ACL reconstruction surgery happened on December 20th! Had PT yesterday. Moving around using crutches. I am not allowed to try to be independent. I tried to be yesterday morning before PT by getting up and going to the bathroom. I got up, got my crutches, made about two steps and fell. So yeah, not trying to be independent until I'm given the okay from medical professionals. Doctor knows I fell, PT guy says everything seems fine.
So I finally got my EDS tests results back about 2 weeks ago, and thankfully I don't have it. However. The test isn't full proof so its more of 75% I don't have it 25% I do have it. So I scheduled an appointment to see my doctor and schedule surgery. I now realize I probably don't need an appointment to schedule surgery BUT it's kind of too late and I don't know how to go about it. I'm possibly going to call up the place today and see if I can just schedule the surgery, and still take the day off as I requested for said appointment. Which isn't until August 15th but gosh I need that to my self because fuck mentally I'm dead.
So I got diagnosed with anxiety when I was at the doctor's 2 weeks ago, anyone who knows me irl is not surprised by this. My therapist had been telling me for a year that I have undiagnosed anxiety. I was originally going to get tested for it said eh fuck it im doing just fine (also just kept procrastinating getting it til I said it's too much of a hassle). Was handed the GAD test and knew what was gonna happen. Took the test my doctor told me my score of 13 is kind of high (just googled it and that is a moderate anxiety result) and then said we will be switching up my meds. I have been on Lexapro for the past 2 years and Welbutrin was added on no more than a year later. Now I'm getting weaned off the Lexapro to get put on another medication (I can't remember what one). The withdrawal is real.
Originally I would just overheat or feel a little sick. Would get really bad anxiety, or bad mood swings in general. Then the past few days I've felt great and then all of a sudden *BOOM* no serotonin at all. Just feel tired and barely like a person. I feel like I'm dragging. Everything is annoying or overwhelming.
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So this past Saturday I got my blood drawn to get tested for Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. This will take a while to get my results back since they're sending them to Maya Clinic... it will take 28-42 days to get my results back.
I need to have my results back before I can schedule surgery. I got hurt back in May it probably won't be until August that I get my results back which means my surgery will be scheduled for August or October. Just lovely.
I so badly want this to just happen. It's so frustrating!
Getting into the Magnus Archives fandom before you finish the series is wild because they’ve all made a collective decision to pretend the cast loves each other and it’s all just an office drama, supported by copious fanfic and fanart and things. And then you get to the actual content and it’s like,, most of them genuinely hate each other. Not even in a cute way, they genuinely want each other to die
Finally got my MRI results. Turns out I did tear my ACL, so I get to schedule surgery. Well schedule surgery after getting tested for Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, so we can see if we want to use my patella tendon or a cadavers.
I'm a mixture of proud and annoyed. Proud I was right and knew this was gonna be the case. Annoyed because this is the case.
this post is going to be different because not only am i going to give some tips on how we can heal the relationship we have about our body but we are going to work on this by writing down how we feel so we can identify our emotions and thoughts in a better way and face what might be hurting us.
it's also a way to help us feel better about ourselves, release repressed emotions and feel like we are doing something for ourselves.
i have also done this exercise, in fact, i have created the questions myself and i find it very effective to put on paper what we feel so we can see it more clearly and solve it.
if you really want to improve your relationship with yourself and your body, it is important that you do it, preferably in a notebook.
i'd like all of you to write me either in the comments or in the questions section about how you felt or if you noticed a change.
remember this is just an exercise, it will help you to release and feel better, it may cause discomfort, in fact you can repeat it as many times as you want.
in fact if you want i can bring more similar posts as i am healing and improving through this technique and so far i am doing very well so i want to share it with all of you.
healing my relationship with my body 🌿
what was it that marked me and made me not love my body?
(it could be something a person said to you, a situation...)
what is it that i don't like about myself and would like to change/improve?
(it can be a physical characteristic, but if it is something of your personality you can also add it, write everything you feel)
is what i don't like something that really makes me uncomfortable or is it due to something bad that someone told me or based on a standard of beauty?
what can i do to change that?
(what can you do right now to change that or what would help you feel better?)
what would my best version look like and what would she/he think of herself/himself?
(both internally and externally)
from now on i commit myself to be/do...
(a list of things you are really going to do from now on to get better, e.g., exercise, eat healthy, go to therapy, ignore what other people say about me, etc.)
ways to improve my relationship with my body 🌿
learn to love ourselves as we are at this moment in time
stop judging ourselves and being perfectionists
exercise
eat healthy food and take care of our nutrition.
forgive ourselves for the times we speak to or treat ourselves badly
do things that make us feel good every day.
not compare ourselves to other people
fill our minds with positive thoughts
talk to each other and treat each other with respect
highlight our positive things
keep working on ourselves with exercises similar to this one.
stay away from environments/people that support or perpetuate the obsessive idea of physical beauty or canons of beauty.
spend more time in real life than on social media
read books that support us in our process of growth and healing
the use of positive affirmations
if you have done this exercise write in the comments "🤍"
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