But like how cute would it be if I sent baseball boy a message about how I feel like he’s gonna her a homerun today and he does and then we start talking and I’m his good luck charm and we start to date and it’s like a fic come true😌😌😌

rug hook edition of color combos I liked but didn't quite work out

im excited for Protocol but. oh god... the main cast prominently includes three women and none of them seem particularly 'kind' or 'caring' theres gonna be so many shit takes as soon as one of them isnt perfect under pressure

hot solarpunk take ive been thinking about off and on all day

i don't like joey santore/the crime pays botany doesn't guy.

i don't hate him. i just absolutely cannot sit through more than 5 minutes of his videos without getting fuckin dizzy.

also i know he's not the head of the 'if you don't know the latin names of everything in your garden if not your neighborhood if not your state then you're a hashtag fake native plant enthusiast' train but he's like lowkey the face of it for me so i get frustrated just hearing about the guy

((tw for suicidal thoughts))

I think I should be worried that one of the first few things that I think about when I start to get suicidal thoughts and that hold me back from doing it is that I won't be able to see the next twomp episodes lmao

i think ppl kinda miss the point of why pink femme girl power aesthetics are empowering to some women, and this isnt specifically about the barbie movie bc i havent seen it so idk how its gonna pull the whole thing off, but it has definitely sparked a lot of discourse around this. but its not about "telling girls its ok to be feminine" because of course the society already pushes femininity onto women. its just that women are devalued, and women are devalued no matter what they do, however femininity is FOR women and it is because of that association with women that femininity is also devalued (regardless of gender, but even when performed by women). it is an expectation, but it is taken for granted. like for example it is expected for women to do makeup and care about fashion, however it is simultaneously taken as something shallow and frivolous to have as an interest or hobby, and people who point out that it actually takes a lot of skill and artistry are dismissed and brushed off. and again this is a skill that is just expected that all women will have! and celebrating femininity, in for example movies like legally blonde, is saying that no, there is inherent value in this thing, there is inherent value and skill and use in having traditionally feminine hobbies, feminine women had to work and femininity doesnt make someone lesser. and when we accept these as their own skills, hobbies, interests, hopefully we can also separate them from womanhood, and we can accept women as, yknow, their natural state. femininity is an action and it has value but women should damn well opt out of it if they want to.

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theres a lot abt post-ph ive never really mentioned. grants theres also a lot i havent figured out

so i got impatient waiting for my collector’s copy…

if i were a more petty person, i'd compile all the various ways I've seen people tag things that I cannot seem to find a way to block and filter out afab reader content of.

i'll fucking tell you though, i'm getting pettier and pettier by the fucking day.

yk it’s weird, despite being terminally online since about aged 5 and constantly speaking to internet strangers i’ve never really had an actual online friend?? like i have people i talk to on the internet that i don’t know irl and people i message occasionally don’t get me wrong but my online ‘friendships’ usually never last more than a week, closest thing i have to one is this guy who i speak to for like 20 mins about once a month lol and even then he’s my best mate’s friend, so more of a mutual friend than abything

anyway i’m rambling but i’m just curious bc i see all these ppl on discord servers with like 4 other people, none of which they know irl and they’re like mega bestie besties and know each other rlly well and i always feel slightly sad that i’ve never had that lol. anybody else have this or is this just a me thing?

i actually hate my father so much i cant even describe it in words

been building my own save like making my own households and my own houses an stuff an its so fun tbh

i want to go home so bad

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i have to go back to stupid texas and do my stupid job soon