one of my biggest pet peeves ever is when people beg and force you to consume *their* content (fanfics, art, etc.) but yet won’t touch yours with a 10 foot pole pfffft

PLEASEEEE STOP USING STRICTLY USING HE/HIM PRNS AND MASC TERMS FOR GENERAL F/O IMAGINES PLEASE I AM BEGGING. NON MALE F/OS EXIST. PLEASE

okay so. one thing ive been meaning to talk about in the rpc over the years is. the blatant ableism, sanism, racism & overall downplaying & watering down of serious issues such as cults to the point where nonsurvivors are rly out here making cult jokes which, to actual survivors, are like a massive slap in the face.

that's telling us "you don't matter".

on disabled characters & representation. i& genuinely don't remember the last time i& saw someone with a character who had a mobility aid or a wheelchair... if at all. i& genuinely don't remember the last time i& saw a disabled character actually Talk about their disability if it's even mentioned at all in threads & if it is it's usually a skinny cis white character, mostly cis white male characters, with the disability & fuck me& if there are any disabled characters of color at all.

i& genuinely don't remember the last time i& saw a character go indepth about the ableism & sanism they face. & i'm not saying that a disabled character has to let their disability define them but just like gender & orientation, a disability affects people & this doesn't just apply to physical disabilities. & i'm& not even getting into the way disabled & neurodivergent MUNS OF COLOR are treated, ESPECIALLY if their disability and/or neurodivergence is stigmatized.

i'm& not even getting into the stupid fucking way ppl go around throwing "delulu" everywhere as if they somehow have that right to mistreat schizospec & psychotic ppl & stigmatize us further. no, worstie, you're not fucking "delulu" for wanting your unlikely ship to be canon. no, you're not fucking "delulu" for wanting your crackpot theory to be true. it isn't some cutesy fucking trend you can hop on, theyre serious fucking issues. no worstie you're not "delulu" you're just sanist & hate psychotic people. stop using my& fucking symptoms as a stupid joke while stigmatizing me& for having them. i see a lot of nonpsys (for the unaware: nonpsys are people who dont have psychosis & aren't on the schizospec) using the word as if it's this cute quirky word to describe their fantasies & desires. its. literally not. delusions can INVOLVE fantasies & desires but arent those things on their own. it's not fucking funny to call yourself delusional as a joke & it's definitely not funny to just armchair diagnose people when a) you're not even a fucking doctor, psychologist or psychiatrist or any kind of medical professional & b) it's dehumanizing & c) i'm& betting y'all who use "delulu" have never even actually experienced a delusion, this isn't something you throw around for fun, it's an actual serious symptom with serious consequences for people who experience it. & as a schizospec did system myself i'm& Very Fucking Tired. noah fence but i& don't get delusions that're mostly trauma based & persecutory delusions just so y'all nonpsys can make it into another fun quirky thing & the same shit apply to ppl who use "psychopathic" "sociopathic" & "narcissistic" as an insult when most of the time personality disorders come from TRAUMA. & ESPECIALLY if you're autistic, you fucking know better

also. ppl are like "yeah i support systems!!!! :)))))) except fictive heavy systems, systems with lots of members, systems that share everything about themselves and systems who won't shut up about being systems. oh sorry your did and/or plurality makes me uncomfortable :(((((" i've& had people just. straight up refuse to acknowledge my& system at all & act like everything was fucking fine even when people claim to be my friend & give a fuck about me. my& older sister literally told me& to my& face that i& was lying for attention then she heard i& was actually dxed & she shut her ass up real quick. ive had people literally REFUSE to use our names or our pronouns despite KNOWING we're a system & some of us& were Also talking to these people. even from people who claim to be all like "oh i'm all for disabled people!! i'm all for respecting everyone's pronouns" but when it comes to our& plural ass they shut up real fucking quick. like. it won't kill y'all to ask about the rest of us&, about our& lives, showing us&.. idk, the latest episode of a show we've& never seen or a psd you made or introducing memes to us& & it definitely won't kill you to use an "&" by our names & pronouns or at the VERY FUCKING LEAST refer to us& as "y'all" or "you guys".

as someone w/ undxed aspd i& can tend to be very blunt especially if i'm& irritated. does that make me an evil person? uh. no. i& don't think so. someone w/ a personality disorder doesn't automatically mean an abuser & that goes ESPECIALLY with people with narcissistic personality disorder & antisocial personality disorder. disorders by themselves cannot be abusive. not everyone who's abusive has a personality disorder & even if they did, it's bc of their actions, not the disorder itself. & sometimes people just suck & are downright cunts.

if i& sound irritated its bc i& am. i'm& your local angry mean madcripple tryna tell y'all that this is a rpc. rp COMMUNITY. there are people who see this ableist shit. there are trauma survivors in your community. yes, this is worded aggressively but i& need y'all to understand that y'all Need to be able to engage with the anger of people with more stigmatized disorders & ESPECIALLY trauma survivors w/ more severe trauma & not just when we're being informative or entertaining to you if the rpc's gonna be better.

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unpopular opinion but if you've known someone for many months if not years & you're like friends & everything & you actually bonded & talked a lot about whatever & then you just. block them or cut them off or ghost them for literally no fucking given reason & not even being a decent respectful person & give them a REASON why & not even TRYING to talk things out bc as friends you're Supposed to talk about shit bc you also have a responsibility to your friend to mutually keep things going before fucking off, ESPECIALLY if you KNOW the friend in question already HAS BPD & abandonment issues? uh. you're kind of an asshole & a cunt. lmao

some repo fans r so insanely puritanical given all the wretched content in the canon twitter and myspaces of the characters lol

hello people im in a friend's room rn almost crying from fear because there was a lizard in my hostel room and i will be all alone in that room tor the next few days so i ran away to my friend's room anyway how are y'all doing on this fine day

oh my fucking goddd i thought tumblr took away filtering usernames but no i just spelled it wrong,,, tumblr give a jumpscare warning next time -_-

Hey yall! Mod here!

Unfortunatwly due to personal reasons I won't be answering asks or joining any roleplay from any roleplay atarted from today to thursday evening

Any ask sent in will be answered friday evening

Thank you~

/nbh btw just had a sad moment and taking a lil time to care for myself before i just head in again. :)

hi this is a lot im sorry. i love to say words and dump shit that upsets me with no real correlation. my bad /gen (genuine) (idk if you know tone indicators im sorry ough)

you dont really Have to cook up a proper response to this i just need to put it somewhere where i wont immediately get piles of advice that i cant use. i know its well-meaning but ultimately the whole situation is ou of anyones control

(also putting this 🎪 here so i can try to find it later)

im stuck in a sisyphean nightmare of a weekly cycle: i have a good day -> my mood skyrockets -> i have a bad day -> my mood plummets -> rinse and repeat. at this point i think it might be a mental condition bc something doesnt even really have to Ruin My Day, i just have to face a minor inconvenience and then suddenly im all doom-and-gloom depression for 3-5 business days before springing back up as if nothing ever happened to do it all again. my mom says i might have bpd or bipolar disorder (i always get the two confused) because she has it and we just havent seen anyone about it, mostly because we dont have the money to see any doctors most of the time. i also kinda dont wanna have either of them? not in like an asshole way but in a these-people-face-stigma-that-i-dont-know-if-i-can-emotionally-handle way. in a im already queer and fat and poor and disabled in multipled ways and overall unsavory to neurotypicals/cishets/Default Settings way. yknow

todays inciting incident was a shitty shitty halloween carnival that didnt even have the thing i was excited for, didnt have any food, had lines that were miles long (hyperbole), was too hot, and i only got 8 shitty halloween things from -- half of which were lollipops, with half of those just being the same 2 flavors but Again. we stayed for 2 hours before my mom decided she didnt wanna be out of the house anymore as usual. i cant be too mad at her because shes mentally ill in the direction of "i dont want to go anywhere because my anxiety will spike" but unfortunately im mentally ill in the direction of "if i cannot leave the house to Do Things at my own pace at least once a week i will fall into a deep depression" so we clash pretty bad most of the time. this was also following multiple minor inconveniences mind you. and was also trailed by multiple minor inconveniences. it just has not gone well. this halloween is just shaping up to suck bc i was supposed to have a whole party but we had money issues so it had to be cut down to just 2 people for a sleepover, then one of them went out to see his grandma in another state and the other is apparently in the fucking hospital right now??? at least according to his posts. and i cant blame them for these either! schedules conflict and sometimes you go to the Fuckig Hosital. its out of anyones control but it still feels like shit. so its looking like my only shot at having any fun this halloween is the trunk-or-treat at my school and idk if im even allowed to go bc i had to drop out for mental health reasons and they told me i wasnt allowed on school grounds anymore. idk if that applies here. which btw. way to make a depressed kid feel worse. you can NEVER come to this high school again or we'll ARREST YOU. fuckin bullshit. BUT thats off topic the synopsis is that this halloween sucks so far and i dont really expect it to get better which extra sucks bc im turning 18 next year and i dont wanna let this be the last hurrah for my number one favorite holiday. i cant host fucking parties for my friends after then. im gonna be busy trying to fuck off to the other end of the country. i wont have TIME for it. idk. it sucks. this sucks. fuck art and fuck you /ref (reference) /nbh (nobody here)

Ik you don't want advice for this so I'll just put it on the blog.

And idk if you want it but here's a tea

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what is your opinion on coinpin and leafpin (specifically a love triangle (where pin and leafy already had an established relationship until bfdia and then pin dated coiny in bfdia and then there is a cool interaction in idfb))

this is so long oh god

this is what I'm picking up for the love triangle part if I understand correctly (i'll comment on this later but I don't fully understand love triangles sorry😭)

and if I'm wrong you can disregard the third conclusion section

coinpin:

easily best bi couple right?

I absolutely LOVE all their interactions throughout the whole series, down to their bickering and small comments to each other. In the world of the bfdi fandom, friends to lovers and rare pairs always take the lead in a way.

This isn't saying bfb is poorly written, but there wasn't too much meaningful character interaction or at least development following the interactions in the show. The only times we do get to see it between a pair of characters its always followed by shipping in the fandom because of how little friendly interaction there is outside of the competition normally (firey and leafy arc, pin and coiny's little talk about loser and more, fireafy and coinpin are the most popular ships currently) ITS HARD TO WORD THIS IMSORRY

but imagine it like there's little development outside of the competition (and it's not bad, it's a battle after all) so when characters finally DO have meaningful interaction the fan base loses their marbles whether it's some sort of villain arc or just repairing an alliance because everyone else is so bland (in terms of dynamics and stuff with others I NEED MY TROPES)

but this also gives a reason for these "popular ships" to work together more, because the said pairing would have the most development together if the above is true with the "most meaningful interactions"

back to coiny x pin, I would dub it as a popular ship in the fandom. is it overrated? of course not! I can see how their chemistry works, and there is plenty of canon content with them as a perfect duo.

this is just me wanting to bring up the bfdi shipping issue(?)(not really I just noticed it) I'm sorry again

conclusion: can definitely see it, and ship it myself! one of bfb's fav ships for a reason

leafpin:

YOU GUYS GOT A SHORT ALREADY CALM DOWN/lh/nbh

Their relationship in the series quite literally began on the first episode with them being in an alliance, and I've loved their strange alliance since. I'm not sure if most of the leafpin shippers came in before or after that one short with the two, but their dynamic is great! Also on the popular side due to many different things, but I don't have any complaints about it!

Nothing else to really say, but I'd love it if they interacted again in another short or something in the future!!!! u guys are starved I'm sorry

conclusion: neat ship! love two lesbian gals in love

love?????? triangle????????????

Would be interesting but a little weird considering Leafy is in bfb still and no where near tpot grounds. I assume you mean this takes place in a period where they're still in bfb (coiny and pin make out without leafy during bfdia😒/j)

It'd be good for a fic or something that could be expanded on with its own plot reasons, but I personally don't see the love triangle part! I respect your opinion though and think its still pretty cool!! I can see it with a backstory of some sort, just not from what we already have in bfb.

Everything above does apply since it's just the both of the ships above with Pin in a weird love dorito

btw don't let any of my opinions take down what you think of these ships!!!!!this is just a long ramble about what I think

conclusion: I don't know what a love triangle is

. . .

final conclusion : I think the dynamic between the 3(or 2 each) would be really cool!! works best in fics that could give it some more backstory to how the love triangle came to be + maybe even some fun little headcanons

/nbh is funny because it is nothing like any of the other tone indicators and it probably wouldn't have a slash if it wasn't made during the whole tone indicator boom. (implication that tone indicators are commodities that can be bought and sold. The tone indicator bubble is about to burst!) The indicator has more in common with stuff like fyi and btw

Fictober 2022.5 — A snippet of kill(er)twt

Prompt number 5: "No, anything but that" Original fiction: The Den Rating: T Warnings: death, murder, suicide

This is a sample of me having fun around what will someday become a major feature of the fiction The Den; that is to say the use of a fake Twi inside the text.

Orange Cat (@charlintag) Can’t believe killtwt is dead these days. It’s October? Come on guys, be creative. All I see nowadays are the same recycled threads and nothing new. Even my commissions have been slow lately. Did you all move on? That’s pathetic. Killing Murders (@bestiekill) lmfao why is 0ranj c@t pissy again she has million followers can’t even take care of herself i guess that’s what being a frustrated hitman does to you lolol | Pink (@babybloods) Why don’t you do better? Go ahead and provide the entertainment dude lmfao. Kys ♥ | YOOSOCUTEWHENYOODEAD (@Love_ur_veins) HAHA I’M TELLING YOU GUYS THESE TWO ARE DATING. THEY’RE ALWAYS DEFENDING EACH OTHER. | Pink (@babybloods) kys too. ♥ Orange Cat (@charlintag) So killtwt is now all about gossiping and drama, nothing to do with assassins any more. By the way, you’re shit at censoring names. Do better, you’re pathetic. | Lonely heart (@CHARLIEFANCORE) can i comm you? | Orange Cat (@charlintag) My prices are in bio. | Pink (@babybloods) ‘k | Lonely heart (@CHARLIEFANCORE) fuck I meant to reply with this alt | Orange Cat (@charlintag) Get out of my mentions. Pink (@babybloods) Heart broken,, 💔 | Orange Cat (@charlintag) Maybe add a /nbh next time. Also maybe wait more than a few seconds. You’re pathetic too. | Pink (@babybloods) /somebody here | Pink (@babybloods) I see you liking my tweets, ORANGE. Killing Murders (@bestiekill) 0r@nJ k@t and p!nk are the worst couple out there they should kill each other | Pink (@babybloods) Nooo anything but that waa I’m so hurt (kys) | Orange Cat (@charlintag) Moot stop looking up her own name and then putting it on my killtwt TL challenge. | Pink (@babybloods) You will PERCEIVE me on KILLERTWT. Orange Cat (@charlintag) Clarifying one thing, since apparently y’all like to spread made-up shit. I’m single. | Lonely heart (@CHARLIEFANCORE) can I kiss you then? | YOOSOCUTEWHENYOODEAD (@Love_ur_veins) BYE IT’S PINK’S ALT HAHAHAHA | Pink (@babybloods) No it’s not 💔 | Pink (@babybloods) kys btw ♥ Orange Cat (@charlintag) Logging off for tonight, you’re all annoying me. | Pink (@babybloods) GOOD NIGHT.

Ok I'll say the small ship list I have for Asdivine Saga /nbh

(Btw none of them have confirmed ages I'm just assuming they're all of age) Vyse x Celes, Vyse x Axel, Celes x Nisha, Axel x Feena, any poly ship of these...

There's no one I hate more in this world than ppl who take "ugly" characters and make them/draw them "more attractive". I am going to come to your house and euthanize you.

i love the alt community so much some of you are sooooo toxic tho