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sampilled · 2 months

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dress i ordered for my uncles wedding didnt fit, might kill myself

#tw ed #<to be safe ig. vent in tags #ohhhhhhhhhhhhh #im so upset about this i could actually cryyyyyyyyy #i have ruined my body #and now i just have to fix it on my own as well #trying to improve my relationship with food and get better from BED #at home #with only youtube videos and tiktok dieticians to help #i might actually kill myself #ive been trying so hard to be positive about this but idk if i can keep it up :|#i tried to talk to MORE THAN ONE mental health professional about it but they all shut me down cuz they were clearly uncomfortable with it #which... whatever im a big girl but why become a therapist if you cant deal with such a common issue WHATEVER #i am eating healthier and im more active than ive been since i was like 13 and its showing #just very slowly #which is good cuz fast weight loss doesnt last and im trying to like meaningfully change and stuff #butttttttttttttt iam going to be fat for the next 2 years at least #and thats with no setbacks and it just feels like :( like sad face emoji #i am going to be fat at my uncles wedding that i DONT want to go to i dont have anyone to bring as my plus one #and i hateeeeee my cousins and im DEPRESSED #but i dont wanna take antidepressants and i WONT #and i feel sick and anxious all the time and ive lost 40lbs but im still FATTTTT #because i fucked myself #i literally used to eat til i threw up #5000 calorie binges every other day and it has lowkey ruined my body fr #not jsut in looks like yea im over weight but in so many other ways too #it wrecked my confidence and im still young enough that my health is mostly fine i just know everything would #easier if i had never done it #and then tried stupid shit to UNDO it like brotherrrrrr yoyo dieting is NOT the move #starving yourself for days then binging is not the moveeeeeee

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hauntedpotat · 8 days

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it's incredibly funny to me that on tumblr you can post the best thing you've ever drawn and it gets like. 3 notes. And then you post a silly doodle from some random surface that you made in like 6 seconds and it's your top post for a month. Why

#I understand the allure of Silly #but also as an artist on here it kinda sucks bc very few people care about the pieces I actually put time and effort into yk?#idk it's like 1:40 am and I need to go to sleep #vent post #does this count as a vent post??#idk tagging just to be safe #art #artist problems #Ig #oc

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daz4i · 6 months

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funniest (/s) irony about my pains is that the only painkiller that actually helps (mostly, not entirely) likely also makes them worse in the long run. i just love having a body and being alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i don't know what to do 😭😭😭😭😭 i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow ig I'll ask him #since i don't have an actual diagnosis yet idk if it's actually a big no-no like it is for ppl with the disease i MIGHT have #but given my symptoms match up and keep coming back despite me supposedly taking medicine to help #i think it's safe to assume i should at least treat my body as if it has it #(also when i say symptoms i mean more than pains like. i mean actual internal inflammation n shit like that)#god. god I'm so tired. i have to take a painkiller every day bc it's just so unbearable #but ik taking them this often isn't a good idea. and i can't mix them up with others bc like i said it's the only one that helps #I'm so so tired of being in pain. and being scared to do basic things my body needs in order to function bc they make the pain worse #fucking drinking water makes the pains worse sometimes 😭😭😭😭 but it's not like i can avoid that #and every source i read said an unstable mental state makes it worse so that's just great.#bro the pains make my mental state worse!!!! this is a neverending cycle!!!!!! i want to fucking dieeeeeee #vent #medical //#ask to tag

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thegabofriel · 23 days

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y'know my old school had us watch a video about autism for austim awareness/acceptance month and that video was *awful*

first of all, stupid muppet character. like this is an educational video not a children's video please make it serious, your dealing with middle schoolers if they see the slightest bit of a joke they will pounce on it (that and I don't really like muppets-)

second, FUCKING PUZZLE PIECES. they put the video in a slideshow and the background of the slideshow was puzzle pieces. vibrant puzzle pieces. eye-searing puzzle pieces (puzzle pieces are used as a symbol by autism speaks. autism speaks SUCKS.) third, goddamn it was loud as all hell. had to wear my noise-dampening headphones all the time at that place, even when it was *supposed* to be quite

fourth, bright colors soooooo many colors! they didnt even work well together! just red yellow green and blue in the most eye-searing colors ever

anyways yah, my school sucked and the video they choose sucked

#autism speaks #tw autism speaks #uuuuuh #autism awareness month #my old school sucked #so much trauma from that place #ALSO FUCK YOU MRS. mOLLAR #(idk if I spelt her name right but fuck her)#also no capital name because she deserves NO respect #hope she falls and skins her knee deep enough to see tendons #<- that also happened to me at that school bc they put the carpet at the edge so you couldn't see the step #...I think this might be a vent actually-#tw vent #vent #ig? rereading what I wrote sounds alot like a vent so I'm tagging it to be safe #oh gods so many tags-

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cupboard-of-npd · 2 days

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You say youre paranoid bc you think someone you dont know well doesnt like you. I say Im paranoid bc I thought my dad was replaced by smth and that if I made one wrong move Id die

We are not the same

#garlic breath #this isnt rly a vent but ill tag it to be safe ig #vent #paranoia #tw paranoia #actually mentally ill #mental illness #this is what i get for indulging in my horror special interest i didnt sleep till daylight

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lofthousezzz · 7 months

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Honestly insane that TikTok has diluted two of my main issues to the point where I feel embarrassed talking to my therapist about them

#tommy.txt #rant #vent ig #more about it here #I have horrific intrusive thoughts about future events that make me believe fully and truly that I'm a clairvoyant #usually about me or someone I love getting hurt and I will freak out to the point of hyperventilating and sobbing if like #I have to go somewhere on my own #or someone I care for is going to do something that my brain has shown me to lead to something horrific #but ummm... delulu teehee I cut my own hair the intrusive thoughts are winning!!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣#I feel even less safe than I have before talking about that shit to people. thanks to these shitfests that have the attention span of a #fucking cockroach. I hope you all die horrifically painful deaths and I'm only barely joking.#🖕🖕🖕🖕 fuck off and die seriously #intrusive thoughts tw #delusions tw #ask to tag #don't want to trigger anything with anyone I just reaaaally gotta get this off my chest

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wildflowercryptid · 8 months

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kinda got smacked by paralyzing fear towards the future of this country and whether i can actually rely on my parents (or 2/4s of my siblings) to be a safe space to go to when the going gets tough... yeah, i think i need to go to sleep.

#sorry to get all serious out of nowhere #i'm not really out irl to my family (2 of my siblings know) and it gets rough hearing them talk about lgbtq stuff #those 2 siblings have said i can come to them if anything bad happens but... they're both new parents and i wouldn't want to impose #this is one of the many things that suck about living in this exact period of time #stuck in one place that's becoming suffocating bc the world's shit and idk how to find a way out #pls don't worry i'm safe & not in harm's way just.... really stifled by my current environment #if only everything wasn't so damn expensive & i had a better job i could start to support myself 😔#okay i'm done brooding in the tags #i'm gonna go to bed and think about kissing women ig ✌️😬#mj.txt #cw vent

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runway-houses-city-clouds · 1 year

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man i just really don't like april fools day

someone showed me something about gorillaz breaking up (it wasn't real, it was an april fools thing)

but like, it made me really sad

gorillaz is my special interest and i genuinely thought they'd broken up :[[

#frustrated rambling under here #i'll tag this as a vent to be safe ig #cw vent #tw vent

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p2ii · 2 years

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liberal barley /muslims/ need to do more to oppress haram-police babies in their communities so i can go to school scarfless in peace istg 🙄🙄

#in slashes so it dosnt show in tags/search #seriously why do they care SO MUCH when its almost always people they dont even like/would care are 'going to hell'#my one safe space. reduced to ashes by a fucking 11 year old 😭😭😭#ex muslim #ex hijabi #kinda #im getting there #this actually infuriates me so much tho #i finally get a sence of choice and autonomy as a highschool senior and now im skirting the hallways like a junior again #incase a fucking NEW S1 sees me #even her ADULT MOM hasnt said a word abt it why is she so pressed lol #tw religious mention #tw vent #terfs dni #ask to tag ig

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plaguedoctoraeneas · 6 months

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My creative writing class is having us participate in nanowrimo. For a grade. If we don’t successfully hit the word count (which has been lowered to 30k, though he’s said he thinks it’s unnecessary) we loose a huge chunk of the points. Which are a Huge Chunk of our grade. Which could make us fail the class entirely.

#doc talks #Hell World.#I’ve barely written anything in literal years!!!!#and I just. cannot do this I can already tell #AND I have huge projects in my other classes so.#sigh #vent #ig that might apply? tagging to be safe

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mialhell · 8 months

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vent post because my friends deserve better and I just need to spill it out

maaan I am just upset now

so yesterday i was going out to buy clothes (my uniform for university) and just before getting into the bus I twisted my ankle. It hurt like a bitch but I didn't want to procrastinate on my uniform so I went anyways

3 hours walking on my twisted ankle because the pain wasn't that bad, I could move just fine, my body was just telling me I shouldn't

so we go home after 4 and a half hours and trying on 6 pairs of pants, I'm walking a little funny but the house is right there. I get home and it's just the tiiiiiniest bit swollen. I stopped moving it and an hour later I tried to walk, it hurt! a lot!

so now I got lectured about how I twisted my ankle on purpose subconsciously because I was doing something I didn't want to do, and how this coincides oh so suspiciously with my grandma breaking her leg and wow I still went and overdid it walking around to make it worse, huh?

why am I even being so dramatic about this? why do I have to make myself feel better? I should just not feel bad about this and fix it, feelings don't fix shit

I'm just the worst because accidents don't exist and the only reason I twisted my ankle is because I wanted to waste money and time

#so yeah tomorrow they're taking my grandma to get an x-ray and I'm hitching a ride with them #better safe than sorry ig #vent post #vent #// vent #tagging just in case

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ghosty-guyy · 9 months

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Ahhhhhhhhhh

I got a new switch, and messed up transferring some my data wrong, for most it was okay but I lost so much shit in minecraft! And my cloud data was from 3 years ago--- im really upset :/

#im not to upset about the money though #just... all my data #all of if #i lost it! until now i didnt even understand cloud data!#so upset...#atleast i have my lucky block worlds? idk im probably gonna delete all my data now #i do not like having those old worlds and its too much of a hassle to delete all individually #vent ish #<- idk I'll tag that to be safe ig

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pleaseshootthejester · 9 months

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So over being sad it's not very cool or fun actually

I'd like someone to hold my hand and stroke my hair please