i held my hand clenched into
a fist as the hurricane called for
me in disappointment. my hand
closed until there was a shape
i could feel in my palm like love
or the way my knees bled as i tried
to pray on a dirt field in paraguay.
i have to believe that this is how
it was meant to end, this book of
my family—far from home, quiet
as the world burns around us. i have
to believe that this is what my father
wanted, needed, no different than
what i’ve sought all my life:
to run to change to disappear so
the nightmares could no longer find us.
back to my closed fist—i will call
this shape i hold a bird and i am
dying because i’m too scared of
suffocating it
Toripiyo ft. Meika Mikoto
Translation by Platonic水を食べる / Free to use with credit and a link back to this post.
これで最後なんて言って
How many times will I always, always
ずっとずっと繰り返し?
repeat something like "This is the end"?
ガラクタの羽じゃ
I can't do something like fly
飛べないなんて知ってるけど
with these garbage wings, that much I know.
それで何度ダメだったって
"How many times was that no good?"
きっときっと繰り返し?
Will I surely, surely repeat stuff like that?
あの頃の夢が
Always, always, surely,
きっと
seeing
ずっとずっと見ていた
a dream of that day
錆びた缶に
The memories of
思い出と
rusty tin cans and
宝物集めていた
treasures that I gathered
忘れないと
I thought that I
思ってた
won't forget them
でもいつか
but one day
忘れちゃうでしょ?
I'll forget them accidentally, won't I?
ガラクタの羽で飛び出して
With these garbage wings, I jump out to fly
真っ逆さまに落ちてった
and then I drop head-first
瞬いた星がいつも
That twinkling star, always
遠くって
so far away
眩しくて
and so radiant
情けなくて泣いたって
Miserably crying,
誰も見ちゃいないさ
Nobody's seen it,
たったひとつ見つけたいのは
The only thing I want to find is
証明を、
proof,
���ここにいる」と!
to say "I'm here!"
かき集めた
Even the memories
思い出すらも
that I've scraped up
いつかはくすんでしまうように
some day they'll become dark,
消えてしまった
and disappear just like that
この羽の
I'm going to lose
想いも無くすんでしょ?
the feeling of these wings too, won't I?
いつか最後見た夢が
How many times will I always, always
ずっとずっと繰り返し?
keep repeatedly seeing that dream of the end?
目を背けたかった
I wanted to turn my eyes away
そんな 事を思い出した
when I remembered such a thing
無邪気に集めていた
I innocently gathered them,
思い出や宝物が
memories and treasures
思い出せなくて日々は過ぎていく
yet days pass without me remembering
無暗に進んできた
I recklessly, of my own will came
夜空の中で
and in the middle of the night sky
揺蕩っていたくて
I want to shake and sway about
大人になればいつか…なんて
Saying "someday when I grow up…" and
結局少しも進んじゃいない!
after all I haven't progressed one bit!
あの頃の僕がいつも
At that time, I was always
煌めいて
sparkling,
輝いて
shining…
「そら」に包まれ消えたくて
I wanted to disappear while wrapped up in the 'sky'
さよならを唄おう
Let's sing farewell,
たったひとつ見失った
The only thing I lost sight of
居場所だって
Since the place I belong,
ここにはないから
is not here, after all
涙に濡れた羽だって
After all, these wings wet with tears
これが僕の羽なんだって
These are my wings, what the hell…
たったひとつ忘れていた
The only thing that I had forgotten
僕は今
I, now
此処に居る
am here
忘れた言葉思い出して
The words I forgot came flowing out
さよならを歌おう
Let's sing farewell,
いつか見た夢をまだ
One day that dream I saw, I still
忘れないで、
won't forget,
思い出して。
I'll remember it.
ガラクタの羽で飛び出して
With these garbage wings, I jump out to fly
真っ逆さまに落ちてった
and then I drop head-first
瞬いた星がいつも
That twinkling star, always
遠くって
so far away
眩しくて
and so radiant
情けなくて泣いたって
Miserably crying,
誰も見ちゃいないさ
Nobody's seen it,
たったひとつ見つけたいのは
The only thing I want to find is
証明を、
proof,
「ここにいる」と!
to say "I'm here!"
かき集めた
Even the memories I
思い出達が
scraped up,
「たからもの」だっていえるように
Just to be able to say that they're my "treasures"
ガラクタだった
and yet they're a piece of junk
この羽で
Because with these wings,
飛び出していくから
I jump out to fly
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