do you ever watch a years old video that's super obscure and you NEED either content of it or someone to talk to about it but it won't ever happen and it's permanently altered your brain chemistry or are you normal

I mean this in the best way possible, I hope I don't wake up tomorrow lol

feeling devastated rn because that soft and happy smile castiel had on his face when the empty took him away was totally still there on his lips as he slept while he was trapped there

happy birthday! to me!

damn i'm awake before 10........... pretty crazy

This kind of hurt is unlike any other.

I'm mourning for a future from my imagination that's never going to happen, and yet, why does it feel as if I've lost something so undeniably real?

If my love for her was a tidal wave, then her rejection of it was a tsunami. But now I'm drowning.

I'm drowning in the thoughts of what could have been, If she loved me more than just as her best friend.

I'm drowning trying to imagine a future where she's not by my side every night, staring up at the stars on the ceiling.

I'm drowning in the thoughts that she's hurting because she knows she had to break my heart.

I'm drowning in the heartbreak, trying to reassemble the pieces into a shadow of what they were before my heart belonged to her.

A poor imitation of my heart lays unrecognizable in the sea, but I'll swim a million miles if it means she's not hurting because of me.

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

Do you ever read a fic so good it leaves you speechless and in a daze as if you had hit your head and temporarily lost your memory

I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -

I am fine with "the audience" -

downloading my fics

printing my fics

copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics

sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3

making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss

doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc

I am not fine with "the audience"

doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity

feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever

Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.

Enjoy the fandom things.

After a week of reading in every spare little moment because of starting it from the top again, I just finished @jazzfordshire DWTS AU and I am a happy little puddle on the floor. Holy shit, if you are a Supercorp fan and have yet to discover it, you need to read it. It is life alteringly good. It's called "I Want Something Just Like This". Just make sure you have at LEAST a few hours set aside because once you start, you are going to want to see it through and it is an absolute masterpiece.

because what do you do with yourself once you finish a pjo reread?

Ok I'll stop spamming

love when you can ask the Narrator why the Princess is a Princess and he's like 'well i uhhhh YOU did that. maybe it's because uh... something something about her being above you... but still approachable... look i don't want to analyze or anthropomorphize your--' my guy. i am a primal being of Order and Eternity and Shaping. You're the one who convinced me I was some dude and were quite willing to take credit for shaping my view on the world through narration five seconds ago. Are you gonna look me in the eye and tell me the desire to interpret something worthy of adoration and more powerful than me as a dommy princess is written in the very nature of the universe or are you going to show me your browser history like a man

Nope was the single most unpredictable movie I've watched in the last 5 years i think

the three of them. she was the one who. they. he only. they didn't. all of them went. they they went. and then. and then they. but then. and he. and then. god

the one positive but also incredibly painful thing about buddie not happening directly after the shooting arc is that now we might get eddie telling buck that he loves him that he's in love with him and when buck asks how long he's known eddie will tell him that he's known for years that he ironically figured it out as he was lying there in a puddle of his own blood thinking he was going to die and all he could do all he wanted to do was reach out for buck one last time and then he didn't die and life moved on and he kept this newfound realization hidden away because it felt so momentous and fragile all at the same time and years passed and then buck came out and then eddie came out too and that's not a guarantee for anything but they're both here now and buck's been giving him these looks and fleeting touches and it's all felt so soft and safe that all eddie can do is reach out again and when the tips of his fingers finally touches the warm smooth skin on buck's arm after so many years of almost but quite not there the confession all but falls from eddie's lips onto buck's over and over and over again