The queer platonic question brought up something that I've been struggling to talk about, which is like, that there's a word to describe something about myself that I've always kind of known, but played off as a joke, or an thought I must be unconsciously exaggerating, or that there was some connection I was just missing.

Aplatonic.

Even before I found out there was a word for it– that it was something other people experienced– I was getting the strong sense that there was something "wrong" with the way that I interacted with people that I got close to.

A few years ago I made the deliberate choice to stop letting myself get very close and intimate with people I met online, because inevitably, again and again, I would get a crush on them, and fall in love with them. And I would fail to understand what– in hindsight– were completely normal boundaries of intimacy between friendship and romance. 

I don't know how to interact casually with someone I'm close to without flirting with them. I don't know how to care about someone without wanting to kiss them, and brush their hair and take them dancing, and solve their problems, etc etc.

And it was seriously complicating my life– which at this point is comfortably married and settled– so I just sort of stopped.

I've gotten better at managing it for the last while, just by being aware of it.

Learning that 'aplatonic' is a thing you can be has helped me understand and manage myself, just by having a word for it.

For one thing, it's made "platonic shipping" and "friend shipping" and "familial shipping" and platonic F/Os in fandom make a whole lot more sense to me.

It makes my enemies to lovers fixation make a whole lot more sense too.

I genuinely didn't– and still don't, emotionally– understand how you can want two characters to have an intense relationship that *isn't* romantic.

But I understand that there's this whole experience of attraction that I'm missing out on and that that's what other people are experiencing and expressing.

I don't really have an end to this post. It's something that I'm still struggling to communicate, and figure out what it means beyond the obvious way I've been living with it my whole life.

Thanks for having patience with me.

A very very messy sketch for the anon that wanted to see my design for 1987 Mikey in Too Many Turtles! I had like an hour to do this so it’s actually terrible but eeehhh

As you can probably tell I am very busy in real life right now with university work and assignments. I’m sorry but this blog is going to be quite barren until I finish, which is in like a month or so. It’s annoying because I love drawing but I also have three assignments to do in just over two and a half weeks and then immediately study for exams which is very fun.

So it’s back to prompts! I’ll try and do quick sketches every now and then but the quality will be much lesser. Re blogging my shit art to try and keep my blog active would be appreciated, but not required - I just like doing the weird prompts you guys give me lol

If you want more info on hiatuses, or see some sketches of art I don’t bother posting, it might be worth checking out my ko-fi page as I give real world updates much more frequently on here just from a business standpoint :)

-> My Kofi || Tip Jar :) <-

✨MONSTER SMASH OR PASS 1K FOLLOWER CELEBRATION GIVEAWAY ✨ [NOW CLOSED]

As always, none of this is affiliated with tumblr, steam, or anything. This is literally something the mods are doing for funsies.

ANYHOO ON TO THE DEETS OwO

RAFFLE ENDS ON; RAFFLE OVER

To enter the raffle, you must;

➥ Be following this blog! And ➥ Fill out this google form! (please read instructions on it!)

[RAFFLE OVER - LINK REMOVED DUE TO THAT]

(It makes entering yalls usernames into the raffle picker easier for me ahh) (Also, you need a Steam account. More on that in a moment.)

That's it. That's literally it. Reblogging this post is nice but not needed!

PRIZE OPTIONS

All prizes are Steam game codes - so you need a Steam account for this!

First Prize - steam copy of Monster Prom 2: Monster Camp, plus one (1) game of choice from a list of assorted unused steam codes I have.

Second Prize - two (2) steam codes of choice from said list of unused Steam codes.

Third Prize - one (1) Steam code of choice from the list.

If ya wanna browse the list, here's a link to the google doc I list em all in; [Browse possible games]

Please note that while this raffle is active, I will not be selling any, since I'm using them as prizes. But after it ends and prizes have been claimed, I will be selling them again.

Good luck!

And, thank you from both Mod Curse and myself, Mod Ghoul, for 1k on this blog. 💖💖

~ Mod Ghoul ☢️

200+ Followers Raffle!!

It’s almost the end of the event and that means it’s time for our raffle!!!

One winner will recieve the gijinka design below that I’ve lovingly dubbed “The Prince of Truths” while the other will recieve an icon similar to the example shown below!! If you would like to enter Please Comment in the replies below!!! You do not have to have participated in the event necessarily to enter, but must be a follower!

I hope everyone has enjoyed the event and I look forward to announcing our winners in a few short days on May 1st!!!

pssst.

hi :) sorry i've been gone. i have some explaining to do, some blame to assign (looking at you, writer's block), and in general just some things to say. this is just a quick little warning that things on this blog are going to change (somewhat drastically? at least aesthetically) in the coming days. same stories i love to write, just with a look i like more and some better organization. i will have an update post detailing all of this when i'm ready to roll it all out.

thank you for your patience. hope you've all been doing well. talk soon? xx

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The askbox is open!!!

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I didn't write at all over the weekend. I didn't even look at my wips and it actually felt good. It felt good not stress over whether or not I was writing fast enough or if what I was writing was good enough. I didn't have the feeling like I was wasting my time.

I feel guilty for feeling that way though. Writing is such a huge part of who I am but recently it's been a part of me that's been causing more harm than good. It's stopped being fun.

I don't think I'll ever stop writing and posting here for that matter, but I think I need to take a real, proper break.

I'm not going to write for the rest of this month. I'm not entirely sure if I'll write next month (except for school work unfortunately) but I'll cross that bridge when I get there.

I've burnt myself out trying to live up to impossible expectations set by myself and it's ruined something that I love. I know it'll be a disappointment to a lot of you, I completely get it, and I hope you can forgive me. I just can't do it anymore right now.

I'll probably still be around on tumblr, I'll end up reblogging a shit ton of stuff and maybe I'll post something occasionally but it won't be any wips or drabbles or anything like that.

Thank you to my followers, I love you guys and thank you for being so patient with me.

Thank you to my mutuals. I love you guys so much you guys really help me when I need it and I cannot express the gratitude that I have for each and every one of you.

Writing will have to continue another day

there's definitely a lot of social shame surrounding the idea of wanting to be the dominant/aggressive/pursuing partner in a relationship. It is not what our culture romanticizes, and in fact, it hypes it up as something scary, and potentially dangerous.

I however, have no shame, and don't mind being regarded as potentially a little bit dangerous.

Hello everyone, unpopular announcement coming...

Hi. I am OVERWHELMED with matchup requests. I have had them closed FOR A LONG TIME and people STILL send them in. Not to be rude, but I have said numerous times that I'm not taking more, but I've been such a pushover my whole life I haven't deleted them either (still considering it). One of them even said 'oh hi whenever you open them again I'm in line' as if that's how being closed works. I feel like a content machine more than a person receiving consideration when I get requests ignoring my attempts at minimizing stress. Bottom line is, I feel a little bit sick even saying this because I fear I'm going to lose my audience, but I don't enjoy doing matchups half as much as the original imagines, headcanons, and one-shots I set out to do and I feel a lot of pressure to complete matchups, get them out fast enough, etc. I am losing my enjoyment of writing on this account and cannot focus on the works I am really excited about because it feels like a task now and I don't want that. My fire is going out and I have been considering inactivity because of it all. This blog was a passion project to put out the content I wanted to see and share thoughts and it has lost all passion.

Matchups are closed indefinitely and any received after this post will be deleted unless you are a friend/mutual. All other types of requests are back open, though it may be a little while for me to complete them just because of the large buffer. But I want to enjoy myself here again and do what I love lest I do go inactive, which I have been considering. Thank you for understanding and I'm sorry if this is a mean post, a rude post, you no longer want to interact with this account, etc. My therapist has encouraged standing up for myself and my own mental health and I have been trying to practice that more.

TLDR MATCHUP REQUESTS ARE CLOSED INDEFINITELY. ALL OTHER REQUEST TYPES ARE BACK OPEN AGAIN. I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR YOUR HEADCANON, IMAGINE, SCENARIO REQUESTS AND I REALLY HOPE YOU ALL UNDERSTAND WHERE I'M COMING FROM 🫶🏻

//taps the sign// HEY. Fuckin pay attention for a moment, please!

Fuckin reminder yall. One major rule on this blog (besides don't be a goddamn bigot) and that's no shit-talking monsters here, be it in replies or whatever.

It's right in the pinned post.

Doesn't matter if they're not your type or whatever, we're not here for negativity and that includes you calling them ugly or basic/vanilla or whatever.

Don't do that.

Gettin' real annoyed about this. It shouldn't be that hard but apparently it is for some of yall.

Here's a good summary from a classic Disney rabbit;

~ Ghoul ☢

anyway it's been a hot sec (6 years? idk time isn't real) but here's some updates:

used to be smolsarcasticraspberry for anyone that remembers me from The Fandom We Don't Talk About lol

I'm a guy now!

got diagnosed with ADHD

got divorced

dated my best friend for a while. it didn't work out. not gonna talk about it on main

got my doctorate despite a worldwide plague

it's dr sarcastic raspberry now

started testosterone. it's going great lads

got top surgery. best decision i ever made. farewell stupid tits!

moisturised thriving in my lane etc

i really missed the vibe of this place and wanted to start up a blog again. the blog content is gonna be a lot less fandom and a lot more dnd/OCs/reblogging art/etc.

also i'll be reblogging/posting a lot more adult content this time around i think. if you're not into nsfw stuff feel free to unfollow with no hard feelings!

that's about it.

So um yeah I don’t think I’m going to get time to update any of my fanfics this week. Subsidence has already gone way past it’s mark and I haven’t even began writing the next chapter of Too Many Turtles. I’ve literally had no free time to myself as I am juggling three assignments, commissions and personal stuff rn, which is also why this blog has gone quite silent, oops.

Sorry, I really hope I get at least a little time next week to update them. I promise Subsidence is at least half way through its next chapter 😓

The Sleepover Has Concluded!!

Thank you everyone for participating in my first ever community event! This was incredibly fun to host and create assets and backgrounds for! I had a blast hosting for you all, and I hope everyone really enjoyed participating in it, or at least watching along!

I will be taking a break from this blog as the event has undoubtedly caused me to burnout a smidge haha. Alotta art in just a short amount of time. I will of course be back as soon as I feel up to it! However you'll catch me running other blogs or doing other things and art in the meantime. (Like the new blog @distorteddiamonds wink wink)

Raffle Winners!!!

It is my pleasure to announce our raffle winners! Thank you everyone once again for supporting me for so long over the past year! I cannot state how much fun it's been to get to know everyone, and the fact so many of you enjoy my work makes me so happy! But before I ramble more...

Congratulations to @hoodies-monster-ranch for winning the gijinka design!! And congratulations to @pokepalsarchive for winning the icon!! Please be sure to DM me so I can grant you your prizes!!!

In Closing...

I will be finishing up a few interactions here that I wish to continue as I stated in my last post, but they will most likely all be text based haha.

Out of all the secrets at the event, 2/4 were discovered! Through interactions or appearances of unlikely characters, they were unlocked!

Zapdos will be leaving the event withouut his orb!! Let's hope he doesn't get scolded by Ryuki when he gets home.

And of course, Reshi has plenty of new friends she adores very very much, and cherishes the ones she already had that much more. Thank you again to everyone for participating!! I hope to see you very soon!! ;))

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I want this platform to feel like a warm hug! Every time a black woman sees my posts or stumbles on this blog, I want her to be reminded that she is loved, honored, safe, beautiful and supported! There are so many gossip/demeaning platforms that paint us in a bad light. Black women, we are not a monolith. From all walks of life, when you come to BFS we want you to feel worthy & empowered to become the best woman you can be.

God Bless,

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