched him.

“She… sounds like a great woman.”

Dear Yoba, that was stupid.

Achilles attempted to turn his instinctual face palm into a more deliberate motion, rubbing his nose with the pads of his fingers. “All you can do is… your best. To honor her memory.”

Man, that wasn’t much better, you sad bastard.

But Alex laughed in appreciation, though it was light and followed by a heavy sigh that he seemed to draw from deep within the sand. “You know, I always told her I’d go pro. I was convinced I was going to play for the Tunnelers. And before you laugh, let me remind you, I was 10. I mean, ok, you can laugh. My mom laughed. But she’d, like, never put me down or anything. And I must’ve been an annoying little turd, I never shut up about it… but she was always supportive.”

Alex paused to swallow, his Adam’s apple bobbing as he craned his neck to look out across the water at the rising sun.

“I don’t know if I ever told you this—I probably did—but I used to be a swimmer.”

Achilles only nodded.

“It wasn’t grid ball, but I did actually nearly go pro. But it ended up… falling through, kind of… grandma got sick and stuff… I just wish…”

Achilles remembered. Evelyn had gotten ill, then George. Alex had had to quit. Return home.

“I’m sure your mom would still be very proud of you,” he offered. Nice. Safe. Good one.

But Alex turned to look at him, green eyes rolling, skepticism weighing heavily in a delicately cocked eyebrow as he let his head fall dramatically to the side. “You of all people—you come to me on the anniversary of my mother’s death and you just lie to my face like that?”

“What?” He’d been mentally patting himself on the back, and now Achilles was scrambling up from the sand. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

Alex laughed—a genuine laugh, but there was the barest hint of bitterness to it all the same. He shut the music box, still sitting on the shore. “I mean, would you be proud of me? You—I mean, you’re not even satisfied with being a Ferngill Time’s Bestselling author six years in a row. What does it take for you to be proud? To be, I don’t know, satisfied?”

Achilles squirmed. “Well, people are… wired differently, I suppose. Some people are… naturally more ambitious, motivated by their pride—to the point of detriment, might I add—while others…” Are lazy?? Fuck, what are you saying? Stop talking!

“Do you think less of me? Because I’m not like that?”

“What? No.” Achilles’ nose was beginning to twitch… he turned away from Alex and retreated to the water’s edge, hands balled up into fists in his windbreaker’s pockets. The sun had nearly risen above the horizon now. The dawn of yet another unproductive day. “I… wish I was more like you.”

From behind, Achilles heard Alex snort, but the swimmer joined him a few seconds later to stand by the water.

“I wasn’t lying,” Achilles murmured. “I think your mom would be proud of you.”

“What’s there to be proud of?” Alex aimed a small kick at a clump of sand. “Hey, now don’t get me wrong, I’m not… bitter about what happened. Or angry. My grandparents have done a lot for me, and I’ll always be grateful. It’s just… you know. Funny. How things turn out… I think my mom just wanted me to be happy.”

“Are you happy?” It was a loaded question, a heavy one that slipped out.

Alex shrugged. “I don’t think I’m unhappy. I like my job, I like my coworkers, I like my friends. I like living in the Valley. I mean, what is there to dislike or complain about in my life, you know? Just sometimes, you know… you can’t help but think about the what-ifs. What if my dad hadn’t been a piece of shit? What if my mom hadn’t died? What if my grandma hadn’t gotten sick? What if my grandpa hadn’t been in a wheelchair?

“All my—what was the fancy word you used?—ambitions? Goals? They’ve always gotten blown up by something or another, and I guess I’ve just learned it’s better to just let life happen to you.”

It was the complete opposite ideology that Achilles had been raised and lived his life by—better to let life happen to you? What-ifs, instead of what’s nexts? How—what—why—

Once again, Alex, who had been watching a whole medley of vaguely nauseated emotions flit across Achilles’ face as it struggled with digesting this unfamiliar philosophy, laughed. “Listen, I know I probably sound like a lazy son of a gun—especially to you—but I don’t know. I’m… fine, I think. With my life. Being a fitness instructor. A lifeguard. Living with my grandparents. You know. Nothing fancy, but that’s fine. And I think my mom would be happy that I’m happy.” He paused. “I just don’t think she’d be proud.”

He stooped to clip Dusty’s leash back onto his collar. The sun had long risen. It was time for Alex to head to Orange Grove.

#llnks #sunspraypeak #stardew fanfic #stardew alex #alex stardew valley #stardew valley fic #sdv oc #sdv farmer #stardew valley oc #my fic #sdv fanfic

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pbandjesse · 2 years

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I am so tired. I am shocked at how much body aches right now. Thankfully I slept really well last night and I hope that I can sleep really well again because I have a very long day tomorrow as well. And a long day after that on Saturday. I'm so exhausted.

But it was so much better today. Everything. I woke up and I wasn't really in pain anymore. I had to stretch a little bit because it was hard to wake up at 6:30. I hate waking up in the dark. And I didn't even wake up from my alarm I woke up 2 minutes before my alarm was supposed to go off just in a panic. I wasn't sure if it was the middle of the night or time to get up and I got out of bed and realized that it was fine. So I got up and went and got dressed. James was being very loud in the kitchen. But they were cooking and they made me a breakfast sandwich. And they had cut all of the cinnamon rolls in half so that I can bring them to share with everyone at work. And it was so good. Everything today just was wonderful.

My drive out to camp was fine and I got there right on time. And I had group two but everything took so much longer today than I think anyone expected. we were all supposed to get there early so that we could practice the water test stuff. And that ended up being totally fine and not a big deal. We collected all of our things and started going to our areas to make sure things were set up. And then we were supposed to be back at the lodge to get them at 9:00. But at 8:45 no one was at the lodge. And so we called Elizabeth and she called the head teacher and he said that everyone was packing up at the cabins. So we were going to push it back to 9:15.

That's totally fine so I started walking back to my station so I could walk my wagon down. And ended up running into a couple parents. And we talked for a while. One of them was the dad of the kid that was really awful to me yesterday. And he just said that he is just like that and they're working on it. The dad was a really nice guy. And the other dad that was there ended up being the dad in my group today. And they were the most excellent group. That dad, and the other dad that was there and the grandma, were were so excellent that they just really made the day possible for me. Like it blew me out of the water how great they were.

But no one was ready at 9:15. I got over there at about 9:17 and everyone was still outside and acting wild. We didn't end up getting our kids until almost 9:30. And then half of them were still in the bathroom so we didn't end up leaving the lodge until almost 9:50. And it was fine with me because honestly two hours is too long for the project that we were doing. And while an hour and a half probably would have been better for how engaged the kids were. I was great with what we had.

I took the kids down to the Glen and they were just so excited to be there. And because the dads were so on point with getting them to listen I had no problem getting through the science. Honestly I felt way more confident than I thought I was going to. And they all worked on their little whiteboards and we tested the water for pH and nitrates and turbidity. And they all got to try something and write down all their results and compare. And it was just so nice. The one dad helped by going down into the pond to collect the water. And we all got to go ew because it was so black. It just had a lot of sediment in it and rainwater runoff.

And I just had so much fun. I wish every group could have chaperones that were that engaged. Honestly a few times they were a little overengaged because they were talking more than I was. But I would usually find a place where they took a breath where I could jump in and finish my thought. And overall it was fine I didn't really mind. And the kids were having such a good time. Once we got to the second half of the program where we were just collecting stuff I kind of just went off and collected things that I thought they would think would be interesting as well. Because in our area we weren't finding fun things like salamanders so instead I found berries and interesting mushrooms. One of the kids found a baby dragonfly. It's called a bar something. I don't remember the actual name. But it was very cool to see. I used Google lens to figure out what it was. Which was one of my favorite tools to use today because we were able to figure out what a lot of stuff they found was. It was a really good time.

After that we took a bathroom break and then we went to do ground elements. They struggled with a few of the parts but once they really understood what they were supposed to do and working together they really got it. A lot of the help was from the one dad and he was a veteran. I'm not sure where he served but he definitely served at some point. He talked about it a few times. And he was just so good at giving them instructions on how to work together. I'm more of the let him try and fail until they figure it out kind of teacher with the stuff so it was really interesting to see someone really walk them through it. My fear with that kind of thing is that they're going to get the answer to heavily and then we're going to have so much time to fill. But honestly he did a great job and all of the kids did a really good job too and it was just a lot of fun.

So by the time we were done we actually ran into lunch. Because we were having so much fun. And then we all walked together and one of the dads pulled the wagon for me. Which was very nice of him and I kept telling him he didn't have to. And it came up about James being non-binary. And both him and the grandma didn't know what that was and I said something about not being super comfortable calling James my husband because they don't use gender pronouns. And they were fascinated. They made the same jokes about not understanding what a pronoun was that you hear from people all the time. But then they just had like beautiful questions and they were really curious. And they obviously really wanted to learn and understand what I was saying. And they kept saying that they were grateful that I was willing to answer the questions for them. And it was really nice to be able to explain to someone the difference between sexuality gender and gender presentation. Because I think so often people that aren't in that space don't understand that those things are different. And sometimes I'm even shocked that there is so much conflation between those things. Like they didn't understand if James could have kids because they're not binary. Because they assumed it had something to do with either asexuality or infertility. And then when I said that I was bisexual they were like but you're with one person. And they were very shocked when I said I would probably never cheat on James because of that. And they were just so funny. But they really seemed open to the idea and I thought that was really nice and I hope that they bring that into the rest of their world. And there's just a little bit more acceptance of what that is and that made me really happy.

I had my lunch on the porch and then I went to go find Elizabeth. Her and Nick were back at the lodge helping get everyone out of there and just having sandwiches. The group didn't leave until almost 1:30 so me and Elizabeth didn't get started with our Native American stuff until almost an hour later. So during that hour I sat and talked with Nick about the wedding for a while. He really had such a big smile on his face and seemed really excited about all the stuff I had to say. And that felt really good. It was nice talking through the whole wedding with someone who really didn't know anything about it except for some of the very early planning from the summer. And then I went to go check out the Erie to start going through all the materials for the field trip tomorrow.

Honestly I really could be better prepared. I know just enough about different Native American tribes and practices and customs. But not really enough to like fake it. And I hate to say that. I don't want to say that I'm faking anything at any given time. But with the science center and the BMI if someone asks me a question I can usually make an educated guess and get somewhere around the right answer. I don't know enough about specifics of Native American tribe culture to really answer things. And I want to. But it's going to take time. The person that I'm taking over this position from was doing it for 27 years. And his knowledge was vast but it was also very culturally insensitive. And I'm hoping to bring more real knowledge to it if that makes sense. Going through all the materials was really interesting though. We're looking at Native American history from 2000 years ago. And that's crazy to me. We're looking at very primitive. And there's just so much.

And there were so many supplies. I got a little overwhelmed. In the hour I was waiting for Elizabeth I ended up pulling everything out of the building and organizing it into the places it was supposed to go. There are six sites over camp. The Hogan, the long house, the chickee, The Pueblo, the art building, and The Lodge. And it is just a lot. And I was too afraid to drive the Gator today because I've never done it alone so I insisted on using my wagon and bowling these materials all over camp. I got thousands of steps in today I'm sure. But I figured out where most things went. I did get a little upset and overwhelmed at one point and was texting James just all angry. But once Elizabeth came over I realized I really had done it and was fine. And I was stressed for no reason because I basically had everything. I only took one box to the wrong place and so once we got that back everything was okay. I'm going to really try to sort these boxes better because if I'm going to be the one doing these for the most part I really need to just have exactly what I need in these boxes and nothing else. Because there was a lot of stuff we are not using in them. And a lot of stuff that needs to be repaired. So I'm going to make a point to try to do that and honestly I think it's going to be great. And I will learn more stuff over time and that's really all we can ask for at this point. because Elizabeth has only really taught this program two times and this will be my first.

We were at setting up for quite a few hours. There was just a lot to do. And once we were basically all set up we went back to the office to talk about some stuff and print things and then I headed home. I was a beat. But I had all the extra materials that I needed and all the printouts and stuff and then it was time to go home.

And it was a very very long drive. Because there was an accident. And the GPS took me off the highway and completely took me on the back roads but it was actually a really nice drive and the sun was not in my face the entire time.

When I got home I brought everything and James was making us texmex. Which was good but I do not like corn tortillas. And I understand why they used it because they were trying to make me a crunchwrap. But it just didn't work the way that I think we were hoping. The corn taste was just very very strong. And I find them a little sour. So it wasn't the best meal but it was fine. And I appreciated the effort.

And then we basically just spent the next hour on the couch because my body just aches so bad. James tried to rub my legs in my feet for a while but it only kind of helped. Sweepy came and laid on top of me and he just melted. And was just fast asleep and snoring in my ear. Which was nice. I love my sweet pea. He slept in my arms last night which was awesome. I wish you would do that more often. And now it's time for me to take a shower and go to sleep. Because I have to do this all over again tomorrow. It's not as long as today, And I don't have to be there as early. But I still have to be there at 8:30 and I am going to have a lot of stuff to do. So wish me luck because it's going to be hard and scary because I'm going to be giving a speech to 80 people. And a speech that I've only read through a few times and I'm not super comfortable with. I'm hoping tonight I'm going to read the Wikipedia page for both tribes that I'm going to be talking about. So at least I'll have a little bit of extra knowledge. But it is still scary.

So wish me luck. I hope you all sleep great tonight. I love you very much. Wash your hands. And good night.

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everyglasswebreak · 4 months

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saturday night swank.

i still am so giddy over all of this. i really had no idea my night was going to go this way.

so last week Ty texted me that our friend Cisco was playing at Elsewhere. there was no "official" invitation. the text simply read "Cisco's playing at Elsewhere". i replied and made up some bullshit story about how i saw but i'm not sure if i'm going yet because i "already had plans," which was a lie lol. but i just don't want to seem too available to him. anyways, he replied that he's gonna try to go after dinner with his grandma. so anyways we agreed to try and go.

we all know Ty's flaky history so i immediately texted Devin and asked if he wanted to go with me. to be fully transparent, whether Ty asked me to go or not, I probably still would have gone with Devin to see if Arlo would actually talk to me or ignore me. so from the beginning i didn't high hopes of running into Ty that night.

saturday night comes quickly and i go to Devin's place to hang out with him and the boys before the show. i made it a point to not tell them that Ty and i were texting about the show because i didn't want to seem like an idiot for putting even more blind faith in him.

i was so nervous before the show. mainly because i had zero faith in Ty coming even though i wanted to see him so bad. and also the weight of seeing a boy who ghosted you after asking for YOUR number being there was getting to be too much.

around 7 pm i received a hint from the universe that the night was going to turn out to be better than i thought. Devin and i walk to this new Japanese place on Starr st. and as soon as i walk in a super pretty black girl looks at me and tells me how pretty i am and how much she loved my makeup and hair. i was shocked and so flattered becasue she was also super fucking pretty with really pretty braids. so little did i know that that would give me the confidence needed to stomach the rest of the night.

Devin changes his mind and we end up going across the street to Artichoke pizza. we drink beers and chat in the window of Artichoke. the entire time i'm trying not to show how frazzled i am. i'm not doing a very good job though. i crack. i tell him about Arlo but still haven't said anything about Ty.

the time has come to check out and walk over to Elsewhere. Once we get there I see Arlo, Vittorio, and Jackson. I feel so out of my element. I mean I looked really cute but just the discomfort of uncertainty and embarrassment was starting to eat me alive. I keep scanning the room to see if he'd pop up yet.

Devin sees his friend Kamari and the three of us stand a chat for a bit at the end of the first opener's set. Arlo is standing caddycorner to me saying hi to two girls. i'm mid small talk with Kamari and I don't want Arlo to see me. He honestly might have already. But I put my hands over my face to act like i was shocked or bewildered by something that Kamari said to i guess signal to Arlo that i'm extremely enthralled in what Kamari is saying so there's no way i could possibly notice him during a conversation like this.

Arlo walks somewhere and Malachi shows up. the first opener has ended, the second opener, yoshitee, has just called his last tune. At this point "reality" is setting in and i'm feeling extremely humbled. i have accepted things as they were: Arlo not worried about me, and I have to stop putting faith into Ty.

as yoshi and Cisco are switching bands, the dj continues and something made me look to my left and there he was. My heart sank. Ty lights up and gives me a hug. I couldn't believe that he was there! We watch the set together, so sexy feeling small next to a tall fine man like him.

Cisco's set ends, Devin dips out, Ty and i go outside to check our phones. We're just chatting a bit and then he tells me that the bass player was flicking Malachi off from the stage the entire show. (2:22). As soon as he says that we hear a fight break out between Malachi and Evan aka 13th Law. Jaylen's standing in the middle trying to break up the fight. Ty and i are frozen in disbelief unsure of what to do. Eventually security comes and kicks Malachi out. That was our queue to go.

right before we tell Jaylen bye, Ty drops a hint that he wants to go to a jazz club after. at this point i am convinced the universe is playing a trick on me. no way he's actually going to show up to something he made a commitment to AND want to hang out after?! Jaylen suggests some clubs to us and we make our way over to the west village (after a break where Ty debated meeting friends in Greenpoint but then decided to ditch them and hang out with me instead).

we take the L to 14th/8ave and while we rode the train together we covered every topic from the genius of MTV's "are you the one" to transformer tattoos. upon getting off the train Ty mentions he's hungry so we walk to his dad's restaurant. of course he knwos everyone there and they seat us at a super romantic circular corner booth in the back of the restaurant.

he orders for us. we talk about our crushes--which we both get interrupted mid spiel. him by the waitress, me by his FAHTER--drank french 75's and pornstar martini's. then his dad suprises us and joins us. i was so excited to meet him. he was intimidating like Max Kellerman. just super new york, nothing deserves that big of a reaction. but he was really nice to talk to and i don't know, something about having now met both of his parents i feel like maybe this will mean something later.

also sidenote: Ty has a kind of girly giggle that i think is so cute and a little high pitched.

after we leave dinner we decided we were both too tired to go to a show so Ty walks me to the train and we talk even more. this time about architectural digest and baseball stadiums. he waits with me for the train and then realizes he has to go to a different platform for his train. we say goodbye. he hugs me right arm wrapped around my shoulders when i'm met with his left arm giving me a gentle pat on my lower back. he tells me to find a jazz show for us to go to together soon.

this made me so happy. i really like him. i'm okay with us being just friends for now. i kind of like being the friend that he hangs out with one on one without his other friends. i don't really care to know them just yet. i also don't care to meet anyone he's interested in. i do think he has a baby crush on me. i pray that we explore that together soon.

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the-firebird69 · 9 months

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There are a lot of people buying campers it's a good idea and people say what do we do so you have people buy them and it's true if you're higher up you have them by enough for your it is and I have a bunch of land and you buy a bunch of PVC and you buy a bunch of CIP and other things and you're trying to get a gravity drain going.

-just one more thing we have about enough patience for about 2 seconds of stuff and everybody knows it and they get nothing it's really bizarre but you know they're under a delusion that they do and Max taught him that stuff over the years and it goes on and on and it does not look good it really doesn't but the genre splits up and it's very helpful what we're doing and Thor and Freya and we're getting assistance from Olympus and others it is very helpful there's some people that are pivotal and getting this done and from the start and a long time ago I wasn't Bill and it was also Stark and Mr Stark and his wife his actual wife and his mistress. And yeah you guys do that a lot ridiculous Tommy F too he has a big mouth. Really we'll make up a little list but we're going to do this contest and I have like a winner on Saturday times square for clans and come up with their theme song for their feet age clan has a fleet they run each clan is like a region or a general and they each have their own song and unfortunately like BG has awesome songs he's got a teeny clan everyone ends up playing the music it's kind of lame yeah.

-there's other things happening it's like an arms race the foreigners are up in another 20 million and the empire is coming to 50 million more than what they had if it's going to be neck and neck but that's a crap load and they're taking up tons of space they're not near our bases but it's a good thing we have them so you can watch them do that

He's going to mosey on to the next venue

Hera

Zues really I'm having a lot of issues they're poking and potting and sending bugs to bite me and itchy and you know I have asking you to Justin all sorts of things constantly but this is making me a little bit happy this change and it is a large change and it's a shift in the paradigm meaning that it is such a large amount of hardware built in such a short time that it's going to have a large impact on the economy I believe it will spurn it on and it will begin I think a better attitude and demeanor in general and it's much needed this is a boost that's really really needed

Zues Hera

And I do appreciate the mention and it is definitely necessary things are going well and they hear from Matthew and he was telling me that it is boosting the economy people are buying things people are feeling better they're buying entertainment items and snack packages and all sorts of things that are online and huge amounts of things from grocery stores and beer and it's going fast and your Brewers will probably do well but there are a lot of necessities being bought and people want to buy cars and more and they have energy for it and optimism I'm looking at it like they've done a great job and in this genre there is the emperor of all mankind and others of the clans what appears to be them it might be a solution as to what's been going on and it looks like they're in some manner of the bunker and our friend says it probably is an imitation brand but he doesn't know it looks like someone takes the existing skull and sets it into an hi system and I thought about that and thought they put it there and took a picture of it and said he's already gone and been doing so it is motivation and I looked at it that way cuz that's what you kind of intimated to some people if you say you are confirming so you going to publish it's very important and we would love getting involved with a lot of fun

Sherry

Yeah I said it looks like Grandma cuz it did looks a lot like her exactly like her and there's a reason for that it might be a problem and there's still some kind of War there we're having a good time there is a lot of things happening that are positive and they are affecting everybody people are very negative here and their farts but they have a plan and they're not being negative and farts because of that it's just that they are losing everything and now they have hope and they're busy and thank God I never hit it eventually that was hell so he's got to go get something for dinner and other things but really what a great job and we do have to get something and it'll be some kind of joint effort but we have to approve it and it's been rack this brain but he doesn't know what the results of things would be social security doesn't seem to be our problem although it looks like it started to fight he's just kind of been on ice with it and they've been missing chicks checks and so forth threatening to be the directory that's going to stop so going to put an effort in and he's taking us but what this could be fun it's a lot funnier than what's going on good God. There's several cosplay events coming up and those are different than comic Con they're all over Miami and there's a couple in Tampa coming up this week and this weekend it is about 50 of them in total but only two in Tampa and our friend here or my grand nephew was saying you should have one of the fisherman's village and at night of course it's way too hot during the day and inside restaurant that you can cool possibly and at the end of Harris you can cool off and have AC and it would be a great place to do that and he can show up at sometime but it's a great place to start off and we'll see how behaviors but boy it's going to happen this week and this weekend starting Thursday day after tomorrow comic cons are not up and running for this but they shall be there's two or three of them and they are going to be going on very soon but he says it's time to start doing things proactively and if there's one out there and it's in Port Charlotte kind of punta Gorda and it's within at the bus distance the bus can take them there believe it or not they take people to events and people it's not nose here and this girl but it would be good to go out there good to start something and it will begin probably on next weekend or something but he says we could arrange it and you can rent it anybody can rent it and bja might he says and of course it would be deserve kind of prevalent here still and that's the place to do it any place for people to check all sorts of stuff out and I was wondering if BG wanted to go and people want his autograph they want BG to autograph things and they want a friend here to autograph things and he's thinking of going there and if your autograph stuff things are starting motion unless people vulnerable all the time would have to do things be very helpful he liked to do that and he sort of has to find the character but he has to do the voice on it but the copied his voice

Mac

I have evidence that says it's his voice and he's saying all the lines so you might want to do that but and I can verify it when we're there but it's kind of funny cuz he might sign it and put Jim underneath and people would like that cuz it's actually his voice

You're fed up with this you people are a bunch of cows stampeding by him to get home or the grocery store it's kind of ridiculous but this is a good idea so I'm going to try and set it up and it has to be on the weekend or nothing nobody will show up and next weekend is way too early but boy by next weekend it's going to be taken off and huge foreigners will be here and everything you always do the Asian version light armor fast swords cuz candy crystals struggle to get there

Mac

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videostak · 11 months

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love that haircut 100 album cause like while a lot of new wave has funk and jazz lil sprinklings on it i love how they just revel in it like i love how lemon firebrigade is literally just a instrumental aside from the lil sung part its soooo goood and especially perfect listening to on LP on my nice sound system ^_^ like glad that i experience the album first on LP b4 picking up a CD i kinda feel awakened to llistening to music on LP now. like just getting real comfy w. it ^_^ also in the morning i was so pissed off just stressed wasnt able to get any sleep really cause of dendy peeing and my room smelling awful and then right after that my dads dog lucas threw up and i cleaned it up and let him out but was just exhausted but after that i relaxed and listened to reach out by burt bacharach and then listened to goldfinger score by john barry and played spartan x while listening to it it worked so well since like spy music and martial arts go well together especially with the games obvious game of death influence so that was fun. also since that game is great. buut it was suuuper relaxing putting burt bacharach on and resting my eyes and falling asleep to it :> gonna rly gonna try to get more records in the future and just have a lot of my fav albums on record and maybe even look for like expensive stuff thats my fav like b2 unit and 70s miles davis and stuff liiiike that. tho also i think from now on im gonna try to listen to everything i buy for the store b4 taking it in. im too lazy at listening to music digitally like on spotify or on yt like i just lag so im gonna try to listen to all the records b4 one to check that they dont skip and two to just get more knowledgee :) abt the world beyond just names n stuff. and three also its good to not just take them immediately after cause lots of time the boss doesnt have cash in his register when i go since its like right after they open so its better for me to wait more towards the middle of the day or second half :) saturdays haul was reallly really gooood and im excited to see how it goes from here on out. especially saturdays where im gonna go to two back to back. regretting i didnt listen to some of those albums i got previously buuut from now ill try to do that and like if things continue for the foreseeable future ill probably run into the same albums i found previously so like ill be able to hear them eventually. this job is rly dope i hope it doesnt end and things get better both for me and the store. cause like ya the pay obv isnt consistent and based on how muhc work i put in which is a nice challenge but obv with its disadvantages so like im hoping i continue to find great stuff and eventually it goes to where i can work in the store again and do both. its fun going w/ my uncle and my grandma but i also hope i can drive there alone i nthe future so idont feel too reliant on ppl and also so that i can go at my own pace n stuff. rn i can definitely drive to and from the one i go to thursdays but the saturdays one are tricky and ill have to look up more on google maps. tho yesterday was soooo goood like i found so much great stuff and felt real proud about my finds ^_^

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bl6ckr0s3 · 1 year

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Tennessee, Our New Home

During the whole road trip to Tennessee, me and Josh stopped in Sun City, AZ to visit his parents for a day. It was always pleasant to be with them and spending time with them. We left California on Mar. 15 evening and went straight to Arizona. We left the very next morning after spending a day there, and drove none stop through New Mexico & Texas until we reached Louisiana. We stopped by to see his biological dad and grandparents for a night. Joshua hasn't seen his grandparents for a decade and his grandma has not really been doing too well with her health, so it was best to see her while she's still around. I was amazed by how beautiful the land they lived on was. It was so beautiful and so foresty there. Of course that's why there's going to be tons of bugs and animals you got to watch out for, but I wouldn't mind living over there. The town of Benton is a very small town so there ain't much going on with live shows or nothing. Bossier City was pretty nice to drive through as we were in that town getting food to eat and getting some necessities from a pharmacy store.

We left the very next morning and continued our drive down through Mississippi. We stopped by Elvis' birthplace and museum in Tupelo as well as the park nearby where he originally played one of his concerts in 1956. Mississippi is beautiful, too. After checking out those historical sites and having lunch at a small burger joint, we continued our road trip through Alabama until we finally reached Tennessee.

The night we arrived in Nashville was on a Saturday night. I'll share my review that I left for the hotel that we originally was suppose to stay at as things got fucked up when we didn't get a chance to check in our rooms that we reserved a month in advance for.

I already began writing a negative review for the Drake Inn motel since this is the place we are currently staying at until we get to a better place. I'm not going to post it until we know for sure we will not have to end up back at this motel because I am currently having mail sent here. This motel is kinda bad as the conditions of the place is not well kept at all, it's entirely outdated and dirty or disgusting to anybody that is staying in this very room we are at.

Josh applied for jobs at 3 places and got a job at the Johnny Cash museum in Downtown. They were paying the same rate and there's some cool perks with his job that probably Graceland wouldn't be able to give. Graceland is where Josh really wanted to work for, but it's not realistic for us as we are currently sharing 1 car and my job right now is here in Nashville. It's only 12 minutes away from the Drake Inn.

I started my new bid with my company just last week. It took almost the whole week for me to get my ID badge. The night I received it, it wasn't activated so I wasn't able to use it for the doors until the next day. I haven't received my time card yet, but I'm happy that I have my ID badge so that I don't have to bug people to help me come in or out of the building. I'm assigned at the RCS 2 machine so this facility still uses these robots. They have talked about it at my old facility as it being ancient and outdated technology. Here in Nashville, they still use them and it's old as hell, but it's kept up in good condition. I dunno how much longer they will be able to continue to use these machines, because there's so much cons to them. They got their LCUS work areas which is where I would rather work. I hate working this machine because the trays of mail will jam easily such as when trays are properly strapped down, or overloaded with letters and the letters will come out or spill out or fall over, the 1/2 trays will turn sideways or the wrong way and won't be read correctly, and I would have to keep watch on the top rolls where trays travel and to make sure to clear any jams up there if they are not moving.

Mail Handlers here are able to use scanners. I have to make sure the labels are scanned and closed out when we dispatch the outgoing mail by 2:30am. People normally take their 30 min lunch break by 3am. Since i'm on this machine, I can't take my break like I use to. I'm pretty much stuck on the machine majority of the time and I don't use my head set for music since I have to be fully alert for the sounds from the machine when there are jams that I gotta fix or clear. The place is pretty regular sized and not huge like what I was use to. I know where to go to get a scanner, I know that the main break room is right by the entrance/exit doors. I still need to find out where the union office is. The guy never answered me back about whethere there is a union rep on tour 1 available. They post up bids on their wall monthly so that's where I'm gonna start looking for better bids so I can bid out of the machine area. It's really boring and miserable and I prefer to work manually like what I was use to. I can stay more busy that way and time can go by quicker. I can get the job done faster by myself wasting time to unjam and set up machines. I need to do what makes me happy. I dread going back to work having to deal with the stupid machine every night now, but at least now I know what to do around the machine.

There's a one day rule where me and Joshua will have to check out for one day after staying at the motel for a month. If we decide to check in a different weekly hotel, we will do it because this place is just in horrible condition. The place we want to stay at is closer to my job, so if Josh ends up having to use my car for a job or what not, I will be able to get to work by walking there because that's how close it is to it's location. I'm currently focused on finding the next best bid and bidding out of my current position and do something I can be a bit more happier with.

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August 2020 unloading

Monday August 31st, 2020

-Work was okay. Woke up almost late, didn’t have time to make coffee or have breakfast and found myself getting crabby at work. I really need to work with Milenna more about scheduling because not all of us including my Boss gets to take a decent lunch break. Rather than getting irritated with her, I think I’m just going to look at things like a challenge/opportunity to grow somehow out of the situation.

-Walked my dog, thinking about how irritated I am living in this house. Thinking about my parents divorce and how I need to move out because being here reminds me about him. I feel like i can’t talk to my mom about deeper things. I feel like it doesn’t matter to her.

-The closer it got to bed time, the more I just kept thinking about the next court date. I’m worried, I’m frustrated, I don’t know all the details, I’m all sorts of emotional and aggravated because I have so much to lose. I just want to continue to work, go to school to focus on my career/educational goals, and enjoy time with my friends and family. Since this incident happened, I feel paranoid and I just want to be alone until it’s over. I don’t want my misery spewing over onto other people’s plates. I feel so stressed out.

Sunday, August 30th, 2020

-Worked at Lokahi for a bit. It was very mellow. Both acupuncturists are starting to grow on me. I adore them so much and it’s so fun. Nothing really bothered me that shift, it was easy going.

-Getting home I made myself supper, then ended up going to my cousin Raymonds house for dinner- sashimi, poke and lobster. He’s like my brother and just came to realize how I hardly see him. He asked about my sister, my dad, and I ended up telling him how I’m seeking therapy. Asking about my Dad kind of pulled on some heartstrings because I feel like it’s a sensitive subject that of course I wouldn’t know where he’s currently at. . That dude abandoned us or whatever. It also was an ‘eye-rolling’ moment asking about my younger sister because she’s really out just doing whatever with her boyfriend, and has her hands tied with that. I find myself not responding to the subject of my dad’s whereabouts less emotionally, which I think is a good thing because it’s like I’m accepting of the fact that my parents are divorce. I still have some resentment and anger towards him just because of the entire situation, but more accepting of the fact in general.

--We were also talking about Hawaii, how this is all of our first time not going back to visit- normally we all go once a year. I really miss my grandma, cousins and older sister. COVID sucks.

Saturday, August 29th, 2020

-Came to my weekend job, was very productive and called it a day 3-4 hours here since i’m basically working nonstop until Labor Day where I’ll be off. I figured if I have the energy to, especially before Fall semester starts, why not, right?

-One of the acupuncturists came back and it’s so weird because we just don’t click, just co-exist. She caught me up to speed that she was safe and didn’t have to evacuate at her parent’s place in Santa Cruz. It’s strictly just business with her, Holly. I love how that business is woman-owned and I always get a sense of uplifting each other and overall women empowerment. The patients are just as delightful as the staff.

-Hung out with Danny at his place at nighttime. All we did was watch The Flash on Netflix, took 3 shots of vodka straight-yuck. Just simply hung out since we couldn’t go out anywhere as bars and restaurants were closing at 11pm. Hanging with him just made me realize that we cannot talk about serious things like what was the downfall of our relationships. We cant talk about our feelings, I don’t think I was even comfortable telling him I was seeing a therapist nor what happened at the arraignment. . I really just had the vibe that it’s not his business, and there’s no point in sharing deeper things like that with him when it’s not going to change anything. Maybe we’re just better off friends, but I just kept remembering that night of getting arrested that Danny was like my safe zone/ protector, and I looked to him in more ways than just being a significant other. It amazes me how we go to all of that, to just this current situation of being friends or whatever it is. I guess in the end all you have is yourself.

Friday, August 28th, 2020

-Went into work getting lectured at by the other chiropractor’s wife about separation of patients because that’s how the chiropractor I worked for wants to do it. I felt embarrassed getting grilled first thing in the morning in front of patients, and I need to have a sit down with my boss regarding that issue as he’s the only one who wants to continue the practice like that despite sharing the building overall. I think it doesn’t align with the philosophy of wanting to treat the community and get people better

--Felt much better when I told Camille how she made me feel and she apologized for being insensitive. Still uneasy overall about the conflict. By the end of the day I didn’t get to talk to my boss because he was rushing out to get to his dinner date. It’s so annoying that he wants to start and wrap up meetings when it’s convenient for him versus a general daily thing.

-Went home feeling empty and numb. It was a good work day overall but I feel so lost sometimes. School is starting, not sure how to go about with my break up when the guy wants to hang out, trying to date but that’s a bit stagnant due to covid, I just feel uneasy overall. I miss my family in Hawaii, I would’ve been there and back by now. I miss my friends from the east coast. I’m feeling clusters of emotions with where i’m at, and just exhausted mentally, emotionally and physically. This whole court date thing in November is eating at me, too. I feel irritated. I did a whole ‘treat yourself’ meal and had pizza for dinner and called it a night with netflix.

--I’m trying to slow down my pace and enjoy time to myself like i did before.

Thursday, August 27th, 2020 -Work was very slow paced, and my boss assigned me to work the front desk so Milenna can practice at the back office duties. I felt so fatigue and physically and mentally drained today-coffee didn’t help.

-At the very end of seeing patients, I talked with my boss about wanting more benefits as I enter the 3rd year, offered me a sign on bonus as I’m worthy in his business, but still want to revisit overall. I ended up telling him I was seeking therapy, and he asked if I talked to one of his bestfriends that comes into the office for treatment. I guess she commented some time ago that if I need someone to talk to, she’ll do it- but I told him it's a conflict of interest for me because I don’t like to shit where I eat. I wonder what it was about me that gave off that impression at that time-i don’t know, maybe deep in thought as the arrest was recent.. Again, not sure.

--On the ride home, I was just thinking how sad I really am inside-it’s hard to think about the lawyer method, because I feel like to contradict negative thoughts- I was thinking about my parent’s divorce and cried a bit on the way home- would be a positive thing about myself regardless being sad (?), and I think there’s no relation. . I need to practice more.

---I also started to think about my grandpa and how I miss him so much. He passed away in 2014 and that’s when I started to smoke tobacco as a coping mechanism and destress. It made me realize how my birthday is coming up soon, and I wanted to quit by then. Time to start cracking down on myself and look at my triggers/habits when I feel like smoking stoges.

Wednesday, August 26th, 2020

-Very productive and high energy at work. Vibed with everyone-including co-workers. Today was also my review with my boss-I’ve been there for 2 years now. Very interesting how my boss keeps giving me more duties to do, but I feel like I’m in the crosshairs of “I should be lucky I have a job” and knowing my worth as I do know the office operations like the back of my hand. It’s a good deal regardless, but didn’t want to sign right away.

-I feel more accepting and less anxious about the next court date. I have to keep faith in my attorney.

-Danny called me by bedtime needing help to change his flat tire at work. I ended up going for a number of reasons: empathy, it took him a lot to ask me knowing that our last conversation was about being friends when I still want to work things out, maybe this could’ve been an opportunity to tell him what’s going on with me and I’m in a funk. . It ended up being a very mellow encounter where I was just watching him change his tire and having his subwoofer stashed in my car. I like to see my kindness not being a weakness, just my nature.

Tuesday, August 25th, 2020

-Woke up this morning wanting to stay in my bed a bit longer. Woke up feeling Zen and more relaxed- not as anxious about the court date today because I put trust in this attorney for things to work out in my favor. Trying to control my outlook and keep vibrating higher with better intentions. Took my dog out for a walk and thought back about my oracle cards last night, and contemplated ‘‘healing”. Thought about self love, and mentally told myself that I loved myself which for the first time it hit some strings internally and I just realized I haven’t said that to myself in sooooooo long. The more I kept repeating that to myself, the more I just felt those words losing meaning, i don’t know.

-Went to pick up a loaner laptop from SJCC as mine has become unreliable for this upcoming semester. Feeling productive.

Monday, August 24th, 2020

-Work was overall good. Not sure what it is with Milenna, but her presence just tends to irritate me occasionally. Maybe it’s because she’s slow paced and sometimes drags my energy down, or she doesn’t do some of her work (?), but when I start to get this way, I go elsewhere to help my boss with patients to keep my energy flowing. Just that quick second of irritation didn’t affect my work day, though. It was a lot of laughs and connecting with patients and catching up. I’d say it was a good day at work overall.

-Coming home felt really uneasy knowing that my court date is less than 24 hours away. I feel aggravated and anxious and very impatient. I want it to get dismissed, I want all that to go away. Maybe I need to declutter my room to get a sense of clarity and peace. After walking my dog I lit up an incense and reorganized my closet and walking space to get rid of extra objects that don’t serve purpose, or that’s just taking up space. Might reorganize my shelves eventually.

-I did an oracle spread for the 2020 year. It’s crazy how it highlights healing and this is the year for that. I took it as a sign to work on myself since I’ve been feeling on the go and wanting to go out and not having any ‘me’ time. Adventure is the fruit of the looms of self-healing, abundance is what challenge will arise, I can thrive through the year with focusing, and flow is what I’ll gain throughout 2020.

Sunday, August 23rd, 2020

-Helping out at Lokahi felt very refreshing today as it did yesterday. Talking with one of the acupuncturists and sharing my educational goals reassured me that I’m on the right track. She was also a certified massage therapist while practicing in behavioral health and gave me lots of insight. I told her I wanted to pursue CMT while retaking health science courses as I’d have a full year before reapplying to the PTA program at Ohlone CC next year-I’m thinking this will strengthen my knowledge and skills regarding the human body. She cheered me on and told me she personally can see me succeeding on that educational route!

-Went to go see Stephanie after work today. The smoke and the air quality fucking sucks, can’t even see the ESSJ hills. It was mellow, reassuring her that I’m happy with whatever she chooses to do with Jerome because he’s a cool dude despite me and him having a fall out. I feel lightweight ‘meh’ about it. Not bothered, but just want to make sure she feels the same way.

-Hung out at Steven’s pad for the first time. Met him from Tinder, started talking and it’s so easy to converse with him. I like keeping my word with things I say that I’m going to do, so that took him by surprise when I actually dropped by tonight. His vibe is cool.

-This arraignment date simmering in the back of my mind is keeping my anxiety afloat. It’s hard to think forward when I feel like a lot weighs on this outcome. Drank hibiscus tea to relax before bed.

Saturday, August 22nd, 2020

-I feel like the universe is fucking with me. A lot of old ghosts-from-the-past are popping up- ie Jerome, Greg and Danny. Like is this a test? Like at the end of the day I just want everyone to be happy- I want everyone to win. I feel weird and uneasy about it, calling Kenn and telling him details about it, maybe I’m getting my period soon.

-Talked to my sister in HI a little bit and was contemplating about telling her about the arrest and arraignment date. Everytime I think about the court date, I hear Theo’s advice that I shouldn’t worry about anything, “it’s just a ticket that you can fight or get dropped” or something like that. SIGHH….

Friday, August 21st, 2020

-I thought today was a very good day at work! My energy was up there, got in about 57 patients in from originally 40 patients. Milenna wasn’t in which made me feel like ‘deer in headlights’ having to be doing the front desk work. Caught up on billing, very productive overall while having fun with patients.

-Best friend Stephanie, told me how someone at her parent’s Subway tested positive for COVID and that I won’t be able to come to the house for a while. That blows, but also having thoughts if this is her way of getting space to date Jerome- whatever. As long as she’s happy that’s all that matters. She’s going to get tested this weekend, so hope it comes out negative so we can hang.

-Surprise, surprise. . Danny hits me up to hang out tonight, then changes his mind in 20minutes as I was cleaning. At first I was calm about hanving out with him, but now I’m like what the fuck. I’m irritated with the whole Danny issue- states that we shouldn’t hang out last minute because we’re not friends yet (?!). I feel like he should’ve just left me the fuck alone instead of dangling with my feelings.

-Getting super anxious again realizing how close my arraignment date is.

Thursday, August 20th, 2020

-I feel unproductive at work since it’s very slow patient flow. I can’t focus. I feel like the day is dreading.

-I feel bad for my cousin’s fiance as she’s putting her dog down tomorrow. I’m more than sad for her and it just reminds me that I’m not ready if my dog were to pass away. Makes me appreciate my dog, Nala, more.

-Talked to Zarinah just now. Even though she moved back to New Jersey I love how we randomly check in on each other. She caught me up to speed with what her and her other friends are doing, her son’s situation- I would’ve been there this year by now if COVID didn’t exist. I told her about my 4th of July weekend, the getting arrested ordeal, Jerome talking to stephanie. I miss her a lot!!

Wednesday, August 19th, 2020

-Woke up to my car covered in ashes. This weather is making me feel depressed, aggravated, super concerned for those that are impacted by it. Hope my coworker Blanca is okay.

-On the drive home after work I kept thinking about my ex boyfriend. I feel more mad and upset rather than sad at the moment. I miss him, I feel low. . but ‘I deserve the kind of love I desire’, no? I should just cut ties and block him everywhere.

Tuesday, August 18th, 2020

-Forgot I was having brunch with Anthony today. Talked to my PCP about my physical and mental health. Told him I was seeking outpatient care because of how slow inpatient services were for behavioral/psychiatric therapy. I felt he disregarded that and was highlighting me to take smoking cessation classes, when I am a conscious change and have begun smoking less tobacco daily. I don’t know why he’s pushing extra hard with taking these classes when I’ve weaned myself off smoking before. But anyway, just got ready last minute to meet up with Anthony for brunch versus flaking on plans for whatever reason (had the just do it attitude).

-Didn’t realize I set another therapy appointment in person with another LMFT today. The first encounter I didn’t know what to expect and got lost just getting to know each other. Went an hour and 20 minutes or so, and I just felt like I was introducing myself to her, spewing more details than anything. She commented she’s aware of my anxiety and can see how mildly depressed I am, but I didn’t really feel it was effective versus yesterday’s session. She mentioned she doesn’t think her methods are safe for me in the state of being that I’m in. Took the depression questionnaire home, but I don’t think I want to go back. She did mention eye-movement method (?), color schemes and blot pictures (?), reprocessing information methods (?). Not sure but I feel like i didn’t get anything out of that session than just highlighting how sad I freaking am.

-Told Anthony via text that I don’t see anything romantic between us. I didn’t feel like pursuing him in that way and see us being only friends. I felt that’s a respectful way to let him know versus him feeling like I'm leading him on, and he just went on mute and became unresponsive. I feel like I would appreciate someone telling me that straight up from the start, but whatever. I feel a bit irritated by it, but I can’t control other people’s emotions.

Monday, August 17th, 2020

-First therapy meeting went well. Broke down and cried a lot, felt vulnerable, never realized how much sadness I had inside. I did feel a light feeling of relief at the end of it. Looking for the next session, while reminding myself ‘it’s okay to feel what i’m feeling”.

-I have such strong adoration for my mom and how strong of an individual and woman she is. I feel very spiteful towards my dad for emotionally and financially degrading my mom through the divorce process (fighting over money, the house). It’s so weird how my mom doesn’t want me to think any less of my dad because ‘he’s my dad’ and I feel it takes more than making a child to be labeled as a father than providing sperm, right? I feel irritated when it comes to telling me how to feel about whatever the situation, because my feelings are valid, too. I don’t want their failed marriage to influence my love life.

-I talked to my bestfriend kenn while walking my dog. He makes me feel calm. Told him about my first therapy session, he highlighted the importance of feeling safe and open with a therapist and finding one that clicks- which I agree and feel like I did. Caught him up about Danny, anxiety with school, and how work eased up with my coworker, Milenna. She used to irritate me a lot, but now it’s water under the bridge. Health is an investment.

#august2020

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breakingbadandboujie · 2 years

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i have a date on saturday. i’m not particularly excited to go on it, if i’m being honest. it’s not that i don’t want to go on the date, i definitely do. but right now it’s not the usual “pre-date anxiety” that i’m used to feeling any other time.

i didn’t feel it very much on the first date either, now that i think about it. i think that’s a good thing. before i would worry myself so much about whether everything was perfect, if i looked like what they’d want me to, if they’d like me as much as i did. i guess now i have come to the realization that if she didn’t want to continue talking to me, she wouldn’t have. If she didn’t want to get to know me in person, she would’ve declined the first date. If the date didn’t go well, it wouldn’t have been the end of the world. If she didn’t want to go on a second date, she wouldn’t have said yes.

my two friends, who i introduced to each other and are now a couple, had pointed something out to me a few weeks ago about this. they said that i came up in their conversation. they talked about how i don’t have much confidence when dating and i don’t want to ask for as much as i give to the other person. they said because i’m a good person i deserve that reciprocation. it threw me off because i know it’s true. i did tell them they’re right. in the back of my mind i have had the thought that i want to get out of that cycle of feelings bc i know it directly comes from being emotionally abused and living in a dv household for a while. you try to outrun those patterns, but trauma can really make you blow up your own life. admittedly, i’ve been in a relationship with an emotionally draining person before, and i have been that person in a relationship before; i’ve made the effort to not be that person again by getting help. i never want to be that person again. since i’ve gotten better, i know there’s no rationality to talking myself out of happiness, but i’ve done it so much that it’s become normal. i really like this girl, i know she likes me, and it seems like we both just want to hang out and get to know each other more. i’m kinda scared to open up, but i know not putting so much pressure on myself to make it all work is the first sign of things aligning for the better.

aside from any feelings of anxiety, i know i’ve been feeling depressed lately. just a mix of school starting again and my best friend’s mom passing away after battling cancer. seeing her in hospice was very heart wrenching and i know my friend is having a hard time right now. while in the car to her mom’s service she made the joke that she’d never thought out of all things to have in common with a friend it’d be that she’d lost a parent while young.

it’s a very weird thing to be going through again, because her mom very much was a second mother to me. i think because it was a more prolonged grief this time; we knew once she was diagnosed she’d only have so much time left. people with my dad’s condition can live all the way into their 80s before having fatal complications. it’s just a sign of time not being guaranteed. my main problems are i keep getting these overwhelming waves of sadness and i haven’t been sleeping right. it’s messing with me a little bit. i don’t want to oversleep and miss my dental cleaning tomorrow. i’m going back to work soon and i don’t want it to effect me in the money making department. i have to get a car eventually.

for now i just need to allow myself to hurt. my mom is being very generous and gives me hugs whenever i ask. she knows i need them if i ask. what’s made me feel good is that i crocheted my cat a blanket and she loves it. my best friend’s mom could never teach me how to crochet wherever she tried. i just couldn’t get it, and i suddenly know how to now. i’d like to think she gave me the stillness of mind long enough to just let instinct take over. now i’m making a blanket to send my grandma. it’s halfway done. i’m going to keep crocheting to feel closer to my friend’s mom and to give my mind a break.

that’s all for now i guess

#lesbian ❤️🧡🤍💗🤎#dating adventures 🌹#life upd8 🫥#grief 🥀❤️‍🩹

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I'm alive!

I'm okay rn. The doctors said that it might take months before my grandma dies, can even take some years.

So I decided that I should try to be more active online. (I still visit her don't worry!)

I also took some time for my mental health!

Welp what has happend in my life recently? Well Eurovision happend (big European music competition wich I love) I drunkenly cursed at Europe and danced trough most songs in my living room lmao.

I went to my first Pride (my parents didn't want to let me go before my 18th birthday, then the year I turned 18, covid happend.) It was alot of fun. I also accepted that I'm on the aro spectrum. I figured it out last year, but didn't wanna open that can of worms just yet. I did this year this and came out as a Nonbinary Pansexual Cupioromantic. I know its a alot lol. But im happy.

My favorite series on YouTube is back for season 3, and I can't wait until the episodes start popping up. I'm currently rewatching the first season from a different pov and I have died of laughter many times. 'Welcome to the cringiest corner of the server' - the roleplayers.

One of my childhood heros came out, and I have been lurking on tumblr waiting to yell at homophobes. Hopefully he does good in MCC pride. I kinda feel bad how Reddit kinda forced him out. But Apperently he was planning to come out on Saturday during MCC pride. He didn't expect his comment to blow up under a Reddit post with Queer participants in MCC Pride. So he came out on the day he posted that comment. Still fcking proud of him. Since his coming out one of his old songs has been stuck in my head, and I hate every second of it.

I'm planning my trip to see my closest friend next month, and am working on some fanfics.

I'm also planning my birthday party, can't believe I'll be 20, on July 10th. And am planning my trip to the Balkans this summer.

I'm also looking up some different jobs and colleges, because I'm quitting History. It was not for me. In the one time period I knew alot about, the professor didn't like me. Literally told me that 'knowing alot about something isn't good' when she asked something about Yugoslavia (old country) and Tito (former leader). Knowing I wanted to be an expert in Balkan history, I just quit. If I knew to much about something to her liking, then I knew it wasn't a good fit for me.

My national team won against an certain opponent for the first time ever. Wich is cool.

A band I listened to growing up will perform at a local festival. And a local cycling event happend in my region last week.

Also The 'Tour de France' Will pass trough the village I'm obsessed with in July so I'm definitely excited to watch that.

I also made some friends I Think?!

Welp this was a small update! Again sorry for not sending alot of asks!

See ya!

-Enis

Enis ♥ I'm glad to hear from you again. And sorry it took a minute to reply. I've been busy myself with the end of the school year at my school, plus I was dogsitting at my friend's aunt's house for two weeks. This weekend I had to do a bunch of yardwork for my grandma, and go to my dad's for father's day. It's been crazy!

I'm glad to hear your grandma still has some time left. Make sure you spend as much quality time with her as you can. I'm also excited to hear that you went to a pride festival and that you have a better understanding of your identity.

It sounds like a lot of other good things are happening with you right now too! It's always wonderful when series we enjoy finally release new seasons. I just saw that information about My Hero season 6 came out and that was really great for me, so I know how you must be feeling.

Also!!! That is really great that your birthday is coming up. 20's can be a wild time so I hope you really enjoy it and that things go well for you. You're still young and have the world at your fingertips :) I'm proud of you for realizing that the path you weren't on with history wasn't right for you and being brave enough to quit. You don't want to be stuck in a field that doesn't work for you. I'm sure you'll be able to find something that makes you much happier and comfortable.

You know what? I don't think I've ever watched the Tour de France. I should look into that.

thanks as always for the update! It seems like things are overall going well for you and that makes me so happy.

#enis💖#anon squad #chat with cindy

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lilalouuxx · 2 years

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Hey! I’m not sure if you’re still taking requests for Fezco. But if you are, a fic about Fezco and his childhood best friend. They’ve been friends for years, they’re both in love with each other, but they think their feelings aren’t reciprocated. She’s basically a mother figure for Ash. She’s always over their house making sure they’re good. Just a really fluffy story where Fezco is being loved on, and at the end they reveal their feelings for each other.

I had fun writing this one. Enjoy!

I’ve decided to make this into either 2 or 3 parts, it’s a slow burn.

Fez x reader

Friends to lovers pt 1

Read part 2 here

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Your relationship with fez was like family to everyone on the outside but it was nothing like that, you don’t have feelings for your family members. You’d never told anyone about your feelings for fez, they had been there for as long as you could remember. He’d always been so kind to you, very protective off you also. You believed he just saw you as a sister like ash so that’s why you never acted on your feelings. There were the occasional doubts every now and then just like when he started to get funny when you began dating boys but you told yourself that he just didn’t want you to get hurt, the doubt also came when he began to buy you ‘small’ things like the occasional pair of shoes or some clothing. He would even sometimes buy you flowers, his excuse was that he didn’t believe you’d ever find anyone in this town who would buy you flowers so he wanted to buy you them so you would receive flowers from a boy at least once in your life.

You went to school with Fez, your mum also knew his grandma so they were close.You’d always go round their house and watch movies with fez whilst his grandma and your mum would catch up and smoke. Throughout the years off fez’s grandma getting ill you became closer to fez and ash, your mum was always working so she wasnt be able to look after them so you made it your duty to do it yourself. You remember what fez’s grandma had said to you one day ‘ I’m glad my fezco has a friend like you, you better be around for a long time sweetie’ which is exactly what you had done.

As you and fez got older, your attraction to fez grew and grew. It was starting to become hard to act normal around him.

It’s 9pm on a Saturday and you are currently sat on the sofa with fez, ash is sat opposite you both half laying down. You’re all watching a movie which ash finds hilarious, you’re sat at the end of the couch your arms hugging your legs and a blanket over you whilst fez is at the other end, his left arms resting on the back of the sofa with a blunt in his hand whilst his right holds a beer. He’s got one leg propped up on the sofa whilst the other over the side of the sofa, the blanket half covering his leg that is propped up on the sofa. You turn your head to look at fez and then ash “are either of you hungry?” You ask

“Yeah I’m starving” ash says

“What do you fancy?” You ask

“I dunno, maybe a burger?” He says looking at you once before looking back to the tv.

“I’ll go get us some” fez cuts in, removing the blanket off him but being careful not to pull it off you in the process.

“I’ll come too” you say smiling then standing up. You loved spending time with ash and fez but you’d like to spend time with just fez whenever you could even if it was just to go get some burgers.

“Alright” he says before quickly walking to his bedroom and putting his shoes on, you do the same. Fez grabs his car keys then you both make your way to the front door “ be back soon ash” you say to him before shutting the front door behind you. You and fez walk to his car, he makes sure to open your door for you. Then makes his way round to his side

“So where shall we go?” Fez says looking at you

“Umm, McDonald’s?” you question? Looking at him. He nods and laughs a little “ typical”

“Hey! I know they’re not the best but I like McDonald’s”

“I ever told you bout my uncle Carl?” Fez asks, you roll your eyes. You heard this story a million times

“Yes fez, you’ve told me a thousand times before”

“ I know but I’m just sayin you can go to nicer places, they still sell burgers just a bit more nicer, real meat and more expensive. Plus they’d probably lesson your chances of getting diabetes“ fez says starting up the car

“Alright fine let’s go somewhere else shall we? Up to you” you say buckling your seatbelt in

“Alright, i got you” he says smiling before taking off. 10 minutes later you and fez pull up to this diner, you’ve never been here before but you’ve passed it many times. Fez told you on the way up that he used to come here when he was a kid, him and ash still go occasionally but not as much.“ the burgers are whats up”is what fez said about the place. You trusted his judgement.

Fez pulled into a parking spot and again like before came round and opened the door for you. It wasn’t a drive through so you’d have to go in and order take out which you didn’t mind. You and fez walked close together as you entered the diner, it was very quiet at this time of night, you don’t see many people getting a burger at 9pm. You walked up to the counter and saw an older lady at the till, she must have been about 50.

“Oh my, fezco is that you?” The older lady says smiling up at him. “Yes mam” fezco says running his hand over the top of his head.

“You haven’t been in here for ages, I’ve missed you. How’s ash? “ she’s asks.

“Yeah hes good” fez replies, the older lady nods. I look down at her name tag ‘Marie’ that’s a nice name. You then feel Marie’s eyes on you.

“And who’s this?” She says still smiling, there’s a glint in her eye

“Hi I’m Y/N” you say and smile sweetly at her

“What a lovely name! i must say you’re very pretty. Fez looks like you’ve got a keeper there” she says happily. You nearly choke on your saliva, you hear fez make a weird noise too.

“Oh no no” you say, fez says “wait no” at the same time.

“It’s not like that” he says laughing awkwardly, you feel your face heat up a little.

“Oh? Sorry I just presumed…” she says again her smile dropping a little almost as in dissapointment

“Nah it’s good, we actually get that a lot” fez says scratching the back of his neck. You awkwardly stand there fiddling with your hands

“ well… that must tell you something” she laughs, your face heating up again “ anyway what can I get yall” she says taking out a pen and paper

“Uh can I just have a cheeseburger please” you say glad that she changed the topic, fez tells the lady what he and ash would like “oh wait lemme also get 2 chocolate,one strawberry milkshakes please” he adds on the end. It warms your heart the fact that fez knows exactly what flavour to get you. The only flavoured milkshake you’ve ever liked is strawberry, not many people remember that.

“Coming right up darlings” she says before heading Into the back. You and fez go and sit in one of the booths whilst you wait for your food.

“ she seems really nice” you say.

“Yeah she’s cool, one of the nicest people I know around here” fez says looking at you.

“ so do you come here often?” You say

He chuckles “ you tryna pick me up”

“Oh my god, stop. If I was that would be the cheesiest line ever” you laugh with him. You then decide to ask something that’s been on your mind ever since he said it “ you know when you said that we get a lot of people saying we look good together, was that true? Who’s said that” you ask

“Uh yeah a few people, I think sometimes you’re just oblivious y/n. You’re friends say it too”

“They do?” you raise your eyebrows

“ shit, where the fuck are you half the time? You don’t listen” he laughs again

“Yeah I suppose I don’t, half the time they talk about they’re boyfriends so I zone out”

He nods “ I get it” before you can reply Marie comes over with our food, you turn your head to her and smile “thank you” you say, fez grabs the milkshakes whilst you grab the burgers, fez hands her the money and a tip. She smiles sweetly at you both before you both walk out. You walk to the car and get in putting the food in the back. Fez starts the car and begins to drive off. He starts to smoke the blunt he was smoking earlier again.

“ so, do you think we would look together” you ask out of the blue

Fez frowns “ what?” He asks, turning his head to look at you then back to the road

“ well if everyone else says it, what do you think? Do you agree?” You ask, you’re not trying to make a deal out of it you were just curious.

“ shit, I mean I dont know. I suppose if other people be saying it then we must do”

“That’s not what I was asking fez”

“ well what kind of question is that? I don’t know, you may as well just ask me if I think yo pretty”

“ do you?”

“ well yeah, I always have” he tuts “ why you asking all of a sudden?”

“ to be honest I don’t know, but I think you’re pretty too fez” you smirk and he chuckles

“Thanks ma, real appreciate it” he shakes his head at you. 10 minutes later you’re back at fez’s. He parks the car and you both quickly grab the food and exit the car, being as quick as you can to get in the house before your food goes cold and the milkshakes melt.

“Yo ash we back” fez shouts as we walk through the front door, ash bolts out from his bedroom

“Fuck yeah I’m starving” ash says then makes his way over to the table. Fez sets the food on the table whilst you grab some plates. You 3 enjoy the meal in silence, once finished eating you say “ wow fez, I gotta admit this is better than McDonald’s”

“See what’d I tell ya” he says and pushes your arm lightly, you then roll you eyes at him and stand up taking yours and the Boys plates out to the kitchen. “Yeah yeah don’t get cocky” you wash up the plates whilst fez puts the rubbish in the bin.

“How much do I owe you anyway?” You say to fez

“ nah ma, it’s on me”

“No atleast let me give some money towards it “

“No now shut up and go sit yo ass down woman” he says pointing to the lounge. You can’t argue with fez when he bosses you around like that. You all join back into the lounge and finish off the film. It’s now 11pm and ash is fast asleep on the sofa, youve got your legs propped over fez as you lay on down on the sofa whilst he sits at the other end, casually resting his arm on your legs whilst the other holds his blunt.

“You stayin over tonight?” Fez says quietly looking over at you

“You want me to?”

“That’s a stupid question” he laughs blowing out smoke from his mouth

“Yeah alright but as long as you don’t take all the duvet like last time” you say chucking. You and fez have never minded sharing a bed, actually you both find it quite comforting. Nothing ever happened though, you’d just simply stick to you sides. Well apart from those few times…

“ I mean I can sleep on the couch if you want” fez offers

“No it’s fine, besides I may want a snuggle in the night” you wink

“Stop” he says turning his head away from you. You tease fez, there’s been a couple of times where you have woken up in his arms, purely because of fez. He was instantly embarrassed which you found hilarious. So therefore you love to tease him about it.

“Okay well I’m going to get ready for bed then, I’m done for” you say standing up and lifting the blanket of you.

“Alright I’ll finish my smoke then I’ll join you”

“Alright” you say to him whilst walking off, you enter his bedroom and quickly get changed. You rummage round fez’s draws for one of his T-shirts and a pair of sweats. Fez doesn’t mind you wearing his clothes, in fact he prefers you to wear his clothes rather than your own. Not that he’s ever told you that. You get changed then fold your clothes neatly onto his desktop. You enter his bathroom and brush your teeth which the spare toothbrush then get into his bed, you grab your phone from the nightstand and check your messages, you’ve got a few from the girls. Kat invited you to go bowling with her, jules and Maddy a few hours ago but you didn’t even see the invite, you decide fo quickly text her back

‘ hey girl, I’m sorry sorry! I’ve only just seen your message. Hope you had a good time without me😉’ you press send, not long after kat replies.

‘ hey you, it’s fine. I know where you are, he’s more important that us! I get it!🤪’ Kat doesn’t know how you feel about Fez but she and the other girls sometimes tease you about your relationship with him. This makes you think back to what he said earlier, you do tend to zone out of most of your conversations with the girls. You wonder what they say about you and fez when you’re not there. You’re thoughts are cut short when you hear someone enter the room, you look up from your phone and see fez. He enters his bedroom and kicks the door shut behind him

“ ash wake up?” You ask locking your phone and putting it next to you again.

“Nah, he’ll wake up at some point” fez says, he kicks off his shoes. He goes over to his draws just like you did, he then turns around and looks at you as if he’s waiting for something.

“Oh, yeah” you say before covering your eyes. Fez respected your privacy as well as you respected his. You’d seen him without a t-shirt on before as well as no pants on but you still make sure to respect him.

“All done” you hear him say as he climbs into the bed, you uncover your eyes.

“I feel like shit, Kat texted me earlier to go bowling” you say sighing leaning your head back on the headboard

“Ah shit, well maybe just ask if she wanna go tomorrow again with you?” Fez says getting comfy under the blanket.

“Yeah I suppose I could” you say

“You know, I don’t want your friends thinking you prefer me over them”

“But I do” you say smiling then looking at him, he shakes his head a little

“Yeah I know but you need your girls, there’s some things I can’t be here for”

“What do you mean?” You ask, you turn your body to face him.

“ well like If you wanna chat to someone about a boy, you can’t chat to me”

“ why not? You’d be like the perfect person. You are a boy”

“Yeah but to be honest with you, I don’t know if I’d wanna hear that shit”

“Aw fezzy, don’t worry. No one will ever replace you”

“ you promise?”

“ promise? Of course. Just as long as you don’t replace me with the long list of girls that are obsessed with you” he snorts at this

“You trippin y/n, ain’t no girls obsessed with me”

“ you’re either very blind or very oblivious”

“I’m probably both” fez admits

“Yeah I agree, but no I know a couple of girls that are obsessed with you”

“ really? Who?”

“ nuh uh I can’t say”

“ why not“

“ because then you might replace me”

“Pft no one gone replace you y/n, you’re one of a kind for me. Besides no other girl would be able to take of me and ash like you do so I wouldn’t ever dream of replacing you” he says whilst looking at his hands. You feel your cheeks heat up a little, the butterflies in your stomach after he said no one would ever replace you are now doing summersaults.

“I’m sorry” you say

“What for?” He replies confused but before you can answer him you lean over and place your head on his chest and wrap your arm around his torso “ for this”

He chuckles and you feel the vibrations “ nah you’re alright, I was thinking of cuddling you tonight anyway” you frown then lift your head up to look at him “so you do do it on purpose!”

“ you trippin, I didn’t say that” he says smirking then places his hand on your head pushing it back down onto his chest. You smile and tighten your arm around his waist. He lifts your head up a little so he can wrap his arm around your neck,his other resting on top of yours.

“Night Y/N” fez says reaching over to the lamp turning it off.

“Night fez, please don’t nick the cover tonight” he doesn’t reply just chuckles, you feel him tracing light circles into your arm with his finger. The feeling sending you into a deep sleep.

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hq boys as non-sexual things that feel sensual

tags: mildly suggestive content (mostly pining)

bokuto: certain phrases are very sexually charged; “make me,” or “what are you gonna do about it” lunch time!! bokuto comes back from the cafeteria with his pork-cutlet sandwich to see you engaged in a card game with three other people. He sees that everyone’s bet something and you bet a strawberry danish you bought this morning and bokuto’s eyes go 🤩 he forces himself in LMFAO and makes sure to sit next to you 🥰❤️ in the end, it’s only you and him left (konoha and komi come over from their classes to see what all the fuss is about and they’re like …..how is bokuto doing so well 😶)

but you win and steal his sandwich on the desk 😈 he tries to defame you for cheating lol but all you do is look at him coyly like “and what are you gonna do about it, bokuto-kun? 😇” and suddenly his tongue feels heavy and his cheeks flush and he’s all 🥺👉👈 he asks you for the bread back because its his only lunch 😭💀 but he ends up winning sm more because you offer to share your bento with him and his heart goes 🥰💖💞

akaashi: sitting next to someone and your shoulders/thighs touch it’s the sports festival!! and it’s lunch break. he spots you sitting on a bench and he starts sweating at the idea of sitting next to you but he wants to be near you somewhat because then MAYBE you’ll talk to him??!? hopefully 🥺💔

he swallows his nerves and sits on the bench too but on the other side with a huge gap between you and your friend. he pulls out his phone to look “busy” LMFAO then, more of your friends come over and suddenly, you’re snug against him, your BARE THIGH touching his because you’re both in shorts and akaashi thinks he gonna pass out with the bashful apology you give him 😵 he thanks every deity he can think of that your friends came over and STAY because your leg is still touching his and he’s holding a conversation with you 😭🥺🥳💕💖❤️😍

konoha: having someone use your keyboard standing up while you’re sitting in front of it you’re in one of the school’s computer labs working on a research essay. akinori sits next to your station, having worked up the courage earlier to ask you if you could help him with his. he sneaks glances at you at the printers as you refill the trays with more paper 👀 he blushes even though you aren’t even doing anything to him 😭😔💔

before he can stop himself, he calls your name lmfao 🗣 but manages to save himself from utter embarrassment by asking you to look over one of his passages. coming over, you lean over him, hands on his keyboard as he leans back. his eyes are wide and cheeks ruddy as he tries so hard to keep cool because you’re so close 😍🥺💕 and god does he hope what he wrote was coherent because he thinks he’d d-word if you said it made no sense 😓😵

kuroo: when you’re sitting next to someone and they lean over and reach across you to grab something another day, another group project. kuroo gets added to a group with you and another guy because he was absent for volleyball. the two of you push your desks next to him and he’s fist pumping internally because you’re sitting next to HIM and not the other guy and he gets to act as the barrier AHAHAH 😇🥳😛

you’re working together when you ask one of your friends to pass over the notes she took from you. she’s sitting in front of kuroo, but diagonally to the right so she leans back and you lean forward to grab the papers. your arm accidentally brushes his chest and kuroo short circuits 😶 you’re SO CLOSE and your body is nearly laid over his entire desk and if he moves his hands up he could probably touch your chest HJAKHSDLKASD 👁👄👁 the guy next to him looks at him all 😐 as kuroo goes INSANE 🤯

kita: hugging from behind he’s home alone, studying in the living room for his university exams. you’re in the kitchen with his grandma helping her with tonight’s dinner. he smiles softly to himself hearing the two of you laugh 😊🥰💞

he’s halfway through a derivatives question when you hug him from behind, arms coming around him as you rest your head on his shoulder blades 🥺💘 when you softly tell him dinner is almost ready, his chest warms and a soft smile appears on his face ❤️💖

atsumu: the guys strapping you in on a roller coaster. are we gonna kiss? why are you giving me that eye contact? inarizaki’s vbc get together to go to the local amusement park!! they get in and the first thing the twins want to do is ride all of the roller coasters so after a ridiculously long line up, atsumu’s sitting next to osamu, waiting for an attendant to come buckle them in, when you suddenly come up in your cute uniform and hair tied up and atsumu’s like SHIT ITS YOU 😳 also damn y didn’t you tell him you worked here he could have gotten discounted tickets smh 🥴😒

anyways you come up to them to buckle them up with him first and he doesn’t really notice anything but you buckle the first strap really tight and he’s like “does it need to be so tight 😘” and you tell him, making eye contact, using your best customer service voice (vocal bottoming but at least you get paid) and with a pretty smile on your face that doesn’t reach your eyes, “yes, unless you want to die. and if you do, don’t do it on this ride because my shift ends in ten minutes and i don’t want to stay here to write a report about a dumbass who ko’d on a roller coaster 🥰” and he BLUSHES oop— 👁👅👁

osamu: having your back scratched you sit next to each other in class and it’s self study time and you’re helping him with the english homework that was assigned when his back starts feeling itchy. he rolls and moves his shoulders to try to alleviate it, but it just isn’t working so he brings a hand back to scratch at it, but he’s not flexible enough to reach it 😔 you ask him what’s wrong and he puts his arm down like he got burned because he doesn’t want to be seen doing something weird in front of you or making a weird face so he just says nothing but you raise a brow and go “are you itchy?” and he nods JAJCKKAD

you bring your arm up to where he was just scratching, “here?” a shake of his head, “no, a little to the right.” AND YOU SCRATCH RIGHT AT IT!!!!! he can feel his shoulders slump as he closes his eyes and groans a little WHOOP he’s SUPER EMBARRASSED but you just laugh it off and scratch him some more before going back to work and he looks at you like 🥺💖 why’d you stop?? even though you’re not even looking at him LOL 😞 touches his back that night in the shower like your hands were so small 😯😍😳 and maybe he should be itchy more often but it also quickly turns to she better not be touchy feely with anyone else 😒

suna: someone writing on your arm he’s forced to take this one evening class this semester because it’s not offered the next one and he needs to take it because it’s a prereq for almost every other course ugh but at least the cute girl who sits next to him lets him copy her notes LMFAO 😭💀 he left all his belongings in the gym’s lockers because he was going to go back anyways for practice so when the professor gives out a code for a free trial of the software they have to use for the homework assignment due in a week, he’s like shit; he left his phone in his bag 🤡💔

you offer to write it down on his arm, grabbing a pen from your pencil case. he nods like sure why not so you take his arm and push the sleeve of his hoodie up and start writing and he just stares at you 👀 your writing is cute and he kinda likes the feel of your hands on him 🤧 class ends and you part ways with a wave. It’s not until he’s reached the gym that he realized you could have just messaged the code to him on facebook 🤨 so he pushes his sleeve up and sees your phone number on his arm under the code 😘 aren’t you smooth!!! 😌

iwaizumi: when someone is putting the car in reverse and they put their hand on the back of your seat iwaizumi been interested in you for a while, and ever since he came to the revelation he finds it really hard to talk to you because he’s afraid of coming off too aggressive or you figuring it out 😔💔 good thing kindaichi reveals that you’re his older cousin and that you’ll be driving some of them to their next practice match because the volleyball team’s bus is out for a checkup!! 😍😘 oikawa, matsukawa and hanamaki all force him to sit shotgun as you drive (even kunimi and yahaba get in on it). iwaizumi grumbles about it and all but he’s secretly super happy he gets to be right next to you omg 👀😭 he takes a bunch of glances around the interior of your (parents’) car and sits a little straighter than he usually would.

he can feel the stares on the back of his head from the other third years egging him on to make a move and just when he works up the nerve to say something to you, you put the car in reverse to back out the parking spot and put your hand on the back of his seat 😳😤 iwaizumi thinks you look so cool AND HOT he clams up and just stares at you with his jaw slightly open 👁👄👁 💕pls save him 🤧

matsukawa: when a girl puts her hand up to yours and remarks on how yours is so much bigger you got randomly paired up with each other to do a presentation for your world history class and so you’re sitting next to each other on a saturday afternoon at the public library doing research together. matsukawa spent more time than he would like thinking about what to wear because he doesn’t want you to think that his fashion sense was as grotesque as the school’s khaki pants 😷🤢 (when you complimented him nonchalantly about how he looks a million times better in casual clothes compared to the school uniform and joking said that he should start a petition to get rid of the school’s ugly khaki plaid pants and skirts and use a photo of what he was wearing today as the main piece of evidence, he almost doubles over 💀)

you’re sitting next to each other and he’s still kinda reeling from the previous interaction ahjdalhd but he does his best to pull his weight. he’s taking notes in a notebook and you look over and comment out of the blue that his hands are really big as you look at yours 🤧👀 he blinks and looks at you like “yeah?” and you nod, putting your hand up and he does it too because he thinks he’s having a fever dream at this point, but not even in his wildest dream did he’’d ever think you’d push your palm against his and say “your hand is so big! 😳” he has to excuse himself to go to the washroom to scream 😘🥰❤️

hanamaki: when you’re sitting next to someone on public transport and the centrifugal force from the vehicle firmly mooshes the two of you together hanamaki pines for you silently and you can’t really tell he likes you because he’s pretty decent at keeping his emotions hidden. or maybe you’re just so busy with your senior year you don’t notice anything that isn’t the impending doom of university applications and keeping your grades up 😤😇 anyways the two of you get on and off at the same stop each day (which he secretly thanks god for 😭) and you’re sitting next to each other and hanamaki thinks he’s gonna combust because you’ve never been this close!! 🥺🥰

he can feel his hands getting sweaty already. hanamaki sneaks glances at you and tries to see what you’re doing on your phone LMFAO suddenly, the train lurches a bit and you slide from the inertia right into his side and then he can feel the warmth coming from your thighs, side and your shoulder are touching holy sh— 😭❤️😵👀💖 you look up to apologize as he takes a breath and you’re a little shy in your apology but he takes that chance to ask you about something mundane and he makes you laugh!!!! he thinks about the interaction for the next two weeks because he finally got to talk to you dhaskld ☺️🥺💕

kyoutani: when anyone raises their arms to stretch and their shirt gets lifted up slightly gym class—you’re doing timed runs today!! kyoutani is already finished with his so he’s just sitting off the side of the track, staring not-so-subtly at you but you don’t notice because it’s your turn next!! you’ve got the typical school mandated shorts and plain t-shirt on but kyou is all 👀 at your tastefully exposed skin. he thinks you look pretty with the sun hitting your face as you give a smile to your friend, squinting at the sun light 🥰

he’s just mindlessly staring at this point but then you raise your arms to stretch your triceps and the hem of your shirt rises up a little to expose the tiniest sliver of skin before it’s covered again 👁👁 his cheeks pink a little and you catch him looking LMFAO but you don’t think anything of it and just smile and wave as kyoutani burns bright red, heart battering against his ribs and looks away 😡🤡🥰💕 he saves it for future reference HURDURDUR 😇😛

ushijima: when a woman does that thing where she tucks her hair behind her ear while making direct eye contact ushijima is INTERESTED in you, likes you, is intrigued, would like to hold your hand and rub the back of your hand and feel the soft skin with his thumb—same thing 🥰 you’re talking to him about something for the cultural festival and he’s nodding along to what you’re saying because you’re so brilliant and responsible for working on the school festival committee wOW 🤩

time seems to move in slow motion as you look up him whilst tucking a piece of hair behind your ear. he zones in on the shy smile on your face, your cute cheeks, glossy lips and pretty eyes 🥺🥰 “ushijima-san?” “yes?” “what do you think?” “that’s a great idea, I will ask my team members for their input as well.” you nod exuberantly even though he has no idea what you’re talking about but your cute smile makes him all mushy on the inside 💖💕

semi: making eye contact with another customer at the grocery store around the same age it’s 2:11pm on a tuesday and semi’s at the grocery store because it’s summer and his mom was all “go to the store and buy these shimeji mushrooms for me, eita, they’re on sale!!! but only until 3pm so get skedaddling!” 😩 so he’s here and he swears housewives are the most powerful people on the planet because he thought he was gonna d-word just tryna get his discount mushrooms. he spots you in the condiments aisle looking at sesame oil and he gives you the up, down and lingers a little too long on your exposed legs 💀

he thinks you look really cute in your t-shirt and jean shorts though 🥰 when you look up and make eye contact with him and give him a little smile and wave he BLUSHES 🥺 and is right about to take the chance to talk to you but a granny hip checks him trying to get to the soybean paste and he almost trips and lands on his face 😔💔 so much for looking cool in front of you 😢🥺

tendou: having someone else play with your hair satori sees you on cleaning duty carrying the recycling to the bins as he finishes his runs around the school, about to make a turn to the gyms. he makes a beeline for you, calling your name with a bright smile on his face and waving his arms in the air. 🥰💞🥺

he bounds up to you and offers to help even though the bin is really light, cheeks warming at your smile 😊 when he takes the bin out of your hands , you wave your hand to get him to bend down. he complies, eyes widening when he feels your hand in his hair. he straightens up to see you holding onto a couple pieces of cherry blossom petals 🌸 he laughs bashfully; it feels like time has slowed and you’re the only two people in the world 💖💕

sakusa: if you’re on a pc/laptop, somebody leaning over your shoulder to look at the screen with you. the close proximity of your faces can feel awkwardly sexual you’re in the same kinesiology class and sakusa first noticed how GOOD your presentations are wtf and he’s even more impressed when he hears that you winged the whole thing because “i conveniently forgot about this until one in the morning when I decided it was a good time to reorganize your entire dorm room” ALSO you offered him hand cream the one time you caught him staring and against all reason he said yes and ever since he’s been dying to ask you where you got it from because HOLY was it nice 😍

you get paired up for the final pair presentation and he’s only become more interested in you! you’re easy to talk to and don’t pry too much and he finds himself oversharing at times 💀 the professor gives the class part of the lecture time to work on the projects so you’re sitting next to each other working when he asks you a question about the academic article he just found and you lean over his shoulder to look at his screen 👁👁 for anyone else, the close proximity of your faces would have grossed him out but he can’t stop thinking about how good you smell and how cute your ears look 👀🥰 when you tell him he’s found a really good source with an excited smile on your face, he BLUSHES and promptly wants to pass away because he has no mask on to cover him 🤡😭😵

sachiro: when you have a melting popsicle, there often comes a time where you must choose between eating it too quickly, or sucking it off so it doesn’t drip on you sachiro hums happily, holding your hand as the two of you walk home after your date and stopping at the convenience store where he buys the two of you popsicle sticks 😋

you’re talking about something funny you saw hoshiumi do in the class the other day when your popsicle drips onto you. you kitten lick at your hand and take the whole thing in your mouth to get rid of the more liquidy parts of your ice cream and sachiro is all 👁👄👁 he swallows thickly, cheeks warming and heart beating a little faster; why’s he suddenly so thirsty? 🥵💦🙈

gao: getting a strong whiff of somebody’s perfume when they pass you gao really wants to talk to you, like really really wants to talk to you 😖😭🙏 but you’re talking to your friends about something and the cute way you laughs and joke with them has him all 🥺🥰🤩

he’s about to walk up and join the conversation because let’s face it, gao isn’t afraid of much 🤧💀 too bad the teacher calls you back into the classroom about something. when you pass him, he gets a good whiff of your shampoo and his stomach flutters 😍😊🥺💕💖 follows you with sparkly eyes and wishes he made the choice to talk to you sooner 💔

futakuchi: bending over to pick up something you dropped kenji is watching (glaring) as you talk to one of the baseball team’s starting players 🤐 he’s so ticked but he doesn’t admit it like where does this guy get off making you laugh and smile like that wtf 😒🙄 luckily for kenji, the guy gets pulled away by the class rep for something so kenji calls your name to get you to look at him instead 😤

you come over and just as he’s about to stand up from his desk, he knocks over his eraser. you crouch down to pick it up and he finds himself really liking it 👁👁 he doesn’t get it either 🤡 like you aren’t bending and snapping—just folding your knees to get his eraser for him, but the way you tucked your hair behind your ear before you bent down so prettily has him ☺️😉🥵

terushima: when you’re eating and chatting with someone and they lick their lips yuuji pulled you away from your friends when it was time for lunch, wanting to spend more time with you one on one. he was so busy with volleyball and school lately 😞 and when he managed to get you to tell him how lonely you felt without him, he made it his mission to spend more time with you!!! 🥰😘💕

you’re eating together, sharing food and talking about everything and anything when he notices you lick your lips; he zones in on your little pink tongue as it swipes across your bottom lip 👁👁 “yuuji, you okay?” a hand on your cheek and suddenly, he’s kissing you. he tastes like the leftovers your mom packed you for lunch 🥰😋

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