((tw for suicidal thoughts))

I think I should be worried that one of the first few things that I think about when I start to get suicidal thoughts and that hold me back from doing it is that I won't be able to see the next twomp episodes lmao

my friend: i want to listen to more music :(

my friend: billy. you should send me some of your music. show me some sick metal punk whatever music.

me: *shaking with excitement anxiety in the corner*

me: w-what...?

also me: okay so like... *inserts spotify links*

enemy of the world - four year strong

letters to our former selves - youth fountain

tribulation worksongs - modern life is war

let it enfold you - senses fail

turn on the bright lights - interpol

misery made me - silverstein

for when you're falling backwards - rome hero foxes

lifes not out to get you - neck deep

my friend: GODDAMN

my friend: thanks for the music

I'm currently filling the last pages of the sketchbook Ive been drawing in since 2021 and its pretty fat plus I havent done a new video in a while even though that was one of my goals for 2024, so my queston... would anyone be anyone be interested in me recording a flip through of my sketchbook? If yes should I talk and comment on the drawings or should it be a silent vid/underlined with music?

im so grateful for this corner of the internet where i can just get my frustrations out

Something something among us reference

today is another bad health day. going to draw rue and gort being silly to cure me...

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The way this quote (about Narkina 5) from this interview with Diego Luna just smacked me right in the face: 

“...it wasn’t until I was there, until I got to my cell, that I understood the problem is the ground. The problem is, you can’t walk. You have to be afraid of putting your feet on the ground.

Holy crap, what a concept. And then being in a non-stop factory that sells you on the idea of a release that never comes.” 

twitter addicts gotta be having the WORST time rn

look the thing is i usually dont really Care how other people enjoy characters. but i always get a little 😮??? whenever i see the "vampire daddy yessss he looks like a god" etc brand fans of astarion like wnsjsjdjdjfjfjfjf i look at him and go wow. he's such a pretty boy with his eye bags 🤩🤩🤩 and his wrinkles 😍😍😍 he has a weirdo vibe like he's acting really offputting which i find charming... he's supposed to be a deception master but he gives away his lies soooo easily?? and he doesnt really know how to hold a conversation when you push him far enough from his script?? he's also so endlessly silly like he's just a little stray cat 😌😌😌 but watch out!!! stray cat behavior is Really there like he will lash out and act like a huge bitch occasionally. again that's his charm!! he's such a bitch (im saying it lovingly). his face looks a little bit like the grinch doesn't it

posting things im unhappy with and not stressing about it. posting things im unhappy with and not stressing about it. posting things im unhappy with and not stressing about it. posting th

having a really bad meltdown

oh one more thing about the recent Issues i mentioned this morning and i'll not mention it anymore. if you're mad at him for demonizing disorders by pointing out she has bpd, you have absolutely no right to be calling him a narcissist. narcissist is not a synonym for abuser, you are just as wrong here

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(hey tags have vent stuff in em)

gee things seem to be getting better i think im doing okay!!!

one week later: