I started my 1st Marauders fic 1 year ago TODAY.

How it’s been going ✨in 5 words or less✨:

I’m Collecting Kinks Like Horcruxes.

(now, related to the tags on that last post..........)

anonymously tell me what you think of my character portrayal. ↪ a stranger said:You have a wonderful grasp of your character and it shines through in his mannerisms and your headcanons. You've taken what little is shown of Raihan and fleshed him out fully. It's great to see how you develop him further! Thing is, sometimes I am intimidated to interact with you. You've generated a very tight knit bond - as you should - with a few other blogs, and I am afraid of "butting in", so to speak.

ok first of all: That Is Illegal Amounts Of Nice. tyvm and i hope i continue to please ;__;

now........ listen

liste [grabs you] Listen

... [SHAKES YOU AROUDN] LISTEN.

i do have some close pals who i rp with a whole lot, yes. the reason this happened is I Vibe With Them. and yes i'll reference those specific buddies' portrayals when not specifically rping WITH them and whatnot but that don't mean i won't do the same thing for someone else's portrayal, dogg! listen. listen... [still grabbing you and shaking you] sometimes i am afraid to approach. in fact that is Often the case. but there are writers who i feel like i Vibe With who i haven't spoken to much yet because i'm nervous that i'm irritating or something. but if i like a whole lot of your posts that is me making a feeble attempt to communicate I Vibe With You. and if i DON'T do that that doesn't mean i'm not still really eager to interact, i'm just Exist At Speed Nervous and again i do not know how to approach and i am full of fear. and frequently feel as if i am in fact the one "butting in".

if you wrote a starter for me and i haven't responded? either i have it open to respond to as soon as my brain works or my brain never started working and i just couldn't figure out what to do with it. i unfortunately can't really approach people about like... changing it up. i'm a nervousboy. but it doesn't mean i'm not still interested in interacting! ya boy's just dumb and sometimes has no ideas for something

(also... i actually only have two people who i actively do a LOT of threads with... miscellaneous interactions, yes, those happen all over the place with a bunch of people but for real my most active rps are with exactly two people and both of them i mostly rp with on discord. i am in fact aching for more threads on tumblr with people i vibe with and am just currently a little nervous about approaching)

i think the crux of this problem (didn't think about it til just now but following that logic is a horcrux like. the crux of a whore) is the fact that... simply......... certain people have been following me for longer and thus have been able to see the whole 182 plot from its start up until now whereas newer people are coming in like Wh... What's this... and that's fair and i totally get it. but i swear to god it's fine to not know the plot too well. it ain't necessary and the most important part of all of the current PLANNED plot events are, as of an hour and 17 minutes ago, a week from completion. i can't say much about what's gonna happen when they're done with outside of "i'm gonna put all the info about his sister in plain ol english instead of Komaedese, because the mystery game portion will be over with".

i am very tired and i don't know if i have said any of this intelligently or even... Understandably... but. hey. maybe it helped clear... something up, somehow