a wahoo girl in a wahoo world

Guysssss I had the longest and best day everrr 😭 This got sooo long (sleep deprivation YAYYY) so it's under a cut now. Ye be warned

This morning my 10am lecture got out super early so I wandered around a bit and then went to office hours for my ecology prof and she helped me figure out my sources for my final paper, and then we yapped for like an hour :] She had me help her come up w curriculum ideas for her summer class and then we talked about the best japanese restaurants around town and also she gave me a recommendation for a good thai place.... then I went to a bio seminar about archaea in the nitrogen cycle which was REALLY interesting (& I'm not usually into microbio!!!! it was soooo good)

And THEN I was walkin across campus and I noticed a water oak which I needed a new sample of for ecology lab so I was cuttin myself some leafs and then I turned around saw one of my besties STARIN ME DOWN.... which was very funny bc just the other day I was tellin him about how I sometimes wonder what other people think when they see me stop in front of a tree and stare at its leaves for several minutes LOL he got to watch it firsthand...... and then I got to use the field guide he gave me last week to confirm it was the right tree and then we saw another friend and yapped and it was beautiful

And THENNNN I continued my journey to the music building where I met up with two of my friends and then we went to the gochey store to get stuff for the trans potluck I've been planning for the last few weeks.... It was cold in thar so I let one of my friends borrow my flannel #BUTCH WIN and I bought some lunch YIPPEE and then we went back to campus to set up for the potluck and I made signs and they turned out SO CUTE

And then we actually HAD the potluck and the turnout was really nice (20 people I think!) and I got a little emotional and we made a thank you card for the building director for letting us host it in the fine arts building cause he's the sweetest most supportive man ever WAUGH. The food was really good too and one of my friends took some of our leftovers to food not bombs downtown ^_^ <333

And then I went to a BASEBALL GAMEEEE with my school jazz band and it was so so fun and everything was SO overpriced but I got bavarian nuts and the friend who drove me there bought me dippin dots and I bought us both pins of the team mascot cause she collects pins on her work apron so now we're pin twinsss... and I got to joke around a bunch with two of the guys from the rhythm section who are both so cool and fun but I never get to hang out with so it was GREAT. And then we WON THE GAMEEEEEE and then my friend and I almost got horribly lost on the way home (wound up goin the wrong way on a one way street in the dark. Oopsie!) but we SURVIVED and we got to gossip a lil and I got to infodump about longleaf pines :]

And now I'm SO SO TIRED like physically to the point where I can barely walk #oops and will likely be bedridden tomorrow #whoops but it was WORTH IT because today was so beautiful and I love everyone in the world 😭 GOODNIGHT BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS AND HANDSOME STRANGERS MWAH

PS also I had the dykiest fit ever and I felt soo hot all day. I might post pics tomorrow if I can find any yaaaaay ok NOW goodnight MWAH

hello

today was okay

i was a little more anxious than usual. maybe because i missed him more today.

i was able to wash my face everyday for a whole week and i got a pet in my game cause i met that goal. it is a cute little hedgehog. i also finished putting away my laundry. i also did a face mask today. i hope it doesnt make me break out. i hope i can start accutane soon. if i had clear skin again i wouldnt wear makeup that much at all.

ive been getting rlly bad bug bites lately :( i think its because i leave my window open all the time since my room gets stuffy and the litter box is in my room. it itches soooo much!!!!! especially there is one on my hand thats soo big and itchy i have to keep putting itch cream on it.

i am excited for tomorrow. me and my mom are going thrifting in the rich areas and we are going to 4 stores. i have to get up early though. i am already very tired right now. i need to bring the kitties up. i let them play downstairs cause they like the big open space, but i have to watch them the whole time. i wish my room was bigger so they would like playing this much in my room, too. its so cute to see them running around in the big open space. i have to watch them in case they go to the side that carson is on. we are still iffy anout leaving them together alone.

i started reading that one book abt bpd. its cool so far i guess. i like annotating it. i would do it physically, but its technically my mom’s book and i dont want her to see it.

ok now i am in bed.

oh yea i went to my neighbor’s moving sale today and i got this cute little pretty girl trinket. she’s supposed to be holding an umbrella but it got lost. i also got some stationary and old baseball cards that i thought looked cool. i finished my diary so i think in my new one i am going to scrapbook at little.

ummm so yea. im sleepy and a little bit anxious but overall today was good and im grateful for nothing too upsetting happening. i love you. goodnight.

a healthy reminder.........that I love @gyeomdrop

Not Alone

Request: Hello my dear! Ok, i just readed the Azriel angs ( and don’t worry i thing your write is amazing, it was so good!) and now i just feel like i need some cute/fluff stuff. Soooo may i request a Azriel with fluff prompt numbers 9 and 13 ( But just if u think u can make it fit, cause if don’t can be just one of them), please? PS: Sorry if i wrote something wrong by the way. English is no’t my first leanguage. - @dreamscourtgirl 

Fluff 9: “Can I stay with you tonight?”

A/N: I hope you don't mind that I only used one of your prompts, the idea I had worked better with 9 and not 13. Thank you so much, you are very sweet.

blurb requests are closed.

The night before a battle was always the hardest. The need for sleep, but finding it difficult due to the adrenaline. The worries that run through your mind. The final words exchanged with relatives, friends, lovers. 

Just in case. 

It had been five hundred years since the last war; five hundred years since the wall was built, separating the humans and the fae. 

The wall had collapsed and Hybern had arrived with is mass of forces, attacking Prythian with no guilt or remorse. 

It had boiled down to this: the worried glances exchanged over the campfire. The way Feyre refused to let go of Rhysand’s hand; they hadn’t the time and your heart ached for both of them. Amren remained stoic as she watched the flames of the bonfire grow higher and higher. Cassian and Mor tried their best to keep the situation light, but even you could tell they feared the arrival of the morning. Azriel remained silent; his shadows and his face revealing nothing of what he was feeling or thinking. 

One thing was clear, however. Whatever was to come tomorrow, it was to be faced together. 

With one final smile at your friends, you bid them goodnight, making your way back to your tent where you could begin your rituals of worries alone, without an audience. 

As you settle in your bed for the night, the flap to your tent opens. Azriel stands on the boundary between the rest of the camp and your space, his shadows curling around his shoulders as he takes in the sight of you in your bed. 

“Can I stay with you tonight?” Azriel asks; his face stoic but his eyes showing the plea in his words.

Silently, you nod, pulling back the furs on your cot. As Azriel removes his leathers, you shuffle to one side, leaving enough room for his wings to fit comfortably. 

He slides into your bed without a word, shuffling to get comfy. You’d have expected him to be in the strategy tent tonight, going over his final plans in place tomorrow. Checking and rechecking; he knew that he would lose faithful spies, but he couldn't help the habit of a lifetime. 

“I couldn't sit there any longer,” He offers as explanation, “But I didn't want to be alone. Not tonight.”

“Not tonight,” You echo, turning onto your side so you can throw a reckless arm over the body of the shadowsinger. Azriel hesitates for only a moment before pulling you closer, not wanting to let you go. 

Neither of you knew what tomorrow would bring, but at least for tonight, you were not alone.

We Do Not Remember Days, We Remember Moments

Summary: To keep an incident from your parents knowledge, per Myrtle’s request, you start writing in a diary the same day the Supreme’s daughter arrives at the Coven.

A/N: So this fic is going to be written differently than most. The grammar isn’t meant to be perfect because I don’t think people write formally in their diary. The point of view might be weird at first, but I wrote it so you can see what y/n has written in a day. :) I intend on making this a series with all of y/n and Cordelia’s adventures, so please let me know what you think.

Entry 1

July 14th, 1999

Dear diary,

I hate this. This is stupid. Unfortunately for me, Myrtle is making me do this because she thinks it will be good for me. She wants me to document my feelings and things that happen to me during the day. Oh, and my thoughts which is obviously why I’m writing all this. I don’t know what I’m doing, but she told me not to erase anything, fill up the entire diary, and if I do this, she won’t tell my parents about what happened.

So here I am writing in a diary about this boring coven.

 I had just got done washing the dishes from lunch when a new girl arrived. I didn’t really get a good look at her, but rumors are spreading fast. Apparently, this girl is the supreme’s daughter. I don’t really know how to feel about that considering how Fiona is. Fiona never even mentioned having a kid. The woman is hardly around, and when she is, she’s a royal bitch. The only Supreme I want to see are the clothes from that New York skate shop. Hopefully this girl is nothing like her mother because if she is, we are going to have some problems here.

 I went downstairs to get a drink, and I saw the new girl with Myrtle. She was crying pretty hard in Myrtle’s arms, and Fiona was nowhere in sight. Shocker. Hell, if I was her, I would have been jumping with joy because Fiona wasn’t around. My hatred for Fiona aside, I guess I do feel bad for the girl. It isn’t unlike Fiona to just drop her daughter off somewhere, and then probably go get high with some dude in California. I mean I get it though, my parents dropped me off here because they didn’t want to deal with me. My powers were the perfect excuse for them to ship me off somewhere far away from home. I hated them for it, but part of me was relieved I guess. And the worst part was I was alone when I arrived, so the least I could do is maybe go introduce myself.

 Well, the introduction was definitely necessary because apparently since all of the other bedrooms are taken by witches or turned into teachers’ private offices, Cordelia is staying in my room. Since I was alone when I got here, I gravitated to Myrtle and we became very close very fast. Because of this, Myrtle was kind enough to let me have my own bedroom, she understood I needed my own peaceful space. Well now this isn’t about to be my peaceful space. It’s about to be crashed by Supreme Jr.

Because of my love for Myrtle I didn’t have the heart to argue with her when she told me about the room situation. I decided to just write what I was feeling here. Dang Myrtle and her ability to always be right, I guess this stupid diary is a good thing after all. Anyway, apparently Supreme Jr. is named Cordelia, and she mayyyy be the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen. I don’t know, she is just so dang beautiful. She had the softest, prettiest blonde hair I’ve ever seen. It was in a middle part, and she had on this really cute dress with a long-sleeved shirt underneath it. Her eyes were a beautiful brown, and I swear when I looked into them, I saw straight into her soul. It was full of purity and love and all things beautiful. It was like looking into an angel. I was instantly infatuated with her. It’s so stupid. I don’t even know this girl, I can’t be in love with her. But even though we exchanged just a simple hi, I already know she’s nothing like Fiona.

 Well, I’m officially not alone anymore. I guess it could be worse though, at least Supreme Jr. seems really sweet. I can’t believe I’m writing this, but she’s nothing like her mother. She honestly just seems so kind. I can’t wait until after dinner because I really want to get to know her more. She seems easy to talk to. She is kind of shy, but that’s ok because I don’t mind starting conversations. I hope after we start to talk for a while, she’ll open up more.

 Tonight was great. So it’s been like 5 hours since I last wrote. Dinner went well, Cordelia sat next to me. We talked through dinner, so dinner was actually really fun tonight. After dinner we went back to the room and played my new Super Smash Bros game. Cordelia was so cute, she was struggling with the shape of the controller, so I held her hands and demonstrated what buttons to push. Her hands were so soft and delicate, but that’s beside the point. After I showed her how to hold the controller and what to push, we played for a couple hours. Poor Cordelia kept getting knocked off the platform, so at one point I let her throw me off just because she was getting so frustrated, and I hated seeing her upset. Once we were both tired of playing, we talked for hours. We just talked about everything and nothing. She told me that Fiona hates her and wanted to get rid of her. I told her how I understood how that felt, and I was sorry. She smiled at me and hugged me. It was honestly the most comforting hug I’ve ever been given, and I want a thousand more. I’ve never really been the “here is my entire life story and all of my issues in ten minutes” kind of person, but with Cordelia I feel like I could tell her anything and everything, and she would just listen and offer comfort when needed. I could talk to her forever. Oh, I also kept calling her Supreme Jr. and she got upset and hit my arm, but I know deep down she likes it. I learned that she is 15, so we’re the same age which I guess is cool. I kept my disdain of her mother to myself. I don’t think that is something she needs to know about, especially with what happened between me and Fiona.

 Ending on that note, maybe having a roommate won’t be such a bad thing after all. And I guess this diary isn’t the worst thing that’s happened to me.

 Soooo goodnight, I guess.

 -y/n

bhah ch3 reread u know the drill

what is Jamie doing with all this oil I am concerned

god the tension of knowing Jamie is there but not talking to her but Dani probably secretly hoping she will

aww is she picking up more wonder woman comics for mikey?? cute

gah I love that they slip back into playful banter so easily despite everything going on

also 10/10 that the gays in town would be trying on the tackiest sunglasses in the service station (and 12/10 that Jamie actually brought them)

Dani Carson car adventures!! i would read a whole 20k word chapter just on that

sdfkjdshjfhd Dani throwing herself to the ground when she sees Jamie in the supermarket I’m losing it

“Yeah and then she left” ouch

THREE GAYS IN A SUPERMARKET WHAT WILL HAPPEN

aww Jamie Carson reunion tooooo cute

oh my god the tension of them standing back to back trying not to touch lmao

Jamie rly is the teeniest in town huh

Dani getting all protective and mad over Mikey having to sit outside school is v sweet

Jamie to the rescue how cute

Jamie’s collarbone: hello. Dani’s gay panic: LOOK AWAY

also sdkjfhdkjhg Jamie working w her hands is so hot we need more fics just talking about her getting dirty. for the good of the nation

there is so much going on here the cute teasing Dani feeling all weird abt their whole dynamic jamie giving her looks the engagement ring I am not equipped to process all of it

“you think there are secrets in this town?” just ur burning love for each other ladies!

once again mechanic!jamie... i am compromised

aww Dani bby literally does not know what to do with herself. the juxtaposition of the depth of their relationship and the little moments of familiarity with the awkwardness of people who don’t really know each other properly anymore is so fucking well done here

Eddie’s “honey I’m home” moment carrying her over the threshold afkjhsdkjf good for him

Dani and this house got beef huh

Dani: sometimes things with Eddie just don’t feel right but I’m sure that’s fine. Dani when she loses a tiny piece of her relationship w Jamie: level 5 meltdown. Literally the theme of this fic is “honey you got a big storm comin” and I love it

this dig at pineapple on pizza........ offensive

“Instead, she reset her mask, pulled the rope to part the stage curtains, and tied the other end around her neck.” Jesus.

“the other part of Dani, the part that never knew how to stop missing Jamie” i will cryyyy

starting a gofundme for Dani’s car asap

Eddie putting the moves on I can’t look. but lmao when he finds a girl that’s actually into him and wants this kind of attention his whole world is gonne be rocked

can we get Dani some therapy pls this is not how u should feel abt the person ur gonna marry. or about yourself

*gasp* the wontons mixtape

hmmmm I’m Not in Love and A Case Of You really are a one-two punch huh

lol I just went to play them and I was apparently in the middle of listening to Stop Making This Hurt by The Bleachers which feels... apt

fuck. making a mixtape for someone truly is peak romance huh? music my beloved

hmmm i just realised that this timeline parallels the flashback chapters w a new Taylor in school in each how cool. and also Nan vs Jamie taking on responsibilities w these kids and stepping up for them in their own way pls my emotions

aahh the coffee date I kinda forgot how fast Dani made this relationship rekindle bless her

wait clara and horace does that mean abigail is in Dani’s class too??? she lives??

a reserved sign pls that’s so cute

OWEN! god I love the levity and banter w Jamie he brings to fics

there is just so much fondness between them it always shines through no matter what they’re talking about I love it

this backpacking chat... envisioning Dani n Jamie once Mikey is grown up going on a big tour of europe together n fufilling Dani’s dreams

the fact that Jamie was drawn back to this place... by what hmmmm ms taylor. by what

oof this really is a painful rehashing of the past huh.

“star hike” lmao

"I can fix it." "You can't." OUCH

ooft just rip the bandaid right off. “I missed you. Everyday.” god my heart

arguing in an alley behind the pharmacy that’s gay rights

"Because if it was going to end, then I wanted it over quickly!” jamie ‘everyone always leaves so I cut them off before they can hurt me‘ taylor everyone. I am not doing well

ok with the context of like... everything from the future chapters this scene hits even harder than the first time i read it jesus

still can’t get over Dani ‘trying not to recall the memories of the last time they were in this room together’ was Jamie absolutely falling to pieces in her arms *screams forever* i remember reading that line and imagning so many things it could have been and yet yall went for the ultimate stab to the heart bravo

god I’m just thinking about how much they’ve both changed in those 10 years and how much they’ve stayed the same and just. god the way they’re so drawn to each other still!!!! i can’t even comprehend

blue schrunchie cherished friend

i feel like there is a significance to the red door I cant place and all my brain will provide is “you, me, her” but polyamory adventures is probably not the direction this is going

Jamie like “want a tour of ur future home babe? lets go” (I do love how enchanted Dani is by all of it though)

gah I love Jamie and Mikey together soooo much

find u a person that eats all the foods u don’t like. pickle soulmates

heh “Miss Dani” poor Mikey is goin through it lolol

they are all so cute together i love this lil sunday afternoon family

“Dani kept her gaze fixed on Jamie for just a second longer, studying her profile” gay

there has been several mentions of Jamie’s unreadable/blank expressions this chapter and I can’t stop laughing at her losing her mind over how much she loves Dani and trying to keep it in check every time

THEY’RE FRIENDS AGAIN

AND THEY’RE HUGGING OH HAPPY DAYS

oooh the sandalwood cologne

idk why this Jamie Eddie handshake is making me laugh so much but I love them

Eddie pulling Dani in closer to himself when Jamie’s there..... he knows 

staying awake until 2am to finish rereading gay fanfiction... clownery (but fun!) goodnight

Beyond The Leather:

Chapter 8: Nikki Annoying Sixx

February 20, 1985

Six New messages

Hey Mani its Nikki, sorry about yesterday I didnt mean to speak to you like that. You just get under my skin somtimes. Well call me back I'd like to see you.

Beep : Message Deleted

Sooooo I'm calling again to check up on you. You haven't called me back. Call me back.

Beep: Message Deleted

Mani your really fucking pissing me off ok call me back. By the way I'm learning how to cook for you. Well actually us. The things I do for you.

Beep: Message Deleted

Hey princess I'm sorry ok, just talk to me. Were having alot of fun in the studio. Tommy wants you to come by. Plus you should try the food I made.

Beep: Message Deleted

Princess please call me back. Stop fucking ignoring me. Your making me angry.

Beep: Message Deleted

Mani I miss you. Please call me.

Beep: Message Deleted

That was the last messege I listened to before ripping the phone cord out. I have been ignoring him since the last time I saw him. Nikki was into drugs and that wasn't my life. I'm a respectable girl who comes from a respectable family and my mom would throw a fit if she ever found out I was hanging out with someone like Nikki sixx. He will just have to get over us being friends. Anyways, Tamara came back scolding me on my outfit for the Joan Rivers interview. She said I looked awful that made me laugh actually. Theresa was fired right away because of what happened, but also because she was doing drugs. I was now on a very tight leash. Especially because I got the part for the movie. And after my birthday in September, I will no longer be doing teen magazines. I will be featured on the cover of the biggest magazines.

"Hey honey soooo theres two things, one in March you will be on the cover of Sports Illustrated Magazine and two you have an interview with Barbara Walter's." Tamara shouted and I jumped up screaming. "She is sooo excited to meet you." I ran and hugged her this was exciting. I couldn't wait to tell my mom. I was heading home for a couple of weeks. "Um why did you unplug the phone cord missy?" Tamara ask with one hand on her hip and the other holding the cord.

"Oh uh I tripped over the cord by accident sorry. Haha clumsy me." I lied. ______

I spent the evening until night shopping. I started to realize I was a shopaholic when I constantly kept going out to buy new clothes, jewellery, heels, and hand bags. I was really into fashion and mixing cloths together. I was also into cosmetics like really into it. Maybe down the line I'll venture into business, but for now its acting and modeling.

I was inside a shop and saw this really cute handbag. I mean I had several but why not get one more. I purchased it, and I'm not going to tell you the price. I headed out of the store and got into my limo. Can you beleive it, I'm in a limo.

When I reached back at the condo. My chauffeur helped me get my bags out and carry them upstairs. "Thank you Daniel." I say while giving him 100. "No problem Miss Darlington." He took it and left. I saw a note by the table.

Went to office be back later- Tammi.

Well I'll show her what I bought when she gets back. I was so excited to start trying on my new clothing. And everything else with it. This was the life that I never thought I could have. I bought some stuff for my sisters, my mom, and aunts and uncles. They will really love them. I sheded down into my bra and panties taking off cloths and trying new ones. I put on these nice thigh high boots that could be worn in the winter time. After all I am going home for a couple of weeks. And its snowing in Canada. With a cute black romper. I heard a knock on the door and ran to go and get it. "Coming!" I yelled. I opened it up with out even looking through the peek hole, stupid me.

And saw none other then Nikki annoying Sixx, and he did not look happy. I tried to shut it right away but he put his arm between the door and was pushing back.

"Mani please just let me in." He says while he's forcefully trying to get in.

"Nikki go away!" I say pushing back.

With a big push. Nikki forces the door open and the impact sends me flying and hitting the ground with a thud.

"Oh shit I'm sorry." He laughs.

"It's not funny my butt cheek is hurting you ass!" I yell at him.

"Tsk tsk tsk I thought you didn't swear princess." He smirks.

God he is truly annoying.

"C'mere doll let me help you up." He wobbles towards me almost loosing his footing. He was drunk and probably high.

"Your drunk Nikki, you need to leave Tamara is downstairs." I lied.

"I'm drunk and high." He smirks. "And no shes not."

"And how do you know?" I asked furrowing my brows.

"Because I saw her leave and shes going to be gone for a while." He smiles walking towards my shopping bags.

"So you camped outside the condo until she left?" I asked walking behind him.

"No I camped on the 5th floor in some random chicks place. She let me come in with her." He says while pulling cloths out of the bags.

What the hell is wrong with this guy. I mean really!

"Nikki why are you hear?" I demanded.

"Im here because your ignoring my fucking phone calls. I've left you several fucking messages and your not returning them!" He shouted as he got in my face. I could smell the alcohol on his breath.

"Well of course I'm ignoring your calls. And now that you know one hundred percent that I am, you can go back to the 5th girls place or get out!" I yelled motioning towards the door.

Nikki smiled then walked towards the couch and sat down he kicked his feet up on the table like he was at home and put his hands behind his head. "I drove here. Your not really gonna kick a drunk and high guy out of your home to go driving on the streets now will you?"

I can't believe this guy. I was seething with anger. How dare he use something that happened to Vince to stay over here. "Nikki that is a really awful thing to say, that's not a joke. I want you out right now." I say with a stern voice.

"No." He sneered. He kicked his shoes off then grabbed the TV remote turned it on then changed it to MTV.

I had enough of this guy. I decided to just call security and have them deal with him. I took off my boots then walked towards the phone picking it up to dial security. Next thing I know Nikki is charging at me grabbing the phone from my hand.

"Nikki stop it!" I yelled trying to grab the phone back.

"Just calm the fuck down Iman!" He shouted in my face. I then slapped him across the face. Something I wish I didnt do because at that point Nikki saw red. He then picked me up over his shoulders with me kicking and screaming. And walked towards my room.

"Put me down now you jerk!" I yelled.

He then threw me on the bed pinning my arms over my head. "Calm the fuck down!" He yelled

"No!" I yelled back struggling to get out of his grip. He then leaned closer to my face. Making me smell the whisky on his breath. His lips brushed against mine and he whispered with a very low voice. "Calm down princess." He bit his lips and I started breathing hard. He slowly used his legs to spread my legs open and settled in between them. I felt how hard he was through his pants.

"Your so fucking beautiful." He whispered and used his thumb to graze my bottom lip.

Nikki was dangerous. He was dangerous because he was good looking. He has a baby face, beautiful eyes, beautiful hair he's a bad boy, and he's in the biggest rock band there is. Girls love him and would fall for him so easily with out even realizing that he has a lot of problems. Drugs were his number one problem. And as long as he was doing drugs, he would always have problems.

"But I'm young Nik, and you do drugs." I say struggling to sit up and move him up off of me.

"I know princess." He moved to the side of my bed and sat with his back against the head board. He sat there in silence thinking for a bit.

"Iman I'm back, oh my God what is this mess in the living room?" I heard Tamara come in. My eyes nearly popped out of my head. "Nikki stay silent please or so help me God." I whispered to him. "Ok princess." He chuckled.

I ran out of the room with my heart eating ten time fast.

"Hey Tammi sorry I went shopping." I started picking up the bags off the ground.

"Yeah I can see that." Her eyes went wide.

"What is it with you and this phone." She picks the receiver up and puts it back.

"Sorry I was calling some of my friends." I turn over and notice Nikki's boots on the living room carpet. I slowly move towards the carpet to grab the boots.

"Honey can you grab me a drink please I'm very exhausted." Tamara asks as she walks towards the living room couch to sit down. My heart was racing u was praying that she wouldnt see those cowboy boots just lying there on the carpet. She would know for sure that someone was here. "Um sure." I walked to the kitchen and poured her some cranberry juice than brought it back to her. I grabbed one of the shopping bags and knelt down by the table and picked up the boots and put them in. "Alright I'm going to bed." I started running.

"Um hello excuse me take the rest of these bags to your room. Your making this place look like a garbage dump full of bags!" She yelled. I ran back and packed the rest of the things I bought including my boots that I kicked off. "Goodnight Tami." I hugged and kissed her. "Goodnight sweety." She kissed back. I got into the room and let out a long sigh. I looked over at Nikki who took off his blue and gold jacket and threw it on the floor and was comfortably sleeping on my bed. I crawled on my bed and shook him. "Nikki." I whispered "Nikki you have to go once Tamara goes to bed."

"Mmmm no." He says snuggling into my pillow. Well what more could I do I guess he's spending the night. I got up and turned the light off then grabbed shorts and a tank top and changed into them. I got into my bed and layed beside him and just stared at him. I starting to caress his cheek all the way to his jaw and he squirmed a bit. He then opened his beautiful green eyes and looked at me.

"Can you promise me something princess?" he whispered

"promise you what?" I whispered back.

"Promise me that when you come of age and I get my shit together that you'll be my girl. That you'll be mine and only mine?" I nodded with a smile. "No I need to hear you say it so I know there's hope." "I promise to be yours Nikki." I smiled. He leaned over and kissed the top of my head then pulled me closer to him. I snuggled tight agaisnt him and we went to sleep in each others arms.

The next day I woke up, and my eyes went wide when I realized Nikki was still in my bed. I dont know if he snores alot in his sleep when he's not drunk. But he certainly snored alot last night. I barely slept. I turned over to look at him. He looked like an angel. His messy hair was all over my pillows. I didn't want to wake him, but I know I had to. I nugded him to wake him up a bit. But he didn't even move. So then I decided after what he he did yesterday by making me hurt my butt cheek when I fell, payback seemed fair. I lifted myself into sitting position on the bed with my feet on his torso and my hands positioned behind me to give me a good balance. I pulled my legs towards me then gave him one big kick off the bed. He rolled off hitting his body on the ground and his head on the small dresser beside my bed. Woops!

"Ow you bitch, what the fuck!" He shouted on the ground. Where I couldn't see him.

"Hahahahahaha pay back hurts dosen't it."

"Fuck you."

"Now now Mr.Sixx no swearing." I chuckled.

He got up and climbed back onto the bed sitting and holding his head.

"You snore a lot."

"So I'm told." He looked at me with a smile.

"You have to go Nik."

"So your not even gonna make me breakfast. What kind of girl doesn't make breakfast for her man when he spends a night." He moves closer to me and I push away. "First off I would never make you breakfast especially when your capable of doing it your self. And second I'm not your girl." I say pointing to myself.

"Yet." Nikki says with a full on smile plastered on his face.

"I gotta use your washroom to piss. And where are my boots?" He asks getting off the bed scratching his untamed hair. I got off the bed and grabbed the plastic bag I put them in and gave them to him. He grabbed them and put them on.

"Look Nik pee in your pants or pee outside but you need to go now before Tammi catches you." I pleaded.

"Alright fine fine." He picks up his jacket and walks towards the door.

"Wait let me check first." I poke my head out to see if the coast is clear. And then signal him to come. I push him out the door fast, then run to the kitchen to grab the garbage.

"What's the garbage for, it's not even full?" He asks.

"I'm pretending like I'm throwing it away." I start giggling because he's looking at me like I'm a little devil.

"Oh babe you and me are gonna get along just fine." He says as he puts his arm around me to start walking. "So can I see you later on?"

"Sure, I'm heading back to Canada for a couple of weeks tomorrow. And I wont be back till March 11. Cause I have a photo shoot with Sports Illustrated Magazine on the 12 in the morning."

"Wow, so I need to take you somewhere special. That way you'll think of me while your away." We stopped by the elevator and he turned me to face him. Nikki could make a girls knees buckle in a second that's how good looking he was. But I kept trying to remind my self that he was no good. He could never be the man I would want him to be. But then again he did ask me to keep that promise. And he did say when he gets his "ish" together. So who knows.

"Um so I'll pick you up later?" He scratches his head and looks down at his shoes.

"Ok." I smile.

He pushes the elevator button and it comes up. We wave each other good bye. I'm not sure what this is between Nikki and I. But what ever it is, he's got me thinking about him more. A lot more. _________

I sat waiting for Nikki. He had called to say he was going to come at 3:30. It was now 4:26. I started pacing around my room. When ever I would hear the phone ring I would run to it hoping that it was him but then get disappointed when it wasn't. I started thinking about last night. What me and Nikki talked about, I did really like him. But I dont like the whole groupies, drugs, and bad boy stuff. If I was to have any future with him a lot would have to change. But also I'm still young so for me to even be thinking about these things is weird. I should be thinking about chilling with friends, sleepovers, and gossiping. But I wasn't, I didnt have any friends here in LA. Maybe that's why when ever Nikki would come around I would tag along with him. Cause the truth is I felt lonely. Nikki isn't good for me but he's the only one I have to talk to, besides Tamara. And shes always working. I had Theresa as well, but because she was fired I have no idea where she is and if she would even talk to me.

4:40 pm

I called Nikki's number again and there was no answer.

5:30 pm

Tamara called she said she would be coming back late. I hope Nikki calls.

6:15 pm

Nikki called and apologized. At least he did call. He said he'll be here by 6:30 so thats great. It means he didn't forget about me.

9:00 pm

I sat in front of the TV blankly staring at it. I couldn't tell you what was on cause I didn't really care. I just heard noises. Yelling, screaming, and someone saying please dont kill me. I sat there for another 10 minutes and then turned the TV off and went to bed. Nikki wasn't coming.

So being the new evil girlfriend is fun

So recently my Partner has had some majorly stupid ass drama with their ex. Like this girl, she’s loopier then the Olympic oval, Like normally I’m nice and don’t slander people but like. She’s just, hoo boy. A mess.

And yeah this is from a completely biased stand point. And I’m about to tell you why that I feel the way that I do about this girl from my own experiences. This is going to be long winded, so I’m putting it under a read more. 

So I moved from the lovely state of Utah this year, my homelifes never been 100% great. I love my mom but our issues clash and we do better separate. Not to mention I really wanted to try it out in another state again and this time the right way and not just a spur of the moment decision while i visited like what happened with Florida.

Well, planned my vacation to See my at the time friend to see if I really liked it there.  I knew about their recent split with their Ex, and the two seemed pretty amicable about it. The other roommate was.... hoo, a mess to say the least. and My friend didn't want to be alone with her because they actually had been wanting to tell her to leave because of the issues that she'd brought into the home. anyways that in itself was a bit of drama.

So I was like OK. I'll come check it out and if I like it I'll be your new room mate.

Well. I plan my trip about four weeks out. and end up pretty excited about it. Come to find out with no real surprise that My friends Ex is going to move out before Octobers over.

My friend starts panicking. again doesn't wanna be alone with the other roommate that they're having hardships with. So I say ok... I'm going to do this vacation, then im just going to move on the 20th so I can get my stuff packed.

Shits already starting to go down hill.

I get there. everything seems fine. The ex seems nice, things seem ok. the other roommates.... already trying to cause shit with me and im not even physically in the house. I'm sleeping on a mattress on the floor in an old office space. bought a bunch of furniture because at this point. I know I'm moving here. Its going to happen. This is where I'm going to live might as well help my friend end up getting it taken care of.

Well. Day three of my vacation hits. The ex drops that her dad wants her to move out that day. completely screws the pooch for my friend and the other roommate. And basically bails on them and leaves the house just with the things she wants and then just leaves all the rest of her junk here like its her own storage unit. claims she’ll be back for the rest [ Spoilers never happened]  so that... right there puts this sour taste in my mouth. Cause yeah, me and her ex at that point are sharing a bed. Because like theres only three beds in the house until she ends up leaving and so my friends like ill just sleep with you. me i’m very fine sharing my sleeping space with my friends. i’ve done it literally all my life. hell a its not a goodnight sleep unless your on your best friends bed snuggling the shit out of her kaneki ken body pillow listening to true crime documentaries on the TV but like seriously it was no big deal to me. which im begining to wonder if it was a big deal to her. Either way apparently instead of waiting till i officially moved. she bailed and forced my hand. So I had to stay, I couldn’t properly say goodbye to my mom. couldn’t properly get my shit packed. all cause I really didn’t want to leave my friend alone till I could officially move in. So already, I started getting a slight distaste in my mouth for her. but I let it slide. I know how overbearing parents are sometimes.  well, so i cancelled my flights. money spent that i was never going to end up getting back that I could’ve later used towards something for the house.  The girl left. and I was left, Cleaning up the mess that she walked out of and left behind.  Turns out my friend was the only one that was cleaning up around the house. and working a part time job, while trying to side hustle some art for extra money.  They were the one that was handling all the utilities, while their ex was buying everyone food. Separate it would’ve been an easier task if it was just the two of them. but you add in the extra roommate that was only paying her share of rent and none of the food and utilities and shit starts piling up. Well.  sat down and looked at all the finances. found out that while yeah the Ex was making the most money. She didn’t bother to help out with any of the chores. I mean, they split the dish duty. And i’m sitting here wondering how long this pan of fish oils been on the stove for. had to buy new pans cause they were growing cultures.  Hell half her chores and the other roomates were doing the cat boxes. dude it was shit mountain in there. it was so bad the cats were going in the corner. Yet it was like my friend was expected to pick up after them and pick up their slack because they didn’t work as many hours as the other two. Which I’m sorry. if you can’t balance cleaning up after yourself. and working how the hell are you going to live on your own.  Well in comes me, the living off disability. [ which is not a glorious life] I have a lot of time on my hands. so first few days we douche out the house. things start looking good.  in comes the ex to get something and brings this utter douchebag of a man that boasts about him being the whole reason that they broke up. Which like when we were moving out the ex. the ex’s dads...girlfriend??? was like dont let them take advantage of you. which like made me pull up a shit ton of questionmarks. cause yeah i wasn’t going to let the other roommate do that cause i was kinda aware what her game was and it wasn’t playable with me.  everyone had their part to play in this household, and I wasn’t going to play mother for anyone. Well in comes this guy. boast about how he wont let anyone take advantage of her again and im like sure w/e dude. but like i started like... questioning wtf she was actually telling people that my friend actually did to her.  see, what i was told was that it was an intimacy issue. my friends pretty Asexual so like there wasn’t alot of physical involvement. and that things just weren’t going the way that their ex wanted them to. Turns out it was SOOOO much more then that. so curious me, got digging about this girl cause shit just wasnt really adding up.  and I started finding out things. At this time, friend started turning to partner. and eventually we started dating which made shit a lot more uncomfortable with me and this girl. cause yanno, new girlfriend. ex girlfriend. two things dont usually mesh well in situations like this.  Well so, started finding out that while in a relationship she was leading on a bunch of other guys, and at work would like do this whole “im bi” thing if the guy was cute. like she was very male centered for a “lesbian”  She was super horny on main during DND which made EVERYONE uncomfortable. to top it all off she was a narcissist, that had a victim that she could toy with.  She tried to convince my partners parents while they were still together, to talk to their child when there were behaviours that she didnt like. She tried to have an intervention with their friends to force them into transitioning FtM when they were happy just being nonbinary.  they would gaslight them, manipulate them, and  abuse them. I watched this girl in the span of three weeks tear my partner down with her words in front of me. and be nothing but venomous to them. for no other reason then they were actually happy.   While spining all these stories of how she was the one that was wronged.  Well, I started having enough of her coming around just so she could be mean to my partner. She’d come over. immediately go to our fridge to drink some of the booze she left and then pick at my partner for small insignificant things only because she wanted to fight. When i had enough of that. I told my partner, we’re going to DnD early. she can find her own ride.  She came to a family party, invited unknowingly by my partners brother that’s been over seas and in the military. She thought she was going to get a hookup complained she wasn’t having fun because he wasn’t paying attention to her. Snapped at my partners nephews because they wanted to play and made one of them cry. and was just toxic to be around.  That was strike two.  Strike three was watching how she conducted herself around our dnD group. she’d had this guy, mister “ i saved you from your bad relationship” on speed dial, and would tell him things. and then sit and shit talk him when she was bored with him to everyone. We were all sick of it.  The ending straw with me, was when we finally wanted to be done with this drama. told her three months before hand to get off the car insurance. and it wasn’t done. ended up causing a big thing.  She started saying that she’d leave the DND group to make things easier. because Thats what my partner would want. At this point i couldnt stand it any longer. Three months talking to everyone that physically knows her. and see’s what she’s becoming lead everyone to say the same thing about her She was turning into her mother.  No i know fuck all about that. i dont know her mother, i dont know anything about her. I know she’s on a shot that fucks with your brain and ends up messing with your body. I also was on the DEPO shot for three years of my life and its caused so many problems after i was off it.  and thats what i tried to impart to her my wisdom on.  therapy, and a depo shot.  now how we got there is really long winded, and highly dramatic.  id admitted to her our dnd group wanted to chat. she was pushy, respected no ones boundaries, and left our friends house a complete mess. just like she left ours... and god, she ended up pissing me off cause the girl left slippers caked in cat puke in my tub after staining my bathroom doing her hair dye. she disrespected my home, she disrespected out friends, and our friends home. and she was needlessly mean and cruel to everyone around her that didnt serve some purpose to her.  So yeah she had to go.  Here i am thinking that this is the end of it. but i get updates about how I’m apparently the worst abuser in the world just cause I told some spoiled brat of a woman to get off a shot that messes with the brain, and to seek therapy cause this girl needs help. Funny thing is im not the only one that said it. apprently just the loudest voice to have said it.  and this bitch still thinks i dont like her cause she’s not ‘ providing for us financially” We may not have a high roller life. but damn we’re doing just fucking fine. 

Ow sweetener was perfect for my single Valentines Day. I was so excited & gosh, as i should have. Jfldhd when one of them is going to actually do something to specify their relationship!!! Omg i KNOW they are in one but like, feeling free to say partner or boyfriend or couple. The vibrator? I was gasping % laughing, i cant imagine what her face was. Wow. Little cocky Tommy. The fact that they were holdong hands above her knee, idk, i find it so soft, cute, intimate. Love it. GOODNIGHT ANGEL...

... HOW could he be so darn aihfidhd? Or how could ypu leave it at that? I was smiling through all the chapter and soooo worth it (had my friends waiting me for finishing it). Tho, maybe its cause i devoured it, but felt short? But awesome, perfect, and cant wait for the next update!!! (have a nice day, weekend and valentines day, well deserved) ♥️💖💜♥️💖💜

ahhh the beginning of a relationship can be hard to define!! when are you more than “seeing each other” yano??

hehehehe yes she was a little taken aback thats for sure but it all turned out ok for her 😂😂

i mean could i really have that as the theme for the night out and not have him call her angel? really??? i dont think so jsdfbgbgfs

hmm it is a lil shorter than some chapters but longer than others i guess! there have been a few v long chapters lately so maybe thats why?? idk but im glad you liked it regardless!

happy valentines/day/night/weekend to you too! 💓

sweetener - thirteen

Love Heals the Soul (Part 14) - Sleepover (Jensen’s POV)

Summary: Jensen stays the night...but things don’t go as planned...

Masterlist

Pairing: Jensen x reader

Word Count: 1654

Warnings: fluff, rated-G sleepover, nightmares (nothing graphic), panic/stress, let me know if there’s anything else

A/N: I am soooo sorry that I was still being lazy. I need to get back into the swing of things. Feedback is always welcome! Italicized are lyrics, POV thoughts or text conversations; you can tell by the context.

Jensen’s POV

I can’t lie and say I wasn’t thrilled when Y/N invited me in for dinner after driving her home; anything to get to spend a little more time together, and actually be alone without having to be anywhere. She lived in a cute little area in Kitsilano, one of the areas I liked to drive through. When we got to her apartment, I grabbed her bag and we headed inside while I tried to contain my excitement for this spur of the moment evening.

Stepping into her apartment I was pleasantly surprised, it was nice and warm and inviting, and fit Y/N perfectly. It was an open floor concept, the kitchen and living room only separated by the placement of the island and couch. She had a lot of neutral colors, greys and whites, with a few colored accents. Anyone could tell that she was a chef of some sort, being that her kitchen looked like that of a restaurant. Metal shelving lined with baking equipment, measuring cups, mixing bowls and scales. There was even one of those hanging pot and pan holders over the island. Containers lined the counter of different ingredients and dry food items; neatly organized and labeled.

After Y/N took my jacket and poured me a drink and said that I could pick the movie. She wasn’t a fan of the ones I had suggested, mentioning something about adding to the already frequent nightmares. So that is what I heard the other morning. But before I could ask, she suggested an 80s cult classic, which I could agree with. I went to the living room to pick out a movie and as I made my way there I stopped and looked at the photos that lined her walls, only able to guess at who the people in them were. There were a few obvious ones of her and Briana, a couple from their college days in theater. Are they dressed up as Rizzo and Frenchie? I chuckled to myself at that one. I saw a few others with an older couple, the man in a dress uniform, guessing that they were her parents.

My eyes fell on another, Y/N and a guy that couldn’t have been more than a couple years older. It looked to be from her college graduation, she was in a cap and gown, both of them with big smiles on their faces, like they had been laughing about something right before. This must be her brother. There were a few more of her family all together and a few more of just her and her brother. After looking over the photos, I grabbed the remote and switched on Netflix.

I had to laugh at myself when I saw that ‘Supernatural’ was her last watched show. “So…Sam or Dean?” I asked over the back of the couch with a laugh, but she steered me away from that question, with an obvious blush in her cheeks. It’s so adorable when she blushes like that.

I settled on ‘Back to the Future’ just as Y/N came out and leaned on the couch. “Do you mind if I go change? I’m kind of over wearing jeans,” she asked me. “Not at all.” She came out a few minutes later in leggings and another of the hoodies she was running in this morning. It’s almost as if her whole demeanor has changed, now that she’s home and comfortable. I love seeing this side of her. She brought me out of my thoughts when she said that dinner was ready.

Spaghetti. It’s such a simple thing, but what Y/N made was absolute perfection. I couldn’t help the groan that escaped when I took the first bite, it was just so delicious. After basically saying that she could cook a better meal with more planning, I invited her over for dinner the next time, which she happily agreed to.

After we finished, she cleaned up the dishes and kitchen, not letting me help despite the numerous offers I gave her. She poured us another drink and we went back to the couch to watch the rest of the movie. She curled into me as I wrapped my arm around her, welcoming her warmth and touch. We finished our drinks and I put our glasses on the coffee table with Y/N shifting down to lay her head in my lap.

My arm was on her side next to hers and I could feel her breathing start to slow, as she no doubt was falling asleep on me. I didn’t dare move or try to wake her, she looked so peaceful, so I let the movie keep playing. The credits started, at which point I tried to gently wake her, to no avail. “Y/N…sweetheart,” I whispered, quickly realizing that I was going to have to move her to bed. I gently picked her up, loving how she felt so close to me; I walked into her room and laid her down, pulling the thick comforter over her. I kissed her on her head, so as to not wake her, telling her that I would let myself out. I don’t want to leave her, she looks so calm and relaxed, and I wish I could stay. But I don’t want to scare her by being too forward.

I started to leave her room when I heard her stir, “Jen?” I turned back and walked over to her, “Yeah sweetheart?” I asked quietly, not really sure how awake she was. Eyes still closed and seemingly completely asleep, all she said was, “Stay”. It was dark, and she was asleep, so I didn’t have to hide the smile that made its way to my lips. “Of course. I’ll be back in a minute.”

I left her to go lock the door, turn off the lights and the TV, grabbing a glass of water to put on her nightstand. As I went back to her room, I quietly took my jeans and socks off and climbed in bed. I wasn’t sure how close she’d let me be to her as I got in bed; I felt her move closer to me until her back was right up against my chest, fitting so naturally. I wrapped my arm around her waist holding her as close as I could, my face in the crook of her neck. I kissed her shoulder, able to smell her faint perfume, whispered goodnight one more time and drifted off to sleep.

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I was woken up from Y/N stirring about in my arms. Still in the same positions that we had fallen asleep in, I fully woke up when I realized that she was struggling trying to get away from me, only to notice that her eyes were still closed. Oh no, she’s having a nightmare. I don’t want to startle her if I wake her up suddenly, but I don’t want her to stay wherever she thinks she is. It was a split second before I let my hold on her go, trying to wake her gently.

“Shhh….Y/N. Y/N, sweetheart…open your eyes.” I tried over and over. She was making noises, almost as if she was trying to talk, and tears started forming. Trying one more time to coax her out of her sleep, a little firmer this time, “Y/N, you’re dreaming, wake up baby.” All of a sudden she shot up with what was a mix of a gasp and a scream, while trying to catch her breath. She seemed confused at first, staring at me with wide, tear filled eyes, assuming because I had been in bed with her. Maybe she doesn’t remember asking me to stay?

Both of us sitting up at this point, I took her hand in one of mine and wiped the hair off of her forehead with the other, noticing the thin layer of sweat. “Are you ok, Y/N?” I asked quietly, afraid of scaring her. All she could manage was to shake her head yes, looking down at her lap. “You’re warm, do you want to change into a different shirt to help you cool down?” I asked her. All I got in response was another nod as she took off the sweatshirt to leave her in the tank top that was underneath.

It seemed she had finally realized what had happened although the tears had been falling since waking up, letting out a defeated sounding sigh. Y/N started to lie back down so I followed suit, waiting to see if she wanted space or not. I threw the comforter down and just pulling up the sheet to try to help her cool off. I was relieved when she chose to curl back into me, facing me this time, but heartbroken when she kept crying gently.

Barely audible, I heard her mumble, “It was so terrifying. I was so scared. Jen, I didn’t know what to do.” She clutched to my shirt, as if to make sure she knew I was still there, a real thing. All I could do was rub her back and her head, trying to calm her, repeating that it would be ok, without having any real way to help her. Out of nowhere, I started singing Ben E King’s ‘Stand By Me’ quietly; so quietly in fact that I wondered if she could even hear it.

If the sky that we look upon Should tumble and fall And the mountain should crumble to the sea I won't cry, I won't cry No I won't shed a tear Just as long as you stand, stand by me

I could only hope that it would help Y/N relax, relief washing over me when it seemed to calm her. I could feel the crying stop and her breathing slow once again. I drifted off shortly after; keeping my arms around her not wanting to ever let her go.

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Bts gif reaction to you being pregnant.

(Credits to gif owners)

Request: by: Hiii… is it ok if you can do a pregnancy series .. I think it will be rlly adorable xx😊😭

This is sooo cute, this is going to make me cry, I love this sooo much, btw keep requesting my requests are open, and if your request could be triggering I’ll ask the others and then write it, or not, anyways hope you enjoy this one.

Rapmon:

Rapmon was so busy, in the studio, he’d been producing music, and lately he seemed to miss you a lot more, he got home with more anticipation to see you again, in what seemed like months but only a single span of a week, during this time, you had found out, you were pregnant, you wanted to tell him, but feared that it’d hinder his work, you kept it to yourself till he came home,

“Joon? Is that you?”

“Yes, come here I missed you sooo much” you walk into his embrace, taking care to not harm the baby,

“Y/n you didn’t miss me?” You smiled towards him, already knowing what he meant,

“What do you mean, of course I missed you, dummy”

“Then why are you less hyper than usual” you smiled at his question, you looked down, still smiling, and staring at your tummy, that had developed a little bump, namjoon looked at you as if to question what he was suspecting, you grabbed his hands and placed it on your tummy, “y/n? Are you, are you pregnant?” You smiled at him again, and nodded, he wrapped his arms around your waist,

“Thank you, thank you sooo much, I love you and our baby, I’m sooo happy you have no idea”

Jin:

Jin was coming back from America, he had been gone for almost 2 weeks, just before he left, you found out that you were pregnant, you were so happy, you didn’t mention your pregnancy over the phone, knowing him he’d drop everything and come back to you, and you didn’t want that, he’d get into so much trouble, so you’d eat as much as your body would take in, and you had no idea that Jin would be coming back already without warning, he didn’t text or call you to let you know that he was coming.

What he didn’t expect to see was you throwing up in the toilets because of morning sickness,

“Y/n? Are you sick? Jesus shouldn’t we go to the hospital?” After you had emptied your stomach, you smiled at him and said

“Oppa this is going to have to be a normal thing for the next few months”

“What do you… wait….. REALLY!” He’d gasp,

“There’s a little me in there” he pointed towards your tummy and just looked so shocked, after he was done with being super shocked, he’d make sure to question if the past week you ate properly and if you needed anything, then he’d just cuddle up with you.

“I love you princess, and little prince or princess that’s nice and warm inside of mummy”

Suga:

You would tell suga as soon as you found out, you’d call him and he’d be getting ready for a show,

“Hey, y/n? What’s up? Your calling me at this time, isn’t it bedtime back there?”

“Yoongi, I think I’m pregnant” he’d look super shocked, he would blink millions of times and punch himself to check if he was dreaming

“Babe, we need to go to he doctors, as soon as we get back, let’s go together okay?” You nodded and ended the call, the whole show he’d feel really giddy and happy, his fans would question what was going on, he’d hint slightly at it, but he won’t tell them just yet, wanting to be super sure.

He’d get home as fast as he could, he’d kick his shoes off and run towards you, he’d grab you waist and just stare at your tummy,

“Babe? Is there really a small baby in there?”

You smiled at his innocent looking self, he looked so happy, he’d take you to the hospital, where they’d confirm it, he’d be a smiling and giggling mess the whole pregnancy, and he would always make sure to kiss your tummy goodnight.

“Good night my two queens, I love you both”

Jhope:

Hoseok would be oblivious, you wouldn’t tell him straight, you’d tell him you had a gift for him, and you’d gift him a small tie box, he’d open it and smile at the tie that was inside it,

“Thank you Babe, that’s really random” you smiled and whispered,

“Lift it up, you’ll like what’s under it more”

He’d lift the tie up and find a small note and a pregnancy test, he’d read the note that read, “your going to be a dad, and I’m going to be a Mum, I love you” he’d start to tear up, and he’d lift the pregnancy test that was positive and he smiled and kept crying more,

“Thank you, Thank you sooo much, you have no idea how happy this has made me, I’ll take care of both you and our baby, I love you sooo soooo much”

He’d hug you and kiss you and just give you all the love.

Jimin:

This little bubble would start to buy baby clothing and baby related things, he was sending you little signals of him wanting a child, you guys were trying for a child, for months, so when you walked out of the bathroom full of tears he got really worried,

He’d come over and wrap his hands around your face, you were crying and smiling, this confused him.

“Y/n what happened? Why are you crying?”

“Chim, I’m pregnant, with your child, I’m pregnant, I’m so happy, thank you so much” he looked at you shocked and his eyes were now twinkled with small droplets of tears. He’d bring you into a hug and whisper

“Thank you, Thank you so much, Thank you for being my wife, thank you for trying so hard with me to create a family, I love you sooo much”

V:

You’d take v on a whole entire dinner, then you’d take him on a little treasure hunt, at the end he’d find all the letters and arrange them into the order, he’d complete the whole hunt and read

“I’m inside of mums tummy”

He’d read the reward over and over again, then he’d smile and laugh like crazy, he’d come over towards your tummy and touch it and caress it and ask weird dumb questions like

“Babe, is it kickings yet?”

“Do you think she’s hungry?”

“Do you think it’s a he or a she?”

“I want a girl, but I’d love a boy too, I wouldn’t mind”

“Tae, the babies only 3 weeks old, we can’t know just yet”

“Well I’m ready to either have daddy’s girl or daddy’s boy, can you blame me?”

Jungkook:

To be honest, you’d find out the same time as jungkook, you were so busy, that you didn’t really take good care of yourself, when you constantly threw up you just brushed it off as maybe you were too stressed, jungkook would get worried towards why you were losing your appetite and also throwing up so much, so he’d take you to the doctors, where he’d find out that you were pregnant, and the iv that was filled with the best vitamins and stuff for pregnant women attached to you and your peaceful sleeping state, once you woke up he’d tell you how you were pregnant, you’d cry and cry with jungkook,

“Thank you kookie, I love you so much”

“No y/n thank you for being the strongest mother I know, I love you too”

He’d make sure to find you food that you craved just because you found it hard to eat normal food that you’d usually eat.

“Don’t worry, I’ll travel and search high and low to be able to get you things that you need”

You’d go shopping with him to buy baby clothing, and the first thing jungkook would buy would be a pair of timberlands.

Soooo hope you enjoyed, this one was soooooo cute to write, and I’m mostly busy on week days because of school, so I might only be able to upload maybe 1 reaction each day or something, especially now because it’s exam weeks, but once it’s over, it’ll be fine, btw I’m already half way through it, so I can make it.

Love you all

^~^

Taking care of six year old MC . Story 1

I was thinking what if the side effect of staying in the past was when everytime a wormhole comes you change into a six year old for 3 days to 1 week. Soooo I guess I’ll try ……doing easier characters (to me) first, then try the others .

Yeah we’re definitely starting with Mama Hideoshi

What that ninja said was true, she had transformed into a child when the freaking storm came.

“…wahh…Where’s my mommy …”

Now she is crying in the oversize kimono she was wearing before she transformed.

He decided to make something up just to let her calm down.

“Your mommy has gone out ,she’ll come back, and before she does, she wants me to take care of you. ”

“*sniff *…really? ”

“Yes. (Well I had a similar dream about it once. So I’m not really lying.) ”

He said to himself and wiped her tears off .

“Now let’s get you changed ,shall we? ”

He gives her a warm smile and holds her little hand.

“Okay ”

Hideoshi leads her to a maid and asked her to change the girl into some more fitting clothes than the much bigger ones she was wearing.

He didn’t spend much time waiting for her, but he couldn’t stop imagining how cute she’s gonna be. To him, she must be the most wonderful thing in the world.

“Wow! I look like a princess! ”

She looks happy that she gets to wear pretty new clothes. She has a bright smile on her face and started hopping around like a bunny .

Hideoshi was really worried about her tripping over or something. But nothing happened at last and she sat by him.

“ooh! Look! The moon is so pretty!”

She says happily as she points towards the moon.

“Yeah, a beautiful full moon, what do you think it looks like? ”

“It looks like a banana! ”

“A banana? ”

“Yeah! A banana! ”

Then she started singing

“Put a banana in your ear ~”

Oh my God what song is she singing?!

Put a banana in my ear?!

Ouch …that must be hurtful.

“Okay you got enough bananas in your favorite ear, now it’s bed time. ”

“But I don’t want to …”

Her face looked like a sad kitten he almost agreed, but he fought back the feeling .

“No, bed time for little girls. ”

It was late night when she transformed, and now almost everyone is asleep. Except for perhaps Mitsunari, still reading.

“But daddy said I’m a big girl! ”

“It’s everyone’s bedtime ,I’m going to bed, too !If you be a good girl and go to sleep, I’ll let you have some (lord Nobunaga’s) konpeito tomorrow. Does it sound good? ”

She thought for a while and nodded.

“Okay, but I’m going to sleep with you! ”

“…Um…”

“Pretty please ~~~”

“*sigh*……Fine. ”

That kitten face looked so sad he agreed. Plus he actually was thinking about it.

So they climbed in bed together in Hideoshi’s room.

“It’s warm in here _(:з」∠)_”

Her little face smiling brightly,and Hideoshi smiled in return.

“You think so? ”

“Yes. ”

So cute ……

She snuggled up to his chest.

“Good night …”

Her eyelids grew heavier and heavier, and sunk into sweet dreams at last .

Her sleeping face is just like an angel. He thought.

She’s always like an angel …

“Good night, my little girl ”

He gives her a goodnight kiss on the forehead and closed his eyes.

He had a wonderful dream that night.

(The End)

OK that wasn’t too bad.

RIGHT?

Hopefully it wasn’t.

Drunj!Der Yells About Outlander

Thoughts on Ep. 309

*puts Lonely Island on repeat* Shipnanigans are here!

I was originally kind of not looking forward to the second half of the season because this part of Voyager is absolutely batshit bananas. But then I was wicked underwhelmed by the part of the season I thought I would love.

So fuck it. Bring on the ridiculousness.

I like this episode. But only if I try to watch it pretending like the first part of the season didn’t happen... Because if I watch it with the other episodes in mind, I just get mildly ragey that we skip over the important emotional work Jamie and Claire still have to do in favor of fluff followed by another separation. And yeah, I love fluff. I love secksi times. I love Fraser snuggles. But the jump from the end of ep. 308 to the start of ep. 309 leaves me salty that we’re yet again asked to headcanon the reconciliation between Jamie and Claire. *side eyes the similar jump between ep. 207 and ep. 208* Whatever.

Get your towels ready it's about to go down. Everybody in the place hit the fuckin’ deck. But stay on your motherfuckin’ toes. We runnin’ this, let's go.

New credits! And the title card... Take a good hard look at the motherfuckin’ boat.

Ok this opening bit. Like Jamie was an asshole for the last two episodes. Claire never actually got to tell her side of things. She basically was like nope, I don’t think I even want to be here. But now it’s like all good, she’ll go on this 18th century sea voyage to find Jamie’s nephew. For real? They couldn’t have made a handful of tweaks last week and the beginning of this week so she could say she was going because she wanted to be with Jamie and keep working on their relationship? And Jamie’s apparently never going to apologize for being a massive piece of shit toward her? They do a good job over the course of the episode of showing them together but still with the insecurities and stuff, but jumping from where they were on the cliff to where they are in this episode makes me side eye the show like whoa.

And yes, I know that she’s really going on the ship because she wants to try to make it work with Jamie, but geez, let her say that. Let her tell him that he’s been a dick to her but she knows he has it in him to be not-shitty and she’s going because she thinks he can be better than he is in the last couple episodes. I don’t know why it bothers me so much when they make us fill in the blanks ourselves on stuff that seems definitely important enough to actually show. And then make it seem like we’re dumb or bad fans or something for wanting to actually see things instead of just headcanoning them in, because that’s how this production team rolls.

Replacement Rupert and Angus just aren’t the same as the originals. Like no one can replace Rupert and Angus, but like, I can’t bring myself to give a crap about these randos?

For real though, Claire’s inner monologue is probs like yeah, never thought I'd be on a boat. It's a big blue watery road...

And I get her 20th century scoffing at superstition, but like, girl. You’ve been in trouble for being a “witch” enough times now that c’mon. Don’t act like you don’t understand what’s going on with the sailors.

Marsali is my everything. I love her. I love her so much.

As much as I want Jamie to stand up for Claire, I do like that Fergus does it. Because Jamie, my dude, you deserve everything Marsali’s throwing at you.

Claire’s “No. You don’t.” as she drags Jamie away is also my everything.

Oh hey, a trunk of clothes! Got some swim trunks, and some flippie-floppies. But not a nautical themed pashmina afghan in sight. Welp. Can’t have everything.

I know it’s supposed to be sweet that Jamie wouldn’t let anyone get rid of Claire’s clothes. And a nice inverse to Frank burning her clothes. But I’m still just kind of chuckling because it’s not like he ever saw them? What with him living in a cave and then prison and then Helwater and then with Laoghaire. But whatever.

“Would you care to dine with me this evening? We drinking Santana champ, cause it's so crisp.” This captain is seriously the human equivalent of  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. Like dude. You’re the captain of the ship and you’re just like welp. Can’t do anything about the men. They’ll do what they’re gonna do. It’s not like I’m the one in the position of authority or anything.

High fives to Fergus for calling Jamie on his bullshit revisionist history.

Although it’s kinda icky that Jamie knows all of the girls who Fergus has banged? And also fuck him for being super chill about Fergus banging tons of girls but so fucking uptight about Marsali and Bree. I know, I know, it’s a different time. That doesn’t make him not a hypocrite though.

Slash Jamie’s the last person who should be lecturing *anyone* about the importance of honesty right now. But whatever. No real consequences for lying soooo... *pretends the last few eps haven’t happened*

Yi Tien Cho convincing Jamie to do acupuncture is also my everything. Seriously, I know I had a *rull* low bar for how that character was going to be changed, but I’m really, really loving him.

I for real can’t wait for more of Claire and Marsali. Like yeah, Jamie’s marital status *was* Claire’s business, and Jamie hadn’t been living with Laoghaire and the girls for ages so Claire also wasn’t really breaking up a family or anything, but I really like that Claire just lets Marsali’s comment slide. Like call Jamie out on all of his bullshit, please, but Marsali’s a teenager whose life was thrown through a loop and I feel like trying to talk to her when she’s in this kind of mood isn’t going to get anywhere. So by just being like “well the whore should get the bigger bed, shouldn’t she” it’s like telling Marsali that she’s not going to be cowed by the snark and also that she doesn’t need to justify her place in Jamie’s life to a rando. Like she’s not going to concede power by trying to explain herself to Marsali.

But for real, I love Marsali.

I honestly don’t get Jamie’s aversion to Fergus and Marsali though. Like they’re not making the age difference a thing in the show. And Jenny’s fucking kids have apparently been married and spitting out babies since they hit puberty. Like I get it makes for some tension with Laoghaire, but who gives a fuck? She hates them all already?

Claire and Yi Tien Cho are my favorite pair that I was not expecting to like so much. But like her being genuinely interested in his story and him being open with her, which is probably the first time he’s gotten to talk like that with anyone since he got to Scotland, is so great.

Oh. Another VO. Cool. It’s basically like I'm on a boat motherfucker take a look at me. Straight flowin’ on a boat on the deep blue sea. Bustin’ five knots, wind whippin’ out my coat. You can't stop me motherfucker cause I'm on a boat.

Ok this insecurity in Jamie about hurting Claire’s feelings about the tea and acupuncture is adorable. Asshole Jamie’s insecurity of the past few episodes wasn’t. He was just an asshole.

And also, broseph, this is the kind of secret it’s ok to keep. Small, insignificant, adorable. The other one, not so much.

“My return has been confusing and frustrating. But it’s never been a question of whether I love you.” Confusing and frustrating is putting it a bit mildly, Claire, but apparently we’re done having real talk and Jamie doesn’t have to own up to being a fuckwad. Bqhatevwr. (Don’t get me wrong, I’m 1000% here for the fluff in this episode. I just have to pretend they actually did more of the hard convos in order to get to where they can have the fluff again.) And I’m pretty sure it *literally was* a question of whether you loved this Jamie, Claire. We all know you loved the old Jamie. But like, the whole thing on the cliff was literally about whether you loved the new Jamie. Y’know. The thing they never bothered addressing beyond the question being asked. Because lol nothing matters, fans can headcanon it and if they don’t they’re whiny and #badfans.

Whatever. *actively doesn’t think about past episodes* Here for pincushion heart eyes. Lookit how cute they are.

Cause of death: Claire telling Jamie about reading Bree Goodnight Moon.

And I love them talking about the moon like with the science of men flying there and the folk tales of the man in the moon representing each of them. They’re gonna fly this boat to the moon somehow. Like Kevin Garnett, anything is possible.

“You miss her.” “Terribly.” Glad they’re highlighting Claire still feeling the loss of what she gave up to come back to Jamie. Still salty at his non-reaction to learning about his kid. And even here, like one line from him about Bree to let Claire know he loves her too? Or thinks about her too? To let Claire know she’s not alone in missing Bree? Please? No? Ok.

Here for the cuddles. I want the fluff. Believe me, I am trash for the fluff. I just wish again that the fluff felt more earned because they’d actually come to an understanding about where they stand with each other rather than just glossing over the hard part of coming back together. They showed the angsty set up then skipped the resolution and went straight to the fluff.

Whatever. Back to pretending the last few eps didn’t happen. Give me all the fluff. It’s fucking wonderful. I love fluff. I am a broken record.

I feel like the gif of Claire saying “that’s insanity” is going to come in quite handy...

Jamie going to save his dude like fuck land, I'm on a boat, motherfucker. Fuck trees, I climb buoys, motherfucker. I'm on the deck with my boys, motherfucker. And no one is gonna mess with his Ardsmuir boys.

Really reaching to fit some of these lyrics in and I’m not at all sorry.

The way they chant Jonah is def the angry mob way to chant it, but in my head I def kept being like Jo! Nah! Jo! Nah!. Like pumping someone up at a sports thing or something. You’re doing it wrong, brain.

I have a lot of feelings about Yi Tien Cho giving up his story and letting it go before he wanted to in order to save Jamie and his men. Yi Tien Cho really is the best of them.

And honestly Jamie telling the captain to let YTC speak is maybe the most decent thing he’s ever done for the man.

And then the papers fly off in the wind and I realize that I give not a single fuck about the actual plot of this episode.

But Claire saying thank you to Yi Tien Cho is so much more than just thank you for quelling the fight. Like this guy just told the story of his life, of where he’s from, and now he needs to give it up. And she recognizes and respects and appreciates what it’ll cost him to give it up since she too is from a place the fuckers on the ship couldn’t possibly understand. And he did it for this group who, as he so passionately said, thinks the worst of him. I have so many feelings about Claire and Yi Tien Cho, guys.

They kept in the ship quickie! I def thought they were going to cut it! Bless them for keeping it. Blesss. Same feelings about the rest of the fluff still apply, but this show is probs always going to pull stuff like this so I clearly just need to get over it and accept the fluff I’m given like a #goodfan.

Jamie’s like believe me when I say, I fucked a mermaid.

(I swear, I *hated* the line last week when Jamie said Jenny would sooner believe Claire was a mermaid than from the future, but at least it means the most ridic lyric in the fucking song fits perfectly.)

And Jamie being cute about Claire’s hair. Awww.

I hate the king of men line. Hate it. Hate that the production is so fixated on that. And that they think it’s cute to keep including their weird in-jokes in the show itself.

But whatever. Snuggle time! Yay for snuggles! Embrace the fluff! Forget your issues with the show! Stop being a sourpuss!

Oh snap, the British are coming!  Never thought they’d see the day, when a big boat comin’ their way.

RIP Lt. Babyface. Long live Capt. Babyface!

Yay for Claire telling Jamie about her oath. And yay for Jamie actually getting it and respecting what she needs to do. It’s like ep. 306 Jamie again with the whole respecting Claire’s calling thing. So like, we should just ignore ep. 307 Jamie? Because he was an asshole about it.

Oh man, next week is gonna be rough, isn’t it. *All* the puking. This ain't Seaworld, this is real as it gets.

For real though if the puking noises next week are like the brothel noises in ep. 306, I’m going to just watch on mute or something with the closed captions because it’s over the top, show.

Ok if Thomas Leonard is Capt. Babyface, I guess that makes Elias Pound Midshipman Fetus.

Oh man the cook being all like I'm flippin’ burgers, you at Kinko's straight flippin’ copies. Don’t fuck with Claire when she’s in Dr. Claire mode, my dude. You will not win that fight.

Yeah. If I pretend like this episode is the first one of the season, I like this episode. I’m kind of pissed that the show managed to make me salty about fluff. I love fluff, why you make me salty about fluff, show? And now I just want a goddamn fluffernutter.

And since I’m ignoring everything that could have been up until now, it doesn’t bug me that Jamie and Claire are separated...again. Because lol nothing matters.

Fucking give me all the badass Dr. Claire you have, show.

She’s on a boat motherfucker, don't you ever forget.