hiii!! after thinking things through a long time, i have a small anouncement to make 😖i've decided to take a break for a bit !

it won't be long, like a month or two maybe- or maybe even shorter than that, it'll depend on how im feeling haha

i'll still be writing and working on stuff, it just won't be my main priority, and i wont post it during my break aslgsdk; i've just been feeling really frustrated with my writing and stories recently, and have been feeling as though i need to work on stuff and get them out on time-- but that's just not me ! i won't get anything good to come out if i continue to force myself to write even if i have no motivation, especially since i've been pressuring myself to finish my halloween story on time,,, and it just doesn't feel fair to me or my lovely readers aadslfslh

i'll still be active, but maybe not as much! i'll probably use this time to reply to all the feedback i never responded to, (im so sorry </3) and work on my wips without feeling any pressure to get them out at a certain time.

dont miss me too much.. (im kidding.)

I DON'T HAVE TO LIE ANYMORE!

CHILLS AND CRYING AND THROWING UP BLOOD AND GOOSEBUMPS AND AWE AND EATING GLASS AND GOING INTO CARDIAC ARREST AND MAKING A LOBOTOMY APPOINTMENT AND SHIVERS AND TEARS AND THRASHING AND ENGAGING IN FITS OF FEMALE HYSTERIA AND GETTING DRAGGED INTO A PADDED ROOM I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY WHAT DO YOU EVEN SAY TO ALL THIS WHAT CAN YOU EVEN /SAY/

just to think that i said all this (kept this in my drafts) and i was so so so wrong. "knowing how sensitive trauma is in general" hasnt aged that well because i find out that. this waman is a CHILD ABUSERRR!!!!! like how's a woman gonna be sensitive to trauma when she's an abuser (well she could be sensitive to an extent, but not to a full extent as she SHOULD be). you know usually i would condition myself into forgetting spoilers but this was so hard to ignore like ffs i called Kokoro my BABYGIRL!!!! i called her MY girl that was my princess!!!

Yk realistically if the om bros were fucked up like demons should be, they wouldn't be that disturbed by bloodlust el's personality.

However, I think the terror and angst comes from the fact that they lived with him his whole life, and for the most part, he was very passive and calm and never immediately resorted to violence, so to see [what used to be] their human revel in bloodshed is.. unsettling.

In my mind

Yes exploring Yingxing's relationships with the High Cloud Quintet is so so nice, it's fun I love to think about them

And sure exploring his relationships with ppl from the Zhuming like his master General Huaiyan can be even better

But the need to explore his relationship to his family despite what little time he had with them is ingrained within me and I feel a tad bit insane thinking about it

Mhmhm hmm hmnm

I've been toying with a dragonformers au in my head. Not set in a particular canon, bit of a fusion of whatever I want.

So the transformers are dragons, obviously. But I'm torn between having it be about dragon riders, so Dot with Megatron, Raoul with Tracks, etc. Or a conservation area for wild dragons, with the humans basically being park rangers. Or a combo, a retirement area for dragons used for combat.

I'm sorry, I'm just tossing ideas about.

Hmmmm. Now, I'm not quite familiar with dragonformers as I've probably only read one? Fic with it, and even then i didn't quite finish the fic.

Buuuut, here's what I'm thinking here: a mixture, like you've suggested above. Some of them have grown up with humans their entire lives (or most of their lives) and have handlers. Some have had little to no human contact throughout their life up until this point. Some fall somewhere in the middle of this spectrum. I feel like it's exactly a good idea to suggest some are former military, but not all of them. Why do I suggest that last line? Hear me out, but

Dragon rehab.

it’s that time of week again…

oh hey wow there are more than 10 Bishop fans out there. More 4 u

bonus:

Is it wrong to be a Taylor Swift hater?

Like... is it low-key leftover internalized misogyny?

Or does her music just suck?

coming out of mania is just. like. ya know. like.

0/10 i wouldn't recommend it

“i’ve never seen daenerys say ‘serve me drogon’ just sayin” okay but isn’t a major plotpoint in both show dany’s and book dany’s arcs that she has difficulty controlling the dragons and the reason she locks them under the pyramid is because they’re running wild and won’t listen to her? isn’t the whole scene in daznak’s pit in the books about how daenerys specifically has to whip drogon and give him commands and has to subdue him after he nearly rips her head off because he isn’t obeying her words alone and hasn’t for a while at this point? like it’s a major theme in this entire franchise that dragons have difficulty being controlled especially if you don’t entirely know what you’re doing and that’s a bit theme in how dany’s story plays out in both versions we’ve seen so far what the fuck are you talking about.

ugh I hate how many games I love are tainted with memories of disgusting people

bc i only made one post about it like 4 days ago now or something, i am only letting myself on tumblr for like 10 minutes a day until i finish this commission

oh..... that is beautiful.