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#and thats with no setbacks and it just feels like :( like sad face emoji
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dress i ordered for my uncles wedding didnt fit, might kill myself
#tw ed
#<to be safe ig. vent in tags
#ohhhhhhhhhhhhh
#im so upset about this i could actually cryyyyyyyyy
#i have ruined my body
#and now i just have to fix it on my own as well
#trying to improve my relationship with food and get better from BED
#at home
#with only youtube videos and tiktok dieticians to help
#i might actually kill myself
#ive been trying so hard to be positive about this but idk if i can keep it up :|
#i tried to talk to MORE THAN ONE mental health professional about it but they all shut me down cuz they were clearly uncomfortable with it
#which... whatever im a big girl but why become a therapist if you cant deal with such a common issue WHATEVER
#i am eating healthier and im more active than ive been since i was like 13 and its showing
#just very slowly
#which is good cuz fast weight loss doesnt last and im trying to like meaningfully change and stuff
#butttttttttttttt iam going to be fat for the next 2 years at least
#and thats with no setbacks and it just feels like :( like sad face emoji
#i am going to be fat at my uncles wedding that i DONT want to go to i dont have anyone to bring as my plus one
#and i hateeeeee my cousins and im DEPRESSED
#but i dont wanna take antidepressants and i WONT
#and i feel sick and anxious all the time and ive lost 40lbs but im still FATTTTT
#because i fucked myself
#i literally used to eat til i threw up
#5000 calorie binges every other day and it has lowkey ruined my body fr
#not jsut in looks like yea im over weight but in so many other ways too
#it wrecked my confidence and im still young enough that my health is mostly fine i just know everything would
#easier if i had never done it
#and then tried stupid shit to UNDO it like brotherrrrrr yoyo dieting is NOT the move
#starving yourself for days then binging is not the moveeeeeee
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