#1. call future bf’s sister stupid
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funny how roderick burgess went on for years begging for immortality from morpheus and still wasn’t granted one then there’s this random peasant from 1389 who called morpheus’ sister stupid then BOOM he is now a 21st century professor
#you have to be silly to be immortal#hob gadling’s life hacks 101#1. call future bf’s sister stupid#what if he is the mind behind 5-minutes craft🤯#what#anyway#dreamling#dream the endless#hob hadling#the sandman
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ⵌ ׄ ۪ 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐁𝐎𝐘 𝐈𝐒 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐄 ¹⁶ ׄ ⑅ CL16 ˖ ֺ ᰮ
— DESCRIPTION ੭ alex's twin sister has had the hots for a certain blue eyed ferarri driver, and it's finally time to stake her claim on him.
— PAIRING ੭ charles x albon!reader.
— FILE ੭ social media au.
— WARNINGS ੭ language.
— FACE CLAIM ੭ tontawan tantivejakul.
━━━━━━━━━━❪ 🖤 ❫━━━━━━━━━━
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lilymhe replied to alex_albon story !
stop being mean to ur sister alexander.
landonorris replied to alex_albon story !
oh, so that's how it is ? golfing without me now ? okay. cool.
pierregasly relied to your story !
wooaahh, what's with the heart there girl ? trying to steal my man or something ?
get in line gasly, this boy is mine.
user replied to your story !
THE HEART MISS MA'AM !!?!?!?
THE BETTER TWIN
so golfing was fun guys !
we should totes do it again sometimes 😄
STUPID STINKY COPY & PASTE
why ?
so you can just stand there like a flag pole and flirt with charles the whole time ?
THE BETTER TWIN
exactly ! 😁
LILY MOMMY
AND SHE LOOKED DAMN HOT DOIN' IT TOO.
STUPID STINKY COPY & PASTE
i-
it's always 2 against 1 here.
LILY MOMMY
you'll get used to it hun 💋
THE BETTER TWIN
eewwww no being lovey dovey in the gc allowed.
brb guys, gonna go text my man's
STUPID STINKY COPY & PASTE
HE IS NOT UR-
oh forget it, ur hopeless.
FUTURE BF
hey y/n !
it's charles here, lily sent me ur number I hope that's cool with you ?
HIS FUTURE GF
hey charles !
yes ofc omg 😊
FUTURE BF
I think I grabbed ur golf set by accident haha 😅
HIS FUTURE GF
oh no problem !
you can give it back tonight at 8pm, at reagan's diner, and wearing ur finest suit because it is a 3 star restaurant.
FUTURE BF
I...
...uhm....
...huh ?
are u... asking me out ?
HIS FUTURE GF
did I stuttter, charles ?
no ?
so 8pm, sharp. those are my favourite golf clubs that i never use, so i'd like them back.
are we clear ?
FUTURE BF.
yes ma'am.
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WHAT
CHARLES
ARE. U. INSANE.
SHE'S CRAZY !?
but she's miiiinnnneeee 😁
maxverstappen1 replied to charles_leclerc story !
so, what did you do ? huh ?
because how does a total dope like urself, bag a 20 like yn ?
ahh, come on max :\
lilymhe replied to your story !
YAAASSSS QUUEEENNN
GET UR MANS
YOU KNOW IT 😝
user replied to your story !
my wife... had been stolen from me....
user replied to your story !
NO COME BACK TO ME YN 😭
charles_leclerc replied to your story !
how am I going to get people to believe that u wanted me first ?
u won't 🤭
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yn_albon suck on ur zero points alexander.
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logansargeant OUCH.
▹ yn_albon not u logs u know i love ya !
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lilymhe as the girlfriend I shouldn't click a like on this post but...
▹ alex_albon but ? BUT !?
▹ yn_albon love ya too lils baby 🎀
maxverstappen1 the real mic drop is alex thinking that YN ALBON couldn't pull a kid like charles.
▹ charles_leclerc I want to take offense but I can't, because ur very much right.
▹ user HOL' ON- alex thought YN MOTHER ALBON couldn't pull any man of her choosing !? 😭
▹ yn_albon aw, thanks maxie !
alex_albon just say u all hate me and call it a day.
▹ yn_albon quit being dramatic lex and answer mum's ft before she beats ur ass with the wooden spoon again.
user so no one's gonna talk abt slide 3 ? NO ONE !? HELLO !? 😭
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imnameimswrld OOHOOO BACK AGAIN ??? hiii lovelies, I hope you're all doing well ! college is trying so hard to kick my ass but i am hanging in there (just barely lol)... but I hope you enjoyed this one, I'm switching up the look of my stuff coz I hate the old look :)
#f1 imagine#f1#f1 fanfic#f1 x reader#charles leclerc#charles leclerc ferrari#charles leclerc f1#charles leclerc x reader#charles leclerc fanfic#alex albon#scuderia ferrari#formula one social media au#social media#formula one smau#smau
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April 1, 2024 pt.2
Today was weird. It went by quickly but it felt off.
I told another person at work what I know and I feel like shit about it.
Feel like I can't do anything right at home or at work.
Tried to help my parents book their trip and save money, turns out there were things with the booking that weren't listed like bags and airport transfers. My mom said she doesn't want to take a taxi alone with my dad. We have to call the hotel to arrange the pickup but of course, they aren't answering right now so Cassandra has to do it tomorrow, but my mom is getting mad that we should have just booked it through the flight website which was 400 more. She doesn't want to put in the work to figure anything out. Even though other people are doing it for her.
I am really stressed that my period is over a week late.
I cried over a riceball today. My dad said he was going to save me one. I had some leftovers before I left for my facial (I didn't see the other food). I got home and I noticed the table was set but didn't ask. My mom didn't tell me there was other food. She pulls it out for my sisters BF and he takes the rice ball that is left and I asked if she saved me any and she said no. Then I felt bad that I took it from him, so I tried to talk to her about it and she goes "you should have just gave it to him". Which made me feel worse. Then she started yelling at me for crying. I am aware I am over-emotional, but would it hurt her to support me in any way.
I don't know why I have been thinking a lot about my sister and her best friend who haven't been talking. I feel bad that my sister doesn't have her friend and I want to try and help, but I don't know how. I miss having her around too. She told my sister she needs space, and my sister has given it to her. I know my sister isn't innocent and hadn't been a great friend, but I also know that there was negative influences that made the friend think worse things. I miss her being around too. I have been thinking a lot about covid and how those days looked.
I am thinking a lot about my career and how I see my future. I've been thinking a lot about my relationship and I et scared sometimes that B is going to leave me for some stupid reason, I know he's not like the rest, but there's a piece of my trauma, past that can't help but to be scared. I love his family and spending time with them. I love how they just take me in and make me feel at home.
I don't like that I come home and that I don't feel like I am at home.
Everything is very complicated.
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Day 176
I'm typing this while lying on my back on my bed with my laptop on my knees coz Im too lazy to sit and torture my back.
Hello again. So yeah, I've got a job, and everything is nuts somehow. My new job is still dealing with people and.....children. Yup, you heard me right. Children of ages 6 to 12 years. 10 to 15 years ago, I wouldn't think of even working with those little annoying humans. But here I am. The parents are another breed I've yet encountered in my career. They are a whole different breed. I've also realised children get into all sorts of trouble, aka accidents. Long story short, parents and form teacher were called (boys are in the same class). Shortie was sent to the children's ER with his worried mum. That's just one of the many stories in my first 8 weeks.
My department comprises 2 senior ladies, 1 probably EO in her 30s married and 1 AM. All women except for 2 older gentlemen as Ops Manager. Some still don't know where to put me coz I only spoke when spoken to. I mind my own business and focus on work. I do sometimes entertain them. However, talking to teachers always bring me back to my trauma from primary school. I feel stupid, especially if I call the teachers incorrectly or mishear the name. It's for the gifted and long-serving to remember all 40 teachers. I can barely remember 4 things on my grocery list. Side note: I recalled an interview for the same position. One of the AM, I think asked if I were to approach a teacher, how would you do it? I wasn't expecting that question. I replied, 'professionally'? She asked what's that mean? I would ask them politely? I mean, dude/babe, I worked with adults throughout my career. I just approached them...the difference is they didn't represent my trauma, my childhood. O didn't get into the school by which I thought it was over. Till, I thought, 4 months ago, I received a call from my current school, and here it begins my journey (again) of depression. My present colleagues are better than those I had over last year. I don't want to be too attached because someone up there has this one sadistic mind to want to fuck with me.
Next is the Devil's House. Been four long years since my mum's divorce, and we still haven't gotten the money. If you don't count the 2 years of covid (3 years for the world), losing my job, cleaning (the best I could afford) the fucking house and searching for my current place. So right now, while I'm still unstable (learning) in my new job, I embarked on a long journey (parts of it stupid) of trying to sell the house via a lawyer who still doesn't understand where I'm coming from. He insists on getting the papers served to him. He wants to go by the book. Here I'm wondering if the divorce papers can get through my aunt (his sister) why not these 'forcing him to him to give m the sole rights to sell" papers.
There are only 2 ways this will go....one my aunt will give up his contacts and surrender. Two, she will put up a wall. So, in that case, I will send the evidence to the MF so he can FINALLY get the big picture. How do I record a phone conversation?
Mum is still mum. Whenever she or I sneezed, she acted as though it was wrong to even do that or humans are not allowed to sneeze or cough.
Next is Le Bf. Honestly, where should I even begin? Too long a story for perhaps another time. Just hang on, future me. or else fails just box them. Cheers.
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wOW!!!! A HEADCANON ABOUT A CHARACTER THAT NOT COMMONLY APPEAR ALOT BUT THERES CONNECTION WITH A MATSUNO BROTHERS AND THAT MAKE EVERYONE OBSESSED WITH HIM FOR SOME REASON!?!?!??!??!?!?!?! sure :D
just to be note this out, im not good with headcanon and such so im trying my best for you epic anon! ^^)/ also had to put on read more bcus its VERY LONG LOL
Its so obvious that he seems very popular at school..... but not too much than Totoko. Because I see that Totoko shows mostly popular bcus of her appearance and her fake heroine behavior in the movie but on the other side Yanagida is quite popular not just his looks, it probably because his parents are part of celebrity (like athlete celebrity kinda type) so everyone knows about him about his family and thats it.
Even hes popular, he can get use to hanging out to anyone who wants to, even though he don’t want to. I MEAN.... he likes hanging out with friends but he knows that friends really attach to him so hard it annoys him and also everyone kinda love that guy so he prefer to go out like 2 or 3 groups he can lol.
I think his fav group friends he hang out when Ichimatsu and Atsushi is there. Thats why he appear two times in the movie JHDKJNF
Even though he looks like he can do any sports he can, but I can hc that he also love to do art. Like painting, photography, cooking,,,, or maybe he can sing or something casual idk HHHFHH talented motherfucker
His jealousy on sextuplets is shows. But no one notice lol. the way he said like “It’s not like I hate them it just its hard to deal with them when they all together.” seems like it for me. Maybe bcus he dont have any chance to get along with his family bcus parents and siblings busy with work and college such.
oh yeah i can hc him that hes the youngest sibling. he has 2 brothers and 1 sister. his sister is married.
bcus his family is busy, he also busy for the school, and prepare to move out and his future college. he had to eat leftovers or foods from convenience store for dinner.
he likes Totoko at first but then he realised maybe totoko not into him on high school. in high school reunion he didnt expected totoko reaction when he said she look cute and then he was like “Huh....ok” idk why i want to put this one tho
he had develop feelings for Ichimatsu but he refused to believe it at first. he finally realized it was internalized homophobia when hes adult and thats my hc of his regret of his memory!!!!!!! ICHI
When he trying to remember why he fall for Ichi for and then he remembers one time they high five so hard they squished their hands together. He realized his the way he had crush on him is stupid.
He notice Ichimatsu changed alot. I mean when they adult i meAN LOL so he notice that Ichi don’t want to interact to Yana but don’t know the reason but don’t want to force him atm. He don’t want to leave him alone because he want to get closer with Ichi so he decided to sit next to him, like old times, without the high five or talk to him. Its getting awkward if it just two of them lloljknjknkNJKD
i thought its cute to put this but Yana would put his jacket on Ichi if he fell asleep next to him :) :) :) :) like he fell sleep on his shoulder I can feel that Yanagida’s heart is blooming like a flower ^^
oH YEAH bcus hes good looking he knows girls attracted to him even though hes not into girls too much. He dated a lot of girls when he was high school and/or college before he gay thoughts
he secretly dated a guy before! but his ex-bf seems to like someone else and Yana is fine to breakup before his ex decided to cheat on him. :/
he gotta be closeted to his family and his high school friends bcus he can imagine that everyone being homophobic on him and he hate to feel like that (he really want to coming out to ichimatsu bcus of crush thing but he’s weak if Ichimatsu started to disgust on him) he only out to his friends from gay bar! :D
he literally sexual fluidity when he was questioning himself either if hes bi or gay and he finally call himself gay after he had deep talk with his recent friends (lgbt-friendly)
ok im kinda done with his gay hc jNBKDJK lets move on his fav thing!! hes very good taking care of children bcus of his newphews and nieces and he probably had a cat and/or dog! I did a comic about he have a cat name King before so KJBFDJKB
he probably good with fighting and racing games.
did i mention he can cook? One time I hc that hes took culinary arts if he got stressed out by the sports thing and his parents agree and do what he want in the future so
he surprised that Ichi can make cute culinary food too (you know that chocolate he made from valentines day skit and cat onigiri on season2) and support him as he can (to make him not uneasy with it)
he look up his old picture of his high school hair style and he feel disgusted.
yOU KNOW WHAT.... HE WOULD DO THIS BEFORE HE GLO UP
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1, 2, 4, 10, 20!!
Tell us about your current project(s) – what’s it about, how’s progress, what do you love most about it?
Oh boy so I’m sure I must have mentioned it at some point but I won’t turn down a chance to ramble about it again: me and @regalpotato are working on a Day of the Doctor rewrite and I’m pretty psyched about it! Basically, Eight is there rather than War (although War does make an appearance!) and also River is there, because Duh, and there are other Things going on that are different from the episode/novel, but that’s spoilers and also still partially cooking in my brain, lol. It’s at 11k-ish right now but still pretty early in the story, too early to probably say what I will love most. But I’m having a ton of fun with it, especially the dialogue, and currently torturing Ten in every way I can think of. You know, lovingly torturing. For the most part.
That is the really big thing I’m excited about, but I do still have two prompts left from a couple weeks back (I didn’t forget you, anons!) and those are milling around in my head too waiting for inspiration to strike.
2. Tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project
No secret that I love writing multi-Doctor / River stories, and in fact having somewhat recently finished an 8 and 11 / River fic I will have to be on my toes to not repeat myself too much haha. But I just love getting everyone together and letting them yell at each other for a while - the best honestly - and then later we get Revealing Conversations about Feelings, as well as POV changing chapters. Not to overhype it but! I think it’s gonna be fun!
Putting the rest under a cut because I am long-winded lol.
4. Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)
Hmmm I’ll pick something I like from the WIP that’s all my writing - this is from Night of the Doctor with Eight and Ohila, but it’s diverged from the original script here and iirc pretty much all new dialogue for Eight. I don’t normally write this sort of Doctor speech because I’m usually doing romance, but I can hear Paul McGann righteously shouting/soliloquizing in my head so I’m pretty happy with it:
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“What would you have me do?” the Doctor hissed. “What does your broken prophecy foretell? That I become one more loyal soldier in Gallifrey’s glorious army? I can join this fight and take a thousand lives, die a thousand deaths, and this war will still go on. The universe doesn’t need another soldier!”
“Not a soldier,” said the Sister, “a warrior, with the power you’ve refused to wield. You could have destroyed the Daleks before they were even created.”
“Yes, I could have done. And I didn’t, because I have no right! Whatever it is you think you can turn me into, Sister, you’ll continue to be disappointed. Because there’s one person who is always needed in a war: a good doctor, willing to help whomever they can. No matter if they’re despised, or called traitor— no matter who they lose or how many times they fail! There will always be more lives to save, and I’ll be there, helping, wherever I can. I only hope I’m strong enough to carry on doing it half as well as another doctor I knew.”
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(Yes of course we have Liv Chenka references!)
10. How would you describe your writing process?
It takes me forever to get ideas, but once I have a sort of general amorphous direction for the story and an emotional starting point for the characters, I just jump in. And then I keep getting shower thoughts about more and more stuff happening and what was supposed to just be some fun fluff starts growing a plot and getting wildly out of hand and this is just my life. I am very much not in control.
20. Tell us the meta about your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism you’ve included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?)
Ohhhh this is such a good question! Definitely going with There is a love I reminisce because there’s a lot going on under the surface in that fic and not all of it stated super explicitly. So um, huge spoilers below if you haven’t read it!
Manhattan and Trenzalore (both times) are essentially retconned, through a combination of River’s innate abilities and Eleven going around the timeline trying to do better after being confronted with his shortcomings in TNOTD. How the Doctor survived Utah is explained and it’s not because he was in a stupid robot. It spawns an implied post-Library reunion with River, Eleven and the Doctor’s oft-referenced and never quantified or named children from Gallifrey. It implies a different resolution to the Hybrid thing and an alternate series 10. And of course it uses BF’s far-superior Ravenous 4 plot twist to preemptively annihilate the timeless children crap, and a combination of Ravenous 4 and Doom Coalition 4 to make River basically a time goddess. But maybe my favorite thing was giving life to this headcanon of mine. IT CANNOT BE REFUTED! They’ve never said ANYTHING specific about his family so it’s free real estate baby!
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“Yes, sorry to harp on about this, honey, but I think we can discuss the regeneration semantics later,” River cut in. “You’re saying I came back from your future to your distant past and just… stayed?”
“Well… yes, I think so. There were certain things we couldn’t discuss. I had always just assumed that I’d reached the end of my last regeneration and you weren’t too pleased with that, so… You know, describing it now, it does seem very irresponsible. But I don’t recall having any complaints.”
“No, I shouldn’t think you would.” River smiled, but her mind was racing. “How would that even work? Eventually, we’d come back round to when we first met on your end, and what, I wipe myself out of your memories? Selectively, for your entire lifetime? I think you might notice a little thing like that.”
“I suppose you must have had a plan for it, but I can’t remember it now. I just remember the two of us, together through the centuries.” He smiled fondly and River felt like the ache in her chest would strangle her. “I remember our family.”
“Our what?” she cried, as the older Doctor had a sudden choking fit.
“Our family. Our children and…” Dread slowly dawned on the young Doctor’s sweet face. “Oh, please, no,” he whispered. “Don’t tell me they’re… No, this happened! It happened in both versions of my memories!” He looked to his older self, panic-stricken. “Tell me you remember!”
“You had a family,” River soothed, as Babyface stumbled over his own tongue. “It just wasn’t with me.”
“What?” he laughed incredulously. “Who else would it be?”
“Your first wife, sweetie. I’m your second. Well, the second one that counts.”
“No, that’s— I’m sorry, that’s nonsense.” He turned to the older Doctor again. “You can’t tell her, is that it? Because she hasn’t done it yet? I’m sorry, River, maybe I shouldn’t have—”
“No!” Babyface shouted, finally collecting himself. “Yes, we— I had a family, on Gallifrey, before I ever left. River wasn’t there, obviously, because that’s not how anything works!”
“Who, then?” the young Doctor demanded. “Who was your first wife?”
“I— I— she was—” He opened and closed his mouth silently, looking increasingly horrified.
“You don’t like to talk about it,” River explained. “She passed away.”
“Yes, but just between me and myself,” the young Doctor pressed on with an utter absence of tact that made it easier than ever to see this was the same man before her, “who was she? And your children, what were their names?”
River hesitated, watching as the older Doctor wrestled with himself. These were details not even she had ever asked him for. She knew the general outline, of course, and that was enough. It was a hurt so deep and so impossibly ancient, she couldn’t truly imagine how distant it must be for him now. No sense in forcing him to open that door and dwell on it again.
“I, I don’t,” he finally muttered, looking almost fearful, “I don’t talk about it. I don’t think about it.”
“You’ve forgotten them,” the young Doctor said, voice low and furious. “How could you?”
“S-Susan,” Babyface stammered, wide-eyed. “I left Gallifrey with Susan.”
A relieved smile flashed across the young Doctor’s face. “And where did you suppose she came from?”
“No, she… I don’t…” Chair legs scraped abruptly across the tile as the older Doctor bolted up from his seat, white-faced, and stumbled back from the table.
“Doctor?” River stood, her hearts racing.
His eyes met hers for a split second, the strange terror in them sending a chill through her, and then he was gone like a shot.
“Doctor!” She made to chase after him, but his younger version was still clasping her hand.
“He’ll be fine,” he reassured her. “He’s just working it out.”
“Working it out?” she repeated, too stunned to reach out and grasp for the obvious. She turned to him in a daze. He smiled, and for a fleeting moment she fancied she could see the long contentment of a life she’d never dared dream of, etched in each little line on his older, younger face.
“I told you, River.” He laid his other hand over hers, warm and steady. “It was always you.”
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#thank you so much for these they were great questions!!#i need to like shut up though these are such long answers lollllll#amillionmillionvoices
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Linger
Episode• 3/8
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Authors note• kinda sad. I think I will have two more parts, but I dk(future gwen is editing this and CHUCKLING)
Warnings• language, mentions of self hate
Songs• somewhere only we know - Lily Allen/ I will follow you into the dark - death cab for cute/ say ok - Vanessa Hudgens
•when Jaemin started talking to you, he invited you to sit with his friends
•ofc, you had your own friends
•literally three girls lol
•so it wasn’t a BIG integration
•you and ur friends were nervous as heck to hang w the dreamies
•cause
•7 most popular boys in school?
•um
•but they were super nice
•and just like,,welcomed y’all so well!
•except like
•you and ur friends were suddenly popular
•bc now ppl were saying y’all were dreamies too
•and Jaemin was so HAPPY abt it
•u had no complaints
•alright that’s a lie
•you had one(1)
•so ever since Jaemin kissed u
•and then u kissed back
•and then y’all kissed for a hot SECOND
•and then he drove u to this lil bench that looked out over the city
•and there was this beautiful sunset
•and this mf really asked u to be his gf
•and ur ass really said “um YEAH”
•and he told all da dreamies the next day
•that you guys were D A T I N G
•and ever since he told them
•they
•would sometimes look at you sadly
•like they knew something bad was going to happen
•it freaked u out
•and that was a month ago
•so today was like any normal day
•u got out of ur fourth period, met up with Jisung and Chenle (who INSISTED on calling u mom,, they wouldn’t Fucking STOP! Jaemin insisted u took his place,, you were not amused)
•and walked over to the bench where y’all ate
•and slowly ur group came
•and Jaemin was last
•which was unusual
•he usually sprinted to the table
���he finally told you it was bc he wanted to see u
•cheesy bitch (it was cute don’t tell him doe)
•but he was like 15 mins late
•and he was looking a lil
•pissed
•he insisted that it didn’t matter
•and you didn’t wanna press
•so you just slid ur hand into his and leaned ur head against his chest
•and started joking w Miri and Hyuck about Renjuns crush
•and you didn’t see Jeno staring At you and Jaemin
•vv sadly
•Jaemin does tho
•and he gives Jeno the “not now” look
•he promises him he’ll explain it all later
•and he kinda :/ nudges u
•to get ur attention
•and then he leans down and whispers in ur ear
•”are you still getting those notes in ur locker?”
•you nod at him
•and then ur like “honestly they make me a lil uncomfortable now”
•Jaemins heart
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•
•
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•down to here
•he’s like “whey”
•ur like “cause I have a bf now bruh,,”
•he’s like “omg W H O spill the tea sis”
•ur like “a lil bitchboy”
•he gasps
•so the notes
•are cut (notes, u have been chopped) (notes, the tribe has spoke) (notes, you have been evicted from the big brother house) (notes, you-)
•bc he does N O T wanna make u uncomfy
•he instead opts to be stupid
•and give u handwritten notes in class
•bc he still wants to write u notes
•u
•ain’t stupid
•you knew Jaemin called u sunshine regularly
•u deadass thought it was a coincidence
•that both ur boyfriend and ur secret admirer had the same nickname for u
•but when u opened up the note Jaemin handed u in math
•and saw the familiar poorly drawn sun at the bottom
•u literally almost had a heart attack
•you rushed home that day and pulled out ur secret admirer notes box
•and compared
•u felt like Nancy drew
•but low and behold
•Na Jaemin, your boyfriend
•was your secret admirer
•wtfffff
•the thought that your boyfriend had liked you since sophomore year
•baffled you
•(Andy’s voice: “awe babe. You had a crush on me)
•you choose to keep this newfound info to yourself
•you didn’t want to embarrass him
•you also liked the notes, and were afraid he’d stop if u knew
•stop giving them to you, even tho he already stopped sliding them
In ur locker
•so you let it go
•while you were Sluthing™️
•Jaemin was confessing
•to Jeno
•at practice
•during their 5 minute break
•turns out, Cynthia, a girl on the volleyball team that REALLY liked Jaemin, had stopped Him on his way to lunch, and told him that she was excited for the end of his bet, and that he could totally date her after if he wanted
•honestly,
•Jaemin had completely forgotten abt that
•he was having so much fun
•and he was so happy
•he totally forgot about prom
•and,,everything
•turns out, Jeno and the rest of the dreamies would stare at you
•bc they knew
•they knew how happy you made Jaemin
•they had literally never seen this side of him
•it honestly shocked them
•they had a whole ass other gc called “We hate Ourselves!😌🤩” (curtesy of Haechan) where they talked abt the whole situation
•and they
•literally did hate themselves
•you really grew on them
•you were an incredible big sister to Jisung and Chenle; always giving them advice and helping them
•and you were Haechan’s favorite overwatch partner :/ you were like the only person who could help him win realistically
•you helped Renjun talk to his crush, and you would sometimes use your hands for his drawings (holding stuff for him)
•and you had been close to Mark for a long time, ever since you joined the music club Freshman year together
•Jeno was your boyfriends best friend, he was the one you talked to the most out of all of them. You helped him talk to your friend, Yerim, who joined the dreamies with you and Miri.
•you had made an impact
•a dent, if u will
•in their lives
•and they knew once you left, you would take Miri and Yerim
•and they would lose the three girls they had grown incredibly close to over the past couple of months
•they were
•scared
•Jaemin tries to reassure Jeno that it will all be okay
•that things will go back to the way they were
•that it’ll be okay
•he had to keep saying it
•in order for him to believe it
•he prayed that he could pluck up his courage and forfeit the bet
•but not every prayer gets answered
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Submissions from 🦚🌺
So took me a while to scroll through to my last tagged ask (for some reason searching didn’t work). So much about staying consistent and actually tagging my stuff from now on. Gosh uff. The one where sibling found possible drugs and the one about mom being xenophobic almost causing shut down as in passing out were me too. I usually either tend to forget to tag or I guess am kinda scared since I feel I send in A LOT? I really don’t know. It’s just a lot going on and I feel bad always (1🦚🌺)
I feel bad always throwing all my stuff at my friends. Especially as one friend a few years ago was diagnosed with depression. Idk what her current situation is tho except that she seems to do better. I won’t ask her since I feel weird about that stuff. Plus really unless she wants to tell me it’s none if my business. But yeah that’s that I guess. Now… I’ve been rejected from the art college/highschool unfortunately so that’s out the window. My therapist suggests volunteer year 2🦚🌺
Whivh we have a social and economic one of I think? Idk. I know social won’t work because of my likelyhood of social anxiety which kinda self explanatory I guess. Economic I’m just scared I wont be able to pull the whole tear through, scared to do stuff wrong etc. Hell I spent 2 low sleep nights crying after the rejection and mom forced the answer out of me when I clearly didn’t want to talk about it. Turned into an argument about how I got forced into abitur/regular highschool 3🦚🌺
And OBVIOUSLY she blames dad for it. Which like… great whatever he told her. My point is HE was more supportive in front of ME than she was. She just tore me down 2 years ago. Next week I dont have a therapist appointment since she will be moving. So I’m praying this week will go by smoothly. Well as smooth as it can go with all the arguments around here I guess. I’m still trying to process everything since March 4🦚🌺
1? 2? I’ve lost track of time … weeks ago she and her bf fought very badly and she essentially ran away for an hour, he claimed he is leaving but then stayed. My younger sisters were all crying, my brothers were just not surprised and I had to try call family members (which calling others is a physical challenge for me) trying to find a way to deal with what happened. My therapist knows about this incident. She now also knows moms bf smokes weed but not about what 5🦚🌺
else we found. I’ll see if I can bring it up soonish since it still worries me… my brother also later confirmed again he caught them snorting it so yeah most likely we are right about it being cocaine. I feel uncomfortable looking up the effects of it but my cousin said that could explain a lot of moms behavior. Shes always been this way I think.I right now dont even remember where I was going with this ask chain hhhh frick.I’m loosing track of myself once again please send help 6🦚🌺
(Have to switch to browser because app again refuses to let me send stuff wtf) My mom also is back onto “oh you just have split personality!” … I have informed myself on DID and OSDD, I have symptoms yes. But I doubt it’s that. In fact my therapist even talks about that stuff with me! I have different parts but mom doesn’t know they exist so idk. I tried to literally tell her how DID is made and she didn’t want to listen. She claims she did almost everything right and I’m making up 7🦚🌺
My trauma. So you would think that she would stay away from assuming such a trauma heavy diagnosis. Welp she actually doesn’t know anything about mental health either way and legit took my brother off his adhd meds years ago because “they changed him too much” and then refused to take him to appointments when we noticed signs of tourette in him because she felt like she fucked up as parent?? Wat?? I can’t make sense of this woman anymore tbh 8🦚🌺
Sorry that this is all over the place, it’s 1am for me rn, I cant sleep really, still am trying to process I won’t see my friend who I was looking forward to seeing this year for 2-3 years and who would have been a temporary escape from this hellhole until at least another year or 2 depending on the situation, being in the top 10 corona countries and in fact second most infected state in germany and really just switching between sliding down to a kid and /or almost passing out 9(?)🦚🌺
almost passing out when trauma responses shut me down and I just can not describe my emotions of the past months other than I just want someone to hug me and to feel safe and to feel like this mess at home and the world isn’t happening. My mind is all over the place and I feel like at this point I’m going insane and I’m not making any sense anymore. Again sorry for the probably stupid rant/,vent that probably made no damn sense idek anymore - final🦚🌺
So much about what I sent in yesterday hoping for the best. 3 hours ago I woke up to a message chain about how we (me and my siblings. We are 6 in total) apparently abuse her and use her. And basically just complaining about the tiniest things regarding chores. For example yesterday I completely cleaned the kitchen and she complained because some dishes stood around since people still ate AFTER I did the chores. Like tf. My friends say it seemed like from the screenshots that she is 1🦚🌺
using us as tools? Idek anymore. She also completely ignored me sending her and asking her stuff about the valounteer year last night since the school rejected me and I need that alternative. Apparently a clean flat is more important than my literal future. On the other hand I for once had a normal conversation with my almost 15yo brother (I’m almost 19, however not mentally and also not in the position to move still especially with the virus and all) and it turned out that he shares 2🦚🌺
Moms views on therapy whivh I’ve mentioned in the past aren’t really the best views on it. So yeah that’s just great. He basically just thinks it’s stupid. Either way. Currently my only way of possibly getting away would be a psychiatric /mental hospital stay. THING IS while I’m bety aware it isnt like in the movies I am deadly afraid of the thought. Not having my freedom to come and go when I please, not being able to meet up with friends or something etc. I would not feel safe and 3🦚🌺
it would just expose me to a lot of stress and anxiety which wouldn’t be any better than being yelled at constantly at home and having mom shit talk my friends. Everything is just kinda a mess with her rn and my siblings don’t see it from my perspective. Like YES we mess up and don’t do things right. She has a reason to be mad. But NO she doesn’t have the tight to essentially abuse us and no her behavior isnt parenting this is manipulation. 4🦚🌺
They only see the first half and think she’s in the right… I myself struggle to differentiate right and wrong and am unable to read situations well, which is why it took me 17-18 years and my friends calling it out to realise this is wrong. But I at least listen… they don’t. I sometimes just wish I grew up in a stable functioning family. Or honestly that she never even had me since she was VERY young when she had me so that’s probably why she never learned how to 5(?)🦚🌺
Act properly towards us. As she had me when she was just my age (18) and then the following 8 years had 4 more of my 5 siblings. I feel she never had time to grow up and learn herself especially considering she was abused herself…. final🦚🌺
Hi 🦚🌺,
It's good to hear from you again! There's absolutely nothing wrong with messaging us often, so feel free to tag all of your asks that you send in! I think that will actually make it easier on both of us, as you'll be able to find responses easier and I can look back on your previous asks easier to make sure I'm not missing anything or repeating myself :) Also, the search function on tumblr is quite picky, so unfortunately it can be hard to find posts. I've run into the same issue with locating old asks on the blog as well!
It's understandable that you don't want to bug your friends with your problems, especially if they have some mental health struggles of their own. However, it might help to think of it this way: mental illness is so common that chances are most people you meet will have some sort of struggle with their mental health, which means you wouldn't be able to talk to anyone about your struggles if you don't want to bother someone who struggles with their mental health. That doesn't seem fair to you! While everyone needs to have boundaries, especially to protect their health, I think it's reasonable to share things with your friends when you're struggling. You deserve that support, especially with everything else you have going on in your life!
It must have been devastating to not get into art school and I'm so sorry that happened! It does sound like volunteering could be a potential route for you to go down, even if it's just until you figure out what you want to do in the future. It makes sense that certain volunteer options can be rolled out based on the nature of the work and the things you struggle with. Perhaps there is something you could do from home that wouldn't trigger your anxiety. For instance, I volunteer for a text-based suicide hotline, which I do from home. I'm not saying you have to do something exactly like this, but it might spark an idea that you or your therapist maybe haven't thought of yet. It's just something to think about.
What's going on with the drugs in your house is definitely concerning and I think it would be a good idea to bring that up with your therapist. It's really dangerous to have these kinds of drugs around with younger kids being there. Not only is it possible for kids to accidentally get into it and harm themselves, but it's also dangerous for them to be around adults that are high because of their erratic behaviors. This is why I think it would be wise to talk to your therapist about this to see what input she has.
It's great that your therapist has talked to you about your diagnoses as well as what you don't have that your mom has tried to say you have. I'm sure it's frustrating to have your mom make those accusations, but I think it's good that you at least have your therapist there to reassure you that you don't in fact have those diagnoses.
It's so disappointing that your friend won't be able to visit as you guys had planned because I know you were really looking forward to that! Unfortunately, coronavirus seems to ne ruining plans for most people all over the world. Hopefully you guys will be able to come up with another plan for meeting up, though it likely won't be able to happen until the pandemic is more under control. Still, at least making tentative plans for meeting in the future may give you both something to look forward to once travel is finally safe again.
I'm so sorry that your mom treats you and your siblings this way. It does sound like she may use you guys as tools, as your friends put it. This is sometimes another sign of abuse/neglect, which honestly isn't surprising considering all of your mom's other behaviors.
What you mentioned about getting out of the house makes sense and I agree that an inpatient stay might not be the best way to go about it. Not only will that be more restrictive, as you mentioned, but most hospitals won't allow inpatient stays unless the person is incapable of keeping themselves or others safe while receiving outpatient care (though I obviously don't know whether this is the case for you). I still think it's a good idea to keep thinking about potential ways of getting out of your mom's house once you're ready for that. One option I'm wondering about is a group home (I think these may be called something else in other countries but it's basically a house where several adults with varying physical and/or mental illnesses live together and there are usually various types of staff who also stay there). These can sometimes be a bit restrictive, but much less so than a hospital would be. I believe they typically have a curfew, otherwise you're allowed to leave during the day. Although I'm not sure if this would be a viable option for you (and it probably wouldn't be anyway until after the pandemic is more controlled), it's just something that popped into my head when thinking about other ways of eventually getting you away from your mom's abuse.
What you said about your mom's parenting vs. manipulation is 100% accurate. It's very common for someone who was abused by parents to go on to abuse their own children unless they put in the effort to change, but know that you still don't deserve to be abused and manipulated. It's not your fault that your mom was abused and never unlearned the negative behaviors she saw experienced as a child. You and your siblings all deserve so much better than this!
-Samantha
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OCtober #13 p.1: Extroverted OC
Finally here we are and I can talk about another one of my favourite OCs <3 That's really funny how a lot of OC I'm the most satisfied with are the ones that were created in random rp. Today's OC is Sadao, who I mentioned in chibi prompt :3
As I said it was just another random rp with Ironic when Sadao was made. He's the most obvious example of 1000% extrovert. He's loud, he's full of energy and loves meeting new people and making friends. It already became some sort of joke between me and Ironic, but when we need a minor character in some situation in rp, we just say we'll do Sadao's friend- it's like a bottomless box from which we can take as many characters as we need. He has so many friends we even devided them in few categories- close friends, friends, friends of those friends and friends of those friend's friends. Sadao still counts those people as his own friends and can at least tell what's their name and 2-3 facts about them. He has great memory for it. Also his contact list is neverending, same with his fb account.
Everytime we rp with him and his roommate (and future bf who belongs to @ironic-artist ) Itsugi, we both laugh a lot with how silly those rp can get at the least expected moment. It's all because of how different they're not only in appearance, but also background and personality. They even met because of Sadao's carefree and super understanding approach in life. His motto is "if someone's happy with their life and isn't hurting anyone, then who I am to judge them". That's why, when his best buddy decides he quits his uni major and will go to another country to become famous tattoo artist, all Sadao did was to hug him, wish him good luck and guarantee that he can ask him for help anytime. And then started to look for a new roommate... Which was Itsugi, calm, quiet and strict student from a good family who had no idea what is he getting into.
They were meant to crush, as for Itsu Sadao's irresponsible and ridiculous, and Sadao doesn't understand what's wrong with living your life the way you like to and why Itsugi stays stuck with choices he isn't happy with. They didn't understand each other at all, but Itsugi was curious how such attitude is even possible even if he didn't want to show it, and Sadao was way too optimistic and friendly to NOT try to befriend Itsu. And stuborn enough with his attempts to finally get to know his roommate better.
About appearance, Sadao was my attempt for a character who looks like a person you wouldn't like to meet in the middle of the night, but in reality is really friendly and likes to be around all sorts of people. So he was inspired by punk's subculture in his looks, so he has green mohawk, wears a lot of bright colored colors combined with black, has beloved pair of bovver boots and leather jacket and wears a lot of jewelery, mostly leather and metalic. Of course he also likes to party and once hosted a party with almost 100 people within their home. He sometimes gets too drunk, but despite his and his friends' stupid ideas he's fine. He also likes to draw and used to study architecture before he dropped out. Sometimes he experiments in kitchen for fun, but never throws out what he made even if his experiment failed.
About background, he and Itsugi were growing up in completely different enviroment. Itsugi has wealthy, but extremely controlling family who always pressured him into doing what they want, to the point of mental abuse and for some time he believed it's the way it must be.
Sadao on the other hand grew up with parents who were both severely addicted to alcohol and probably would turn the same, if not for his 6 years younger sister. He took care of her for most of his life, protecting her from their parents violent behaviour and trying to make their life as normal as he could. That's why he never really cared about school and dropped as soon as he could to work part time. In the meantime their aunt was trying to deprive their parents of their rights, but because of sluggish officials, it was taking years. When Sadao was almost adult their dillema ended in blaze, when their drunk mother set a fire by accident in the middle of the night. Then their aunt took them in, but Sadao soon moved out, prefering to keep his distance as he had hard feelings for her too, as he didn't believe she did everything she could. Later they came to good terms with each other for sake of his sister. While being on his own with his friends, during few years he completed his education and got into uni, but dropped out at the beginning of third year as he decided it's not what he truly wants. He didn't have real childhood so he finally started living so carefree after he turned 20-21 y.o. (now he's 24).
Another funny thing about their relationship is that when Itsugi started having feelings for Sadao after some time, he was in relationship already. With a girl, what didn't leave him many hopes, but suddenly lucky for Itsu, she left Sadao for someone else. Sadao had a hard time accepting it as they were together more than 2 years and he was really serious about it. It took him a lot of time to recover, and even more time for Itsu to make him question his preferences. He still jokes it's Itsu who's gay in this relationship :'D
Even later than that, after another drama in Itsu's family they decided it's enough. Sadao called his bestfriend (the one from beginning) and few days later they left the country to escape from Itsugi's abusive family. After a lot of problems and even strong crisis in their relationship, they settled down there for few years with help of Sadao's many friends. They even got married afterwards! As maybe you remember I losely inspired country they moved to after Neatherlands, especially Holland.
And then they decided that they would like to create a family they both never truly had and adopted sweet 7 y.o boy- Nathan. Happy end for now! ❤ It's the longest post I wrote, but for them it was totally worth it ✨
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Yet Another Chatfic pt 5
part 1 I 2 I 3 I 4
this is a long chapter! and im posting it ahead of schedule! bc I love yall!
please leave comments! likes! I love feedback!
Also! this chapter has a peek into sarah, finch, and alberts groupchat
Queens of New York
8:15
santagay: say yeet if you made it home alive
DJacobs: Yeet!
SJ420: yeet
richbitch: yeet
Spot8365631: yeet
respecs: yeet
albiehadalittlelamb: yeet
WhereforeArtThou: yeet
noteventhatshort: yeet
SJ420: wheres finchy boy?
littlebirdie: still at their apt
littlebirdie: oh right
littlebirdie added crispycrutch to Queens of New York
PM with albiehadalittlelamb
santagay: al, finch slept over
albiehadalittlelamb: yeah ik?
santagay: i hate to say this and be that guy, but al, he slept in crutchies room
santagay: ik whats its like to be cheated on, and i never thought i would be having this conversation about finch but I dont want you to get hurt.
albiehadalittlelamb: ill ask finch, im sure nothing happened
PM with littlebirdie
albiehadalittlelamb: did my fake bf cheat on me?
littlebirdie: …
albiehadalittlelamb: GET SOME BOIII
littlebirdie: lmao so your not mad?
albiehadalittlelamb: why would I be mad? even if we were dating id be chill about this, ik you have a huge thing for crutchie and lord knows youd never get any action from me
albiehadalittlelamb: the only problem is that jack thinks your cheating on me
littlefinch: ok so should we fake-break up? cuz i kind of dont want to, but if jack thinks im cheating on you…
albiehadlittlelamb: i have a plan
albiehadalittlelamb: does crutchie know that were fake dating?
littlebirdie: ye, theres no way i would even be allowed into his room if we were actually dating
albiehadalittlelamb: ok but heres the thing, if jack thinks you cheated on me, then race probably thinks the same
littlebirdie: oooHHHHHH
littlebirdie: so now im also fake cheating on you so that race will feel bad and fall for you and your sad situation
albiehadalittlebird: exactly!
littlebirdie: nice! what could possibly go wrong
Queens of New York
respecs: so why is this chat called queens of new york
inyourFACEtrack: well you see…
inyourFACEtrack: twas all hallows eve 2017
inyourFACEtrack: and 7 of us showed up to kaths halloween as drag queens completely independantly
noteventhatshort: and sarah kath jack and i were dressed as disney princesses
respecs: thats beautiful
respecs: and here i thought it was bc ?everyone? here is lbgtq
santagay: well if you think about it, its both
richbitch: when was the last time we even had a straight in this chat?
crispycrutch: i think we had morris in the chat for a week when he was dating romeo
santagay: oh god i forgot about that
SJ420: does he even count as a straight?
inyourFACEtrack: well there was a reason he was only in the chat for a week so…
santagay: true, speaking of which
santagay: specs, if you ever hurt romeo, we will find out where you live and steal all of you soap lest you ever get a date again
respecs: noted?
SJ420: he gave me the same threat when I started dating kath lmao
santagay: it worked didnt it?
SJ420: im hate you
santagay: you loved me once loser
WhereforeArtThou: oh shit he went there
inyourFACEtrack: oooooooooooo
crispycrutch: ??????
SJ420: once upon a time i thought i was a het, and then i dated jack for like 2 months
SJ420: and 90% of our relationship was checking out pretty girls together
SJ420: so i figured i should date those pretty girls
noteventhatshort: BIG MOOD
SJ420: for the record the other 10% of the relationship was jack checking out “cute” boys and me being like eh
santagay: and herre i thought you were just trying to stop me from being jealous
SJ420: jack at one point i kissed another girl in front of you and you did not care
noteventhatshort: AHHH
inyourFACEtrack: OOOF
richbitch: AN ICON
santagay: ok well
SJ420: don’t even try bud
DJacobs: That’s my sister!!!!!
santagay: but at least you didnt hide it
santagay: at least you werent kissing people behind my back like SOME people in this chat
SJ420: ????
Spot8365631: i thought you were over that
santagay: i am i just need to have moral high ground over someone
inyourFACEtrack: wait what
noteventhatshort: is this chat just stories of jack getting cheated on now?
richbitch: im living for this
richbitch: jack cant keep a man nor woman
noteventhatshort: but whats this about spot cheating on jack?
santagay: he BROKE my FRAGILE 15 y/o HEART
santagay: but spottie was too cool, lived too fast, couldnt be tied down to one man
Spot8365631: also david was a much better kisser
SJ420: OH SHIT PLOT TWIST
richbitch: CALLED OUT
inyourFACEtrack: 911? theres been a murder?
DJacobs: This…. is true.
inyourFACEtrack: THE LEGEND HIMSELF SPEAKS
respecs: i am living for the drama in this chat
crispycrutch: were kind of a mess tbh
respecs: i understand and completely respect that
inyourFACEtrack: you reSPECt that?
respecs: haha very funny not like thats my goddamn username or anything
Spot8365631: roasted
inyourFACEtrack: bitch
inyourFACEtrack: YO JACK ROMEO, GOT MY MFN 29TH
santagay: fuck offfffff
WhereforeArtThou: this bet is unfair
WhereforeArtThou: im only attracted to one gender, thats less than half the people to ask
santagay: dude ur still winning
WhereforeArtThou: yeah but its a lot more work
inyourFACEtrack: i only have 1 girls number, i think its p even
santagay: this seems like something you should have considered when we started
WhereforeArtThou: ok but consider this
WhereforeArtThou: i didnt
inyourFACEtrack: ok but consider this
inyourFACEtrack: ur a dumbass
WhereforeArtThou: strong words coming from a guy who threw a wii remote out the window
noteventhatshort: fight fight fight fight
inyourFACEtrack: my embarrassments are not ur entertainment smalls
noteventhatshort: ur embarrassments are my only entertainment what r u talking about
Spot8365631: also everything you do is embarrassing
inyouFACEtrack: i feel betrayed
santagay: you should
santagay: i once saw u put hot chocolate mix in oj
inyourFACEtrack: it tastes like a terrys chocolate orange i stand by my choices
crispycrutch: you snorted mr noodles seasoning bc spot told you to
inyourFACEtrack: and i got 20$ for it
Spot8365631: u didnt “””get”””” 20$ ur debt to me was just slightly reduced
inyourFACEtrack: EITHER WAY
crispycrutch: once i watched u drop a spoon into a pot of boiling water and stick ur hand in to get it
inyourFACEtrack: i think ur point has been made, thnk u crutchie
Spot8365631: please do not stop, hes had it coming
crispycrutch: i will stop only bc i value my safety and so i still have receipts for the future
inyourFACEtrack: oh god
inyourFACEtrack: why did i think it was a good idea to live with you
crispycrutch: bc you love me and i contribute to the rent
inyourFACEtrack: touche
crispycrutch: besides, i would have dirt on you regardless
crispycrutch: i have seen each and every one of you do stupid stuff, no one is safe
inyourFACEtrack: mooooom crutchies being meannnn
DJacobs: Crutchie, please delete your blackmail.
crispycrutch: how can i delete it when its in my brain
santagay: i have never been more scared of crutchie
SJ420: crutchie is my idol
crispycrutch: that does not make you safe my friend
SJ420: honestly at this point you could reveal anything about me and i would not care
SJ420: i have reached a god status where nothing you say could possibly embarrass me
richbitch: im so in love with you
SJ420: love you too babe
PM with SJ420
richbitch: ik youre in the next room but i dont want dave to hear, but I got a dinner reservation for two tomorrow at 7 and was wondering if you would like to join me
SJ420: i mean of course, but why are you asking me like this
richbitch: because
richbitch: also you should wear that dress you got for christmas
SJ420: ok?
More Than Just Cigars
SJ420: kath is acting weird
albiehadalittlelamb: what kind of weird
albiehadalittlelamb: like “i just lost a lot of money” weird
albiehadalittlelamb: “i just took a bunch of acid” weird?
littlebirdie: oh no is it “i just slept with jack” weird?!
SJ420: oh god no
SJ420: she texted me and asked me on a date
SJ420: i asked her why and she said because
littlebirdie: !!!!!!!!!
littlebirdie: DID SHE ASK YOU TO WEAR SOMETHING SPECIFIC
SJ420: ye, a dress from christmas
albiehadalittlelamb: OH MYYYYY GODDDDDDDD
littlebirdie: GIRL
SJ420: what????
littlebirdie: jfc ur blind
albiehadalittlelamb: if u havent caught on yet we cant morally help u srry
SJ420: GUYS PLEASE
littlebirdie: nope
albiehadalittlelamb: have fun on ur date tho
PM with santagay
albiehadalittlelamb: oh yeah finch did not, in fact cheat on me
albiehadalittlelamb: he was just making up with crutchie last night, they had a fight
santagay: and u trust finch in this
albiehadalittlelamb: ofc, ive known finch a long time, he would never
santagay: ok if you insist, i just dont want you to get hurt
albiehadalittlelamb: thanks jack
Queens of New York
littlebirdie: anyone else just, super glad that theyre gay?
littlebirdie: bc thats such an important feeling
DJacobs: Me too, Finch
Spot8365631: rt
SJ420: rt
noteventhatshort: rt
WhereforeArtThou: rt
albiehadalittlelamb: rt
santagay: rt but bi
inyourFACEtrack: rt but bi
richbitch: rt but bi
respecs: rt but bi
crispycrutch: rt but pan
littlebirdie has changed Queens of New York to Queers of New York
inyourFACEtrack: helllllll yeah
Spot8365631: no cussing, my mom checks my phone
inyourFACEtrack: oh my goodness im so sorry spot
inyourFACEtrack: ill delete the message right away
DJacobs: What?
DJacobs: Why does your mom check your messages, Spot?
DJacobs: You’re 23 and moved out?
DJacobs: Also I’m pretty sure I’ve seen you swear in this chat.
DJacobs: This is a meme, isn’t it?
santagay: u got there on ur own!
santagay: im so proud of u!
DJacobs: Thank you, Jack.
inyourFACEtrack: why does it feel like everyone is in loving and healthy relationships except me?
PM with inyourFACEtrack
Spot8365631: wow rude
inyourFACEtrack: were not in a relationship remember?
Queers of New York
DJacobs: Jack and I are not dating.
santagay: dude, were mom and dad, i think that’s close enough
respecs: question, in this mom/dad thing, who is everyone else
santagay: kath and sarah are the aunts obvi
inyourFACEtrack: smalls, romeo, crutchie, al, and i are their kids
inyourFACEtrack: finch used to be one of the kids but now hes dating al so that seems weird
inyourFACEtrack: i guess hes sarahs kid now?
SJ420: awwww i love my new son
respecs: what about spot?
santagay: hes kind of… his own entity… like an estranged uncle or neighbor that spends more time in ur house than his own
Spot8365631: rude but accurate
santagay: thats my name dont wear it out
Spot8365631: i hate you sm
santagay: then y r u always in my house???
Spot8365631: this metaphor has gone to far. blocked deleted and unfollowed.
santagay: honestly? thats fair
santagay: i respect ur choices
Spot8365631: sounds fake but ok
PM with Spot8365631
inyourFACEtrack: in a beautiful twist of fate, crutchie jack are going to see a movie with davey and kath, and im home alone with a meat lovers pizza on its way
Spot8365631: ok?
inyourFACEtrack: would you care to join me?
Spot8365631: no, sounds too much like a date, and were not in a relationship right?
inyourFACEtrack: dude, were friends, sharing a pizza, and maybe having anal sex
inyourFACEtrack: thats not a date its just what we do
Spot8365631: still no, i have to finish a foreign policy essay for tomorrow
inyourFACEtrack: oh ok
#im so excited for the next chapter!#yet another chatfic#newsies#romeo newsies#specs newsies#finch newsies#jack kelly#david jacobs#sarah jacobs#javid#racetrack higgins#sprace#crutchie morris#albert dasilva#smalls newsies#katherine plumber#katherine pulitzer#newsbians#spot conlon#newsies fic
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Betrayal
I’m pretty sure everyone has been betrayed once or twice in their lives. I’m about to tell you about the time my back was stabbed so deep they are still healing almost a year and a half later. The date is early August of 2020,my life was already in a spiral as I had started drinking and trying more drugs. But this day was the last straw. It was my birth day and the only thing I wanted was to be alone but my mom wanted to throw me a party and have pie. I had begun drinking a bit around 2 and my mom took me and my friend at the time for a ride and when we get back I start to go into the house when i hear a voice the sent shivers down my spine “ Happy Birthday” said my ex. I was completely stunned because 1 I had told him not to come back or I would pepper spray him and I had also told my sister not to bring him back to the house. You might be as confused as I was at the time, yes my sister was still friends with my ex because he was living with her bf. This is the same sister I had confided in about his abuse and she was still buddy buddy with him. FUCKING DISCUSTING. I had confronted him and asked him why he was there, had talked to my other ex about me and why he would come back if I had previously threatened him. All valid questions if i say so myself. Anyway He got defensive and told me he could talk shit about me if he wanted to so SURPRISE I pepper sprayed the bitch. Of course he retaliated like anyone would if it felt like hot lava was pored on their face but instead of running to rinse his ugly face off the fucker bit my finger with his fucked up teeth leaving a comical crooked scar on my middle finger and punched me a few times then decided to leave (eye roll) as I’m washing my face off I my sister why she brought his stupid ass back here on my birthday to my birthday party on my birthday. And of course like always a stranger is prioritized over family and she just calls me a whore and tells me to stop “using people”. One this had nothing to do with my question and Two hes not the person I “used” he used me dumb ass. we didn’t talk for months after this, living in a house with a person who you know dose not care about you is hard but what ever. We are okay now but i can honestly say I have grown to hate my own family. Starting with my mother and sadly ended with my sisters. After this incident I stopped talking to all of my friends, developed major anxiety and have since never trusted anyone I talk to. I have also started to sabotage all of my relationships. I tell this story to not receive pity but only to vent and hopefully heal though therapy ( while trying not to get committed to the loony bin) if I can afford it in the future or though mushrooms trips which i have done once and it has already convinced me to notice everyone has trauma they are trying to work though. Thank you for reading.
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All of them. All 100. Do it. I dare you.
aha, I’ve missed when we’ve done this, good friend. *cracks knuckles*
1 - Who was the last person you texted?
my boss
2 - When is your birthday?
may 9th
3 - Who do you want to be with right now?
my crush
4 - What sports do you play?
does internet surfing count?
5 - Who is the first person in your contacts?
one of my aunts
6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment?
Fixation by Emma Blackery
7 - If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with?
my crush *wiggles eyebrows* ;)
8 - What do you feel right now?
numb
9 - What chocolate is your favorite?
ALL THE CHOCOLATE
10 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have?
none, and I’ve never had a real one
11 - Why did you create a Tumblr account?
wanted a place to put things I couldn’t tell/show my parents
12 - Who is your favorite blogger?
the bitch who asked me this, @greenmooneyes
13 - Where do you want to be right now?
with my crush, where else?
14 - What do you want to be in the future?
in a stable, comfortable situation
15 - When was the last time you cried? Why?
sometime in the last few days, I was pissed at my parents for something they do a lot
16 - Are you happy?
50% of the time
17 - Who do you miss?
my family who live on the other side of the country, and the bitch who sent this ask
18 - If you were given a chance, would you like to have a different life?
no, every life has its struggles, so I’d rather deal with the ones in this life since I know best how to deal with them
19 - What was the best thing you were given?
friendship
20 - Who was the last person who called you?
my grandfather
21 - What is your favorite dish?
don’t have one, but I LOVE comfort food
22 - Who is your bestfriend?
the bitch who asked this (I already tagged her above)
23 - What is your biggest regret?
don’t have any
24 - Have you ever cheated on your partner?
nope, and I hope I never will (can’t say I won’t cause you never know what’ll happen)
25 - Who do you spend crazy moments with?
myself. I’m usually by myself
26 - Name someone pretty.
@roseyygf I think she’s very pretty
27 - Who was the last person you hugged?
my brother
28 - What kind of music do you listen to?
various kinds, can’t pin one down
29 - Are you over your past?
mostly, the only thing that I can’t get over is my abusive birth-mother and how she has treated me and my sister all our lives
30 - Who is the last person in your contacts?
My uncle
31 - What kind of person do you want to date?
my crush, who else?
In seriousness, someone who is kind, funny, caring, respects me, and likes most of the same things I do. (My crush fits this soooo well, but has a girlfriend.)
32 - Do you have troubles sleeping at night?
Yes. Especially when I could be looking at dank memes instead of trying to sleep.
33 - From whom was the last text message you received?
My boss
34 - What do you prefer, jeans or skirt?
J E A N S!!!!!
35 - How’s your heart?
hurting, but fine
36 - Did you ever have a girlfriend/boyfriend whose name starts with a “J”?
somewhat, I had a bf who did, but I don’t think that relationship counts as a real one for reasons I’d rather not discuss.
37 - Do you like someone as of the moment?
YESSSSSS! (and they are all I want to talk about lately. I’m even annoying myself)
38 - What would you want to say to your latest ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend?
Hey, why did we have a fake relationship? We were better as friends, and you hated me after we faked a relationship to get your sister to shut up, but never said why.
39 - Do you have any phobias?
fear of holes (can’t remember the specific word)
40 - Did you try to change for a person?
yes, sort of. The only time I change for a person is when I hurt them in some way, so I change so I never hurt anyone else in that way again
41 - What’s the nicest thing have you given to someone?
I have no clue
42 - Would you go back to your previous relationship?
Nope! All my previous relationships were fake or not real relationships. Like, either pretending to be a couple, or we were a couple but certain reasons make it a not real relationship.
43 - Are you in a good or bad mood?
neutral
44 - Name someone you can’t live without.
The bitch who sent this ask
45 - Describe your dream date.
being on a date with my crush
46 - Describe your dream wedding.
who said I wanted to get married?
If I did, it would be outside, in winter while it’s snowing
47 - How many roses did you receive last Valentine’s?
none, no one sends me valentine’s shit (except my best friend [see above])
48 - Have you ever been kissed?
not a “real tongue kiss”, but one without tongue, yes, and that was only for a fake relationship to make it seem like it was real
49 - How long is your longest relationship?
two weeks
50 - Do you regret your past?
nope
51 - Can you do something stupid for someone else?
depends on what I’m doing, why I’m doing it, and who I’m doing it for
52 - Have you ever cried over someone?
yup, the first girl I loved. I cried because I emotionally hurt her without realizing, and I felt like a piece of shit for what I did
53 - Do you have a grudge against anyone?
birth-mother, no one else
54 - Are you a crybaby?
according to my parents yes, but most of the time, no
55 - Do people praise you for your looks?
not really, I’m mostly praised for ‘how smart I am’
56 - Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t?
yes, only reason I shouldn’t have is cause she was straight, and I knew it.
57 - Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret?
yes, hurting the girl I loved. I regretted it for years until I accepted that I did a horrible thing, that I learned from it, and just got sick and tired of crying myself to sleep over what I did. I shouldn’t have done that, but I got sick of regretting something years after it happened.
58 - Do you like getting hurt?
physically, in certain ways, yes ;)
59 - Does anyone hate you?
probably
60 - Did you slap anyone whose name starts with an “R”?
myself, yes, when I need to focus but can’t (happens frequently). other than that, no
61 - What hair color do you prefer?
I have no preference
62 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it?
being able to analyze my words and actions better so I don’t hurt anyone ever again
63 - Do you love someone as of the moment?
no, I do have a crush though
64 - Have you ever thought of killing yourself?
I used to, but not anymore.
65 - Do you have issues with somebody in your school?
no
66 - Can you live without internet?
yes
67 - What’s the song that remind you of your special someone?
Fixation by Emma Blackery, Helpless from Hamilton, Satisfied from Hamilton, Would You Be So Kind by Dodie Clark, Absolutely Smitten by Dodie Clark
68 - Are you good at holding back your tears?
extremely, it’s scary
69 - Are you a crybaby?
you already asked this
70 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical?
no
71 - Are you a KPOP fan?
not really, but I have yet to check it out
72 - Do you study hard?
yes ;)
in seriousness, only when an assignment is due
73 - Have you ever sacrificed something important to you for someone you love?
no
74 - Did you ever had a kiss under the moonlight?
no
also, *have you ever had a kiss, or, *did you ever have a kiss (I copied this directly from the post)
75 - Have you ever ridden a boat?
yes
76 - Did you have an accident last year?
no
77 - What kind of person are you?
hmm, honest, don’t give a fuck what people think about me, happy being single, happy being just friends with my crush, 50% happy
78 - Have you ever thought of killing someone?
yes, but even when I thought about it, and still to this day, would never do it.
79 - Have you ever been jealous?
yes
80 - How can you prove your love to someone?
no idea
81 - What are you thinking right now?
why did I listen to this bitch and answer every one of these questions? my fingers hurt
82 - Who is the 6th person in your contacts?
my step mom
83 - Do you have any memories you want to erase?
yes, but I shouldn’t erase them because they helped me learn shit
84 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel?
yes
85 - Did you ever badmouth someone?
I have, but I’ve been trying to stop doing that, no matter what the person has done to me
86 - Have you ever had an argument with someone?
yes, I start arguments with my best friend [see above] on purpose
87 - Do you have trust issues?
somewhat
88 - Are you broken-hearted?
no, I repaired my broken heart years ago
89 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”?
my crush, ONLY CAUSE 3 PEOPLE HAVE TRIED TELLING ME I’M IN LOVE WITH THEM WHEN IT’S JUST A CRUSH
90 - Do you think all the pain is worth it?
yes
91 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”?
yes
92 - Who do you want to marry?
who said I want to get married?
93 - Do you believe in destiny?
somewhat
94 - Have you ever thought “I already found my soulmate”?
no
95 - How do you look right now?
awesome
96 - Do you believe that first true love never dies?
no, love can die, love can come in phases, love is fucking weird as hell
97 - Have you found your true love?
no
98 - What should you be doing right now?
watching YouTube, BUT SOMEONE SENT THIS ASK
99 - Name one of your ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends.
Jeremy, if that even counted as a relationship
100 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough?
all the damn time.
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Would you consider yourself a good flirt?
What do you like better about yourself: your boobs or butt?
neither?
Have you ever been homeless?
not yet :x
Have you ever been to a palm reader? If so, what did they say?
nah, I can learn myself
What’s your bra size?
*shrug*
Is there anybody that you’re glad that they aren’t in your lives anymore?
could say so
Has anybody ever fought somebody for you?
verbally
What color do you wear most often?
not sure
Are you more likely to take the blame, or blame somebody else?
I blame myself even when I blame somebody else lol
Do you like your hair?
wouldn’t say so
Do you find it irritating when people don’t trust you?
why would they trust me or anybody actually?
Would you consider yourself a busy person?
as for a person who doesn’t do anything in particular...
Do you hate your phone?
sometimes it annoys me but it’s fine
What was the reason for your last hospital visit?
I’ve been to ER because of allergy
Have you ever driven while under the influence?
I don’t drive nor drink so...
Describe the earrings you’re wearing, if any.
my ears aren’t pierced but if they were I would wear tiny hoops or some weird shit like this spider I bought for John and never gave her
Do you know anybody who is studying abroad?
used to know some ppl who did
How well can you swim?
I can’t
What aren’t you going to miss about summer?
mosquitos
Have you ever been kayaking before?
no and don’t wanna
Do you ever wish you could go back in time?
it’s complicated
Can you reach your back with your arms?
not some parts
What is your zodiac sign?
Aquarius is my sun sign but Capricorn is my dominant sign
Have you ever played Pac-Man?
I don’t recall
What is something that you lack?
where should I start...
Have you ever been told that you have a nice boobs?
my gf likes them
When’s the last time you ate a Tic-Tac?
ages ago and don’t miss them, completele forgot they exist
Do you own any knick knacks?
shitload
Have you ever said that something is “whack”?
doubt it
When’s the last time you felt attacked?
today
Do you crack your knuckles? Any other parts of your body?
omg no, I hate it!
What’s the last thing you had to make a stack of?
pile of clothes?
Is it hard for you to keep track of things?
hmm...
What’s the last thing you accidentally whacked a body part on?
not sure what part of my body I banged last
What does your most recent backpack look like?
recently used or bought?
Have you ever crawled through a window?
I think so
Is there anything in your past that you’d like to try again?
sigh...
Who was the last person to come to your house?
Gosia visited me yesterday to pee XD
Do you like winter time?
nooooo
Who do you not get along with?
majority of society
Have you ever been around someone who was high?
yup
Do you like where you live?
meh
Are you a jealous person?
might be
Do you wish someone would call you?
absolutely not, I dread phonecalls, unless hospital then only if they have good news
Wouldn’t it be cool to be able to read minds?
not all the time like Buffy had because I would go crazy
Do people ever spell your name wrong?
they spell and write my surname wrong and sometimes they use different names than I have like Zosia or Kamila wtf
Is there anyone you want to fix things with?
...
Why do you do these surveys?
why not? it’s fun
Where did you last go outside you’re house?
second hand and local food store to buy bread
What is the point of violence?
depends
Do you like horror movies better or comedy?
black comedy :P
You could move somewhere else, would you?
yes
Do you like calling or texting better?
texting
Night out or night in?
in
Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
definitely not on my back
Whens the next time you will see the person you like?
we planned to meet today but we’ll see
How do you look right now?
not as bad as I feel
What do you think of when you hear the word “meow”?
my gf
where do you see yourself in 5 years?
dead
who is the first guy that pops in your head?
my father
have you ever read the book “the perks of being a wallflower”?
watched a movie, it was nice
do you get dessert normally while out to eat?
nope
have you ever let a door slam on someones face on purpose?
whaaaat?!
who was your first kiss?
my current partner
is there somewhere you’re meant to be right now?
not really, nah
name one childhood memory.
personal
where is your childhood best friend now?
dunno
have you moved in the past 2 years?
I never moved in my entire life
how many rooms are in your house?
3
can you see anything red at this moment?
hand mirror
do you look at the keyboard when you type?
when I start typing
have you ever dated someone to get someone else jealous?
umm...
have you ever been used; and then tossed to the side?
more than once
if you look to your left do you see a window?
I do indeed
Where do you want to live when you are older?:
my own apartment
When was the last time you were sick?:
I’m chronically ill, does that count?
What is the relationship between you and the last person you kissed?:
we’re in a relationship
Name something you disliked about the day you had today?:
my body is itchy, I have period, my plans got ruined, I’m anxious, it’s cold and my dad isn’t home so I miss him, I regret spending money etc etc etc
Have you had your birthday this year yet?:
yeah
Would you ever tell your mom about the things you’ve done sexually?:
not in details :x
Who was the last person you talked to last night in person before bed?:
parent
Do you have clothes that belong to other people?:
I don’t borrow clothes
If you have siblings, which one of you is going to be married first?:
my sister is already married
What would you name your future daughter?:
I’m not having children but I have a whole list of my fav names :D
Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a bed?:
I have
Angry at anyone?:
just a tiny bit
Is there anyone you would do anything for?:
not everything but a lot
Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?:
yep
Is it hard to make you laugh?:
to some, it also depends on the moment
Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again?:
pfft
Is it okay to kiss people when you’re single?:
*shrug*
Where is the person you last kissed at this moment?:
doing her hair
Would you rather pierce your tongue or lip?:
lip
Next time you will kiss someone?:
today?
Something’s wrong. First person you go to?:
parents?
Do you hate it when people smoke around you?:
usually, most often
Have you ever broken someone’s heart?:
it seems
Ever gotten yourself into a confusing situation?:
that’s life
Do you have an attitude?:
I guess
Do you know anybody whose last name is a color?:
nope
Would you kiss someone to make your ex bf/gf mad?:
I’m not single now but if I wasn’t...
How was last night?:
not good enough
Have you ever dyed your hair?:
blue (grey), green, black, red
When someone says “we need to talk,” what runs through your mind?:
oh shit oh damn oh fuck I’m screwed what’s going on - so anxious!
Do you know anyone that smokes weed?:
used to know
Are your parents still together?:
they are
What are you wearing on your feet?:
socks and raccoon slippers
Is it awkward when you run into your ex?:
would be not only awkward
Who do you blame for your bad mood today?:
myself, God, my mom, my gf, maybe even president
Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?:
not yet
Do you remember names or faces better?:
neither
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/ girlfriend drinks?:
kinda
Waiting for something?:
more than one thing
You find out your ex is having a kid with someone you say?:
stupid, gross
When’s the last time you were surprised?
positively or negatively?
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
water
Your mom finds used condoms in your room, you tell her?
-
Do you find smoking unattractive?
the smell and taste and the fact it’s unhealthy and expensive habit
If you were granted one wish, what would you wish for?
health for all, forever, not saying about injuries but diseases
Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
100%
Whose bed were you on last?
mine duh
When was the last time you changed in front of someone?
this day
Last person you kissed, have you cried in front of them?
3 times and counting :x
Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
grrr
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
whatever
Do you believe exes can really ever be “just friends”?
there’s a tiny possibility of that
Your ex wants you back?
that’s why we’re together
Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
1 person
Ever dated someone cute with crappy personality?
sadly
Do you want your ex to be happy, even if it means not being with you?
I said that
What would happen if you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
that would be a miracle as we’re both women
Would you prefer a kiss on the cheek or neck?
neck
Would it hurt seeing the person you last kissed kissing someone else?
that would be also disgusting
Do you have a member of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
dad
Has the last person you kissed, met your family?
she knew my father but yesterday met my mom as well
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
my gf
You’re insanely drunk stumbling through the streets, slurring songs, who are you with?
someone who made me drunk and will pay for it
Do you like to cuddle?
when in the mood for that
Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you?
not everything unless I was dying or smth
Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?
and I regret that
Is there someone you used to talk to every day that you don’t talk to at all?
bunch of ppl
Can you have more than one best friend?
yas
Are you starting to realize anything?
this question bothers me somehow
Do you hate it when people mispronounce your name?
I’m used to it even tho it doesn’t happen that often
Think back to your most important relationship, was it all your fault it ended?
it is still going on
Do you think blondes are stupid, honestly?
that ask, really?
Can you get over people easily?
yes and no
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
second hand, it was in children’s section, whoops I have no boobs nor weight nor height
So, what do you want for your birthday?
Jughead’s hat
If the last person you kissed tried to kiss you again, would you start kissing?
obvi
Did you sleep alone last night?
I did
Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?
NO
Is there anyone who doesn’t like you because of something you didn’t do?
many ppl
Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?
I have
How was your weekend?
emotional?
Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
sober
Do you think that you’re a good person?
am not, I wish I was better
If you could seek revenge on someone would you?
I’m not a revengeful person but I laugh when someone I don’t like is punished by life, sorry not sorry?
Do you like your best friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend?
my mom or myself?
Ever been called heartless?
smth similar
Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?
if they’re gay or family members
Are you able to get people to believe you when you are lying?
I’m good at lying but I don’t like to lie
How many more minutes until you will next eat?
soon
Do you have to go to school and/or work today?
no job and graduated
Have you read all of the Harry Potter books?
not interested
Would you rather no heat in winter or no A/C in the summer?
no A/C in the summer is way better
Do you do your own laundry?
my mom helps me
Have you ever read an entire book in one sitting?
like twice
Have you ever seen your favorite band live?
only Ania Rusowicz
Do you drink water or soda more often?
water, I don’t drink soda at all
Do you like cats?
they’re cool but don’t want to own one
Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with M?
my gf’s name starts with M :)
If forced to be one, would you rather be bulimic or anorexic?
excuse me?... anorexic tho as I hate puking
Wasn’t Heath Ledger the best Joker there ever was?
Nicholson was and I didn’t watch the last Joker movie yet with Phoenix
If you found out your friend was smoking weed, would you be disappointed?
mhm
Do you find that people don’t really understand you?
most of them, most of the time
Do you like the ocean?
nah
Have you ever done something that you knew was wrong?
I’m never sure?
Are you listening to music currently?
am not
Do you read and believe your horoscope?
for fun ;) but once in a long time
Does the news depress you?
that’s why I avoid it
Can you resist temptation?
more than most ppl I know
What do/did you normally get detentions for?
other’s fault
Does your alarm clock actually awaken you?
it didn’t today, my mom’s voice did when she came to inform me my alarm is yapping huehue
Ever think you might have seen a UFO?
with my dad
Do you know anyone who DOESN’T have a cell phone?
my niece because she’s 2
Have you bought any CDs recently?
too expensive and I have yt and spotify so why would I?
Do you type fast?
very, I was best in school :3
How long are you usually in the shower for?
half an hour
Do you know anyone who has their eyebrow pierced?
I don’t
What was the last movie you watched?
again or for the first time?
When is your birthday?
1st Feb
When did you last talk to your brother or sister?
day ago
Have you done anything sexual in the past 12 hours?
romantic
Did the last person you kiss have a tattoo?
she doesn’t have one
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
I thought so
What color are your eyes?
hazel?
Do you enjoy going through a car wash?
never been so no idea
Ever called a person useless?
I don’t think so
Is there someone you wish you were still close with?
grandma
Did the last person you kiss have piercings?
ears only
Do you like the snow?
hate, only snowmen are nice but not Olaf from Frozen
Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
usually, obviously
Was the last person you kissed cute?
was
Have you ever been in trouble for something you honestly didn’t do?
so many times
When you trip, do you get embarrassed or just play it off?
embarassed af
Would you consider yourself spoiled?
in a way?
Let’s test your memory, what color shirt were you wearing during your last kiss?
white
Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
noooo
Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
not currently but in general we talk
How long does it take you to fall asleep at night?
too long, like 2 hours
What would your name be with just the first three letters?
Zuz - cute
Where did you sleep last night?
my own bed
Who was the last person to be in your bedroom besides you?
family member
Does anyone disgust you?
some at all times, some during certain situations
What do you tend to drink a lot of?
water
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DO YOUR WORST
tagged by @lunasghost , thank you sweetheart!
tagging this as long post so those who don’t enjoy big blocks of text can skip over my rambles xx
1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? for sure
2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? in a relationship!
3: What if I told you that you were pretty? I would probably have a stupid ass grin and thank you!!
4: Ever been told it’s not me it’s you? nope, even though I’ve only been the dumpee lmfao
5: Are you interested in anyone right now? I’m interested in Ezra Miller tbh
6: What are you looking forward to in the next week? going clubbing for my friend’s 20th! I haven’t seen my group of friends for a while so it’ll be lit
7: Do you want to be single? I do enjoy being by myself but I’m happy with my partner :)
8: Did you go out or stay in last night? Stayed in! had work today and was tired as HELL
9: How late did you stay up last night? It was definitely after midnight because i couldn’t sleep and was upset because I had a long day ahead of me
10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? A few months ago after getting to know a friend a lot better!
11: Last three things you had to drink? water, frappe and powerade
12: Have you pretended to like someone? For the sake of remaining professional, yes. Gotta do what u gotta do henny!!!
13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? I don’t think so
14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? Yea today lol
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? I haven’t had to in a while but I think after maturing emotionally over the last few years, I’d be a lot better :-)
16: Think back five months ago, were you single? no ma’am
17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? working
18: Hold hands with anyone this week? yea
19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? I think I could
20: What would you name your future daughter? I have several names I love, like Sabrina, Lyra, Mei, Penny. I love cute names for any gender!! Mei especially as I love the younger sister from Totoro :))
21: Do you miss anyone? I do! I miss my friends that live far away
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? Nope
23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? Nope
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? Nope! such an emotional ass binch!!! heart on the sleeve CONSTANTLY!!!!
25: Have you ever cried from being so mad? YES FUUUCK AND I SHAKE
26: Who did you last see in person? my bf
27: Are you listening to music right now? nah
28: What is something you currently want right now? gay marriage to be legalised in australia am i right ladies and gentlemen and people
29: What is the last thing you said out loud? "What the fuck, I look so good” (i hate mySELF) (SELF CARE IS ESSENTIAL)
30: How is your heart lately? I had mcdonalds yesterday so probably Bad
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? I only find myself wearing it when it rains
32: Are you wearing socks? nah
33: What do people call you? Talisa, T, my dad calls me mole and my bf calls me bug
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? yeah uuuuuuh beinbg awake
36: Who did you last share a bed with? bf
37: Did you do something bad today? I went on my phone at work, lock me up
38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? Yesterday i think
39: Do you get stressed out easily? yah lol
41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? yea
42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? My mum usually. we talk on the phone every day ! love ha
43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? not in an ambulance!
44: What are you listening to right now? The fan boi iss hot
45: What is wrong with you right now? my posture is awful
46: What is on your wrists right now? Nothin
47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? the bikini kill website :-)))
48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? Hot chocolate!!!!
49: Do you make wishes at 11:11? yee whenever i catch it on time. my dreamy ass fuggin.......
50: Are you a good artist? follw my art insta @artoftalisa and make ya own decision
52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? No the fuck i don’t
53: Ever been on a golf cart? yeah hahaha my grandma lives in an elder’s village adjacent to a holiday park so me and my brother have torn shit up in a golf cart
54: Do you have trust issues? not usually
56: Do you own something from Hot Topic? nope but i own shit from jay jay’s which is p much the australian equivalent lmao
57: Do you use chap stick? only in winter when my white ass lips get chapped
58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face? once i hit my brother with a wiimote when he kept beating me in mario and sonic at the olympic games when we were kids
59: Do you have a little sister? No
60: Have you ever been to New York? no fml
61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? yea
62: Have you hugged someone within the last week? Yeppp
63: What were you doing at midnight last night? tryna fucjin sleep
64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? UH YES
65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? absolutely
66: Were your last three kisses from the same person? YEAh my bf
67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? YEah my bf
68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? idm either
69: Will next Friday be a good one? HOPE SOOO
I’m gonna tag @even-lovers-drown @sokkas-haiku @hogwartsismywonderland
SORRY LOL
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... The more I sit here and am allowed to think, the more pissed off and upset I get
Rant blog status reinstated!
So firstly, I’m not happy about getting kicked off campus. But social distancing shit, whatever I guess, whatcha gonna do.
But no. My fucking mother takes the goddamned fucking cake rn.
We got the email about being kicked off around 4 pm eastern time, Monday. My mother. This fucking woman. Calls me and insists I pack my stuff and get off campus by Tuesday morning. Packing is normally at least a few days ordeal, especially since I hate packing and it always stresses me out a bunch. But done in little spurts, okay I guess, more doable.
But noooo I have to get out by Tuesday. Fucking. Morning. And this woman actually has the gall, the fucking gall to halfheartedly suggest I start out Monday evening since I’ve gone nocturnal.
I tried to tell her there’s no fucking way, but she wouldn’t fucking listen. So she hangs up, and I go down the hall bc I desperately need a hug by this point, and she’s a sweetheart but the only roommate available is a gangly skinny girl and not the type of hugs I need. (really, boyfriend would be ideal, but at the time he was in Colorado visiting his sister). And I end up breaking down on huggin friend’s couch bc I hate packing, and I don’t feel like I can pack up a year’s worth of shit in about 12 hours.
Mom eventually calls me again, mostly just to tell me “yeah you need to pack up and get back tonight, your roommate can grab the 1-2 bins remaining.” And she refuses to listen to me saying “hey, it’s a solid 2 loads in my car, it’s not gonna be 1-2 bins”
“But it fit all in your first car!”
“My first car was a fuckin beast, literally the largest car in the lot freshman year. Fred is definitely shorter, definitely less trunk space, etc.”
“Well Y can get the last few bins.”
“It’s a lot of stuff!”
“It won’t be that much”
JUST FUCKING LISTEN YOU PIECE OF SHIT FFS
I was so stressed and crying that huggin friend stole my phone when I was texting my boyfriend, and had him call me so I could maybe stop crying. I miss my boy. Hearing him was good tho.
I’m packing up my stuff in the bathroom when I remember. I store my empty bins at my brother’s place (2 hrs north). I double check with him and call my mom back
“I can’t leave tomorrow. It’s too much to pack, and some of my bins are at Brother’s.”
Despite all this, despite me literally breaking down and crying on the phone, she refuses to listen, to give me an extra day, to bring half my stuff up to my brother’s (and therefore eliminate most of the need to have my roommate take my stuff) and grab my extra bins. Nope, gotta get out.
I was staring at my room, halfheartedly packing and trying to figure out, and just sobbing out loud. I thought remaining roommate was gone at dinner, otherwise I would have tried to be quiet. But she had gotten back without me noticing, and when she poked her head in, I couldn’t do it anymore and just kinda. Fell to the ground crying and apologizing. She’s a such a sweetheart and I feel bad for probably worrying her (and possibly waking her up in the middle of the night with packing noises)
I texted my roommate about this. She basically said, “Wtf, what she’s asking isn’t possible.”
Same thing from my boyfriend.
My mom kept texting me, asking how things were going, basically ignoring my subtle requests for more fucking time. At one point she said “Hang in there”. I sent a screenshot of that to my roommate and boyfriend and asked, “Is murder acceptable?” Roommate said a solid yes. Boyfriend offered to let me live with him. (cept 2 hour parking and I already got one ticket from that :P)
Mom texted around 10 pm, asking if things were fitting in the car. I wasn’t even remotely to the point of packing the car. I was basically at break number 2 of mandatory “sit down, have something to eat, and rehydrate after crying so damn much”. I think I had one bin completely done (out of what ended up being like. 6 bins? plus assorted bags n stuff) and was mostly done packing my clothes, but like. slow going. Especially when packing is stressful and you keep getting overwhelmed woot woot
I put off a fair number of things bc of panicking about time and simple emotional capability to do so. Sorting out my dishes, unlofting my bed, grabbing my band shit from the music hall across campus.
At some point in the night, I had to lay down, because my body decided “hey, you know what would be great right now? Period cramps, minus the blood.” Which, thank fuck minus the blood, but also it meant I had to spend a solid half hour/hour out of commission bc it hurt so damn much to walk around and try to pack. But I had to keep going, even though the pain came back when I stood up again.
Mom texted me at 7 am if I’m awake. I hadn’t slept.
We have housekeepers, and they got there around when I was finishing loading up. I stopped and chatted for a bit (nobody had told them what was going on), and nearly started crying again because it was just so damn shitty. Everything’s so damn shitty.
So I got on the road at about 8 am, and get to driving for a bit, but about 1.5 hours in I’m doing bad. I can barely keep focused, despite drinking probably half a bottle of Mt. Dew by this point, so I pull into a rest stop and text my mom “Hey, I forgot my shampoo/conditioner/toothbrush stuff, and also I don’t think I can get home safe.”
Does my mother tell me to take a nap in that rest stop? Nope
Does she tell me to find a hotel or motel there and take a nap/sleep and try again tomorrow? Nope
Does she tell me I can go back to school, sleep through the day, and try again tomorrow? Ha ha fucking ha.
Nope. She calls me, and proceeds to tell me to keep driving, and that she’s going to stay on the phone with me so I don’t fall asleep.
I yelled at her quite a few times, when she was being fucking stupid about all this shit. She had the fucking gall to be pissed that I pulled an all nighter, when that’s what was fucking necessary to meet her stupid fucking deadline.
At one point, I made a new driving playlist so hopefully it would keep me awake better while I wasn’t on the phone (being serenaded... awake? by the lovely voice of Tilian lel (lots of DGD and his solo work on that playlist. Also ATL. Fuck yeah ATL. anywho)). And right after I made that, she ended up calling me before I was driving yet, and I rejected it bc I really wanted to finish my text to the dear bf, and then I started driving, thinking she’d call me back and chew me out for ignoring her, but surprisingly nope. So I just jam out for a bit, and eventually start yelling at myself bc of dumb writing ideas (the original story rewrite... lol) and I end up texting my roommate (while driving... shh) “Hey, feel free to call me if you want to hear me ramble on about writing” So after a short phone call from mum where she hung up to let me drive through a city, roommate calls, and I end up spending the last few hours of my drive rambling at her and mutually bitching about the shitty situation this leaves us in.
When I get home, my dad (a doctor) is wearing a mask, apparently at my mother’s request. He also mentions that we probably shouldn’t be in the same room, according to her. I am also forced to strip everything and shower basically immediately. K, fine, I do so, Dad makes me dinner (despite Mom’s probable disapproval), and I stay awake just long enough to toss my laundry in the dryer. It was a close thing tho. I nearly fell asleep waiting for the washer to finish. And so I pass out at 8 pm central time (9 pm eastern)
Mom, during all this, has fucked off Up North to our cabin, my final destination.
Wednesday, Mom makes me leave our place in the Cities at 11 am to get up before weather gets worse and all that jazz. Once here, I’m allowed freedom for as long as it takes to help mother move shit so I can fit my car inside a garage, then I take the bare minimum inside (my electronics, stuff that would explode if frozen (like pop (and my Smirnoff Ices shh)), travel toothbrush I somehow have and hairbrush), and I’m immediately quarantined to my room and the bathroom down the hall.
So here I fucking am. Bored as shit and pissed the hell off
I needed more time. But no fucking way Mom was going to let that happen.
I could have gone up to my brother’s. But noooo I had to come all the fucking way home, only to be shoved in a room for two weeks.
I could have taken care of all/most of my shit by my fucking self (dishes are debatable, would need basically the whole apartment to sort those out), but nope, can’t take enough time to take a trip up to my brother’s apartment 2 hours away, no way.
Nope, instead I have to suffer a panic attack for basically 16 hours, then nearly kill myself driving, because I can’t stay one fucking day more, because I have to get my ass up here just to be basically shoved in a room and left alone for 2 goddamned weeks. Nope. Can’t fucking make sure that moving out, usually stressful on its own, is as calm as we can make it in these trying times. Nope. Gotta just fucking nearly kill the kiddo instead to comply with my stupid whims because I can’t fucking listen
I’m pissed.
Especially since I was almost 100% sure I was gonna block her everywhere and go full no contact with this bitch after college.
But now I’m stuck here for the foreseeable future! Yay! Can’t see that going badly!
(I’ve already texted the anonymemers to call me so I don’t go crazy and actually punch her. We’ll see how that goes. The desire has been kinda strong all afternoon.)
Fuck
This
Shit
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120 Questions
So this is a thing I discovered and decided to do because why not.
1. Name: Maxwell Allan
2. Nickname(s): Max, RLYoshi, Kidsquid, various puns utilizing the word “max”
3. Birthday: December 30th, 1996
4. That makes you: 20 years old
5. Where were you born: Westlock, Alberta
6. Location right now: Carleton Place, Ontario
7. Shoe size: 13
8. How many piercings?: None
9. Tattoos?: Currently none, planning to get one or two in the relatively near future
10. When you wake up you’re: Groggy and irritable
11. When you’re about to sleep you’re: Probably not actually gonna fall asleep anytime soon
12. Zodiac sign: Capricorn
13. Chinese sign: Rat (really?)
14. Righty or Lefty: Righty for almost everything, but I’m ambidextrous for some mundane things
15. Innie or Outie: Innie
16. School: Caldwell Street Public School (elementary/middle), Carleton Place High School followed by TR Leger (high), Durham College (a single year of post-secondary)
17. Nationality: Canadian
18. Hair color: Brown
19. Weight: Don’t know and don’t want to find out
20. Height: 5'11″
21. Braces?: No
22. Glasses?: Yes
23. Do you have a boy/girlfriend?: Not at the moment
24. If so, who?: N/A
25. If not, do you have a crush on someone?: Eh, not really
26. Who has a crush on you?: How would I know?
27. Ever cheated on your bf/gf?: No
28. Who was your first kiss: Haven’t had a proper one yet
29. Who was your last kiss: See above
30. Are you a virgin?: Yes. Did you expect otherwise?
31. Ever had a threesome before?: No, and I don’t plan to
32. Have you ever been in love?: Yes
33. Broken any hearts?: Doubt it
34. Got your heart broken?: Nope, besides mild and brief sadness whenever I got rejected when asking someone out
35. Ever liked a friend?: Yes
36. What happened?: First one led to a half-year relationship that fell apart because we really didn’t match. Second one led to a long-distance relationship that just collapsed because…well, long-distance relationships don’t mesh well with me.
37. How many relationships have you been in?: Anywhere from two to five, depending on your definition of “relationship”
38. How many were serious enough to count: Two. The other three were single dates.
39. Who were those serious ones: Amber, my girlfriend for half a year, and Chaz, my online boyfriend for a couple months
40. Best boy/girlfriend: Would rather not choose
41. Worst boy/girlfriend: See above
42. Who do you want back: None. We’re better off friends, honestly.
43. Who do you regret: None
44. Who’s your mum?: Diane
45. Who’s your dad?: Nick
46. Any step-parents?: No
47. Any brothers?: Older brother, Schuyler
48. Any sisters?: No
49. Do you get along with your parents?: Most of the time. Usually any arguments we have are because of a misunderstanding and everyone in this house is always too stubborn to admit when they’re wrong, myself included.
50. With your siblings?: We don’t talk much, but when we do, yeah
51. Do you have any pets?: Our house is filled to the brim with cats. Also four dogs.
Favourite…
52. Song: My opinion changes frequently, but it’s usually always a Hollywood Undead song
53. Movie: Alpha and Omega
54. Food: Pizza
55. Drink: Tie between milk and coke, depending on the situation
56. Store: EB Games, I guess?
57. Television show: I guess the Pokémon anime; every other show I watch, I like, but wouldn’t call it a favorite
58. Holiday: Christmas
59. Book: Of Mice and Men
60. Ice cream: Chocolate
61. Sweets: Peanut butter cups
62. Crisps: Doritoes, if that counts
63. Type of music: Literally anything except jazz (too boring) or mainstream rap (completely stupid)
64. Artist: Hollywood Undead
65. Word: ...I got nothing
66. Time of day: Just barely afternoon, still mostly morning
67. Alcoholic drink: N/A
68. Color(s): Blue (and yellow)
69. Piece of clothing: T-shirts
70. Character: Ezio Auditore from Assassin’s Creed II/Brotherhood/Revelations
71. Board game: Clue
72. Sport: Baseball
73. Number: 14
74. Quote: “Sardonic humor is just my way of relating to the world.” -Jughead Jones, Riverdale
75. Animal: Cat
76. Actor: N/A
77. Country: Canada
78. Boy’s name: Raphael
79. Girl’s name: Ashley or Abigail
80. Swear word: “Shit”
81. Month: December
82. Possession: My computer
83. Season: Winter
84. Teacher: Mr. King
85. Subject: Science, when we discussed things other than chemistry
86. Subject to talk about: Video games
Do you believe in…
87. God: I believe one exists, but I don’t really go by any religious definitions
88. Heaven: Yes
89. Devil: See “God”
90. Hell: Yes
91: Bogey man: No
92. Closet Monsters: No
93. Fortune tellings: I’m wishy-washy. Some have turned out to be pretty accurate and not just super obvious, so maybe some people are more clairvoyant than we believe.
94. Magic: I wish
95. Love at first sight: See “Magic”
96. Ghosts: Kinda
97. Voo-doo dolls: No
98. Reincarnation: No
99. Yourself: Sometimes
Do you…
100. Smoke: No
101. Do drugs: No
102. Drink alcohol: I have at times, but I don’t do it anywhere close to consistently
103. Cuss: In real life? Rarely. Online or to myself? Like a sailor who stubbed his toe.
104. Sing in the shower: No
105. Like school: Fuck no
106. Want to get married: Yes
107. Type with all of your fingers: No, only my index ones
108. Think you’re attractive: I don’t think I’m ugly, so take of that what you will
109. Drink and drive: I have no plans to do either, let alone both at once
110. Snore: When sick, yes, but other than that, not usually
111. Sleep walk: I apparently did once, but not that I can recall
112. Like watching sunrises and sunsets: Sunrises, yes. Sunsets, not really.
What do you think about…
113. Classical music: It’s good when done right
114. Boy bands: See “classical music”
115. Suicide: On one hand, it is a very serious issue and is never the way out. On the other hand, because I hear overdramatic people threatening to commit suicide (and NEVER following through) so often, I’m just numb to discussions about it.
116. People who try to force their opinions on you: GTFO
117. Teen pregnancy: If you brought it upon yourself by willingly having underage sex, deal with it. If it happened to you through rape, you have my utmost sympathy.
118. Homosexuality: Regardless of what anyone says, there is nothing wrong with it
119. Abortions: Sort of like “teen pregnancy” above: if you have sex without taking measures to prevent pregnancy, and you get pregnant, don’t get an abortion. Have the child and give them up for adoption. Only get an abortion if your pregnancy was entirely out of your control and you really don’t want to go through the childbirth, but even then I’d still say get it over with and put the child up for adoption
120. Yourself: I’m a guy with skills who’s sick of being the comic relief because everyone else severely underestimates me and/or wants themselves to look better so they exaggerate the slightest mistakes I make. Also, I’m a cynical snarky goofball somehow all at the same time.
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