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Flowers Masterpost A - Z

Arisaema triphyllum Senecio vulgaris

A personal list of correspondences, as well as health facts and other names.

Arum - immortality, vitality (don't take while pregnant/breastfeeding)

Angelica (archangel) - wards, banishments, protection, purity. Soothes cough/cold, reduces fever. (Don't take w diabetic meds)

Arnica Montana (mountain daisy, mountain tobacco) - health, protection. Anti-inflammatory, oil eases muscle pain. ( poisonous in large amounts - severe gastrointestinal fever, nausea, fever, dizziness, diarrhea, internal bleeding)

Agrimony (rats tail) - reversal spells, protection, divination, sleep, revealed lies/secrets. Oil relieves muscle/nerve pain. Cream helps circulation, arthritis, and colds.

Azalea (Rhod odlendron) - happiness, spirit work, burial ritual offerings (poisonous - nausea, vomiting, coma, deep depression, difficulty breathing, fever, internal bleeding, abnormal heart rate)

African violet (saint paulia) - protection, spirit work

Althea (Hibiscus syriacus) - purity, prosperity, anger, protection

Aster - love, offerings, protection, wishes

Astilbe (False goatsbeard) - purity, prosperity, anger, protection

Avens (Geum) - exorcisms, purification, love

Bluebell (Hyacinthoides) - encouragement, subsequent danger, fields of them = fae are near, death omens (bulb is poisonous)

Blackthorn (Prunus spinosa) - an ill omen, warfare, death, secrets, murder, protection from fae, fertility, bad luck (poisonous in large amounts)

Bachelors Button (Centaurea, cornflower) love, death, offerings

Balm of Gilead (Ceclronella) - spirit work, love, secrets, beauty, confidence (skin irritation, severe stomach ache, don’t take if pregnant/breastfeeding)

Belladonna (nightshade, Atropa belladonna, death herb, devil’s cherries, devil’s herb) - death, dream magic, transformation, divination, astral projection, visions, curses (deadly poisonous - blurred vision, hallucinations, red skin, fever, dry mouth, loss of balance, coma, can be absorbed through skin)

Bryony (Bryonia diocia) - luck, money, life

Burdock (Arctium Minus, fox dote) - displeasure. Reduces throat infections, minor rashes and boils.

Buttercup (frog’s foot, Ranuculus areis) love, madness (poisonous - rash, blisters)

Bleeding heart (lamprocapnos spectabilis) - expression, love, passion, death, luck, bad omens, tragedy (poisonous in large amounts - convulsions, rashes)

Blue Cohosh (Caulophyllum thalictroides) - empowerment, purification, money, love breaking, protection (Don’t take if pregnant - miscarriages)

Black Cohosh (Actaea racemosa, cat’s foot, snakeroot) - courage, power, love, potency, protection, happiness (don’t take if pregnant - miscarriages, nausea, rash, headache)

Betony (Stachys Officinalis, common hedge nettle, bishop wort) - purification, protection, cleansing, devotion

Bindweed (Convoluos arvensi, devel vine, devil guys) - humility, curses

Black - eye - Susan (rudbeckia hirta, brown betty, gloriosa, daisy, golden Jerusalem, English bullseye, yellow oxe eye) - transformation, life, healing, soul, love. Soothes swelling, back pain, earache, immune booster

Blue flag (Iris Versicolor, poisonous flag, chagon flower, dagger flower, dragon flower) - sorrow, hex breaking, don’t trust fae holding this, (poisonous - nausea, vomiting, irritation of mouth, skin, throat and digestion track, headache, watery eyes)

Bromeliad (chameleon star) - invisibility, stealth, remourse

Blue vervain (Verbena hastata, enchanters plant) - enchantment, protection, wards, celebration, sacred, marriage, love. relaxes the nervous system, pain relief for rheumatism, joint pain, and neuralgia (don’t take if pregnant/ breastfeeding)

Camellia (Taponica) - wealth, luxury. Oil treats burns

Calla (water arum) - death, curses. Treats cold/flu and snakebites. (poisonous in large amounts - tingly tongue)

Carnation (Dianthus caryophyllus, Alli flower) - strength, healing, death, love, bad omen for talents, agony. Aids sleep

yellow - disdain, contempt, rejection

white - offerings for funeral rituals, intuition

Calendula (bride of the sun, marigold, tagetes) - legal matters, rejection, Samhain, grief, vulgar, youth, jealousy, despair, joy. Energizer.

Cowslip (Primula Veris) - discoveries, treasure, youth, beauty, fae magic (Allergic - hypotension, high blood pressure, gastrointestinal irritation)

Chrysanthemum (mumindictum, mums) - fae magic, youth, fire, used in burial rituals, ancestry, blessings, bad luck on love, clairvoyance. Tea treats migraine, anti-bacterial.

Celandine (Chelidonium majus, devil’s milk, pilewort, fig buttercup) - protection, business, law, confusion (nausea, dizziness, fatigue, fever, liver damage)

Centaury (Centaurium erythraea, christ ladder, feverwort) - Luck, sun, ancestry. Aromatic, bitter, tonic, aids rheumatism, soothes, snake bites

Chamomile (from the loins, blood of Hestia) - fortune, protection, curses, fae magic, love, purification. Anti-bacterial, anti-inflammatory, anti-spasmodic, calming, sleep (don’t take with blood thinners)

Colt’s foot (Tussilago, winter heliotrope, clay weed, fieldhore, British tobacco) - love, speed. treats cough, bronchitis, clogged nose, poultice. Don’t take if pregnant/breastfeeding, on blood pressure meds, if allergic to ragweed, don’t take with alcohol)

Columbine (aqaliqua) - foolishness, innocence, protection, love, courage

Crocus Sativvs - love, strength

Carlina acaulis - health, sex, fertility, protection. Anti-viral, helps cold/flu

Daffodil (Narcissus) - love, luck, fertility, innocense, water, fae realm, youth (poisonous - staggering, numbness, paralysis)

Daisy (Bellis perennis, Soapwort, little star, oxe eye) - good and bad luck, growth, water, returning innocence, cleansing burdens, love, youth, reincarnation. aids diahrea, anti-inflammatory, helps cough and sore throat.

Dittany of crete (origanum dictamnus) - fertility

Daphne (laurel, Daphne odora) - hex breaking, darkness, fear, ill omens, dream magic (nausea, diarrhea, vomiting, rarely but can be deadly)

Datura (Datura stramonium, angel’s trumpet, moonflower, devil’s apple, witchweed, jimson weed, Devil’s snare) - visions, divination, spirit work, love, charms, insomnia (deadly poisonous, don’t inhale or consume - dry mouth, vision problems, nausea, vomiting, constipation, fast heart rate, hallucinations, high temperature, breathing problems, confusion, death, seizures, convulsions)

Dahlia - Beauty, tragedy, bad luck, eloquence

Edelweiss (Leontopodium nivale) - invisibility

Eyebright - mental clarity

Eryngo (sea holly) - luck to travel, peace, luck, love, exorcism

Echinacea - power, strength, invisibility, love. reduces cold/flu, anti-bacterial, (don’t take if you have tuberculosis, have HIV/AID’s, any auto-immune diseases, lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, or are allergic to ragweed)

Forget me not (Myosotis) - bad luck, love, earth, prosperity, hidden wealth, unlucky to lovers, don’t trust fae holding this

Foxglove (digitalis, bloody fingers, dead man's bells, fairy fingers, lady gloves) - fae magic, offerings, wards, immortality. (poisonous, toxic - upset stomach, blurred vision, slow pulse, nausea, vomiting, muscle weakness, tremors, confusion, convulsions, abnormal heart rate)

fleabane (Erigeron, colt’s tail, semen of Nepriesos) - exorcism, protection

Gardenia Japsminordes - love, harmony, healing, peace, purity, innocence, hope, trust, protection, breakups, steal love, spirit work

Goldenrod (Solidago, Aaron’s rod) - treasure, wealth. Relieves gout and cramps, aids digestion eases cold and hay fever) (don’t take with liver medications)

Geranium (pelargonium, chocolate flower, crane’s bill, crow/dove’s foot, old maid nightcap, shame face) - fertility, health, love, protection, death, weddings, friendship, wishes. Relieves stress and tension, uplifts mood, anti-inflammatory, soothes itchy skin.

Galega officinalis (goats rue, French lilac, Italian fitch, professor weed) - health, healing. Ant-bacterial, mild diuretic (don’t take if pregnant/breastfeeding)

Gorse (ullex, prickly broom, furze) - protection, fertility, restores faith, sun, Lammas, encouragement, good omen

Groundsel ( Senecio vulgaris, old man in the spring) - Health, healing

Gelsemium sempervirens - tradition, curses, death, ill omens (extremely poisonous - headache, vision problems, difficulty swallowing, dizziness, muscle problems, seizures, breathing problems, shallow heartrate)

Heather (Calluna Vulgaris) - health, luck, durietic, anti-inflammatory, detoxifying, aids cold and cough

Hawthorn (crataegus, bread and cheese, hagthorn, mayblossom)- fertility, chastity, happiness, water, luck, protection, wealth, beauty, don’t trust fae holding this, associated with fae underworld Berries - anti-spasmodic, cardiac, diuretic, tonic and vasodilator.

Heliotrope (turnsole, valerian tagara) - protection, dream magic, luck, deception, visions, astral projection. Calms, aids IBS and high blood pressure.

purple - new love

white - innocence

imperial - majesty

Hellebore (Helleborus, semen of helios, Christmas rose) - water, protection, invisibility, nature, banishments, intellect. (don’t eat - stomach ache, burning mouth, eyes and throat, vomiting. If applied to the skin - irritation of the mouth and throat lining, vomiting, diarrhea, nerve problems, blindness)

Hemlock (tsuga Canadensis, devil’s oatmeal/porridge) - power, astral projection, death, bad omens, destroys love, fertility (stomach ache, vomiting, progressive paralysis to the nerve system, neuromuscular block, can be fatal)

Henbane (hyoscyamus higer, devils eye, stinking nightshade) - love, reversal magic, shapeshifting, invisibility, binding, protection (dilated pupils, hallucinations, increased heart rate, convulsions, vomiting, hypertension, ataxia, delirium, mania, dry mouth, death)

honeysuckle (ionicera, woodbine, goat’s leaf) - protection, money, dream magic, luck, affection, weddings. Relieves gout, anti-inflammatory

Hyacinthus (old man’s bells) - peace, sleep, love, luck, grief, pain (nausea, vomiting, can be fatal)

Hibiscus (bats wing) - lust, love, divination, passion, independence, confidence

Holly - protection, luck, prophetic dreams, money (berries are poisonous)

Hydrangea - hex breaking

Iris Croatia - wisdom, beauty, purification, protection from fae, fae offerings (severe digestion problems)

Jasminum - love, meditation, harmony, sleep, moon magic. aromatherapy, Calms, regulates blood pressure

Juniper - protection, love, bad luck, dreams, exorcism, health

Jack-in-the-pulpit ( Arisaema triphyllum) - tragedy, ill omen, death, love, revenge (skin and mouth irritation, swelling, burning, difficulties breathing, upset stomach)

Lily (Lilium) - strength, success, faith, ill omen, death, bad luck, vitality, rebirth, beauty

water lily - purity

lily of the valley - happiness, sweetness, divination, bad omens, indoor protection, death

yellow - falsehood, happiness

white - purity, sweetness

tiger lily (figridia pavonia) friendship, pride

Lilac (syringa Vulgaris) - protection, banishment, rain, mourning, spirit work

Lotus (nelumbo Nucifera, sacred lotus) - eloquence, love, recantation

Lavender (Lavendula, elf leaf, nardus) protection, healing, beauty, air, attracts good and bad entities when worn, longevity, fertility. Reduces anxiety, tension, headache, stress, indigestion, low blood pressure, anti-bacterial, antiseptic, disinfectant (causes drowsiness, don’t take w sedatives/lithium)

Lobelia (Indian tobacco) - love, longevity, elegance, peace (toxic - dizziness, intense nausea, and vomiting, don’t take if under 18, if pregnant/breastfeeding, or have any heart conditions)

lovage - love

Life everlasting (Helichrysum arenarium) - longevity, health

Masterwort ( Peucedanum ostruthium) - Strength, protection, courage

Magnolia (cucumber tree) - love, persistence, death, wisdom, insight. Aids high blood pressure, dysentery, diarrhea, fidelity

Mallow (Malva) - protection, exorcisms, love

Morning glory (pomoea, devil’s gut, goats foot) - binding, banishments, attraction (toxic - diarrhea, gastrointestinal pain, anorexia, hallucinations)

Myrtus (myrtle, periwinkle, viena minor, devil’s eye) - love, fertility, peace, money, beauty (poisonous - should not be consumed, nausea, vomiting, hearing and hair loss, dizziness, seizures,low blood pressure, death )

Orchid (Orchidaceae) concentration, memory, focus

Oleander Nirium - sickness, bad luck, protection, transformation

Pansey (throla tricolor, var hortensis, love of idleness) thoughts, love, marriage, disappointment, divination, rain

Pennyroyal (mentha puleqiuem, stinking balm) - luck, resolution (severe kidney,, liver, and brain damage, stomach pain, nausea, burning of the throat, fever, vomiting, confusion, restlessness, dizziness, don’t take if pregnant - miscarriage)

peony (Paeonia) - shame, beauty, luck, charms (don’t take while pregnant/breastfeeding)

Pimpernell (angellis arvensis) - change, protection from deception, melancholy, sleep, banishment

petunia - relaxation

Plumeria - love

pipsissewa - money, spirit work

poppy (blind eye, papauer somni ferum) - luck, happiness, dream magic

red - consolation

white - dreams

scarlet - extravagance

primrose (password, butter rose, pimula Vulgaris) - youth, sadness, inconsistency, merit, healing, fae offering, bad omens

Rose - love, beauty, happiness, tranquility, curses, glamours, pride, grace, charms. Anti-bacterial, astringent, tonic, aids cold and flu and digestion pain.

white - worth, unity, purity

red - love, courage, respect, passion

yellow - jealousy, friendship, joy, creativity

white and red - unity

yellow and red - new love

peach - gratitude

coral - desire

orange - desire, enthusiasm

light pink - sympathy, admiration, grace

lavender - love at first sight, enchantment

blue - unattainable, impossible

Burgandy- unconcious beauty

Senna- love, faith (irritable bowel lining, laxative)

snapdragon (calf's snout, antirrhinum) - protection

Spiderwort ( Tradescantia) - love

sunflower (helianthus annaus) happiness, optimism, health, luck, confidence. Diuretic and expectorant, aids fever, reduces swelling, aids an upset stomach

trillium - love, luck

Tulipa - love, beauty, glamours, grounding, protection

Valerian (bloody butcher, capon’s tail, cat’s herb, Ram’s horn) - nightmares, anxiety, sleep, purity,

Veronica officinalis (birds-eye) - fidelity, trust

Violet - death, rebirth, love, luck, nervousness, anxiety, paranoia

wolfsbane (aconitum) protection, invisibility (disables nerves, lowers blood pressure, avoid skin contact, stops the heart)

Wisteria - enchantments, fae magic, longevity, adventure, purity. (poisonous - severe stomach pain)

Zephyr flower - expectation

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winedad16 · 4 years

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3. Guilt

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Drug Use/Abuse/Addiction, Alcohol Use/Abuse/Addiction

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Pervitin:

Methamphetamine (occasionally laced with cocaine) was sold in tablet form under this brand name in pill form. (More featured at the end).

1942

“ Can you hear me?”

The voice felt so familiar, but it came and went too quickly for Klaus' brain to recall what it sounded like. He was groggy.

“Klaus. Hey. Can you hear me?”

Klaus opened his eyes, a bright blue sky greeting him. He glanced over to where the voice came from. He saw Freddy looking down at him, his gently quaffed hair falling out of form.

“Hey, handsome,” Klaus greeted, propping himself up on his elbows.

They were resting on a soft comforter.

“Did you hear what I said?” Freddy asked, shifting closer as he brushed a few loose hairs from Klaus’ face.

“Um,” Klaus thought for a moment, leaning into the blond’s touch as he struggled to remember anything.

He furrowed his brows when he realized he had little to no memory of anything before this moment.

“I can't recall anything, I’m sorry.”

Freddy sighed and dropped his hand.

“I was talking about the flowers,” Freddy began to summarize, holding up a small bundle of blue flowers. “Myosotis arvensis, forget-me-nots. They signify remembrance, hence the name.”

Klaus watched as the blond stretched his arm up towards the sky, holding up the bundle of small flowers. The sun illuminated the soft blue pigment within the flower.

“Aren’t they gorgeous?” Freddy asked as he gazed at the flowers.

“Yeah,” Klaus distractedly replied, his eyes refocusing on the blond.

Something didn’t feel right. Like something was missing like he didn’t know Freddy.

Freddy dropped his arm down and turned back to Klaus with a soft smile. He leaned in on one of his forearms and tucked the bunch of flowers behind Klaus’ ear.

“Now they’re ten times as gorgeous,” Freddy whispered.

Klaus lazily smiled at the compliment.

“Thank you.”

Freddy smiled and placed his now free hand over to the opposite side of Klaus’ legs and softly kissed the brunette. Klaus partially kissed back and slowly closed his eyes, feeling like he was in a fog. It felt right but he couldn’t recognize why it did.

Freddy pulled away with a small frown, recognizing Klaus’ mental and somewhat physical distance.

“You’ve been quiet, what’s wrong?” The blond asked before kissing Klaus’s nose. “What’s going on in that mind?”

“I’m… I’m not too sure, Freddy,” Klaus replied, slightly moving back.

“What do you mean?” Freddy asked, moving his hands into his lap.

“I don’t feel…” Klaus looked around. “Where are we?”

Freddy’s brows furrowed, perplexed.

“We’re by the lake near my mom’s?” Freddy said with a small laugh. “We’ve been here tons of times.”

“Have we?” Klaus asked, looking around.

“We have- have you been drinking?” Freddy grabbed the thermos by Klaus.

Klaus slightly shook his head ‘no’ as Freddy unscrewed the bottle and took a whiff.

“Hm,” Freddy hummed, screwing the cap back on and tossing it aside as he looked back at the older male.

The thermos disappeared.

“Maybe you’ve just been in the sun too long,” Freddy suggested.

Freddy placed the back of his hand on Klaus’ forehead, but Klaus didn’t feel the contact. Klaus leaned away.

“You feel fine, actually. That’s odd,” Freddy noted.

As Freddy kept speaking, Klaus was unable to hear the words clearly. It was all muffled and a slow high pitched piercing noise was in his ears. He looked over to the blond. Klaus couldn’t distinguish his features anymore. He just wanted to see Freddy’s blue eyes, but he was unable to. Klaus knew that they were there but… they weren’t.

“What do you look like?” Klaus asked, interrupting the muffled and ringing noises in his ears.

“What?” Freddy asked with a nervous laugh. “Are you coming down with hysteria or something?”

Klaus blankly stared at the man before him. He was struggling to map out the man’s facial features even more now. Freddy’s face was covered by a storm of swirling colors.

“Do you seriously not remember what I look like, Klaus?” Freddy asked, standing up.

“I… No I do, I promise Freddy I do I’m just having a hard time-”

“What the hell? Does our time together mean nothing to you?” Freddy began yelling.

“No, no of course it does, Freddy it’s just been a long time and I don’t know what’s happening,” Klaus began as he stood up, tears forming in his eyes.

“My name is Klaus Klenzendorf and I can’t remember the love-of-my-life because it’s been a long time,” Freddy mocked, waving his arms around.

The brunette felt dizzy since his eyes wouldn’t stop draining his body of water. Klaus helplessly watched as his tears melted the landscape around them into a stark white. It was like chalk on the sidewalk after a storm, beautiful and colorful one moment but swiftly washed away in the next.

He looked back to Freddy, whose face was distinguishable but now bloody and contorted, the rest of his body was like that too. Startled by the blond’s appearance, Klaus began running to him. But his efforts were futile, the more he ran the farther Freddy seemed to be.

“Why don’t you remember or love me anymore, K?” Freddy asked, whispering in Klaus’ ear as he stood behind him.

Klaus jumped at the sudden appearance, turning around to face him. Blood and ash coated the younger male’s brutalized face.

“Why do- who told you that I didn’t? What happened to you?” Klaus reached out to cup the man’s face.

The blond harshly grabbed the brunette’s wrists, causing them to crack. Klaus hissed out despite not feeling the pain.

“I know what you did with that man.”

Klaus’ heart stopped momentarily at those words.

“Freddy who told you… No, you know I would never willingly...” Klaus swallowed, not liking to think about it. “Do that .”

“You’re disgusting, how could you go behind my back?” The blond seethed.

“I didn’t want to, Freddy. You don’t know how painful it was for me to go through that. I thought that out of all people you would be the most understanding,” Klaus tried explaining.

“I thought I could trust you,” Freddy sobbed, his hands wiping at the tears, blood, and ash from his face, despite it not doing much.

“Of course you can, Finkie. But where are you? What happened to you, are you okay?” Klaus stepped forward with concern.

“Don’t touch me!” Freddy exclaimed.

Freddy pushed the brunette back, causing the man to stumble and fall backward.

“I hate you,” Freddy yelled.

Instead of hitting the ground, Klaus jolted upwards. He was in bed again, panting heavily, his head was pounding and he felt sick. Freddy’s words rang in his ears.

I hate you.

Klaus sighed and pulled one leg up to his chest. He rubbed his face with his hand and rested his forehead onto his knee.

“It wasn’t real, Klaus,” He whispered to himself.

He had dreams that had similar endings to the one he just had... if he could even call it a dream.

He rubbed his leg in an attempt to comfort himself. Unfortunately, Klaus was unable to get himself comfortable enough to go back to sleep after the dream, along with his pounding headache. It had implemented unwanted thoughts and memories.

Klaus kicked the blanket off of his feet with a huff. He needed to shower.

The man found himself waking up on the sofa with a bottle of vodka in hand later that morning. His head was pounding as he sat up, looking around. There was an abundant amount of cigarettes in the ashtray on the small table beside the couch, along with a small pack of Pervitin and a white residue smudged on the wood. Klaus concluded that they were most definitely new, he was good at keeping the tray clean.

The forty-nine-year-old didn’t remember anything that had occurred since his shower during the earliest hours of the morning. He was practically naked, lounging in only his boxers and thin undershirt. The bottle he held was practically empty, only holding a few sips left. Klaus promptly swigged the rest and dropped his head back down with a sniffle. He felt a wetness drip from his nose and onto his thigh. It was blood.

“ Shit,” He groaned and stood, his hand cupped just below his nose as he ran to the bathroom, scooping up the pack of Pervitin on his way over.

Admittedly, Klaus would’ve realized how embarrassing and pathetic this looked if he had a roommate. Ever since he was restationed in Czechoslovakia he had resided alone in an apartment that was honestly too small for a grown man. Between the cramped and isolated feeling of the apartment and his declining mental state, Klaus had found great company in alcohol and pills. The meth and cocaine-laced drug issued by the army was his favorite. To his dismay, the pills were restricted to prescription-only the previous year.

Lucky for Klaus, he had become friendly with one of the government-assigned medical officers in late 1940. The man became the brunette’s source for Pervitin with a small monetary bribe.

Of course, Klaus never dared to drink and pop or crush n’ sniff pills to large extents when he had work the next day. He had even cut down on public smoking with the heavy enforcement of anti-tobacco and alcohol laws. But, he made sure to catch up on his indulgences in the privacy of the cramped apartment he resided in.

Klaus had taken leave this month and decided to just not go home. If he were to be honest with himself, he was scared to go home, to go home and face possibly dark reality. The possibility of finding out that Freddy was dead or that the eldest of his nephews had enlisted, or even if the city had gotten bombed. He hadn't written home since early 1940, and his sister and brother had stopped writing altogether by July of that year, the last letters being birthday wishes, news of his nephews joining the HJ and Hitler Youth, and that his sister-in-law had birthed twins. He was an uncle of four now.

Klaus reasoned with himself that he didn’t have to go home, that his family would be able to carry on without him visiting, so he stayed cooped up in his apartment.

Of course, having a month and a few days off would be both physically and mentally damaging to Klaus. He had plenty of time to partake in what helped him forget about the despair that loomed around him. Eat, shower, drink, pill, vomit, drink, sleep, repeat.

To say Klaus was completely aware of his addict behavior would be inaccurate. He was definitely aware of the number of addictive substances he was consuming but didn’t realize the toll it took on him as he drowned out his misery with the drugs and drinks.

On occasion, when he consumed cocktails of cigarettes, vodka, and Pervitin, he would experience panic attacks and go through visually explicit episodes, induced by smells and intrusive thoughts of what happened in the bar bathroom in 1939. The more he took the more heightened the episodes got, paranoia of the captain being there, his heart rate accelerating and occasionally stopping, and the feeling of the world around him being dilated. He didn’t know it, but he was lucky that he was required to check in his firearms at work.

He was spiraling.

AN:

“It was used by all branches of the combined Wehrmacht armed forces of the Third Reich, for its stimulant effects and to induce extended wakefulness ... usually found himself unable to perform effectively for the next day or two. Suffering from a drug hangover and looking more like a zombie than a great warrior, he had to recover from the side effects.” - Methamphetamine Wikipedia

“...the German army ordered them to take military-issue pills made from methamphetamine and a primarily cocaine-based stimulant ... Cocaine, whose effects substantially overlap with those of amphetamine but feature greater euphoria, was later added to the formulation to increase its potency through the multiplicative effects of drug interaction and to reinforce its use by individuals.” - Drug Policy in Nazi Germany Wikipedia

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