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sophieswundergarten · 8 months

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Y'know what I really, really love about it here?

Tumblr is the "Talking About Stuff Site"

By my pure existence, I am stating that I am here to Talk About Stuff That I Like, pretty much incessantly

AND NO ONE CAN GET MAD ABOUT IT

Because if you choose to follow me, you're agreeing to let me talk

Now, you may not have to listen, and you may choose to ignore my posts or unfollow me, but you can't really get mad that I keep Talking About That One Thing (With occasional interruptions by Other Thing) all of the time because, guess what, buddy?

YOU SIGNED UP FOR IT

And there's something really freeing to remind myself of that. I'm not annoying anyone; I'm not in anyone's way; no one is being forced to listen or pretend to be polite while they secretly hate my guts because I won't stop talking.

It's just me. Talking. And sometimes people choose to stop in and listen

#Was reminding myself of this earlier #And it made me feel a bit better about how insane my blog is #Because I didn't trick or manipulate or force anyone into being here #They look because they want to #And they can leave whenever they want #And while it may hurt me #It won't be my fault #Because what you see is what you get #And maybe they just moved on to Another Thing!#not mbs #Sorry for the rambles

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borderlinereminders · 27 days

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I think the child in me healed a little bit today.

My partner knew that I didn’t have a great childhood and had a lot of stuff missing. Memories, experiences, etc.

Knowing how sad I was about it, he set up Easter for me. He came to get me because he’d hidden eggs around the house filled with candies or chocolate.

I felt a little silly at first but then I just let go and let myself enjoy it. It makes me feel emotional, in a good way, just thinking back on it.

So, two reminders from this experience of mine for you.

1) It’s okay to indulge your inner child. In fact, you should! It’s okay to enjoy things others might find silly whether it’s swinging on the swings, watching a children’s movie or any number of things.

2) Amazing people exist in this world. And you deserve to have those people and shouldn’t settle for less. Maybe it isn’t about setting up an egg hunt for you but I hope you find someone, if you don’t have someone, who offers you support and care. And I hope they encourage you to be yourself.

#my post #Easter #personal #now excuse me while I go into a sugar coma #I may have tried too much lol #isn’t that part of the experience?#eating so much it hurts?

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macksartblock · 23 days

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Normal take my hand we’re going to therapy

#dndads #dndads spoilers #normal we have walked similar roads I am putting you in therapy post canon you will get through this #while his relationship with sparrow may not improve I’d like to think he eventually finds peace with that. it’s hard but it can be done #I did like a speed run through the stages of grief lol I think I was mainly upset bc a part of me wishes I could reconcile with my parent #but that’s just not a reality that can be pursued after being so deeply hurt at least not without harming myself further #and I think that’s very similar to Normal’s scenario #I don’t think I’ll get too deep here lol but meh #I am content and now just vibing #god I can’t wait for the CoC mini series though give me sweet horrors

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rugwurm · 5 months

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worlds most normal kids

#fnaf #michael afton #elizabeth afton #evan afton #is that his name.. its been a while #afton family #very funny that the family tag exists to me #i was trying to find the propeller/lollipop meme and it told me my searches may contain disturbing and hurtful content #scribbles

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queenielacy · 1 month

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The fact that Cody can admit Seth may be untrustworthy but Roman can’t admit that The Rock might not be fully in his corner is top tier psychology

#Roman avoiding the obvious #while Cody is like ‘yeah Seth may stab me in the back and I’m accepting that”’#wwe #wwe smackdown #Roman reigns #cody rhodes #it’s gonna hurt Roman so bad when rock turns on him

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lucienarcheron · 3 months

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I’ve gotten a few anons since I started doing my rereads (which is weird because I’ve done them before, it was just on my other account that many if not most of the same people interact with) but to be clear: I am anti no one of the acotar series. I genuinely like all of them though some more than others but like…guys, pls. they’re not real people ily but you don’t have to defend their honor in my inbox. I see you and I love your love for these morons but I don’t want to hear how much you hate so-and-so because you love so-and-so. You do you and I love that for you but I beg, leave me out of it 😅

#gp #gigi reads acosf #yes Azriel is on thin ice and yes some of Mor’s actions aren’t my favorite thing in the world but ultimately #I’m team everyone except Beron he can suck it #and no I don’t dislike Mor because I love Eris.#I love Eris and understand he’s part of her trauma even though he personally didn’t hurt her based on everything we’ve seen in the text #like I’ve made it clear before I don’t do the anti stuff #some of you may have discovered me recently (hello ily!!!) but yo girl has been sobbing for a very long while over these characters #anyone remember my og url ladyvanserra? ugh loved that one #idk if anyone cares but I wanted to say it and delete the anons because I don’t like engaging in discourse that has a negative tone to it #I did my time 😭

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keeps-ache · 3 months

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i'm on some sort of kick lol

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #listen i think this broke me a little bit Lmaohfv #i started laughing like a maniac and i just noticed i am. so jittery when i exported this rn hfshhd #this has taken me!!! i think like. 3 days #where did tuesday go ?? hello ??? tuesday?? where are you ?#which is frankly ridiculous even by my standards lmao #i Will be rerunning this at least 3 times. holy hells i needs to. stare into the abyss for a little while hvsh #it may look kind of simple but do not be fooled. not even i know how much effort went into this anymore Hfbvshf #my Back hurts there's something going on with my throat i think i magicked a headache away?? my hands are no longer working and my brain?#let's not even talk about it lol #staring into your eyesballs. now what if i designed more robots Hvhsfh #i did enjoy it! did it probably fry every system i need ot function? ye. but i'm gonna do it again anyway ehehgh #//aokay i'm going to. go.#byyye tooldes :3 :D

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spidergangforever · 7 months

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OK I've got one for Huntsman.

You're able to track through scent and a keen eye for tracks in various terrains. Have you ever tracked big game, like say...a moose? And if you did, have you kept anything as souvenir like the horns?

~ Princess Anon (👸)

I always say "Morning" because if it was a good morning I would be Hunting

#lego monkie kid #lmk #lmk huntsman #lmk syntax #dear beloved followers.... pls forgive me 4 taking a while to do these i have school and such :(#also writing is really needlessly difficult for me. ah #sorry if this is..... not that good. this ask did give me the vivid image of #a deer into the caves at like 4 in the morning awakening syntax from their precious beauty sleep #goliath is also tagging along with him not to stop him or anything but to make sure he didnt hurt himself (and also cuz hes. an enabler/j)#and syntax just being sooo salty about that particular incident forever<3 #speaking of #animal death #tw animal death #<- thats there for good measure #i do think Huntsman kills things. (reasonably. mostly.) bc i think it would be funny.#i meant to write something in there about him always searching for something bigger. like to hunt. ah!! i forgot #oh well ive already drawn everything im too sillg #enjoy. i may draw something else to go along with this one... stay tuned #UGH CORRECTION #*IT GAVE ME A VIVID IMAGE OF HUNTSMAN DRAGGING A DEER INTO THE CAVES

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todayisafridaynight · 5 months

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yagami should get his back snapped in half like a toothpick if he wanna fuckin sleep on couches exclusively might as well be doin the same amount of damage

#snap chats #judgement posting real ??? <- hasnt played it yet #LISTEN MAYBE TOMORROW IDK #im thinkin to spend my morning on comms then in-between class time on judgement and then the rest of the night on comms #i may or may not be packed like a sardine... omg that reminds me of my train trip tho #the train system i was taking was kinda sketch on the lowest of keys but it was so funny transferring trains #cause the second train i had to take there was An Atom of room left and thankfully i have the body mass of a paper bag #so i just slipped in but then i was just fucking smooshed against the wall. it was hillarious #oh yeah. 'snap why are yo making this very specific post' because i didnt realize the benefits of sleeping on a bed #all summer when i was at my moms i slept on a couch in our basement since.#i refuse to sleep on the same floor as her at this point LMAO she dont make me feel safe in there #so yeah i just did That for three months and ive obvi been sleepin on a bed since going back to school #and dawg while i was over there for the weekend i only slept on a couch Again #the added benefit to sleeping on the couch is my dog is more likely to sleep near me.. hehe..#OH BUT YEAH NOW MY BACK HURT. ive never experience back pain like this before..#maybe the couch i was sleeping on sucked idk. the one i was sleeping on's cushions get pushed out real easy #my usual couch doesnt but... dog...... dog likes the other couch more lowkey....#anyways Get Yagami A Bed 2024

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krys-loves-otome · 16 days

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Stolen from Scummy's reblog because I wanted to do it too!

Note that most half-filled squares are ones that are technically true, but it's under specific circumstances and rules, will explain below

So, for now, some Blorbos from me:

-Intense in loves and passions (for Nobunaga, for MC once they get together, for trying to get Mitsuhide to take better care of himself, in his care for others, dude is just passionate for his loved ones!) -His love for Nobu and his interactions with Mitsuhide can get a little fruity, not gonna lie. -Technically orphan since we don't really hear much about his family aside from his poor upbringing and having to be a bum to get by until Nobu came into his life. Agas in discord has also told us about RL Hideyoshi and how much his mom loved Kennyo and I think that's funny to think about sometimes. -Frequently violent but only when it comes to protecting his loved ones. He thinks one of them is in trouble and the man will go feral trying to find a way to help them. Overall speaking, he's not particularly violent, I don't think though.

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-Nothing anyone says is gonna make me change my mind about this man being bisexual. Nope, not happening. -Technically a tragic backstory as he frequently does Team Oda's dirty work of spying and torture, but his tragic backstory is not quite to the extent that some other characters go through, like poverty, figure-headness, and killing a loved one.

-Technically frequently violent, but it's mostly in the pranks he pulls. Not ferally violent, in a sense. He's sneaky about his violent tendencies. You don't want to mess with his wife, after all. -Divorced? He's a double agent that always goes back to his ex (Team Oda).

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-Being an immortal vampire means you must have some complexities and that doesn't excuse you being fruity, monsieur. -Technically an orphan as I don't think we hear much about his birth family as we do Leonardo and Vlad. They're mentioned sometimes but no word on their current status as he tends to focus more on his found family. Until I get confirmed status, he's orphan status to me, thus why the creation of his found one. -Divorced from Vlad, duh.

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-Listen. Listen. Devon/batteryrose was onto something with shipping Nokto and Slivio. Plus, been thinking of finding ways of shipping my OC and him with Rio. Just something about Nokto and the Bentonite princes does something to my mind, okay?

-Technically an orphan after what happened to his and Licht's mom, plus the whole reason for the Belle procedure is because his dad died. Maybe it doesn't count because he was an adult when his dad died, but, technically speaking, both his parents are dead, so... -Murderer by technicality because of Blood-stained Roses Day (all the princes at the time were said to have participated, so, technically speaking). He also tried to poison some merchants for a business deal, so attempted murderer too, technically?

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-Have you seen this demon when his family is in danger (actual, perceived, or otherwise)? He will go absolutely bat-shit feral when his family is in danger! Once you're under his wings, nothing will stop him from going to the absolute limit and beyond for you.

-Technically divorced from the Celestial Realm because of Circumstances™️, not from a specific person.

-Also on a technicality, because of that... whole war with the Celestial Realm, so some angels were more than likely killed, right?

#krys talks #meme thingys #ikemen sengoku #ikemen vampire #ikemen prince #obey me #hideyoshi toyotomi #mitsuhide akechi #comte de saint germain (ikevamp)#nokto klein #lucifer (obey me)#some other things I didn't get around to talking about above #hideyoshi and mitsuhide are murderers by trade bc both are warlords so that's why that's colored in for both #hideyoshi may also be a frequent rule enforcer but he does soften up around some of them so technically a rule changer than a breaker #nokto having no friends is technically true as he has brothers and his faction isn't all buddy buddy like his twin's faction is #plus he does more business dealings while socializing but we don't really see anyone he really talks to about deep personal things until-#MC comes along #maybe to licht on occasion but they're more estranged currently so Nokto doesn't really have any close personal friends methinks #about Lucifer he is technically an enemy of god (who is his creator) and he went against him for his little sister #turning him back into his angel form and his dream back in NB 38 still sits wrong with me and I hope that gets addressed in future lessons #if it'd had just been bc of his ring reacting to him or something that would have been one thing but... still sits wrong with me #and thinking on it now still thinking if Lucifer is more of a rule breaker or a rule changer #his downfall was bc of rule breaking in the first place #and he's a rule enforcer bc of his brothers and their antics #but there are times he does soften up if he sees the rules are actually hurting his family #and change them because he knows first-hand what breaking hard rules does to a person #so as of nowadays #despite his rule-enforcer ways he does bend sometimes if the situation calls for it #those are my thoughts for this #feel free to discuss if you wanna

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vegaseatsass · 2 months

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Just rewatched DFF ep 9 and I really do think this show is so beautifully meticulously artistically written, with themes and layers and so much thoughtful care. I trust wherever it leads, even if it doesn't lead to the places I want most in my heart (PerthNon vs. PheeTan revenge teams at crosshairs, culminating in a heartfelt brotherly reunion, lol if playfully grudging at how much they fucked up each other's plans despite having the same goals, and a Non who has moved on with someone who has life experiences similar enough to his to actually understand him, listen to him, and trust him. But most importantly A HEARTFELT BROTHERLY REUNION). It's just always fun to watch a show where you can expect to be surprised, you can expect to be angry at the characters, you can expect to not get what you want, and you can still expect to appreciate the writing and enjoy the experience. Love to let the story seduce me you see

#btw im not knocking phee for not understanding or trusting non he is a realistic teenage boy #but i am not expecting the narrative to have him confront his inadequacies as wannabe superboyfriend #like he may confront them with jin but i don't think he's going to really get the scope of them with non #thusly i don't want him to choose non out of obligation or guilt i want non to have his own very alive life without him #phee hurts me the most because he's probably the character i relate to most. for better or worse....#but!!! the real point of this post is that i trust the writing and i trust the show #it doesn't have to go in any direction i predict for me to be satisfied and mesmerized #i hope non is alive thoughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sob sob sob #i hope non and new survive together sob sob sob #they make me SO SAD i can't cope #everything new's parents kept from him 'for his own good' to preserve his golden boy future #at cost to him and his relationship with them and his relationship with his brother #there is no way he would have let them continue needlessly sending $$ for two years straight if he knew what a hardship it was #which means he had no idea what it took to support him in england while non was at home being blamed for his family's money problems #new carried his family's expectations on his shoulders and strove and strove and strove the way his parents wanted #and utterly failed his brother in the process #then strove and strove to make that right #and utterly failed his parents #non carried his family's disappointments and strove and strove to find anything to live for outside of them #and found only more isolation and horror #but his brother actually loves him so much #i need him and non to get their hug #but if he dies heroically hallucinating the hug #or any other possible writing choice #i trust! i do trust!! i will appreciate the writing #i'll sob my eyes out. and want fixit fic. and appreciate the writing #dff #dead friend forever #dff spoilers #prathipsits

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mid-nightowl · 6 months

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…can i ask you to share more of your thoughts on fem!jaytim vibes

hi cory!!!! yes, yes i can :) <3

most of my thoughts come from this lil snippet and my tags.

my thoughts on fem!jaytim can be boiled down to this line: “Her successor fascinates her. She kind of wants to let him dissect her, little freak that he is.”

like tim is a freak who would absolutely want to dissect and take jaye apart piece by piece just to get to the bottom of whatever the hell is wrong with her (obsessive) and jaye would let him bc she wants to know what the hell is wrong with him (affectionate).

It’s almost a scientist and their never-ending experiment, but not quite?

like the dissection, its the act, the intimacy, the trust in being vulnerable and completely open on the table for them to see, a show and a sight but not a performance, it's the ‘i’m going to take you apart piece by piece, not to fix you or change you, but just to understand you’, and 'i’m going to get my hands dirty and dig into you, and it can be voluntarily or not, it can be with anesthesia or nothing but im going to know you whether you like it or not,' paired with 'you are going to have to cut me open to get to know me, it has to be cold and violent, it has to be artful and methodological.'

but jaye started off with ‘i want to destroy you, take you to the brink, the edge of despair and fury and hatred and let you go without any catharsis,’ kind of like capturing a wild animal, testing on it, and then releasing it back into the wild with a tag to see what it will do after being changed (will it return back to it’s normal routine or will it come back for more?)

and then tim kept coming back. and that's when jaye is like alright yeah, i'll let you rip me open and give me a name (or maybe give me back my name?) and tim does, and he does it carefully, adoringly, obsessively.

and i think tim’s obsessive focus, paired with the idea of the knife/scalpel = love, is what jaye would respond to best. she was raised in violence, and probably thinks that fighting and pain is caring and love, AND she’s never been a priority in anyone’s life. so for tim to obsess and know her in ways that no one else has before (or have even bothered) is captivating, exciting, and absolutely mind-boggling, and i think jaye would get possessive, like ‘this robin, this little freak is mine.'

i, hmmm. running out of coherent thoughts after this, so um i guess enjoy? <3

#asks #felinemotif #i don't write/talk about jaytim very much; ive always been a jaydick girlie #but this was a lot of fun to think about and like actually get down my thoughts in a somewhat coherent manner #i think there's another piece here about the dissection as an intimacy that only requires the subject and the surgeon/scientist #and the idea of labelling and taking photos of the parts something about learning and teaching but also remembering #another part: once the dissection is done once tim knows all of jaye does he stay?#which i think devolves into jaye going out of her way to prolong the dissection bc she thinks it may be temporary between her & tim #whereas tim is thinking okay i know all the pieces and parts which means im the perfect partner for jaye #no one knows her better than me AND no one will get to know her like i do #(the whole dissection thing too like tim is not afraid about hurting jaye whereas bruce is bc he knew her before)#(bruce thinks “dissection” would = change bad or good while tim knows it just means learning and knowing)#like it's going to be painful before it gets better and bruce doesn't want to go through the pain of knowing this version of jaye #bc it means acknowledging what he's done or not done #and tim's a fixer at heart but to fix things you gotta know what you're dealing with #problem is tim fell in love and realized fixing things would just make it worst so #he is very content with his tall gf that could kill him with her thighs and lets him do his freaky experiments<3 #okay wow i was not done with the thoughts ajfkagjbsg imma stop now #jaytim #fem!jaytim

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thealatvs · 8 months

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two idiots with a history of miscommunication finally get their honeymoon after fucking off to the demon realm and leaving the human world in the hands of resident best boy (alternatively, the result of me reading angst)

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marinetteplztakeabreak · 9 months

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My personal “screaming about the lack of Ladynoir in the finale” post TM

Don’t know how to preface this???

this isn’t hate for the finale,

this is more, me reveling in the Angst of what they Chose Not To Put and screaming and wailing about how ladynoir has me in a chokehold

Im coming to terms with the s5 finale and finding bits of hope for my Ladynoir heart, etc. And i have decided that the finale has a ton of very very cool potential.

But i still can’t stop imagining… what if Adrien had gotten the messages from Ladybug??? What if he was About to give up being Chat Noir and give in to hopelessness and nightmares and terror and the cage he was trapped in and THEN (probably via Plagg, they could make it work) he got the frantic terrified messages from ladybug that were like “hi where ARE you?!?!?! Kitty cat come in NOW i NEED YOU!!?!? Hawkmoth knows my identity i think i am going to die i am all alone please please please show up i need you pick up pick UP.”

What if he was like. “Oh.” And his world just. Shifted. He thought his worst fear was ending the world as chat or being trapped even further by transforming in front of his father and being Caught but now Neither of those matter… now the only fear is just… not being Enough for ladybug… the fear of losing her or letting her down or making her feel as alone and abandoned and hopeless as he does right now????

What if he just????? Transformed without a moment of hesitation??? What if he was there taking to her on the phone coaching her through breathing and telling her he promised she would be okay and he promised he would be proud of her no matter what happened???? What if his own nightmares and fears started slipping through on the call and SHE turned around and reassured HIM that she trusts him fully and if he can’t trust himself he can at least trust HER judgement????? What if they both managed to avoid the mind control by being Each Others’ alliance?????

What if Ladybug found out that Chat Noir was in London ,,, because if Her identity’s been revealed to Monarch and she’s In His House than it’s Already going to hell and secrets don’t matter anymore, it just matters that they trust each other??? All they ever WANTED was to be open and trust and now its all they have left??? And theres not identity reveal or speculation bc it doesnt MATTER right now it just matters to SURVIVE or at LEAST be together for the end.

What if she told him not to come to Paris because it’s too dangerous to be in the same spot and he was like “im so sorry but i Cannot do that i cant leave you there Alone” and she was like “i know. and i love you. And id do the same. And that’s also why i cant tell you who monarch is or where the house is because i KNOW you’ll come here and i cant stop you. We cant both be in his grasp i just need you on the phone”

What if she fought in the basement for her life while getting support from him whilst he rallied all the other heroes and the resistance across the surface of paris???? What if we had ladybug and chat noir fighting the same battle on two different fronts, both Very Aware of each others’ situation nonstop,,, working as a Team despite the distance????? What if chat was just nonstop doing everything he could to reassure ladybug that they were doing okay and everyone supported her and he Trusted Her to do anything because the nightmares were STILL debilitating for everyone including them and they couldnt afford for either of them to get akumatized or even DISTRACTED and they just told puns and reminded each other when to use their powers and when to breathe?????

And chat could be captured or whatever and have to call out to ladybug and she could be like “send me your kwami its okay you did so good, i’ll be okay ill see you again”

Bug noire could still happen but it would be a strategic choice BOTH of them made TOGETHER with pain and love mixed together rather than the result of major decisions that they both were forced to make Independantly with no communication only fear and guilt and lonliness???

I dont know how to explain this but this is not salt this is not hate towards the episode this is just,,,, UGH this show has made me SO INVESTED in the dynamics and they had a CHANCE to do stuff and make it so fun and they DIDNT ,,,, they CHOSE to make it darker and grittier this time and i think it’s probably going in a cool direction,,, i think that ladybug and chat noir are gonna have some Fun (for me not for them) things to Discuss after this and some brand new abandonment issues combined with weird bits of Hope that Apparently they can survive on their own, all in a messy weird blurry pool of fears and relief and guilt and lonliness!!!!! And there’s so much to explore

But ALSO i miss my ladynoir goddammit i miss when it was the ladybug and chat noir show and i feel a little bit hollow seeing how ALONE!!! BOTH OF THEM were!!! this entire finale!!!!!!!!! Why are they ALONE those are my LADYNOIR they are PARTNERS do not SEPARATE THEM!!!! Stop doing PLOTS and HARD DECISIONS and IN CHARACTER MISTAKES to them and PLEASE just let them be perfect and together anyways aaaaaaaaa

(Bonus u can read the absolute essay i accidentally put in my tags for more scrambled thoughts)

#ml spoilers #ml s5 spoilers #ml s5 finale #ml recreation #ladynoir #me screaming #ml meta #i guess #i have no idea how to tag this #complicated feelings where i loved the finale i think #but also WOW did that hurt #which is kinda #proof of how impctful these chatacters are #and how hard this show makes you root for relationships #ive been thinking for So Long and i am just SURE #that after the themes and narratives this show has chosen to hold dear and make the audience care about #there is No Way this is the end of ladynoir #but i fear it may be Migrating #it might have to Go Away for a little while to let some character development happen #and i can imagine so many cool scenerios with ladynoir falling apart conflict #and so many ways for them to fall apart and fall back together #but all of them HURT like HECK and AAAA #i think the long post filter will help this and i wont have to add a read more but if theres issues with it being too long lmk #also whoopsie didnt mean to put essay in tags #i just. i have soooo many feelings #waaaaa #please please friends i am begging #someone write fanfiction of ladynoir being togeyher in the finale #just for . like. being in denial reasons #for reveling in the past and the eventual future reasons

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schrodingers-neurodivergent · 2 years

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I see a lot of focus on Jupe's role in NOPE, and while I believe that to be completely understandable and deserved considering the impact him and his actions have to the story, I think there's a lot of people overlooking the tragedy of Mary Jo Elliot's character. I mentioned her briefly in a separate post of mine on the meaning of the upturned shoe, but I thought I'd expand a bit more on it to settle the nest of brainworms that have gathered in my head.

MJE, to me, has such a tragedy about her compared to her fellow child star, Jupe. The Gordy's Home incident was undoubtedly traumatic to both actors, and I don't want to try minimise or ignore the immensely painful past of Jupe because I do believe he was victimised heavily, by his exploitative child star career, by the Gordy's Home incident, and also the huge spectacle following Gordy's Home. However, when I think about MJE, I really do believe she plays a small, yet vital part in NOPE.

MJE was a young girl when Gordy attacked her following the unexpected pop of a balloon on the set. We witness a very concealed verson of the incident, as it is shown through the perspective of young Jupe underneath the table, but the sounds of the incident don't leave much uncertain as to the viciousness of the attack. We hear flesh ripping, yells, all the while her body is half concealed by the furniture of the set.

I think it's interesting how we're shown MJE. We are shown her child star face through sitcom clips prior to the incident and the t-shirt she wears at the Jupiter's Claim. I think the fact her child self is not ever truly separated from pain and trauma tells us a lot about how her and Jupe have responded to the events of that day. Both of them have been turned into a spectacle and rely on their past to get by.

The only time we see MJE's face, is the glimpse we get when she looks up at Jean Jacket. We see her face bearing the marks of her past, as she stares up at what would be her end.

It feels utterly heartbreaking to me that she had went through so much, only for her to end up digested slowly in Jean Jacket's flesh cylinder overnight, in the sticky and claustrophobic space surrounded by everyone else who went to Jupiter's Claim.

And it makes me think about just how much Jupe was reliant on spectacle. He knew MJE was coming out as he had introduced her, perhaps he had even invited her to it. I don't think it's too far of a stretch to say they likely became quite close after the Gordy's Home incident, and developed a trust of sorts.

Jupe, being aware of this colossal creature that feasts on things, and using it to bring in profit while endangering the life of Mary Jo Elliot, and so many others, shows us just how far he was willing to go for the show. for the spectacle. for the drama of it all.

I think MJE plays a vital role in showing the full extent that some people will go to just for the spectacle. While the motorbike influencer and Antlers do also help in demonstrating this aspect, the significance of MJE, wearing her child face, being swallowed by Jean Jacket almost feels like, to me, that Jupe has fed her past to it aswell.

He never let things be, he never sought out a different approach to success or appreciation, he has always relied on the hurt and pain of himself and those around him to get by. Whether it be his memorabilia room, OJ jr's horses, or anything else, they all, ultimately, end up being used for spectacle. And Mary Jo Elliot is all of this personified.

#nope movie spoilers #nope 2022 #nope #nope jordan peele #Jupe #Mary Jo Elliot #this is rambling #I have a lot of thoughts but no idea if they make coherent sense #I spent so long procrastinating actually writing up my thoughts somewhere #and honestly it has been a while since ive seen it so I may have missed small details #but just the whole thing about MJE HURTS me

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I printed out DoS's 1st draft for editing and my plan was to read it like a novel first for the Experience(TM) and I just.

I lowkey hate it rn.

I know I don't actually hate it and it's just that I'm too "in" this WIP at the moment since I recognize my strengths in the writing, but I need to be physically restrained to stop myself from working on it. Reading this WIP is not a want, it is a NEED!!! But I also NEED to take a break from it!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#i read up to chapter 5 today and omg #it was a terrible experience. it sucked. it hurted.#like i look at it and realize it's good but my brain says it's bad #HELP ME #-she says while obsessively outlining book 2 #i don't remember what i was doing with my free time before nanowrimo #bc since then i've been writing every second i get #guys i think i've forgotten how to human #i have a boring class on thursday and idk what to do. i used to writ during it but now?#tf do i do? learn??? acquire knowledge??????#writeblr #writing #ramblies #devourer of souls wip #may post a pic of the doc later who tf knows at this point

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