ok okokok GASP. when farleigh and oliver are playing fuck marry kill and farleigh says that he’d like to fuck richard iii because ‘he’s insecure, so you know he’d put in the work’… oliver has been insecure all his life and doesn’t fit in anywhere. oliver told elspeth ‘unlike you, I actually know how to work’. richard iii allegedly killed his way to the throne just like oliver did. farleigh was attracted to oliver because he put in the work !!!!

The main difference between Archives and Protocol so far is that the Magnus Institute was a tea workplace and the OIAR is a coffee workplace

What makes a person a monster? Tea

What makes a monster a person? Coffee

postmaster pearl and her *ahem* postmaster pigeons

Alastor: I'm an evil unknowable monster that only does things for strange manipulative Machiavellian purposes and i am never affected emotionally by anything

Rosie and Mimzy: he's an anxious aroace sweetheart who'll do anything for people he likes and is hugely protective to the point of self-destruction, but if you let him know this he might disintegrate, so we let him know he's very scary and formidable every once in awhile to boost his confidence- YES ALASTOR YOU'RE A DEPRAVED LOATHSOME TERROR OF THE INCOMPREHENSIBLE ELDRITCH KIND! YOUR ABILITY TO CAUSE CARNAGE IS WIDELY KNOWN! YOUR PRESENCE FILLS PEOPLE WITH DREAD 👍

Tragic bbc boys

they got that ND swag

these shirts man omg pls i love em so much

green haired guy that has haunted my character types for 10+ years

Absolutely NOBODY EVER is allowed to say that Tommy doesn't like Buck just as much (if not more) than Buck likes Tommy. Nobody EVER can say that. This man worked a 10+ hour shift fighting a fire that left him Covered in soot, and his FIRST THOUGHT once it was over, was to get his ass to the hospital to be there for his date with Evan. Without stopping to change or shower or even wipe his damn face. No one is EVER allowed to say that Tommy doesn't care about Evan Buckley. I am going to bat for this man.

(Also something something "I walked through fire every day of my life because of you"/"love me anyway"/"sorry I'm late, that fire was a beast"/"so are you" invisible string theory okay goodbye)

nobody move. i've just successfully articulated the sentiment that taylor's power turns her into a panopticon because she was living in one & explained her trigger in a way i feel satisfied with for the first time in my life

the concept of the panopticon is not just about surveillance, but about creating an environment where people cannot be sure whether or not they are being surveilled, and thus must constantly act under the assumption that they are. which is exactly what happened to taylor--we see from when we first meet her in the school that she's anticipating attack from every possible direction to avoid it, and the one time she lets her guard down a fraction and assumes she's found a safe spot to hide from abuse, she's targeted with the juice spills. and this is after her trigger event, but it's clear she behaves this way because it was beaten into her over the entire course of the bullying. it's what she describes when she recounts the trigger:

“I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop.  But I made a friend, one of the girls who had sometimes joined in on the taunting came to me and apologized.  ...  Her approaching me and befriending me was one of the big reasons I could think the harassment was ending.  I never really let my guard down around her, but she was pretty cool about it. “And for most of November and the two weeks of classes before Christmas break, nothing.  They were leaving me alone.  I was able to relax.” I sighed, “That ended the day I came back from the winter break. I knew, instinctually, that they were playing me, that they were waiting before they pulled their next stunt, so it had more impact. I didn’t think they’d be so patient about it. I went to my locker, and well, they’d obviously raided the bins from the girls bathrooms or something, because they’d piled used pads and tampons into my locker. Almost filled it.”

the precise moment when she stopped consciously anticipating and preparing to react to abuse--when she relaxed, when she stopped acting as if the lack of danger didn't mean that she couldn't still be hurt at any time--is when she was brutally reminded that she's never safe. she's still in the panopticon. she isn't literally being watched every second, she isn't literally in lifelong danger of having her vulnerabilities exploited, but it feels like she is. she can never ever be sure she's safe.

so she triggers, and she gets a power that turns her into a panopticon, and lets her watch everyone right back. it lets her regain control by turning her into a source of danger that could attack anywhere, from any direction, any time, fully unexpected.

& the reason her power enables her to watch Everyone--not just a single person, or a few people--but Everyone, is that the other major aspect of her trigger is the trauma of facts like this:

“It was pretty obvious that they had done it before the school closed for Christmas, by the smell alone. I bent over to throw up, right there in a crowded hallway, everyone watching. Before I could recover or stop losing my breakfast, someone grabbed me by the hair, hard enough it hurt, and shoved me into the locker.”

"All I could think was that someone had been willing to get their hands that dirty to fuck with me, but of all the students that had seen me get shoved in the locker, nobody was getting a janitor or teacher to let me out."

for months, for years, she was in a community where everyone regularly witnessed her humiliation and abuse, and everyone, dozens and dozens of kids and teachers, either contributed to it or was knowingly, silently complacent. this is what sticks with her: the idea that she is so universally reviled, so deserving of revile, that any crowd of witnesses would, without hesitation, consign her to the filth of the locker.

what else is she supposed to conclude, but that everyone she interacts with is a threat? that she can't drop her guard ever again, because no one will be coming to help her if she does? of course she has to become the panopticon. of course she has to watch everyone, all of the time, if she wants to stop it from happening again. of course she has to live among the teeming lowly and crawling things she has been taught via one firm shove that she is worth less than, and of course she has to use them to watch everyone back. and it would be inaccurate to say that doing this--monitoring everything with her bugs--makes her feel safe. all it does is allow her to remain in a constant state of paranoia and traumatized hyper-vigilance more efficiently.

OKAY WAIT

So hobie's laces are yellow and blue. Yellow symbolises antiracism, and blue indicates you've killed a cop

.........

Did hobie kill the captain in his universe

I will no longer be the prince of shame and of secrets. Starting today, the world will know me for who I am and not who you want me to be.

YELLOWJACKETS: 109. Doomcoming ➙ 203. Digestif    

lost dogs and old flames

(based on tags from @martynsimp69)