▶ a bering and wells fanmix

01. feeling a moment - feeder | 02. what if - safetysuit | 03. moving pictures silent films - great lake swimmers | 04. losing your memory - ryan star | 05. running up that hill - track and field | 06. please don’t go - barcelona | 07. saturn - sleeping at last | 08. all i want - kodaline | 09. say something - a great big world, christina aguilera | 10. atlantis - ellie goulding | 11. arms - christina perri | 12. breathe again - sara bareilles | 13. shattered - trading yesterday

fairest of the fair

just read Logan’s statement

One day I’ll go through med school and then I’ll go through residency and then I’ll go through a fellowship and then I’ll be the most crybaby neurosurgeon you could think of. Bursting into tears if I so much as graze ur hypothalamus with my forceps

irt poverty/homelessness + alcohol use (esp with @butchfeygela‘s tags on my post)- people really underestimate the function that substance use/alcohol use can have for someone who is unhoused. being unhoused is boring, cold, painful, + lonely. substances can allow the 8 hours panhandling to get the $45 you need for a motel to fly by. alcohol reduces your perception of the cold + can knock you out whben you can’t sleep. substances can help you cope with the physical deterioration from malnutrition, constant stress, + sleeping outside. substances can provide social connection with others who you would otherwise not enjoy or help you cope with being alone.

not only that but- many unhoused people are stuck in a seemingly inescapable position. the pathway to financial stability or even housing is difficult or even impossible. in the wake of that hopelessness, the downsides of substance use start to seem insignificant. arrest? you’re getting arrested anyway for sleeping outside, peeing outside, standing in the wrong place, etc. physical danger? you’re already beat the fuck up, anyway, right? loss of relationships? you’ve lost most people already. inability to keep a job? nobody will hire you + you can’t stay employed, anyway, because you have no car + no shower.

perhaps for you or me, the cons of heroin use or binge drinking nightly greatly outweigh the pros. that isn’t the case for everyone. if we are really serious about ending overdose/addiction, we need to start looking at giving people lives worth recovering into instead of shaming them for their own hopelessness.

idk if it was the venus retrograde or what, but july 2023 was quite literally the worst month i've ever experienced in my life like.....every single day? awful? worse than the last? it's more likely than u think

greensec headcanon time. sometimes when orange is having incomprehensible nightmares they go out of their room to come to green's, stepping very quietly when coming downstairs, afraid to bother them with their worries. knocking on greens door, feeling slightly uneasy when green opens the room almost immediately, with a bit of a troubled look mixed with bittersweet softness of their smile. going over to their bed, tapping the place near them, and second coming over to sit the same way theyve done it before, allowing themselves to rest their head on green's knees. green burying their fingers in the their hair, with them starting to hum a soft melody that allows the tired stick to melt in their touch. notes of a loving lullaby surrounding second, warmly piercing through their worried haze. to eventually drown in a calm, peaceful dream, with a sound of greens voice that finally allowed them to sleep.

neglecting my job at the draw giant 6+ digit kill count robots as silly little animals factory

Here we are at the busiest city in the world,

What would you do to make yourself stand out?

you ever wonder if the Glamrocks's face tracking acts up when they look at Glamrock-Freddy, like they'll look at his face, and the recognition will register as Freddy, but their systems for whatever reason or another think that there is a face overlapped on Freddy's do you think they see two small squares next to him, at his side, roughly child sized, but no one is physically there.... right...?

come on grandpa its fine. let your inner dadguy out

Maybe I should........

More misc. daily life pictures and such

they thing is, carter's 'scully left mulder bc he got so depressed and mentally ill so she had to leave for His Own Good/For The Implementation Of Gratuitous Mulder Manpain' post canon character decision is that Scully simply wouldn't.

She would not leave him.

Not in a 'she loves him too much to leave him, isn't it romantic' way, though.

She Wouldn't leave him in a 'they're too enmeshed by then to even seriously contemplate it, he's been literally dead before and also on the run apart from her and she never considered them Over, and then they spent a good few years on the run together in the 00s in not even slightly cheery circumstances, and if, after 20 years of unconsciously warping themselves around each other's neuroses and serious trauma, she can lift her head up far enough from their personal morass of dependency and compensation to see that he's depressed it'd be a feat. She might, with this clarity of vision, at times consider leaving to 'shock' him out of it, but she Can't because he's her whole support system and his belief in her and his persistence is the bedrock of her continued functionality in the face of stupendous loss and confusion by like year 3 of knowing each other, and not having him or his vision of her to lean on was bad enough when there was literally no other choice. So. No, even in the midst of that through process, she probably wouldn't really go all the way through with it.

But it's equally likely that, just like in rocky eras of their earlier FBI days, she'd only be able to accurately see how much he was struggling very intermittently, and mainly just start subconsciously altering her behavior and frame of mind to accommodate him or meet him, while maybe having the instinct to try to aim them at some kind of goal or occupation (ie some kind of warning signal going in the back of her mind that says understimulated Mulder is unhappy, though probably not that bluntly coherent).

The danger is over and everyone is safe, you're allowed to grieve the part of your life you lost. They're just "things" but they're things you had because you loved them, made with your own hands because you felt it was worth it to create and bring you joy in its existence. Every piece you lost is a part of a life you put together for yourself. It's a testament to your existence as the unique individual you are. You don't have to apologize for mourning them

Thank you.

I just. I can begin again, and I will. I'm even a relatively quick seamstress, when properly motivated. It feels like such a herculean task, though, especially for things that can't be gotten easily or cheaply again- colorful silks the discount fabric store no longer carries, my stash of antique and specialty reproduction trims, certain buttons or accessories...

I feel like I'm staring up a mountain I have to somehow climb all over again, after reaching a peak and then falling back to the bottom

AUGH MY BRAIN IS JUST ROTATING DANTE VERGIL AND NERO AROUND I HAVE THINGS TO DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

But like

Dante who resents his demon side because of what happened to his family as a kid and because of what happened to Vergil and to the other people he cares about but doesn't show a shred of his fear and trauma, hiding it behind jokes and cockiness (except in dmc2 which is post Nero Angelo and has him believing he's lost the only family he had left which explains why he's so "not Dante" in that game) but he uses that demon side to fight against them and get his revenge. I don't doubt he's often had the thought "if it wasn't for my father none of this would've happened" or even "if I wasn't part demon the people I care about wouldn't have targets on their backs."

Vergil on the opposite end resents his humanity because of what happened to his family. He believes his humanity is what held him back, it was his weakness, if he had more power he could've stopped the attack and saved his mother. And that becomes his mission, while he still hates demons he believes that gaining more demonic power and becoming more like Sparda will finally make him powerful enough, he won't have that weakness. Yet, no matter what he does somehow Dante is still better. Dante doesn't even want this, why does he always succeed, he gets everything. Mother saved him, she didn't even look for me. It isn't till after Vergil has been separated into V and Urizen that he's forced to deal with his humanity as V. He is forced to go on a personal journey until he combines with Urizen and becomes Vergil again (visions of v is so beautiful at showing this I cry so hard reading those final panels).

And then there's Nero. He spent most of his life completely unaware of the Sparda bloodline. He saw his demon arm as a curse for a long time because he knew the Order would hate him and possibly try to kill him because he has some kind of demonic connection. He was partially right about this, but they were hypocrites and creating their own demons to fight. Now he knows he's a descendant of Sparda, but despite this demon side he knows who he is. He knows what's important to him, and this demonic power can be used to protect the people he loves like Kyrie, she loves him regardless of this demonic side. He's in touch with both his humanity and the demon within, we see this culminate in DMC5. He's that balance between Dante and Vergil, he's truly a successor to Sparda's legacy. And he didn't even know he was a part of it until he was nineteen.