#I mean yeah my memory's fucked up because of the system thing so sometimes my memories of being at that shelter are super fuzzy but other
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Sometimes I can’t let people stay at the shelter because they are violent or pose a threat to children not because they are not well liked or unpleasant. As a public servant I do not deny help to those who are unpleasant i deny help to people who are actively putting me or others at risk.
Then the post wasn't about you, One Of The Good Ones. stay in ur lane
#my mom worked at a womens shelter for a long time I've witnessed a lot of fucked up shit#hurrah for you being a good one but I do have to say when the power rests with people able to make those calls they're going to make calls#that kill people. maybe you dont happen to live in a deadly climate but denying someone shelter in a place like alaska is essentially#a death sentence#obviously someone posing a threat to others means you can't just lump them in with someone else but guess what there needs to be an option#peoples opinion of you should not determine wether you live or die#especially when that opinion can be filtered through lenses like 'this is a black man and therefore dangerous' so like#I watched one of my moms coworkers turn native women away because 'oh we're full tonight' and then gladly accept white women. the problem is#also a racial one. don't even get me started on vets being turned away for ptsd symptoms that ppl didn't understand and weren't dangerous#it's almost like the marginalized are marginalized further when a marginality is comorbid with others or something wow#this isn't meant to be aggressive at the anon btw I'm glad we have A Good One Put There I'm just tired of people using that as an excuse to#*out not put#dismiss systemic issues that I've witnessed personally#I mean yeah my memory's fucked up because of the system thing so sometimes my memories of being at that shelter are super fuzzy but other#times they're crystal clear so don't come for me lmfao
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You know one of the purposes of Lining?
Shock Absorption.
If the Zone is the Inter- and EXTRA-Dimensional Lining, connecting, containing, and generally powering all of Multiversal Creation? The Great Primordial Soup? The Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust, from which we came and too which we return?
If the Zone itself is basicly the place between Universe, where your soul goes to get washed down, cleaned up, recharged, and sent out to wherever the next random portal takes it? To BECOME whatever you happen to find? An infinte recycler and Multiversal management?
The great metaphorical Yggdrasil, grown far beyond few branches, into an incomprehensible forest of one?
Well!
That kinda changes things! And also nothing! Because it means that those who remain? Are basicly squatting in the DMV's attic. Have built bunkers, under the country's main power generator. They really SHOULD move along. Granted, there is no one to MAKE them... but like...
That's cause no one thought anyone would NEED too?
Lol. Don't they feel silly? Anyway, I'ma put MY house over-! *wander off to go squat in the rafters*
Yeah, the CONCEPTS are native. But those probably just generate naturally. It's all the Souls constantly flowing through. Lots of background Sentience and Memories and such being washed away into the air. But? Then these lil souls were like "yeah, but if THEY get to stay... me too! D:< " "no, you can-" "ME TOO" and then they stopped listening and did what they wanted.
Good thing we have literally infinte amounts of room.
T...there's so MANY, you guys.
But! Not the point here!
*smacks white board* Realities! The Die too sometimes! And get born! A beautiful process, really. You can find Reality Beads if you know When and Where to look, some times. They, OBVIOUSLY, don't last for very long. Since they are basicly just seed universe. The explosive growth takes them almost immediately out of our range of perception, as they Begin.
Foundations of all Life and such.
But good God are they MAGNIFICENT!
However, sometimes? The REVERSE happens. If you find the area of the Zone your in? Is getting... "wavey" is the best way people describe it. Distorted. Fun house mirror. As though your vision has weird wrinkles that are distorting and stretching your view of things? Get Out. FAST.
If it's only SLIGHT? Barely noticeable? You can grab your Lair. IF, and ONLY IF you are NEARBY! If not? Remember. Things can be replaced. YOU? Can not.
Cause that "wavey"-ness? Is the final stage of Realm Entropy. The universe that portion over the Zone is covering and connected too, is all hollowed out. And about to CAVE IN. You DO NOT want to be there when that happens!
Remember! You see "waves"? Fly for three days!
Get to the edge of the affected area then KEEP GOING for a full three days flight. Warn everyone in you path. We stay safe together, guy. Collapses are NO JOKE. People get... well. Let's just say it's NOT a nice way too go.
Knowing this of course? We should all be SAFE right? Respectful if Awed distance from Reality Seeds, run like he'll if "waves"? We Gucci?
.....Sooooorta.
*flips Whiteboard to other side, to reveal a cartoonishly drawn Supervillian labeled "Asshole"*
Behold! A Terrorist!
It's a charged word. Not used lightly. But THESE fuckers? Oh ho ho! THESE fuckers?! "Ooooh~! Look at MEEEEE! I'm gonna play with FORCES I DONT UNDERSTAAAAAAAND! Destabilize my whole funckin UNIVERSE! Kill countless TRILLIONS OF TRILLIONS! Cause life was bad to me personally and I'm mad about it! Wah wah wah!!" ASSHOLES!
These fuckers? Cause Collapses. Blow Outs. Weird Fucked Up Cancerous Real Growths. You ever seen the Cleaners? No? You don't WANT TOO. They are basically eldritch, deep sea, angler fish looking mother fuckers THE SIZE OF SOLAR SYSTEMS. They travel in SCHOOLS.
BIG ONES.
When Realities collapse, they "fall off" as it were. Detach. And have to get recycled. All the countless impurities of Life eaten way to a blank slate. So it too, can start again. Thus the Fish. But! They ALSO eat anything "problematic".
Like tumors. Cancers. Poisoned, Multiversal Threats. Those quote on quote "God Killers".
Yes. Yes this IS part of why you DONT want to be near a Collapsing Reality.
No I WON'T explain how I know.
I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.
*smack the board with pointer* pay attention.
Jason Todd. Not! An Asshole. Sexy thighs. Fancy lil hair strip. We all miss him. But! He's off living his "no really, I'm totally alive, guys" hot girl summer or whatever. We are going to respect that! But!!! How did that happen? When he was DEFINITELY Hella dead?
Superboy Prime-y Pants. Who IS an ASSHOLE.
Because THAT fucker? PUNCHED HIS REALITY SO HARD IT NEARLY SHATTERED. Oh, no, I'm sorry! He punched SOMEONE ELSE'S reality! Because he is a tantruming MAN CHILD! And NOW? Now, Your Majesty, that WHOLE ASS Reality is more hair line cracks then border walls! One good shove? It'll cave in. Killing every soul inside.
The Cleaners are ALREADY circling.
It needs to be patched. Immediately. But that's not something normal ghosts can DO. The Zone won't LISTEN to us. Nor allocate the energy for it. The Concepts of Healing? We can't even FIND them.
We need help.
Please help them, King Phantom. You're the only one who CAN.
@hdgnj @babbling-babull @hypewinter @ailithnight @mutable-manifestation @nerdpoe @the-witchhunter
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Medicine is a numbers game. I use probability all the time. If you don't understand probability, you'll look at someone with chest pain and have no fucking clue how likely it is that you're looking at a heart attack. You may not even know what the other top contenders are. GERD is common. Anxiety. An angry rib muscle. Lots of options. Most of the time, most chest pain won't be a heart attack, but sometime it'll be something worse--an aortic dissection that's rupturing will kill you even faster than most heart attacks.
I see so many patients who come in with a symptom that the Internet, whether Google or influencers, has told them is associated with this one thing. It's often the thyroid. And yeah! A fucked-up thyroid can cause all kinds of symptoms. But here's the deal: if I check your thyroid and it looks normal, it's probably not your thyroid that's causing the symptoms. It could be something else we understand. It is very often something we don't understand. But the fact that I can tell you modern medicine doesn't understand some process doesn't mean your naturopath or chiropractor or Certified Hormone Expert Influencer does understand it because they have this different way of looking at the body. Look, long, long before I wanted to be a doctor, I wanted to be an herbalist. I'm queer, I'm a woman(ish), I am neurodivergent, I am not The Man. I'm not beholden to the system; the system doesn't care for me and wishes I would sit down and shut up, most days. And I have a background in research science and statistics. I used to have a rubber stamp that said "Denied" and one that said "Approved" and I'd hit piles of paper for research applications at an R-1 university, in triplicate, with my stamps, because I understood research well enough to get a Human Subjects Division job evaluating it. If a naturopathic approach to thyroid worked well, I would be doing it. I'm a utilitarian. I don't give a rat's ass about the theoretical underpinnings of modern medical practice, I want things to work. Ideally I would like to know why they work, too, but hey, we can't always have it all.
So the dozens of patients I get every month who are looking elsewhere for answers, looking to people who don't actually know any better but are good at pretending they do, who pay money for elaborate supplement regimens or unvalidated genetic tests or (my personal least favorite) "memory-improving games," I have to be calm and professional and diplomatic about what I say. I can't say, "That's quack shit." I can't say, "Your favorite influencer is a liar and an idiot." Not just because I'd get lower patient satisfaction scores, but because patients wouldn't believe me, and they would reactively like me less and the other guy more. (You're calling me stupid? You're saying I wasted money? If I believe you're just a shill for Big Pharma, that hurts less.)
It takes years, even decades, to understand how to put together the probability maps. Chest pain in a patient under 40? Highly unlikely to be a myocardial infarction, but not totally impossible, especially if they've been doing cocaine. In a patient over 60? Much more likely. Is the pain crushing? Is it sub-sternal? How long has it been going on? Is it constant, or intermittent? Does the patient smoke? What other health conditions does the patient have? These are all deeply important questions, and I remember feeling overwhelmed by things like this all the time in medical school. It's taken so long to build my knowledge, and my background in research is only tangentially valuable most of the time.
Please don't believe authority just because it looks good. Don't trust people because you want to trust them. Learn about the scientific process, learn how the sausage gets made, and then you'll be in an infinitely better position to know whether this is a "wow! science!!!" or a "wow! science bullshit!" moment.
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leland's fallout verse sparknotes idk we are just minecrafting for funnies. pls forgive if i get fallout lore wrong i know an approximate amount of things only,
born in vault 41 (idk i just guesstimated based on other listed vault locations) in texas, vibes are space travel environment experimentation on the citizens (idk, NASA in houston etc). they were all unaware that their vault was isolated and submerged underwater to simulate certain conditions in space re: advanced life support systems. they were probably also fucking around with microgravity and pressurization stuff in general, but mostly the vault was full of normies and was a chill vault.
mom was mb the overseer, well-liked etc. but definitely didn't tell leland much of anything. probably his older sister was also on the council type deal.
probably something ruptured and either fucked up the pressure and/or it flooded for some reason. and it was like 'now what do you mean we were all underwater this whole time'. like everyone went down into the vault from on-land so they thought it was just like every other vault.
leland i think in the chaos of it gets hurt/hits his head pretty hard, so he only has the vague memory of someone pushing him into some kind of pod type thing that shot him up to the surface. he wakes up on the beach near it and connie stumbles on him like oh ur alive huh. i was just looting ur shit. he's just in shambles but he wants to know so bad if anyone else made it. what happened and why.
he's like 'what do you mean my vault was underwater this entire time. was no one going to tell me--' and also just learning that there's just no way to get back down there safely unless he finds a way through the connecting vault tunnels from another nearby vault. he's just on the surface w absolutely nothing to his name but his silly vault suit and no way of knowing if his family or friends from the vault made it.
he's just wandering around accidentally acting like a protagonist by default bc everyone else's tired and jaded in the wasteland and he's shiny and dumb and willing to help just about whoever asks. just because it's like, yeah man that's how we do things in the vault???? some of u guys could be a little nicer tbh???? just trusting lots of the wrong people and learning the hard way that shit is very different on the surface, average naive/privileged vaultie moment etc. but he means well and endears himself to a lot of those rough around the edges people. but also you know how it is in the wasteland sometimes being endearing does not solve the situation and u have to kill a man, fundamentally changing you as a person forever,
he's more capable than he comes off but also he doesn't like guns and is bad with them. and also he cannot sneak to save his life. he'd rather knock someone out than kill anyone and ik bro was trying to talk to feral ghouls like hey (: you okay? if there's a trap, he's stepping in it. if someone is even fake nice to him? he'll probably fall for it. if he sees a radroach? near tears-
kind of realizing there was no big reason he was sent up or anything, besides like, love, of his mother. kind of unravelling the truth behind the vaults and how that shit doesn't even matter anymore. coming across devastation after devastation in other vaults. not knowing what his purpose is supposed to be without his newfound companions. the future being uncertain but just wanting to stay with them instead of wanting to go back to the safety of a vault. like hey lets just... live out here where no one will bother us and pretend like we have something simple and normal.
#may or may not be more nefarious secret going on besides 'we didn't tell u this thing could rupture and flood lol'#me thinking about how space does stuff like fucks up ur bones and that could be sort of fucked up to experiment with-#i was possessed by the idea of an underwater vault. yes i enjoy bioshock how did u know#this is all whatever it could change but i'm having fun pondering it
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They Say You Can't Fight Fate (I Say Fucking Watch Me)
Chapter One
Chapter Two:
Roman and Remus were both experts at cheating the system by now. Roman showed up here often enough that he was trusted to take Remus out on day trips sometimes. They didn’t happen nearly as often as Remus liked, but they happened every now and then. They’d gone to rage rooms and carnivals and on long drives through the countryside. The memories were some of Remus’ happiest.
Roman told the people in charge of Remus’ care that he wanted to take him out on their birthday the next month, to get Remus a cake he could shove his face into (that part was actually true. Remus had always wanted to do that during a year when he could remember it instead of just as a one-year-old, which he could not remember and was therefore completely unfair).
They gave him the go-ahead, and it was like a weight suddenly lifted from Remus’ shoulders. Suddenly nothing was so bad, because all of this absolute bullshit had an end date. Remus made sure not to show his relief, but holy shit did he feel it.
When the day arrived, they gave Remus a set of normal clothes and a day pass, and Roman showed up as soon as visiting hours started.
Remus wasn’t quite sure what to feel as he was walking towards Roman’s car. The whole world seemed slightly off kilter somehow, as if someone had boxed Remus on the ears and now they were ringing.
As the car came into view Remus felt a gentle hand on his arm.
He turned to see Roman mouthing his name— no, wait, he was talking. Okay, maybe the ringing ears were actually happening.
Remus shook his head, trying to clear it. “What?” he asked. His voice sounded like he was underwater.
Roman looked at him for another minute, and then just shook his head, took Remus’ arm, and pulled them both towards the car.
Remus stared out the window as they drove away, at the building getting smaller and smaller behind them. Was he really never going to see it again?
Roman’s hand on his arm again finally snapped his brain back to reality, and Remus glanced over at him.
Roman was looking at the road, but the concern was still obvious on his face. “Are you okay?” he asked.
“I don’t know how to exist outside that fucking place, Roman,” Remus said weakly.
“It’s okay,” Roman said, squeezing his arm. “I’ll help you figure it out.”
“Are you sure you want to do this?” Remus asked, turning in his seat to look at him more directly.
“A little late to be asking that, isn’t it?” Roman asked.
“Well, no, not really. We could just go get a cake and you could take me—” Remus stopped and swallowed the words, unable to say it.
Roman gave him a look. “Yeah, sure I could,” he said. “You’d be fine.”
“But you’re giving up your life,” Remus said, looking back out the window. “Mom and Dad, your future, your friends.”
“What friends? You’re my friend.”
Remus turned to stare at Roman again. “What, are you telling me you don’t have any friends?”
Roman’s hands tightened around the wheel. “No one could figure out how to stop making fun of you long enough to make a good impression.”
Remus kept staring at him.
“I do not want,” Roman said firmly. “Anything this stupid town gives me. And more than that, I don’t want to stay here if it means I might lose you. The only thing this place has ever done for me is make me feel worthless, and then it took away the one person who didn’t make me feel that way. Why would I want to stay here a second longer than I have to either?”
Remus reached across himself with his free arm and squeezed Roman’s hand. “You’re not worthless,” he said quietly.
“Maybe,” Roman said. “But I do know that I’m never gonna find out if I stick around here and keep waiting for things to change. I’m tired of letting other people tell me what to do. Especially when it comes to you. So let’s go shove our face in a cake and then we’re gonna head west until the car gives out. Sound good to you?”
Remus took all that in for a second and nodded, looking back out the window. Even though he couldn’t see the mental hospital in the rear view mirror anymore, it still didn’t feel real.
Roman drove through town, which looked different from the last time Remus had seen it a couple years ago. The ice cream shop was closed down in favor of the Dairy Queen that had moved in, which was just the worst. The school was shabbier, with still no repairs in sight. Their house, that Roman drove by once for the heck of it but Remus barely remembered, looked the same as it apparently always did.
(Roman slowed as they approached the house, and asked Remus if he wanted to say goodbye to their parents. Remus flipped off the house, said “There, said it,” and then they drove on. The experience did remind Roman to turn off his Find My Phone app though, so their parents were good for one minuscule thing after all.)
They stopped at the cake shop, where the baker waved at Roman as he walked in and disappeared into the back, likely to get the cake. Roman must have set this up beforehand.
He reappeared with a simple cake, since obviously Roman couldn’t tip anyone off what they were planning. So it just said “Happy Birthday To Us!” It was a sheet cake long enough for the two of them both to fit alongside, so Remus lined up next to Roman, the two of them shared a grin, and then shoved their faces into the cake.
The baker sighed, seeming a tad irritated, but Remus stuck his tongue out into the section his head was in and managed to get a couple bites of cake down.
He pulled his head up to a universe covered in cake and very difficult to see. His face was covered in cake and frosting, and he tried as best he could to lick it off, laughing at Roman standing next to him doing the same.
The baker passed them both a couple of towels, and they both used it to wipe a decent amount of cake off of their faces, though Remus still managed to eat some of it.
“There’s a bathroom in the back,” the baker said with a sigh, picking up the ruined cake that Remus got the feeling he didn’t like having ruined and carrying it into the back, followed by Roman and Remus.
They both headed into the bathroom he directed them to, and Remus used the towel and the sink to wipe off the rest of his face and hair.
“How is he in the cake business if he doesn’t want to make smash cakes?” Remus asked Roman as he stepped back from the sink.
Roman raised his hands in a shrug and started cleaning off his own face. “Maybe they’re just not a big part of his business.”
“Or maybe he just wants to have his cake and eat it too,” Remus said with a grin.
Roman gave him a deadpan look. “Dude, come on. Don’t go for the low-hanging fruit.”
“Don’t tell me what to do,” Remus said brightly. “I’ve missed all the opportunities to make terrible jokes that don’t have to do with mental hospitals. Let me broaden my horizons.”
Roman shook his head, but he was wearing a fond smile, and he didn’t say anything else.
They headed back out to the car, grabbing the real cake Roman had gotten them to eat on the way out, and then Roman drove them back the other direction, towards the edge of town.
Remus watched the houses fly past with a growing grin on his face, and when they finally passed the “Come Back Soon” sign, he rolled down his window and flipped that off too, then stuck his head out the window and screamed, just for the hell of it.
“Careful,” Roman said with a laugh. “We’ve got a ways to go before they can’t track us with ease, you know!”
In answer, Remus screamed again.
He did climb back into the car after a second though, and beamed out at the signs of the countryside starting to pass them. Remus couldn’t ever imagine living in a city. It might have been easier to hide, but Remus was never going to live surrounded by walls ever again. No walls, none. He needed space space space.
They drove for three hours before stopping for gas, and Remus didn’t stop smiling once.
“How are we gonna afford gas by the way?” he asked.
In answer, Roman flashed three of their parents’ credit cards, and Remus cackled. Yes, they’d probably shut them off eventually, but not before they both got far, far away.
They bought a bunch of snacks from the gas station too, and Roman bought two sets of pocket knives.
They got back to the car, but before they headed out again, Roman grabbed Remus’ arm.
“What?” Remus asked.
“Well, you won’t need this any more,” Roman said, and Remus looked down just in time to see him use the pocket knife to cut off his day pass bracelet.
Remus stopped smiling, and looked down at his arm with nothing wrapped around it. Roman pulled away and drove off without seeming to give it much thought, but Remus turned to the window so Roman couldn’t see the faint look on his face as he stared down at his arm. His soulmark was still there, but the medical bracelet he’d taken off when they gave him the day pass was gone, and the day pass was gone now too, meaning nothing anyone could see could instantly tie him to that place, and no stranger they met would know Remus was supposed to be behind cold stone walls living his life by someone else’s assumptions of how he was feeling.
He wasn’t quite sure when he started crying, but eventually he was looking away from his wrist and out at the fields racing past them, tears dripping down his face.
They made it a good way from the exit of the highway before he started to sob, but Roman pulled the car over anyway, turning to Remus in alarm.
“Re?” he asked. “Re, are you okay?”
Remus didn’t have the first clue how to articulate anything he was feeling, so instead he held up his wrist, gestured to it, and made vague broken sounds.
Roman got it, because Roman always got it, so he put the hazard lights on, parked the car, and reached across the space to pull Remus into a hug. Remus sobbed into Roman’s arms for a good ten minutes, and Roman thankfully didn’t say anything, just held him close and let him.
There were stories about your soulmate understanding you more than anyone else, and Remus had always thought those stories were bullshit, because Roman got him better than any stranger he hadn’t met ever could. But if this was really what they were doing, if they were deciding they were soulmates because they fucking said so, and the universe could piss off, then Remus… well.
He could almost get it.
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Chapter Three
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What headcanons do you have for the main 4 in max headroom 20 minutes into the future? :)
HELLO HI OHMYGOSH OKAY sorry if this list isnt that expansive!! i cant think of all of mine, might update later djsjsjsjs-
My headcannons for 20 Minutes into the Future (below cut!!)
Max!!
Asexual, but I think he'd also be on the aromantic spectrum too?
Only knows a lot of things because of Edison's memory, and acts like he's a hot-shot know-it-all because of it. Mans has never played golf a DAY in his life.
I completely agree with the headcanmon that he blows tv fuses when he gets mad, but I think if he were to sleep, his background would only show up as a kind of "screensaver." Y'know?
Has a toothgap due to Edison's accident. He doesn't mind it, personally! :3
Cannot physically age unless he chooses to. I stress this because of the Channel 4 Digital Switchover commercial, in which Max is shown to be aged. I, for one, A.) Do not count that as canon, and B.) Don't believe Max can age physically. Though, yes, he is old in our world.
Hates his stutter. Tries not to show that he's insecure (macho, masculine, 80s persona type shit,) but in reality he can't help it and genuinely despises how he talks.
If!! If ever given a body (Bryce prolly built it), he would be taller than Edison. Max would be ECSTATIC.
Doesn't listen to a lot of music, normally. He might put on like, pop or disco sometimes, but its not like he gets too much into it.
AuDHD
Edison !!
I think he'd have a secret soft spot for country. Like, country or jazz, y'know?
Closet Bi. C'monnnnnn, you can't tell me that man isn't the biggest repressed bicon ever.
Doesn't have a tooth gap, unlike Max, but does have a scar from the accident. Doesn't like to talk about it.
Isn't mad at Bryce for the accident, he knows Bryce didn't mean any real harm.
Iced coffee bitch. Embarrased about it.
I think he had a normal childhood,, he feels like he did. Maybe some elements of religious trauma, coming from the related episode,,, Something something,,, Vanna Smith's relationship with Edison is meant to represent his past beliefs and how they still have a grip on him,,,, something something their one night stand was a metaphor for reliving your trauma and coming out of it changed/with a new lens,,,, something something,,,,
,,,I have mixed feelings about him and Theora,,,,
One one hand, yeah! Cool! They have good chemistry, and they have their motives to be in a relationship!
On the other hand, it would do Theora's character a misjustice to simply make her get into a relationship with Edison just cus,,,, i dunno,,,
Edison would HATE that Max would be taller than him. Matt Frewer/Edison is already a tall dude, but,,,, make Max 7'6 you cowards. /hj
Always breaks his vidicams, hides them from Murray and Cheviot but knows they'll eventually find out. Time out for Mr. Digital Sherlock >:P
Hangs out with Blank Reg when he's not covering stories, I think Eddy and the Big Time Television crew would have a great friendship!!
Do not call him Eddy.
Theora!!
Also Bi, but leans towards women :) Maybe like, Biromantic Asexual?
Her and Edison do hang out, like, outside of work, but the thought of "romance in the workplace" icks her out (valid, honestly.)
Sometimes plays into Max's antics, I think they'd have a great dynamic (shame it wasn't explored more.)
Completely meant to slap Murray in "Security Systems." No, she didn't need to sell the bit. No, she didn't need to warn him. Fuck Murray. All my homies hate Murray 😤
I see her liking glam rock,,, or like, some kind of rock (70s and 80s, ofc). She's giving me like, Sweet or The Ramones kinda vibes,,,
I think her childhood was a bit rough, but thata just vibes. We never get specifics, I think, but maybe I'll write a fanfic someday and explore it. (do y'all want Max Headroom fics I'll fuckin DELIVER.)
(( she is so fuckin pretty oh my godddd :O ))
Bryce !!
Aromantic. Not to fall into the trope that like "haha, smart character aro/ace!!" but, seriously. Do you think he wants anything to do with that? Nah, science #1, and y'know? Thats valid, you funky little dude.
Funky Little Dude™️
More of a gremlin than the show lets on. I know if he were around modern-day, dude would be slamming back monsters and talking about The Fog and The Rot.
Troubled childhood. Sent off to a tech school at an early age, didn't grow up woth his family around, or many friends. It's canon, what the f u c k.
iPad baby. Enough said.
Feels guilty about Edison's accident.
Literally says that he "felt fear for the first time" when he was /freezing to death./
Bryce???? Do you need a therapist??? Buddy?????
The only adults in his life want to use his genius to get more ratings. Bryce is but a toy to them. I need to psychoanalyze him. Puts him in a salad spinner.
On a lighter note!! Listens to classical music unironically!! Weirdo!! /pos
You literally can't tell me he isn't autistic. As someone on the spectrum, I bestow him this headcanon. Can't read social queues, doesn't understand figures of speech, flat tone of voice, ect. He's on the spectrum 😤
#max headroom#edison carter#matt frewer#80s#20 minutes into the future#Theora Jones#amanda pays#Bryce Lynch#Chris Young#mitzy garbles#headcanons#RAMBLES ABOUT THEM RAMBLES ABOUT THEM#im sorry if this sucks!!#its my first time making a headcanon post lol#i hope you enjoy!#thanks for submitting <3
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watching hotd, you know, like a fool: heirs of the dragon (episode one) // part 1 because it got too long
do you know hotd also shortens to high school of the dead. because it does. you guys should know that after it got thrown in my face so many fucking times
rhaenys's expression showing that combination of anger +betrayal +devastation+i should have known it. eve best already rules. jaehaerys you dumbfuck man stop smiling. you've just accelerated the fall of your dynasty.
i see that " 172 years blank blank before daenerys targaryen. you are not convincing me of the fact that showmakers have learnt from got's heinous strategies.
one of the dragon keepers looks likes zayn malik, in my humble opinion. if he doesn't, please dont come at me, i don't recognize my own face sometimes.
RHAENYRA!! the acting is immaculate look at the wonder of her face. the glove oof (baby bi here, i'd like to take the glove's place hang from her teeth, please and thank you)
if you're trying to tell me that this is not a love story, you are wrong, period. that is the face of someone who'd about to say "that's my wife!!!<3<3<3"
oh glad to see we're not going the grimy grey smallfolk route. i can see colours! look there's an orange tunic!!
the interlinked arms! what's the word for it?? english sucks sometimes. anyways, #babygays
alicent isn't a diabolical villain making plans to replace aemma, please. she's plain uncomfortable in the situation. "words stuck in my throat sort of thing". her mother is dead, you guys. of course she's like i can't have that anymore.
corlys is that guy that everybody calls "stick in the ass" "class monitor" but also gets all the work dumped on him. not a fun place to be. cheers, we be of a feather, corlys velaryon. aannnd they're ignoring him. this guy should be so chokeful of resentment i can't believe he's team black.
are you guys actually serious when you're saying vizzy t is a good king? because honest to god robert baratheon parallels.
he's already so fixated on "my heir". poor aemma, poor rhaenyra.
daemon donkey ears daemon donkey ears la la la.
not liking whatever the fuck is going on. what is this, a booktok romance?
oh thank god scene over. also, no one knows you like a best friend you had when you were 14. and we start seeing the parenting differences. alicent extra serious, because her father's got expectations. and rhaenyra, who's never had expectations laid on her, only her non existent brother.
born wearing a crown / cut out of his mother's stomach / bells tolling. i'm sure there's something there.
//howling// omfgd, second hand embarassment. this like medieval version of "i'm an alpha man"
wait why are they beating them up. what's the crime? hello?? i have Problems with the westerosi justice system.
this is the city that welcomed rhaenrya even when she married daemon? where's the narrative coherence?
okay fine. i give daemon this point. we start to see daemon+corlys alliance. cool.
otto hightower you're just blatantly provoking him now. make him angry and make him say something the king won't like. yeah not gonna happen. how the fuck does daemon believe that viserys never takes his side?? yeah yeah vizzy t let him off the hook
95 works in daemon/viserys? what is this fandom doing??
skip skip skip. yeah i mean. mommy issues. also grandmom threw me away to the vale issues. lots of issues here. also projecting viserys on rhaenyra.
rhaenyra / genevieve parallels-> both are always late.
alicent- memory extraordinaire, confirmed. also people love to salt the wound don't they? queen who never was?
Criston! criston criston!! i actually like his character tbh.
MASTER OF THE REVELS! these guys have done their research i love lore.
cute how otto is lowkey rooting for his son despite his stoic persona. aannd gwayne hightower down.
y'all alicent ain't looking at vizzy, she's lookin at her father. if i have to read one more wrong take.
that's it for part one i can't see aemma rn. thoughts? (and prayers because it's only going to get worse jesus)
(edit: this has been written 2 am in the morning and presented with minimal corrections. caution for mistakes)
#hotd#alicent hightower#rhaenyra targeryan#should i tag anti daemon and anti viserys? i think i should. i like neither of them#hotd s1#heirs of the dragon#hotd season 1#goblin watches the incesty bloody rancid vibes dragon show
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Pls info dump about your system. I saw in your tag that you want to so consider this a free pass to do so I want to know all that ya want to share
HI!!!! SORRY YOUSENT THIS LIEK A WEEK AGO WE WERE WAITING 4 WHEN WE JAD ENOUGH ENERGY 2 INFODUMP JSISJDJFFNDJD OK OK UNDER THE CUT
WE ACTUALLY. ... DONT KNOW WEHRE 2 start Uhhhmmmm. hmmmm. OH MAYBE THE HEADSPACE!
ok SO the headspace changes DRASTICALLY like every few months or few weeks or so. Just a week ago it was a copy of the house we currently live in. We like,,, grew up in this house so it was Also our headspace for years as a kid and we had the vibe tht it was. The exact headspace frlm back then too bUT WE never did get to find out bc it changed AGAIN like a few days ago. smh. Now i think we're just above & outside of The Cave™™™™™ tht was discovered here earlier this year. WHICH IS REALLY FUCKING COOL! BECAUSE THAT MEANS:
The headspace survived the nuclear winter!!*
HOYL SHIT WE'RE IN THE MAIN HEADSPACE AGAIN LET'S GOOOOO <= has been stuck in Harry's headspace for the past half yearIEJFKDKFMC
[*Sometimes it just fucking gets Destroyed. Like... Semi permanently. As in, if it gets destroyed there is Very Little Chance we'll see that variation of our headspace AgainFHDJDKFKFJ and last we uhhjj Talked to anyone in the Main System, bc we are... TECHNICALLY A SUBSYSTEM! FJDJFJ, they were like Yeah no everything is fucking Destroyed <3. But that's not the case snymore ig???????]
SO w all this information actually if we rlly wanted we could probably make a decent map of the area. cuz if We jave this headspace back then we have Everythingggg it had in it back too & everything that it was connected to THAT'S NEAT WE MIGHT DO THAT!!
uhhjjj waht else. HMMM. i thuink our current front roster is neat TBH there's some guys active rn that we'd have never expected. like HI PHYS! WYD WHY R U HERE RN <3 QJAIWOSKSKDNCXN but it's fun !!!! i hope everyone innn our subsystem will fromt here at lEast once bc I Am Lov Collecting Informatión On Everyone <= Primarily fills out everyone's PK & Simply Plural descriptions. actually I think maybe everyone has fronted a sufficiently long enough time EXCEPT FOR HAND/EYE LIKE S I R GET YOUR ASS UP HERE TELL ME ABT YOURSELF BASTARD !! GJCJCKCKF all ik abt him is that He enjoys making Pokeblocks On Pokefarm. that is IT and that's NOT ENOUGH INFORMATION MY GUY but anyways.
i also think us Existing Here is so funny in itself like our asses rlly just got Possibly permanently isekai'd huh. like. like. Genuinely I don't know if our past mains r coming back at this point but that's FINE we already did the whole 96 stages of grief shit about it IF that be the case then SO be it Whatever there's pros to this life ig. like THIS body isn't on the verge of SUDDENLY DYING FOR NO REASON and also We have a cat. we have a cat!!!!! and a dog!!!!!! whaddahell!!!!!!!
there's lotsa fun shit here But there r also the Horrors. Like I PERSONALLY WOULD LOOVE TO EXIST with Out the Constant Paranoia And Delusions but IT *IS* PREFERABLE! OVER WHSTEVER THE FUCK WAS WRONG WITH HARRY <3 AJSJDJF
I will say tho. When we uhhhhhhh All popped in & all we Just assumed we'd be Gone & dormant MONTHS AGO but ummmm . well. apparently not! sO the things we wanted 2 Experience have a High probability Of Happening,! Like PT is excited for Halloween and UNLESS those pirate fucks completely take over the roster within the next like week [0f.md s2 on the 5th babey!!! holy shit!!] then it's. Probably gonna happwn!!! which is so cool we don't actually... hey did Halloween exist in (source game)
man and speaking of. Memories Of The Past as we call source memories. It's a collective sys-wide trait thing All our fictives from aNY source rlly enjoy piecing together what they remember from their canons & all It's like enrichment for us. BUT we've been kinda piecing together a rough timeline of when We all formed in our canon That's our biggest Thought Project™ rn. No estimated time 4 when it'll be Complete tho probs never tbh. and w that in mind u may or may not believe who harry's first sysmate was According 2 what we've put togetherJTJEDKFKDJS
ok that's liek 5 trillion words Whoops. we r so talkatives <3 I am going to stop there it's like 5 am JFJDDKCKF we gotta go back to bedddd -E-Chem
#ask#THANK U 4 THE INFODUMPING OPPORTUNITY if u have any more questions. bls feel free 2 ask#We Lov Talking. Abt Ourselves. JWNDFJCNSKFNFKSF#*According to The Timeline/Our Canon harry's first headmate was HL. which is so funny 2 me that guy is like 12#but also ig it makes sense. idk.#me‚ one of the newer bastards in Harry's system: *points at HL* that thing is my baby brother#HL: *is literally older than all of us formation date wise*#HMM. our brain is telling me we r Cringe....... oh well! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ *beats our brain with hammers*#actually 1 more thing#Inland formed first in this body's system . like.. holy shit could you imagine if they became the body's signature skill . fucked up [JOKE]
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Nightfallsystem - Main blog. Plural System. cringe asf autistic and chronic pain haver. giant isopod enthusiast.
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what to expect from this blog? random shit, this is my personal blog. there may be vents and rants (tagged as #vent and #rant respectively) there may be random shit there will be so many reblogs.
i try to add ids when i can into the alt text, though i have chronic pain so sometimes im too tired to, sorry
Special interests: Giant isopods, Yugioh 💀💀
interests: TBHK, manga and anime, servals, marine animals, suicide boy (critical of it...), made in abyss, (critical of it...) , japanese language ,, ... i forgor
FEEL FREE (i encourage you to!) TAG ME IN SHIT ABOUT MY INTERESTS!!! esp yugioh im really autistic about it o my god
#autistic about this thing tag <- will be me tagging shit im really autistic about!!
not really in discourse anymore other than transgender stuff so if you try to drag me into discourse ill drag you into the pits of hell. i fucking hate syscourse so much.
If i am not speaking and another system member is, the post will be tagged as "- [name]". I tag common triggers, flashing lights and eyestrain, etc, these will be tagged as "TW [topic]". also JSYK i block a fuck ton of people so like, yeah, I block anyone for any reason I want. I will also not unblock you. unless youre liek my friend or smth.
We have so many fictives sooo,, source list: TBHK, Omori, OneShot, Wolf Song the Movie (yknow, that one on youtube.), yugioh..... </3 .. sourcemates r cool to interact n stuff feel free to send an ask im just shy...
anon hate MUST be original no lame "kys" or "[slur]". i will judge you. try better. try harder. get good. if you send anon hate i will judge it and rate it out of 10 so please try your best.
i am weirdo fictionkin heres the list: hooni from suicide boy yayy,, faputa from made in abyss ( I FUCKING HATE THE SORUCE FOR BEING SO WEIRD OMFG AHGHH),, jolteon from pokemon. . im weird and fuckd up . much prefer if u dont rlly seperate me from me in sources. cuz i just am me. sorry. ig. just refer to me as me . thank you
I am critical of all of my interests!!
or more just i hate them agh just be normal omfgggg crying sobbing
if you wanna avoid a common trigger its most likely tagged #tw [topic]. i also tag eyestrain and flashing lights but usually i just tag it as "#eyestrain" or "#flashing". tbh i unfortunately cant be trusted to remember to tag any other specific trigger because of bad memory.
i wont tag reclaimed slurs but i will tag slurs used in a mean way
Please do not DM me unless you actually really need to. Send me an ask if you want to DM me and specify that you want it answered privately if you want. but i AM UNCOMFY WITH DMS. unless we're friends or i DMed you first. otherwise i place a curse on you I MUCH prefer asks over DMs
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Anti plural, pluralphobe, anti endo, sysmed, against created alters/etc, "dont believe in systems",
Proship, condone or support posting any sexual stuff that includes a child, lolicon/shotacon/etc, someone purposely meant to look like a child, cub.
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Ableist, support autism speaks, think "narc abuse" is a thing/demonise people with any disorder including NPD, infantalise people with disorders/disabilities/etc, post/support on subreddits like r/fakedisordercringe or r/systemscringe, use the term "Aspergers" / describe urself as an "aspie" (Hans Asperger was a nazi who killed many disabled people, so shut the fuck up.)
Racist, cultural appropriators.
Radqueers, trans-id/transX, transrace/trace (not adoptee term), support the term transplural, pro-contact/contact-complex/contact-neutral for harmful paraphillia, sway people away from getting help for harmful paraphillia, MAP/Pedo/zoo/necro. (also transspecies is ok if its not used in a transX way)
Fujoshi/variants. fetishize mlm/wlw, etc.
Against traumacore / vent art.
Have minors on ur DNI (no offense im just a minor lol), NSFW-Focused blog
Post stolen art (includes AI images) / trace art without consent
other stuff is im neutral on factkin or kff tbh. and i think id rather stay neutral on tulpas as a term. i just dont fucking care.
i dont involve myself in syscourse anymore, i might post more endogenic positivity later but id rather not due to the rampant harassment and infighting in the system community.
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hi!!! i was wondering if you could do a tutorial for how you draw transformers? i can never simplify them like you can. do you have any tips?? also love your art sm <33
hi ヾ(•ω•`)o
I WILL TRY MY best to explain what i do… i don’t actually have a very structured system but this is vaguely how i got started and how i simplified the process
1. look up and compile a whole bunch of references
this will be useful for EVERYTHING– transfomos come with lots of shapes and gizmos and details and stuff so a variety of references from different angles and in different poses is really useful because you can see the shapes they’re made out of and also understand how everything connects with each other
trapezoid town! this is a mess but it’s a quick example of how by looking at everything you start to notice trends or details like what moves with what or how flexible some parts are
there are a whole bunch of resources very nice people have compiled on the web like here here here here and here (mainly MTMTE) and there is a discord server (this is a link to a tumblr post about it and not the invite link itself) for it too but you can always look through the source material and just start screenshotting and pasting shit into a folder.
you don’t have to do humongous in-depth breakdowns if you just want to be able to quickly doodle robots (god knows i don’t!!) but having the references on-hand makes it easier for the times when you’re like This pose is going to be challenging and I’m not sure how all of the cuboids will be positioned.
references also help break you out of thinking of it as just drawing blockier humans because the proportions and shapes vary a looooooot
2. draw draw draw
at first i drew a lot using refs heavily to get an idea of the shapes then i got lazy and just started drawing anime girls and smacking rectangles and kibble on top BUT as you draw more and more you start to pick up on the Salient Features as well as their General Silhouette.
drawing from memory means that what makes them look recognisable will become more emphasised in your mind so you’ll naturally pick up on how you can simplify them without losing what makes your guy Look Like Your Guy. so if you want to simplify the robots just be incredibly lazy like me B)
i'm kind of horrible because i don't even do like Basic Shapes i literally just eyeball it
for poses i rectangle it out while thinking really hard
anyway when i first tried to draw transformers but Something Didn’t Look Right it was either a) the level of detail across the entire drawing was inconsistent and threw it off balance or b) proportions weren’t right and these things only got better with me finangling and doodling and learning by iteration.
of course sometimes i don’t give a fuck because no cops in transformers doodle land but yeahhhh i’m the kind of guy who only gets through stuff by throwing a lot of rocks at it. i don’t have a Method to offer you unfortunately but what i did do was
3. experiment and exaggerate and experiment!!
The First Rule of Gun Safety is to Have Fun and Be Yourself! i took a lot of liberties and rarely stayed on-model when i doodled and waffled around (and i still do…) but it helped me figure out how much i was willing to draw lol and consequently how i would stylise them.
i would play with how big or small or exaggerated or expressive they'd be… even my most detailed drawings are nowhere near comic-detail but my least detailed ones were. turquoise triangle that’s vaguely brainstorm-shaped. having fun with it and just doing it to make stupid jokes makes the practice seem like not practice.
so yeah tl;dr i started by reffing what bots actually look like, would trace comic panels to get an idea of the shapes and details and then start drawing side-by-side → drew billions of perceptors from my diseased mind and played around with lines → ??? → upgraded from goofy-looking rectangles to goofy-looking rectangles
that’s it for advice! (i don’t feel qualified to say that much)
below are just examples of stupid doodles i’d make on my ipad in class or in the margins of assignments lol, you can tell the last one is from when i still didn't understand brainstorm's build very well because the wings are placed wrongly... But i grew.
hope this was somewhat helpful! there are other tutorials from other artists that i can direct you to but this is how toyotacorolla2008 got to shitposting on tumblr dot com
#anonymous#ask#thanks for liking my art and thank you for this ask!#If you wanted me to talk about something that i did not touch on imma sowwy.. you can send another ask and i will respond and go deeper#i typed up this post really fast so i hope its coherent#local blogger too Freaken busy with school to draw detail#going to class like Im ready for my hard days work of drawing cuboids stealthily#bonposting
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My frustration with most criticism leveled at manga artists and authors is that people end up addressing symptoms and not causes.
When I was 11 or 12, I wanted to be a manga artist. Part of this particular fixation meant reading a lot of manga and trying to imitate the styles— something you can still see in my art. I came across a manga called Bakuman that I would really recommend, because it gave me a better understanding of why manga has a bigger tendency to have huge plot holes, fucked up character development, and flat characters when compared to, say… published novels. I’ll need to dig it up sometime so I can show y’all specific stuff but for now I’ll work from memory… I need to get these thoughts down.
Most manga are published through weekly magazines, and the artists are expected to come up with a chapter a week. I’ve seen some shifts lately due to the work-related stress and injuries that have abounded as a consequence but that is where things started, and that meant manga artists had to come up with SOMETHING on a schedule, no matter how good or bad it was. (So yeah, that terrible pandering filler chapter/arc was probably a mangaka with a hell of a block.)
Then, within the magazine, there are frequent checks and polls to measure popularity— if a manga isn’t popular enough, it gets cut, whether or not it was finished. (Yeah, that manga you loved that had a really sudden and terrible ending? Probably more niche than you realized.)
Contrast this with traditional publishing (as I saw someone here doing, comparing Harry Potter to My Hero Academia): authors take years to write, and then they have to find an editor, and even if the whole story is published in segments they have at least a year between those segments to plan, write, and edit. NaNoWriMo winners have demonstrated that the writing phase can be finished in a month or two— the rest of the effort goes to editing.
Manga artists have an editor, sure, but that editor is on the same deadline. Worst-case scenario they get a day or two to read over the chapter.
Novels also tend to remain popular enough not to have to deal with getting cut— and most novelists will just finish in self-publishing if their publisher decides to terminate their contract. Manga artists simply move to the next idea, from what I’ve seen.
This leads to a system where, I kid you not, most artists are just throwing shit at the wall to see what sticks. They get an idea, it gets dashed out, and then they see what happens. I can’t tell you how many artists I’ve seen express genuine surprise at the popularity of their ideas, and I think it’s just because that idea was one in maybe five or six that got submitted to the magazine that round. They have to figure it out as they go, and what does that mean? Plot holes.
And if a manga is popular enough, the expectation is that the manga artist will continue to make it… and make it… and make it. My dad joked once that you’ll always find another villain behind the latest big bad with these types of series, because the goal is not to create a cohesive story but to maintain audience attention as long as possible. My Hero may be in the middle of a final battle, but who knows whether AFO will actually turn out to be the ultimate villain— while Voldemort was clearly the problem and remained the problem for the entire Harry Potter series. (I’m working with the comparison I saw— I have some personal issues with JKR as an artist and a person that I won’t get into here.)
You see where I’m going with this, right? I sure hope so.
Learning that, as a manga artist, I would be expected to continue creating what gets popular no matter how I felt about it— that was what tanked my desire to become a manga artist. And I love manga to death, but I’ve also learned not to expect much of it because the system itself is designed in such a way that only the most batshit insane series with wild twists and turns and crazy unrealistic characters will succeed. Think about Naruto, Bleach, My Hero, ONE PIECE, etc. it’s a miracle there’s a plot line there at all.
Unfortunately, some people hold these manga to the same standard as Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, Steelheart, Mistborn, etc. And as long as they do so, they’re going to be disappointed, because the manga publishing world is basically a reflection of the internet influencer world— “create till you drop and everyone forgets your name” is the goal of the game. Until we see some kickback against that system, you’re not going to see well-developed manga that are also popular.
If you do find one, congratulations! Cherish it. The mangaka probably had to kick a few shins to keep it true to their vision.
#manga#bnha critical#manga critical#anime#anime and manga#systematic issues#manga vs. novels#I can enjoy manga#because I expect manga to be shit#but I know fandom exploration will be great#manga artists have great ideas#the system ruins those ideas#fans can explore those ideas on their own#so of course fanwork has more depth#fix the system or lower your expectations… a lot
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Since the Live 95.5 YouTube videos have gone private, I’ll repost some of the interview.
• Liam Ridgewell from the Portland Timbers gave Louis a personalized team shirt.
• The interviewer, @EricZ, reminded Louis that he was the goalie for MTV’s Summer in the City 2017 when Louis kicked soccer balls at him. Louis replied, “That clip came back on my timeline recently, yeah. You were a brave man, a brave man that day. You're the first goalkeeper I've seen wear a helmet, I will say that.”
• Louis talked about how deadlines impose on his songwriting creativity. “Let's say I was going into the studio tomorrow and you turn up at midday and you've got the studio booked until 7. It all of a sudden feels like... work. And it kinda changes the creative feel. Sometimes if you go on a writing camp you might be staying for 2 or 3 days in a house & it means you can write freely & when you want to. Through my experience, the writing feels more authentic because you're not searching for it & you (don't) need to find the song in the next 6 hrs. You’ve got time to develop those thoughts.”
• Louis on a must-need to travel with for tour, “I don't really have anything like that. Maybe my Playstation, that's about it. I bring it in my rucksack. It’s heavy though, man. It's heavy.” He mentions playing Fifa and NBA the most.
• Louis on his best tour show/ memory with Sun Room, “Probably, erm, there was a show, I’m tryna remember which. Was it here in Portland? [crowd cheers ‘yes’] The one where we fucked them up, and we ran on [makes a gesture wrapping tape around them], yeah! Are you sure that’s the show? You know better than me.” [note: it was actually CDMX night 3.]
• Louis on how he’d like to spend a birthday, “Don’t know, maybe go out to football, then probably a big night out. Simple as that, easily pleased.”
• On Faith in the Future songs he most looks forward to performing live, “A song called ‘Silver Tongues’, it’s gonna be really fun live. There’s another song ‘Out Of Your System’, you’ve not heard that either. Out of the ones you’ve heard, I reckon ‘Written All Over Your Face’.”
• On the choice to make deluxe editions of FitF, “With every record I make, I never wanna put any filler on there, I wanna make it clinical. So with ‘Walls’ I didn’t have as many great songs to choose from. That’s why it was a bit shorter than this one. I kind of knew what I wanted to do on this record, so I just had more songs, and I didn’t wanna cut some of the ones that I love so that’s the good thing about the deluxe, you can just keep adding. On the first record, I had this thing where I didn’t wanna make an album that’s got 16 tracks. Cuz in my head at the time, being close-minded I was like, it’s cool to do a 10-12 song kinda thing. But no, you lot just want it all!”
• On how his songwriting has evolved, “I think every song you write, you learn a bit about your own songwriting. You pick up info from other people you collab with. It’s cliché, as I’ve got older and more experienced as a writer, there’s more maturity in my lyrics.”
• On being satisfied with the final form of his songs, “You can get to like 95% [on most songs] and then you can spend forever trying to find that extra 5%. We’re all perfectionists as songwriters, so at some point you just have to let it go.”
• On the musicians for the next tour, “My usual band that I play with, and then for the slightly bigger shows we’ll have a little string section. Always adds a lot having the string section! [String section, is that four people?] I think eight?”
• When asked whether he would include any old songs in deluxe editions, or consider using them later, Louis said he didn’t think he would. He has no time now to revisit old material because he’s too busy with the new stuff. (x)
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Did you know I fucking miss my friends?
Yeah, I’m sure it’s surprising. The guy who pushes everyone away misses them now, and wants to ramble about them.
Artificer. I’m sorry I wasn’t a better friend to you, I was still in a dark place when we met. I valued our time, though. And as much as the fandom likes to act like you were a pet to me or something (they do this with the slugcats a lot) you were more of a… short term neighbor that I saw a lot of myself in. Had things been different, we could have been good companions. But as it was we only knew each other for a short time and both of us were… angry. Still, I miss seeing you. I did care about you, as much as I didn’t show it.
No Significant Harassment. I know we both were closer to Moon than to each other, but I do care about you. It wouldn’t be fair to leave you out of this, because you were one of the ones in the local group that I was closer (emotionally, not geographically) to. You were important to me
Gray Wind, or Chasing Wind, I’m not quite sure which you preferred. You tried to stop me, to warn the others, and the only reason it didn’t work was my anonymity. Still… as I am now, I greatly appreciate the help you tried to give. As much as I was defensive then. I wish we could have spoken more. Maybe we could have shared our ideals with each other. That wouldn’t have stopped me, in the end, but it would have been nice, knowing more in the local group shared similar beliefs.
Unparalleled Innocence, as much as you’re just portrayed as a jerk in canon, I think there was more to it than that. One persistent thought I’ve had about you has been “second youngest sibling energy” in that… I think you were used to being the youngest, the baby of the local group, and no one expected me to be made. You were mean sometimes… but it was kinda a sibling thing. Of course, I could be misinterpreting things, not much canon info is out there about you and most of my memories are hazy. Still… I’m pretty sure you were trying to help, in your own way, sending those pictures.
Seven Red Suns. What can I even say to you? It’s… messy. Kinda fucked up that you gave me that initial pearl. I wanted you to, though- I don’t blame you. As much as you got scared and upset about it all, I never blamed you. Still… it was messed up. Then of course there’s what I did to your messenger, the second time they came. That was messed up of me to do. And I’m sorry. I cut the world off, I cut you off. But… you had been a mentor to me, a close friend, you always knew how to explain the stupidities of social conventions and normalcies to me because they sure didn’t make sense. You cared a lot, and I appreciated it until I didn’t. But… I do appreciate it. And I’m sorry things went the way they did. You were the only person, at least in the local group, that really shared my cynicism about our creators openly, even if they all secretly felt it. And for the times you were the only one I could talk to… thank you. I know the fandom likes to ship us. I don’t know if that was how things were in my canon, but regardless you were the one non-familial person I was closest to for so long. I have way more I could say “to” you but that’s better saved for another time. I miss you, and I’m sorry.
It’s kinda funny that the two I was closest to were the sun(s) and the moon. It’s like I’m the earth, pulled in the gravity of the heavenly bodies that define me… I don’t know. It’s just… funny to me. That I am five pebbles and the earth itself is just a pebble to the universe. Of course, this leads up to me talking about the one person that meant the most to me, it was always going to end here.
Big Sis Moon. I’m so, *so* sorry. I’m sorry that they thought you weren’t enough, I’m sorry they were so stupid about our placement. I’m sorry I was so cold and so angry and I took it out on you. You were always so kind, as soon as my systems were online and I was conscious your overseers were projecting recordings of you greeting me, welcoming me into existence. You introduced me to the local group, always had my back, I’m pretty sure you guided your citizens into having my back when all that drama was happening? And you were the one who kept us going. You knew there was no answer before any of us, and yet you always always tried to keep everyone’s spirits up. You say once, in game, that you tried to be good for our creators.. they didn’t deserve your goodness. It always astounds me, how such cynical self destructive people managed to make you, when you so clearly are just curious and love the world… especially when much later on they ended up making me and I was the one most like them out of all of us, and then we were right next to each other. Things were never going to end well, with that. And I’m sorry it was you. Sorry it was us. Sorry that I never let you in. Things were never going to end well, there were going to be water issues, there were going to be conflicts. But still, I was the one who… pushed that. Who refused to listen. With how long I was around after that I should have just gone the slow route. That would’ve been so much better, for everyone. It’s… kinda fitting, that I ended up like you had been, by trying to save you. And no one sent me a care package, because I cut off anyone who could. Still… I feel like it was too little, too late. And just…. I love you. I miss you. I wish I could go back, and change what I did, so I could have passed the thousands of cycles talking with you, playing our games with both of us in the right mental state to enjoy it. As it is, I hope you’re here. In this life. Far enough away from me that you’re safe and happy. I love you big sis. You are the person more important to me than anything. I’m sorry it took the end of everything and becoming a new person in a new life to realize this.
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Monday, 1st of August, 1:47 P.M
There’s a certain kind of warmth in the atmosphere on Christmas eve...
There’s a certain kind of warmth that you feel when the merry making begins to die down and the conversations shift from loud to almost a whisper, the mind goes half-asleep, topics become more serious...
There’s a certain kind of warmth that wraps your heart and turns your brain into a puddle, making you throw whatever principles you have right out the window.. and this particular warmth, it’s the one I felt when I was listening to your voice.
I don’t know what came over me. I was halfway through a bottle of wine and I reasoned it must’ve altered my system to a certain degree. It’s probably just the wine, I kept thinking. My cheeks were flushed and my voice was starting to sound hoarse.. yeah, must be the wine. Damn it. IT WAS YOU, for fuck’s sake. IT WAS US. It was the universe finally giving us our time and it was so overwhelming, I wanted to just shut my eyes and swim in it. "Can we at least try?" you asked in a really soft tone and it triggered a weakness in me. The danger thrilled me that I almost caved in.. but I pulled and held on to my senses because if I didn’t, we’d be in trouble. What a virgo thing to do, isn’t it? to be in control. Grounded, they say. I always go deep, but that time I wished I was as light as you, as carefree as you.
I would’ve bottled that warmth if I could. That’s how badly I wanted to hold onto that newfound feeling. I would have brought it with me here, dispensed its contents drop by drop from time to time, let it linger on my sheets like a perfume and buried myself in it until I fall asleep. I’ve nurtured coldness in my life for a really long time that I crave even a slight hint of warmth when it’s near my grasp. Everything about you felt warm and familiar, strange and new—all at once. Even if I try, I can’t simplify it.
We talked for hours and every time you spoke my name, I flinched. When was the last I heard you say it? it’s half our age ago, I never thought I’d hear it again. It sounded so different coming from you. I couldn’t help but wonder if you’ve ever said it with a lump in your throat over the past years. Am I a good or a bad memory?
Where did we stand in each other’s lives? we were always catching up but only at a distance—on and off—for a long, long time. We were never clearly defined. We bonded more than friends but less than lovers. The chance was always there but we never grabbed it. You were always too careful; I was always a runaway. You hovered but never really landed because you wanted me to make the decision. "It was hard to find the right timing with you," you told me. Who would’ve thought that us getting older, acknowledging our regrets, totally abandoning what’s right and wrong, you moving back home and me leaving, your secrets, my wine, staying up ‘til dawn and just hearing each other’s voices again will convince me to finally let you in?
I wonder if fate is real or the universe really does something crazy and makes a fool of us sometimes, like reunite people unexpectedly and ignite old flames or awaken dormant feelings. I wonder if it randomly sends warmth to people’s hearts and makes them fall in love even if the circumstances are against it. I wonder if star-crossed lovers ever make it out alive in the end.
When you said you love me, did you mean it?
When I said it back, was it just a lie?
Do you think we should stay?
Is it worth it?
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I AM FLABBERGASTED BESTIE LIKE IK IT WOULD BE SOME SHIT BUT HOLY HELL
sannie these last two chapters pls 🥺 he might’ve been an emotionally constipated ass in the beginning but he really broke my heart during the whole body control scene. at least we know we can count on him now tho ksksks he should’ve shot swh in the head instead of just knocking him out with the bat but at least he trying <33
ALSO JONGHO ?? WE ALL THOUGHT HE’D BE BEST BOY BUT NOT ONLY IS HE A RAT BUT A FUCKING USELESS ONE ??? LIKE HJ DID MORE TO FIGHT ALIENHWA THAN HIM ??
was he even in the room anymore or did he keep his head bowed and mouth shut like a bitch boi thru the whole fight scene too smfh
also not news-breaking that in the end, hj was just a psychotic menace. tho i will say, his “final” moments were kinda heartbreaking ngl but his d-word reminded me too much of the “wabababa weeee” meme for me to take it seriously dksksks
the whole Remnants thing is kinda weird bc it’s almost comforting in a totally fucked way … like that means the aliens have if even the slightest bit of residual personality traits in them of the people they had previously possessed ?? idk kinda sounds cool to me ejekdkd nE WAYZ—
NOT FLABBERGASTED!!!!!
san really took fifty five business days to step it up 😭 at least he’s trying!!!!
jongho really in the corner like:
NOT THE WABABABA WEE SOUND TO HJ’S DEMISE THATS SOOOO FUNNY
yeah!! so, from y/n’s perspective, there won’t be much going into depth of what exactly is going on with the remnants in the aliens so i’ll say that basically when these aliens possess ppl via the fog at night, they’re trying to find hosts so they can live on the planet and take it over. they’re a parasitic species - hence seonghwa calling it a mutually beneficial relationship bc he has (bad) Jokes - that needs a host to “grow up” and once they’ve like fully incubated (is that the best word?) they become those full grown spider creatures in the pit. those creatures are in the pit because the creatures can’t stand the sunlight, which is why they’ve been looking for hosts and why a lot of them also choose to occupy human bodies permanently. they’ve mostly been spending all these years looking for more hosts (and the sanctuary - and many more like it - are a part of that plan for the aliens). but during the “incubation” time the aliens didn’t take into account that they accidentally start to take personality traits and memories of the people they’re occupying. strong emotions affect the creatures the most to the point where it stays with them. i figure when a living creature feeds on another living creature from their nervous system like that, there’s going to be overlap you know? like you can’t get away with occupying another living creature’s consciousness without empathizing with them accidentally. so even after the human is dead and they’re those big creepy creatures, their memories and the ones they loved still live on in the aliens. and for the ones like seonghwa where the human’s conscience is still there beneath everything else, sometimes they come through when their will is strong enough. a lot of time the will that gets them through ends up being strong human emotions such as platonic/romantic love, desperation, anger, etc.
also it’s very interesting how you find it comforting and then another reader thought it was terrifying. like i think it’s kinda cool and kinda scary but it’s cool to see which ppl think and which way they lean
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komaeda anon: OKAY BEAR WITH ME ON THIS its gonna be a long one bc i just have. So Many thoughts of this but it might go all over the place
tw for the general topics relating to kork, incest, child abuse, hallucinations
for one. for one. None of the Tulpa shit. none of that, it's too closely tied or related to DID that we don't want the representation, not like this. instead, it really is a hallucination of a man whose only meaningful relationship and crutch got taken from and broke so he just started believing his sister is with him
TWO. 👏 Korekiyo 👏 was 👏 fucking 👏 manipulated 👏
his backstory just SCREAMS of isolation, being guilt tripped into sticking close out of filial obligation, that spiraled into something disgusting.
his sister right? hospitalized? no friends? idk what her deal is really, idc but she kept kork close, made him a uniform tailored to him (dressing him up the way she likes) and kork is therefore feeling indebted to his older sister for all that she's done for him, even supporting him in his passion for anthropology
he was most likely gaslit, in denial over what's happening, because that's his sister and kork was probably avoided too for his mannerisms so he himself didnt have someone he can trust to tell him something was wrong.
its those kinds of they care for each other but even then, sometimes even if you care about them, that doesn't mean they're good for you, sort of way?
THREE. i dont think kork became a serial killer out of choice but more of, the seed was planted into his head. his sister probably talked about wanting to be with other pretty girls, wishing so much for it, probably even mentioning violence considering it was clear she's staying there long term
kork, whose getting into anthropology, shared it with his sister and somehow, they ended up reaching the topic of diff culture's afterlife, just a few flippant comics of, "ah, if there was an afterlife, maybe ill have friends there."
and it just. bloomed, along with the hallucination that kork forms because he's alone now, traveling alone, always staying too short to make any deep connections that he inevitably breaks because of lack of support system.
FOUR. the incest thing, yeah i scrapped that whole thing, kork loved his sister but not in that way, i like to think he meant he loved his sister as in to the point where he'd kill for her, something society wouldn't agree with but not bc their relationship was like that OTL i dont know, it just felt like, an added point to make it more horrifying? it doesn't add much to the story so i won't be putting it in mine
Thanks dude, you really fixed just about everything they did wrong while still keeping the parts that dont make me want to throw my laptop into the ocean
(as for my au, I'm just saying that all of the sister and incest stuff was fabricated memories added to keep the game more interesting)
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