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lychniis · 7 months

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reader : you know, back in my world...my universe, we sent these disks out on one of our first space probes. they were called the golden records and they contained things about us. our culture, our music, our world, our people. even our history and biology. all of it spanning over ninety minutes. scientists...they stated that those records? they will last over a billion years. could you believe that? they'll last longer than human civilization, and possibly any civilization after that. and if some alien species did find it in the far off future, did manage to learn how to play it...they'd be reading the last memoirs of the human race. we'd be gone but that record? it would be there, and then you realize...that was our way of finding immortality. those songs, those photos, those greetings; that was us. that was all of us, who we were; the last credible proof of our existence to a people who might have never heard of us. and then you realize, with all that time it might take, with all vastness of the universe it might have to travel...we're just...so small compared to it all.

jing yuan : ...i love you but i think you need to sleep.

reader : sleep...huh it also makes you think about the workings of the human body-

jing yuan : *slaps hand over your mouth* no.

@hiraethsdesires @silentmoths @crystalflygeo @zhxngii @ofoceansandtombsanew

#&&. incorrect quotes !!#jing yuan x reader #honkai star rail #honkai star rail jing yuan #jing yuan #i listened to some recordings from the GR last night #and it brought thoughts #i did not sleep #honestly it's so meloncholic in a sense #to think we'll die out but we'll still have this to be remembered by #an idealized take on the human race #there's no war in the records. no poverty. no famine #and while i might say that it doesn't encapsulate humanity as a whole #i also realize i tend to see the worse in it more than the good sometimes #and a part of me #that really optimistic part of me #is glad that we do have that romanticized take #yes it's cheesy #yes it's not the whole picture #but when you see the ugliness more than the good #and you listen to all those people who were just so hopeful #you realize that the human race is not just hellfire and agony #and it makes you feel a little better

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the-badger-mole · 18 days

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Love how you shamelessly hate Aang—I mean this totally as a compliment by the way! I’m so tired of seeing “I ship Zutara but I LOOOOVE Aang he’s a cinnamon roll baby!!!” and “you can like Zutara and also like Aang” and “it’s the WRITING that’s bad not Aang!” takes…ugh. Please. He’s a cartoon character and I don’t like him. That isn’t a crime. He’s boring at best and an entitled borderline abusive little shit at worst. I don’t like him! It’s so refreshing to read your blog, I don’t understand this fandom’s obsession with acting like he’s a real child we have to coddle

I don't understand it either. Then again, I will go to the mat to defend some pretty controversial characters, so who am I to judge (justice for Mr. Collins!) ? I don't mind that other people like him -some of my favorite people in the fandom like him- as long as they don't come after me for not liking him.

But yeah, the defense of him boiling down to "bad writing" always felt off. To me, bad writing is when the character suddenly takes actions that seem to come out of nowhere. Aang's actions in the back half of ATLA and into the comics and LoK track. They track very well with who he was even in the first season. Yes, he got worse as the series progressed, but the seeds were always there. I guess, if you want to make an argument for it being bad writing, you could talk about how his bad traits in the first half seemed to be setting up a growth arc that was abandoned in the second half. There's an argument to be made there, but it's not an argument that Aang's worst traits were OOC for him. I am not shocked at the kind of family Aang ended up having. I'm not shocked at how Kataang the couple turned out. I'm only shocked that Bryke managed to be that honest about Aang without realizing how awful he was.

#atla #anti aang #anti kataang #okay i feel the need to explain myself with mr. collins #is he the best character?#no #does he seem like a joyless drip?#yes #but in his defense he just started a new job and his livelihood depended on him kissing his rich boss' silk clad bottom #his drippiness is job security #am i glad lizzie turned him down?#ABSOLUTELY!#but him wanting to marry one of the bennet girls was an act of kindness that i don't think gets the credit it deserves #he was trying to make sure his cousins wouldn't have to face a life of poverty and insecurity after their father died #that was mad decent of him!#i will die on that hill

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swagging-back-to · 2 months

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every single time you stress out about your taxes, or your rent, or your debt, or your mortgage, or your car payment, or your medical bills, or climate change, or your stress over having to work and just do basic things like eating----- remember that if you have children, *you are directly responsible** for them feeling all of that suffering and stress and pain when they grow up.

#anti natalism #anti natalist #antinatalism #antinatalist #i genuine sit down and wish harm upon the woman who birthed me every single day for the fact she chose to keep me just to put me in foster #she did not need to make me or my four siblings.#she chose to.#she lived 3 minutes away BY FOOT to a planned parenthood.#she got rid of all her kids immediately after birthing them #she is nothing more than a factory to pop out suffering.#and i fucking hate her for that.#i would wish harm upon my sperm donor too but he already died #to think all ofthis couldve been avoided if she just did not keep me or god forbid used a goddamn condom #my entire life has been suffering. not even just with adult responsibilities #although those are definitely making everything worse #as in. im about to die on the streets homeless in a month or so.#bc i was born into poverty and abuse #all couldve been avoided if i was just never born

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kathhey · 4 months

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i think about spensa and then i remember how much she has been through and then i cry

#she has never had a break in her life man.#lost her father. lived in poverty. bullied. pushed to the edges of society. hunted in caves to feed her overworked family. fought tooth and #nail to get into flight school. isolated from her friends and forced to live in a cave on rats throughout most of flight school. watched he #friends die. watched her friends leave. watched her father betray humanity. nearly got killed and had to eject. kicked out of flight #school. fought like hell till near annihilation to prove herself. lived on another planet as another person for weeks. betrayed by a fellow #human she trusted. faced her biggest fear. forced to run for her life into a nowhere portal. captured. overtaken by guilt all because she #wanted a break. lost her dearest friend. lost her humanity. and the rest are defiant spoilers #god dammit all i want is for her to be happy. shes lived such a horrible life i love her so much she deserves the world #please brandon make her happy #im about to cry again #skyward #brandon sanderson #cytoverse #skyward by brandon sanderson #spensa nightshade #starsight #cytonic

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glittergroovy · 3 months

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can't get food stamps if you're a full time student, have to be a full time student to get financial aid for school

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#they want ppl to die in poverty i swear #job hunting for a YEAR with no success. decide to try to finish a degree to improve chances of being hired #in a damn predicament #students cant eat i guess #im allergic to most stuff in food pantries! gluten eggs dairy aliums..#im in nyc if anyone has advice im legit at my wits end #trying to apply for cash assistance but their stupid app doesn't work and no one picks up

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tench · 1 year

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Today is one of the days when I don't see the point to keep living, and yet I'll to keep going and try not make it everyone's problem (and I already failed that part)

#personal #today is i will die alone and in poverty kind of day #i am halfway there so why prolong the suffering

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georgevilliers · 5 months

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#look I know this is a silly hill to die on but as a history nerd I feel I must die on it #George Villiers was not a prince or royalty and barely even nobility #his father died when George was young and they were on the edge of povert but his mum sent him to France to learn to be a courtier #he was also used as a pawn by some court members to oust the kings old favourite that they did not like #so he was essentially sponsored to stay in court and seduce the king #like I said I get it it’s probably not worth my breath #but I think it’s important to know George and his mother worked to pull their family out of obscurity and near poverty #to George receiving dukedom #ANYWAY.#mary & george #nicholas galitzine

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andthebeanstalk · 8 months

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I am deep in my anger about the ignorance/apathy that the majority of abled Americans have about how deeply fucked up this country's treatment of disabled people is. Not only am I ENRAGED by it, but also it doesn't make logical sense! Don't they know they will become us? Don't they know that it is only the unlucky who die too young to develop a disability? Don't they understand what's coming for them??

I want to be legally allowed to save money! I want to be allowed to marry my wife legally! I want to be able to buy nice things and go on vacations, instead of being trapped at home with no wheelchair and no ramp! And I am only 29! Everyone knows when you get old here, you get locked away in a sad understaffed facility, and folks are out here acting like they'll never grow old!

The only thing keeping my grief and my feelings of helplessness against a massive enemy from overwhelming me is this project I've been working on with some new friends.

There's this piece of land, you see. It's huge and beautiful and being sold way WAY under market price. And there's a chance - not a guarantee but a real chance - that I will have the opportunity to live in this beautiful green place and to build a community and a free medical treatment center there that will change and save lives.

I see before me a path to create a bright spot of rest and love in the darkness, where I can prove to person after person - and to myself - that a better life IS possible, right here in America, where most of can't afford to leave. In America, we are meant to believe a life of poverty is just something some people deserve. They don't. No one does. And I have a chance to make sure as many people as possible know they do not deserve to be left behind.

The world does not need more heroes. The world needs more care. The world needs places to rest. People need to be told that they are valued even if they cannot labor - and THEN they need to be treated like they deserve help and have value beyond their labor.

I spend a large part of my life trying to prove to the government and doctors that I am poor enough/sick enough/disabled enough (in the exact ways they approve of) to receive help. - Without this constant, intricate song and dance of evil banality and arbitrary denial and cruel loopholes, I can be denied what I need to live. (I am only alive because I have the privilege of having rich relatives, who paid for my college education and currently pay my rent.) If I was not able to afford an assistant, I would already have lost all of my benefits. Currently, I am at risk of losing my Medicaid because I missed an unexpected "prove to a doctor you are still disabled" deadline. There is a massive and ongoing burden of proof in this country placed on disabled people and subject to the whims of rich white abled judges and the minutiae of paperwork.

That's why it's so important that I have this opportunity to help people. I cannot tell you what it will mean to me the day I get to look someone in the face and tell them that their housing and medical treatment will be free as long as they need it and with nothing expected in return. I wanna meet someone who has been trying their hardest for as long as they can remember to build a stable life, and I want to be able to tell them to please try their softest. To prove to me nothing. To take their time. I will tell them that I need neither justification nor evidence to believe them when they say they need help. I want to be living proof that people deserve help just by being alive on this planet. I want to be included as part of that. I deserve a soft place to land too.

Also this property has a wheelchair ramp, meaning I could finally get a wheelchair after 2 years of needing and not having one!

One of the other members of the team has already brought up building a system of elder care on the property that would allow people to receive comprehensive health care as they age and to remain part of a vibrant community!

There's Hope. There's Real Hope. I can hardly believe it.

And if this particular opportunity doesn't work out, well, I'm never going to stop pursuing that dream. Never. I will either get there or die having journeyed towards it my whole life, and in doing so, I will have made this world a little softer in a million other ways, and I will have made the path a little easier to walk for whoever comes after me. I used to want to leave destruction in my wake or die trying. But in this, I will leave creation in my wake, and I will live trying. (And if doing so allows people to grow strong enough to destroy evil institutions... good.)

I am going to look at every cruelty of this system that nearly killed me, and I'm going to foster the right conditions to do the exact opposite. I will take the ableism of my family who wouldn't believe that I couldn't work even when I was dying, and I will do the opposite. Oh, the people I will believe! The people I will help feed! The people I will protect and build strong houses and long tables with! The people I will learn from! - I haven't even met most of them yet! How exciting that my life may still yet be long and full of wonders!!

I hope anyone reading this who has also at some point felt like a long life would be a curse, especially if they feel like that right now... I wanted to say that me and my friends and people like us - and opportunities like the one I've been blessed with - will only be able to help you if you stay alive long enough to be found. Or to find us, as the case may be.

If you can't live long enough, it's not your fault. Truly, it's not; and your death would be a tragic loss to yourself and to this world that I cannot begin to describe because it would make me so sad my literal heart would start to hurt and I'd never get to bed tonight.

But please, please, hold on with everything you have, for as long as you possibly can. Please handle your heart with the gentlest hands you can muster. I need you to live long enough to sit at our table because nothing is guaranteed except that you must be alive to do it. And I'm saving you a seat that only you can have, and without you it will remain forever empty and our table forever incomplete. You are invited to this party, and it just won't be as good without you. I'm a lousy cook, but I'm making friends with chefs, and I promise I will make sure you have enough food. There will be music and laughter and dancing. Some of us will dance in our wheelchairs. Some of us will hug and cry and plant flowers. All of us will stare in amazement of the better days we once thought impossible.

And I for one will be so fucking happy to see you there. I will take you by your hand, look you in the eye, and with the greatest, warmest relief in my heart, I will thank you for living to share this day with me. Because I know damn well that it was stupid fucking hard, and that it is not okay how hard it was.

But, look, now the sunset is warm upon our faces and the children are laughing with the community elders, and we can sleep knowing we are not alone. We made it. We really made it.

And maybe it's not specifically me and it's not specifically you - the metaphor has its limits. But there are so many people like me who want a better world, and there are so many people like you who deserve to live to see it.

And if we never see better days, then I will count each day we survive as a victory and a rebellion, because that's what they will be. I will cherish and live for each little bit of love and joy we carve out of the darkness.

But a better life does not become impossible until we are dead. Which means as long as we still live, there is Hope.

Have courage and be kind, friend. Be kind to yourself especially - even if you can only do so a little bit at a time, it's worth the practice. Turns out it is harder to live than to die. But I care that you are found.

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Optional musical accompaniment to this post bc I've never had any chill and I don't see why I should start now:

A practical song about managing anxiety with the line "i care that you breathe" in it

Brian David Gilbert's beautiful song "See the Day"

A song about surviving while sick in America, and which I am told once saved a life

A lovely nerdy song called "Critical Hit" that inspires me on the days I have a little more energy

#original #ableism cw #medical trauma cw #trauma cw #ablism #poverty #hope #hopepunk #cripplepunk #this world is not yet lost. and it won't be until we are all dead. and we just have to deal with that.#suicide mention #kinda #some people react to talk of Hope in different ways. it's okay if you don't like the way I talk about it. we can have different brains.#i still care that you breathe #brian david gilbert #the altogether #ghost mice #if i die before i make my great big dream come true i will at least die knowing that my small kindnesses and my work has #helped and even saved people. the little things are in fact not little at all. they never were. others have saved me w such casual things #we deserve safety and peace and life. this is the Truth. i will hold this truth close to my heart in the hopes that you can do the same.#if this post helps people then that's great but I wrote it to help me remember my hope. if it helps someone else then that is a double win.#I must make a post like this once a month. I can't help it if I'm a parody of myself. or rather I can but why would I want to I'm a delight

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