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I got permission to expand on this idea, so I'm gunna share my thoughts and what I came up with regarding this cool idea. I got the concept of this from the OP of the previous post, @coveredinsoot , so credits goes to them. I used he/him for the Yan, and they/them for the Darling so all readers can enjoy. I haven't written something like this in ages. Forgive me.
TW: Yandere themes(obv), mentions of drug use(non consentual), minor mentions of sexual themes, not proofread very well I wrote this first thing in the morning. I hadn't even gotten out of bed lmao
-A recap of my tags in the previous post, my idea followed the premise of a yan whose darling is an employee working under the record label/idol agency(whichever one you prefer) he is signed onto. They could have a position working somewhat in the same sphere as their Yan. My first thought was maybe a touring staff, but I felt specifically that they could be a photographer who was hired solely to work under Yans label.
-They do the shooting for promos, they participate in the creation of music videos, go on tours to get photos at concerts, etc. They work alongside Yan, but rarely interact outside of the professional setting. Darling has a job they have to do, and getting personal with the artist they're assigned to work under is a risky thing, so they choose to keep their casual interactions to a minimal to avoid scandals.
-While Darling is putting their attention all into their career, Yan is forced to get his unrequited feelings out via music. Filling notebooks after notebooks with sickingly sweet words, turning them into lyrics that get pumped out to fans, who all imagine themselves as the reciever of such romantic tales of woe.
-Yan constantly sneaks details about his Darling into his music, from mentioning small physical traits on their body like the color of their hair and eyes, to maybe even scars and birthmarks no one would or should know unless they've seen them partially or fully naked. They would constantly bring up traits revolving around the Darlings personality most of the time, but no matter how many details they place in their songs, it just seems to go over Darlings head
-Yan constantly asks Darling what their thoughts are on his new music, hoping to one day see their eyes light up and realize they were the center of all his music and finally return his feelings, but Darling only ever gives vague compliments to him, telling him his music is great but really never delves to deep into the lyrics or sound.
-Yan finally comes to terms, after watching over his Darling for months, maybe even years, the Darling just never gives his music an actual proper chance, and that's why they never pick up on all the lyrics that would eerily describe them to a T. Yan decides to be a bit more risky, and take his lovey dovey songs into more darker territory.
-Its an obvious switch. Going from themed albums that would have him in more colorful attire and poppy beats, to more darker fashion and seductive tones. Clearly the Cloud 9, cutesy romance didn't do the trick, so maybe he could lure his Darling in with a more mature persona.
-Lyrics become much more sexual in nature, singing of long nights underneath the covers, decorating each others skin in marks, all the things that gets the crowds riled up. He isn't afraid to drop hints/details about kinks he picked up that his Darling seemed to be interested in(well at least that's what Darlings search history says).
-His fame skyrockets after the new change, and he sees his Darling has started to pick up a bit of an interest in his music(fucking finally). They notice a little bit of how Yan seems to keep a certain image of someone within his lyrics. Mentions of the same hair color(and if Darlings one to dye their hair, will even mention the change in hair color in the song(s), same eye color, same attributes both physically and personality wise. But despite that, Darling still hadn't gotten deep enough into the music to put the puzzle pieces together. Though they did make a joke about how much they related to this mystery person from the small amount of details they picked up.
-Yan definitely had to bite his tongue and hold his hands behind his back to keep from exploding after hearing that. So damn close, his Darling is right fucking there, the density this Darling had was driving Yan up the wall, but he'd be lying if he said he didn't find a little excitement in it. At this point he done already turned it into a game.
-The music just gets darker from there, and while the crowds of unwavering loyal fans eat up each word like its their last meal, Darling is finally becoming suspicious. Not just from the odd lyrics Yan has been singing, but also behaviors being exhibited behind the curtains. Around the first change in sound, when Yan took his music down a darker route, Yan had begun being more pushy with spending more time with his Darling. Following them around like a lost puppy between photoshoots. Trying his damnest to get Darling to hang out with him outside of work. Throwing parties just in an attempt to get Darling out of their professional persona around him. Constantly buying them things, showing up out of no where to chat with them, it was overwhelming.
-It was only getting worse, especially since Yan was beginning to slip up and say things about Darling that he shouldn't know. Afterall, Darling never told him such things. Coupled that with the fact that his lyrics in his new album sing of kidnapping and basements and a whole bunch of stuff that aren't at all romantic anymore, Darling is getting wary. They can't seem to go anywhere without this nagging feeling they weren't alone and something was wrong. They even begin looking into changing to a different label or becoming an independent photographer just to get away from overwhelming nature of their Yan.
-And Yan picks up on it. He realizes he isn't winning them over like this anymore, and he's now down to his last resort. He's always been a tad sadistic, even in the beginning he had a bit of joy daydreaming about kidnapping Darling and having them caged in his awfully large mansion, only having Darling ever see and hear from him. He's spent many hours in bed imagining ways to condition and brainwash Darling into relying on him, maybe even getting them so reliant on Yan that he'd be able to have them follow him once again on tours just so they could always be together every waking moment of their lives.
-But to get to that point, he was going to have to start at step 1.
1. Throw a party. At this point they had become common, as this was something he used in the past to get Darling to come out and spend time with him. He'd use the same excuse he's used in the past. He wants his favorite photographer to come and take amazing photos of the party so he can put them on his Instagram for bragging rights.
2. Get them chilled out. Darling never drinks alcohol at these parties. They have an expensive camera they need to protect, and taking decent camera shots require a steady hand. So Yan will make his own concoction for Darling. Darling only said they won't drink alcohol, they never mentioned anything else...
3. Take them out of the crowd and into a more quiet... secluded area of the house. They were never big on parties, its so easy to get overwhelmed, and now they're drowzy and stumbling over themselves and their words. Can't even stand up let alone walk. They clearly need some rest. Luckily Yan has everything they need to keep them comfortable. Now that they've finally made it home they can rest easy on their new bed while Yan finishes up closing down the party for the night.
4. Now a new life can be started. One much more suited to Yans taste. A life his amazing music has sung tales of since the day Yan fell in love...
#yandere#yandere oc#yandere idol#yandere singer#yandere musician#original work#yandere x reader#yandere x gn reader#yandere x male reader#yandere x darling#yandere x you#the ending is very abrupt I do not do endings well#I don't plan on doing this regularly
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also my first medic in this clan is named Pinkstem and I love him
he's not very pink but it's okay because it's a cute name
and of course my mediator who's been hacking up blood for the past 6 fucking months
#cicada blabs#clangen#clangen: thriftclan#i guess i'll be tagging that now#i don't plan on regularly sharing like i do with rotclan but at this point it deserves some sort of tag
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Aight I've been filled in
So people are really just pissy about the lore change ?
God damn, I have nothing else to say but "grow up" ( as bitchy as it sounds)
Choco admitted the mistake of not setting proper boundaries and feeling unhappy about what the direction of their characters, that happens, it's not the end of the world
Characters are litterally a bunch of lines and words, it can move, change, stretch, and sometimes the creator wants to change the direction, and that's okay, it's their choice
Yes, it affects the lore of others, that's unconvinient, but ( and I may sound bitchy again here), good lore writing should allow you to always move forward despite the change in characters, especially in roleplay.
I'm all for Glitch changing if it makes their mod and creators feel more comfortable with it
Calling it a drama and involving me is taking things so out of proportions about something that at the end of the way, doesn't matter that much
Again, it's just a story, there are plenty more !
Also, the haters should really stop coming to me as if I'm some sort of autority here.
I'm just a gremlin that caught on the trend at the right time to make awesome friends, and I'm happy to see that more cool characters were born out of the multiverse concept too
#it's so absurd#whining about lore change ?#do you guys have ANY idea of how many times I had to patch up wttmv lore because the others keep adding stuff to their characters#this is also why we have strict boundaries on the blog and we don't show what we work on unless it's lore relevant#there are already so many concepts that have changed and I have to double check regularly what I can share#cause we don't want confusion in our stories#at the end of the day everyone deals with this how they see fit#but also - the lessons are probably learned by now#set boundaries#and sometimes a little planning for your character helps prevent going astray#as fun as freeballing is#the danger of your character becoming a parody is always there unfortunately#sorry for the ramble
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Gotta sweep up all this Dust (Patreon)
#Doodles#Mother 3#Duster#I am still thinking of He and yet he still hasn't completely come back into my crosshairs#If you can believe it - it was actually the fic printing that was like halfway to the goal of going out of my mind about him again and well-#Lol ♪ I do still plan to! I just underestimated how much of a run-up to him it would be#I'll get there! Certainly keeping busy in the meanwhile lol#But he does get /some/ screentime in the meantime at least haha#I actually injured my own ankle a while ago :P Couldn't tell you exactly when or what but it's been kinda flaring up lately#Mostly when I got for walks - doesn't have to be super long walks either which I'm not super jazzed about#But I did get an ankle compress-brace which has been good for it :) Can walk a bit more regularly!#It was mostly giving my pain away that prompted him back lol sorry Duster#I did at least power up the game to try and see which side his limp is on - it's hard to tell!#It looks like his strides are more confident/longer with his left leg but with the way his sprite mirrors sometimes but not other times#I don't know if he actually says which leg it is somewhere in the game either so I'm just projecting for now lol#I imagine it's only easier to stress out the strong side by overextending - why not both!#It's also still really fun to draw him covered in scars haha#Probably could've gone for arm hair too but it might've muddled the scars and aren't those the important part lol#And a little singy Duster/Lucky to round out :)#I imagine he has a weak voice if he tried projecting but hmm I'm not sure! I really do want to get to know him better!#There's gotta be a reason he was put on the bass right haha#Probably a nice whispery singing voice ♪
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Love Island Challenge will return Friday, October 6th, 2023
Recap everything that's happened so far here!
@slothseasims @storiesbyjes2g @queenofmyshuno @morrigan-sims @ironicscavenger @ommsims @madebycoffee @nilonne @galaxsims-x @regalllove
#hello long time no see#wow look at this shiny new posting design#new to me cause that's how long i've been MIA pfft#i've missed y'all and i missed this challenge#and now that my wedding planning and general life chaos is finally over#i wanted to come back to this#this is my first ever machinima and i'll just say#hats off to y'all who do this shit regularly lmaooo#i don't have the time or patience#but i got inspired by this song and thought it would make a cute intro#anyway i'll be providing several posts for this this weekend and i hope y'all will enjoy it#ts4#sims 4#love island challenge#ts4 love island challenge#sims 4 love island challenge#sims of color#colourfullsims
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so there's a new campaign going round hoping to Make Fandom Less Racist by... pushing for moderation on ao3. no way this could Possibly go wrong :)
#mine#first of all i'm glad ao3 is committed to its stances bc like. 'we need a moderation team that decides which works are Too Racist'#gang what the Fuck are you talking about. who the FUCK do you trust to make that call.#obvs ao3 Isn't gonna do that bc they are An Archive but it's genuinely insane to me to see people Missing The Point So Bad#'ao3 should be able to administratively hide works that don't violate the TOS' first of all No#'and should plan to regularly use this ability to hide works that are Too Harmful by x definition' HELL no.#i do agree that there may be a need for better anti-harassment rules and stuff but like.#'moderate ao3' no. make your own archive. hope this helps <3#also like. jesus christ do you KNOW how many fanworks are on there?#'just hide the racist ones' bestie WHO do u think is gonna read thru the entire corpus of work posted on ao3 so far#in order to root out the ones which are Too Racist.#'well we're gonna make it a community reporting model—' let me stop you right there.#kind of embarrassing to be talking abt racism and specifically harassment in fandom spaces and fail to acknowledge the MASSIVE tendency#of community-based reporting for content moderation being used to harass people.#that's gonna be a pass from me gang.
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PSA, don't talk about anything in your town hall that you don't want every employee and their families to know. Maybe avoid your town hall in general and move to a town where none of your relatives or anyone else you know works unless you want them to know your business.
#source: my mother works in the town hall in the social housing department and immediately when arriving home#starts telling everyone everything that happened today and who applied for housing and who got it and who was kicked out etc etc.#which I Do Not want to know; and also it's another reason for me to move away for a while at least after graduating#because otherwise i'd have applied for social housing in my town which. requires filling out the forms that my mother reviews now.#she doesn't decide who gets housing but i don't need her to look at all my documents and insurance times and former employers etc etc#SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I don't want to know any of this!! how do you arrive home and immediately start talking a mile a second!!#@people who are in relationships: how the FUCK do you deal with coming home and not getting some peace and quiet?#i would lose it if I came home and was immediately talked at for the entire evening about things i don't give a shit about#and that should also not leave the town hall or even the office it belongs to#'are you not hungry or do you just not want to eat with us'. what. the fuck kind of answer do you expect to that.#yes i'm hungry but i'd rather sit in my room hungry and go to my swimming club hungry later than eat with you#and be talked at and questioned about what i did today and what my plans are for the tenth time this week#and having to repeat everything twice for some reason. sunday aka me leaving cannot come soon enough#mine#vent and rant#i also don't need to hear about her GODDAMN DIET PLANS *AGAIN*. i don't care i don't care i don't care!!#leave me alone with dieting!! i'm perfectly capable of falling back into disordered eating habits all by myself! I don't need someone else#to talk about diets and weights and weight loss and calories and weight watchers all the time for that!#i'm perfectly capable of hurting myself like that all on my own; i don't need outside encouragement! god. i cannot wait to live alone#and have my own damn kitchen and enough money to buy proper food that's good for me and that i like regularly.#maybe even see a dietician once to help me find some foods with iron and other things i often have too little of.#and no one to tell me when to eat and then be passive-aggressive about it when i say i don't want to eat now
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the best part about super mario rpg on the switch is that i can play it in bed or on long car trips
geno and i will never be apart again
#DCB Comments#what did you think that last post abt it was the last i would say abt it. haha you're a silly goose :)#i can play fe7 in the meantime while i wait but it's gonna be the longest wait in my life lbr#I KNOW I KNOW I'M A FIRE EMBLEM BLOG BUT. LIKE. IT'S SUPER MARIO RPG I HAVE RIGHTS#I am also curious how long they took to make this bc for example the ToS port was trash lol#but this game looks like they actually took their time with it and cared abt it#ig they only rly do genuinely amazing work on the games they expect to sell well and shrug their shoulders at other stuff#kinda sad for the ports of other games but this remaster looks like actually gave a shit abt the final product#AND YEAH I'M STILL AN FE BLOG BUT UH... EXPECT A LOT OF SMRPG POSTING AT THE END OF THE YEAR#i don't think you understand my buddies that was my fave game as a wee little t'ing#and in recent years i have listened to the soundtrack regularly. i do not mean once in a while#i mean REGULARLY. i have spent years BEGGING for them to at least put on the online services#not to say i can't just play it WHENEVER THE FUCK I WANT BC I LITERALLY OWN IT AND AN SNES LOL#but it's VERY SPECIAL to have it on the switch as well. also now the modern gaming world is going to be#relentlessly subjected to geno content and crazed fans like me and i think that's just wonderful :)))#anyway SO YEAH EXPECT A LOT OF SMRPG POSTS WHEN THE PROMISED HOUR ARRIVES#I don't currently plan to go full multi fandom but I've considered sprinkling my other interests#with FE still being the main focus of this blog bc at this point it's still my main thing with an active fandom#ALSO DID YOU KNOW in fact no you didn't bc i didn't ever talk abt on this blog but#i was considering cosplaying geno to the very last con i went to in 2019 (haven't attended one since)#if it turns out i end up going to my usual con next year maybe i'll try again! i have mikey planned but i can add another outfit!!!#did u also know that growing up i had zero idea that geno was so popular like i didn't know until the internet was cool and all#and then i found out that everyone else loved him too and i was very surprised to see how popular he was#but also was like yes rightfully so
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I have been trying one of those recipe box subscriptions even though I'm single and always figured it wouldn't be very efficient as one person
(I should probably have used a friend's code but i signed up pretty impulsively when a decent offer presented itself in the wild)
so far i really like it?! I feel way better about my diet when I do some actual cooking, and it turns out that, for me, not having to think too hard about what to make is a HUGE help in actually feeling up to cooking, especially on a given weeknight.
like i can browse the recipe options when I have spare time and it's...actually really fun! I love thinking about food in the abstract! and then i get stuff that i can just start cooking whenever without having to make a big plan about it. and it even makes it easier to do the rest of my grocery shopping!
also as one person so far the 2 servings have been pretty fair, so it works out to reliably have leftovers for lunch or the next night. Not enough to get sick of and not so little I feel cheated by it, basically. It seems like sometimes I might need an added veggie, but that's fine.
it's definitely not the most "cost effective" option, but i can afford it right now, so that's whatever. why else am i making money anyway? i do feel kind of bad about the extra packaging and shipping, but i can live with it
#i haven't paid full price for a box yet although they portion out the discounts oddly#my original plan was to decide if i want to bail when it hits full price but it's looking more and more likely i'll stick with it awhile#i'm also still hoping that getting back in the habit of cooking this way will make it easier to do regularly#like the dream was that i improve some cooking basics and get comfy with a better variety of recipes until i feel good quitting the box#but idk i didn't fully realize how much ''planning is hard'' was what was holding me back and not just general fatigue#i don't think i have adhd? idk. but some kinda executive dysfunction i think? but there's that post that's like pay the adhd tax up front?#it's 100% that. just pay and then enjoy#now on the other hand i am accumulating limes alarmingly quickly. can't keep up with the whole lime for quarter/half lime recipe thing
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Ekolu! Can I get some quick drabbles or headcannons for how Ayato, Xiao, and Venti react when a reader calls them out for doing something dumb/mean? I mean, I’m an idiot and a hothead on the best of days, but I still want to (have the confidence to) call out others.
Like, Ayato… you shouldn’t just send Thoma gross concoctions. At least ASK if he’s curious about it first.
Xiao could you maybe please hold up instead of just disappearing?! Like, at least give us a chance to say hi!
Venti… maybe performing on a rooftop surrounded by the creatures you’re allergic to is a BAD idea.
Heck, I don’t even mind if they react negatively. I love how you portray Zhongli reacting to things and I want more.
Um anon, no offense, but how are you able to speak to the very depths of my heart? I honestly adore this idea. We must have something in common because we are both hot-headed idiots. I think our archetype needs to be represented more in the genshin x reader community. No more doormats and gushy lovey-dovey relationships. We need an temperamental dumbass revolution. All them characters are morosexual anyway. uwu <3
No but seriously, I'm excited to try this out. I'll do my very best! I struggle a lot with trying to figure out how to characterize the characters properly, so honestly knowing you like my rendition of Zhongli makes me very happy!! I'm gonna get started tonight. I may throw in a few other characters too if I get the inspiration. :D
#anon#i'm not sure if this is the lovely person that regularly comments on my stories#but if you are pls know that your comments make me really happy and serve as such amazing motivation#like i was not feeling finishing that last zhongli chapter but then your reblog and comment just put my motivation into overdrive#i write most of these for my own amusement so i don't really need support#but knowing that even one person enjoys and looks forward to them just means so much#for the zhongli story he will call them out eventually#i'll try throwing it in in future chapters but he definitely will call them out after they find out his identity#it may not happen for a while tho bc this will be a slow burn... maybe#everything is still in the planning stages and I have a lot of fillers so actual relationship shifts will be every 3-4 chapters or so#hopefully you don't mind waiting#but anyway this request may take me a little bit#i gotta do research#along the same lines i'm thinking of doing a set of short drabbles with a 'secret identity' theme l#aka reader talking shit not realizing the actual person is right in front of them#but i like this idea better#okay i'll stop rambling in the tags aaaaa
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A Midnight, two joints, hefty edible, and five hours of helping a long time friend through a crisis thought -
Maybe this is the year i start inserting myself properly into the lives of the people i love until they tell me to fuck off, taking up whatever space i can until they set their boundaries and i can match them because I'm starting to think that no one is going to do anything around here for fear of burdening each other and it's beginning to feel like a bad goddamn joke tbqfh
#my local friend group/chosen family is all so afraid of taking up space in each other's lives that we never reach out#until it reaches breaking point and then suddenly its wow why arent we doing this regularly#and honestly im just getting to a point where maybe i need to be the one whos uncomfortable and make the plans#and haphazardly invite myself over places for a while until a standard is set and boundaries established a norm created#because goddamn we are all fucked up and nothing is going to change if we don't dp something about this shit#im so afraid of taking up space in the lives of my friends and partners that im never reaching out properly#and i know its a failing of mine i know it is#so maybe this is the first baby step i take i start with this one friend and jack up north with regular snoke nights and calls and walks#i invite myself when i can and make the schedule and take on what emotional labor i can#and by doing so set the stage for what will hopefully be an exchange an understanding that this is what we are doing now
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That moment when you have a group friend of four and then the 3 of them get closer to each other, and you end up feeling left out like 🧍♀️🤡
#i thought i had college friends but now I'm not that sure#they live in another city so it's easier for them to meet more regularly i usually just saw them when we were attending college#but now it's summer and i see them making plans and talking without me#and idk cuz what's the point of talking when you know you're not going to go?#money for transportation is kinda expensive#and i don't like to go alone to the big city alone#since there's been new about people getting drugged and kidnapped to rob or rape them or for human trafficking#maybe i sound paranoid tho but i feel alienated#maybe they were not my friends to begin with and just people i talk to when I'm in college#i mean that's how i been feeling lately about them and this started since the ending of last semester#and what i do? i end up ghosting them to avoid feeling like this#maybe we just vibe differently i mean they're into a bunch of things I'm not and the plans they do tend to not interest me#am i overthinking all of this? probably but still it's shitty to feel left out#sorry for the long rant
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Getting a second monitor set up tonight!! I'll test out streaming and see how it goes!! Hopefully things work out okay!! I'll let y'all know if this is gonna be a new thing ^-^
#if i can figure out streaming then i'll probs be doing it regularly!!#i dont think i'll have a mic set up and i definitely wont have a camera#but a friend has offered to make me a little sprite if i decide to use a mic!!#i don't own many games rn and will most likely be streaming things ive already played#i do plan on doing hollow knight (been waiting to play it) and a fresh starbound character though >:3#batty blogging#text
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Hhhhhh
#I'm kind of upset#So far I've been able to record all of the Requestobers and I was planning to have a backlog so I could actually post on YT semi-regularly#At least for a little while#And it'd be fun to see the process behind 'em#I was doing so well#And then today for whatever reason - I haven't changed any of the setting and I haven't done anything disruptive#I even made sure my Task Manager was giving me the usual readouts#My footage corrupted for Day 5 :/ :(#There's only about 30% of it that's in any decent kind of condition#I was really looking forward to it I really enjoyed it and I feel like I did a good job with it#I don't know why it went wrong and now it's just gone#It's not like I can rerecord it and it's completely unsalvageable#It's never done this before...I guess I'll just have to do a restart (which I already hate doing) or run some tests...#I should've watched my warmup footage before committing to anything#Lesson learned I guess...#I think the worst part is that it only really started getting bad just for the footage I care about#The one that took the longest of course
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I was re-reading nights (as one should) and the chokehold ur fics has on me is crazy its just such an unforgettable piece of writing for me. Look when I get married (BAhaha yea right but IF I DO) i will freaking find some way to slip in SOMETIMES I WANT TO PRETEND THE ONLY THING THATS HAPPENED TO ME IS U, and no one will know i’m referencing the best fic on Ao3, but I will!!! A DN fic from 10 yrs ago can just b so personal😪. Yup I mean u just gotta know how amazing ur writing is and if u forget here it is dude!!!Cheers😋🥂
hi!!! this message made me smile a a lot!!! thank you so much omfg.
i happen to be absolutely sure that nights is objectively not the best fic on ao3 (or even in the death note fandom), but if it's your fave? that means the world to me. tbh i do see that it is definitely a "choke-hold" kind of story (i originally wrote + structured it to be as addictive as possible lmao). i really appreciate you messaging me and saying all this, i'm so happy you love the story. it's for you!!!
also if you ever do get married & reference nights i'll need to know bc i'll fucking lose it. idc how many years from now i'll still go bananas
but seriously thanks anon!!
#i do still check tumblr semi regularly to answer messages#so sorry if i don't answer right away but if u send it i will see it#and basically i love ya'll forever#as for objectively best fic in the fandom i'd say Those or A Tithe to Hell but those are just my picks#but i'm of course super super flattered & happy to have nights called that#anyway i am rewriting an original novel of mine + lots of poetry rn but i still plan to write more dn fic at some point#asks#anon
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#why does my mother have to be so terribly difficult? the divorce affected her too ofc (it was her idea and her divorce. not mine.)#but she acts like i'm personally attacking her every time i even so much as mention my home state or talk about my dad#in a positive manner for too long. like? she acts like i'm okay with everything that turned out and that i'd just get used to all the#changes and immediately disregard my life before. when that is not the case at all.#nobody's a mind reader but just because i'm not saying anything doesn't mean i don't have feelings about it. it's on her for#expecting something of me she didn't even care to ask how i really feel about it.#she talks a lot about how harmful assumptions about others are but then turns around and assumes i'm peachy keen because i'm not#actively protesting. she takes everything i say and do personally. it's note even fucking funny.#and she says i'm sensitive. i've been a fucking champ about it for the most part bc she's a#pussy ass cheating lying skank who thinks she can gaslight and manipulate me into submitting to her.#i can't believe she fucking gets mad at me for wanting to cook my own separate meal but also expects me to want to know how to drive and#have my whole next 5 to 10 years all planned out. and heaven forbid i move out or even want to live with my dad (/s)#she says i'm so smart and above everyone else my age intellectually but then she treats me like a child!! she regularly insults my#emotional intelligence. i guess because i had to teach myself all that nitty-gritty that she doesn't know better. maybe. but it could be#presumed that when she says i'm soooo smart she's including my emotional maturity. she literally says i'm Smarter Than Her (!!!!) and#and i'll 'do amazing things' but also expects me to want to live with her until i'm thirty!!!#there's nothing wrong with living with your parents but there's no way in hell i'm staying any longer than i have to living with her.#if push comes to shove i have a couple friends i can go live with closer to home.#i literally fucking hate it here. help me.#personal#don't rb ig lol#parents tw#divorce tw#emotional abuse tw#/vent
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