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hi besties today my brain is just straight up BLANK so i have nothing to say
anyways. did you know that male seahorses give birth. and that some people think you can't walk backwards on stairs BUT ACTYALLY YOU CAN bc if you face forward going up the stairs and go backwards you're going down instead which is proving this theory wrong. also why are people scared of spiders. my friend has a toy spider that has cancer but dw it's currently under treatment. now another thing. why don't people like oranges. like why >:( n e ways-
#I KNOW I SAID MY BRAIN WAS BLANK BUT I JUST CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT INIMPORTANT USELESS STUFF THAT IS IMPORTANT TO ME#I KNOW I DONT MAKE ANY SENSE BUR DO ANY OF YOU UNDERSTAND HOW IT FEELS#WHEN YOUR BRAIN IS EMPTY AND HAS NO USEFUL THOUGHTS BUT THOSE THOUGHTS ARE IMPORTANT TO YOU#EVEN THOUGH THEYRE USELESS#BROO#shitpost#spiders#stairs#random#helpme#oranges#aaa#reeeeeeeeee#i have more to say#vick's random shit#seahorses
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building in the sims really does make you understand how you get nonsensical floorplans in real life.
because you end up in situations where youre like oh my god this is the perfect floorpla-... okay is it weird if the door to balcony in the bathroom? or when you find a perfect configuration of rooms but oops where do i put the doors? how bad is it if you have to go through the bathroom to get to the bedroom?
big squares are the worst to floorplan because where do you start? where do i put stairs? where does a kitchen make sense? why did i put windows there?
#kai rambles#the sims#the sims 4#floorplan#the sims building#for context#ive built like a small apartment complex thingy#because for rent came out#its two buildings#one has two apartments and is fully furnished#and the second has the other four and i built it from the exterior first interior second#and now i have big squares to make logical apartments out of#im somehow having more problems with the middle two even though the other two had floor to ceiling windows everywhere#at the front i have this stupid 4x1 sticky out bit in the middle with a big ass window#its making my life hell#also the balconies#why did i make them#theyre 1x3#theyre useless balconies#i did this to myself#especially because each pair of apartments are mirrors of each other so i like the idea of putting the same kitchens in the same places in#each pair because that makes sense#but its killing me
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i think one of the more insane pucci characterization moments is when he offers emporio, a child hes about to fucking KILL, a martyrs death, with the implication being that it would at least ensure that hed go to heaven after hes killed (like… the real one lol). like girl what are you fucking doing!!!!!!
#thinking about it like puccis morals are so fucked like he is EVIL but he keeps making these tiny acts of ’kindness’ to excuse his acts#like its kind of the same with him letting wes live and ’watching over him’ for all those years even though he imprisoned him and stooe his#memories. (though i also believe he was being honest when he said that he always hoped that hed find a way to settle things with wes with#out having to kill him or causing heavy weather). or when he dissaproved of donatello throwing random kids from the hospital into a deathly#situation to kill jolyne and hermes but like. instead of stepping in and stopping him pucci just dissaprovingly glared at donatello and kept#annoying him. like all his acts of ’morality’ are ultimately still useless and more so non-actions.#but hes like convinced that theyre noble because he IS noble because hes ultimately just trying to help humanity in his mind so its okay!!!!#pucci posting#jojo
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Bruhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
#it doesn't' really matter if biden does horrible things cause if a republican candidate wins u dont seriously think theyre going to do#better do you? ok so biden sends weapons to israel and u think if a republican wins then theyll just stop sending them? at least biden#implemented some environmental protection and reversed some of the policies that trump made but i cant believe some ppl really think that#republican winning would be any BETTER than a democrat winningn no itd just be worse so stop being stupid#im talking about u leftist tumblr people... if u want things to not be worse then why dont u just fucking at least vote for a democrat beca#because literally no a third party candidate is not ever going to win and i dont understand what exactly ur even trying to say when ur sayi#saying dont vote for biden ok so then vote for trump instead? or dont vote at all even though u have the power to? or vote for a 3rd party#which is useless and wont do anything?#thats literally ur 3 choices if u can vote and one is better than the others sorry *shrug*
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mike was raised christian and was taught to pray before eating and i think sometimes as a force of habit he still does it despite barely even being christian anymoee
#i think hw loses a lot of faith thru out his life vuz his life kinda sucked ass and he was real disillusioned#i think by the time he came to micky he was mostly agnostic ranging on atheist#but . he also didnt get to eat much growing up and hes always grateful for a meal#so when micky would give him food he would sit and pray over it before ever touching it. even though he doesnt pray anymore#i love random off the wall useless headcanons theyre so fun 2 me
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If eyes move, this could die! I want you…
To take me out!
Hiiii hello! It’s been SO long since I’ve posted an art to Tumblr ‘:)
Soooo I offer you:
Wolfsbane! (any pronounz)
Sort of a sona of mine! Although they weren’t originally meant to be one
Wolfsbane is HEAVILY inspired off of the game Shipwrecked 64 and (the soon to come out :3) BlunderCover 64!! (Formerly Cold Case)
Hence why she doesn’t really.. look anything like a wolf. /lh
Expect to see more of him, Hopefully!
#Wolfsbane#my ocs!#👻 Aloe’s art!#digital#oc art#oc#also yes those are franz ferdinand lyrics at the start eheheheh#i like it when people pair their art with song lyrics i think its SO COOL#anyways as stated theyre based on shipwrecked and blundercover#they were originally going to be an oc SPECIFICALLY for blundercover but then an official character got reveaaaled#who took on the exact same role wolfsbane was gonna#goofy and mostly useless assistant#lopps (char in question) is very cool by the way shoutout to them#but anyways i still associate her with blundercover even if its not like. her PRIMARY source anymore#i guess you could say hes in some kind of au?#anyways THATS ENOUGH RAMBLING IN THE TAGS#THANK YOU FOR READING THIS ALLLL love you /p#CHECK OUT SHIPWRECKED/BROADSIDE BEACH BY THE WAY ITS SOOO COOL (though it is a horror series so like#yk. typical trigger warnings)
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Love how I can ruin something so easily
#actually id say love how depression can do so but i dont have to behave irritably just bc my brain feels unmoored and unhappy for no good#reason. i dont have to make it everyone elses problem#i wasnt trying to! but i cant communicate hey i feel like x and thats making me feel y and i dont know what to do about it#i just.. why dont they ask 'Why?' when i get like that. i want them to notice that I'm acting uncharacteristically and say something so that#i can go oh yeah thats dumb and idk why sorry yeah#but theyre reacting like its not obvious when i pointed out that this happens and that i want them to ask me 'why'#yeah is it fair to expect that if them? no. but idk what else to do abt it bc i am incapable of makingany other decision#im ANGRY#I'm disappointed i didnt get to be here for the yard sale and help them#I'm frustrated i had to be at work even though i was superfluous there today#I'm disappointed and frustrated that they dont want to try a yard sale again another week#like maybe a warmer and nicer weekend and puttinf more signs up will result in more traffic to the yard sale!#theyre giving up on it and i wanted to do a yard sale and didnt get to bc i had to be at work instead and now i wont gwt to again bc they#dont want to plan another yard sale bc theyre exhausted by it#i missed out and i wanted to do a yard sale so bad and didnt get to be here for it!#I'm frustrated that qe wont do another yard sale#and I'm unhappy that they didnf trust that i could clean up and brinf stuff inside at least like theyre tired so why are they doinf the work#let me help! i want to feel like i helped! I'm useless i dont do anything! but i was fold i cant do it on my own and wouldnt know where they#wanred to put stuff#like yeah i cant move the tables on my own into the shed. fine. but the boxes of stuff??? she could have come and directed me instead!#so like. fine i wont help. and then i got up and came to fuckinf help anyway even tjo apparently i wouldnt have done it right on my own#and shes like that attitude wasn't helpful like neither was what you said!#i know I'm not smart or helpful and just an annoying tag-alonf overgrown child but i wanted to do something#if it was my oldest sister insisting she could do it they wouldnt have protested!#whatever I'm stupid and reactive and i could have said like that makes me feel like u think i cant help and that feels shitty#whatever#I'm just. i hate existing its too frustrating and complicated and i havw no choice in the matter and i want to just curl up in bed and do#nothing and go nowhere and not talk to anyone and not do my medication bc i wont have insurance if i dont go to work bc i wont have the job#which means i can never do that bc unfortunately the result of not taking my medication scares me more than i hate having to be a person#i hate being a person but being sick is infinitely worse so
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i took the bait. i took the bait and i am suffering the quencies.
#i am so tired#my brothers loooove racism#i know they just dont want to recognize it bc then they have to face the face that theyre racist lmfao#face the fact*#we made peace (well. ''peace''. i am still appalled w them.) though so whatever#mum congratulated us on being able to step back and move on so yay i fucking guess#best outcome considering everything. but god. fuck.#i know i am putting myself directly in harm's way by ever engaging and trying to educate#but everyone says ur a bad person if u dont educate when u have the chance to. so. i want to help and make the world better#and i have no opportunities to otherwise. but its not doing anyone any good to try to engage w family#i just. keep trying. bc i keep thinking its so fucking obvious and indisputable. and then they keep proving me wrong. somehow.#im a fucking awful person if i don't try though. i have to keep trying even if it fucks me over. bc ppl do so much out there#and im sitting in this stupid fucking house absolutely useless doing nothing. i have to try#but I can't keep getting in trouble. im going to smash my head into a wall. i just want to help.#i just want to be helpful. i dont want to be a bad person fjfjdl i dont want to let harm continue#and maybe im just being dramatic abt getting into trouble !!! maybe it is not that bad !!! and if i stop trying then im a coward !!!#i dont know !!!! i want to go to bed. nightmares are easier to handle than this rn honestly.#pippen needs 2nd breakfast
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havent weighed myself in awhile. i know i gained so. im just not gonna weigh myself yet until i get back on track bc im scared
#my scale is super annoying and its honestly suck a pain to weight myself#it likes to just not chmage what weight it shows even when it definitely should and ive tested fhis with weights#i dont really trust it much but i dont have the spare money to buy a new one so i just have to deal#i have to take out the batteries a lot to reset it and it seems to fix the problem but idk if what its showing is accurate#i can def test my food scale bc i have small weights but thats useless for a big scale bc theyre not heavy enough#idk. theres a scale at roomates moms house so i could probably ask my sister to test it for me. the only way to really check is to use#another scale or a heavier weight so. well ill see. she hasnt gone there in awhile though so idk. im just scared the scale might be wrong#well. ill def be spending less on food this month so maybe i can use that money and buy a new one. idk
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when I was in high school there were girls who would literally take like 4 advil in half an hour bc it didn't kick in fast enough and I was always like "geez, calm down, just give it time to digest, you're killing your liver" but. I have become that girl.
#okay i took 2 in half an hour not 4. and theyre normal dose not extra strength#but my pain tolerance is Zero now#when i was a teen i would basically never take painkillers even though i got crippling headaches#(they were useless for period pain too bc they just made me more nauseous)#then in college i fucked up my leg and had to take tylenol and you know what? i like not hurting. not hurting is good#but now when the advil doesn't immediately work I'm like WOE I SHALL DIE#anyway sorry liver. ill make it up to you buy uhhh. idk eating some broccoli or something.
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I think the thing that pisses me off most about my graduate university is that since I am an international student, in order to take this program I can only take it as a full time option.
For a normal, neurotypical person this isn't a problem. But I am not a normal neurotypical person, I am a very mentally ill person (probably more so than I let on to be) who's been absolutely broken by the last 6 or so years of existence and currently cannot handle a full course load without spiralling into depressive episodes and anxiety attacks.
But I can't take this program part time. Because then I can't stay in the country. It's such a fucked situation. Honestly it's probably discriminatory too, but I highly doubt the neoliberal state even recognizes disability brought on by mental illness even if their own documents acknowledge it.
Society in general will be all like "uwu it's okay to not be okay!" until the moment you say that you're not able to produce like an average person and then suddenly you're on a performance improvement plan or you quit your job because the thought of working like you used to makes you horribly nauseous and suicidal. But I might be projecting a bit here.
Long story short I'm not having a good time working on my final assignments right now and I don't think even if I ask for extensions it will help anything.
#late night ramblings#also therapy is kind of scratching at old wounds right now so im in such a mood this past week with the extra stress#on top of end of the year stress#i had to skip out on co-studying with my classmates because i dont think i could have taken the anxiety theyre putting off#like the times we were having coffee/tea earlier in the year and talking about presentations i could feel the anxiety radiating#and like i also havent done anything for this final project because ive been fighting my demons and the wifi#so it would be kind of pointless to go and hear their comments about my situation#i cant even break down fully because im sharing an apartment and when i break down i get kinda loud and cry a lot#and i dont want to disturb the others or have them be all worried#i know if i can just get all the emotions out of me i can robot my way through the inital roadblocks#but since i cant fully break down its pretty much useless.#so all the stress just tenses up in my body even though the body is already slightly tensed from the small space here#like how the single bed is relegated to a corner so i cant stretch out fully#and the shower is so small that all i can do is turn around in it and every time i bend down my skin touches the freezing tiles#so my muscles and joints are slightly wrecked right now and will be for quite a long while#im not even going to get into exisitential stresses like money and purpose but those are there too
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okk um instead could you do a percy x fem!reader with prompt 1?? And could you do it so its kinda like they are already in an established relationship and throughout the week he realises that slowly his gf has been a bit more distant and nearly getting hurt in training from being so out of it, and them whilst theyre just hanging out in his cabin he asks her whats wrong n yadyada 😍😍
Sorry if that didnt really make sense but thankyouuuu❤❤
Are you alright?
Your boyfriend gets worried about you after seeing you stress out so much
Prompt 1: “hey, c’mere sit down, tell me what’s going on”
Pairing: Percy Jackson x fem!reader
words count: 1.4k
warnings: slightly mention of injury
A/n: Thank you for requesting! I would like to apologise with all the people who are waiting a fic, but lately I’ve been REALLY busy with school, and writing became impossible. 😓🧡 In these days I’ll try harder to publish as many requests as possible, thank you so much for understanding! 🧡
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You were on the right front of the river. Dressed up for catch the flag you were ready to give your best. To your misfortune though, your boyfriend, Percy Jackson, had ended up in the other team. Of course, being part of the g/p’s cabin also meant ending up in the red team all the times. But you sticked with that because you couldn’t do much else.
The game started, you had a defensive role in your squad, and you were okay with it. Armour on and senses awake you examined your surroundings in search of any possible ‘enemy’ in the near area.
You could hear the sound of words sparring in the distance, and that only alerted you more, they were becoming clearer by the seconds. You took out your weapon, ready to fight. The river was behind you, so it was unlikely someone would try an attack from there. Other than that you were surrounded by trees and vegetation.
A noise coming from a near bush caught your attention, you were ready to defend yourself, and eventually your flag.
But then… a sharp pain had hit your dominant arm, and you let out a groan of pain, finding yourself with a much younger camper of the blue team.
You didn’t loose another moment, you tried to move quickly, to dodge his attacks and try to get him to drop his sword, but it was useless. In the end you had found yourself, butt in the water, and the other camper having surpassed the spot where just a few moments before you both were sparring.
You didn’t even pick up your sword again, you stood there in the water, dumbfounded. How did a younger camper managed to beat you so easily?! You couldn’t believe it. Slowly you pulled yourself out of the water when you heard the horn that indicated the end of the game, your team had lost.
You made your way back to where all the other campers were supposed to reunite at the end of the game. The blue team was cheering and laughing, all of the half-bloods obviously happy of having won the game. Between them stood Percy, still happy, but less thrilled than the others, it wasn’t his first victory, so he didn’t party like the others.
It was then that he noticed you as you walked away to your cabin, quick to avoid his gaze, and when he tried to approach you, you had skillfully managed to avoid him. Saying that he was confused would have been an understatement. Why did you avoid him? And why your back was wet with water? Was that a cut the one he saw on your arm?
The next morning you presented to breakfast in a way more tired demeanour, dark bags under your eyes and sloppy movements. You didn’t even sit at the Poseidon table, which was the standard. Your arm was covered by a short bandage that cover your cut to avoid possible infections.
And then Percy sat by at your table, ignoring the glares your brothers and sisters were giving him “hey” He tried to start a conversation with you “mornin’ ” you simply said, answering back in a dry way, something didn’t feel right.
“Do you want to sit to my table?” He asked again, a slight frown on his face, green eyes holding a spark of worry. You replied dryly again “If you want” and then the two of you got up and sat at the Poseidon table. Percy attempted to make small conversations, but none of it were working, so he decided to try a different approach
“You good?” He asked, and while he was searching for the truth in your eyes you looked for at your food “yeah, why wouldn’t I be?” He sighed “look at me” you were focused on your food “y/n please. Look at me?” You didn’t move your head fully, you just glanced up “I told you, I’m fine” you then stood up and walked away, leaving your plate on the table, your food almost untouched.
the rest of the week went by in a similar way, you acting off of it, and Percy worrying over you more, every day that passed. He found you in the training area, exercising with a mannequin “You need a sparring partner?” He tried, expecting once again a negative response.
Instead you hesitantly looked up and nodded your head “I… yeah, actually yes, it would be helpful” and with that you two started sparring. Percy took a mental note of how much your stance was uncoordinated, which was strange, cause you usually fought very well.
Your feet moved fast, you had only a thought in your mind
I need to win.
you usually weren’t like this, you didn’t care too much if you won or not when you sparred with your boyfriend, but this time it was different. You had to prove yourself that you knew how to fight, how to spare and how to handle a weapon.
It was that taught that distracted you and almost got Riptide stabbed in your stomach. Luckily you had been fast enough to move, and even if you fell to the ground you had avoided the hit of the celestial bronze blade.
Percy let go of his sword immediately and rushes to your side “Are you okay? Did I hurt you?” But you didn’t even hear him, your mind was elsewhere.
you had lost. Again.
And even if you knew that Percy was great with his sword you couldn’t help but- “Y/n!” Percy had you sat to the ground when you came back to reality. He was holding your face and it was crystal clear the distress on his face. “Yeah, yeah sorry, I’m fine, you didn’t hit me”
He insisted to take you to his cabin to actually check he didn’t hurt you, and even if you were hesitant if you should follow him or not, in the end you both ended up in his cabin.
“Are you sure, but like 100% sure that you’re fine? Because these days you are way more absent and you’re spending all your time sparring.” Before you could reply he continued “And honestly, your movements were so uncoordinated before that…” you didn’t hear the rest.
your movements were uncoordinated
that was enough to stop your whole body to move, even breath. Percy noticed. Of course he did. He also tried to get you back to the real world by putting a caring hand over your shoulder. “Hey, c’mere, sit down, tell me what’s going on” and you did. You sat down by your boyfriend’s side and told him about the younger boy that had beat you so easily.
“I can’t even fight! He was like 10 Percy! If I cannot keep up with a 10-years-old then how will I be able to fight monsters? How will I be able to handle quests?” Now there were tears streaming down your cheeks. So that was what you were worried about. Percy pulled you into his arms “shh, please don’t cry, you’re good with fighting, I can assure you” but you didn’t believe him, you just sinked deeper in his chest, burying your face in the crook of his neck.
“Please darling don’t cry, I have proof you’re a good fighter yeah?” He rubbed your back, trying to sooth you, he had no intention to go away until these insecurities of yours would have been solved. “Remember about a month ago, when you made me drop Riptide only 2 minutes into the sparring session?” He began, you weakly nodded your head, hugging him close
“And do you remember about two weeks ago when the mechanical taurus of the Hephaestus cabin who broke, and you stopped them from destroying the dining pavilion?” You looked up at him, still tight in his embrace “but-“ he cut you off “no buts, you are great, you have great skills and you have to believe in them and in yourself, trust me when I say this.”
His words sinked in. He was right, you had amazing skills and you couldn’t let the first person to win over you let you down like that. “I love you Percy” you whispered
“I love you too, with all my heart” he answered, and the two of you fell asleep like that, in each others arms…
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A/n: hope this was what you were searching for babe! Thank you for requesting 🧡
#Percy Jackson x reader#percy x reader#pjo#annabeth chase x reader#percy jackson#pjo x reader#jason grace x reader#leo valdez x reader#x reader#pjo headcanon#pjoverse#piper mclean x reader#percy pjo#heros of olympus#hoo#toa#pjo hoo toa
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Your tmnt au meeting Monkey kid and the gang?
I think you're talking about my 2012 TMNT designs? Which I understand, theyre really far from canon HELPP but they're not really an au 😭 or they were never really meant to be. Anyways I have a lot of thoughts and I could explain why I picked each character and paired them up with each other and if I can I'll definitely draw the rest of them!!
I'll explain right now why I paired Mei with Donnie and Tang with April
First and foremost though,
⚠️ NONE OF THESE ARE SHIPS ⚠️
With that out of the way I'll start with why I paired Mei and Donnie. I like to think that Mei is a super good builder and tbh, this is actually pretty canon. We see her rebuild her bike in S1 Ep 3 and in S1 Ep1 she's also the one who builds their secret fortress which is INCREDIBLY made. With this information in mind it can be quick to assume Mei is a pretty good mechanic! In S3 of 2012 TMNT we know that Casey and Donnie spend a lot of time in the small barn out back working on stuff both seperately and at times together! While I do think Casey can understand some of the tech jargon Donnie talks about (as long as it relates to car parts) I don't think Casey can really understand the technical stuff. I think Casey's knowledge probably comes from self taught experience, as a result he can identify each part and what they do but not the technical terms for them and professional blueprints for things and stuff. Which is why I think Donnie would be absolutely ecstatic to have someone able to read his work!! And like I said earlier Mei is really good with tech as we see a lot in the earlier seasons before they delved hard into mystic magic and stuff. I would have paired Mei with Casey but I have other ideas grrr!!! If people are interested I'll explain more.
Moving on to why I paired Tang with April! I kinda rewrote April a lot HELP I think her writing had a lot of problems so I just changed stuff lol. I like to think that the reason April tried so hard to prove herself and stuff was because she doesn't want to be useless. I feel like she gets sorta babies a lot (mainly by her father) and it makes her want to overachieve to prove a point, prove that she's grown and that she's perfectly capable of handling herself. The problem though is the years of fighting experience she lacks. In a normal situation April can 100% take care of herself but in ones where she faces opponents with a lifetime's experience in combat versus her measily 1 and a half years the difference is huge. And on top of this April has to figure out her psychic powers, which in S4 literally blew up in her face. I just think she struggles with feeling inadequate, when she does something she wants to be the best and it's hard for her to feel like she has a place in the team when everyone else seems not to struggle the way she does in battle. She just tends to forget the difference in fighting experience even though they're all the same age. Anyways, being unsure of ur worth on the team and struggling with your powers seems like it would be right up Tang's alley!! Tang in S3 Ep8 has a huge tipping point where we see he struggles with self doubt and feeling like he isn't needed. Then later when he discovers he has powers he struggles to control them and get them to do what he wants. I think Tang reassuring April is just a really nice gesture!! Especially since Tang and April are like the most human out of the rest of the group (excluding Casey but he struggles in a different way). I think in a group full of spectacular talents, it's easy to feel ordinary which is a thought I think plagues Tang and April's minds while their characters develop. I tried to keep this short so I hope it makes sense ahhh if you're still reading you're totally awesome and cool!!!
#tmnt#2012 tmnt#tmnt 2012#teenage mutant ninja turtles#2012 april#2012 donnie#2012 leo#2012 raph#2012 mikey#2012 casey jones#tmnt michelangelo#tmnt donatello#tmnt leonardo#tmnt raphael#tmnt casey#tmnt casey jones#tmnt april#april oneil#casey jones#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#lego#lmk mk#lmk tang#lmk pigsy#lmk mei#lmk sandy#lmk sun wukong#lmk monkey king#mei dragon
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A vat7k related question.
What do you think is Hugo's gender identity? Cus I want to hear what you think Hugo's gender is and the story behind it.
EHEHEHE personally i think she’s genderfluid and uses he/she/they pronouns…….I think he was kind of an uncracked egg up until the trials though. like, he’s been in survival mode for so long that he’s never had the time or luxury to really think about himself or his identity….i think he’s had a lot of different disguises over his career though, and those personas are either male or female depending on what the situation calls for so he’s not a stranger to dressing femininely either.
but yeah…i think for a long time hugo just identified as male by default cuz like…what else would he be LOL. if he had any doubts at all they weren’t significantly hindering him or anything so he just buried them with all the other of the emotions he doesn’t want to feel. but like the closet is made of GLASS and this becomes especially obvious when she teams up with 3 other teenagers who are also transgender so sometimes she’ll just Say Shit and they all turn around and look at her like “…….🤨”
i have this very vivid scene in my head where varian comes out to the gang as trans and hes clearly really uneasy abt it. and hugo doesn’t know what to say so he just tries to relate by saying the first thing that comes to mind and goes “oh yeah i get it i mean. sometimes i wish i was a girl but like not all the time yk” and nuru and varian both just stop and stare at him
hugo, getting nervous: …Sorry that’s probably not the same thing forget i said anything
nuru: No i think we should talk about this?
anyways yeah….other than her traveling party giving her some weird looks nothing actually really came of these conversations bc hugo would refuse to think about herself even if you put a gun to her head
fast forward to post-trials though, and hugo’s been living in the castle with varian for about six months…it was REALLY messy for both of them while she was adjusting, but at this point shes finally started to let her guard down a little, and all of a sudden she has SO much free time and she has no idea what to do with any of it. she’s stealing collecting things, tinkering with all kinds of useless little gadgets, rapunzel is teaching her tons of little arts and crafts projects. overall shes pretty content despite everything. So anyways then the gender crisis hits them like a fucking freight train
honestly i’m like half joking when i say i think it started bc they just kept forgetting to cut their hair. like one day they looked in the mirror and they’re like “wow my hairs getting so long i kinda look like a girl lol. Wait”
AND AS FUNNY AS IT IS ITS SO. WILDLY UNFAMILIAR TO THEM. like all of a sudden theyre SO insecure for as far as they can tell, NO reason and it drives them CRAZY. i dont even think that hugo dislikes their masculine features after coming out, i think they embrace them if anything but its just like…going from 0 to 100 so fast and suddenly being so hyper aware of themselves in a way that they NEVER were before…having to realize that they’re definitely Not cis. it’s fucking TERRIFYING!!!
not to mention it hits him all at once during a time when he’s still frankly really paranoid about him and varian’s relationship, and he’s kinda walking on eggshells bc deep down he’s convinced that var’s just gonna get tired of him eventually and kick him out. its like he’s just waiting for the final nail in the coffin despite the fact that there is literally no coffin.
All that being said i think it takes him a while to work up the courage to talk to varian about it. and he knows he won’t like. hate him for being trans or anything (I sure hope he wouldn’t, at least, seeing as he is literally also trans) but varian’s already done SO much for him and helped him through literally everything already….he doesn’t want to burden him any more than he already has. he also cant comprehend that someone can just Like him, like, as a person, so he’s convinced himself that varian must see something specific in him right now and he’s afraid that if he changes himself drastically in any way then whatever varian saw in him just. won’t be there anymore. If that makes sense
as for who he actually goes to first- honestly i think it’d have to be lance. at least in my head lance was the first person hugo really started to bond with aside from varian….he didn’t start letting his guard down with rapunzel until quite a while after that. also i think he’s worried that if he tells rapunzel she’d end up accidentally spilling something to varian (which is like. Valid bc she’s a horrible liar) he’d definitely write a letter to nuru, too, but nuru is also in another kingdom, and that message takes a while to get to her, so it’s more something they talk about after the fact
when he finally does get a letter back after dumping this revelation on her it’s just like
“dearest hugo. upon reading your letter i desperately wanted to tell you that i told you so, but i realize that would be in poor taste, seeing as you are clearly struggling right now. Moreover,-“ /j
regardless of who she tells first, they obviously all support her and encourage her to talk to varian as well…And ofc varian hypes her up to no end when she finally does. i wanna say it’s a sweet emotional scene but i feel like varian was also under the assumption that she figured out the gender thing like a year ago /j
hugo: ,,,,so like. i don’t think i’m a guy
varian: . yeah?
hugo:
hugo: TFYM “YEAH”?????!!!!???
varian: D. DID WE NOT ALREADY KNOW THIS?
hugo: ,???? NO???!!???!
jokes aside though as soon as hugo does decide he wants to explore his presentation more varian immediately consults rapunzel who gets WAY too excited about it and it kind of scares hugo a little bit. /j like Do you want to cut your hair? Dye it? Do you want new piercings? TATTOOS????
they eventually just settle on getting her a few new pieces to add to her wardrobe and that works out fine. varian sees his girlfriend in a dress and loses his mind etc etc. All is right in the world
#vat7k#varian and the 7 kingdoms#tangled ask#varian and the seven kingdoms#vat7k hugo#varigo#varian#tts headcanons#pansy rambling again#pansy-art#i first answered this like two weeks ago but i lost the entire post and i got so mad that i just didnt bother writing it out again#until now i guess
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yall asked me how i did it so here we go:
first of all, if you dont struggle with an ed or are in recovery than dont interact or read this. i am pro recovery for everyone except myself. stay safe everyone!!
my situation:
im 167 cm tall
i started at 67.7kgs and now im 43kgs, (bmi 24.3 -> 15.4)
i live with my parents and they after two months noticed and now they watch what i eat
it took me around 5 months but during 2 of them i was just maintaining because of miscalculations and binges
1) meals:
i do omads, its really effective, keep it around 350 - 900 cals a day, i used to fast for few days every now and then but omads work wonders
heres how my week looks:
mon: 400-700
tue: 400-800
wen: 400-600
thu: 350-650
fri: 400-800
sat: 900-1200
sun: 850-1250
omading dinner works quite well and so does omading breakfast, but i prefer dinners, i can keep my morning skinny all day and i dont have to walk outside being bloated af
2) exercise:
i do around 5 hours climbing a week, after 3 months i added a 20 minute workout every day that i dont climb, also sometimes i spent whole days climbing on rocks outside
i also have 2 hours of pe a week
i try to get at least 5k steps, mostly i get around 6k a day
im not a try hard in exercise, sometimes i go inline skating but its for fun
i dont distract burnt cals from the days total. i dont.
3) pürging:
i used to pürge anything that was over 500 cals, but it was useless, dont do it, its not helping, i did this only the first 2 months because of guilt
4) binging:
before i began eating less, i used to binge like 4 times a week (around 4k cals), it used to be my coping mechanism
at first i didnt binge at all, i didnt eat because of guilt, i hated food
lately ive been binging on low-cal stuff which is bad, but at least its not as high cal (i actually crave low-cal things), but now i tell myself this: 'enjoy the emptiness, nothing can fill in the void inside, especially not food' and it has helped a lot
but im not rlly sure what to do about it- it just sometimes happens
5) weight ins:
i do them everyday in the evening before dinner, i dont drink water during the day (dont do this, i forget to drink and am used to that, stay hydrated), which makes me not want to eat because id gain the food and water weight, if i knew i was having two meals id weight in in the morning
6) metab days:
since i live with my parents who now check on me, i do them on weekends - both days, i mostly binge on those days (sometimes even 3k cals) lol
i aim for 900-1100 cals on them because on other days i try to restrict as much as possible and my bmr is around 1200
even though they seem scary, theyre very much needed!!
7) rituals:
i dont snack, only gum - it works amazing (i go through like 30 a day :'))
i always plan my cals for the day in the morning and always add in the food before eating it
i spend a lot of time on edblr and edtwt and edtt, motivating
i always have an emergency snack on me and water, im allowed to eat it if im too dizzy or too weak
8) my tips:
never eat alone. never.
eat only at the table - it makes it really annoying to sit there while eating which makes me not wanna eat
romanticize hunger (not the best but ykyk), be a good ana, be pure, be pretty
wear layers, youre gonna be freezing all the time
vaping/smoking can help if youre already into it, dont start with it just because i said it might work
be patient.
skip any meal you can, fake eating, empty packages, hiding food in clothes, taking in to your room, dirty plates, sitting and staring at an empty cup licking the clean spoon over and over as if the cup was full so you seem like youre eating... anything
dont obsess over food, obsess over being skinny and over fasting!!
dont eat more than 2 meals a day
prepare your own food so you can calculate it right
high volume low cal stuff and high protein stuff are your new best friends (lettuce, peppers, cucumbers, pickles, rice cakes, tomatoes, melons, coldfish, chicken breasts, cottage cheese)
warm water fills you up, so does coffee and tea
be nice to yourself, reward yourself when you do good, make it a game - points for being good -> rewards you can buy with your points, when you mess up you have to extract few points
take it slow, one day at a time or one week at a time, you have plenty of time, messing up is okay (one binge doesnt make you fat just as one fast doesnt make you skinny, but doing it repeatedly will)
if youre getting weak -> increase your cals, its better to get your energy back but maintain for few weeks than it is to be weak and passing out
9) do what works for you
i cant do longer fasts because of my family, just because this worked for me doesnt mean its gonna work for you, find what you can do and stick with it
i really suck at portion control so i omad, its way easier for me to not eat than to eat small amounts through out the day
thats it for now!! thanks for reading, if i think of something more ill write it down!!
#i will be a skeleton#i will be weightless#i will reach my ugw#edmeme#i hate calories#starv3#unhealthy weight loss#lose weight fast#anatips#ana#tw ana trigger#tw ana diary#ana advice#ana tips#unhealthy diet
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To the new players on Splatoon 3!
For any battle type:
Always remember to booyah back! this means at the start of the round when a player on your team presses booyah, say booyah too! it lets old players know youre communicative and pay attention to your teammates. Its friendly. Its polite. Its honestly gonna make the whole game more enjoyable if you can use the little bit of communication there is.
theres no in game chat function so booyah and this way are the best way to let your team know what's up! booyah when your teammate did something cool! its a morale booster
plan your specials around your teammates. is your special better for support or slaying? check to see if there is already a cooler up if u have it, cus the effects do not stack. and in salmon run specials can be what saves the whole team!!
check your map! not only does it show the current ink coverage, it also shows enemy players if they have taken damage even without being marked. you can jump back to spawn if things seem dangerous and you can jump to teammates. keep in mind that teammates might not be in a safe position for you to land in. anyone can see where you will land and can try to jump kill you. knowing the map itself for good jump points and seeing if the teammate is in a well inked area helps.
Ink spawn. Always. Dont think it applies to X mode? It does. Even in anarchy battles (which splat 2 players might still call ranked out of habit) you should ink spawn. Why? multiple reasons! It keeps your base safer than not. helps maneuverability in getting back in. It helps build your special, which can be incredibly useful for a push. generally speaking, an inked base is a happy base. EDIT: I dont mean ink spawn immediately for anarchy battle, the first push is critical! Use the spawn for free specials to push when you're behind! And dont be thorough in anarchy battle either, prioritize the objective over turf inked unless you have a very good reason otherwise. the movement is also more for a path back to spawn than anything. having escape routes is important.
For turf war:
Inking ground takes priority over killing. Yes if they are dead they cant ink but the respawn time is pretty fast, about 5 to 7 seconds. Also, inking builds special. it is the only way you build special. kills do not build your special. Inked ground both gives a tiny amount of damage to the enemy when they step on it, AND gives you more coverage, AND gives you quicker escape options, AND is the deciding factor of winning the game.
Walls do not count towards points. Only ground. Inking walls isnt useless though, but don't think that inking them all will help you win, its more for maneuverability.
Last second bombs can decide a match. If you have a sub to throw and there is roughly one or two seconds left on the clock, throw it no hesitation. after the match time is over, it will still pause for a second to allow all subs and specials that were out at the last second to explode.
Hide in ink. This should be self explanatory. You aren't as visible if you are submerged in ink and you are faster in ink than walking. if you hide while an enemy player is nearby, and they dont think to check whatever puddle youre in, you could get a sneak attack. another point to focus on inking!
For salmon run:
Learn to squid party! its just jumping and changing in and out of squid to inkling (or octopus to octoling) form very fast so u kinda look like a blob. it might be frowned upon to squid party in other modes but this is totally fine and encouraged!
Pay attention to your teammates positions. Dead teammates cannot help more than sit there and hold a single egg. throw a bomb or shoot at them to revive them. they take priority over eggs in most cases.
Use this way liberally. This way points towards where youre looking. Use it to say hey theres a boss here.
LISTEN TO TEAMMATES. if someone says help or this way go to them. its worth it. they know what theyre doing. usually.
Losing on wave 3 doesnt lower pay grade. It sucks to lose but wave 3 sucks slightly less to lose on.
thats all for now! have fun and i hope you enjoy my favorite game series of all time ever. woomy!
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