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tricoufamily · 6 months

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the culling

#two-headed lamb that's the title baby #it's how they meet. a two-headed lamb is born amid all the death and plague on the commune so it's taken as a really bad omen #they said hey you gotta kill this lamb you're the butcher here but he didn't wanna so he wandered in the woods for a bit with it #and there ilya is. this is ilya pov the second they see each other. you see a freaky twink with a two-headed lamb. your next move??? 🤨🤨🤨#ilya kills it for him. anyway the lamb rig was being so so nice until i got to the ears </333333 ears are broken i can't put him in game #ts4 #ts4 edit #ts4 render #the sims 4 #hinnry #two-headed lamb

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taegularities · 8 months

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some men are textbook villains fr

#tw religion?#kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on #some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago #liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not #tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much #i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different #things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how #id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet #but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that #and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on #you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding #things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc #life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam #me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you'#AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you'#even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that'#and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone #(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it)#(nothing even ever started you bitchass)#also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it #mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal..#but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared #my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN #'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean #i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective #but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back #and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever #anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol #def gonna delete later #but ty for reading if u did <3

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siribunbun · 1 year

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Happy Birthday, xiansheng ;y

(or alternatively, Venti’s fanfic lol)

fun fact: I had to fight the Childe weekly boss multiple times to figure out what Zhongli’s charge attack sounds like upon impact.

fun fun fact: this story actually has a sequel gag relating to the boss drop (haha), but i’m too tired and got other projects to move on to, so maybe I will draw it later. ;yyy

That’s it for my dumb gags involving Childe, thanks for being a part of this ride. I’m finally gonna move on to a more “serious” involving Noelle and Diluc in January, so uh look forward to that I guess. ;w;

#genshin impact #zhongli #Tartaglia #zhongchi #tartali #comics #this one was honestly my fave #but man was it rough to draw #mainly bc it's got the most pages and also i'm bad at suggestive art #i...i wanna draw more in the future...but my old heart can't take it #happy birthday zhongli #i'm rendering stuff now so the childe book should be ready soo aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #pls let me be productive and done so I can move on to Noelle ;A;#anyways thanks for reading the tags if you do #if you read this far let me know what you think?#i feel like my gags are hit and miss #but i enjoy seeing the reblogs and comments #so thank you for that ;u;#ANY ANYWAYS HAPPY NEW YEAR AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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shootingstarpilot · 4 months

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fucking hell.

#this is honestly the best kind of problem to have #but i got a job offer at PEARL HARBOR #and i have to give them my decision tomorrow #the question is if i want to uproot my entire life for the second time in six months #and can i AFFORD to #i want to work at pearl harbor so so bad #let me do exhibit design for a park that sees 1.8 MILLION VISITORS A YEAR #who are there for the HISTORY #b u t #i don't wanna move to hawaii LOL #i recoil from the logistics #literally just moved from west virginia to UTAH in september #do i want to move from utah to HAWAII for a four-year position #and sell off everything that can't fit in two suitcases

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tardis--dreams · 3 months

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I was so concerned with the horrors of making a doctor's appointment and the horrors of finding a job that i completely forgot about the worst horrors of them all. Finding an apartment.

#i just realized that yesterday #after my appointment #and now my rest of my time off is ruined #because i have to find a place to stay and the chances are low that I'll find something okay #the student dorm apartment was the hight of luxury (pretty new. good stove. good bathroom. hot water....)#now I'm most likely going back to broken showers‚ old almost unusable stove‚ hot water every once in a blue moon‚ no room to move #ugly depressing dirty #my dream is unattainable i know #i don't even want more than one room (even though in the long run i would love to have an apartment with a kitchen in a separate room)#but i would love to have an oven #i know it's too much too ask and i should be happy if i have a functional stove #also a bathroom that doesn't look and behave like it's 100 years old and is fully functional would be so nice #and my actual most important concern is having enough space to work out #it doesn't need to be much. i just wanna be able to move freely enough so i don't have to worry about bumping into anything #when doing burpees and whatnot #but I'll take what i can get #if have no choice #i can't commute. the train connections are too bad.#alright #I'll message some people now and get rejection after rejection after rejection 🥲#void screams

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tvrningout-a · 6 months

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hmm how would we feel if i remade

#i am so horrible about feeling okay with deleting drafts or asks and tbh i think i've overwhelmed myself with options #i'm hanging onto everything i've ever been sent and everything i've written and it gives me decision paralysis #like i wanna write and the muse is booming but i can't decide on one thing #and tbh!! this blog won't save new tags which is a minor inconvenience but still #there's that and the fact that there's so much extra stuff from muses i've gotten rid of #hmm i dunno i'm just thinking once again i just need a clean slate and to hopefully manage my inbox and drafts more responsibly #like i write as much as i can for certain prompts and then delete everything i don't have muse for #so i don't open my blog one day to 200+ asks that are unanswered #me @ me every day: pls get some help oh my gosh #i will say i hate the thought of moving bio's and headcanons but! we do it in chunks and then it's not so bad :' )#sorry to ramble so much asdfg i'm just wondering if on top of everything that's going on rn #i'm not helping myself by holding onto so much #get ready to ramble | ooc

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nctaezen · 2 years

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taeyong honey drop the full lyrics don’t be shy

#taeyong #ghost #from whip me more so i can feel it more to wanna hit it so bad till you can't move...okayyy #upgraded whiplash era part 2

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juriyuna · 5 months

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some people like to turn everything into angst. i'm the opposite. catch me spinning fluff for even the most objectively horrible characters and relationships

#i have a bad case of I Can Fix Her syndrome and it's incurable #there's something cute about awful characters having softer moments or being allowed to change. you know?#and fluff for unhealthy ships gives me so much to chew on #are these two bad for each other? yes. but it makes me Feel Things to think that it could get better #(and sometimes it makes the negative aspects hurt more because it doesn't Have to be that way)#(they could end the cycle. they are capable of tenderness. they could move forward. but they don't. augh)#I Can Fix Her extends to dead characters as well #like okay canon said she died and it was very sad #but through the power of headcanons or AUs i will resurrect her and give her another chance #i wanna think about how she'd interact with other characters!#there are adventures to be had that she's missing out on by being dead!#you can't die yet!! get back in here and go have fun! or at least go ruin your life in more interesting ways than dying #i need a new personal tag

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sugared-violets · 4 months

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are you fucking kidding me. roommate just broke the ONE nice decoration i have downstairs cause she couldn't be bothered to be careful of someone else's shit for once in her life. it was a beautiful preserved dandelion my mother gave me and i really loved it and she just fucking opened the window without checking if anything was in the way and shattered it. i only had it for like two weeks. awesome.

#i wanna move out so bad dude i can't put up with these fucking college kids anymore #dani.txt #plus they're always complaining abt how boring and undecorated our downstairs is like yeah this is why.#cause you guys cant be fucking trusted #vent post #i really loved that flower i'm really genuinely sad about this

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skrunksthatwunk · 26 days

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yeah i can't come to class today, sorry. yeah. yeah. it's cause my hair's too long. mhm. gonna put me out of commission til the weekend at least

#fuck it's too long it's too long it's too long hate hate hate hate hate kill kill kill #i am resisting the urge to cut it all off with scissors but just barely #i havent been able to go home lately and my clippers are there. fUCKK #ITS TOO LONG SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE #i cant stop thinking about shaving my head again or at least cutting it short #it's summer i should have short hair summer is for short hair FUCKK THIS IS WEIRD #i feel like a sad stonermetal mushroom. in middle school. and NOT in a cool way if that wasnt clear!!#hhhhhhhhgnnnghfhn fuckk i feel so gross and weird #i didnt even do anything why are my spoons gone FUCKK. SHITITTTUJ DAMMIT #this is so dumb i literally skipped my second class for no reason and i have so mucj work but i didnt even do anything #i shoudktn be this out ofnit. euhhhhhghh #and i have a new friend and he really really wants to hang out and i dont hav.e the spoons #but i feel so bad.. and i have other ppl i wanna hang out with but i cant bring nyself to readh out #and even if they reached ouy i probably wouldnt be able to respond and i have to go see a show thid week too #bc theyre doing into the woods and i love that shit and i promised id go ans ive been lookign forward to it for months #but i cant. bwuhhhhhhhhghhhh #and i cant just tell the new friend i don't wanna hang out twice this week (one is the play) bc i blew him off all last week #i really dont wanna hurt his feelings but i really can't communicate like he wants me to. and ive kinda said that but still #mmmmmmnnnnuguhghh hes only doing it bc i mean a lot to him but it's moving so fast ans I can't really be there forbhim the way he probably #deserves.. i should probably eat skmething idk. eughhhhhhhhgghhghhggh. melting into a pile of slop and slurry rn #just gonna sink into my bed and not sleep and feel bad. hoorayy

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distantsonata · 9 months

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all I do is dread work. I have to wear heavy shoes. and operate heavy machinery. in a warehouse. with a bunch of sweaty weird guys. one guy was listening to Linkin Park cover Wish though and I was like hell yeah I like this guy a lot haven't listened to that in like 8 years

#he played some other bangers too #can't really remember what they were #I wanna like... play my music... but my music is so fucked everyone would be like. bro #it'd go from Marty Robbins to... idk. something fucked. celldweller -> 99 luft balloons -> 100 gecs #and you have to like use a bluetooth speaker #and 1) don't have one 2) god I don't want them to hear my music #I left my last job bc they wouldn't let me use the headphones I bought #but that was bc EVERYONE told me I could use them #that's why I bought them #I wish I could use them here but. I expected zero music #they told me you can't have your phone in the warehouse but like. everyone does. no one gives a fuck #dude the pallet jack is HARD to reverse. I'm so bad at it #these motherfuckers whip it around like it's nothing and I'm like :D hey mind if I get down and move this pallet onto it #i am NOT gonna last lmao #sigh #I'll figure it out

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mod2amaryllis · 2 years

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so this very frustrating PetSmart tetra experience has been winding down because they are just friggin dying. yesterday morning we were down to 2 and last night that was down to 1 and frankly i was expecting the last survivor to go while i was at work. but.

i am going to try.... VERY hard for the next 12 hours...... to not get optimistic.... unfortunately I'm a romantic and i am rooting for this guy.

#convinced it was a bad shipment #the ammonia and nitrites have tested perfectly this whole time so it's not that #and every one that died was breathing rapidly and lost the red color right before they croaked #which i thought could be attributed to the quarantine meds which change water viscosity but it SHOULD be super-#-oxygenated with a sponge filter on one side air stone on the other and a nice circling current #so now this guy is breathing normally. colors bright. was at least CURIOUS about food even though it didn't wanna eat #trying not to give it too much attention since it's gotta be uber stressed being all alone #we're not gonna be around this weekend so i don't wanna risk moving my established tetras over if i can't observe #man i really really should not get my hopes up over a 3 dollar fish but cmon little dude you can do it #m2a #fish tag #fishblr #animal death

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thebleedingeffect · 1 month

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#okay I'm talking in the tags of this post cause shit is happening in my life and I gotta talk about it somewhere #one part of it is my step brother crashing and burning before my very eyes and there's nothing I can do to stop his own destructive actions #so it's just me watching this poor kid ruin his relationships and blame everything and everyone around him as he does so #despite the fact that he's undeniably been treated horribly at times- he's just turned that anger back onto others and himself #and I have no idea what to feel as I watch him get arrested. have drug problems. because I'm just waiting for the inevitable spiral #it doesn't help that my mom has been comparing us and saying that I'm the much better child and she wishes he was like me #not understanding that I could’ve been him if I was just more angry at the world at that age instead of being so sad and scared #and that leads me to my fucking mom cause like- I love her. we've been through alot of bad shit with her #I've almost done some really bad shit for her and I know that she loves me more than anything else #but it feels like its been getting more and more suffocating cause I'm not sure she's able to start seeing me as an adult #and start loosening her grip around me and let me breathe. to have my own experiences without her by my side #to be able to go places and imagine a future without her constantly by my side #she talks and it's like she doesn't even think to wonder that perhaps I want to form my own experiences #and experience the world on my own terms because I feel like I've spent my whole life having so little damn control #religious family. shit and neglectful father who turned into the exact opposite and nearly killed me. family who refuses to listen and talk #having to move and run immediately. put survival above all else. go to school. get out. and god I just wanna breathe #she loves me so much and I love her too. but I feel like I'll be sooner crushed if I stick here for long enough #I'm just mad that my life has been nothing but absolutely no love. sudden waves of intense love. absolutely nothing. sudden spike #and I feel like I'm just finally starting to form good. healthy relationships on my own terms and actually make friends #because I had no idea what I was doing when I was a kid cause I was so fucking lonely and hurting #now I just. gotta figure out how to tell my mom that I can't carry this expectation that I'll continue to stay forever by her side #it just feels like I'm her child first and a person second. and it sucks. it really sucks.#ough. spins and spins and spins and spins-

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heartsburst · 1 month

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me every time i kind of forget and leave something to the last minute: what if i gave up. what then.

#frankie yells #like. i don't forget but i don't idk internalize? that the deadline is fast approaching?#im just like yeah i've got time i'll get around to it! and then i start 1 day before the deadline #and i don't have energy to finish it in one sitting and i don't have the focus to finish it in one day #so then i have this harried rush to finish it the day of. like.#damn bitch you live like this???#like oh wow your time management is terrible actually?? and that makes you feel bad about yourself???#it almost like??? you have untreated diagnosed adhd????#crazyyyy who would have thought it would negatively impact you in like all aspects of your life #not your mother obviously hahahahahaha #idk it's just like i can't not leave things until the last minute and i am fucking myself over constantly and chronically behind on work #what if i gave up??? 🤨🧐#what then?????#like dawg idk if i have another 2 weeks of school in me :(( and club obligations on top of that...#i just want to party w/ my friends before i move away for a year and figure out wtf im doing 😭 i don't wanna have stuff to doooo ughhhh

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tardis--dreams · 8 months

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Gonna go running tomorrow!!!! Gotta hype myself up because i know once my alarm goes off at 6am i will not be as excited anymore ((((: BUT I'LL GO RUNNING!!!!

#i just #need to get some actual exercise #where i can completely exhaust myself #i mean. i get some pretty exhausting 10 minutes every morning on my hike to class #but i want something a bit longer and something that will end in a nice shower and not in a seminar room #I'm just a bit scared of how it'll go because so far the paths where people exercise are also occupied by other people #and then there's bikes that might kill you if you don't watch out #so i wanna go early so i hopefully avoid random people taking a painfully slow walk in the middle of the path #so you can't pass them #but I'll be moving!!! fast!! i cannot wait tbh #i should have gone tonight #(watch me oversleep and be too unmotivated to go tomorrow morning... istg if i don't get up at 6 #I'll still go at 8 or 9 or 10 am and have to live with the consequences of the paths being crowded #I'd go to bed early but my neighbors keep me up until 2am every night so that's fun #but the running will be worth it #(I'm not even a runner ㅠㅠ i just need to substitute my usual high intensity workouts with something other than pilates and yoga #i mean it's definitely not bad to be forced to do something out of my comfort zone but i really miss my jumping around time)#void screams

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puppyboychewtoy · 11 months

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visiting my master was lovely. we ran a couple errands and then they went on a drive with their boyfriend while i did chores, and then we all got a lil high and master asked if anyone would lay down and cuddle them. and so then we cuddled and i got fucked :) and then the next morning we cuddled a while more and then i got told to go get the cuffs and something to be spanked with and i got tied up and fuck they really went to town. they stopped because i was yelling so bad they didn't want to scare the neighbors lol,,,,

#🔒#they keep asking when im gonna move in and its. :( i can't yet but i wanna so bad

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